Judging My Past Self (detransition edition)

[@TheLagigida]

I'm a lesbian Women who was struggling with gender identity since my childhood. But you're videos helped me a lot to find that womanhood isn't not that bad and I'm not really transgender. You're very brave and good looking young Lady. And I never met someone in person or viral in this age who's so reflected

[@hollyrowden2398]

It was so interesting to me you said "let's see what he says" about yourself!

[@bluejaywayx]

I thought the same

[@lone-welf]

i noticed that!!! definitely something that needs to be researched. made me kinda sad :(

[@yaitsme51526]

Maybe because she’s referring to her past self as what she identified as at the time

[@bluejaywayx]

@@yaitsme51526 yeah, that's it

[@whitestrokes]

Because that person is clearly not who she really is. Another big red flag is dragging herself for how she used to laugh as a guy, because at the end of the day not all men have deep voices and a lot of men laugh in high pitched way too nbd, so the fact that she kept doing a deep fake laugh as a guy trying to sound a particular way instead of just being herself means that the whole time she was a guy she was playing a role rather than being authentic, which is something she mentions herself in the very first video that she always felt inauthentic no matter how much she 'passed'. Those were all red flags that she's not actually trans and that she was trying to be something she's not rather than becoming her true self.

[@skybluepink998]

i can definitely tell a difference in your voice. and btw - your hair is looking beautiful today.

[@user-ou6ps8je2b]

i’m a simp for elle

[@paulogarciadesousa]

The changes in your voice are caused by a combination of factors: psychological (as mentioned by you in the video), but also physiological, because the loss of male-levels of testosterone cause a slight thinning of the vocal folds, which translates to an increase in the F0 baseline vibration frequency. This phenomenon also occurs in most genetic males past 70, btw, usually accompanied by a decrease in the actual muscle layer (ergo, presbyphonia). But I would say that the most impactful factors are psychological. You sound great in all your voices, so there’s nothing to worry about, imo. 👍🏻

[@1x93cm]

Thats what happens when you get the "Herbert" voice.

[@frutypebbles3052]

“ I did look hot though” I’d have to agree with you, that is a very factual statement.

[@jessicapennington8938]

Girl, you are hella gorgeous! You were pretty then and you're pretty now. I know with all the changes you've gone through, that might be hard to see on a conscious level, but (at least in my opinion) you have nothing to worry about!

[@kaileedelilah]

You have such a calming open genuine energy 🖤

[@homiu4]

So fun to watch! And WOW your voice was deep!! You look like your own twin sister compared to one year ago, kind of similar but definitely not the same. And honestly I think you are much prettier now.

[@Rachel-yq1gq]

I’m so honored to have received every single one of these monstrosities

[@ellepalmer]

LMFAOOOO wow. can’t believe you’ve stuck around after all that

[@sacr_29]

Hi, I'm a trans guy and I just wanted to say that I really appreciate you sharing your experiences with detransitioning. I think that it's so important to talk about detransitioning and I'm really sorry you've had to endure so much and that you're still processing so much. My opinion is not super like important but I think you're a very beautiful girl and I hope things keep getting better for you. I'm glad that I've found your channel because I want to understand different experiences with transitioning and detransitioning.

[@TabathaTaylor]

It’s crazy that that’s the same person! You’ve changed so much!❤️ also you literally fit both roles so well. You’re one of those people who could pull off anything like you could be bald or wear a trash bag and you’d still work it

[@bonitablack8306]

Your voice seems much lighter. You also look very feminine right now. 💕💞✌

[@rowan3003]

love watching ur videos, as someone who also used to identify as ftm u have rlly helped me come to terms w everything.

[@somebody6777]

Your skin is glowing ✨

[@smOVERCOMINGITALL]

I can see you struggling to get your current voice down. I remember back when you did blaires video and your first one that your voice is one of your biggest insecurities. Let me tell you there is a serious difference.

[@pinkelephant4591]

Watching you with your male friends makes me so envious. I have literally never never ever had a real male friend because every single one has wanted to sleep with me. I've always wanted to just have a genuine friendship with a man.

[@caitlinwhisenhunt1341]

Elle, comparison is the thief of joy! Try to remember that. You are beautiful, your voice is fine, and you are healthy. Dont be so hard on yourself!

[@thpisland2423]

I can't believe I'm saying this lol but as a straight-ish guy I would definitely go gay for guy Elle, must be the beard and perfect hair. Oh yeah you were really hot, it's weird cause I feel like you were the kind of the guy I wish I could be now lol.

[@thpisland2423]

Sienna Waters that’s an interesting take, but I suppose you’re sort of right about it in a way I can’t explain because if guy Elle was cis I don’t know if I’d feel as attracted, though the beard and hair is pretty hot.

[@altnarrative]

You should get into Dr Joseph nicolosi. His theory goes a way to describe your attraction to the “male” other that you wish you could be.

[@Mjoelke]

elle i love how you can laugh at yourself despite being frustrated about the choices you made, shows you have a lot of strenght ! keep going!

[@Harajukubarbie333]

Omg your hair is so cute I can’t 😍 are the curls natural if so I’m even more jealous- I just have boring straight hair lol. I can’t pull off the long hair either Also your voice is fine, I’m a cisgender woman who has never transitioned because I have never felt trans and I have a deep voice naturally and some people on voice calls think I’m male 😔 but some people say I sound normal so idk 🤷🏻‍♀️

[@vickyrose2239]

That's her natural hair texture, gorgeous isn't it? 💞 also wanted to say: deep female voices are hella hot! Be proud, and don't overthink it 💗

[@oversleep9920]

So mad how well she passed as a man. Those are goals.

[@madamedafroggie7]

As far as not looking like your pre-transition self, keep in mind that almost no one looks like they did at that age. Usually really young teens have a “baby face” my face has changed even in the last 5 years (20-25yrs).

[@collincaptures]

“Yeah, i’m getting to the point where i’m like ‘this is me’, *sings* this is real, this is me. Yeah. Then I detransitioned.” THIS HAS ME ON THE FLOORRRR!! BAHAHHA!! 6:30

[@jennicaharris9134]

The guy in the first day of college video could be your brother, haha.

[@sabrinanikolinaboj2316]

Your voice sounds so much more feminine, it really sounds female. Told ya! It's going to change a lot.

[@marisadaniela6]

I watch a lot of videos on mute with captions, and WOW! You're voice has changed SO much! And I love your hair today. So pretty. I wish my wavy hair would behave.

[@melissam8939]

Lol. I am SO GLAD I didn't go through adolescence in the age of the smartphone. No way I could look back at a fully documented teenage me and survive the cringe. Gen Z is tough af

[@cjwinchester1206]

"Let's see what he says" that got me. And your voice is really changing. It was really noticeable that you were trying hard to replicate your deep voice.

[@leslielonsu]

The "this is me, this is real... Yeah and then I detransitioned" thing. Hilarious 😂😂😂

[@jenniferwilson9129]

This was the best video, I actually had to watch twice 😁. Your voice was a lot deeper when you were actually on T. You’re gorgeous as both a man and a woman 😊.

[@celvsmachine]

Your cheekbones girl!!! You glowing!!!

[@elisabolio6302]

I love the way you are wearing your bangs in this video!! I would like to see a professional doing your hair and makeup 😍

[@CaptRobertApril]

Told ya it'd come back some on its own. ;) As for your voice on T, hell, I wish I had that voice! I'd have that late night radio gig I've been dreaming of in the bag!

[@moniquemenke7387]

How brave of you, to put it all out in the open! I think you're going to help more people then you realize. I'm born as a woman and identifying as a woman. However, your posts make me think of staying more true to myself. Just as a person. Thank you!

[@knekki.]

14 minutes of Elle simping for herself

[@rg7122]

Ok your voice is getting higher!! It really is!

[@xVadRay]

As someone who's struggling with their sexual orientation Elle really confuses me. I find her attractive as a man and as a woman. Help!!!

[@wolfzmusic9706]

it’s ok to be confused

[@syfekai654]

You're probably just bi

[@MargauxNeedler]

Attraction to certain qualities in both genders is more common than talked about

[@katythomas5997]

Girl, your hair is fire 🔥😍👌🏼

[@tinatina1299]

Wow your voice changed so much! That march 2019 clip was like a completely different person and you cannot really do that now even when trying. That is so bizare but so awesome! Bodies are fascinating.

[@crepethepancake]

I'm so proud of you Elle

[@PebblesWithNoBambam]

Hello BELLA! I’m 30 Italian & live in Canada lol i jst absolutely ADORE you & listening to you calms my anxiety a bit my meds don’t even work ! Thank you!

[@m_ylane]

Your face anatomy is amazing. You're like so symmetrical everything looks good on you 💕

[@jumfg2008]

girl you are GLOWING today so PRETTY yes QUEEN

[@Maria.0.1]

Bitch Im QUICKKKKK Edit: omg THAT OLD VOICEEEEE! your voice has changed SO SO SO much! I know that your voice is something you are deeply insecure about, but always remember how far you have come! And you have so much more to look forward to as well! I hope you are feeling better with your mental health and seeking treatment for your depression and anxiety specially in this rough times ♥️

[@chuckbengis8783]

1) you remind me of misty day from ahs s3. Like not strikingly but that is who you kinda sorta look like rn and i live for it and 2) I hope these "oof ouch my past" videos are cathartic for you and not just purely self deprecating. I have admiration for all of you, including past you as someone who is also detrans. Ily ❤️

[@CanadianMum444]

Thanks for how candid and honest and beautiful a person you are and sharing it with us Elle!💜

[@curiousobserver1173]

I have watched your videos for almost a year. You have changed so much. Also you are a pretty girl.

[@jakob716]

I like how you commented on your laugh 😂 It’s better than mine, honestly if I find something funny I bring my head back and ROAR loudly with laughter, I mean LOUDLY!

[@styklas]

I had a lot of fun! Thank you :)

[@alexwitteveen7237]

Your hair is so pretty omg

[@theliminalist4429]

BABE U ARE SO PRETTY NOW SHUSH

[@ohaidenny9852]

GORL your voice was soooooo deep as a dude holy shit. I’ve only followed you since I saw your interview with Blair. Also love your songs 💕

[@K0kirik4t]

Just wanna say your first video is what finally made me admit I need to detransition and your channel has helped me a lot since then just having someone to relate to ur a vibe lol so thank you

[@sarahtheresa2127]

Wow your hair looks absolutely stunning ❤️❤️ Funny video!!

[@melanie6014]

Just found this channel, but I think you're super pretty and you're glowing in this video! 😊

[@drtilde]

your hair looks so cute!!

[@pazobackenstein6473]

Dude, when she laughed at her moustache, I almost cried out laughing.😂

[@thejessehdz]

Jesus Christ... you are glowing girl! ❤️❤️❤️

[@DoubleJ842]

I love watching you're videos Elle!

[@straight-adhi7861]

you are really shining, with your smile, i love it

[@CocoKitty456]

Your hair is so pretty ✨

[@ladyblus]

elle ur amazing n beautiful (inside n out) i love watching ur vidssss 😭 also i really like how your hair looks kinda wavier now.. it's cute!!

[@LAURA---]

Your hair is CUTE like that 🙌🏼

[@asleep6312]

You're looking more and more feminine with every upload ❤️🌈 also, I love your hair, you always leave it natural

[@julieredmond8271]

You are a riot!! I love your videos.

[@Dodge57-sm4ii]

You are so beautiful now! Whatever you want in life, GO get it Elle!!!

[@CelticRaE19]

Wow I’m shocked by how much your voice has changed since then. It’s so much higher.

[@megrenee2374]

wavy hair looks so pretty on you!!

[@chaii_latte]

It just takes time. You're looking really healthier. and it will get there ❤

[@quantumfineartsandfossils2152]

You are amazing you blow my mind happy 2022 :D

[@dovesofstone]

holy shit, the thing you said about your laugh is EXACTLY the same way I would laugh and use that bottom of my throat. I still do it and it always makes me like wtf.

[@RavenC1357]

Yo your boy voice was really cute!! But I'm so glad for you that it's changing!!

[@texasq.mcpringleton6488]

it looks so similar but so different and all my brain can think it "siblings?!"

[@glendathegoodwitch6987]

You seem emotionally intelligent and well put together. Don't hate your former self.

[@2IzzyReelzFishing]

Your hair is looking really good.

[@winnmiller6012]

Well you were going through puberty and having the moustache is a VERY big part of that. Keep staying positive on your journey. Girl you ROCK!!! 🤩

[@ericblack1477]

Elle your amazing on all levels, everything about you is perfect in my eyes. You have no flaws and that makes you extremely special. I'll admit I don't know your preference guys or girls and I hope I don't offend you but any guy in this world would be extremely extremely lucky to have such amazing wonderful special woman in there life, your heart and soul and personality matches your beauty!!!!!!!!!!!!

[@WafflingWillow]

Just looking at the thumbnail, haven't watched the video yet, and I'm like "DAYYUUUMMM GUUURRRLLL yo hair is on point!" 😉❤️

[@katharina1393]

I came across your channel like ~2 months ago but I can't believe that this is the same person talking to us. It's like watching videos of you and 2 or 3 of your brothers. And no, your voice does not sound the same 😅

[@ghostoflazlo]

I must say that I love your voice It's distinct in a REALLY good way ❤❤❤

[@ryanthomasosullivan2]

i love that you are able to laugh about your past

[@crumbsicle5985]

You are so pretty! You're glowing ❤️

[@kirstycat]

Looking radiant Elle💓

[@reddoor5299]

Love you Elle!

[@nikki-qb7iq]

Your voice can pass as feminine now, speaking to you on the street I wouldn’t notice anything different. You’re also looking amazing!! Glad to see you’re getting back to your true self :)

[@afrozzz5634]

Does it ever feel surreal looking at your old pics? Btw you’re I love your channel!! ❤️

[@rawlikar0016]

Elle I love how real you are

[@flamethrowercandle2354]

Your voice as a guy is even lower than my voice before I started female vocal training.

[@eiroswrld9825]

you’re so pretty 💞

[@TabathaTaylor]

You’re so mature❤️

[@xXNSYNCLoverxX]

3:59 "Hold on... let's see what he says." 😂🤗💓

[@BunniesXO]

You're such a natural beauty and your eyes are beautiful. Dabble in makeup 😍

[@CHYWITHAWHYY]

You mocking your own laughter cracked me up lol

[@NorthEmber]

hah ur amazing and insightful and just doing SUCH A GREAT JOB OF TELLING YOUR STORY.

[@flyer11234]

You prolly could be a voice actor or even do voice over work

[@SmartStart24]

Ikr I love her voice

[@jsmamaforever]

Are you wearing makeup Elle? Your face looks like it’s glowing. You’re beautiful 😍

[@makeupaddixtionxoxo]

Love your hair looks super cute like this!

[@jayden4287]

9:35 why'd u sound like dream in the flashback vid

[@finalomega8894]

Gender really is amazing F2M2F, M2F (me), etc. The subtle differences make the biggest differences. Looking at my past male videos I noticed how much my voice has changed. Even though you are detransitioning, this reminds me of looking back at my past vids lol.