DID Treatment and Recovery | DID We Make A Mistake?

[@kazifichera9587]

I use to watch you videos constantly I am so happy you are back! Though please remember that if you guys ever need to take a step back again please don’t hesitate mental health comes first.

[@beesbrownies]

Yes same!!!

[@deirdrehbrt]

Functional multiplicity is our goal. I''ve often thought about doing a video, but I'm older, and certainly not pretty, so the idea of doing such a thing is kind of frightening. But there are so many things to talk about - like the constant self-doubt - constantly wondering if the diagnosis is real. This happened just recently, but then I had to read the report of an interview with someone questioning about a traumatic event, and I had absolute evidence of an alter giving an answer that I wouldn't have given. By best friend had been there for the interview and had actually noticed the switch. I'm over 60 years old and was first diagnosed over 20 years ago, and still I have periods of doubt about my own diagnosis. I'm certain I'm not alone.

[@Brooke_Corbyn]

Its comforting to hear your perspective, I am in my 20s and was diagnosed within the last few years, and they cycles of doubting myself make me... doubt myself more. And then I'll discover indisputable evidence again lol. Ty for sharing, I for one would love to hear more of what you had to say

[@benbaker2965]

I think it would be great to see more content from older systems. We are not well represented in social media but we are there. I think what you have to contribute would be. Very value.

[@TheEntropySystem]

I would love to see content about your journey! There are a lot of young-bodied systems that make content on DID but very few mature-bodied ones. I personally actively seek out content made by systems who are older than me, because you have experiences and guidance that no one else does. I think your story is extremely valuable.

[@deirdrehbrt]

@@TheEntropySystem Perhaps I will then. My therapist has got me to do some blogging, and I've done a bit of that, though I haven't spoken about DID there. I've also started a book about my experiences, and as soon as a couple of legal issues are out of the way, early this year, I'll start in earnest on that book, and do something regarding videos. The closest thing that we've got is just one song that I recorded quickly a few years back... kzbin.info/www/bejne/aoeTeI1joc2jfqcsi=Zy12lv2di9TAYe7m

[@theoutersystem2773]

It is comforting to see a adultier adultier having the same questions we sometimes have

[@Sophia-cd2ci]

I was in therapy for psychosis before getting a DID diagnosis, and it was always emphasised for me that the goal of treatment was, at least first of all, to become a functional human. If you happen to be a human who functions while experiencing constant hallucinations - at least you are able to function. I think that I carried that attitude across when the diagnosis shifted to DID. Truthfully, I (and most of the rest of me) very much want as much fusion as possible, but the way to get there (if that's what you want) is via functional multiplicity. In my experience, fusion can't happen when parts don't get along or are denying each other's existence. I do think that functional multiplicity & final fusion are both valid treatment goals, but I can't imagine achieving the latter without working towards the former first.

[@sleepyote]

I have OSDD and was told about the safety part of treatment. I'm an adult, but still live with my parents, which are a part of my trauma.

[@lindaandcherylmason-middle4745]

Ouch, how are you doing with that situation?!?

[@bejaromero2523]

As a system - we’re currently loving our state of functional multiplicity! It really helps me achieve my goals more than I think just living a fully integrated life would, and it makes all of us happy. I’m so glad to see you all come back! I just want to thank you because your channel helped us realize we were a system in the first place and really helped us on the road to recovery. Thank you so much Entropy!!!

[@mysticalturtle9889]

Sometimes I think this too. I think that while the dissociative symptoms can be rough and are definitely difficult to navigate, the benefits are having several different perspectives usually at once. You also get to take literal breaks from living life which again can be hard especially when you lose a bunch of time, BUT you also get the benefit of no one ever being mentally burned out at once

[@tlwf.system]

We were scared to heal because of the idea of final fusion.. tbh a lot of our parts didn’t want to go to therapy if that was the case. We finally, finally brought it up in therapy and expressed functional multiplicity with our amazing psych and she was in awe about how much we had got out that session. It’s like it lifted the protective layer. We actually got somewhere. I think anyone dx with did in treatment should know and have the proper knowledge that there are other options! Thank you for these in advance to any upcoming systems that are in their early days.. it’s a long road getting the proper healthcare for DID and also acknowledging you have it and accepting the help given. This is so important. I remember being so lost when we found out we had parts and it was videos like this back a long time ago that helped us get through it all.. so thank you truly ❤ tlwfsystem 🐺

[@LiEnby]

Sophie is refusing to met me lower amnesiac barriers so I have this problem no matter what

[@tlwf.system]

@@LiEnby that’s frustrating log I’m reading it right. We suffer with debilitating amnesiac walls. So I get it. It’s very hard to live with. But it kept us safe an we are here today. So I’m thankful no matter how hard the journey

[@LiEnby]

@@tlwf.system yep, she says those memories are hers and are none of my business, .. Also like we all think fusion would mean we don't exist anymore *actually I haven't asked Klee about it before* and definitely want to avoid it.

[@3six9_eye_am]

In the last five years I have learned so much about dissociative disorders. I suffered two major dissociative fugues that required hospitalization in 2018. It was a long journey back to stability but I can say I am in recovery too.

[@soccerandtrack10]

I got the place and person 1 because of my family,and had 2 panic attacks too. I dont know if the random weed feel is weed or dissoseating from freaking out because caughfing alot=dissoseation.

[@soccerandtrack10]

Irony because call of duty black ops?,5 years. I think its 1,1/2 years for learning.

[@thecreecher3286]

Fusion scares us because what we will gain over what we will lose if a fusion occurs. There are skill sets we’ve gain by being multiples and if we lose them, then what was the purpose of the trauma. Our system is based off heroes, so it feels like Superman deciding to become average and no longer able to save anyone, including ourselves. I hope that makes sense lol

[@serenediipity]

i think there’s something so nice about being a host and learning to put yourself in the shoes of your headmates. we’ve found that allowing each of us to have hobbies and relationships of our own has helped establish a sense of equality which led to a lot of inner-system healing. for any newly discovered systems who’ve considered trying to get rid of any less savory headmates as an easy way out (don’t worry, i’ve been there) let me tell you there’s nothing more beautiful than seeing a persecutor or a trauma holder develop a sense of humanity for themselves by existing outside of their negative thought patterns

[@Ophiane]

It is so good to see you back. You don't know how fast I clicked when I got that notification. I am a system too and because of the fact that I learned very late in life and was diagnosed very late. I was 51 when I was diagnosed and that was 5 years ago. Actually your channel and a couple of others really sort of helped me to recognize some things that put me on the path to my diagnosis. My goal from the beginning of realizing that this was actually a reality for me has been functional multiplicity because if I'm being honest these guys are my heroes. They took care of me when nobody else in my life would take care of me and so I want us to each have the option to live full lives. I hope 2024 brings amazing things for you I am so glad to see you back and active again.

[@TwitchyBeans]

Our goal isn't final fusion nor functional multiplicity but instead symptom minimization. We might reach functional multiplicity or even final fusion as a by-product of this treatment goal, but for us, we find a lot more validation and sense of accomplishment aiming towards decreasing symptoms that cause us distress. It is wonderful to see you creating videos again, we've missed seeing your face and hearing your thoughts.

[@solitaremagnet]

oh my gods you were the channel we watched back in our teen years when we're still convinced that it was an I not we 😆 we're excited to get to hear more of your insight and hopefully be able to use some of it to make sense of the things we're working through.

[@jamesscarr5819]

something my therapist has been chewing on for a while is the fact that our system causes little to no distress but we also aren't fully fused. We have a formal DID diagnosis from years ago but we still dont have access to all memories or really any detail in our communication besides vague feelings most times, so our therapist has been trying to figure out what that's called. Because we have a system! We dissociate! We refer to ourself as interchangeably singular and plural at any given moment! I think that's a part of research into multiplicity that needs digging into, personally :p

[@hazeld8016]

Yeah that criterion kinda pisses me off. I understand why it's a criterion for other disorders like schizophrenia or anxiety, but just because someone isn't 24/7 terrified of being a system doesn't make them more or less of one. I also think that people have too narrow of an idea of this criterion in general. For a lot of people, they aren't actively freaking out at the possibility of having DID but they continually look into it, indicating that it bothers them on a very deep level.

[@bravebravery]

I have a similar situation-- I am in a system with distinct identities and dissociation, But it rarely causes distress (when it does, it's because of blending or headaches.) and our trauma really doesn't play much of a role in it. We do not have "jobs" or roles, we just kinda exist? And we're happy doing so! But our old therapist just would not take that as an answer and no matter how many times we explained those things, she kept pushing the "Why do you front? What's your purpose in the system?" questions on us each session. It felt like zero understanding or progress was being made. It's because of this that we have stopped identifying with DID and just call ourselves plural with no other context. We've felt a lot better after that change because people won't shove their expectations of "how DID is supposed to be" on us, or try to psychoanalyze us, and we stopped even doubting ourselves too! Whether it is a disorder for us or not, we don't know anymore, but we're not going to look into that question as much as we used to. Sorry that got a bit personal, but I wanted to express that!

[@lacegang9183]

​@@bravebravery That's completely understandable! I honestly wish people would stop acting as if there is a clear cut way that systems, or even just DID have to present. Even the most clear-cut of mental disorders can have very wide variation in how they present, so it would make sense that something as complicated as this would honestly have even wider variation. And honestly, there is nothing wrong with casting aside labels if they don't help. I'm very glad you& were able to reach a better state of mind! (We have a lot of thoughts about this sort of thing . . .😅)

[@lacegang9183]

We are also in a position like that. We've never really experienced much distress from just being plural. Any distress is coming from other symptoms, and largely from other disorders. In fact we were actually very happy to find out that we were in fact plural, and not just imagining things! We're quite lucky we had the therapist that we did, because she did a wonderful job listening to us and helping us through the discovery period. And she was very patient with us when it would take us time to recognize things. She accepted that we wanted to stay plural, and helped us learn how to function better as a whole. Eventually when we were diagnosed with OSDD. I honestly don't think we'd have made it through highschool without her support, and certainly we'd have been in a much worse place. To anyone who's questioning being plural, I hope you can find very good support and help along the. And try not to worry if your symptoms don't match up exactly. It doesn't make your experience any less real.

[@BriCourt]

We get SO much from these videos. The though of final fusion is terrifying to some of us, and even bringing up the topic send them into a spiral. We definitely prefer working toward healthy plurality instead. Fusion would feel like killing our loved ones, or would fundamentally change us, and that's an abhorrent thought to even consider.

[@jackdunn858]

The thought of final fusion has terrified us from day one. We love and support each other. We have only ever existed as multiples and have no desire to change that. Furthermore my belief is that we all went through hell together so why should we not all to enjoy life together. So glad you are back! You were so impactful when we first figured it out. Thank you.

[@Kay_Jay_Pea]

Wow how has it already been 6 years! I've been following you all since my senior year of high school and it's wild to think how much has changed since then. I know things got a little bit much in the "OG" youtube DID community towards the end, but I have to admit I really miss back before all of the drama. I don't have DID, but you and other DID channels helped me understand so much about my own trauma and CPTSD. However much or little you decide to share going forward, I'll continue to support you, good to have you back!

[@princessodonata2729]

9:00 "All alters are equally real and deserving of a validating existence." - YES This has been my experience for healing and my observation of other systems as well.

[@princessodonata2729]

​@user-lc9vo1xp8d DID and schizophrenia are different disorders, thus treated differently.

[@TheEntropySystem]

Funnily enough, my next video is going to be on the differences between DID and schizophrenia! I encourage you to check it out when it goes up. The short answer is that alters aren’t hallucinations. When a person has DID, their 1 consciousness is divided into multiple. Each alter is a part of that consciousness. They’re all equally real parts of one single consciousness, they just have dissociative barriers between them that prevent them from existing in a unified way.

[@trappedinmymind485]

I’ve been loving seeing you guys on TikTok, but I’m so excited to see long form content from you guys again, too!

[@amalel-sheikh4454]

what they have a TikTok acc??? name please

[@TheDarkestShadeOfLight]

You guys are the reason we figured out we were a system, and helped us so much through during that time. So happy to see you here again!!

[@mystical8950]

We prefer functional multiplicity. We see ourselves as our own people. While some of us have come and gone, we work better as a team rather than just as one. We have gone through trauma time and time again so I don't see a future where multiplicity isn't needed. Our host is always struggling with denial but is learning to accept us more rather than suppressing us. I feel like even though we aren't in the best spot mentally right now, we are working together better than ever. Improving communication and keeping our goals in mind has helped us stay on track and work towards a better future. We've been watching your videos a lot recently and it has helped us feel less alone in this world so thank you, we really really appreciate it.

[@Angelic_Dreamz]

Wait, so you guys are officially back?? I'm so happy!!

[@Jynxxy13ravedoll]

Excited for an update. It's been a while hope you are doing well.

[@zenhydrasystem]

Our “ not knowing “ part wanted to collapse all of us into her for a long time. When we also collectively started working toward functional multiplicity we realized she actually struggled the most, so she attended therapy the most. We all worked hard to help her find the right therapist and right modalities. Turned out she had OCD on top of PTSD and that impacted all of us. She decided to dissolve herself amongst us…that’s how we explain it, seems like better suited words for what happened than “ integration “. Anyway, that has been the catalyst for the suppression of our true selves to cease to a great degree. On to a new chapter of better functional multiplicity and a different set of things to deal with together. It’s been a wild ride. Glad to see you back! - Sam

[@NoLOVEinFEAR333]

Love the hair so much! also, I'm/ We're really glad to see functional multiplicity being talked about as an option. For Us, final fusion is not a realistic option; so We are also working towards functional multiplicity (at least I hope that's where this is headed...). and We very much support each system in doing what works for them.

[@alptraum7644]

used to watch your videos when we were just figuring out we had DID, and we're really glad to see you back! for us, i think it's going to end up being a mix of functional multiplicity and fusion along the way. some parts will fuse, others will not. one part is adamant about staying in the body until we die. since he was one of our first alters to split, he was there at the beginning and wants to be there at the end as well. even if everyone else in our system fuses (which, unlikely), he's probably gonna be the last one standing lol.

[@neriumdelusion]

Your channel was a huge help to us when we were discovering we were a system! It’s great to see you upload again, I’m really excited for the video :] your life and mental health comes first though and please step back whenever you need

[@Standridge.Learning]

Ruby, here. It's functional multiplicity for us. It's good to see you're back.

[@MsArmitage]

Long time no see. I'm so glad to see you all are doing okay. It has been a long, arduous road for all of us,it would seem these long years since we saw you last. Stay safe guys.

[@BevChoy]

Our host decided from the start that we weren’t working towards anything except being functional. We love her for that ❤

[@TheEmeraldKat]

Welcome back!!!!! 🎉

[@nasinnarcotics]

So glad you guys are back!! As for final fusion vs functional multiplicity, we see both as equally valid and it really bothers us to see people put one down in favor of the other

[@LiEnby]

Eh? I put one down in favor of another but like only for me

[@nasinnarcotics]

@@LiEnbyThat’s not what I meant????

[@nasinnarcotics]

@@LiEnbyDamn I was rude af and don’t remember replying. Or leaving this comment for that matter. Womp womp. Anyway sorry about that, what I meant was that it’s wrong to try to discourage others from doing one or claim that one treatment option is more valid as a whole than another. Your choices are your own and they are valid

[@madslamuerte]

Oh my gosh, Entropy System is back!!! Welcome!!! ❤️❤️❤️

[@keetyalexx]

I’m so happy y’all are back. You’ve taught me so much about DID and I appreciate it so, so much. You also remain the only people I’ve ever sent anything to - and I still go back to the unboxing video to see the reaction. I’m so glad you’re all doing well, too!

[@Brooke_Corbyn]

Thank youuu, in my journey through getting officially diagnosed i found it very difficult to explain to professionals that my system did not want final fusion, and instead wanted functional multiplicity. Of course the whole process kinda had me in a wreck so it was hard to articulate myself. Its handy that you have a few resources for us and have shared your personal opinion as a system. Ty

[@lostsoulforever18218]

Glad you're back!

[@isabellaamaral7081]

welcome back! we want functional multiplicity, but as you said, some fusions will happen and that's okay. we just want to be functional and live our lives in the best way possible ❤

[@GuiSmith]

I was recently rewatching some of your videos and didn't immediately realise the first time I saw this that it was an upcoming premier. I'm excited for a return here! 😄

[@dandelionsystem]

Your channel and your story about how you discovered your system helped us realize we have DID. Anyway we love y'all returning and I hope you're doing well.

[@goblinguy3103]

Holy! Welcome back! We’ve been missing y’all so much lately and your vibes. I would like to say one thing, which is that “parts” language is ALSO being looked at with criticism! This is because it often makes it sound like we are “parts” of a “real” person. Terms like “members” is being used more often because it validates the fact system members are people! Obviously each system is different, and if they choose to use part’s language that’s their right! We hope this made sense, and just thank you for being a voice of reason when it comes to systemhood :] - SF

[@TheEntropySystem]

Headmates will always be my favorite term

[@fenixmeaney6170]

Welcome back, we love the new hair! Our thoughts on final fusion are that it's not for us, to the point where SOME of us will resist the thought of any fusion out of fear that it's a slippery slope to FF.

[@efoxkitsune9493]

It's very good to see you back. I love that you carefully cited your sources and clearly marked the part of the video where you were sharing your own opinions. I wish more people did that. Take care!

[@maddieb_99]

looking forward to this :)

[@3six9_eye_am]

Yeah! Can't wait to hear how your journey is going

[@singproud22]

Thank you for coming back with these videos! My partner is a system, and your old videos and new ones are so helpful to me understanding some of the basics, while leaving room for her experiences specifically to shine through.

[@pattiwicksteed3731]

Welcome Back! I've missed you guys.

[@DasOrangensaft.]

Hey! So happy seeing you, in the thumbnail alone. Hope you all are fine. 😌 Excited for the video! 🌈

[@SaraiSomeSay]

GUYS!!! I didn't even know you were back! Oh my gosh! We've followed you since we became self-aware in 2019! We had the name "chezvegas system" back then. We're officially NHS diagnosed now and have had a heck of a ride! Found subsystems etc since then....ANYWAY - SO GREAT TO SEE YOU BACK! YEEESSSS!!! ❤

[@Hamusutaru]

welcome back

[@earth232]

Cant wait!! Solo excited, its been a min.!!!

[@quillfell496]

The last time I watched Entropy system I had no idea I was a system. So thankful for the destigmatizing (I cannot spell that) y’all did so I was able to accept it a bit easier.

[@cyrscrystals6256]

We're a diagnosed OSDD 1b system. We originally had decided to go the functional multiplicity route for our healing (at the highest active altar count we had 91 alters), but a year ago after we watched multiplicity and Me's video about they're final fusion; our opinion changed. We all wanted the number down. There are too many of us for us to function properly. We decided on Final Fusion or get as close as we can to it. It’s the only thing we’re ever all collectively agreed on. We want to feel whole. I (the host) I have since October of last year (2023) already fused with four different alters. I’ve gained so much love for myself and new skills that those four alters held. After the fourth one my negative thinking combined with the other alter’s positive outlook. Canceling out my negative outlook, and even giving me a bit of a positive outlook on life. I’ve gained more than I’ve lost. I love all of my system, they’re family to me. When we fuse there not gone there still there just different. The four different alters I fused with are still here; they're just part of my whole piece of the pie we up. If that makes sense.

[@racheld8920]

Welcome back!! I used to watch you so much from like 2018-2020 and you were the one who really started my interest in psychology and the social/healthcare field! Which is now a path I'm persuing in higher education. Glad to see you again!

[@ameliab324]

I loved you guys, I'm so happy you're back!

[@magesystem]

So good to see you guys! You all really led us to exploring our system, and as a host, accepting my parts as their own individuals that have their own wishes. When you’re a host, it certainly can take some getting used to that it isn’t all about you lol, just like you said about accepting that not every alter wants fusion. Glad to see another DID content creator up and running. I want to see this community thrive again! Happy 2024 from one DID content creator to another. - L

[@douglasvincent5925]

So glad you're back, Wyn & co.! I/we have missed your videos! We used to watch your channel a lot back in the day, and you are part of what inspired me to want to do more in my own efforts to educate people about DID. As for your question, we are firmly on the side of functional multiplicity. We were misdiagnosed as borderline for about 10 years, despite the fact that there we already knew about 5 of our alters, and we all spoke directly to our therapists. During that time, they told us that we were "delusions" that had to be merged with Doug if HE was ever going to have a chance at a normal life. We tried to merge, and thought we had accomplished it several times, only to find later that we were fooling ourselves. Eventually, we met a therapist who actually knew about DID and gave us a proper diagnosis, and told us that we didn't have to merge, we could learn to live together as a system. We were so relieved! We have made a lot of progress in the years since, and have never tried to merge again, since it never worked for us. - Leyna of the Douglas J. Vincent system

[@paigeloria7926]

Not dry at all. This was so interesting. I just found Kim Kim’s TikTok like a month ago and then found this, so glad to see you all back!

[@Ashvibes]

So excited to see y’all back! Can’t wait to see what’s in store

[@Russian_lore]

So excited to see content back on the channel!!! Woohoo!

[@ketunpoika]

Oh wow, I had not known there's a section of "discontinuity in sense of - - agency" in the DSM-5 criteria. That's... well, an extremely significant piece of info when considering my own experience. Honestly a source of many of my daily struggles. Thank you!

[@SoulSystem-ff6jo]

I’m happy you’re back. It really means a lot! Thank you so much for being here for all of us out here who are in the midst of system discovery.

[@agressivepushover420]

damn i remember feeling so bittersweet when you posted your last video! its so great to see you back.

[@c-3786]

Your videos have been there for me through my journey and I’m so glad to hear you’re coming back

[@Adara007]

It's nice to see you back! Many individuals with DID find that problematic symptoms have resolved without full integration and they finish therapy at this stage rather than focusing on final integration. It's important that therapists don't insist nor pressure clients to see full integration as the only desired treatment and goal for those with DID. Any permanent integration is achieved as a process and should not be forced. Functional multiplicity is more common than final fusion and both are equally valid outcomes.

[@smokee1325]

So happy to see you back! you helped me really understand my DID and what we were going through. Ive final fused as of August 12 2023 and cant have been happier with all pur progress and effort thats gone into it, and how i manage stress and life now all together as one! final fusion 🎉 functional multiplicity 🎉 uplift both choices and those struggling who arent ready to make the choice yet ❤

[@boopboopscoop]

welcome back, excited to see what you and yours post up here!

[@Dababs8294]

Holy shit i can't believe this. What a gift for the new year!

[@mr_m3lon24]

Welcome back! I used to watch you all the time, so good to see you again :)

[@Sammowrimo]

Yay! I think about you often so happy to see you coming back ❤❤❤

[@marq6929]

It's good to have you back!

[@madisongriffith3283]

OMG! I missed you guys so much!!! So glad you're back! ❤❤❤

[@kierstymiller6305]

'Fan Girl Scream!!!' Aaaarrgh! OMG we have missed you!!! ✌️❤

[@DillyDallysDelights]

Interesting video! Good to see you back on youtube! I always appreciated your grounded and compassionate video style

[@tlwf.system]

My heart leapt when I saw the notification 🥹🙌 so happy you’re back ❤ welcome 🤗 You all were a huge part of keeping us sane when we first had our DID come out to us. We are finally dx and have an amazing psych but it was a co fusing last 8 years. So much love and respect to you all 🧩

[@hazeld8016]

AHHHHHHH YOU GUYS ARE BACK!!!!!!! IM SO EXCITED!!!!!!!

[@PerksJ]

Excited you’re back!

[@TheUhaya]

Oh my god I'm so glad you're back!!!!

[@skye7035]

it’s so lovely to see you all back! thank you all for a wonderful and informative video!

[@kaleidoscopesystem6859]

Love your return, LOVE LOVE LOVE your hair!!!

[@d.-nf6lb]

So thankful you’re back!

[@sadukulelegirl7454]

Welcome back. My system strives toward functional multiplicity. "Final Fusion" sounds really scary to me and I honestly can't fathom how one would keep from fragmenting again when something traumatic happens

[@smokee1325]

I hope with more learning, final fusion becomes less scary, even if you don't choose that path. either path you choose, stabilization of traumatic reactions, better and healthier coping mechanisms, and better safety in life circumstances all play a part in preventing further splits is possible for both those who are functionally multiple or final fused. the ability to resplit is always still possible, but with all these factors, it becomes extremely unlikely to occur

[@sygilloux-v2]

Youre back!! So good to see yas! We're functional with 4 of us, its so different from the last time we saw your vids and not in a bad way. :D

[@Alice83ashla]

So happy you guys are on KZbin. Your guys videos have and will help a lot of people, people who have it and or trying to understand it :)

[@ronmaxwell2408]

I am so glad you posted this! I am a system who has on their own managed to operate in functional multiplicity for years now but I had not heard of any other system doing so nor had I heard a term for it! I've noticed other systems who have tried for final fusion often have a much harder time coping and I could never get why they push so strongly for it. I had not heard a term for multiplicative coexistence but it's where my system has been for a long while now. Glad to see you back and I hope to see more. -The Janus System

[@MaliaMydnight]

When I was diagnosed, so much made sense that I had to debunk the fact I had alters. Backward response, but I just had overcome BPD, now THIS?! Despite how much sense it made, I couldn't take it. Finally one of the soothers came to me and we had a talk, which, did and did not blow my mind. I've always known that as a child I "had friends in my head" that I told NO ONE about (I was raised in a cult, so...yeah), and what I thought was guiding voices or intuition/instincts speaking up. On top of that, I'd built an innerworld when I was a kid, and as an adult, you could trigger me into what I thought was maladaptive daydreaming with so much as a sigh. (No, I'm not kidding. It took literally nothing to trigger me.) I talked to my therapist about it, and wondered if a way to overcome it was possible. She asked if there were people in daydreams, and I said yes, then, she asked if those people replied without my prompting or "making up" a reply for them. I thought about this, as since I was a child these people existed, some changed, some didn't, but, yes, they did have their own responses. That's when it was test time. She asked if I've ever lost time, and I said yes, but to my knowledge, it was only following a horrible and harrowing event that was traumatizing on levels. Just pick your favorite, thats how many. She nodded, and said it be OSDD 1B, due to how strongly these people were, and so on. It all made so much sense, I decided NOPE, IT'S MIGHTY MORPHIN DEBUNKIN TIME! Until the test came back, I made two lists of why I do, and why I don't have alters, and asked everyone under the sun that knew me well if they noticed voice/mannerism/reaction/etc., changes, and all of them said yes and gave detailed incidents. I was floored, to say the least. But during this time, I had an event where I was waiting for my husband to do some quick shopping in the car, and vibing to the radio. "Heart of Glass" by Blondie came on, and I was getting INTO that vibe and I car-danced like no one cared. Then something happened, where I'd titled my head to the left, and part of me fell. I say part, because I was still (later) changing radio stations from the back and forth buttons on the steering wheel, to keep what the other part of me fell into, which was a total dance party. They where smiling, laughing, and we all danced together, while the other part changed stations, almost robotically. It wasn't until my husband tapped on the window, so I could unlock the car. He giggled and said it was cute how into the song I was, and I nervously laughed with some bad vertigo, and just "lol yeah" my way out. It wasn't a rare sight to see me into music, of for which I'm glad because wtf just happened? Wtf was that, and how was the feeling of falling so real? How was I half in, half out? I had so many questions. Thats when the soother came to me, and we talked. I rebuffed her at first, but she was persistent until I was too annoyed to stop her.(😂) She explained they were real, and they just wanted recognition, and freedom from the closed off, blender alter spin they'd all been in. Some were going to be a handful, sure, but that there was a group that wanted to just help. Help me, help us. I said I still needed the test results, and she nodded, said she knew, but to keep them in mind if a tricky diagnosis test said otherwise. It did not. I started accepting them, and while no part of this has been easy, accepting them HAS actually made things easier. I no longer became triggered into maladaptive daydreams, and the group that wanted to help, really has. We rebuilt the innerworld (as per suggested by our therapist, for safety reasons), and they help me, I help them, and we deal with those who aren't as helpful...or nice. One just wants to be left alone, so we just let him have that 😂. It's not easy, and helpful or not, we fight, they fight, upset, frustration and so on. Having others in your head isn't a fun cakewalk at all. But I realized they're parts of me who took hits when I couldn't. I have to love an accept them, all of them, if I'm going to love and accept myself. We're pretty sure I'm the core, as I'm always stuck in the front, and to our knowledge, holds most of the memories, despite them knowing they hold a few or more memories from mostly my childhood and teenage years, but we don't know anything about the lost time after the aforementioned event. All of this to say, our therapist told us we didn't have to become "whole" to be considered "healed", we just had to find a way to work together in a ways that makes us happy, and in a healthy way. We were glad to hear this, because while we don't fear fusing and integration, we also kinda don't want to? We like ourselves respectively, and while it's not easy, we're generally fine with how we are as parts. So thanks for coming to our orgin story TedTalk? 😅

[@aniasparkle]

Nice to see you again :)

[@YourRoyalMajesty.]

You know when you wish for something hard enough, that when it comes true you kind hope you’re just magic? Yeah, that’s me over here right now. Hi Entropy System. Welcome back. You were beyond missed and are very much loved 💖🕯

[@axolotlsinatrenchcoat]

What a lovely start to 2024 seeing a video from you 🎉 the pink aesthetic is immaculate 😎

[@Cosmo-Young]

I’m so excited to see y’all again!!

[@theogygiasystem4729]

Welcome back! We have missed you❤

[@satellite991]

you're back!!! glad to see you making videos again :)

[@mireezwick]

I'm so glad to see you're back! Back when I watched you, I hadn't realized I was a system because one of the parts that turned into me (fusion/integration) was in charge of "not knowing" and just did a lot of psychology research because it interested me. DID was particularly fascinating to me because it didn't have as much information at the time when I watched you, and I've long since stopped watching DID videos because psychology/mental health didn't interest me as much anymore. I also remember being a part aware of the system, so it's a little jarring sometimes to think of the contrasting memories. I'm currently not in therapy because I'm no longer at a distressing level of functioning. Sure, sometimes there's distress but it's been a lot better since I understood why I was having memory problems and allowing myself to trust my system won't fuck my life up. I think it was a lot easier for me in therapy than it would be for others, but I think that's because I don't have as severe symptoms than some, plus I started therapy for this when I was 16 and I made a lot of progress and a solid foundation for communication within the system that I could build on my own. Some trauma's still there, but that's a problem for future me. Oops I rambled.

[@oliviapetrowski4553]

I'm so glad you're back! I missed you

[@alexfraze12087]

Best holiday present ever. We thank you from the bottom of our hearts.

[@emilybump7606]

I was just thinking about y’all the other day! Glad to see you here!

[@CloverLane98]

I’m so glad you are back!

[@weaversystem9290]

So happy you’re back!!!

[@PurpleStill]

Good to see you back!

[@rinny0386]

Welcome back! It's really good to see you posting again. I remember watching your old videos when they were still pretty new, back when we were first figuring out what was going on in here. Your videos were there for us as a system when, quite literally, no one else was. It took us years to tell anyone what was happening, and the first to know was a therapist. We got over so many hurdles thanks to your videos. Thank you so much, and welcome back. I look forward to seeing your new content!

[@Mi6tre66]

This is super exciting!!! I watched your channel all the time! I even recently checked to see if there was anything new since it's been a while. Welcome back, Wynn! ❤

[@daniellefiggins5717]

So happy to see you back doing what you love. ❤️ I look forward to catching up with you. Will you be doing an update video or will you be focusing on the informational side of DID?

[@daniellefiggins5717]

P.S. I hope everyone is well. You look great! And happy.