Midnight Run (Compulsive Over-Exercise) [EXPLICIT] | ElysianSoul

[@BridgeToNowhere-ni8bm]

Reminds me of those times I was home alone in the morning binging and purging and then exercising to heavy metal music until I collapsed

[@Harajukubarbie333]

Better than me

[@chiara6942]

I don't think we're trying very hard starving, compulsive exercise but not losing any weight, one of my brother loses weight by just sitting all day And binging like fucking carbs and sugar. And last day I asked him " I'm so tired of my life, how come you lose weight by eating fucking 10000 calorie bing every single day? And here I'm extremely exercising from yrs not eating any meals still gaining weight? ,( Im almost sleep deprived extremely malnourished, in survival mode , still fat , not eating enough) and he gave me precious answer that exercising makes you healthy, and sitting all day long makes your body waste away and thin that's why I'm skinny' the fact is this doesn't works for me if I stop exercise and sit like him all day long playing games and still eat less & better than him I'm still not going to lose weight despite I will actually going to gain more Weight 😣 water fasting is so common for me but last week I done 4 days dry fasting While traveling and I actually gained 4 kgs now tell me god are you really so shit don't body maths work here anymore? 😣😫😩Now I just want to die

[@smallturtle9163]

I heard Decadence and Disorder for the first time 5 years ago when I was still flirting with disordered eating, though not yet all in. Currently I'm in the hospital on a feeding tube and I'm kind of crying. It's been a long journey. I just want to get better.

[@coni4702]

Hope you are okay now

[@kartiokotilotuutle9321]

I hope you're fine too... 😢

[@sophieyoung3519]

i hope you're better now..

[@anni.203]

hope you are feeling better now..♡

[@charlieandhisantics9954]

It's been 3 years, are you still here?

[@kevitamaster-brewkombucha5472]

This lowkey slaps as workout music 🤷‍♀️

[@iluvdogsandcats100]

this came at a perfect time i was literally at the gym running at midnight and stayed until past 3 am why am i like this

[@caseyh.8880]

Damn...you captured it so perfectly. That's what I suffered and continue to deal with today when I had my eating disorder. I could never sit still, and even if I was sick or tired, I always managed to push myself...this really reminds me in a non-triggering way of where I was, and how far I've come since then. Now, I have such a better relationship with exercise, but there is still work to do. I would say this song is one of those things you show to someone who doesn't know what it's like to deal with an eating disorder, who say eating will make everything better, or just not "listening to the voice."

[@hellomickey6166]

Casey Hannah today I cant exercise because of backpain after sit up 200x in a day Shit I have to burn calories 😑

[@Harajukubarbie333]

Hello Mickey omg hope you feel better I used to bike for hours everyday my legs would be so sore but I didn’t care

[@chrisuniverse5979]

I so wish I could run,I was a compulsive walker until chronic pain and osteoporosis set in really bad around 32

[@senmithrarin1912]

Christina Pochna I got chronic pain in third grade so I compulsively walk, but damn I wish I could run

[@rosevampire3755]

Same but, I walk, I’ve never been able to run properly because I’m hyper mobile and my ankles just give way or get badly damaged from the impact of running.

[@ADevilFromHeaven]

Is the pain and osteoporosis a complication of your ed?

[@percival413]

@@ADevilFromHeaven probably, in a few of of herbs and altars' vids he talks about how being eating disordered really fucked up their bone density and that they've been scared to get their density tested (?) because he's pretty sure he's got osteoporosis and he's in a similar age range (though mostly recovered by now)

[@marketa902]

@@percival413 yeah, that is pretty possible.. being malnourished + drinking 0 pepsi all day long (worst thing for ur bone health - phosphoric acid fucks ur bones rapidly, same with too much coffee :) + extreme exercise = fucked up bones (and overall body health ofc) also when you dont eat, you dont have any CALCIUM, D VITAMINS + COLLAGEN and other minerals + vitamins which are often needed to bude consumed with food otherwise body just cant process them (for example fat soluble vitamins wont work with no consumed fat)) well this dude explains it well togethes with types how to prevent and even reverse begining osteporosis - kzbin.info/www/bejne/aILZYWSNm9ZmgrM&ab_channel=KenDBerryMD

[@blushbunni3]

I wouldn't say I have OCE but I'm getting to the point where if I eat I feel like I have to burn it off. I freak if I eat more than 1000 cals at most. I used to eat twice that maybe more depending on the day. My life's so much different in that way but it feels really good.

[@Harajukubarbie333]

Alice Williams you probably just have anorexia because I feel like that too but I do go crazy if I can’t exercise or bike

[@tahraethestoryteller6079]

@@Harajukubarbie333 there’s no “just” with Anorexia

[@glitterslits6269]

id go for midnight runs but my town has a curfew :( so I have to run in the sun which I hate because it's not cool like the nighttime.

[@Harajukubarbie333]

XxavacadosxX what kind of country you live in lmao I can go out whenever I want but my mom has a curfew for me so I couldn’t

[@Harajukubarbie333]

It’s midnight and this makes me wanna go run but my parents would get mad This song is lit btw Starts at 01:49

[@chantaldoornbosch2244]

This made me cry... So damn recognizable...

[@necronyx7176]

Woke up at 5am for a walk and had this song stuck in my head. Oops

[@lexlixatkwa7nelson3]

the lyrics in this song still hit me to my core, such a dark yet powerful song, incredible writing ...

[@percival413]

wow i love this song... totally speaks to what i feel a lot of the time as a disordered person and doubles as workout music lol.

[@b0redomee703]

I’m still struggling with this I eat the smallest meals and went on the treadmill and burned double the amount of calories around 11pm for 2 hours non stop running until I couldn’t breathe then I would do 100 sit-ups and then would do more running in the morning and again at night it’s sad how I’m still doing this but I can’t stop it’s a voice in my head who keeps telling me not to eat and when I do eat I over exercise honestly I don’t know how to stop

[@Harajukubarbie333]

I wish I don’t have exercise equipment so I bike but it doesn’t burn as much as I’d like

[@sarahdowney6697]

I would recommend help therapist. You don’t have to go threw this alone

[@ahbruhlifeiscrazy2314]

I’d run and I mean run to I physically couldn’t go any further and I wouldn’t eat for days straight just to see how far I could go

[@ankitamandal18]

i hope u r alright now,

[@moonlitproductions7182]

Is that electric guitar? Or what instrument? I’ve always loved it.

[@lexlixatkwa7nelson3]

still love her music ...

[@ellerintheory]

This is one of my all time favourite songs.

[@MatthewC33199]

Same here

[@Marinameyers05]

I’m realizing, unless u have plenty of love and support, once you fall down this path, it’s very hard to get out. It’s been 5 years. And the sad part is, something very crucial is often missing which leads to sinking into an ed in the first place. But the missing factor makes it hard to recover.

[@sojatonchen3100]

This is just perfect! I love your songs so much💜

[@ariellaholbert1925]

This song is awesome to go on midnight runs with

[@AnnikasASMR]

❤️❤️❤️thank you for this

[@fallenangels8169]

I love your music!! Please make more!❤❤❤❤

[@DreyNova]

"all i want to be is happy. and fucking skinny as hell."

[@chiara6942]

So relate me always😭 I always get cramp at night and waking up fast makes my heart pound so fast ( feel dizziness) that's not even that fast 😞, I'm not hungry all days long but if I'm going light on workout I get hungry on like rest days, so I continue extreme 3 to 4 hour session and 1 to 2 hrs medium pace workouts and some other 1 to 2 hrs light execise a day 😖 and its hurt by not losing any weight

[@ADevilFromHeaven]

I feel your struggle... Compulsive over exercising really sucks....

[@HiHi-kg7qu]

Amazing music as always. Very powerful.

[@justtamara1278]

Who else is listening while running at midnight 🖐🏻 The side of my foot is really hurting tho does anyone know why?

[@Harajukubarbie333]

Well if you’re running ofc your foot will hurt

[@josephcascino9521]

My butthole hurts and I know why

[@justtamara1278]

@@josephcascino9521 PLS lmaoo I hope ur doing better now tho

[@charlieandhisantics9954]

Maybe you rolled your ankle or your shoes aren't the best. Also, I really hope you're better now. Having an ED fucking sucks.

[@ADevilFromHeaven]

my whole body hurts from over exercising despite fasting

[@ADevilFromHeaven]

seriously i think this might be worst ed behaviour as of now...

[@BlueFlower___]

I hope you get in a better state soon :( 🖤

[@ADevilFromHeaven]

@@BlueFlower___ Still struggling but thank you ❤

[@chrisuniverse5979]

I wish I wasn't turning 38

[@Harajukubarbie333]

Chris universe i-

[@DreyNova]

ME FOR 2 YEARS OH MY GOODNESS I'm still here 9 months later doing the same shit 3 years. i turn 15 this year... go to hs in august :) still here a year after posting this comment. still the same.

[@noraalsaed7257]

I'm so unlucky. I have astma so i can't run long until i start panting but i still do run but its hard ig i just have do deal with it

[@jstaudt9761]

I love this song loads !!

[@Icryinthebathtub]

Yesssss!!!!!!!!

[@maddyjoanne6602]

LMAOOO I GOT A MYFITNESSPAL AD BEFORE THIS VIDEO

[@radheartbackuuuppp4435]

Not a doordash ad 😭😭

[@microwavedbutter1659]

We'll all stay skinny cause we just won't eat!

[@tieKITE]

Losing weight’s so easy when you just don’t eat..

[@microwavedbutter1659]

@@tieKITE i was actually quoting the song "Rockstar" by nickelback

[@Harajukubarbie333]

It is easier. When I’m eating regularly I maintain and when I restrict I lose a little everyday. Feels so good am I right

[@ADevilFromHeaven]

@@Harajukubarbie333 I just wish I could keep restricting though? I just start bingeing after a while and then i'll have to purge or exercise like crazy... So my weight just keeps jumping up and down and up and down ....

[@VictoriaOrnelas-yk9ru]

Im anorxia