CREPES AT THE CHRISTMAS MARKET - FEAR FOOD - ANOREXIA RECOVERY - DECORATING 2ND CHRISTMAS TREE

[@Katie-oo2yu]

Please listen to your parents advice Elzani, they only want you to be happy and healthy again. As someone who has been through recovery I know how difficult it is, I truly do, but there is no better feeling than being recovered and no longer fearing food. The first time I ate and realized I didn't feel guilty for it was euphoric. You are worth so much more than your ED makes you believe. I really wish you the best in recovery, keep pushing yourself xox

[@its_msk]

This isn't great advice. She is eating. She needs professional intervention, not parents telling her to just eat more. Her disorder goes so much further than food and having people tell her to eat

[@Katie-oo2yu]

@@its_msk Family based treatment is very effective when done properly. Being in hospital or being forced to eat will only do so much for someone with anorexia. Professional help is mostly used to get the person back to a healthy heart rate (bar a few clinics around the world which are ridiculously expensive which keep patients for months at a time). I am just as concerned about her as you are but I can also see the healthy part of Elzani wants to get rid of this horrible illness and I have faith with her families support she can.

[@Katie-oo2yu]

@@its_msk I also want to say that I do agree with you that professional help would be so beneficial, Im defiantly not arguing that. But currently she's home with her parents so the best thing they can do is put pressure on her to eat and she needs to listen.

[@_kimiadventures]

Elzani you are looking more vibrant every video please keep on keeping on and being healthy & happy.

[@elzani6744]

Ochre Clay thank you so much for saying that, I can’t wait to look and feel even better 😆

[@aaa45028]

Ive been watching the past few days! Your very good at these videos! At first I thought you over challanged yourself, then I noticed how happy you are. I suffered 20 years of anorexia, recovered for 1.5. I must say all the food, and weight gain, and digestion and things I worried SO MUCH about all disappeared, when I realised people would stop staring and I would get a full time job, pay my rent, taxes, afford holidays and a baby! IT was so joyous, being employed full time I realised how little other people think about food and weight, and how little people thnk about themselves!!!! I hope you can realise tht even though life after recovery isnt perfect at least its a LIFE you can be involved in, instead of being so self involved. ,............. I hope this helps....

[@ladyoflove1551]

Sending lots of love your way! Listen to your mom and dad. You have a lovely family and they are right and are doing right by you! You are such a sweet young lady and you seem so genuinely happy recently! It looks good on you! Stay positive and keep reminding yourself of all of the goodness in your life. I love seeing you smelling, enjoying and really appreciating the food you are eating. I think that is very important step for you. Yes, make those yummy foods at home too. It would be good for you. Maybe share recipe with your subs too! You are doing very good! Keep it up! You are inspiring and helping so many others too!😘❤

[@its_msk]

I'm sure your mom and dad are great, but from some things they've said it's obvious you need much more support from professionals. Parents can love and support you but you need therapy that doesn't only revolve around eating more food. So much emphasis is being put on food food food when you need therapy as well immediately

[@triple_gem_shining]

Yes. the Mental health support is just lacking in all over the world.

[@darceytheveggie5668]

100% agree. I don't think I could have started recovery without my CAMHS team xx

[@elzani6744]

I’ve been in hospital inpatient and have tried many things, groups and dbt! I think that no one can make you choose recovery, you have to do it yourself. They can put you in hospital or inpatient and you’ll eat the meals and snacks but if you don’t want to get better, you won’t continue that way when you have control. Also it’s often hard being in such controlled conditions for so long, you need to consciously make the decision to get better or eat every time, every minute

[@batmanlikespizza2541]

Elzani I was inpatient for a few moths and you’re right, leaving a structured environment is hard because I often forget to do somethings. Still working on getting better though!

[@its_msk]

@@elzani6744 my advice wasnt inpatient. I hope you see a counselor or psychologist.

[@AngelicasRecovery]

I’ve been so proud of you recently, you’ve been trying different things and challenging yourself!

[@elzani6744]

Angelica’s ED Recovery aww 😘 yeah I have it’s so cool, it just makes me want to try even more!!

[@BiebersCake]

omg you literally had 5k subscribers 2 days ago and now you're almost at 8k. I'm so glad I've been here to watch you getting better and I can't wait for the day you hopefully are in a very good and healthy place. wish the best for you ❤️

[@SarATuber1]

Would love an update video if you are comfortable with that. How it’s going with all the challenges. Have you gained weight. Are you on a meal plan and etc :)

[@thingsthatneverwere]

that crepe looked soooooo yummy. its so nice seeing you smile - you are amazing, keep fighting your ED and know that life can be beautiful xoxo

[@elzani6744]

lizzie woff ahhhh it was so good! Thank you so much, it gets more beautiful the more you fight 😃 xxx

[@ladyhayley4859]

Your dad is right, you won't recover unless you refeed. You can do this!!!!

[@minaxture]

Btw don't let what your dad said bring you down. He only says that kind of stuff because he loves you and wants the best for you. As long as you know you're doing your best to recover, it doesn't matter if it means you have to take it slower than than other people would like. As long as you know that you're pushing yourself, it doesn't matter if others don't think it's enough. It's your body and your mind, no one but you can have a true insight into that. I think you are amazing and such an inspiration and I hope you continue to get better and live a full, happy, healthy life! ❤️ 💕

[@hallwnby]

The healthier she looks the happier and prettier she gets omg

[@karenkaren3128]

i'm so impressed by your recovery pretty girl!!! you truly want to get better and that radiates hope. i'm out of inpatient too and when i try eating what i'm scared of i watch ur videos so we try it together!

[@8pawsandus176]

You did such a good job trying things in this video! I’m proud of you!! I know it’s hard and sometimes hurtful to hear what family thinks but they just love you and want to see you healthy!

[@elzani6744]

8pawsandus thank you!! It’s hard but I’m glad they’re honest and I know they only want the best, and I think after years it’s better to just be to the point now!

[@Carrot880]

Well done Elzani! I bet it was amazing. I've heard people putting Nutella or chocolate spreads in pancakes but I never thought of putting marshmallows and digestive crumbs too. Not a bad idea at all!

[@elzani6744]

faky mmmm it was amazing!! And yeah I’d never thought to do that combo either, s’mores crepe so awesome! They also did biscoff ones and Ferrero rocher! And savoury too!

[@pancakesyrups]

Well done Elzani, you’ve done so well and I can see your family is supporting you so much but I think you might recover a lot sooner and benefit mentally if you seek more professional help, I know it may seem like you are being weak or it’s unnecessary by doing so but a therapist could really help you over come some barriers or anxiety’s you’ve developed that may be holding you back from exploring foods as well as increasing your food intake also the additional help will lift some pressure off of your family. I don’t think focusing entirely on food and only food is helping. , A therapist could uncover the origins of why you started this behaviour and give you tips on how to cope with the voice in your head telling you to not eat etc. I know it’s hard to give someone else control but I think it could be for the better in this case!

[@Rosie-sf3mo]

You've almost got 10k! And good luck with your recovery 💕❤️

[@elzani6744]

Mei omg I know it’s so crazy!!! I am so amazed at how people actually want to watch and everyone comments and it’s just the best ❤️

[@petersz89]

Hi Elzani. You and your whole family (doggos included) have captivated me lately. Your journey with all its ups and downs has been wonderful to watch. I don’t know too much about your history but your efforts have been nothing but commendable. You may not feel like a winner often but you are a warrior! You are trying so hard and that in itself is a hard feat. Continue to overcome obstacles regularly and the rest will fall in to place :). Best wishes to and health to you all. If you don’t already please give a gratitude diary a shot. Even just a little note to yourself at the end of the day of the things you are thankful for can try to keep some demons at bay. Keep on fighting the good fight ✌️ you got this.

[@emilyhughes4297]

I hope you continue to get better, rember that recovery is a journey and not something that happens all at once. Your dad's words may seem harsh but he speaks the truth and he clearly cares for you

[@ottaviazwillenberg3168]

I remember watching this video last year and thinking ‘she’s so underweight, all these people are looking at her in the market’ and now I am around the same/lower weight than this and I don’t see myself as ‘too skinny’. This has given me a wake up call. Thank you Elzani xx

[@KC-ed6jt]

BEYOND PROUD!! KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK ELZANI!!

[@elzani6744]

Jezebel C YAAAAAY! THANK YOU I WILL DEFINITELY KEEP IT UP!

[@serendipitycreations]

I just found out about your channel and I had to subscribe. Every single time I watch a video of yours I feel so much happier and stronger and you really make me feel, no matter how hard it is, that recovery is possible, even if it is going to take a large amount of time. I am so happy you got to enjoy some crepes and I hope you get to challenge yourself more into the future, because you seem like such a strong girl and even though I do not know you personally, I just know that you can do it 💕

[@abbyalexander8854]

every time i’ve seen you you look better and better. you’re journey is so inspirational.

[@Zenithxblack]

It's gorgeous where you live! Also, your new coat is so nice, and your hat is adorable! I'm so glad you had a good time. Thank you for the video!

[@arty04]

Favorite part of christmas is the sales! Shopping before and after!!

[@jodieframpton5184]

You look better and better in every video. Keep going girl you are doing amazing

[@elzani6744]

Jodie Frampton that’s so great to hear! Thank you 😀

[@shalhevetbernstien4949]

SATARA NEEDS HER OWN CHANEL so cuuuute xx

[@oliviapirie6941]

Satara is so beautiful! (As are you hehe) xx. Stay strong!!

[@kanishafladger316]

Ham and cheese crape crepe is so yummy as well @Elzani❤❤❤❤❤🥂💋

[@Ali-ct3xc]

Looks like Exeter! I grew up there, it's changed so much. Hope you enjoy some yummy food this Christmas xx

[@Brokendreams77]

Ali Williams That’s what I thought! But when I asked her where she never responded

[@elzani6744]

Ali Williams yes it is Exeter!! Thank you, I most certainly will and I hope you do too!! xxx

[@elzani6744]

TheChocobunnyrockz it is! Sorry I didn’t reply! 😀 do you live near?

[@Brokendreams77]

Elzani about an hour and a half away😀

[@Northychen]

I almost had a heart attack thinking you live in the same city as me. But turns out the cathedrals are just very similar. You are doing great and I hope you have a good recovery.

[@fayeholloway6070]

I absolutely love Churros, also I went to a Christmas Market and they had ciabatta garlic bread with cheese, it was frickin amazing. And Mulled Wine, my fave around winter time ❤️

[@rebeccagriffin2515]

I resonate so much with all of this... I've struggled for more years than I care. Lots of love and keep fighting. You can do this xxx

[@isobel3905]

I’m so pleased for you! Nutella crepes are amazing:)

[@elzani6744]

Isobel they really are devine!

[@raniashawaqfe4403]

this girl is my favorite girl on the internet !

[@shreyarx4865]

My parents and family keep having the same "you have to eat more" convocations I try my best, I really do. They don't know that's it's a struggle physically and mentally.

[@jeepgirl9592]

That crepe looked so frickin good! It looked so soft and pillowy.

[@chanelpool8409]

Loving your vlogs your doing amazing keep going gurl Xx ❤

[@elzani6744]

chanel pool ahhh I’m So glad you like them!!! Thank you ❤️

[@moonflower9566]

yay I another video, I was waiting patiently!! :) ♡

[@elzani6744]

moon flower yaaaaay! Thank you for watching ❤️

[@sailorlllmoon]

Just wanted to say that you guys can open the cheese like a bag of chips. Just pull the plastic apart from the sides not the top. Not sure if anyone else mentioned this in the comments haha But anyway, I love your videos, I really enjoy watching them ❤️

[@elzani6744]

Veronika Pagan ahh really! I think we tried it that way but the seal was just not having any of it haha I bet that’s an easy way to open it though I’d never thought of that!

[@elzani6744]

And I’m so glad you enjoy them ❤️

[@sailorlllmoon]

Yes it can still be a little difficult that way as well on some really stubborn packages! But it can help a lot if the normal way isn’t working 😁

[@ss7382]

New video, yess!!!

[@elzani6744]

Iconic Bitch YAAAAY!

[@Kitten_Inchaos]

When her sister called elzani's nails gross, I was ready to throw hands. Stay in your lane little girl, elzani is not only a natural born star but is an absolute queen. She's not only smart and sweet, she's a badass and beautiful too!

[@sarahlopez4685]

i really felt bad when your dad commented about how thin you look and that you need to eat more, because i know you’re trying. no one knows how hard it is to get better, don’t let it get you down :) he actually reminds me of my own dad with those comments they only say it because they care but it really doesn’t help i wish people would try to be more empathetic but i guess it is hard to understand if you’ve never gone through it yourself. keep pushing as i am as well in my recovery ✨💓

[@bubbeties]

The way your dad commented on your weight is just like how mum talks to me. Glad I’m not the only one. It’s quite reassuring

[@bubbeties]

I'm not saying it's not triggering. It 100% is and can be so hard to handle, especially when there is shame involved. In my recovery especially, I think awareness is what's needed in general, which this channel is definitely doing :)

[@jenn5703]

Parents don’t understand eating disorders. The only input they have is to eat more. They don’t mean any harm they just want to see her get better.

[@ellynash4922]

Which city are you in? X

[@ellynash4922]

Elzani your dad has no idea how hard it is and that you are doing fantastically.. i find it easier to eat more often than large amounts. Elly x

[@dannijohn5041]

Yepp pretty much word for word my dad too

[@tenuousgrip6599]

Hi Elzani - sending love and positive vibes your way!! I hope your xmas buzz lasts all year long!! Sweet air guitar, btw... All the best to you and the entire fam!!

[@Guilfreefoods]

You’re doing great! Comparing to the first video you made, you’ve made great progress! I think your parents/family should understand that you’re not gonna put on weight overnight.... but comparing how you look and how you talk and how you move on the very first video you made?!.. you’ve come a long way! Just keep going doll! You can do it! Also, your channel is growing quick! I just commented one your 3k celebration that you have 5k now and this time it’s close to 8k!! Like WHAT?!? 👏🏻💯♥️🙌🏻

[@rosieeejsm8781]

Such incredible and courageous girl , inspiring

[@jordynobryant3233]

You’re amazing! Keep up the hard and good work

[@elzani6744]

Jordyn Obryant I’m not at all! But I will deffo keep it up!

[@jordynobryant3233]

You absolutely are !

[@eh7303]

It’s reassuring to know that your parents love you and would like for you to be at a healthier weight, but it’s going to take time. You are eating what you want and are trying new foods daily it seems, add in some protein and shakes here and there and you’ll be at a weight that’s suitable. I’m not exactly a dietician, I am a med student but I am unable to help with any of that due to licensure. Trust, you will be back to a normal BMI soon, it’s just going to take some time and food as well to get to that point. I’m so glad you’re making the effort to do so! We’re rooting for you Elzani!

[@DJ-369]

I just found your channel and I think you're great! you are fun to watch and you seem very genuine and sweet, I hope you can keep making videos! ps. I think your smile is very cute :)

[@kellycannon9796]

Satara is so funny!!!

[@juliansgma]

You’re dad at the end! Funny 😄

[@Winter_Dream]

oh my gosh Elzani you have no idea how hungry your vlogs make me 😂 I'm pregnant so I'm hungry all the time anyway but I have a stomach problem which means I can't handle eating unhealthy foods and it's so hard now during Christmas because the temptations are everywhere! I will just live vicariously through your videos and imagine what it all tastes like 😍

[@elzani6744]

Cam W. Hahahah aww I’m sorry! I bet that is so so hard! It tastes incredible and you’ll be able to taste it all soon but with a BABY WITH YOU, HOW AMAZING!!!

[@hallwnby]

Cam W. What’s unhealthy foods? :(

[@Winter_Dream]

@@elzani6744 it's hard but it's also so easy because like you say I'm gonna have a baby at the end and it's the most incredible thing that's happened to me 😍😍😍

[@Winter_Dream]

@@hallwnby for me I can't have any sweets or chocolate or well anything that has a lot of sugar, also dairy and refined grains kills my tumtum. It's lame but we do what we must 😊 and I can still enjoy a good mukbang on youtube haha

[@hallwnby]

Cam W. Okay!

[@selina695]

Go watch Rebecca Leung she is amazing and in my opinion the best inspiration for Anorexia Recovery! 😉😚

[@elzani6744]

Selina I love Rebecca Leung!!! Watched her from her first vid yaaaaay she’s amazing!!

[@selina695]

@@elzani6744 Yess I love her 😍😍❤

[@lunakerti649]

Im from the same city as you! I love your videos!

[@joguevara7051]

Ahhh yummy !

[@mikaelawendt8167]

can you make a whole video where you show (what do I eat one day)?

[@elzani6744]

Mikaela Wendt would people like that?

[@hallwnby]

Elzani yes

[@daryl2665]

@@elzani6744 yes

[@Rosie-sf3mo]

@@elzani6744 it's up to you 💕

[@sandranicole3469]

Elzani yes yes yes

[@ItsMelliB]

With the cathedral in the background it almost looks like Hogwarts! That Crepe looked so yummy, and the Christmas market looked like fun! So proud of you for eating the Crepe, and I wish you well! P.S: I really love Taylor Swift too. She really is the best, isn't she? :) Much love from Canada!

[@elzani6744]

Melanie ahh yes haha the cathedral looks amaze! It was so fun and very yummy indeed! Thank you, I hope you have a great Christmas! And Taylor Swift is so incredible ahhhhhh!!

[@ItsMelliB]

@@elzani6744

[@cortroxx85]

What 3 cold souls gave this awesome vlog a thumbs down 😤

[@michelada.mp3]

youre so cute singing and playing the air guitar to taylor swift

[@miaboulton8547]

your dad is right x

[@AnastasiaZima]

There's so much pain in your eyes like every bite is a struggle. And you are winning. Anorexia will do it's best to make you sure that it's all in vain, it's pointless but don't listen to it. Just every moment of your life KNOW that no matter how it make you feel, it's not true. Gaining is not a bad thing, you, healthy will actually think that it is so much prettier! And this fake feeling of despair will go! It WILL vanish but you need to wait for it. A long trip but worth it. Peace inside and love 🌲🌲🌲🌲

[@biffalump]

💓

[@stphnzuniga2837]

I only eat 3 times a day and this family eats million times a day 😂😂👍

[@agustinajaimes9619]

What a lovely place is the christmas market, where do you live? Keep like this, you look SO beautiful and you are going to be even more beautiful when you recover, trust me! It's ALL worth it, never forget that

[@elzani6744]

me loves kihyun it was so lovely and Christmassy! I live in the UK! Thank you that’s so kind, I’m sure it will be worth it ❤️

[@obtuserubbergoose9601]

I don't know why, but I just had the urge while watching your video to tell you I love you. I hope that doesn't sound creepy because I mean it in a way that I hope things get easier for you and you overcome your battle :( from someone who is still struggling with a few herself.

[@alkku5045]

I watched your first video and now this video and I have seen SO SO MUCH progress. You look alive and happy, you look like a snack! (A reference from one of her videos) I am so happy for you dear!

[@lolapoggg2037]

You are so pretty Elzani

[@fernandamarambio7688]

Keep going gurrrl!💖💖🌸

[@AloneInARoomFull]

Keep up the good work 😊

[@ekli9]

crepe is french for pancake

[@cardinnairn6345]

Crepes and pancakes actually have a different batter! American pancakes, yes are big and fluffy, while the English ones are more thin, but the batter is basically the same between the two countries. Crepes have Soda water in them!

[@Zenithxblack]

I was actually wondering about that! I'd assumed that crepes are egg based. I'm American, have never made or eaten crepes, but I feel that I need to!

[@etaylor8028]

I’ve never made crepes with soda water. They just have more egg and less flour than American pancakes.

[@elzani6744]

Oooh really?!

[@etaylor8028]

​@@elzani6744 Yea the ingredients are the same just the ratio is different :)

[@cardinnairn6345]

Dubai Girl I have culinarily certifications. They 100% have soda water in them. You can make them with thinner pancake batter but that doesn’t make it an authentic crepe.

[@minaxture]

Omg! I do the yummy dance too! ❤️ 💕

[@daniellehinton7108]

Omg, you're in Exeter? I never realised

[@Makenziesvlog]

You’re so adorable and so strong

[@ss7382]

I love your yummy dance😀

[@elzani6744]

Iconic Bitch when it’s too yummy to handle 😛

[@cornishpixie1235]

I live in Exeter! Xx

[@taliaaustin9818]

Omg I had sea monkeys but mine always died because I over feed them lol 💕

[@soraminami7749]

💓💓💓

[@nell-marikearney3674]

Hi! I love your videos. Is one of your parents or family members from South Africa? Your name is very South African / Afrikaans sounding.

[@elzani6744]

Nell-Mari Kearney thank you for watching them 😀 my Mum lived in South Africa when she was younger! My name is from there!! Not sure what it means or anything though haha.. are you from South Africa?

[@nell-marikearney3674]

Hi@@elzani6744 Yes , I am South African. We stay in Cape Town. So wonderful that your Mom chose a name from here! My husbands family are from the UK and Ireland but most of them stay here now. I really and enjoy your videos xxx

[@triple_gem_shining]

Make sure you get well rounded foods Elzani!! Don't fill up on sweets and bread!! I love you!!!!! WE all love you so much!!

[@catherinewilson8896]

Let her eat what her body craves, its her recovery

[@brittanybuhler2263]

❤️❤️🙂

[@elladenham330]

Yesterday my parents sent me to therapy and I’ve been diagnosed with anorexia nervosa. They are so worried about my health that they want me to be eating 2500+ calories a day. As you can imagine I’m still not very happy about that news and I burst into tears as soon as they told me. They said I could either eat or the hospital could feed me with tubes. And that’s when I was like hang on a minute, I control what I put into my body not anyone else. Please seek professional help Elzani. I’m on 11 years old xxx

[@csekovszkylili5833]

You are so beautiful ! I love you ! You are my role model . 💋

[@thedrugthatkilled]

❤ potatoes ❤ haha 💋

[@miaa1762]

Why did your dad get so upset sounding when you bit her crepe? :/

[@emmajlz363]

where in the uk is this?

[@amymclellan583]

Exeter in Devon I think

[@FroggyTWrite]

have you ever thought about playing games to help you process + get out of your headspace? video games can be a very powerful medium for conveying thoughts, emotions, and shifting perspective. something like stardew valley or this? ---> store.steampowered.com/app/683320/GRIS/ could maybe help you see / feel things a bit differently or just give you some space to enjoy the simpler things in life.

[@Hollieford89]

How did her ed start. Looks like she feels not as close to her sisters

[@dietcokehead350]

Are you really not in therapy?! Your family focuses WAY too much on the food this can get catastrophic... Food is not the problem, weight is not the problem. You are not addressing the problem you are addressing symptoms. I'm sure your family's well intended but they have absolutely no idea what they are dealing with.

[@azraeltarquin7946]

Youre sister is like actually really rude.

[@arty04]

I don't find crepes appealing. I tried them once at ihop, not for me.

[@elenarainer6048]

It's called "Nutella" not "Natella"

[@mulattopapi9741]

You can just tell how non genuine your food reactions are when you eat them your overcompensating “mmmm ittsss juusssttt soooo good” your very uncomfortable

[@Tnc874]

Nah they are genuine.. i think everything taste good to her she was starved for so long and also she is nervous and anxious about the foods she us eating