dodie - Hate Myself (Official Lyric Video)

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Directed by
Jack Howard www.jackhoward...
Produced by
Sophie Newton / sophiejnewt
Jack Howard
Director of Photography
Ciaran O’Brien / ciaranobriendop
Edited by
Jack Howard
Colour Grade
Ciaran O’Brien
Captions
Elliot Gough / elliotgough
Could it be different?
did I ruin the day?
oh, do you look angry?
oh, what did I say?
Filling in the gaps
build a problem that
neither of us need
something wrong with me.
I’m getting desperate
losing my mind
how do we get here
every time?
One will fold their arms
one will do the dance
really is no need
something wrong with me.
No, I don’t think I can help it
Oh so illogical, I’m not magical - I can’t read your mind!
but how can you not hear the whole conversation I have sitting still with a brain on fire?!
I know; it’s a me thing
eyes closed, isn’t helping
when you go quiet, I hate myself.
when you go quiet, I hate myself.
look at you sideways
playing a game
what if I laugh now?
I think I'm insane.
Filling in the gaps
build a problem that
neither of us need
something wrong with me.
Pushing a boundary
something to prove
strong expectation;
you already lose
oh, one will fold their arms
one will do the dance
really is no need
something wrong with me.
No, I don’t think I can help it
Oh so illogical, I’m not magical I can’t read your mind!
but how can you not hear the whole conversation I have sitting still with a brain on fire?!
I know; it’s a me thing
eyes closed, isn’t helping
when you go quiet, I hate myself.
when you go quiet, I hate myself.
Give me a mystery
maybe they'll bloom for me
it’s always the quiet ones
…oh something here must be done
I'm open and ready here
I don’t think they get me, dear
I'm only proving how
I'm only worth losing now
Give me a mystery
maybe they'll bloom for me
it’s always the quiet ones
something here must be done
I'm open and ready here
I don’t think they get me, dear
I don’t think they get me, dear
(No I don't think I can help it)
(When you go quiet I hate myself)
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[@marlenes593]

she got to do the 'driving in a car and watching out of the window while pretending to be in a music video' while ACTUALLY BEING IN ONE

[@liz8129]

This comment 😂

[@komaldsouza6725]

Oh wow yes!! The dream:,D

[@fearietales3709]

THATS EXACTLY WHAT I WAS THINKING

[@kinleyanne1124]

that’s what i was thinking!! i was like ah the dream

[@KylieEileen]

She humble

[@offbeatkiki]

SHE BASICALLY DID A VISUAL ALBUM IN A CAR AHHHHH

[@edensylvester13]

yes!!!

[@nbd88811]

All Directed by Jack Howard, He did a wonderful job matching the videos to dodie's beautiful music! 🎶✨🎵🌟✨💖

[@margaretannmorales3497]

IKR HUHU 😭💖

[@petermccormack3277]

Class

[@the-birbo]

i bet this comment is why they made it into one

[@Louisepentland]

Don't think I've ever been more happy for someone spreading out in the back of a car!! xxxx

[@doddleoddle]

Hahahah thank u Louise luv u

[@adamkhan3882]

Xxxx

[@adamkhan3882]

Xxxx

[@adamkhan3882]

Xxxx on

[@theycrochetrats]

That feeling when you accidentally pull someone’s arm off so you decide to throw them out of the car. Problem solved!

[@ellispipermusic]

problem: unbuilt

[@bobthebuilderday6leader]

@@ellispipermusic i love this comment so so much

[@ataribobari]

Yeah happens all the time

[@edanjoan4475]

Dodie got her money's worth out of driving around in the car and I love that for her.

[@anubisunchained]

I’m at the throwing out the mannequin part of my breakup right now can’t fucking wait to reach the last part when she’s smiling

[@bobthebuilderday6leader]

Go you!!!

[@flameprincess7313]

I'm at the verge of pulling an arm off, and it's not really a break-up because I'm not official with this guy, just getting real sick of mixed signals 😂

[@bobthebuilderday6leader]

@@flameprincess7313 I honestly relate with this so much. It's so tough to rip off the arm, and I just sort of did it too. I too just stopped trying so hard for this girl that I'm unofficial with. We deserve better, but it still hurts to do so. One day, we'll be like dodie grinning in the back seat. But for now I'm still torn.... :')

[@kaylynross6078]

I love that

[@valo.9425]

she's living all of our dreams: look out the window in the car while in a music video

[@doddleoddle]

Legit

[@ananyajadon2745]

I don't know if it's the "filling in the gaps, build a problem that neither of us needs, something wrong with me" or the "oh so illogical, I'm not magical, I can't read your mind. But how can you not hear the whole conversation I have sitting still with a brain on fire" or the "when you go quiet, I hate myself" but somehow she managed to put into words the EXACT inner workings of an overthinker in a relationship AND IM HERE FOR THE ATTACC

[@bethanedlin]

Slight Human music video vibes with dodie trying to get a guy she built/mannequin to fall in love with her 😂

[@lordor317]

I love how happy she is after literally throwing someone out of a moving car. I'm so here for it

[@mirandom22]

This feels like an abusive relationship I was in. Any little thing would become a big issue, I felt that I was always being scolded for something that I couldn't figure out. It lead me to feel like there was just something inherently wrong with me. They'd berate me and then go silent and I was left alone with my self blame.

[@sari9645]

Felt this. Are you away from them now? Cause I assure you, you deserve better than that in your life

[@amritajeremiah]

Girl, same. I hope you're in a better place now.

[@rebeccainel3520]

This comment is what I was looking for, so glad someone else related in this way, I hope you’re out now 💕

[@orakachee]

Love the acting! Also: 2:56 "Goodbye Daniel!" 2:59 "and your little arm, too"

[@Unh0lySpectre]

Not a reference I expected to see here lol

[@camillajulien1103]

This is the most authentic possible illustration of how it feels to lose a toxic partner.

[@foxteef9602]

this lyric video specifically feels like the biggest power move it's so silly but also have a pretty deep meaning this WHOLE ALBUM FEELS LIKE A MUSICAL AAAAAAAHHHA

[@sadboiabby2551]

As Meg says in Hercules "No man (or woman) is worth the aggravation"

[@joz-]

The mannequin, for me, is the feel of talking to someone and just not all understanding what’s happening and maybe even getting frustrated because you feel like their not at all understanding or seeing you

[@flynnryder3943]

Imagine driving down the road just to see Dodie fling the top of a mannequin out of her car and drive away lmao.

[@lyla951217]

As catchy as ever, with lyrics that speak directly to my anxiety riddled brain.

[@rea_keebz]

even ur lyric videos have to add so many layers of meaning huh dodes

[@ewurama8833]

the manequin gets to sit in a car with dodie and can't even at least smile? wow 🙄

[@hahaok7244]

It would be really scary if it smiles

[@MrsPossible1]

This is so scarily relatable in a way I can't explain

[@JustabitofEmz]

this is complete art. i need the bloopers though !! skdkskjksdljskl

[@talyahrachel]

this is LITERALLY magnificent, what did we do to deserve a little series of lyric videos that are basically music videos in themselves ugh im so happy

[@yaboi3912]

the pained acceptance on her face in the first verse but also looking like if she goes a liiittle bit further she might cry,, WAHH THE ACTING TALENT edit: omfg the smile when she leans into the now-empty space where the mannequin was, iCONIC

[@psalm8306]

This is exactly how it feels like when you offended someone and you don't even know the reason. They sit there doing nothing, saying nothing. Making you want to hate yourself.

[@snehapradhan5591]

I think I've anxiety (not been professionally diagnosed) and I relate to this song so freaking much. The line "When you go quiet, I hate myself" is so so simple and yet so fucking effective cause omg SAMEE 😭❤️❤️

[@ashleyyrain]

god i can’t WAIT to hear this one live and jump around with everyone and scream the words, it’s gonna be so fun

[@Catguard69]

Why did I started sobbing when she spread out in the seat. This is too real

[@lilac_teriyaki]

OH GOSH I JUST REALIZED THE "HUMAN" CONNECTION! 😮 congrats dodie and jack and hazel and everybody involved in the making of these videos! this is a masterpiece!

[@megb7675]

this song hits for me, I got ghosted by a guy I’ve been speaking to for 8 months and I still can’t seem to let him go or think of all the things I must of done or said wrong

[@valerieblackwood9777]

Same girl! Just forget about him…you will be able to move on, I promise!

[@leonies.6211]

it´s so maddening to be ghosted... when you cant get an explanation and a satisfying ending. i feel like its one of the most difficult feelings to endure

[@camhelene5089]

I love all the homages to dodie’s old songs and videos, the manikin her reminds me of the human music video, etc.

[@TheRealGSmith]

This level of cuteness really makes me mad at the person who makes her hate herself.

[@sarahann74]

This song describes such a specific emotion and yet it’s so incredibly understandable and relatable. I literally feel like I’ve been waiting for this song to describe this emotion my entire life!

[@AngelBeatsOtaku666]

YO THAT TWIST IN THE END IM LIVING FOR IT

[@AShoutIntoTheVoid]

The moment she puts her head on the lifeless mannequin's shoulder hit me like a ton of bricks. What powerful imagery.

[@rainbowlemon]

I love coming back to this and remembering how awful it is to be in a toxic relationship with no communication! So thankful I've moved on from that stage of my life.

[@almostded325]

I don't think I've ever heard a song that properly explains this kind of dynamic in a relationship and it's so painfully uplifting, I couldn't be more grateful that this exists now.

[@jonschroedinger8360]

Never thought Id find a new favorite artist in a Bo Burnham comment section. Lovely music.

[@tailortelhais1744]

So expressive. Captivating. Evocative. Especially the "talking" part and the part without the dummy. Love it.

[@camilauhhh6683]

I love how all the music videos are in the car lul

[@winslow8779]

THIS ONE. THIS CERTAINTY IN DODIE. YES.

[@winterwolf1111]

Omg dodie the actress these are AMAZING

[@07awb]

Love how she's smiling and driving along at the end, like she's moving towards something better 😊 one of the best songs on the album!

[@beeveearr]

The acting is amazing, I could feel it when she kisses the mannequins cheek and turns back with the frustrated and sad face because it's not responding

[@priscavillarosa2489]

Dodie spoiled us with these... they're beautiful

[@autumnmarilyn5216]

As someone with intense rejection sensitive dysphoria, when someone does go quiet I do hate myself

[@ewurama8833]

I can imagine someone going for a walk and seeing the pieces of a manequin on the floor and go "it's dodie again isn't it?"

[@winterwolf1111]

I LOVE THESE SO MUCH

[@zuzpager]

"But how can you not hear the whole conversation I have sitting still with a brain on fire" just hits home sooo much and it makes so much more sense now that I'm figuring out I probably have ADHD. Like that's literally what it feels like when there's an unexpected silence in a conversation.

[@Jess-zm5xt]

I relate to this so bad as someone who’s a horrible self critic and gets anxious people pleasing behaviors when people get mad at me or expect something of me without telling me. Just expecting me to cater or know what they need when they don’t communicate their needs. It feeds the cycle of self hatred and anxiety when you feel like a failure or that you should be some super human that never makes anyone mad ever. And when you’re Internally so afraid you hurt someone, bc you perceive them as being angry after sensing something is off but you can’t tell if it’s all in your head or not. The social anxiety and walking on eggshells gets so exhausting. Sometimes getting out of that place and realizing you’re only human is so freeing.

[@bethkennedy_x]

filming these from the back of the car is SUCH a clever concept I love it

[@jorrit_trickz]

And this one's just a BOP

[@pandagirl432]

It's funny cause Dodie lyrics always blend into each other to me that I don't even know what's going on but I get all the feels and totally get it

[@EmilyHoot]

the mannequin is so inspired because like. it doesn't matter what someone says or does, if you're going to overthink something and create a whole problem in your head, you're gonna do it, regardless of reality. i do this all the time, haha, the person in the other seat just looks different time to time. i imagine they're mad at me, and it becomes true in my head, and then i get upset with them for no reason and throw the whole person out LOL

[@saumyasawleshwarkar8259]

no im losing my mind thanks dodie x

[@chaoticacademic6558]

The visual metaphor in this one-- I can't !!

[@SA-oe1ep]

whenever I listen to this song, I don't think of this being about a lover. I just imagine dodie's character sitting at a dinner table with her parents and this song being about her relationship with them. especially the "when you go quiet, I hate myself" and "neither of us needs something wrong with me" and "strong expectation, already lose".

[@EvA-is5ed]

Dodie's face is so amazingly expressive.

[@SeerOfTime577]

I love all of Dodie's expressions in this one!

[@copelandjames2034]

UGH THIS IS GENIUS

[@lexislyx]

Uha00q00

[@icraigg]

3:04 that mood change was great!

[@anaismorrissey-higham8060]

this song is every social interaction ever

[@kinleyanne1124]

i never knew you could use a car in so many ways to create beautiful music videos

[@beadiaz9068]

this is so good WHAT congrats dodie and jack

[@alexwilliams5223]

Two lyric videos in one day and an album release dodie ur spoiling us❤

[@claireabbot2847]

ALL OF THESE ARE SO GOOD ITS SO UNREAL...charming and funny and heartwrenching AH

[@jackiemiller6209]

This is basically an anxious/avoidant relationship. Yup i get it.

[@danielmarkwolf]

Such a talent!!! 🔥🔥🔥 This is such a wonderful and powerful video. A++++

[@jjdoesntlikeyoueither]

i love how both this lyric video and the normal music video gives the same idea but uses different metaphors like dodie is smart with her music videos.

[@bethkennedy_x]

the one dislike is the mannequin

[@your_pal_Frost]

How rude of it xd

[@sabrinavandevoort5808]

there are eight mannequins now, not the vibe

[@femboy9561]

Her voice is so calming, and the album is filled with straight bops! This one has to be one of my favorites ngl

[@mikab.4838]

Awww dodie's smile after throwing out the mannequin is precious skdhskdhdk

[@kyleejeanf]

I giggled at her grin there at the end. Your so wonderful, your so magical, you can read my mind!? Don't go quiet. I'll hate myself. Beautiful album dodie. Mad props and congrats you radiant human you. Thanks again for sharing 💕

[@smileyface702]

Can we talk about Dodie's acting skills?! Love the visual concept here. Really adds to the lyrics.

[@Aneldermillennial]

This collection is like a lovely but intensely thought provoking road trip

[@carelbester9456]

I have been listening Dodie songs for a very long long long time And her songs is stuff I want to say to people but the thing is I never say it to people because it's almost like it's my deepest deepest secrets And that thew thing that makes her music amazing Thank you @doddleoddle for being you and helping us in everyway that I know you could not even imagine!!!!

[@marlenes593]

I LAUGHED SO HARD I LOVE THIS

[@knuffeltuff1421]

Thank you for writing the music that makes me feel less alone with my "constantly-on-fire-brain"

[@bittersweetmax]

what a treat

[@kinleyanne1124]

love this one’s message

[@royalbirb275]

I feel like this applies to so many different situations for introverts it’s magnificent

[@FlowerUruguay]

She’s so creative 🤍

[@TheLonelyFeather]

this song always HITS.... all those relationships (and friendships ) that made me feel like perhaps i'd have more luck talking to a mannequin

[@safyrea368]

Damn this song and mv almost made me cry I love it so much

[@amyisaway7800]

oh my gosh dodie's acting is incredible.

[@stevenapril67]

Your lyrics are phenomenal. Your video is highly entertaining. Conversing, arguing with, literally dumping a mannequin, insanely brilliant. Thank you for entertaining

[@jessi822]

i have chills

[@kapanlulusya]

Could it be different? Did I ruin the day? Do you look angry? Oh, what did I say? Filling in the gaps Build a problem that Neither of us needs Something wrong with me I'm getting desperate Losing my mind Oh, How do we get here Every time? One will fold their arms One will do the dance Really is no need Something wrong with me No, I don't think I can help it (Nope) Oh, so illogical I'm not magical, I can't read your mind But how can you not hear the whole conversation I have, sitting still with a brain on fire? I know it's a me thing Eyes closed isn't helping When you go quiet, I hate myself When you go quiet, I hate myself Look at you sideways Playing a game Oh, what if I laugh now Think I'm insane Filling in the gaps Build a problem that Neither of us needs Something wrong with me Pushing a boundary Something to prove Strong expectation You already lose Oh, one will fold their arms One will do the dance Really is no need Something wrong with me No, I don't think I can help it Oh, so illogical I'm not magical, I can't read your mind But how can you not hear the whole conversation I have, sitting still with a brain on fire? I know it's a me thing Eyes closed isn't helping When you go quiet, I hate myself When you go quiet, I hate myself Give me a mystery Maybe they'll bloom for me It's always the quiet ones Oh, something that must be done I'm open and ready here Don't think they get me, dear I'm only proving how I'm only worth losing now Give me a mystery Maybe they'll bloom for me It's always the quiet ones Something that must be done I'm open and ready here Don't think they get me, dear (When you go quiet, I hate myself) Don't think they get me, dear Give me a mystery Maybe they'll bloom for me It's always the quiet ones Something that must be done I'm open and ready here Don't think they get me, dear (When you go quiet, I hate myself) Don't think they get me, dear No, I don't think (Don't think they get me, dear) I can help it (Don't think they get me, dear) No, I don't think (Don't think they get me, dear) I can help it (When you go quiet, I hate myself) (Don't think they get me, dear) No, I don't think (Don't think they get me, dear) I can help it (Don't think they get me, dear) I don't think (Don't think they get me, dear) I can help it (When you go quiet, I hate myself) No, I don't think I can help it

[@ardillaspordoquier9]

its not right how much i can relate to every word of this song just WOW

[@andrew4363]

1:51 “Oh, did they see that? I hope not, I’m just gonna put this back...”

[@rainy__days]

I LOVE HER SO MUCH OMGGG

[@ThePerezHilton]

SO GOOD!!

[@bibi-tn4gb]

omg dodie really feeding us

[@vlockasnehova7043]

I just wanna say... her hair is beautiful...

[@klaudia5117]

Queen ♥️

[@aineiru]

I LOVE THIS

[@Sophie-fx3tq]

A great album for exploring and recovering from complex trauma Dodie 🖤🖤

[@elli2162]

I have never related to a song more in my life wow

[@wescal4]

This is brilliant. Another (much older) equally brilliant music video: “goodbye” by Plankeye 👏👏👏

[@rwsaldrich]

I really want to give her a hug when she looks so sad