dealing with physical aliments while grieving. (widowers journey).

walking in our backyard in Monroe mich. Jan. 11th. 2023. feeling just plain wore out physically. (griefs bumpy spots.)

[@lynny5510]

I feel you! My husband passed away Nov 2021. He and I were only 54 yrs old and were married 35 yrs. I just had dental work done last week and I am still in so much pain. If my husband were here he would be rubbing my feet and taking care of me. I don't have anyone to take care of me anymore. It sure is different. I always assumed we would grow old together and take care of each other. But now I have to do that alone. I wish I could feel better about all of this. But I still struggle to get out of bed everyday. I lost our home and had to move in with my parents and now I live in their attic. It is a stressful living arrangement. I am still trying to figure out what I'm going to do. I was watching Ana Chadwicks channel and she mentioned you so I thought I would check it out. Thank you sharing your journey. God bless.

[@vanlehman144]

I share your pain sir. I too lost the love of my life almost 7 months ago. Her passing was so sudden and the shock of it left me emotionally devastated, not knowing what is next for me. You sharing your story is helping me to navigate this terrible time in my life. Showing me that I am not alone in this journey. Thankyou, and may God continue to bless and comfort you.

[@cindyandlenpresley...6118]

Hello Van Lehman, thank you you for commenting. Leaving just a few words can help others too. Your grief story is one felt by many . Some see it coming, but others like you have a sudden shock. You experience a truma like nothing you have ever felt before. Nothing could have prepared you for this. No one understands how you feel. Except those who are on the same road you are on. I get it, many others too. I'm praying for God to bring you peace and guidance to help you through this terrible journey. I still have my own struggles. We all do . GOD bless and comfort you. 🙏🕊

[@boonicholls6649]

Thankyou for your prayers. I so need someone to pray for me. Someone who understands what l am going through. My husband Ray was my life. It is so hard to face a life without him. I need him so much. It's been almost 21months since l held his hand. For 48years l had him by my side, and we were soul mates. You know my pain. You have a big heart and you care about others in their grief. I know how much you are hurting inside and missing your dear Cindy as l watch your videos. I have the same pain in my eyes as you and the same ache in my heart for my precious husband RAY. God Bless and keep you well🙏

[@jenmidwest2432]

Been having such sad feelings here lately. I so wish the grief would subside ... it is so draining. Best wishes to all.

[@cindyandlenpresley...6118]

Hi Jen, I'm hearing you, it will subside. Some of it will. I hope soon. I go around and around, some weeks are better than they were a few months ago. I looked for where she kept the laundry soap a few days ago. Couldn't find it, so I went and bought more. On a shelf just above the wash machine was all the soap. I must have looked right at it, while searching for it and my mind was not registering its location right there in front of my eyes. How did I not see it. Grief can blind or blank your mind and cause you to function without feeling or seeing what is right in front of you. It drains you of all emotional contact with everyday chores. You look but don't see, you touch but don't feel, you listen but don't hear. And when you're home and speak no one answers . All these things I have felt . And some linger even now. I have improved much since that day. The day. But grief will have to go thru its process. No other way. Asking God to give you his peace and guidance. GOD BLESS...🙏🕊

[@bevroland7561]

Thank you Len.for your videos and your prayers.I lost my husband 4 months ago to this day due to neglect in a nursing home.We were married 52 years wonderful kind man.I like you and Cindy had no children.and the isolation is deafening ..No one calls much or ever visits.Feel so alone.I live in Minnesota where it is very cold so don't go.out and can't drive.I miss him so much.Please pray for me as I will do the same for you.😢😇

[@akfinn5308]

I try to be reasonable, I loved him and now he is not here, and I have to carry on without ..... My grief can come through the strangest things or happenings, but I usually can hold tears in till it is "safe". The grief is so draining I think it is easy to slip away from earth and steps must be taken to stay here and finish out the job. Prayers for us all in this club of grief.

[@jenmidwest2432]

@@cindyandlenpresley...6118 Your words reflect how I feel, Len. I am so lonely and reach out for my husband when I wake up in the morning. I reach for him and I cry...and cry...He always reached out for me too. Len, this is a nightmare at times. Thanks for your kind words.

[@janicemcantyre3360]

@@bevroland7561 Good Morning Bev, I am so sorry for your loss. Understand your pain. I was married to my husband 42 years before his sudden terrible passing at home last February from cancer. I feel so alone, but we did have one daughter thank goodness. Friends I had hardly call anymore. I think they think my grief journey should be over. It doesn't work that way sadly. I will always grieve for my husband I loved so much. If you lived in my town I would invite you over. So sorry for your pain. I will pray for you. God Bless you.🙏🕊😇💕

[@stephm-p2839]

Len, I had a feeling you weren't doing well lately, but Ive kept you in my prayers and all who are in our same situation.. as you said it comes and goes, that alone can be difficult!..Going outside and walking or just enjoying the nature greatly helps me too.. lately I have been having dreams with my husband in them.. it is great to have him there but it takes an emotional toll at times too. His birthday is coming up in February. All those important dates stir up emotion.. anyway just wanted to thank you again for sharing.... Take care and God bless you ...talk soon

[@cindyandlenpresley...6118]

Hello Steph . I'm happy to help anyone if I can. I am glad you tell us of your dreams. It's good while they last, but mine fade some soon after I awake. Sometimes I try to go back to sleep to return to them.so far no luck. Thank you for the prayers steph. I sure needed them these last couple weeks. I'm sure others did too. GOD bless ,pleasant dreams.🙏🕊

[@akfinn5308]

@@cindyandlenpresley...6118 I was ill also and know that we all need the support of prayers, thank you, you all.

[@janetslicer3637]

I, too, lost my husband on the 26th of February, 2022. I watched one of your videos from 5 Mos ago earlier this evening and I wrote a long comment. But when I just listened to this short video, I was shocked to hear the same death date as my husband.

[@charleneware6574]

Thank you for sharing your experience. I have commented before. This weekend was 7 months since my husband of 28 years passed away of a massive heart attack. Life.... .well it's different every day. I moved away from our property to another state. When I switched my driver's license I cried (hard). It felt like I was being ripped further away from my husband, my life!! I am trying to continuely do things that are best for me. It's hard to think of just taking care of me. Thanks again for your videos. Take care

[@maryloufremlin4152]

I read that a person can have actual physical problems due to Grief! Amazing isn’t it But understandable ❤️ Also we can get Grief attacks… sudden sadness due to triggers or just because we are in a grief time , there is no set time of griefs ending ….

[@cindyandlenpresley...6118]

Thank you Marylou for commenting. I look at pertinent facts, that all point to health issues from severe bereavement. I have had some from extreme weight loss. And not enough h2o intake. But that's only part , the rest is a broken bleeding heart from griefs excruciating trauma. It can cause death, In severe cases coupled with the health issues .each person grieves in a different way. Unique to that person. GOD knows what we need. 🙏🕊

[@carolyngraney7833]

Yesterday was my birthday and today is the 1st anniversary of my husband's passing. Needless to say, it's been a rough day. It was nice to see your kitties. I have a black kitty too that keeps me company through my grief journey.

[@clarencehogrefe1220]

Next month will be 2 years since my Beautiful Wife Jan went to Heaven. These different dates are so very hard for us all. God be with you.

[@cindyandlenpresley...6118]

Hello Carolyn, this is a tuff one for you, these two dates are welded together now. How can you think of one without the other. A rough day for you, for sure. I'm glad you are not totally alone , your kitty cat like mine is a great distraction from grief. They keep us going on every day and night. I thank God I have them here.

[@sherryclingenpeel9304]

Hugs Carol and happy birthday

[@sherryclingenpeel9304]

Len..paper plates and wash as soon as you dirty..please pray for me all..went to my daughters for a few days..sure helped.

[@akfinn5308]

I have a black cat also. May the Good Lord help you and give you grace to get thru.

[@beatleme2]

I lost my wife of 13 yrs was together for 4 yrs till 93 n got back together in 2010 to cervix cancer 5 months ago, thinking it was menopause n butt pain 3 mths 8 1 23 I'm surprised I'm still alive, had a bee sting n almost died, no sleep for days went to the doc n put me on antidepressants that made it worse n quit n had to go through withdraws, got addicted to otc sleep aids n never had a problem sleeping ,could take a nap n look forward to sleeping, drink coffee n go to bed, now its only decaf as caffeine reeks my nerves n just now sleeping on my own, if I sleep in, but an answered prayer...omg i miss her :(... no kids ..i have my mom who we were caretakers for, n now its just me, but really shes been care taking for me since, cant hardle drive anywhere go anywhere, due to no sleep... and going through grief in the winter is the worse :.. newyear really hit :(...

[@cindyandlenpresley...6118]

🙏☝️💪

[@perrykapano8610]

I’m right there with you buddy. I’m 5 months in on my wives passing. It is hard at times. I just try to push though it best I can.

[@cindyandlenpresley...6118]

Thanks Perry. One step. Then another. 🙏

[@ehsoule]

6 weeks and 2 days for me, it actually seems to be getting worse at times. I can surely understand about the dishes and getting behind on things and procrastinating. Seems I been doing the bare minimal to maintain. Glad you seem to be doing a little better, I hope to be there one day.

[@cindyandlenpresley...6118]

I glad you are talking about your feelings here. I can tell you that not every one has the same experience in a sequential order. Mine was all over and off the chart. It will take the Time road and your experience will probably be a slow up and down to begin followed by many laps around the roller coaster. Then repeat. Can't explain it any better than that. GOD bless ...you'll get thru this...

[@akfinn5308]

I too have not been able to focus and get it done. But I can see to the ability to work on things bit by bit. Some days I'm happy to get one thing done.

[@Prudence01]

This is not long ago. Please have strength.

[@bride8305]

(HUG) I listened to Ken Hov? too, years ago, he was amazing to listen to, I will Prau for you Len, pray for me, I miss the lpve of my life so much. I walk a lot and thank GOD for 55 years of my hsb who took care of me, loved me, we were always together, worked together, did everything together, thank You lord Jesus for keeping us together, Lord Jesus teach me how to live without the love of my life, I ask in Jesus Name, Amen, so be it.

[@NorthernBell4612]

Like herding cats, lol. Critters can be such mood boosters. Sometimes I think they understand what we're going through better than most humans! Dealing with physical aliments during grief can be challenging. Been there! Hope your tooth gets better! Getting outside also helps a ton with what's going on inside yourself during grief struggles. Everyone has their way of healing and dealing as well as what boomerangs us into to a sad place. It's a reminder of the healing the deep wound needing to be addressed. Like most physical deep wounds healing occurs from the inside out. It's important for us to not give up hope when it gets hard and seemingly futile. Things will get better...it's an adjustment in mindfulness and perspective. It's a period of growth unique to all of us. One step, one day at a time. It's 8 months out for me and I still struggle. One thing that I have come to realize that without regret I gave to my mate the best love, care and life force I had. Now that he's gone I am turning that love, care and life force back towards my self and as I gain strength possibly help others along their way. Thank you for providing these videos and sharing your journey!

[@akfinn5308]

Peg, I hear you. Seven months now for me. Nice we can have critters, isn't it? I get to grow in ways I never thought I needed, now that it is just me and the Lord. Will keep on praying for us all.

[@NorthernBell4612]

Thanks for the prayers for all of us. We surely need them. Critters...they can give us comfort when no one else can. I understand growing in ways I never thought I needed also.

[@cindyandlenpresley...6118]

Hello Peg Bell. Thank you for all you say here. I am very blessed to have recieved so much insight, of the journeys of many like yours. Each journey is unique and painful in its own ways. Though many similarites exist. I know your 8 months has been a ruff go at times and days and nights, just like the rest of us. How could it not be. I have my struggle on a moment by moment basis sometimes. I just don't want to change , into something I was not prepared for. My struggle is between accepting and denying a simple fact, I'm alone. This is the hardest part for me. I don't like it. I try to avoid its attempts to depress me, and drag me into another hole of self pity and hopeless despair. It has happened to many times before. I pray for wisdom and guidance to fight through these very difficult days and nights. Sometimes that is all I can do, and maybe all I need. Having my faith has helped me all along this path, but in the symptoms of my grief, I must make many choices. Do I throw it all out ,which I cannot, or do I embrace it which I can. The choice is self evident. My course is set. I step forward slowly one foot then another. Sometimes the path is wet from my tears yet not always. When I stop to rest, I look back to see my progression. It's then that I begin to see my life is changing without my realizing it. At times I feel I want to run back to my comfort zone. I want those old feelings back. But as I turn back to face my journey once more I realize I can't stay where I'm at and begin to step forward again. My 1st year without my beautiful wife will end at the close of 2 / 26 / 23. Looking back, looking way back, I can see God's hands at work. If he wasn't there for me , I wouldn't be here for him. I give all my thanks to the God of creation for helping me thru this grief so far. And one day maybe soon I can kneel before him and tell him, thank you so much. GODs will be done...🙏🕊

[@akfinn5308]

@@cindyandlenpresley...6118 Yeah!

[@AG-ws9dx]

Hi Len. Time will heal it. God is good.

[@cindyandlenpresley...6118]

Thank YOU AG. Yes he is.

[@AG-ws9dx]

Going to an interview, praying for You.

[@cindyandlenpresley...6118]

@@AG-ws9dx thank you...

[@HummerH3ish]

I've had a hard time during and since the holidays. It was especially difficult going into the new year without my husband. 2-28-2022 was the day I lost my husband, Jimmy. That one year mark is coming up for us and I dread. It doesn't seem that long but it seems like an eternity since I saw him or just heard his voice. Take care. God be with you brother. I understand those indescribable feelings . Hope your tooth feels better. 🙏

[@clarencehogrefe1220]

We are all praying for you and we are all here for you. I wish i could say it gets better , all tou can do is move forward with the Grief and Pain. You should read the book by Megan Devine. Its ok that you're not ok . It may help a little, its is a great book, her Husband went to Heaven 11 years ago. God Bless

[@HummerH3ish]

@@clarencehogrefe1220 Thank you so much. I know others here are hurting and trying to cope too. I'll check on that book. Blessings to you as well.

[@cindyandlenpresley...6118]

Hello Deana, you and I have a trying date ahead , 26th and 28th . I know you feel like I do. Can't stop it, God will help us get thru probably the hardest date of all . Maybe Jimmy and Cindy have met already . God bless and we can talk again soon hopefully...bye for now.

[@akfinn5308]

@@cindyandlenpresley...6118 Thank you that was a nice picture to present. God give us grace and thank you for it!

[@JayP-kd5rc]

You look cold. I have things like that to either burn or shred. Will probably burn in the spring as there is a lot to shred. Black cats are beautiful, my favorite. I would rather have rain than snow, as you don't have to shovel it. I get the driveway done, but still have to do some in the back for my small dog, and clear the deck for the second floor. I keep up well with the dishes. It's the vacuuming and such I get behind on. My mood hasn't been a good one lately either, and Don's anniversary was Jan 5. I have to push myself to just go out to do errands. I hate the cold weather, doesn't help. I hope you are doing better soon.

[@cindyandlenpresley...6118]

Hello Jay P. I don't mind the snow to much its the damp cold that gets me . The constant Grey sky's don't help much either. I know you had your Jan. 5th date. It was a hard day for you. They come at you like a flood sometimes. You will get thru this , just like the rest of us. In time. .I'm always falling behind on laundry and kitchen ect. . I never knew just how much she did for us. I keep pushing myself to get one little thing done at a time. There are days though where I do nothing at all. I can't seem to develop a routine. I'll figure it out sooner or later. We just keep moving forward, one small step. Look both ways then take another one. It's a slow process, no way around it. But God is there to see us through. GOD bless.

[@akfinn5308]

I put on some Don Fransisco music to lift me up toward where home is. It helps.

[@clarencehogrefe1220]

Lens Feb, 18th 2021 will be 2years since my Beautiful Wife went to Heaven. All these different dates we all have are so Very painful. I do totally understand what you are saying about the days, I also have been having some very hard days. God be with you Friend.

[@cindyandlenpresley...6118]

Hello Clarence your 2nd year is just before my 1st. I don't want it come, but have no choice. . . I will get thru . But the anxiety of it all is not helping.. I'm trusting God to help me thru. He will. GOD bless...

[@candidaherron6130]

Hi Len ,. Definitely know that feeling of it being kind of hard on you for the last few days . Been five months since I lost my husband Eddie and I'm tearing up right now . This coming into the New Year brings on an unexpected new kind grief . I'm still trying to put it together . And speaking on alments I know there were some appointments I missed while taking care of my husband . I'm still in the process of finishing Doc. Appointments that have to do with keeping my health together . It's a lot sometimes , trying my best to put it together . Out side is very therapeutic, it looks really peaceful where you are outside 😊 Thanks for checking in with us . God bless you and keep you !!😊

[@cindyandlenpresley...6118]

Hello Candida, good to hear from you. I know you still have your struggles with grief and other things too. I do too. But I'm doing better than I was 5 months ago. It was still extremely difficult to get things done at times at 5 months for me . 10 months now and I'm better but still get those consecutive group of days where it's a struggle to get up and move. I've missed appointments, and now I have them call me ahead so I don't miss anymore. We have to stay healthy. May God bless ...🙏🕊 Eddie's a good name, I like it...

[@candidaherron6130]

@@cindyandlenpresley...6118 oh Len , thank you for saying that , It's a really nice name 😅. Yes I know we must keep up with our health ! I pray for your health as you do for others 🙏🙏🙏 . I appreciate your response 💙

[@williambrown6721]

GOD BLESS YOU MY FRIEND 🙏..IM SPEECHLESS.. WHAT YOU ARE GOING THROUGH IS GOT TO BE THE HARDEST PART OF LIFE!...MY HEART GOES OUT TO YOU! My friend...GOD BLESS YOU!!..

[@dianewilliams5271]

Hope you get to feeling better soon. Thanks for sharing your videos.

[@cindyandlenpresley...6118]

Thank you for your comment Diane. I'm. Feeling better than I was, it will be a better day tomorrow I think. I'm glad to help, God bless. . .🙏🕊

[@toddwalters794]

Thank you for showing the cats gave me a chuckle! I am 3 days from the one year mark. I too had a toothache, it went away thank goodness. Yesterday I caught up on housework and it made me feel good, good I had achieved one little victory. I too have a dish problem, but getting better at being more disciplined and reminding myself that it's just me and the dog now and , it's OK. Thanks as always Len.

[@cindyandlenpresley...6118]

Hello Todd, these cats keep me entertained and give me purpose . I'm glad I'm not alone with neglecting somethings like chores I never did much before. I am getting better , when I do catch up on them it does give an odd satisfaction. I'm trying to teach our cat to do the dishes, but she just stares at me with that dumb look . Better luck teaching a croc. To sing soprano I guess. Hope this first year Ann. Goes well with you. I will have mine next month. I don't want it. Never did. But I will get thru. And you will too. We have to. GOD be with you. My friend.

[@dotthompson9146]

Hi Ken how are you doing so gratefull to you for sharing you’re grief with so many people that are going through the same grief I’m just going through the second year of my grief after losing my loverly son to cancer he was only forty nine the day he died I died he was my world think the second year is worse than the first year my heart as been broken in many pieces I long to see him to hear his voice and to speak to him once more just don’t know how to carry on with this pain so I know how you are feeling right now but take heart len we will be with our loved ones soon may god give you peace at this most difficult time praying for you you are very brave to share you’re grief to help others going through the same agony ❤❤❤love you god bless dot

[@susan4772]

Dear Len, my heart goes out to you and each one that comments. I, too, have felt the numbing heaviness of grief and wondered if it would ever end. You’re right…it is a process and it is different for each person. For myself, I have made a deliberate choice to take God at His word. He has promised that He is working all things out for my good and I am choosing to have a thankful and expectant heart as I wait upon Him to guide me through this new and unchartered territory. God gave me the good gift of a wonderful husband, but he is now gone. Does that mean that my happiness is over? Yes, if my happiness was solely based on our relationship and having him here with me. But, the source of my happiness is in following Christ and joyfully serving Him no matter what He ordains for me. My husband is gone…but Christ is my all in all and my portion forever….HE is my source of happiness. Please don’t get me wrong….grieving is a part of losing someone you love. A very important part. But when we get our eyes off of Christ and focus more on our feelings, that grief can be prolonged in a way that is not good. I hope these words will encourage. That is my prayer.

[@akfinn5308]

I love it, Susan. You could have taken a page from my book. See you in heaven, sister.

[@cindyandlenpresley...6118]

Hello Susan, your comment is spot on an convicting. My faith is the issue for me. It is tossed about in too many ways. I have always fought this. My wife was my rock not my God. I will tell more of my past in future if God allows. But for now I will say that each new trial forces me to choose. Some of us, never seem to waver in faith, I'm not one of the some. My faith has been there, but weakly at best. I have had some strong Feelings of closeness to Jesus before. I have never felt as close to Jesus, as the day I asked Him to forgive me for my sins and save me. I knew he did. I felt so different. But soon after began another journey that would bring me to this time and year. I was 17 years old , when Jesus came into my heart. I was living on the street at that time. Looking back then looking forward to this very day, I see his hand of protection upon me. I have lost almost everything I ever loved and cared for. Especially my dear amazingly beautiful wife. Cindy. . . But now I've started a new journey of griefs design. One that is teaching me of God's love for all. My wife has always been a caring person. Very caring. I've watched her give a distraught stranger a hug , a stranger but not to God. I'm learning to trust in God for my strength to move forward slowly but surely. I have relied on others too long to help me thru this life. Now it's just me and the Lord. I'm learning again. GODs will be done...and God bless !

[@richardellett906]

Once again thank you so much for taking the time to make your videos. Coming up on 14 months here doesn't seem like it's been that long time feels like it's almost standing still. But I guess like everybody else you have your good days and you're bad. Button all you can do is hold on to the dream that one day you'll be with them again. May God bless and take care of us all.

[@cindyandlenpresley...6118]

Thanks Richard for replying again. Time does fly by. Except when your going thru it. Strange how that works. Hope you are getting along with your new life. God has a plan. We just believe in Him for it. You've been here awhile Richiard. God bless you and yours...

[@Nelixca]

I got the flu a month after my wife passed away! All alone for nine days! I was terrible!😊

[@cherylann8292]

Weve been in Mercury Retrograde lately, so since retro means to go back, it usually tends to bring memory back to older people, places and things of the past, especially something thats not settled. I looked up that person you mentioned and i plan on listening to him, thanx. Theres so much to learn in this world. Thats what really keeps me going especially in the rough times. Take good care and keep warm🙏

[@cindyandlenpresley...6118]

Thanks for comment Cheryl. I hope you look up info on Kent hovind. His devotion to God cost him dearly. I'd like to hear your opinion sometime. I hope your doing ok today. God bless...I'm warm

[@cindycrockettbradley5058]

Amen Len and you are sharing your faith which God will Bless

[@cindyandlenpresley...6118]

Thank you amen...Cindy. did I ever tell you Cindy is my favorite name.

[@cindycrockettbradley5058]

Understandable!

[@maryloufremlin4152]

My sister passed 2/15/22 still painful ❤️ grief is a part of Healing from our loss 🌹

[@cindyandlenpresley...6118]

Hi Marylou, you have a very important date coming up , your sister and you were very close. My oldest sister died a few year back. I held her hand with my dad when she passed to heaven. It was also hard to lose her . Many came after her . May God bring comfort to your hurting heart...🙏🕊

[@cindycrockettbradley5058]

Prayers continually. Love your area . Sounds peaceful. Thank you for sharing.

[@cindyandlenpresley...6118]

Thank you Cindy for all your great comments. And prayers. GOD bless you a bunch.

[@julial1450]

First video I seen ty doing video lost my husband of 15 years he been gone for 8 months this year

[@cindyandlenpresley...6118]

Im So sorry for the loss of your dear husband my friend. 8 months seemed like 8 minutes and even sometimes like 8 years to me. I still can't believe how fast and yet how slow time has traveled with me. It is truly a different world when the best part of it was taken away. I pray that God bring you peace and guidance as you walk through the peaks and valleys. He is our strength now and will never let you down. God bless....🙏🕊♥️

[@leslie5139]

My partner of seventeen years passed away in 2021 a day after his passing. I was on the living room couch and my partner appeared and looked at me up and down and then disappeared.

[@clarencehogrefe1220]

I have had many many things happen since my Beautiful Wife went to Heaven.Next month will be 2years. Every day is so very Gut Wrenching Painful and sad. I miss Jan so very very much. Jan is my forever Love. Just keep leaning on us on Lens Videos. We can help each other.

[@cindyandlenpresley...6118]

Hi Leslie. You may of had a vision, I believe they are real. I don't understand all about those things , but God does . Ask him for understanding. I have had a dream before that was indescribable. My wife was there. It was more real than this life I'm living now. I ask Him for another dream like that, but so far the one will have to do . Thanks for sharing, God bless...🙏🕊

[@sandyjohn5837]

@@cindyandlenpresley...6118 That's wonderful that you were able to remember an astral visit from your wife as you slept!

[@leslie5139]

@@cindyandlenpresley...6118 Thank you also Cindy. I will ask God now. Thank you for sharing your vision also. I believe we will see them again. ❤️

[@sunriseschubert4391]

Is like a rollecoaster. Some days I feel bad, some other days good.

[@cindyandlenpresley...6118]

I feel the same sunrise. 👍🙏

[@npenick66]

I'm still very new to this grief business, just two weeks last night. Not liking it very much. It pretty much sucks more than anything that I've ever experienced. I does help to watch your videos between the waves of emotion. Can't watch them when the emotions are stirred up but the calm or numb patches between the waves of craziness are good for seeing what I'll be dealing with in the future.

[@Kaytha.57]

Good to see you out with the kitty. I have a beautiful white blue eye Gerberian sheepsky dog that just won't go away. She's friendly- wish I could keep but don't know who she/he belongs to has no collar. For the love of dogs. Anyways toothache are painful and no meds will help, I know first hand they give you bad headaches and can't sleep. Dentist calling on you soon... God bless you, you look good. That shirt and army green cuff suits you well. My husband had same. I have them around. Memories is whats left. God bless you Len, One day at a time sweet Jesus. Husband five anniversary in Feb... as well. Life is not all roses. It's been tuff.

[@akfinn5308]

Oh, Lord help you, Kaytha. Yes, I noticed his army hat and previously he had on an air force hat. I believe Len is showing his support for our military.

[@Kaytha.57]

@akfinn5308 hello, my husband was proud to be a Veteran. He would ask me to sew patches to his caps. Your sweet. Take care Have a blessed day. I'm sure Len was trying to stay warm. God bless.

[@cindyandlenpresley...6118]

Thanks for your comment Kaytha. Woke up this morning no tooth ache . I will hold off dentist for now. Walked 5miles this morning 6am.. thick fog again . 5or6 days of fog is very strange weather for us. Glad you are doing alright. God bless...🙏🕊

[@Kaytha.57]

@cindyandlenpresley...6118 sunny 77 here. And the mop still in the same place jk. 👍🙏

[@WeepingWidowSueAna]

Ohhh I feel for you... I am the same way... I can't stand the dentist and teeth pain is the worst sometimes! My husband loved Tik Tok. He was always watching those at night. I remember when Kent Hovind went to prison. He was a very smart guy.. we watched his videos in Bible College on the Age of the Earth and the Dinosaurs. Very interesting. Brilliant mind.

[@cindyandlenpresley...6118]

Thanks again for commenting Sue. Hope your doing a little better today. I know your story you share on your channel. It's a hard one to understand for sure. Honestly I don't know how you do it. It must surely be your faith in God and that of your dear husband Geralds. You know without a doubt you will be together again. It is Gods design and plan for that day. It will happen. God only knows when. I know you struggle with your concerns everyday. I'm praying for you and many others too. GOD give you strength and peace. In Jesus name, amen...🙏🕊☀️ my tooth ache is gone ?

[@WeepingWidowSueAna]

@@cindyandlenpresley...6118 Thank you so much. Feeling worse today physically, but I am taking it minute by minute. Really looking forward to that day when we can see our Lord and our loved ones again. Wow. I can only imagine that! Thankful that we have each other as friends to help each other through these dark days. God bless you and YAY for no more tooth ache!

[@user-rx4oy1sh4s]

God help you to feel better

[@cindyandlenpresley...6118]

Thank you 🙏♥️

[@susan4772]

If I had a toothache I would take a rounded tablespoon of coconut oil, a tsp of colloidal silver and a drop of clove oil and swish them in my mouth for approx 10 mins. Don’t swallow! Spit it out and then rinse your mouth. You could do this a few times a day and see if it helps. Worth a try!

[@cindyandlenpresley...6118]

I will give this a try Susan. I don't have any colloidal silver yet but I will ask the pharmacy. Never heard of this before. Thanks for advice . God bless.

[@susan4772]

If you have a health food store nearby I’m sure they would have colloidal silver and also the clove essential oil. I’m praying you get relief.

[@sherryclingenpeel9304]

Hello Len..hope your feeling better.

[@cindyandlenpresley...6118]

Yes, thank you I am Sherry. Woke up feel better. Physically. Hope you are too.🙏👍

[@paulinemanifold436]

Hiya Len , It's always good to see you. I always appreciate you being honest ,real ,authentic,vulnerable ,interesting,empathetic to all of us ,whilst still clearly dealing with your own pain I also always enjoy seeing where you live,thanks for sharing the day to day of your life.Struggles n all. Birmingham (where i reside )is the second biggest city after London. I quite like my urban life ,but escape to the countryside whenever I can . I go to Ireland nearly every Yr to see family My parents are Irish,and moved to England for work back in the late 1950's . We're all so similar in lots of ways despite our different environments ,cities ,states ,countries . I have only been to the USA once -which was the big 🍏 for my 40th Bday in 2006. Had a blast My sister in law is from Waukesha,Wisconsin ,she has lived here in UK for nearly 25yrs However ,sadly we don't get along & BOY have I tried Len !...over the yrs. Her parents though ,are beautiful souls Got on great with them on their many visits to the UK. Hope you're feeling a little lighter in yourself today -how's that Tooth ? Take care ➕ X

[@Kaytha.57]

Pauline your such an interesting person, caught my eye when you said we are all so similar despite... I once had a son, he had Irish blood, dad was from England and later resided in Lancaster pa. He was a Navy dude. All in heaven now. It has to be beautiful to get there sometime when our turn. God bless.

[@paulinemanifold436]

Why Thank You Kaytha, I'm so sorry about the loss of your son & his Dad . Yes, I hope n pray that heaven will be the kingdom that we dream of ...our new home where we'll be reunited with our loved ones again. What part of the world are you in Kaytha ?. Len's channel is the v first place that i have ever commented on . It's lovely to connect with people in such a way ,and comforting sharing your grief with those people we have never met seems easier, kinda therapeutic x

[@cindyandlenpresley...6118]

Hello Pauline, good to hear from you. I'm sorry about your situation with sis. I have a similar situation. I put it in God's hands. I lived in New York briefly. I was 18. I Iived at aqueduct race track. Im going to have to look up Birmingham. Don't know much about it. My dear wife is mostly Irish, with German and some Indian. She was the only blonde in family. My family is mostly German,(east Prussia) and some polish and Irish. Now we're just Americans. And proud to be. I love the scenery in both Ireland and England. That has so much history there. My tooth ache is pretty much gone away, And good bye, don't ever come back....(TOOTH ache)...God bless you and yours...🙏🕊🇬🇧

[@Kaytha.57]

@paulinemanifold436 I'm from the deep south Texas. We have a lovely island 30 miles away. And Space X as well... Your close to my sister in Christ Jeanette she's from Russville Alabama. BIRMINGHAM- ... Maybe I'll visit her one day or either way. Glad we can chat here. Thx to good Len channel and thankyouforyourcondolences. . God bless 🙌

[@paulinemanifold436]

@@cindyandlenpresley...6118 Thanks for your lovely response Len. And was v interesting to hear about yours & Cindy's background/heritage . And that you lived in New York as well ,for a while . I've only lived in Brum ,born &bred However I've travelled alot over the years ,i love Mexico (Caribbean side) been there several times. Take care my friend,speak soon Ps ,Don't worry too much about your chores I'm awful atm ,lacking motivation to get stuff done I'll have a big blitz soon !

[@cindycrockettbradley5058]

I always believed that God knows before I go through whatever. My daughter said Mom said be careful putting your Christian beliefs on Facebook. One day they may put you in prison. I told her then God intended me to share in prison. I’m in God’s hands!

[@cindyandlenpresley...6118]

I sure love you positive thinking. I would join you in prison if that's what God's plan was. It could happen unless we get taken out here 1st. My hope... thanks again for commenting cindy...

[@cindycrockettbradley5058]

Yes our glorious hope in Christ Jesus! I believe He is getting ready to soon return and take us all home! Glory Hallelujah!

[@akfinn5308]

God Bless you, Cindy.

[@cindycrockettbradley5058]

@@akfinn5308 God bless you

[@cindycrockettbradley5058]

Like your Army hat.

[@joanbolin1400]

2/1/2 months for me, lost my husband,it is so hard,love to here you, so we no we are not so slone

[@cindyandlenpresley...6118]

👍🪖

[@cindycrockettbradley5058]

@@joanbolin1400 prayers and hugs. Trust God

[@Prudence01]

Len , Do you know this song - Gavin Bryars Jesus' Blood Never Failed Me I wish I could send it to you but please look for it on KZbin. OK? Prudence x

[@cindyandlenpresley...6118]

Hello Prudence. I don't know what to say. I'm. Almost speechless. That beautiful violin recital had me in tears... I will always remember you for showing me and others this amazing gift... who can explain this in words. I love it. It's what I needed. I will listen to this often. God bless you Prudence. His blood never fails us. I left a comment on it. Praise the Lord.☝️

[@Prudence01]

Len , There is a shorter version, about 4 minutes on - Gavin Bryars A Portrait Jesus' Blood Never Failed Me Yet Prudence

[@cindyandlenpresley...6118]

@@Prudence01 got it thanks...👍👍👍

[@janicemcantyre3360]

Hi Len, I know one of your cats name is Sandy. Did you call one of them Emily? My feral cats all have names and had them spayed or neutered. Trying to keep them warm in the winter. You might need an antibiotic for your tooth. I hope it gets better! I have been struggling lately from losing my husband Charlie. It will be a year on Feb.7 the day we lost him. My mom I lost last year on Jan.15. Year mark this Sunday. I started " GriefShare" last Sunday. I was drained when came home. For some reason my grief seems worse than ever. Yesterday a terrible day. Today better. We have to bring some photos of our loved one this coming Sunday at "GriefShare." We see videos and a a workbook goes along with them. It is Christian based program. It is a 8 week program on every Sunday afternoon. I have been praying to God a lot lately to help me through the loneliness and to give me strength. Looked through photo albums today so many good memories. Hard to do but made me smile at least. Have a blessed night Len! God Bless you.🙏💤💙

[@akfinn5308]

Hi Janice, I get a call from a nice lady once or twice a week and we get to discuss all kinds of topics. We usually pray for some group in the world and end the phone call that way. It is somewhat of a replacement for sweetie because we used to discuss current events and pray. I was given a workbook on grief but it felt like too much work and so I started a journal instead. The writing helps and I'm almost done with the space in the booklet. I may continue writing. May our Good Lord give you that strength and that help to get you through.

[@janicemcantyre3360]

@@akfinn5308 Good morning AK, I have been writing in a journal to my husband daily. I am on my second one. I write about what is going on daily such as problems with the house, our only daughter, my love for him, and issues in the world etc.. That has helped me! 💕We used to talk everyday about the issues going on, our family, health issues he was struggling with and just simple things. Miss that so much. I still put on his morning program he watched every morning. He passed at home suddenly during that show. Thank you for the kind words and hope you have a good day! Praying for you, Len, and all the other nice people on this site struggling in our grief. God Bless you.🙏🕊

[@cindyandlenpresley...6118]

Hello Janice, good to hear from you. I read your grief group is Christian based. That sounds good. I hope they let you tell your story without interruption. We gave each person sufficient time to speak, especially the newest. You have a lot to grieve, so close together, I can't imagine how you feel at Your Place now. You will get thru this, grief support is a big help, especially if you make new friends to do things with. It has helped me. I still struggle everyday, but not all day. My wife's cat,(orange, white and black), is sandy. The three out side are annie,(the mother), then ruthie, (black) then the little runt Emily. I named them thinking that would be the names Cindy would have called them. She passed when they were born. One other died soon after birth, and two others were adopted. My tooth ache is gone, woke up it was gone. 👍🙏🕊

[@janicemcantyre3360]

@@cindyandlenpresley...6118 So glad your toothache is gone. I will tell my daughter the little runt has her name Emily.😊 I am not sure about the grief group yet. Eight people in it. If you lived here would invite you for dinner with my daughter and I. I consider you a good friend although distant. These are our feral cat names: Sneezy, Mouth, Cheetah, Lil Man, Rolly, Shiloh, Freeze, and Mittens!🐈😊Have a blessed day! 🙏💕

[@cindyandlenpresley...6118]

@@janicemcantyre3360 I'm sure your meals taste better than mine. I burned another pan .whoops. I like the name sneezy... Emily's sneezes alot...

[@wildchild5093]

I LOVE THE LORD but people really tick me off and the way our country has been, I just want to stay home. So not me, but now that he's gone I just don't want to be around others.

[@cindyandlenpresley...6118]

Hello Wildchild, loving the Lord doesn't mean you can't get ticked off. If it does, I'm in trouble. Some more than others. I know about our country, it's so different , almost foreign at times. Can't stay locked up at home. Your feelings are going to fluctuate up and down, mine did or do and that's normal for most of US. Jesus won't let you go, even if let go. He is my best friend. God bless...🙏

[@tessurtado5474]

I'm so sorry for your pain , look up tiktoc it's really a China resource to get locations on Americans that's what I am hearing through following the wars and rumors of wars It's China owned I don't know how much everybody gets into that I follow it because I want to see biblically what's going on with Israel and what's going on with the world around me I raise my 13 year old grandson And I need to know what I'm facing being my husband is no longer here I know I blend my sentences together I use voice text and I'm not real great with electronics so I don't know how to do the spell check or the pronunciations unless I do it physically by myself I don't have it in me so blending it it is Lol be careful coming from healthcare like myself back in my day that you don't mention what you have left of your wife's medication that needs to be dissolved Nobody ever tells the spouse that is left behind What to do with all that If you have any kind of insurance and something happens to you and that medication is found in your body and it's not prescribed to you they won't cover you with your life insurance medical insurance anything it doesn't make sense what your wives should be yours vice versa it should be your business but there's a lot of crazy people out there too if they heard that and their Addicts they will come and rob you for that kind of stuff what a sad world we live in and how I know knowledge of all this is sad too but again I raise a 13 year old grandson and I have to protect him So I make sure I'm finding out everything around me my protector is gone but my Lord is here I was just wondering when is your one year anniversary With your beautiful wife's departure Mine is April 1st really it's March 31st But I donated his organs April 1st at 11 0 4 so that's when they called his Death I dont understand it Because they told me he was brain dead the day before on March 31st and they said they called his death when I donated the organs on April 1st but yet they didn't take the organs till April 4th So I don't know what day he actually died in their eyes Mine was March 31st a little bit after 6 o'clock In the evening The reason I'm wondering that I want to make sure I mark that date to be available if you need to talk This is the hardest thing in life that I could possibly face Without your husband or your wife being there you have no one to go to here on Earth that's higher than that you have the Lord And that's amazing But the arms of your spouse is irreplaceable Talk's walk's text coffee breakfast That I love you the laughter That beautiful smile there's no replacing it and there's no healing of it It sucks it absolutely sucks thank God he sent Jesus for us thank God there's a God to comfort us because I don't know if anything else would have worked I hear your sadness and I see how you walk away to go check on The cats they didn't really need to be checked on They're cats survivalist But I heard the tears in your voice where you had to step away I could be wrong and I apologize if I am I've been there too many times day-and-night I have packed and unpacked my husband's things a 1000 times Christmas Day I thought he was gonna show up But he didn't The sad part about Donating organs Is when they put on a helicopter He looked like he was still alive he was still on a breathing machihe was still having a heartbeat sound a breathing sound his body was Warm And beautiful He was covered up with a blanket I kissed his beautiful lips and it just looked like he was taking a nap So when he got on the helicopter his appearance and his body was still alive his brain was just Dead so they say So in my head I didn't see my husband die or pass away I just seen him go away on a helicopter And then a week later come back as ashes but on the good side People lived People lived I hope they survived I'm for donation of organnot so sure about live donation I am alive donor I don't know I feel like I've scrambled this whole thing I've gotta go I'm sorry for your loss and your pain

[@tessurtado5474]

I'm so sorry 26 of February

[@tessurtado5474]

The Lord bottles up every tear that you shed for your wife And just with knowing that 1 thing is more comfort Then anything in this life could give

[@Kaytha.57]

@tessurtado5474 hi tess, I don't know how to start this I'll try, first if all so very sorry for your loss. I know it cuts deep hurts. I lost a son April 10, 22 years ago. My son was brain dead clinically. It was my husband who would say for him to be an organ donor I would say yes bc i was a zombie with a broken heart 💔 traumatized 100 💯, My sons organs were put in a helicopter to different regions to hospitals where the recipients were hospitalized and ready to receive the organs. In this case my child donated 6 or so organs. I have contact with one recipient, she's my sister in Christ actually we have a bond unbreakable. My son died in holy week 22 yrs ago April. If you ever need to talk we can chat here. I too have a tears as I write this down to you. My baby was precious. He was just starting to live my poor innocent child. My husband died almost 5 yrs in February 24... I too have trouble writing been hispanic even my Spanish writing no good. One thing I know God loves us and we love God. God bless you TESS ❤️

[@Kaytha.57]

Just realized after all this years I was out of body feeling. The morning of my son's 8am I woke up telling my husband I had dream him in a coffin dressed in blue, husband said oh I'll probably live longer, to my worst day of my life it was my son who would perish. My dreams and revelations are so vivid and come from the lord. He prepares us without us even knowing it at the time. So much pain so much hurt and so much love ever lasting. God bless

[@cindyandlenpresley...6118]

Hello. Tess . I read and reread your comment. Your very descriptive story is a hard one to read without shedding a tear. Your words are so true and special. I pitchured the scene in my mind, it is different than most. I'm glad you shared this, it will help others too. It's helping me. My wife always told me to not keep my grief inside. I did, but not anymore. Telling of those last or very special moments keeps there memories alive. These memories can bring tears and laughter. That was our lives. One day no more tears. Only happiness. I can't wait. I know you mentioned your gr. Son. God protect you both. Thanks for comment on meds...I've disposed of them . Just wasn't thinking. 👍 I didn't know about tictack. I will check it further. You and grandson, in my prayers. Thank you so much...🙏🙏🕊🕊