Why 'Hi Ren' Made Me Cry: A First Time Reaction

[@TanyaQueen182]

I'll NEVER get sick of first time Hi Ren reactions. I only wish I could hear it for the first time again myself. Subbed for more Ren!! Wait until you see what ELSE he can do omg this is just the beginning.

[@DTSQUAD]

@@TanyaQueen182 Thank you so much! I appreciate it and welcome to the family!

[@marinakiava9]

I was thinking about it the other day I wish I could hear this song first time again

[@alancraig782]

​@@marinakiava9 same lol can you point me in the direction of someone who can do a song justice like this... NF is the next best thing I can think of

[@marinakiava9]

@@alancraig782I’ve heard about NF but haven’t check them out so I’m so consumed with RENs world I’ll definitely check them out I follow a musician/youtuber who’s writing a song for REN right now it must be ready by 22nd of November and his subscribers can be involved in it He goes with Wynand Fourie @wynandfouriemusic

[@kevin_ninja_jones2363]

No truer words have been spoken. Ren is one of those people who gives you a whole new perspective.

[@KendraBeX]

This song actually saved my life. I still cry every time I hear it.

[@pollyg562]

ditto... stay strong

[@DTSQUAD]

@@KendraBeX thankful 🙏🏾 💕 stay strong

[@ally93796]

Yes! I repeat Rens lyrics in my head when I'm in a bad place ❤

[@garysherwin3316]

New sub great reaction ,there is life before hi ren and life after ,im 62 and this young man has quickly become the most important artist of my lifetime 🇬🇧😊

[@DTSQUAD]

@@garysherwin3316 thank you and welcome to the family! Omg he made me cry with this one so emotional

[@Northland111]

This is how raw talent looks like, everything this guy touch goes gold...

[@natebob85]

Cannot wait to see your face when you hear his voice in Back on 74/Message in a Bottle Live Retake :)

[@DTSQUAD]

😊

[@AbbeyNormal850]

I stumbled into Hi Ren late one night not knowing anything and like you I got blindsided. Great reaction.Respect is eveything with Ren himself and the RENegades. I subbed and look forward to watching you enter the world of REN, Enjoy!

[@BlackWolf-uk2yb]

Welcome to Ren. Not only a incredible artist but also a rare and phenomenal human being. Thank you for your Reaction and sincere words. Best Wishes

[@Vmcf1968]

dude is my favorite artist sorry robret smith. i cried my eyes out. he describes the human condition so well.

[@michaelporopat6446]

Awesome reaction i got emotional also i cried like a baby 1st time i listened to it. I just finished going through my journey of the dark night of the soul (ego death). Now im going through a spiritual awakening. Ren is a generational talent. He has blown my mind so many times all his song are a work of art!!! Welcome to the world of ren.

[@DTSQUAD]

Blessings to you on your journey. Thank you!

[@carloscalderonjr9887]

He will blow you away with his wide variety of music. Nice reaction!

[@bentracey4939]

Renegades got your back. Try more of his stuff. Tales of jenny and screetch. Money ties. The world of ren will change your life.

[@DTSQUAD]

@@bentracey4939 will do. Thank you!

[@nigeltuttiett5730]

You might need a box of tissues for the tales of jenny and screech 👍

[@Moctipotili1]

Also, a trigger warning for those traumatized by abuse, emotional or otherwise.

[@Dr.Brummel]

​@@DTSQUAD For the dramaturgy the correct order is important (Jenny, Screech, Violet). Or just do the 13:31 long full version: 'The Tale of Jenny & Screech (Official Music Video)'.

[@marydelaney9113]

Ren is amazing and his work is so diverse. Other great tunes that are nothing like this are 'The Hunger' , Power and Genisis. He was in a band called The Big Push and you should check out thier cover of 'I shot the Sheriff'. Welcome to the Ren rabbithole. It's quite a journey.

[@johnpaulT1888]

Great reaction. Dive deeper into the Ren rabbit hole. This boy is talent personified.

[@randomrainbow4479]

Subbed! You're going to enjoy the ride on the Ren train. Even if some of the nitpickers throw some shade at how you might do things different, you do you. The majority of us really just want people to be genuine and you have that. ❤

[@DTSQUAD]

@@randomrainbow4479 thank you so much! I really appreciate it and yes I will continue doing me 😊. Welcome to the family 🤗

[@stevecody9878]

Lovely reaction to this GENIUS & wonderful human being ❤ Liked & subscribed in anticipation of you reacting to more Ren Cheers 🍻😀

[@raksonijumet2603]

An intelligent, heart-felt reaction. I enjoyed hearing your feelings about this song.

[@SandraP3796]

Welcome to the wonderful world of REN, our lyrical genius and beautiful soul. Loved your reaction. I was the same way. I live in a world of pain (15 years now) and Ren always makes my day and night. Subbed for more Ren ❤

[@Prime_Mover2112]

Fantastic reaction, really well done. Nothing better than a real, genuine reaction, loved it. Subbed for more!👍🤘

[@DTSQUAD]

@@Prime_Mover2112 Thank you so much! I appreciate it and welcome to the family!

[@StefanVillkatt]

Loved your reaction! I think you would like to continue your Ren journey with the Money Game Trilogy (less tears and as many thougts as Hi Ren), Back on 74 (for the singing artist), Troubles (for more about his medical history) and Chalk Outlines (for singing and emotions). Looking forward to your next one!

[@mickt3390]

Awesome honest heartfelt reaction 👏👏👏👏👏

[@DTSQUAD]

@mickt3390 thank you

[@michaelwalsh7359]

Ren brought me in, the react kept me. Newest sub! Can’t wait for the next Ren react!! This is an incredible artist, it’s a journey and I’m here for it!

[@stuwyatt]

Hi. I'm 3 months further down the road than you, and I just want to say that you are in for a beautiful journey as you tumble down the Ren rabbit hole. He's a once in a lifetime artist. He sings reggae as good as Bob Marley, rap as good as Eminem , he plays electric guitar as good as Hendrix... and I could go on. Thanks for a great 1st reaction.

[@DTSQUAD]

@stuwyatt thank you as well and I'm glad you enjoyed it! I'm so ready for this journey ❤️

[@LetsGoEers3]

@@DTSQUADyou think of hangout are ready 🤣 Great reaction! I love love loved it!! Thank you so much! Here I go. Here we go. We can’t help it. This is our hobby. All of ours now. I am not exaggerating when I say that the most popular KZbinrs and those without hundreds of thousands of subscribers, all agree, who say over and over that there has never been an artist with the caliber of Ren. Wait til you hear “Earned/Mans World” or Bob Marley cover or 25 other live performances and see why everyone who has ever dove deep know he is actually one of the top vocalist in the world Wait til “The Hunger,” “Losing it,” and 20 others. You will see why KZbinrs who only do rap, and those who know less, say he is a top few rappers to ever exist. Many say he is the GOAT. Wait til you dive deep and see what there is no doubt in this world that hat he is a top few lyricist to ever exist. THEN just wait, instrumentally, his production ability, his One take viseosbh (This was a one take video, him hooked up mic and guitar and it took 3-5 takes to do this NINE minute video,) and you wil see why over and over we get to hear from every single person that Ren will be the most well known and best artist to ever exist. You will see that the positive affect he has had on this planet is absolutely unmatched Congratulations! I’m so pumped for you!! You will see why every single KZbinr that does “Hi Ren,” start down the Ren rabbit hole and have 20-80 videos. Nobody ever stops at 5 or 10. Dozens, hundreds of KZbinr switch to only doing Ren reactions. RENegades are unmatched in the community we have built. SORRY…one last thing probably…if we could describe how REN had changed our worlds, we’d be here all day. I’ve seen over and over and over that Rens lyrics and life experiences have brought them off of the ledge There is no turning back! It’s time and we will be here to watch you go in your Ren journey I loved your “Hi Ren” reaction and promise we will all grab on to you, hug you, and experience this with you! (Oh yeah; his add beat boxes also and you will learn that very few have suffered like he has, and mine have used their suffering to change the word like Ren has.) 3, 2, 1….Let’s go!

[@DTSQUAD]

@LetsGoEers3 oh.... wow! Well thank you for the list and the support. I really appreciate it!

[@andrewf3746]

Oh welcome to the Ren train and the Renagade family. He is a true artist and spans many genres of music. Thanks for reacting to Ren and promoting his music. Much respect ❤

[@pjsebadoh5412]

I was super baked when I first watched this "Hi Ren"... It cut me down HARD, and then it lifted me up. I felt blessed to have witnessed this piece of art.🫡

[@eddieovation]

You got me as a Subscriber..your sweetheart humanity is lovely Made me smile today Thanks

[@DTSQUAD]

Thank you so much! I appreciate it and welcome to the family!

[@NightFogFilms]

Ren has lots of styles. Performance: JENNY & SCREECH (FULL) - kzbin.info/www/bejne/ioqkn6SHYpJ-jpI Also check out these rap hits (with incredible rhymes and double time): HUNGER - kzbin.info/www/bejne/Z4XCl3-vqad5g5Y GENESIS - kzbin.info/www/bejne/j6vWhZeCfsiVsLc LOSING IT - kzbin.info/www/bejne/o33ZcnqgnammqcU ILLEST OF OUR TIME - kzbin.info/www/bejne/qnOQe3qJmaeYqKc SEVEN SINS - kzbin.info/www/bejne/rGKZenp-hbCEbrsfeature=shared WICKED WAYS - kzbin.info/www/bejne/eGmUc42AhbCdoqsfeature=shared ANIMAL FLOW - kzbin.info/www/bejne/fGXQhqGje8eJhMk Ren was with a group called The Big Push. I Shot the Sheriff / Road to Zion / Hip Hop - kzbin.info/www/bejne/q4TIdKiIapalm80 Also, Ren & Sam with Earned It / Man’s World / Falling - kzbin.info/www/bejne/mmnRc62onclriNE He also does live duet ballads (one take) with Chinchilla CHALK OUTLINES - kzbin.info/www/bejne/aWbccn-olNSjm8k And HOW TO BE ME (LIVE) - kzbin.info/www/bejne/iXW1aKarpZh3qbc Obviously, there are more on his channel - www.youtube.com/@RenMakesMusic/videos And on The Big Push channel - www.youtube.com/@TheBigPushBand/videos And trickthefox channel (his earliest stuff) - www.youtube.com/@trickthefox/videos The 3 Money Games: #1(performance) - kzbin.info/www/bejne/ZprZgqqtnLxnhbsfeature=shared #2 (lyrical) - kzbin.info/www/bejne/j6DRhGyVhq-Vppofeature=shared #3 (performance) - kzbin.info/www/bejne/pKq6k6iklLWVisUfeature=shared MG3 is now an award-winning International Video Music Awards winner Best Music Video - www.imvawards.com/winners-season-january-2024 For context for SICK BOI (his follow up to HI REN) - kzbin.info/www/bejne/aYKZpnaopd-Vhrsfeature=shared and KUJO BEAT DOWN - kzbin.info/www/bejne/n6XCmYOYpsiMhaMsi=QsAwgTxdIZzKWYSd, I suggest watching Ren's 35 minute video about his legal battle with Kujo first - kzbin.info/www/bejne/gWiVkpWagr-VfaMsi=RcdWPcyyvVdvEkl2 And there are many, many more but this is a start.

[@Moctipotili1]

Thank you for sharing your reaction to this video! I am glad you found out about Ren through watching it.

[@dalefipp]

Thank you, your reaction made me cry. Welcome to REN. There are some heavy topics but also some light/fun ones.

[@DTSQUAD]

@dalefipp awwh thank you. I was trying to hold back the tears

[@majbrat]

Yay. Generational Talent. Subbed in hopes of more Ren!!!

[@DTSQUAD]

@@majbrat Thank you so much! I appreciate it and welcome to the family!

[@PoliticallyPink]

Great reaction, Welcome to Ren! I would have loved to hear your thoughts throughout the song, but you didn't pause. I'd have liked it. I hope that you'll do MORE REN, he does all sorts and they're all excellent! Subbed for it!

[@simplysimon9868]

Just subbed for Ren and the rabbit hole you need to go down 😁🫶❤️ Ren can Rap, sing, produce his own music and so much more. The Big Push ( his friends) busking in Brighton and separate artists is awesome 🙏❤️

[@badbadskinner]

#RENegades incoming enjoy the love from our community

[@jamesolsen7610]

Thank you for reacting to Ren! Loved your reaction, and I'm a subscriber now. Keep up the great work!

[@DTSQUAD]

@@jamesolsen7610 thank you! Welcome to the family 🤗

[@akamaddog7161]

I appreciate that let the whole song play then reacted, plush you are very likable. New sucriber. Thank you.

[@DTSQUAD]

Thank you so much! I appreciate it and welcome to the family!

[@johnnyboydevonshire4650]

I fell down the Ren rabbithole a few months ago and you really need to read up on his life and how he was misdiagnosed for years. We renegade will always have your back. Welcome to the world of Ren ❤

[@LaShayHaynes-t8f]

Renegade stopping by and subbing of course - So ren and / ren are both equal in the eyes of Ren fans - you will see this a lot in Kujo beat down - lost all faith and some other songs - Ren songs are all unique so it's pretty much like Christmas for Ren fans every Thursday. He recently got sick again and went blind in 1 eye for a second, but that part is all good now. Hi ren, sick boi , tales of jenny and screech and money game 1-3 are always the best to begin- you will hear about Ren and friends. He has a talented bunch of friends all the way down to his videographer samuel perry and 2 bands the most notable is the big push. Well hope that gets you all caught up. cant wait for your journey. And last - his music is both a bop and makes you feel a certain type of way . the dual feelings is normal

[@DTSQUAD]

Thank you so much! I appreciate it and welcome to the family!

[@Friedchic899]

This was very deep heart felt story! Lovely reaction from ya Dalisa 🥰 I am still looking forward to my reaction request from ya 😆

[@DTSQUAD]

@@Friedchic899 thank you. Oh wow I'm sorry what was the reaction?

[@Friedchic899]

@@DTSQUAD no problem I'm going put in your community tab because youtube will erase it here for spamming it for ya

[@philhallbrook7008]

Hi there. I've subbed to join you on what I fully expect to become, irresistibly, an extensive journey into the world of Ren. He's that good. You're in for such a treat. Thanks for the heartfelt reaction, I'm looking forward to seeing more from you xx

[@DTSQUAD]

Thank you so much! I appreciate it and welcome to the family!

[@davidberesford7009]

Hi DL! and welcome to the wonderful world of Ren. Your emotional reaction was appropriate for this piece of work. It is Theatre, it is poetry, it is music. A reaction to Hi Ren was the video that first introduced me to Ren, at least I had someone else reacting to it (Elizabeth Zharoff The Charismatic Voice) Keep Reacting!

[@DTSQUAD]

@davidberesford7009 thank you so much. This song really touches my heart

[@im2yz4u17]

Dalisa, great reaction; I cry almost every time I watch a reaction to 'Hi Ren'. I hope you react to much more of Ren's music. Everything you watch from him will be different from what you watched before. It is always a treasure when he drops new videos. My suggestion is that you watch 'Sick Boi' next. Ren has a huge backstory of his life that others will explain. He has hundreds of videos for you to work through on your reaction channel. good luck and have a ton of fun.

[@DTSQUAD]

Thank you

[@Tom-ed-w]

ren is a welsh man, hes amazing

[@shannonkrause983]

I love seeing raw emotions. I was overwhelmed by the honesty and vulnerability presented and tears flowed from my eyes as well. 🙏💚

[@DTSQUAD]

@shannonkrause983 thank you and I'm glad you enjoyed it. 🙏🏾❤️

[@Heyboo66]

I subbed in the hope that youll be doing more ren. He is a poet but so much more, i watch reactions so i can see someone else experiencing what i did the first time, im ancient, i grew up with the beatles,the stones,dylan, ive seen bob Marley,zappa,meatloaf, but ren beats them all, welcome to the rabbit hole💙

[@DTSQUAD]

@@Heyboo66 Thank you so much! I appreciate it and welcome to the family! Will be reacting to more 💙

[@eminow77]

loved your comment about it feeling like a play... so spot on.

[@fanofvann]

Thank you for reacting to this. We all can relate

[@greglecig5549]

Loved your reaction to the Sic Boi Ren! I can’t even tell you how many reactions I’ve watched and yet I still leak tears if the reactor does. Welcome to the RENegades!

[@DTSQUAD]

@greglecig5549 thank you!

[@patriciaobrien6600]

You right... we ALL been through it. I don't think u can be human and not go through it 😊 Loved your insightful reaction and I subbed for more. Renegades, we snagged another one ❤ Another deep on is Crutch he does with ex girlfriend, Bibi. This was before he got his Lyme disease diagnosis and he truly thought he was dying. Also recommend Ren's Thank you to One Million KZbin subscribers and his definition of success 🙌 Enjoy your Ren journey ✨️

[@DTSQUAD]

Thank you so much! I appreciate it and welcome to the family!

[@MattSmith83]

Love the honesty. Thank you. Remember to relax. Much respect.

[@DTSQUAD]

@MattSmith83 thank you and yes I will.

[@rascalh]

Great reaction. Thanks for posting Ren content!

[@DTSQUAD]

@@rascalh you're welcome and thank you

[@LetsGoEers3]

Hahahaa Look at the Views. Keep em coming and we will be by your side for them all!

[@DTSQUAD]

Lol i wasn't expecting that at all. I definitely will do more.

[@Lulabee2024]

Awe sis...you have a very kind and empathetic heart. I know you'll keep doing you.

[@DTSQUAD]

@@Lulabee2024 thank you so much.

[@crichhanson]

Thank you for this. Bless you, Dalisa.

[@DTSQUAD]

@@crichhanson you're welcome 🙏🏾

[@inspiredfunkmark]

Yeah - we with you for this journey

[@Easterwood79]

Welcome to the Reniverse. From a fellow Charlotte Hornets fan. Go Hornets. Big win tonight.

[@3loons]

Love love love your reactions Dalisa!

[@DTSQUAD]

@@3loons thank you so much ❤️

[@DeadlyVvenom]

Great reaction ❤️❤️❤️

[@DTSQUAD]

@mostafayounis7193 thank you

[@PUNKinDRUBLIC72]

Welcome to the Renhole! X

[@thiswildridecalledlife9194]

This is the best song to break into Ren With. I recommend checking out his money game series. Money game two is in my favorites. His rap battle with King Dotta was fun.Knox actually got in on that. He is an extraordinary talent. Oh and you don't have any worries about copyright strikes with Ren. He wants you to share his music with the world. Oh ya. He also said he is the voice that you hear when you loosen the noose in the rope.

[@vernbaumgardner8374]

I'm 64 years old and I cried the first time I watched it and all the reactions I've watched after.

[@patrickrojas8514]

Loved ❤your reaction. 👏👏

[@DTSQUAD]

@@patrickrojas8514 thank you

[@sdkdmd9072]

Here for everything Ren

[@CraigAnderson-h2h]

Thanks for your honest reaction.

[@DTSQUAD]

My pleasure

[@globally123]

Bless you x

[@30jameson]

Welcome to the Ren rabbit hole.. there is so much more..

[@Mike-ji9jl]

Loved your reaction….and by the way….I love your country demeanor

[@DTSQUAD]

@Mike-ji9jl thank you. Yes I'm very country

[@Perktube1]

Blind reaction is the best reaction.😊

[@boxicuk1620]

Welcome to Ren,enjoy the ride,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

[@EarthyBlendPOV]

Enjoyed! Subbed for more Ren!

[@GhostWatcher2024]

Uplifting and Fun Ren: - Power - What You Want - Love Music 1, 2, 3 - Humble - Hold On Flexing Ren: - FISHER remake (rapping on an EDM track) - The Hunger - Genesis - Love Music 4 - Murderer - Down on the Beat - Animal Flow - Illest Of Our Time Sick Boi Ren: - Hi Ren - Sick Boi - Crutch - Seven Sins - Lost All Faith - Su!cide - Diazepam - Chalk Outlines (live ft Chinchilla) Preaching Ren - Money Game 1, 2, 3 - Money Ties - Dominoes Dealing with the loss of his friend Joe Hughes: - How To Be Me (live ft Chinchilla) - Freckled Angels - For Joe Other stuff: - The Tales of Jenny and Screech - Streetlights - Dear God The Big Push: - War Pigs (live) - I Shot The Sheriff/Road To Zion/Hip Hop - It's Alright And thats about a third of his catalog.

[@ashebanow]

Great list, but you left offl Penitence and the Wade in the Water medley

[@Mooley81]

Welcome to the RENeverse! Enjoy the Ren Rabbit Hole Alice!

[@AdamBazille]

Subbed for more REN! ❤

[@DTSQUAD]

Thank you so much! I appreciate it and welcome to the family!

[@mldkenny]

Back on 74 please, you will love it! Great reaction to this one,

[@idigthat73]

"wow"- correct response

[@DTSQUAD]

Thank you ❤️

[@patricioeb]

It reminds me a lot of one of the firsts Venom's talks to Eddie... Shout out from Tenerife (Canary Islands 🇮🇨 🏝🌞)

[@ProudPatriot306]

Deadly,u got it!Great reaction.

[@DTSQUAD]

@@ProudPatriot306 thank you

[@jake62265]

Ren has a few spots in my top songs ever but one thing which seems purposeful to me that i havent seen anyone notice is the evil side says you have to kill you if you want to kill me, he later says as his nicer self that he is going to kill the bad side and he chooses if he dies. When he says that he puts his head down and lowers his voice. It really makes me think that he was saying he is gonna off himself with the words hes saying in that moment. And then it goes onto say about hope and loosening the noose so i think it makes sense. I havent seen anyone mention that before and it made it hit so much harder for me when he said he was gonna kill his dark side

[@orlandocastillo7891]

Thanks gorgeous

[@DTSQUAD]

Any time!

[@katram343]

Thank you ❤

[@DTSQUAD]

No thank you ❤️

[@seymourclarity8702]

Great reaction, very authentic Sup from New Zealand 🇳🇿🥝🙃, hope everyone's having a great day 💛🌏💛

[@DTSQUAD]

Thank you. Hope you are having a great day!

[@NondescriptMammal]

Good for you doing cold reactions without researching first, makes the reaction more genuine, shows you are interested in hearing the music for what it is 🐱

[@DTSQUAD]

@@NondescriptMammal thank you. I'm glad you enjoyed it 😊

[@drum253]

Something to know. Although you didn't pause, some reactors do, worried about copyright. You wont have to worry about that with Ren's output. He allows all reactors to use his videos without fear of copyright problems. ❤

[@DTSQUAD]

@drum253 Yes I know about the pause. But that's great he allows reactors to do so. Thank you

[@troy9er]

Subbing and liking!!!

[@Smithytits]

You get it you’re deadly love from Dublin ❤

[@DTSQUAD]

@@Smithytits 🫶🏽

[@DG-dy4tv]

Warnings: The Tale/s of Jenny and Screech. There is a video of the whole trilogy together. Don't watch them one at a time. Don't watch Kujo beatdown until you watch the Kujo explanation video on his channel that is 30 minutes long but explains the legal and social conflict.... and you also watch the moneygame series, and this hello ren video and Sick Boi... you gotta watch all those before you watch Kujo Beatdown... it gives you context and reference so that you can appreciate it. If you don't watch all those vids first, you'll say like so many have... "It seems there's a back story that I'm missingl here." P.S. Welcome Aboard!!! I just had to put that out there first.

[@AdamBazille]

❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

[@Aaronblkgt]

Down the rabbit hole you got his newest song is great you gotta check him out hes nuts

[@BrendaBoyencheckthisout]

Love you too and respect you.

[@DTSQUAD]

💕

[@GabeHornne]

I absolutely loved this reaction. Thank you ❤. You should check out his song The Hunger. Not as heavy but just as incredible.

[@DTSQUAD]

Thank you so much! I appreciate it! Oh I will definitely check it out

[@GabeHornne]

@@DTSQUAD awesome 😎 can't wait to see it

[@tex3875]

Hey I'm in Charlotte! I couldn't help but notice. I am a Renegade and I am currently trying to get him on a cruise for a class reunion out tx. I think I would be amazing!

[@DTSQUAD]

@tex3875 awwh that would definitely be amazing. Wishing you the best

[@instigatorartworks]

I just saw your Hi Ren reaction, and put this journal entry of Ren's as my comment to that reaction. ~~~~~~jAN 01, 202~~rEN~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Up until I was 9 years old, I would intermittently hear a voice in my head that was not my own. The voice was distinctly different to mine, and always negative. It would self criticize or urge me to do things I knew to be morally wrong. The most peculiar thing about the voice was that it took no effort on my behalf to produce. My own thoughts always felt like there was a process that required effort to bring them to the forefront of my mind, this voice appeared as though it was spoken by another. The sentences felt predetermined like they had already been constructed. I remember very vividly at 9 years old, becoming very frustrated with the voice. I stood in my back yard, internally screaming at the voice to be silent again and again, and it did. In a flash there was silence, to the point where my head felt like an empty room. I wasn't used to the quiet and that voice never returned. It almost felt lonely in my head. When I got older I had intermittent bouts with auditory hallucinations where I would hear perfect symphonies, usually at night when drifting off to sleep. They were so clear that they sounded like they were emanating from a radio in the corner of my room. I knew they weren't there, but for some reason they never came with the feeling of fear. I also recall sitting on a bus at the age of 15, and hearing the sound of a crowded room, with about 100 voices chattering away, I was the only person apart from the driver on the bus. These experiences were always very brief, and few and far between. My last hallucination was during an intense bout of psychosis in 2015, and was my first visual hallucination. I was walking down a pavement after jumping out my mums car in a crossroads in a moment of frustration and distress with my condition. I was trying to run from myself. What appeared to be a homeless man with a dark complexion approached me, and asked me what was wrong. I explained that I had been sick most my life, and I wasn't sure I had the strength to continue. He looked at me, and smiled and told me 'everything is going to be okay in the end Ren.' I had not told him my name. There was something so overpoweringly sincere about this very simple message, which brought with it an overwhelming feeling of inner peace, and in a flash, he vanished. My rational brain always linked these experiences to what the doctors have told me, that there are parts of my brain compromised by the autoimmunity in my body. That the myelin sheaths surrounding the complex electrical system that conduct my thoughts were damaged and compromised, causing these lucid experiences that I knew did not exist inside the physical world. The part of me that edges away from logical and rational thought always attributed these thoughts to some kind of otherworldly intervention, that made my thoughts the battleground of some spiritual tug of war. For a long time I never really acknowledged this part of myself, for with it brought the danger and stigma of sounding like a crazy person. I decided with my latest release, to the best of my ability, to capture and express this chess match of thought. Hi Ren comes out in just over 24 hours. I can't wait for you all to hear it.

[@DTSQUAD]

Oh... wow that's scary. I hope everything is going better for and you are getting better for you 🙏🏾

[@instigatorartworks]

@@DTSQUAD That was Ren's journal story not mine.

[@DTSQUAD]

@instigatorartworks oh... ok thank you for the information because I really went in blindsided

[@instigatorartworks]

@@DTSQUAD no problem

[@andrewc318]

Happy belated thanksgiving

[@DTSQUAD]

@andrewc318 thank you & same to you

[@Oitsugina93]

You are adorable! Looking forward to watching you fall in love with Ren❤❤❤

[@DTSQUAD]

@Oitsugina93 thank you so much.

[@FilipjFie]

☝️ The struggle is real 🕊️

[@bonostaffharlaar9910]

This RENegade just subscribed

[@davepykett4427]

New sub cause of Ren lol but great reaction ❤

[@DTSQUAD]

Lol thank you

[@stewartgriffin3121]

♥♥♥

[@rveino2978]

❤️🔥❤️

[@andrewc318]

Sup miss. Love it

[@DTSQUAD]

@andrewc318 hello & thank you

[@andreasekman2176]

He's just DaShit......😅😅😅😅 We all got our inner Demons,but D A M N ........

[@tribute1965]

Welcome to the next phase of your life. :)

[@DTSQUAD]

@@tribute1965 🙂

[@left-handedhandymansartpro6330]

Bard that's ren he's a real bard