my crazy mom forced me to run for miles | STORYTIME

[@dorkbait]

Thank you guys for tuning in! I have really been enjoying posting every Friday! I want to talk way more about this topic in detail because there are so many things my mom did during this time that you guys will find SHOCKING and entertaining. Let me know if you have any questions and I will answer them in my next video. Be kind or else!! - Jesse

[@Miles-ox3ub]

ME

[@GoliathEndoFreddy]

Ello, just a question. Has your mom ever found any of your social media accounts in some way?

[@AlexSander-em8mj]

I have questioning disorder(self-diagnosis is my intro)

[@Tobytramproductions]

I love your little doggo plushies they are cute

[@rosiemaughan2996]

Are you telling the truth

[@urfaveva-ei8hm]

"why does no one care about the kid?" soooo real

[@ShowerWithSocks]

Because many don't view kids as people. They are property. Pure potencial. Not a being with needs and emotions and problems

[@shannonk2557]

It breaks my heart that you didn't have anyone in your corner when you where a child. I know I have no right to be proud of you, I'm just a stranger on the internet, but I am proud. You have come so far. Keep going, I'm rooting for you.

[@dorkbait]

brb gonna cry in the shower

[@shannonk2557]

​@@dorkbaitNo! If you cry, I'm gonna start crying, and I get all blotchy when I cry. Seriously though, I wish I knew you irl. You rock Jesse!

[@XFD42069]

@@shannonk2557we seriously need more people like you.

[@childeofepickness]

@@shannonk2557if you BOTH cry I’m gonna start getting hysterical in here ok so don’t

[@MeadowPurr4]

@@childeofepickness If all three of you cry i'm gonna break down

[@Itgirl888]

Hey so happy you can finally do along videos❤

[@dorkbait]

omg me too!! they are so fun and feel so much more interactive than the shorts.

[@GETGOOPED]

just curious, why could they not in the first place?? i've only found this channel from yt shorts i know nothing

[@Editzwithbean]

Yeah same could you explain why please!?

[@Itgirl888]

@@GETGOOPED he didn't know where to film it

[@Itgirl888]

@@Editzwithbean he didn't know where to film it

[@asarishepard8171]

im so sorry your mom put that much pressure on you. when i got to high school, my mom asked if we wanted to do sports or anything. by sophomore year, my sister and i used wanted to hang out. so she didn't push us into anything ^_^;;;

[@dorkbait]

i really wished i could have hung out in high school and not had to compete all the time. grades and classes were pressure/tiring enough.. i am still recovering from the burnout from that and its been almost eight years since i quit running! xD

[@asarishepard8171]

@@dorkbait i hope you're doing well now :) its always cathartic to tell stories!

[@Esme-m3n]

The fact that a MOTHER can put that much pressure on her own child and treat them that horribly shocks me I’m so sorry you had to go through that❤️

[@TurtleTime21196]

Tyson is so cute!

[@dorkbait]

RIGHT!! he laid there the entire time i filmed. such a good boy.

[@Codename-Thefox]

How's Nugget​@@dorkbait

[@dorkbait]

@@Codename-Thefoxthat is tyson chicken nugget in the video. he’s doing good! 😊

[@Codename-Thefox]

@@dorkbait cool

[@loe2504]

As well as she is

[@tinx8402]

Jesus, I’m glad you’ve found your space now

[@RockyRoles]

My mom was fucked up to, but I’m glad it was never that bad. Anyway I hope you’re healing from all that’s happened. I hope you know we’re here for you always. ❤

[@THETRUEAMIR]

My mum was sometimes messed up but never that bad (Mine is a great mum)

[@Th3yl0v3d4n1]

when i heard the pain in ur voice my heart broke some people like ur parents dont deserve to have kids i hope ur doing well jesse u deserve everything

[@Koda1103]

The more and more I hear about your mother, the more happy I am that you were able to get away from her. She sounds like a total monster.....I am so happy that you are safe and happy Jess

[@MolTheTroll]

Omg that’s horrible. It can really show just how lucky some people are to have good families… im so sorry that happened to you - your mother should feel sorry for making your childhood all about her! I hate people who make their child/ren do the things that they can’t do anymore.

[@Projects1430]

Dork you don’t deserve a Netflix show you deserve a whole damn streaming platform

[@Joedirt3349]

FR

[@Cold_front]

i feel bad about how u had to grow up but i hope your enjoying at what ur doing now and shine on :3

[@ShilohxSimmer]

It made me break down and start crying when you mentioned how you were undiagnosed and shouldn't have been in regular classes. I'm the exact same way, I can't do math off the top of my head, struggled until I dropped out of highschool and have guilted myself for it ever since, and I'm still not properly diagnosed. When you said that I just felt very seen and like someone finally understood, but at the same time I am so so very sorry that you also had to experience that.

[@amberproctor3996]

Me too!

[@ShilohxSimmer]

@@amberproctor3996 it really be like that huh🥲 I'm sorry for your experience

[@DodoBird-mf7lu]

No child should have to go through this. Your coach and mother did not deserve you, you should've had much better. you are amazing and don't let anybody say otherwise.💗💗

[@ugh-abby313]

I love your channel so fucking much!!! You’re my favorite.

[@jarenkoelzer1994]

I just found your channel. I have NPD parents also, lifelong survivor here. You are a force. So proud of you for sharing your story. Keep being a badass, you are helping so many people along with healing yourself. Much respect.

[@stars4foru]

I’m so sorry, i feel so bad for you! No one should be treated like the way you have, I’m glad you’re more comfortable but I can’t imagine the trauma you went through.

[@gaylehaeffner9595]

My heart breaks for your lost childhood. You are so strong to have survived both damaged parents! Keep talking to us. The emotions you are sharing is giving your younger self the freedom to vent. You may need to review & review & review the trauma in order to process all that happened to you for you to heal. ❤

[@Joanthebrightone]

I’m exhausted just hearing about all that running! It’s ridiculous the pressure in kids these days. The whole society is off the rails with narcissism.

[@DestinyHope-jz9fw]

I love the outro transitions 😭

[@wrathofgrape3634]

Why tf did this actually make me cry.

[@Popthebop]

Sendings hugs

[@JtheNinja7]

please do more of these long storytime vids! theyre always so exciting to watch!

[@toadstool_the.b3st]

POST MORE PLEASE, THESE LEGIT CURE MY DEPRESSION

[@NeymarGuyy]

Hate to hear that, but I'm glad you're doing better now and far away from her ❤

[@TheSapphireSprit]

You are a wonderful person. Your mother had many, many issues and unfortunately didn’t work on them herself. Be proud of yourself and learn how to love yourself.

[@Catz4lifez]

I’m so sorry that your mother had put so much pressure on you. It’s not fair, you’re you. Not a mini her. I’m sorry that you couldn’t experience more. I’m proud of you for doing better and having fun, now. You’re literally the best content creator! One of my faves. Probably 2nd. I’m sorry that you also tried to uhm…. K1ll y0ur$elf. Please don’t. I and lots of other people love you and your videos ❤

[@RainbowChipWishes]

Dear soul, please know that there are those of us out here who do not listen to your past horrors for entertainment value. Sending you love, light, and peace ♡

[@Allie_Victoria]

'i felt defeated before i even stepped up to the line' jesus christ

[@farawayxgalaxy]

These stories help us feel less alone. Thank you

[@Itgirl888]

your room is do cool and your cat is sooo cute

[@faithfullilac]

i was enrolled for the most intense piano course ever bro. i had to complete like chapters of my books per week and perfectly play multiple new pieces in like 2 weeks. my mind was going through a whole new world and because i was a ‘genius’ i had to stay. my mind was completely overwhelmed but because i was a ‘genius’, i kept up surprisingly pretty well. i just had to dedicate my life and maybe sacrifice some of my school life to become a PIANO TEACHER. honestly i’m not surprised i wasn’t led along the trail of becoming a doctor. at least it was something i was good at? anyway, i quit and now i suck at piano cuz it js reminds me of how much i had to go through

[@impagain]

Im glad you're able to release some of this pent up trauma and get it out there. I'm sorry it hurt you so much, you deserved so much better.

[@m_libu]

I'm not really a video commenter but I am feeling like it today! I've been subbed to you for a bit on my other account (that I only use on my phone) but I saw your first long form video pop up on my fyp on my laptop and I clicked on it and loved it. your long form content is amazing and I subscribed to you on here so every Friday I could have something to follow along with and I haven't even watched the video yet idk I just really love the way you tell stories. I'm sorry the context of them is traumatic but I'm glad you're in a safe space now.

[@dorkbait]

aw thank you. i hiope to tell other storytimes that are less traumatic as well, like the time i got into a fight at college or dumb things i did in high school. now that i think about it every story might be slightly messed up but i think that just makes them better. anyways, i'm rambling. i love that you subbed and that you enjoy my stories enough to leave a comment! i enjoy talking with people about this stuff. thank you for the support.

[@Bethlam]

This is one of the reasons why I refuse to force my kids into ANYTHING. The minute my kids are not having fun it’s not worth it for me. It’s not you! You ARE good enough! Actually you ARE BETTER than good enough you are perfect the way you are and should be proud of your accomplishments. I hope you are going to therapy. Therapy is not a dirty word. I wish I could have been your mom. I would still have the shrine to you because I would have been proud of your achievements for YOU. I don’t take credit for how great my kids are I’m just blessed to have amazing kids. Hang in there, kiddo. It does get better.

[@s.k.5845]

When your voice broke my composure did too, I'm so sorry about the horrible upbringing your "mom" put you through, she's a disgrace. I hope you're able to heal from all of this.

[@xxlukacouffaine2001]

I literally scream of happiness when you upload. Your stories and your personality are so pure. But the best part is that you still try to make it funnier for your audience. Keep being beautiful. And keep doing what you doing bc it helps a lot of people realise how lucky there are to have what they have.

[@leslie6189]

JESSE, I hear you. My friends mom... And dad... We're both abusive... And when she went away to college she was victimized further by her coach. Coaches can be great, but they can also be evil power freaks. I'm so sorry you went through that with your coach.

[@DuperDude45]

I'm sorry for what you've been through, no person should ever go through something like this, especially someone of your age, but i truly mean it when i say i'm impressed by how well you've just seemingly recovered from all this mistreatment and trauma. Those 250k subs appeared for a reason, we're here for you, keep going you got this. 👍

[@T_Barb]

I just can’t believe all you’ve been through. I’m so sorry. You didn’t deserve any of this.

[@michellemorris2888]

I am so sorry for all you have been put through. As a mom, I cannot imagine watching my child hurt this much let alone causing their pain. My heart hurts for you. Sweetheart, I am so proud of you for being so strong and so brave! Speaking your truth is helping other kids in similar situations know they are not alone. Hopefully, it is helping to educate us adults in how to help too. Thank you! Sending a virtual hug

[@KathytheMama777]

This completely breaks my heart. I had a narcissist mom and an enabling dad. When I hear this my heart goes out to this sweet person. I know how they feel. It’s so sad no one stood up for you sweetheart, but please know you’re not alone. ❤

[@Kateosaurus]

Bro your stories sound so familiar, my mom is a literal psychopath. Is your mom on youtube? there is this channel called Estranged Parents and the lady gives me the scariest vibes, lol. Good for you for Surthriving!

[@MUSHY_MOO]

I am so sorry you have to go through all of this trauma. I watched your other videos and I am so sorry. Your childhood sounded like shit which you don’t deserve at all. I’m so proud of you for making it this far!

[@Kiko_animations]

I can only somewhat Imagine what your moms thought process was…she wanted a straight A’ed, good in sports and so perfect child that it was incredibly unachievable, she probably just wanted an excuse to punish you and control you…man I’m really happy your doing somewhat better, not all parents deserve children but all children deserve parents amen to that!

[@Cap_Briggsy]

I bet even he WAS the perfect unachievable child, she would STILL find a reason to punish him.

[@ElizabethPerez-kb1xz]

The more way you put on someone’s back,the slower they run

[@sidneysmith3426]

I can’t help but think of my own mother. I’m glad you are able to talk about this and heal from it. I think people in general put so much pressure on kids because of society and the pressure of succeeding and “making something” of one’s self. Especially as a woman she probably felt like she needed to pressure you because of how much harder it is for women to be seen especially back then (I know you go by he/him I am assuming you were she/her please correct me if I’m wrong) but I’ve been realizing this about my own mom and family that this pressure of success is really screwed in and it’s based about wanting to be heard and seen and noticed, important enough to leave behind a legacy. The reality is life is what you make it to be

[@lavenderstarzzz]

sorry the title just made me think "i used to run for miles, i used to ride my bike i used to wake up with a smile and go to bed at night with a dream"

[@taylorhope4651]

My mom was abusive in different ways, but its always comforting hearing others stories

[@augusaurus]

Keep holding your head high and pushing through hard times. We all are here for you, forever & always. You are talented, but no one has the right to show it off besides you. You are your own person now and we are so proud of how far you’ve come!

[@leslie6189]

She wished anyone else could be her kid but me..... Ouch, that one hit a familiar chord for me.... Mom tried to push me out of the car while driving to "get rid of me"... Literally left me behind at the supermarket and didn't come back. I remember in preschool, my classmates faces would light up when their moms showed up and I knew something was different, and remember wishing I could go home with one of these nice mommies.... And so much more.... So I hear you, I see you... And I'm so proud of you for standing tall. Speak your story... Don't listen to any naysayers... Keep putting your voice out there

[@leslie6189]

Just remembered too.. Old memories tucked away... She would always tell me she was going to "send me back where I came from".. Which I took to heart as a little person. And one day my neighbour... A mom.. Found me crying on my front stoop, and when I told her mom was going to send me back where I came from, the neighbour took me over to her place and explained where babies came from and showed me a picture of my mom pregnant... And asked if my 4 or 5 year old self would fit back in mom's belly.... That one never hurt anymore

[@harikkaa35873]

every video of yours I watch I feel stronger and i get more energy knowing that if you thrived even after all of this then i can too. thank you for all of this

[@buddyfriendpalio]

man your stories are so heartbreaking, I'm so sorry you went through all of that and I wish you nothing but the best

[@Zer0Z0id]

That is damn crazy bro. I'm glad you're talking about this. It makes many of us feel a lot less alone. I'm from Ohio and my old school there still gives me bad flashbacks. Keep going strong bro.

[@lavafet]

Bro-cross and track takes so much dedication and I CANNOT IMAGINE doing a sport like that with so much pressure- let alone losing interest and still participating in it. I've seen a few insane cross parents of a similar vein as your mom and their anger when you don't run quite fast enough is actually wild. I'm really sorry you had to go through that and I'm glad things seem to be better now 🫂 Ironically enough, I've been a trans cross/track runner for a good while, AND I'm also from Ohio! It's possible we could have ran together at some point?! This world truly is small. Regardless, great video, and you got my support! I'll be interested to hear more of whatever you talk about :]

[@snc_luv]

This might not exactly be on topic for this video, but I feel like it relates to millions of people so that's why I'm saying it. They always tell u, " oh they wouldn't do that to u, they're ur parent/guardian " yes they would. They absolutely would, in fact, most parents/guardians use the fact that they are ur parent/guardian to their advantage depending on the situation and what's going on. It's crazy, the people that usually say that are the people that grew up in the best house possible. Well, I didn't, so believe me when I say yes they would after telling all my trauma. They would do that, it doesn't matter who they are they're people too and they would do that. If they're going through smth they would do that, they DO do that. Also, I'm sorry ur mom was a bitch, even though my mom is the complete opposite of urs, mine is also still a bitch most times.

[@samalass466]

As someone who got the autism diagnosis very early on and got put partially in special classes because of it, please please do not wish those things upon yourself. I know to outsiders it can sound like a dream where you get all your needs accomodated but the reality of it is that most of them by a very long shot are filled with rampant ableism (think restraints, isolation, making you feel outed to everyone else in the school, infantalization, and soemtimes unnecessary aides that make you feel like you're being stalked). That shit traumatized me so hard because it's where NDs go to all be coddled and treated like 5 year olds in spite of where your mental capacity actually is. They actually downgraded my educational standards rather than help me in any way and made me feel really fucking segregated. I have pretty much never heard of someone who came out of the system without some form of trauma or deep rooted issues.

[@isaiahreno]

I'm sorry you had to go through all this bullshit... I hope you're grieving and moving on from everything, from all the people who didn't care 😢

[@amazonionavalon8252]

I'm only 1 minute in and I feel for you ! Being pressurised to do anything you're not really into is never good: I went to school choir practice, piano lessons, Brownies ,hockey, netball and that sort of thing, didn't enjoy or excel at any of them ! I can only focus on and do well at things I'm truly interested in and I expect most people are the same ! Before too long, I discovered smoking, binge drinking and becoming a Goth, which suited me more than any of the enforced extra - curricular activities! ❤

[@DevilBunny947]

Love that you're doing longer videos.

[@kinjaaaaaa999]

Im sorry that you have gone through this. You helped me feel less alone about my similar home situation with my mother and step dad. Glad to see you made it out on the other side.❤

[@Anniecurls]

Jesse, your video is a therapy! very relatable and felt like I belong and not alone having a dysfunctional family. I hope you'll upload more:))

[@funtimefox-hufflepuff05]

Hey, I’ve watched a lot of your videos and I’m so sorry that you had to put up with your really mean mum. I hope you’re doing ok now though. You deserve so much care, support and happiness.

[@TomNookIsnotevil]

Every time I hear your stories it’s so similar to my own and it breaks me. I had a very similar childhood, just flipped parents. Both were bad, but sometimes my mom wouldn’t care enough to do much- my dad on the other hand was just like your mom- My brother has been a famous drummer since he was literally a child, so everything always was thrown at me to be better than him or have a career by 6 like he did. I had to put all of my effort into every single talent I physically could to keep up with his ONE thing he was good at that my parents viewed him as a god over

[@Effortnite]

You are amazing and I’m happy you’re able to tell your story and vent. I wish I had the courage to have to do something like that to be able to tell your story to potentially millions of people keep doing what you’re doing.

[@may_studio]

Hey, im not sure if you hear this much but im honestly so proud of you fot staying strong for so long! And ill be honest i also struggled with school especially math- in 1st all the way to 4th my two teachers would bully me, calling me dumb and that when i grow up i won'tbeableto do anything in life(along with others in my classmates who also struggled with stuff, some even changed school) they two teachers stil teaches kids- idk how but they do- anyways yet again! Im so proud of you!

[@Max_Freebairn]

I know this is kind of strange, snd I'm so sorry for what you've been through, but also i really like your bookshelf. Ive always loved vines on things, and the colors stand out in a nice way.

[@juliasoag]

You are so strong ❤

[@thomasd2444]

05:50 - So glad you survived & are free to "journal" your feelings & thinkings & emotings _________ I'm sure sharing of your past mistreatment will help some able to view & listen !

[@KitKat_293]

damn not putting you in swim lessons of all things is so telling because it's important for your safety, probably more than the rest. she had the money she just spent it on forcing activities she saw as status raising. man you deserved a mom who was capable of real actual love i'm so sorry. she is barely a real person.

[@winfieldwinfield5450]

Really proud of you for venting your feelings. :) You're also very handsome btw. Don't know if it's what you're going for, but I get surfer boy vibes.

[@dorememe8548]

As a kid, I learned from experience to expect that when I’m in crisis at home with abusive parents, the adults I reach out to for help will find a way to perpetuate the abuse or enable it or push me away and help add to the trauma. Now that I’m adult-age, and I’ve seen the monstrous ways my now-adult peers can behave, I honestly find myself struggling to trust anyone anymore.

[@Artemis_the_gremlin64]

I’m so glad you’re doing better now :) btw I love the long form videos instead of just shorts

[@imokage]

Dude i found ur channel at the right time fr, makes me feel less crazy n left out abt my abusive mom (w/ the abuse still happening) Btw i love how u end ur vids with a punch to the cam😭

[@AmirahJoy]

Ugh, I am so sorry. When I had children, I made up my mind that I would see what activities they enjoyed. I asked them before signing them up. They tried some dance, some music, some sports, some school clubs. Eventually, they each found their respective interests and passions. I never made up my mind for them or pushed them. I didn’t care if their team won or lost or if a classmate showed more natural ability. Who cares?? They aren’t extensions of me! It helps to have a life of your own. Then your kids’ accomplishments don’t become your accomplishments.

[@PicassosSister-rj5zp]

I appreciate you talking about your experiences. At least you're the one laughing now, and not your mom.

[@pardon_111]

Hope your ok now and in a better place. We are here to support you❤❤

[@janicelaurin7263]

Wow, i am surprised that you did not develop an ulcer during those years! Way too much negative pressure to put on a kid. She couldn't even be a good sport and congratulate the other runner. That's called good sportsmanship. Just wondering if you and your brother have a relationship with her today? Glad you are in a good space now where you can talk about it openly. I hear you about the math. I still use my fingers to count!

[@Burnt_Bre4d]

I just wanna give you a hug! i wash i could take kid you and protect you and be the best mom to you or just be your friend as a kid and give you all the love you need!! i'm so happy your in a better place now ❤❤

[@Austin_toast]

Bro I love these story times. Keep them up.

[@democatto]

You're a great story teller and have wackiest coolest tops/shirts, I know you've heard this enough but I'm proud of you for being strong and being here

[@aziraphaleangel-22]

God, I'm so sorry you had to go through stuff like that. I was blessed with a good mom. If I was sick, she was right there by my side, if I came home from school crying, she would immediately talk to the principal the next day. When I was struggling with math in the 8th grade, she talked to my principle to help me into an extra class to make sure I was getting the help I needed. I wasn't ever forced to do anything like that. I did at one point want to be in band or some type of activity after school, but I couldn't afford the instrument or I decided not to. I've never been treated like that, ever. Heck, I never got in trouble for anything. Maybe once did I get grounded for almost a month (my dad suggested it) just because I was talking to someone online. But my mom let my off early because of my birthday

[@Pheebs12]

That is not okay you did not deserve anything like that I am so sorry that happened to you you seem like an amazing person and no parent should ever even think about treating their kid like that and thank you I know you are helping other people realize that this stuff can happen you're doing great

[@yunarukami6161]

Hopefully you're doing alright and keep doing this because one day if your mom goes to extreme and will have to go through legal actions be sure these videos are saved somewhere annd document your experience and how your mom treats you. I know it's hard for kids who love their mothers when they hurt them this way but it doesn't mean you owe them anything in return just because they feed you and kep a roof over your head because that's their job. Again take care and remember to take care of yourself and protect yourself because if your mother is capable of hurting you to this extent then be prepared yo fight back for your right in life. Just make sure you have evidence to defend yourself to prevent future lies in case your mother is a manipulative woman.

[@InvasionAnimation]

Sports people are crazy I can totally see a coach over working their kids. I'm sorry you went through that.

[@Ghostofthewest-vb9up]

you are so brave to tell this story. I'm so sorry

[@Violet_rings2]

they sounded like they were at the point of crying (at least to me) a few times, it’s heart breaking

[@Ruby-cy6do]

I’m usually like “I had such a good childhood” I don’t Reiner it but now it sucks how relatable you are I’m so sorry 💔

[@morganjacklin6405]

Every kid deserves parents but not every parent deserves kids

[@HeheLol144]

I am so glad you got away from that. ❤

[@Konnii.]

How does that woman dare call herself a mother...

[@lmlghosty]

I cant relate for your experiences but this made me remember the time my dad said “yes it’s possible that you have ADHD because half of your family has it too,but we aren’t getting you diagnosed because you can manage.you just have to focus.”

[@mercedesthomas8436]

I love your videos so much I watch them all the time❤❤❤

[@amc5936]

i send you so much love. i am way older and you give me insight and wisdom. dont comphremise yourself you are all you got-janis joplin

[@RedHotFilms11]

Petition to give him a new mom 👇

[@conorganism]

hes far away from his mom already

[@Kumonekowo]

My pr in 8th grade was like 9 minutes and I was one of the slowest 😭 the runners here are so fast..

[@Kumonekowo]

I still run cross country, going into my last season :]

[@Kumonekowo]

The pr was for a 1 mile push

[@00Mali00]

You are so entertaining eventhough these incidents were so traumatic. You have a great energy that is uplifting nevertheless. That's so rare 😊

[@Elliot.4.lifers]

You are very brave and hard working to have such terrible parents! luv ya