Do I Really Have OCD? Let’s find out!

[@blackrosesthorn9451]

In my head, I was literally thinking "okay but sometimes the anxiety isn't that bad. It kinda comes and goes which isn't what's being described here. Uh oh." Thank you for transitioning to talking about the backdoor spike right as I was thinking that. I haven't gotten therapy or a diagnosis yet, and I don't expect myself to for at least a couple more years. For various reasons. Watching through these videos have been nice though... Kind of embarrassed to admit that the first one I watched made me cry lol. Which was 'Why Does OCD Feel So Real?' Sometimes I feel like just the fact that I'm kiiinda managing on my own without professional help means it isn't "bad" enough to be considered an anxiety disorder, and thus, that something is clearly wrong with me. I'm a little hesitant to self diagnose but it helps knowing I very likely have some form of OCD. I plan to get help when I can. But for now... It's nice hearing someone who knows what she's talking just offer some informative, comforting words and advice.

[@plantxarmybtsgrowth5776]

This is me 💕

[@rach2.2]

I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again: I don’t know what I’d do without your videos. I have had a really tough time these last couple of weeks. Your videos are a lifeboat when I’m feeling lost at sea. Thank you! ❤️

[@angelicmusic444]

Thank you! It’s so scary when the thoughts feel real mentally, not just physically. I have POCD, and it’s terrifying.

[@ivantsarevitch337]

I feel so ashamed I have my pocd since almost a year and other then online counseling and ocd help groups I never really had proper theraphy?

[@demsxxo]

@@ivantsarevitch337 same I haven’t been diagnosed

[@rach2.2]

19:24, yep, yep, yep! “Everything says if I’m researching this, then I probably have OCD. So if I don’t give in to my compulsion and research, does that mean I don’t have OCD and I’m really just a terrible monster?” 😂😩

[@christinas.3461]

For me it has now switched to “I don’t think this is ocd” to “okay I definitely know I have ocd but I think I still need to leave my relationship too because both can coexist and it has happened to others before.” then this feels so real to me I don’t actually know this time if it’s not real. so annoying and exhausting

[@meeeeeere6020]

I have that with my HOCD too. Like I definitely know that I do have HOCD because I think about it 24/7, but I don't know if I have it mixed with actual questioning. I started worrying yesterday about why I dont worry about "what if this isnt ocd?", because for me not worrying about ocd is not ocd, and that means im in denial. 😂😩

[@Nicolas14215]

@@meeeeeere6020 Same

[@taliajohnson1982]

Absolutely bawling watching this video. I’ve felt so outside myself. I just want my life back. Thank you so much Chrissie. I start treatment soon and I’m petrified. ❤️

[@nickboreham5977]

Thank you Chrissie, I have recently been diagnosed with POCD after struggling for years (decades?) and started therapy but I am plagued with the doubts you talk about. Although I know the doubts are part of the OCD I think that I have had it too long or its too complex... And you describe them so well which is really reassuring, which I know is an OCD trait but I am gradually getting convinced!

[@suleimanabdullahi4646]

I got diagnosed with OCD last week and I still don’t really believe it.

[@thatbrosteve9750]

LOL, im recently diagnosed ocd and she diagnosed me within 2 weeks but yet here I am

[@vegitalian285]

Yep, what if I don’t have OCD and all the crap I worry about over and over again is really REAL! The key though is worrying over and over and over again and constantly seeking reassurance.😢

[@sveticus]

Speaking the truth at 4:30. For me that was the point that the fear of knowing went away. As some others have said “rock bottom is when your reality is degrading faster than you can lower your standards .” When I realized that truth I made my first appointment the same day.

[@Ma-tu2jd]

There is something it is called erp. Yes it’s hard work and takes time but if you do it correctly you will completely recover

[@mariana5133]

This is what I was thinking yesterday! but now I realise I have been thinking about it the whole year.

[@beehive9410]

Your videos help me so much!!! I've never been diagnosed with OCD or anxiety. But I've been ravaged with anxiety and OCD my whole life. I've always been able to live a normal life but personally , a lot of the things I've struggled with and obsessed over is my intense OCD. I hadn't realized there was so many different things that come from OCD. Your groinal response videos literally gave me so much peace

[@stuffz4040]

This explains so fucking much I can’t believe I didn’t find it sooner

[@Lalalala45678]

Really good video! Two days ago I started ERP. It was scary for me but today I feel soo much better.😊

[@wuuw1]

Best of luck with everything

[@rdhulljr]

Chrissie - thank you so much for these, wonderful, down-to-earth videos. What a great service you’ve done for this community.

[@selinderin_karaoke]

Hi Chrissie, I am Turkish who lives in Turkey and I just want to say wish we could,here, also had the therapy option you provide. I love your videos and thanks a lot for the support you give us, people who have OCD. You are amazing

[@rafaburdzy449]

I feel what you feel my OCD changes topics , but the feeling are the same even when I go to confession to great prist who tell my that not a sin. I sometimes get out of confessions and I am happy, but later I think look maybe did not explain it too well , etc and you are face in dual reality yes or no and each of them you try to fide proof even if the ocd part is winning, the not ocd takes some stuff out of context and make it feel real.

[@goldenkevin7698]

I have hocd and im scared to listen to louis tomlinson and taylor swift because the people are saying that if you listen to them ur not straight...

[@goldenkevin7698]

@y2k. diane yeah it’s horrible

[@nikemori2797]

@y2k. diane idk why i cant reply w my 'golden kevin' acc but my ig is wallslouistomlinson if you wanna talk about it

[@nikemori2797]

@y2k. diane oh ok!! me too, good luckk

[@briannarabon2783]

I’m scared to go to the therapy because I don’t want to give too much attention to my obsessive thoughts in fear it’ll cause me to obsess worse and on all of them all at once. And talking about the really awful ones altogether will be too much for my vivid imagination. I feel like I’d almost rather deal with it on my own, try to rationalize or push away each obsessive thought on its own as it comes one at a time....does this make sense? Lol I don’t know

[@TheLiverage]

2 years now with Hocd and well, with therapy Im getting better slowly. It is still hard to watch movies, series, comkcs or books with woman in it xddd That's the thing that I hate most ugh

[@carolinaalvarado8482]

Are you better?

[@TheLiverage]

@@carolinaalvarado8482 yeah, with a good therapist it gets better :) I can watch movies and everything now. I feel.... Free again. Almost 4 years has passed by but, it was worth it. I mean, this is going to be with you forever. But with patience and forgiving yourself and taking good advice from a professional, working on your mental health at home... HODC... OCD will transform in something that sometimes stays with you, that is only by your side just like a fly. But is not you. And it doesn't define you :)

[@carolinaalvarado8482]

@@TheLiverage omg congratulations. Im so sad about it. Im in a relationship and I feel like a liar, the worst girlfriend on earth. Im gonna start therapy this week, I hope its a good therapyst

[@TheLiverage]

@@carolinaalvarado8482 oh im sorry to hear that, but hey, have faith in yourself. And in the process. even if it seems crazy right now. Let yourself be bad right now. Im sure you'll get better some day, thi will pass. And if you go to therapy, the version of you that comes after this shit, is always the greatest :)

[@haydensmith-se3ii]

@@carolinaalvarado8482how r u now

[@StuSiney]

Chrissie you are brilliant!! I been stuck in pocd loop for 25years!! Lots of therapy between but never been able to fully erp. Plus I am soooooooo bored of it. I need support or just someone to remind me what I know.. ty for the video

[@ravenhillrestoration213]

Thank you so much for your advocacy and support

[@julianaramirez7669]

The only positive thing in saying "is just OCD" would be if every person knew what OCD was so if you want to tell your family or your partner, they will say " oh is just OCD" 😅😒😔

[@cscdfalls]

Love hearing ya speak as always Chrissie!

[@alvin55531]

Can someone with OCD never use their logical thinking again, since it might get hijacked by OCD? Or can one never research anything again, since it might become reassurance?

[@-_--bp6nf]

That's the whole ocd talking right now. You absolutely can use logical thinking and research, so long as you are able to manage yourself well. It also doesn't happen 100% of the time, sometimes the OCD won't affect you, sometimes it will. You just need to learn how to react for your desired outcome

[@alvin55531]

@@-_--bp6nf Thank you for your response. I realized exactly what you just said at some point after writing this comment. Whatever is the ritual that's being resisted, my mind always jumps to "can I never do this again in my life".

[@-_--bp6nf]

@@alvin55531 Omg didn't realise you posted this comment 3 years ago sorry 😭 but yeah I do that a lot too, especially when it comes to things surrounding the internet like I have an irrational fear of getting overly attached to internet personas and kept ruminating for months, thought I would never be able to turn on a show again because I'd immediately become emotionally attached to the actors lol

[@di-mh5nb]

The health ones are so hard to give up. Any tips

[@andrewreynolds722]

Who said have to use medication. To deal with your OCD.

[@vanshikakaushik6497]

ANyone suffering from hocd hope I'm not the only one

[@thatboydrew8159]

Here

[@jpdontcare9000]

here

[@korvijmagic8761]

I had hocd in 8th grade it was hell for me

[@alicesky2636]

you saved my life. thank you so much.

[@Ma-tu2jd]

There is something it is called erp. Yes it’s hard work and takes time but if you do it correctly you will completely recover

[@idkucarter4740]

what do you mean about the backdoor spike in regards to orientation ocd?

[@rach2.2]

She means it’s not a very good name for it when you have orientation ocd because “backdoor” can refer to your behind. =)

[@thatboydrew8159]

I got so ocd and i got a backdoor spike and it messeed me up

[@TheLiverage]

How many years have you been on therapy to be this good now?

[@martinjones8544]

is this par tof your OCD ? if I get a "flash thought" as I call them, do you ever extemd the thought, play with the thought ? take it further ? Im not as bad as I was but still not good thanks for the support

[@goldenkevin7698]

thank you!

[@All_love_to_algeria_1]

I love you so much🤤😭

[@elianhonradocruz]

Thank you ❤️