Storytime: My Doctor Is Letting Me Die. || SPEEDPAINT STORYTIME

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[@Inverted_Wings]

This... Is horrifying... I'm just speechless...

[@agentx8440]

I am so sorry that this has happened to you You shouldn’t have deserved that :((( I hope your feeling better

[@m4rshm3ll0wb0b4]

I'm deeply sorry about your predicament, I can never imagine how it must feel. I hope you do get some type of relief. That "doctor" can rot.

[@DuchessCelestia]

thank you so much ;; i really appreciate it.

[@emo683]

You know, the doctor shouldn’t just rot. They should be the ones going to hell, not Celestia who was helpless and scared. Just saying Celestia, I hope you will finally have a happy life in the end, and remember that you have all of the support from your followers.

[@roach5367]

My regular doctors refused to operate on my hips until I couldn’t get up the stairs into my own bed or use the toilet anymore. Contrary to what a lot of people think, doctors aren’t universally kind and ethical, and a lot of them make very dangerous decisions. Ableism in the medical profession is no joke. My heart goes out to you

[@roach5367]

Also, my original surgery dates were postponed because of COVID, meanwhile my entire life had ground to a halt. If they had been postponed again or if the specialist I finally saw didn’t agree it was an emergency, I don’t know if I would still be here today. I just found your channel, but god, Paige, I am so, so sorry. Neither of us deserved this treatment.

[@NOTDeezy.]

One tip I've heard from someone is that if you have issues such as chest or stomach pain and want it to be taken seriously, NEVER tell them that you suffer from anxiety or depression! Or else they'll just attribute all of your symptoms to that and just tell you to "drink a tea and sleep it off" Ableism really is real and it's an issue..

[@gunarsmiezis9321]

@@roach5367 Wonder how much of the covid death count was actually lockdowns deaths.

[@PaintSplashProductions]

I’m from the UK so I can’t imagine what you’re going through but this is horrifying. It’s absolutely disgusting these doctors think this is okay, they should have their doctorate removed!

[@DuchessCelestia]

yeah, I agree ahaha ;;””

[@emo683]

Fu*# that doctor. Nobody has been treating you right, even when you have a horrible, shitty life. I have been developing a lot of anxiety and depression, and have been hurting myself. I just want to say, others are going through this with you, and there will finally be a day that you will rise to happiness, and never have to go through this ever fucking again. Love you and get better, celestia.

[@ElvisRocking1]

I'm so sorry all of is happening to you. I really hope everything starts going for the better. Digestive system problems are no joke. And yes health care here in the US is bollocks expensive.I had surgery earlier this year from a motorcycle accident, the bill was $130,000. Like i said, i hope you find some type of comfort and peace with my comment. And as unlikely as it may seem sometimes, you will pull through this and be free of these problems. Keep your chin up, you'll always have an audience to listen and possibly help you :)

[@DuchessCelestia]

oh shit, i’m so sorry to hear that!! that’s an unbelievable price, and i cant imagine what you must be dealing with. i hope you’re okay!! and thank you so much for your support and kindness!

[@doodlesblah7191]

@@DuchessCelestia my mom and I both have endometriosis. Try to get a hysterectomy and birth control pills or estrogen pills. That’s what got me and my moms endometriosis under control ; ) Took my mom 22 years to get herself help. Also pls try to find a good GYN.

[@PWNDON]

no wonder doctors get paid so much considering how expensive everything is actually

[@Teekls]

@@PWNDON well , it is not the amount of money paid for healthcare that the doctors are paid. Like here in Canada healthcare is free, and doctors are still paid the same. I just feel bad for people in the US ):

[@charminsi]

I came across this video 2 months after the upload, but as a medical student, I am horrified at how terrible MULTIPLE healthcare practitioners messed up in your healthcare. It's ridiculous that you were prescribed proton pump inhibitors for 7 YEARS. This is ridiculous.

[@zackon7]

It is a MIRACLE that you're even still alive...

[@sparker-sparkle]

i just went to the hospital for something my mom was terrified that i might be dying and put a camera up so that if she isn’t home she can still confirm i am indeed still alright i don’t think it was to terribly serious but the doctor diagnosed me with something that it definitely wasn’t and said ok everything is all better i’ve recovered from what happened though nobody has any idea what happened and it could still happen again

[@philipfong4800]

Well, KZbin recommended your channel after I have exhausted all the videos in my feed for 7 months unable to work because of my EYES CORNEA damaged due to scabies infestation since 8 years ago. Hope you recovers. I can only see with magnifying glasses 3 cm from the phone and half the time is burry, I can only guess the worlds, went to a few specialists but they have not encounters my kind of scenario and nothing they can do except put on contact lens to prevent it from further damage, although I am in the final stage of recevery but there is no guarantees that it will heal completely. Devastating, yes because it means live or die if I cannot work otherwise become financial burden to family bembers. So, you are not alone and I am not ordinary person, I am highly skilled multi disciplined commercial artist with over 30 years of experience. We are merely products of the society and I chose to live alone but had to ask for assistance to the hospital and lucky enough to have some friends and strangers willing to be my angels during such time,

[@kyla8386]

You need to get everything in writing, that he’s not treating you and why he’s not treating you, then you need to maybe think about a lawyer because this is obvious malpractice

[@Mama_nootnoot]

I’m literally crying right now

[@werewolfprincev]

I am so sorry our shitty healthcare is failing you so severely. I've been having similar health issues the past couple of years, not nearly as severe as yours, but also having absolutely no luck getting any sort of diagnosis or useful treatment. There is no excuse for how poorly healthcare professionals have treated you.

[@DuchessCelestia]

i’m really sorry you’ve also had to deal with such bullshit ;; I hope things get better for you as well!! and thank you for your kindness - i agree, the system has been letting people down left and right for a long, long time now, and it’s straight up unacceptable

[@gunarsmiezis9321]

Healers must know that theirs is a grate burden of responsibility and if they dont handle it right by being bad wrath will come upon them.

[@cheshirekat7026]

My only thoughts are: What the F!CK! How the heck do they even stay hired!? Hope you get better really soon

[@BarKeegan]

I’m freaked out they would dismiss it so easily, makes you wonder why doctors get into the profession in the first place

[@sherifflasso]

Please keep making videos like this (to your comfort) because awareness needs to be spread. I’m *not* in medical school but I’m taking a lot of health related classes in school. This is not how we’re taught to deal with patients. I will be sure to keep experiences like this in mind when I start working in hospitals myself.

[@Adrianimations]

I found your channel a couple days ago and have been cycling through your art videos, till I finally decided to just check this one out. And holy shit. It baffles me how it's 2022 and health care, something that should be prioritized in the grand scheme of things, is absolute garbage. I am so so sorry you've had to deal with unhelpful doctors and I'm praying your appointment this month will be a turning point for you. I know it might not be much but since I can't support another patreon subscription right now, I'm shooting some money to your ko-fi. Your videos and art are great and I wish you the best

[@DuchessCelestia]

oh my gosh, thank you so much!! that’s unbelievably kind of you - both your comment and your support are so much more appreciated than i can possibly articulate, but please know that while words are (as usual) failing me, you’ve made me smile like an idiot during a time when that’s harder than ever, and that means everything to me. thank you so much for your kindness ❤️💙

[@herecomedatboi9646]

I was prescribed the same thing while I kept having stomach and body issues, I'm just glad we figured out I had severe food allergies that were causing all my issues before I'd been on it for longer than a year.

[@DuchessCelestia]

oh man, i’m really glad you weren’t on it for longer than that!! i hope you’re feeling better now!!

[@lavagarden]

Wait, your Canadian!? I never thought our Healthcare sucked that much- Than again, I've never personally had a truly bad experience with the Healthcare system as I barely ever need doctors. Although I will admit, the waiting rooms are awful. Such as an instance a few months ago where I tried to take my life by chugging chemicals, when I ended up at the hospital they made me wait for an hour with just my mom before helping me. Which is fine, they probably had more serious things to deal with. But seriously, what you've had to experience with the Healthcare system is just awful. Your a very strong person for being able to go through all of this, I would have thrown in the towel by now, but you aren't!

[@Strawb3rryPi3]

very sorry that all this stuff has happened to you and you've barely got any help, my mom is going through what seems to be about the same as what you're going through so i can relate and still listen to how this affects different humans, and you with your stories!

[@GenetMJF]

Time to drop names of these doctors and doctor offices to get some uproar. These places need more media attention

[@adeljuarez5044]

Hey Celestia, I am so sorry for everything you've been put through. I understand being put through bullshit caused by a shitty doctor. I hope you get that help as soon as possible. Throwing up does happen to me a lot with endo because of some of the medication however endo itself has never caused me to throw up blood, if anything that would be due to the pain medication. Fuck that doctor, im so sorry youre being put through all that bullshit.

[@DuchessCelestia]

i’m so sorry you’ve been dealing with so much of the same ;; I hope you’re doing better now!! an thank you so much for your kindness and support!!

[@petitsmacarons2373]

I hope you'll get better soon... That's horrible how they are just... Letting you down... I hope you find another, better specialist All the courage and love to you

[@DuchessCelestia]

thank you so much ;u; ❤️💙

[@MaryArts]

I had similar symptoms and I also had bloodtest, endoskopy etc. etc. Most doctors just sent me home with NOTHING. But I couldn't ever take it for 7 years. I only took it for 1 year, after humiliating situations in public and constant pain EVERY DAY and took things into my own hands. I gladly had some help of my friend who studies medicine. I still take linseeds and Probiotics to help digesting. Turns out I have celiac disease and everything went abruptly better since I don't eat gluten anymore. Even the blaoted belly I had for around 3 years went away immediatelly. Just when I told my doctor about my assumptions, he would make an actual test for celiac disease for me.

[@randovids]

For a comparison, I live in the US and got my endoscopy 2 days after my first phone call to a doctor. I also got a bunch of other test, but ultimately got a bunch of PPIs for my troubles, which, sadly, didn't help. The laughing, condescending, apathetic doctors is universal, but the long waits are not.

[@legendarybubbles4567]

I only recently found your videos, but seeing this one broke my heart. Doctors like that make me so incredibly angry! My mother had to deal with an utter quack doctor as well, who straight up told her, her visible, PROVABLE issues with her back/spine DIDN’T EXIST! Thankfully she was able to find other doctors, but that utter piece of garbage is still working in the medical industry! Maybe, you can start a Go Fund Me, that could help bring some of the needed money for treatment in the U.S.A. Either way, you shouldn’t have to deal with these utter pieces of garbage! It’s not okay, and I wish that kind of patients treatment was illegal!

[@16JPE]

I hope you feel better, you deserve better. All the love and praise

[@yxoi5173]

I can't express how wrong this is... this person is a hopeless person who is suffering and ALL the doctors and specialists can do is give them medications that help for a little bit of time. I pray for you Duchness Celestia, you were/are going through a hard time and you don't deserve this treatment. God Bless You 🙏🙏🏻🙏🏼🙏🏽🙏🏾🙏🏿

[@realshadowfan08]

Yea American healthcare is pretty expensive

[@dippindotzzz]

Honey it’s a god damn miracle that you’re still alive, and I would gladly donate to help you go to the states (if I had the money that is) Please, I cannot stress this enough, sue them if you can. They are dangerous and should not be doctors

[@r.a.t6436]

Throw away the docter

[@rai1578]

First of all, I'm so sorry about this. This must be incredibly difficult to do. But also, thank you for sharing your story. I've been on a PPI long term myself, and I had no idea just how bad for you that can be. I think it's important to be aware of just how seriously it can affect things, as well as how badly doctors can let people down. Take care of yourself

[@DuchessCelestia]

thank you ❤️💙 i’m really sorry you’re dealing with similar stuff, it’s honestly horrible, and i hope you’re doing alright now!!

[@fsociety2thearttrain]

Wait... I'm not supposed to be on that med long term? IS THAT WHY MY SYMPTOMS HAVE ONLY GOTTEN WORSE? it's been so many years I don't even remember when I started taking it...

[@ecila246]

all I can say is holy shit, this is absolutely god awful, I can't even begin to imagine how it would feel to deal with that for over 7 years, no one deserves to be put through crap like that. In saying that, I admire your strength so much, I know you've had no choice but to be strong, but the fact you have gone through 7 years of this literal garbage treatment and still keep pushing on, is absolutely amazing. You're much stronger than you realise, even if you don´t feel it right now, the fact you are still here and alive to talk about this is testament to that strength. I'm rooting for you, I think we all are to be honest, and don't ever forget, you're always worth advocating for

[@Yourlocaltrashgoblin]

Okay, I went through negligence from my neurologist (if he had done his job I probably wouldn’t be bed ridden rn) if you ever have a bad doctor, switch, switch hospitals if you need, switch the doctors, if they’re giving you major bad vibes, and red flags switch, please do not let yourself go through it, he dropped your case, change them, please, it is vital you do not stay with that doctor, easiest way to change specialist, get a new referral, and make sure it’s not the same doc (it says it on the referral)

[@E107J]

I'm really sorry to hear what you've been going through. It's something I can relate to a lot, having gone through a similar (though thankfully not as prolonged) experience three years ago. I had regular nosebleeds that lasted over an hour and a constantly blocked nose, and heard a similar response to you when seeing an ENT and having my nose examined, that he could see inflammation but couldn't figure out a cause. Several months after that I also developed severe pain in my feet and joins that got worse over time. Here in the UK we are in a similar position where a lot of healthcare is free but there are long waiting lists and it's difficult to get more obscure issues diagnosed. I was repeatedly told that I had reactive arthritis and should just "wait for it to clear up on its own" despite the pain getting progressively worse until I could barely move and strange red spots appearing all over my skin. Ultimately I saw a private rheumatologist and by some miracle after I told him an off-hand comment about my nosebleeds in addition to the other symptoms he put two and two together and recommended I be tested for Vasculitis (specifically GPA), a rare condition where your immune system attacks your blood vessels. Lo and behold I test extremely positive for it and am immediately given a very high priority appointment at a specialist NHS hospital to check for organ damage and start a treatment plan. It was so bizarre going from nobody taking me seriously to it being treated with the urgency it warranted almost overnight. Im happy to say that it was caught early enough to prevent organ damage and the treatment, though long and challenging, was ultimately a success and I have been in remission for around two years. Its a lifelong condition that can always return but I am in a good place. I can only hope that you can receive answers and get the treatment and answers you need as well. I know what it feels like when doctors aren't taking you seriously and how shitty it feels when they are almost gaslighting you about the pain you are in and what you are going through. But for me it did get better, and hopefully it can for you as well.

[@slicadee1021]

Holy crap that guy that forgot your appointment is a complete jerk and shouldn't be a doctor.

[@NeoDragonCount]

In my country those doctors would be in prison for gross negligence.

[@mort8711]

i really really hope you get the help you need

[@DuchessCelestia]

thank you so much ❤️💙

[@cerysimebeest6333]

My doctors are so bad bruh. i have pelvic congestion syndrome and may thurner syndrome, the pain is so bad im usually crying in bed all day. I ask for any kind of strong pain meds and they call me a drug seeker. My mom made an urgent call to the pain doctor saying I literally cant function anymore cuz of the pain, and the doctor just ignores us lmao. Im so done with this system

[@HelplessFangirl]

I gotta say its inspirational how you can push through and make art the way you do when going through so many medical issues, but I hope this saga ends soon. Nobody deserves to be in that much pain and I hope you find a doctor that treats you and your case with respect and handles it properly

[@DuchessCelestia]

ahhh that’s sweet of you to say ;; thank you so much - I really hope the same honestly!!

[@MaryArts]

It is hard not wanting to fly over to your place. Grab you. Go to the doctors, scream into their faces and then getting you to my country and threatening the hospitals to take you in. Gosh. I wish for you to be strong and I also wish for your loved ones to be strong, so you can rest in their arms.

[@WhimsicalBunn]

For years I was struggling with gastrointestinal issues and my doctors told me he was just reflux over and over and over again until last year when I had a near-death experience and got formally diagnosed with gastroparesis. It was one of the most traumatic things that has ever happened to me medically and I understand entirely how you feel and this is horrible you are so strong and I'm so proud of you. Personally I am disabled forever ever since this horrible event and I wish people understood the absolute traumatic ways your body can be affected by this Also it's very strange how people treat gastrointestinal issues as a one cure all when it's really not that simple.... The amount of times I've been to the emergency room for the pain I can't even count. And I understand what you mean by wanting your wife to take your life because of the amount of pain you are in, when I was very sick from my gastroparesis episode I couldn't stop vomiting for weeks maybe a month or two even and I felt so weak and useless and I just wanted to be put out of my misery. Chronic illness affects mental health and I wish people understood this

[@st4r_eats_molten_plastic]

Wow. Just wow. That’s awful. I’m so sorry you have to deal with that and hope everything ends up ok!

[@DuchessCelestia]

thank you ❤️💙 i really appreciate that!

[@RoxasPikachu]

man i am very sorry you been through all this mess. at least you managed to get out of it. we wish you all luck and health

[@DuchessCelestia]

thank you so much ❤️💙

[@EvaHoshizora]

Idk if you got a resolution, but do call your health department or leave reviews telling your story. You can also contact the media about it. That will get them to do something, bc if you go to a lawyer with this, you will win and they sniff cases like yours for breakfast bc it's an easy win.

[@GoddessOfThree]

Oh my god fucking sue them wtf

[@altythebalty6011]

Im so glad i had a good doctor if not i would be dead

[@DumBeee_]

I mentioned endometriosis to my doctor she put me on birth control for 4 months (I’ve been on it for almost 2 years now) and it helps but if I miss 1 day I have the most excruciating pain for over a month of constant taking the pill. So I think my pill is just a pain killer (it is birth control tho) to keep me from finding out what’s wrong with me so I relate to you

[@KyotaroVT]

Hi Celestia! Do you have an update on this? Im so incredibly worried. This negligence is like... taking them to COURT levels of bad. Blood in stool or vomit is a sign of internal bleeding and is considered an emergency. I hate that you're going through this. Im new, I've only just found your channel and I'm genuinely keeping your in my thoughts. :(

[@Fudgeanimates]

I really hope that you doing ok or at least feeling better. I'm new, but I'm praying for you. I really hope that you get better ❤️❤️

[@DuchessCelestia]

thank you ❤️💙 i really appreciate that. no real changes, but i’m hoping for the best!

[@audessysan4271]

First off, if I could seriously give you a big hug I would (with consent lol ;_;). You are precious, valuable, and so fucking valid. I know exactly how you feel with this topic, for me it’s been 5 years, and worse they knew what was wrong but did nothing about it. I was told to drink water and lose weight. I’ve developed CPTSD because of the abusive/gaslighting tactics I’ve endured at many Hospitals and doctors offices here in America. For some reason it’s normalized and it’s continued harm has slowly crippled/killed patients, like ourselves, and it needs to stop. What I’ve started doing to get some power back are things like: 1) Holding doctors and their offices accountable every time by having someone a 3rd party on phone calls, at appointments, recording phone conversations with them (in case they try to lie or stall), and talk to the pharmacy about medication interactions when having issues (they’re not doctors but they have a background in medicine and that knowledge helps as a second opinion). 2) Take your own vitals and notes cause it helps check for patterns. It can also aid you in your own research to narrow down possible diagnosis to test for. 3) Most Important: Ask for your full medical records. Odds are you may find you were already diagnosed with something, it was already written down and was grossly ignored by medical staff for this long 4) lastly, Know you have every right to contact specialists institutions or try clinical trials for help. And if those med-holes aren’t even trying to help you get better, drop those fools and surround yourself with people who will. It maybe awhile but it’s important to find medical help that want to help you get better. If you’ve been doing stuff like this already, then sorry for the long comment, and feel free to ignore me ^_^; Tl;dr You’re valid, you’re doing your best in an awful situation, and I pray you get the help and care you absolutely deserve, so you may live your best life.

[@Igorooooleynikov]

Why you have to wait months? Im from country with free healthcare too, with this symptoms people can go to ER and then straight to hospital without waiting. And all tests done rapidly.

[@jumpyfrops6286]

this video broke my hert and made me realize how fortunate I am when it comes to my health

[@Sparklewolfgirl67]

How are these people so incompetent

[@spacekitty8926]

I hope everything gets better, I can't imagine how much pain you are in right now, no one should have to go through that

[@ashlikesart]

working in the medical industry is difficult. that does NOT excuse the way you were treated. I hope you're doing better now.

[@Wallish-q3n]

We love you so much

[@kennethmanuel1094]

I got early signs of GERD because of too much homeworks, assignments, and tests in highschool, as a result I usually pull up an all nighter for almost half a year. In these times I skipped breakfast, ate late lunches and eat midnight snacks basically, my food schedule is a wreck. One day, out of nowhere I feel like the air I breathe in doesn't arrive to my lungs, I feel like I'm suffocating in a perfectly normal air condition, I legit almost passed out but cling with every last strand of my willpower to stay awake because I know if I fell unconscious right then and there I'm 100% sure I wouldn't wake up again. The next week, my family took me to the gastronomy doctor and they determined the acid has gone and enter my lungs, therefore suffocating me in the process which sucks, they prescribed me a drug called Lansoprazole, a proton pump inhibitor and yes it doesn't really fix my stomach, but then I tried to fix my eating schedule. With these 2 solution I began to heal slowly and although yes there are some days that the acid would literally jump out from my stomach and burns my throat, I tried to hold the pain and continue eating with the schedule. It has been 5 months now and my symptoms are getting better a bit, with this in mind I recommend eating with a schedule also eat some specific food that is neutral to the stomach. I hope you will find the solution to this and have a speedy recovery, stay safe!

[@isthataspider7410]

This is infuriating. I wish you the absolute best, and you should really start a gofundme!!!!

[@HobieInTheBox]

Holy fucking shit. This is insane. I only found your channel yesterday but I wanna say, we are here to support you. Hopefully someone will kick this shitty "doctor's" ass and actually get you the help you need. Bc no one deserves level of neglect from professionals.

[@________stephens8251]

You need to report him, this isnt normal he needs to loose his practice!

[@panickingpagan4264]

This hits close to home, my older brother (trans masc) has chronic pain similar to what you’re going through. They thought it was appendicitis because they in so much pain at one point. the thousands of tests, the agonizing waiting when they can’t even walk only to be ignored, I hope the best for you as I’ve seen how horrible it is & for what it’s worth healthcare in here in the states is not worth the money

[@SUS-yk2eq]

Hope you get the care you need. And yah,U.S. medicine is expensive as HECK!

[@ChronoTheCrusador]

The solution to your problem is to fly to Europa, get a visum and health insurance. Then get proper Help, get Better, make sight seeing and still save more Money compared to what you pay there.

[@CJFrostthorn]

I'm so sorry you have to go through all of this. I'm wishing you all the love and hope and help you need to get through this and I hope you find a resolution to these problems soon, dear

[@Gleamiarts]

I'm so sorry that you have been treated like this

[@DuchessCelestia]

thank you ❤️💙

[@LimiKatt]

I didn't realize how bad Canada's health care is

[@ReesesBees]

Yeah, everyone assumes our healthcare of amazing since it's free in a lot of places, but just because it's free doesn't mean it's good.

[@lillyreilly4659]

I really hope that you are ok now.

[@melonis]

I feel like crying, i want to give you money so much but i am just as in poverty as any other person is

[@literallyabarnacle]

Doctors are supposed to help you, and I’m so sorry that they didn’t. There are some good doctors and some bad ones and I’m sorry that a bad doctor had the chance to treat you this way, you deserve much much better.

[@zinnakim4791]

Canadian medical or any kind of hospitality is just a crap. If it gets really bad, fly yourself to Korea, I know it can be pricy but they will help you with this problem within not even a month with ACTUAL professionalism. I was super disappointed coming to Canada with their poor poooor medical trainings.

[@moonlightpathfinder1380]

im so sorry... hope you'll get better

[@ilost6321]

my mother could probably relate to this video. She's been stuck with an hernia for more than 4 years and the Canadian Heathcare system treats her like shit

[@yumiart3039]

I’m so sorry you’re going through this, i really really hope you start to feel better. I also hope that doctor stops being an absolute idiot.

[@religiousindustrialaliens]

i know the quote that everyone says, no such thing as a free lunch, blah blah. while anything ‘free’ will come with a consequence, this is straight up ignorance on the doctor’s part. even for free healthcare this is unbelievable and straight up neglect. you don’t deserve this. things might have changed (2 months late to the video, not very up-to-date) but if not I hope the best of luck for you to get the treatment you need.

[@lunasonata3645]

I'm so sorry about what happened to your. I know you're story is way worse so I wont be able to to fully understand but I do to some degree understand what you're going through. I'm 24 now and when I was 17 in my last year of high school one day I was throwing up a lot and missed school for a good while and never understood what was happening to me. I almost didn't graduate because of it. I went to doctors, ran many test and they could not find what was wrong with me. For many years maybe 5+ I've been dealing with throwing up and lost weight. I also had bowel movement issues. All those years and doctors still couldn't find what was wrong because test came out fine. I was beginning to lose hope. I would cry and pray to make this go away. I wouldn't want to leave my house, couldn't hold a job or go to college. My family didn't help until one day my sister advise me to go seek a therapist. I thought "there's no way what I'm feeling is linked to my mental health. For awhile I said no but then I decided to try it and see maybe it can help. Load and behold it was because I was dealing with anxiety. It really shocked me and began to work on bettering myself mentally. I've thankfully gotten better but I do have days, weeks and even months where It bothers me but I'm more in control. I'm sharing this with you because I know its different situations entirely but I hope you stay strong and really tell yourself that you are a strong person. Keeping fighting I know it can be exhausting but in the end it will get better. If you haven't already also try to seek a therapist yourself to help your own mental health through this but it is your choice :)

[@brad6857]

absolutely terrible. i have so many gripes with the healthcare system where i live in similar ways. just bc its affordable suddenly means, to doctors, that the general public isnt allowed any treatment unless you are visibly dying right then and there?? its inhumane and drives me more crazy than anything. knowing that these assholes that brag about their medical degrees and COULD save lives more frequent than they do, just do not, for whatever fucking reason. sucks to hear about this, you are one of my favorite youtubers and i love your content and genuinely wanna see you grow big,. fully understandable if you ever need to take a day off or postpone uploading. wish there was something we viewers could do to help but such is the way i guess :/ hope at least venting helped even a little !

[@DuchessCelestia]

YES EXACTLY!! it’s so unbelievably frustrating, like?? why even bother pretending you care about patients, just turn them away and admit you only want the six figure pay check you get from letting them die 😔 im sorry you’re also dealing with so much of this!! and thank you so much for your support ;; ❤️💙

[@cheshirekat7026]

…make a gofundme? So that you can get to America or somewhere to get some gosh darn healthcare?

[@P0tat0ssh0uldb3blu3]

The healthcare here in America isn’t really any better, like why should I or my family have to pay for a surgery to keep me alive? It’s crazy how money hungry the government is that it’s almost laughable.

[@cabipapcbc6602]

That's horrible. I relly wish I could help you with some money but I'm a minor and I can't do that right now. Healthcare relly failed you, a lot. That doctor deserves jail for such negligence, this is torture, I don't know how but I do hope you can seek that expensive private healthcare somehow. Or at least the doctors you are going DO something usefull. I'm relly sorry for you and hope you the best. Also I think you should stop taking that medicine, those long therm effects are relly causing more harm than good

[@Colorado-Coyote]

In my own experience I've been having this problem which is not as severe but still worrying, my head will ferociously itch very badly to the point where it gets painful. I've had this problem for almost 2 years now and doctors prescribed me steroids that are meant for uses in small areas and they wanted me to use it across my entire scalp(ps it said do not use on scalp or armpits when I received it) and those are not safe doses and I wanted a re-evaluation and then they told me I might just be making it up and that it might be a mental problem. Like B**** my suffering doesn't feel like im making it up or a mental problem I just want my head to stop itching so I can be the person I once was.

[@Reverse_hermit]

Give us names. We'll attack.

[@siluramiau8509]

Hearing how desperate you are and in what kind of pain, I looked into the whole malpractice thing in Canada. You can go to the police about it, and they will open a case. It will go to court, and you are there as a witness too. Or you can go to the many lawyers that are specialized on this kind of thing and many have free consultations or things like "only pay if we win" and then u have money anyway. I urge you to go this route, knowing it will be even more exhausting for you, but this even might give you money to get a better doctor, if you can't go to another public one?! I wish I could help you directly because injustice and the suffering of others makes me violently angry and sick. Furthermore, I wish you all the best...

[@Cookies_and_Kuma]

I'm littarlly so scared for you

[@wetsock6539]

I understand this was a long time ago, and I'm not sure if you were able to get a call in with the "specialist" but I really hope you doing at least a little better. I'm so sorry sunshine, you should not have to go through 7 years of misery and pain all because of a jerk ass(I can't even really call him this but)doctor. Stomach diseases aren't something to play around about and need immediate treatment. Honestly, I'm so proud of you for still being alive and being able to push on. It must be so scary to see yourself like this, the constant thought of, "When am I going to die?" is something horrible for people with terminal diseases and problems. I can't even imagine begging anyone I love to kill me because of pain. When I was little I was in and out of hospitals due to many health problems, and I was just a little girl so I didn't really understand what was wrong with me, I only knew I was hurting bad, but as an adult you know the severity of a situation and that must be the worst burden to have put on your shoulders. I will never understand how bad your situation really is, but I hope you can find some comfort in this knowing your not alone. A bit of topic and to brighten the mood, I love your art! As an artist myself you did an amazing job on this piece! All of your works are honestly masterpieces. I hope to be as good as you one day, working on improving my art with lots of practice. With all the love in the world, Beanie

[@olimpicdonuts538]

I’m so sorry this is happening…….. This is terribly sad I’m so sorry…. No one deserves this…

[@justsomepineapples]

I doubt it's much better yet since it's only been 2 months, but it is January 29th 2022 at the time of commenting so maybe you've had your appointment and it went well. I found your channel just today but I love your art and you seem like such a genuine and kind person. I hope you're able to find someone that can help you, and that you're able to continue doing this amazing work. I'll be sharing your channel with everyone I can, and I hope that in some small way it helps. Stay strong darling 💕🌸

[@FAEDOODLE]

The thumbnail though- it looks all happy and cute, and then you look at the text lmao

[@azimochaa]

Welcome to America folks.

[@ReesesBees]

This was in Canada.

[@azimochaa]

@@ReesesBees I stand corrected

[@imgay7588]

Ok. I don't trust your doctors or my doctors cause both seem to not know what they are doing (i was going from hospital to hospital meany times over 9 year just to get a diagnosis 😑)

[@mariazhurov2178]

So sorry this is happening to you. Is there any way for you to find a new doctor/ specialist in your region (though I understand if the answer is no, especially if you live in the US). As a kid I’ve had some problems with my gallbladder that caused simile issues with malabsorption and know people can have similar symptoms to what you’ve got (vomiting, blood in stool, low iron) from things like Crohn’s, liver problems (esophageal varicies), or IBS (not saying this is what you have since I’m not a doctor but an idiot online). Anyway, hopefully you get well soon or, at the very least, get some answers.

[@magpiesoddities]

Wow....this is disgusting

[@nande6471]

Long story short: you just had a bad stomach ache

[@ReesesBees]

It's not a "bad stomach ache" when she was in horrible pain THAT LEFT HER UNABLE TO MOVE.

[@ilovemylifeyay]

Hey.. Your video of best social media for artists really helped me. So I really want to help you. I can't do much for you but, listen, God can. He is the only one who is perfectly able to heal you and restore you and give you his joy, love, peace and abundant life. Please come to Jesus, he is the life. Love you, may God bless you

[@raphyangel9828]

I've come across this vid 2 years after it was posted, & I'm concerned. Could you give us viewers an update on your situation? Has it gotten better since then? Please let us know! Also, I hope you stopped taking that bad med that caused these horrible issues to you! I've only found your channel recently, but you've already become one of my top favorite art commenters on KZbin! The world would be worse off without you & your lovely art!