I've been there man, one of my ex's was so nice and loving to me. He made sure he would care for me in every scenario and every worry I came to him for. We were together for a little over half a year, just to discover that one day he decided to ghost me for 3 days and then spoke up to tell me that he just didn't want to be together anymore. Shortly after I figured out he had gotten a new partner while we were already technically together, meaning he cheated on me. Not only did I feel heartbroken and betrayed, I quite literally had to walk out of class one day because I was crying with my head down at my desk thinking about him while still dealing with the whiplash from the breakup we went through. The worst part is that to me it felt like he didn't care at all, that he never wanted to talk it out or try to sympathize or anything. I've learned since then though to be truly happy is to be independent with your mentality. I had to learn that I can't rely on someone to make me happy because thats what was truly breaking me all along after the breakup, I thought I needed him whilst he truly never needed me. It was awful. But, be dependable on yourself and do what truly makes you happy and fulfilled, your partner can make you happy and feel loved, but they shouldn't make you feel like you need them to live completely. I'm not saying you're dependent, I'm just trying to say stay strong brother. I know it's rough, I know there's a lot of emotions going through your head, but I truly do believe you can get through this, and that you will be able to live comfortably again without the immense heartache. Love u bro, from one stranger to another :'> Btw I love your beats lol several beats on my channel are inspired from ur work