*Emotional* Hi Ren First Time Reaction

[@MarissaxMunster]

I'm honestly blown away by the love and support for this video today. I didn't see it coming and I'm truly so grateful to all of you for your kind words and understanding. I'm also so very excited to officially be a RENegade and part of this beautiful community who in turn is helping to build one of my own. THANK YOU!

[@clarissathompson]

Anytime, sister! Welcome to the Reniverse!❤️❤️❤️

[@kevinmclaughlin8975]

Welcome! Enjoy the ride and always have a tissue (or 12) at hand when watching most Ren videos.

[@GeePeeSterRace]

In loss for other words to describe him he for sure is a people connector...... he will make you cry , but also smile or outright laugh and (re)think things.

[@Montana_wildhack70]

You have so much more to see. It’s a wonderful trip.

[@johnwalters5939]

You’ve unlocked the world of Ren, strap yourself in for an emotional rollercoaster of a ride. I loved your reaction, so beautiful. Ren will alter your view on life.

[@MarkSiosal]

Big tough Scottish dude here. I weep like a child listening to this even after the 20 thousandth watch. Especially when he bursts into that beautiful sung part, "so cower at the man that i've become, when I sing from the top of my lungs...." etc. Like he had finally beat the negative voices. I hope you feel ok after that emotional punch in the face. Sending love and best wishes from Scotland.

[@saragates2255]

I do too ❤️‍🩹

[@NoBeard-v8b]

Yep. I second that emotion.

[@Seamus.MacLeod]

Every. Single. Time. From a Scot in California, not Caledonia.

[@Chrisinpommyland]

Same here, howdy from New Zealand

[@Ren10ten-MT]

Rather wee, super-not tough American dude here. Me too, it feels just as good every time and it's an unquenchable thirst. Love and wishes at you too Scotland.

[@TIM_GBR]

You weren't ugly crying. You were pretty crying. Don't sell yourself short.

[@timbeatty8411]

I was sexually abused in the 70s when I was a child and have struggled with the good and the evil in my own head for 55 years. This song has helped an older man learn how to cope. There was no help for little boys back in the day, just shut up and don't talk.

[@Neferteri26]

My brother suffered that at a young age and created a lifetime of drinking to try and hide the memories. Finally told us about it when he was in his forties, so I feel for you. FYI, it was also in the 70's. It helps to talk about to trusted individuals in your life. It helps separate you from the incident. I'm a female in my 60's and was sexually abused since I was 3 so I do get it. Much love to you Tim.

[@Onewayoflife75]

🙏♥️🙏

[@garychap8384]

You're certainly not alone Tim. My situation fortunately came to an end when my father broke two of my ribs and I was removed from the home. I was too young to really remember much... but it still left its mark on me. Fragments really... vague shadowy monsters like bad dreams... a lifetime of mistrust, low self esteem, shame, regular depression and a couple of un-aliving attempts. Heck, I'm 52 now and I still don't trust hugs : / I have to leave the bathroom door open at home, because if I close it I get panic attacks. Occasionally something quite random suddenly feels very familiar and terrifying, it triggers a memory like a Deja-Vu ... and I feel sick and start to panic. I really wish I'd had Rens music growing up and the wonderful community of Renegades. Ren is bringing together people who each understand the darkness in their own way - and who now help bring light and compassion to those that need it. I'm not normally very outgoing and I find it hard meeting new people, but I've met so many Renegades in the past year and they're all amazing, beautiful and kind people. It truly is the most wonderful community I've ever experienced. BTW, have you seen Rens '1 million subs' video ??? That one spoke to me more than anything else he's put out there. The idea that your time in the darkness is a strength that can help you bring light to others. The idea that suffering can be given purpose and brings wisdom and compassion... and that sharing that compassion brings healing. It's such an amazing video, full of love and insights. Anyway, much love to you my friend : ))))

[@timbeatty8411]

@@garychap8384 thank you for the kind words my friend. I hate not trusting people or the thought I have to fight for my life all the time. I check and see if all the windows and doors are locked in my house five times every night. Just to know that I don't think like a normal person sometimes hurts me more than anything. But I wish the best for you my friend and I hope you continue to heal.

[@timbeatty8411]

@@Neferteri26 thank you very much for leaving a comment. Drugs have always been a problem for me since I was 10 years old. I pray you find all the healing you need. I'm fighting and holding on to some hope that I will be a good man one day. Thank you again.

[@MarissaxMunster]

20,000 Views. Wow. Thank you all.

[@Mabus_Incarnate]

Keep the Ren coming, we will keep watching, this is a great community of supportive fans cheering you on.

[@Penstone]

A rising tide, here it comes. You are about to be lifted just a wee bit. Welcome to Ren ❤

[@badgarlicbreath8183]

That's like a wind advisory for a tornado or a high tide warning for a tsunami. Ren is worth it and I am looking forward to watching you discover the artist he is.

[@MrPeachUK]

@Penstone is right.

[@johnshea5967]

Ren managed to do ( in 9 minutes or so), what multi national pharmaceutical companies have been unable ( or unwilling) to do.Real therapy!! And God Bless him for doing so ❤

[@schmeevo1]

Please, for your own benefit, watch his thank you to his fans and reactors for reaching 1M subs. I can tell you that single video changed my perspective on life. Even if you don't want to share your reaction, watch it for you. Trust me. Ren is a special human

[@Rolapaulas]

Yeah, we cry together

[@ravengrin]

Ren will make you laugh, cry, question, and care. I cant wait to follow your journey down the REN rabbit hole.

[@Bunny-bi8dj]

That was a very emotional, raw and very BEAUTIFUL reaction. The line” I’m the voice that you hear when you loosen the noose on the rope” always gets me but this time it hit harder as I felt the emotion from you at the same time. Welcome to the rabbit hole that is Ren and his world of BARDCORE! P.s there will be more tears as you explore Rens music but crying and letting the emotion come out is not a bad thing 💙

[@neilcooper2966]

Not one reaction I've watched (And I've watched a LOT!), has mentioned that sometimes that's the only voice you have for company. Great reaction, have a sub!

[@tomvondeek]

This. I am amazed after watching that much of reactions, there is always something new

[@jessicaehl6888]

♥

[@tastyunicornfarts]

I've only seen it mentioned once before this. Another bit that gets overheard a lot is the 'truth in a blender', because what this evil voice tells us aren't necessarily truths, but it's not lying either. If that makes sense.

[@murrayhall7899]

Possibly one of the best reactions I have seen, and I’ve seen a few. Being from Brighton, I knew of Ren before he blew-up. Your reaction will be important to somebody sometime down the line. Well done.

[@Markus-uc5jq]

Definitely! Because it is authentic. Her vibrations, starting with her voice, her "dance", her mimic, even her breathing (in addition to her lovingly styling of her channel) really caught me. It was like a catharsis live...

[@alvaro6522]

Absolutely!!!

[@gopinhead]

70s rocker here. This is a once-in-a-generation musical piece. I've listened to a lot of reactions to this incredible thing Ren created, yours was genuine and that's what we're all after. Thank you.

[@Dr.Brummel]

Thanks for a great reaction 👍. And some big hugs to you 🫂🫂🫂. Many of us Renegades teared up when we saw this the first time. And lots still do it every time they see it 😢. So you're in good company. Never apologize for it ❤❤❤. And of course: Welcome to the world of Ren. A roller coaster ride through emotions, wisdom, musical genius and genres. There's one constant with Ren: He's always different.

[@Kenai2008]

Beautiful reaction, we all have cried while watching this, you are not alone. Welcome to the world of Ren and welcome to the RENagades ... I am sure they will flock to your site. Ren is an independent artist who recently had the #1 album in the UK. he relies on word-of-mouth and YT reactors to spread his message. Ren has been through a LOT, physically and mentally. I would watch, not react, to his "Chapters (1-8)" where he tells a lot of his life tales. much love ❤!

[@Bunny-bi8dj]

I would agree, watching the chapters helped me learn so much more about ren and his story directly from Ren himself.

[@Onewayoflife75]

You are seen, you are heard & this world is a better place having people like you in it 🙏. Welcome to the world of Ren ❤

[@RENegadeMaster77]

RENegades assemble!......thanks so much for your reaction and for supporting Ren,you're amazing and so was your reaction.Prepare yourself for an outpouring of love and support from the RENegades.Bonus internets for your cinematic preferences,Elvira,Chucky and Frankenhooker are all awesome! Also,love your The C(K)raft T . Hopefully,you decide to react to more Ren,either way,i wish you lots of success with your channel.Much love from the UK❣

[@declanmoore9005]

Welcome to the Renegades ❤ You've found your people here, no judgement just acceptance and love ❤

[@badsabre5917]

All of us Renegades have ugly cried many times to Ren. He definitely has some fun and uplifting songs but he did live in a world of torment for atleast a decade that most people can’t fathom. The first time I watched Hi Ren, I was shook. And I still get chills nearly every time.

[@robertstewart5351]

This 100%

[@markdavis8771]

I'm so glad I came across your reaction video. You're so brave and, yes, you are seen. Your reaction was so honest and raw. You have a new subscriber in me. ☮💚

[@garysherwin3316]

There's life before hi Ren and life after , I'm 62 and this young man has quickly become the most important artist of my lifetime , subbed welcome to the renerverse 🇬🇧😊

[@srslyboomer]

Dude, are you me? :) High-five - glad to know I'm not the only Olde Guy who keeps learning new things from The Intertubes.

[@garysherwin3316]

@@srslyboomer made me laugh that

[@mikeyitfc]

@@srslyboomer Shhhhh don't tell everyone i'm 55 and this guy has really played on my emotions, i've cried, i've related and i've sat in amazement listening to Ren, so i think there's a few golden oldies enjoying this creative genius.

[@jerryd1813]

I’m 72 and I couldn’t agree with you more.

[@papacarl2002]

I’m 61, will be 62 in a week and most wholeheartedly agree! I am you and you are me and we are all together 🤘🏼🎧🤟🏼

[@Scuffer00]

I’ve watched more reactions to this song than I can remember but I do know that I’ve never not seen this song produce another REN fan

[@Wintrycomet757]

Welcome renegade. One of the most amazing things about a hi-Ren reaction is how it kind of drops the mask that we all wear. When it happens, the true human comes forward and it's beyond beautiful. Your reaction is just that, beyond beautiful. (One of the best) 🙏🙏🙏❤️❤️❤️

[@yermomdotcom1]

It never gets old watching someone's life change, this song is that kind of powerful.

[@tvadakia]

Welcome to the tens of thousands of Renegades who have each found solace in the open, raw, hearth that is the voice and wisdom of Ren. He has many deep songs, many light hearted songs, many songs that are playful, some that are quite randy. But one thing all of his music seems to tie together: the people that come across it.

[@graemesmith35]

Hello from Scotland, Ren's genius and his music has been my companion for the last 18mths , i suffer from ptsd and accute depression and without his music his art id be lost still but he has gave me hope and motivation to do better and be a better human .. I hope you delve into the rabbit hole. Try chalk outlines rwn and chinchilla. Dont ever be sorry for showing your emotions its the most natural state to be.

[@srslyboomer]

Best comment I've seen on a Ren video went something like "If you come away from a Thing saying 'wow, that Thing was amazing!' - then it was a great performance. If you come away from it thinking about *your life* - then that was Art." And Ren is definitely Art. You'll find that us Renegades are pretty used to folk being very...Affected by our boi here. Thank you for sharing yourself with all us internet randos ("ugly crying" and all :) )

[@bobsmith613]

There is no greater beauty than a Ren-induced ugly cry.

[@Prime_Mover2112]

Your story is yours, you are under zero obligation to share. I’m sorry for whatever you have been through. Ren can certainly bring out the pain, he’s been through more than any one person has a right to. But he can bring out a lot of fun too and it’s well worth diving into if you feel up to it. I think you’ll love his music. This was a fantastic reaction. Very well done. New sub from me. 👍

[@thumper1273]

Well said!

[@Kantanshi]

*sending hugs* Ren really knows how to manipulate words to draw out the emotions in even the hardest person. Don't worry about tears. I'm a 50 year old guy and when I watched this video I certainly had some tears. In his song "Chalk Outlines" I ugly cried. He put to words a situation I went through a long time ago that I couldn't explain to people. I admire Ren for wearing his heart on his sleeve and sharing his life with us through his music. It lets many people know they are not alone. You are not alone. Shared pain is easier to bear. Thank you for sharing your very honest and vulnerable reaction.

[@yarddawg8287]

Apologies, I'm a bit late to this. Had life stuff going on. This song was also my introduction to Ren. When he started yodeling in the beginning, I admit, I almost turned it off; but I had to know why this song was EVERYWHERE on youtube. I'm sincerely thankful that I squashed the impulse, and watched it to the end! Ren is a once in a generation talent. He calls his music Bardcore; and like the Bards of old he uses his music and songs to not only tell stories, but paint pictures in your mind. Renegades are exceedingly nice, and almost smotheringly supportive 😉😁 Welcome to the family!

[@Biomirth]

You talked about making the channel to find joy again, and how it's okay to also have a video like this. You know, for me, the courage we show ourselves and each other in navigating moments like this (experiencing Hi Ren 'in public') somehow becomes a kind of fuel for joy. Sure, joy doesn't need fuel, but it will burn it if you have it, and encountering our suffering with kindness and patience like you've done, well, that is fuel for joy.

[@greglecig5549]

This song hit me like a ton of bricks. The struggles I’ve been through and the medical issues I have. It was just so overwhelming. I completely broke down by the end of it. My Ren journey began immediately afterwards. He is such a bright light in this dark, dark world. The RENagades are such a loving fan base and we would try to help anyone that is in need. This was a beautiful reaction and you are a beautiful soul. Welcome to the RENagades Also, I’m a huge horror geek and I love your “Frankenhooker” poster

[@boxicuk1620]

Welcome to Ren,enjoy the ride,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

[@michaelmccreary3370]

Ren and his music touch a special place in my heard. So many people that I love have struggled with many of the same issues. I'm glad he found a place in your heart too. ❤

[@totalrando3156]

I love seeing folks with a goth aesthetic react to this bc they immediately grasp that the devil is metaphorical for darkness. Hugs, sister 💕

[@matthewhawkins1472]

Discovered Ren at the lowest point of my existence…. Recently wheelchair bound and my wife of 17 years decided almost immediately that she wanted out…. Instead of dealing with my spinal cord injuries and complications from diabetes. Ren literally very well may be only reason why I’m still here. His catalog is deep and oh so diverse. I haven’t managed to find a bad song yet…. Many wonderful collaborations, touches every genre, and has the ability to make me feel deeply in ways other artists simply cannot do consistently. Welcome to the Reniverse ❤

[@erichburger1935]

Glad you're sticking it out brother. I'm struggling with purpose as well. Ren helps me find a reason and keep perspective.

[@JohnnyColello]

Damn man, sorry to hear about your illness and complications. Stay strong and don't ever give up brother ❤

[@Dr.Brummel]

Here is some brief information about Ren: Ren Eryn Gill was born in Wales in 1990. He moved to Brighton in 2013 and did a lot of busking. He studied music performance at Bath Spa University. In 2009 he became seriously ill and had difficulty attending lectures. In 2010, he was signed to Sony Records. However, as his health continued to deteriorate, he had to terminate the contract. Ren was initially misdiagnosed with depression, bipolar disorder and chronic fatigue syndrome, which led to him suffering from psychosis. It was not until seven years later that a doctor in Belgium finally diagnosed him with autoimmunity and Lyme disease, which led to brain, organ and joint damage as well as PTSD. After stem cell therapy in the United States, his health improved considerably. However, he continues to suffer greatly from his illnesses. For over a year he was undergoing treatment in Canada. A few month ago he came back to the UK to play hist first concert after five years (look for The Secret Garden Party). Not sure were he's now. In October 2023, his album "Sick Boi" was number one in the British album charts. On his RenMakesStuff channel you can find an autobiographical reading about his story in eight chapters. From the end of his friend Joe over becoming ill, getting and losing the contract with Sony, via his odyssey through various diagnosis and attempts of treatments to becoming at least better after his stem cell treatment. Absolutely worth watching. You will understand his songs even better afterwards and they become even more intense. Very personal and emotional videos. His song Troubles is a kind of condensation of these readings.

[@BillyVatcher]

@@Dr.Brummel thanks for your service Dr. Brummel 🫶

[@RichardQuadling]

I was at The Secret Garden Party. I filmed it. I've posted it on my channel (it is literally the only thing of interest there and people seem to be watching it and liking it). There are a few songs not there as they haven't been released (and so only those who attended got to hear them!!!) This is the link to the playlist : kzbin.info/aero/PLhCwb9_IyVpQTLNu1N85Z2H4SEekeCuCc

[@instigatorartworks]

I just saw your Hi Ren reaction, and put this journal entry of Ren's as my comment to that reaction. jAN 01, 2023~~~rEN~ Up until I was 9 years old, I would intermittently hear a voice in my head that was not my own. The voice was distinctly different to mine, and always negative. It would self criticise or urge me to do things I knew to be morally wrong. The most peculiar thing about the voice was that it took no effort on my behalf to produce. My own thoughts always felt like there was a process that required effort to bring them to the forefront of my mind, this voice appeared as though it was spoken by another. The sentences felt predetermined like they had already been constructed. I remember very vividly at 9 years old, becoming very frustrated with the voice. I stood in my back yard, internally screaming at the voice to be silent again and again, and it did. In a flash there was silence, to the point where my head felt like an empty room. I wasn't used to the quiet and that voice never returned. It almost felt lonely in my head. When I got older I had intermittent bouts with auditory hallucinations where I would hear perfect symphonies, usually at night when drifting off to sleep. They were so clear that they sounded like they were emanating from a radio in the corner of my room. I knew they weren't there, but for some reason they never came with the feeling of fear. I also recall sitting on a bus at the age of 15, and hearing the sound of a crowded room, with about 100 voices chattering away, I was the only person apart from the driver on the bus. These experiences were always very brief, and few and far between. My last hallucination was during an intense bout of psychosis in 2015, and was my first visual hallucination. I was walking down a pavement after jumping out my mums car in a crossroads in a moment of frustration and distress with my condition. I was trying to run from myself. What appeared to be a homeless man with a dark complexion approached me, and asked me what was wrong. I explained that I had been sick most my life, and I wasn't sure I had the strength to continue. He looked at me, and smiled and told me 'everything is going to be okay in the end Ren.' I had not told him my name. There was something so overpoweringly sincere about this very simple message, which brought with it an overwhelming feeling of inner peace, and in a flash, he vanished. My rational brain always linked these experiences to what the doctors have told me, that there are parts of my brain compromised by the autoimmunity in my body. That the myelin sheaths surrounding the complex electrical system that conduct my thoughts were damaged and compromised, causing these lucid experiences that I knew did not exist inside the physical world. The part of me that edges away from logical and rational thought always attributed these thoughts to some kind of otherworldly intervention, that made my thoughts the battleground of some spiritual tug of war. For a long time I never really acknowledged this part of myself, for with it brought the danger and stigma of sounding like a crazy person. I decided with my latest release, to the best of my ability, to capture and express this chess match of thought. Hi Ren comes out in just over 24 hours. I can't wait for you all to hear it.

[@BillyVatcher]

@@RichardQuadling Richard! I had yet to see your filming. It’s so close up and personal it looks like one of the best recordings!

[@BillyVatcher]

@@instigatorartworks I also hear perfect melodies right going to sleep. It even occurred to me last night. Music even better than a lot of what I ever heard in my life. But more as if it’s inside me rather than coming from the outside.

[@ryanclarke4482]

Hi welcome to the family 💙 keep stepping forwards.

[@douglasg.9271]

This hits a lot of people hard. Me too girl ❤

[@thumper1273]

I have watched this video at least 100 times since it came out…. I tear up every time. Welcome to the Renegade Family!

[@Codex7777]

It's not just you. I've seen grown men, hard, usually unemotional men, in floods of tears, in response to Hi Ren. I think it helps that it's a live, one take but it's more than that. I've not encountered another artist who can connect emotionally on the level that Ren can! You WILL cry with Ren! Sometimes they'll be sad tears, sometimes they'll be tears of joy or happiness. Sometimes you'll be crying with laughter, bursting with joy, seething with anger and he'll make you think too! You'll marvel at his poetic imagery, his clever and intricate wordplay, his stunning performances and his virtuoso playing on multiple instruments, at his vocal range, his world-class production skills, his award winning directing and video editing skills! He writes and performs in EVERY genre and doesn't miss, no matter the style or genre! He's a unique artist. A musical genius! A once in a generation talent! Believe me you haven't seen anything yet! The depth and range of his many many talents is really quite extraordinary and all self-taught and while suffering horrendously, a horror film level of suffering, due to his chronic health problems and multitude of associated conditions. At his worst, he was bedridden for the best part of 7 years and in such excruciating, unrelenting, 24hr chronic pain, that he couldn't properly sleep, except for the odd hour here and there, of a kind of half sleep, just through sheer exhaustion. His autoimmunity made him severely allergic to an insane number of things, including virtually all food. The 5 or 6 things he was able to eat () a couple of types of organic meat and about 4 different organic vegetables, all plain and unadorned, had to liquidised, or his body would reject even those! As you can imagine, he became severely underweight. I could go on but you get the general picture. All this, combined with death and tragedy from other sources too, eventually induced a psychotic break and full-blown psychosis, on top of his pre-existing adhd and chronic depression and his developing ptsd. Although his condition has improved, he remains seriously and chronically ill. He remains in constant pain but it's at a lower level, most of the time. He still has to have almost the exact same meal, every single mealtime but it no longer has to be liquidised. The psychosis has gone but he still runs the risk of relapses via stress or exhaustion. He still suffers from ptsd, adhd and chronic depression. He tires really easily, has frequent 'brain fogs and blurred vision, suffers from neuropathy, MCAS and years of damage caused to his body and brain by his undiagnosed Lyme's and MCAS. There are positives too though. He's described his adhd as being a pain in the arse but, when it comes to music, he's said it's like having a superpower. All the pain, trauma and suffering, although horrendous, has also helped create a wonderful, wise, empathetic and highly intelligent human being, full of love, compassion and with a wicked sense of humour. It's also informed and shaped his art. Inspiring beautiful lyricism, incredible music and amazing imagery, both literal and metaphorical. tl/dr - Ren's great! Ren's music is great! Definitely react to more Ren! You won't be disappointed. You WILL be surprised... constantly! :) P.S. You'll receive lots of recommendations for Ren's music and performances. You can't go wrong with any of them! Therefore, I recommend reacting to his "Defining Success -1 million subscribers" video. It's not music but will give you more of an understanding of the man behind the music and it's only about 5 minutes long. :) For much the same reason but in more depth, though still engaging, interesting, thought-provoking and entertaining, from start to finish, I recommend Ren's interview with 'Zach Sang'. His interviews are always great but this is among his very best, imho! :) It's just over an hour, so you may want to watch offline but it's great reaction material, if you do choose to react to it. P.P.S. Just to let you know, Ren supports reactors, doesn't make copyright claims on his original material and allows reactors to monetise their reactions to his work. If you're incredibly unlucky and do get a copyright strik, it won't be from Ren. It'll be from someone either mistakenly or fraudulently making it in Ren's name. Just appeal it and Ren will cancel it automatically and you'll be added to his list of 'cleared' reactors! :)

[@Froschfischchen]

I am sorry that you are hurting and I hope that you will find a place of healing so your dance gets more easy. You seem a beautiful person, you are precious and you deserve to heal and feel better.

[@majbrat]

We have all cried with Ren. He will break your heart but then piece it back together better. Welcome to the RENegades. Subbed

[@chrisstallings8381]

REN is ART. Beautiful and genuine reaction. Thank you for letting us in….your reaction will help so many as we all make our way through the journey of life.

[@traceycowden9257]

We may not have known how you would relate, but we knew that you would. It seems most can. For me, seeing others react to this serves to remind me that the struggle isn't just mine to bear and that knowledge somehow bursts my internalised bubble and gives me strength.

[@silentwhisp4r670]

For real! Ren has that talent and it seems like nearly everyone who watches it relates in some way and often in very different ways.

[@quad-sci]

A genuine reaction to Ren, best I've heard for a long time. Marissa you are an amazing person.

[@killito12]

Art helps. Talking about it helps. Therapy helps. You understand. Thank you for sharing this with such honesty. We love Ren

[@Adamsthoughts-zz5kn]

I've seen Ren tell commentors he doesn't really make his music for them to enjoy, HE MAKES IT TO HELP PEOPLE!

[@BillyVatcher]

Yes. Seems Ren never really gave up his fight against evil. ;)

[@shaneboucher4430]

Beautiful empathetic and insightful reaction. You get it and recognize the struggle that REN is articulating so beautifully. His vulnerability is something you hit on right away, and I appreciate that. This song has healed so many and helped so many deal with mental health issues by processing the fact everyone deals with something and is relatable. The "hope" side of REN wins in this one, and it gives us all hope that we can dance with the voices in our head and come out on top by softening and relaxing. Well done Marissa..subbed and liked for more REN. Sending love and huggs your way. 🙏🏼

[@garyweber1536]

Sitting hear at the 8 minute mark having just heard you say you didn't think you would get this emotional... Saying out loud "you better hold on"... This song found me when I needed it... I am so thankful for it and him.

[@TheAndreaDonoso]

I'm here for the jump into Ren Rabbit Hole and to be pleased by looking a small channel go from 88 views in her previous video to 7k in a couple of hours. Love it

[@sharonbunn2363]

It was an honour to watch you connect with this track. You don't need to explain yourself, we get it. If you decide to fall down the rabbithole just remember the other RENegades will be here to (metaphorically) hold your hand and believe me there will be times when you will need that. I am 60 and have battled depression all of my life and never have I felt more part of anything than I do when I listen to Ren knowing there are thousands of people reacting the same way I do and feeling compassion for me though they don't even know I exist. Crutch, Chalk Outlines, How To Be Me, Suicide, these are all hard to listen to but very much worth it and again remember you will not be alone when you listen.... we've got you xxx (He has done some lighter tracks too, Losing It and The Hunger are two of my favourites).

[@Bunny-bi8dj]

🫂🫂🫂

[@Vampyre_Bytes]

"Some people know me as the voice that you hear when you loosen the noose in the rope." -- I have heard that voice. More times than I care to recount. Welcome the the Ren rabbit hole.

[@techpunked]

"Without sadness, there can be no happiness." I forget where that's from.

[@Mhantrax]

Buddhism, Hinduism, Taoism, you name it.

[@MadisonCarter]

Welcome to Ren. It's going to be a ride. One of the most versatile artists out there and everything he does is completely different than the last thing. Some of it's very deep and real, some of it is fun and flexing his musical skills. Enjoy the trip.

[@jhayley72]

Genuinely beautiful reaction. Hope you are doing OK. Sending love your way from the UK ❤

[@Markus-uc5jq]

Welcome to the Renegades Marissa. You are not alone. We are all wounded somehow. Ren is a voice of ours, one of us. He can turn pain into joy. ☀🌧🌈

[@Markus-uc5jq]

Hi Marissa, I want to add something, because I am really moved by your reaction. I feel you. You are so brave! Look, what you have done, how many people resonate with you! This IS something of value already. There might be an abyss, but as far a I can see, feel, you are a wonderful person, in spite of all. You are powerful! And one thing: you are NOT guilty, it is no way your fault! Maybe, you should watch Ren's speech "One million subscribers - defining success". Feel free, to react to it or just watch it. Virtual hug! 🥲

[@DannyCallies]

I've been following reactions since first released. It's relatability is so common and for me so heavily emotional. Thank you so much for your honest reaction.

[@4arrows4all]

Sending you a virtual hug. My first time reacting to this was in the depths of depression, resulting from my post concussion syndrome that I’ve been dealing with for years. I was in a dark, dark place, and I came across this video by chance and I had a good, private, ugly cry. It was so cathartic. I’m not going to go as far as saying he saved my life, but you’re 100% right about therapy and art. And Ren is a heck of an artist.

[@constitutionalknightofcere6651]

Ren's music is soul touching and healing. Sometimes they touch on some hard discussions and feeling. But the underling message you are not alone, we all struggle and can relate on many levels. I look forward to enjoying the Ren journey with you. You'll get nothing but love from the Ren community. And I hope you find healing in Ren's music and message. Peace and Blessings to you and yours.

[@DeadlyVvenom]

Nice reaction welcome to the reneverse ren is an amazing artist he will keep impressing you and you will find alot of support from his fanbase ❤ also love the frankenhooker 😂

[@mattjosh69]

The Renegades are going to love you, I would say never go in to a Renegades song with expectations 😂😂😂.🇬🇧🙏🏻

[@mckalcm7494]

Agreed!

[@jamessmart6647]

Much respect for the Frankenhooker poster in the back!!

[@billymorris3265]

It’s supacrack!

[@raisnaix]

Stages of watching Hi Ren: This looks creepy Guitar sounds nice Oh he’s singing Will the whole song be like this? Here’s the beat Ok he’s rapping now This guy is scary Now he seems nice Oh I see what he’s doing This is interesting This is intense The mean guy is a jerk This is INTENSE Make it stop I haven’t blinked or taken a breath in 2 minutes Go Ren! YES! OOO-OO-OO-OO-OO-.. I need some time to be still

[@4arrows4all]

Facts.

[@erichburger1935]

Lol So true!!!!

[@greglecig5549]

@@raisnaix man, I really wish KZbin had GIF’s

[@Erndog67]

Don't forget almost every reactor says...I didn't expect that... when he starts the owl hooting.

[@endubito]

The 19 stages of "I am not alone"

[@Slymanno]

I'm here for this. You will love Ren - please go down the rabbit-hole ❤

[@johntimmerman5371]

To make a song to touch the soul. To make a feeling we know told. It's important I'm happy you posted this.

[@lindacouch2131]

The first time i watched tis i ballec like a baby. Like so many ren fans I have a story. I know that vicious voice. I have watched hundreds of reactions. The first one i saw where the guy just laughed made ne angry,but now i see how, if you never experienced that voice abusing you it seems like a ridiculous character. I suffered so in my teens twenties and thirties but looking back now i realize i have been happy and healthy for decades. It kind of just snuck up on me. Now that voice is small, ridiculous and easily handled. I hope your search for joy makes eudemonia sneak up on you!❤

[@silentwhisp4r670]

​If you relate or resonate with the song, you are one of us Renegades! Sorry I kind of threw you into the deep end without warning you whats in the song! You crushed it though! If you ever want to do more epic storytelling from Ren I highly recommend the Tales of Jenny and Screech (the 13 minute official video). If you prefer to hear him sing, Chalk Outlines Live is great! You really can't go wrong with whatever you pick though!

[@workingit3055]

Was wondering who the culprit was that didn't tell her to prepare with tissues lol.

[@slayerrocks2]

I'm pretty sure you are just excited to help guide a new reruit to the Renegades to his most impressive works, but I'm thinking Jenny and Screech might not be one to do in front of the camera, for someone coping with childhood trauma and PTSD.

[@silentwhisp4r670]

@@slayerrocks2 Yeah I was going to warn her of the trigger warnings for that one on her Twitch when she is live lol

[@Rushyyz3]

@@slayerrocks2Couldn’t agree more! Maybe some fun rapping like “ Losing it”or “ What you want “😊

[@slayerrocks2]

@Rushyyz3 both amazing and fun tracks. Love Music series falls into this category, too. We're so lucky to have so much choice.

[@michelejohnk1598]

Renegade here. Lot of love and hugs from Germany. I ctied with you as i cried with hundereds of reactors. Its basically therapy for me at this point. ❤️❤️❤️

[@elisazaccheo3270]

Lovely reaction. Be well, and may your dance be filled with an abundance of joy and peace. Discovering Ren and joining RENagades in the rabbit hole has been part of my therapy over the past few months; I've softened, and my eternal dance has gotten easier (not to mention he has a wide range of beautiful, powerful, artistic music videos)!

[@avanjou]

I love nothing more than seeing a new Renegade come into being. Welcome to the Renaissance. Enjoy. ❤

[@stuwyatt]

I watch many Ren reaction videos each day, and I get the feels with each one (it's incredible therapy, and I'm far from alone with my kink). Watching react videos allow us to relive the first time over and over again. It's 100% normal to cry when letting yourself fall into Ren's beautiful musical storytelling. He's a once in a lifetime artist, and it's an incredible rabbit hole to fall into. I still cry when I watch his videos, and I cry with reactors when they cry. Ren takes you places, and those places have feelings. I suggest you react to "The Tale of Jenny & Screech" next, and be prepared for more feels Thank you for such an honest and open reaction. You were seen

[@gletski7591]

Welcome to the rabbit hole of Ren.. ❤

[@Pookiee-1031]

Hey there!! RENegade here! I appreciate your reaction and hope you continue enjoying your journey down the Ren rabbit hole! It's not all sad.. he can make you laugh, smile feel good, cry.. he's just a master of his craft. We're here for you on your journey and glad you have become an instant fan as well! 🥰🤍

[@jackkavanagh5566]

REN brought me here. You kept me here. Easy sub

[@niky9226]

Had to pause and comment the irony 😂 "Dont you make me cry 👀" ... cries for 2 days... Sorry 😂❤🫂 Ok back to the video 😄 Edit: I'm so sorry life has given you some rough challenges. Cptsd is no joke. Big hugs to you!! ❤️🫂

[@axelbjornsson7306]

It's been a long time since someone has gotten me to cry during one of these reactions. Enjoy your Ren journey. I wish you all the best.

[@alloralou4722]

Thank you for such a great reaction! You matter. Look at yourself, you do. 🖤 I’m sorry about the loss of your therapist. I’ve seen so many, more than I can count on one hand and I finally have the best and most caring therapist. It was a long wait but she was worth it. I hope you find the same again. 🖤You have a new subscriber, I look forward to your next reaction. Art definitely helps so much. A lot of Ren’s songs are pretty heavy and some are fun. I love your hair clips!

[@Brunners90]

Welcome to the world of Ren. You have a large rabbit hole ahead of you and I'm jealous - experiencing Ren for the first time is truly something incredible.

[@BillyVatcher]

Oh yeah!!

[@michaelthony9525]

Welcome to the community! Ren will continue to surprise you with every song. He still surprises me. I am always glad when i see others become emotional when experiencing his art. It helps me feel seen. Ive seen this countless times, and i cried with you. Art is supposed to make us feel. So dont ever apologize or beat yourself up for responding naturally. Much love. Your subs are getting a huge boost.

[@cindiaker5778]

You are just a beautiful soul. I have never seen a video of yours...but watching you react to this touched me so much. I am subscribing to see you watch more of Ren....and I agree with you...he is a genius...and you will love his art ....it will rattle you at times....but will leave you wanting more. Much love being sent your way !!

[@thegothfolk]

Sending hugs your way. An amazing and thoughtful reaction.❤❤❤

[@TheLindagdetroit]

❤❤❤❤❤ Welcome, beautiful, to the other side. There's the part of your life before discovering Ren, and now you're here. It will truly be a joy to hold space and keep you company as you discover Ren's body of work.

[@clockworkpink]

More tears coming, I'm afraid, however - many more laughs and an unhealthy amount of talent. Ren uncovered a layer in all of us that we never knew we had. No music or art ever had an impact like this on me and I've been around for half a century. Thank you so much for sharing your first experience of Ren. We watch these reactions looking for validation and belonging and chasing that first time we ever saw and heard the genius that is REN.

[@ClearTheRubble7]

Another new sub here, from a fellow survivor of dark pathways who willingly fell into the Ren rabbit hole. And yes, Ren is a type of therapy for sure! Excellent reaction!

[@Kram21265]

Well done Marissa. 👍 I think crying is the most honest reaction to this video. Ren's work includes a wide range of genres. The Tales of Jenny and Screech (and Violet) are the usual next step. More Ren please.

[@thejohnson9204]

I loved your reaction & analysis of this brilliant performance. Ren does this live, the rawness gives it so much impact. You have heaps of Ren stuff to check out. Thankyou for the reaction, it was so good. Rob.

[@alvaro6522]

THANK YOU!! For your honest, brave and amazing reaction!!! .That was really emotional !I hope you feel fine!!! Much love!!❤

[@simplysimon9868]

Just subbed from England 🇬🇧 Ren will make you laugh and cry but the rabbit hole is sooooo good. The Renegade community is absolutely brilliant!!! We all support one another 🙏🫶😁 Reactors have been a huge part with Rens music and journey. A rising tide lifts all ships!! Great tearful reaction BTW 🫶🙏 I'm 56 and fully admit to having tears 😢 then laughing at Rens lyrics 😆 ❤

[@jessicavee78]

This is what Ren does...he evokes! I'm so glad you found Ren looking forward to more reactions to his genius! Along in the rabbit hole you will come across other fantastic artists that he collabs with...Chinchilla is his soul sister. Them 2 together are magic! 🥰

[@blackpanther3912]

Glad to have you with us. If you want more storytelling Money Game Part 3 is a good story (you can react to 1 and 2 seperate from 3). The Tales of Jenny and Screech is a great story, a bit emotional and touches on TOUGH issues (abuse). It's a trilogy you should react to all at once Jenny, Screech, and Violet's tales... If you like melodic singing, try Chalk Outlines, bittersweet symphony, and The Big Push cover of I Shot the Sheriff/Road to Zion/Hip Hop (red suspenders version) If you want rap, Try Animal Flow, The Hunger, Sick boi, Genesis, illest of our time... Most importantly, Enjoy!

[@mldkenny]

Loved your message to Nathan. There is nothing better than a new reactor appreciating the deep therapeutic skills of Ren. Hope Ren will help your further as you go along the journey.

[@seanwhitmore1564]

Such a wholesome and genuine reaction, first time watching you and I subbed the moment I realized you were an actual human and not just another YT reactor-bot. You’re super pretty as well.

[@BillyVatcher]

There are those who get it and those who don’t. You get it. You are one of us.

[@paulleach3401]

The Ren community are very supportive. He is a generational artist and no one I've seen is as versatile as him. Have subbed you. I have been through some very dark times myself and empathise. Ren and his music has helped me get through some pretty black periods. Please if you ever need to talk throw me a line .

[@mckalcm7494]

Absolutely true!

[@stillninja2741]

Awaiting your journey down the Ren rabbit hole. After reading some of the Renegades comments I already Sub'd before the 'ok, skills on the guitar'. Love the 'darker Bo Burnham' reference. Yes, this song goes so hard! Left Brain, Right Brain is a good analogy as well. Worth the sub already, JS. He will make you cry from what I read below, and it's okay 'we are human beings'. Having such deep emotions and having the bravery to show that to the world. *Metaphysical Hug* It sounds like you know personally how dark that inner voice can be, and know you are not alone. There are many of us who have been 'healed' in one sense or another by Ren. It may very well be in his ability to connect and knowing that there is such a huge community that feels the same is... almost a weight lifted (in that you aren't carrying this alone). Shit indeed. I always take the end as I can handle any pain given to me because I'm here to experience that during this life. That I was given the ability and strength to feel so deeply wasn't an accident. Traumatic, for sure, but it's made me, me. That is the beauty of Hi Ren, it's relatable to so many across a vast spectrum of not only mental or physical side but music industry and any artform really. Curious about that podcast now that you brought it up though. Loved the 'What's that like?' line for depression/PTSD/ext. We appreciate moments like this reaction, so we thank you and I see you. We are called Renegades, but Ren Legion is nice too. Thank you to who got her to watch this as well. My thoughts were very similar and still cry when others do in their reaction. Your crying wasn't ugly, it showed us your soul which is a beautiful thing. Until next time, be well.

[@mastertoymaker5249]

So glad to see your reaction! For those who relate most, Ren's work has changed lives.. even his seemingly gratuitously grim works (Tale of Jenny & Screech) are there to shine a light on problems that we need to fix in order to make a better world. You're interaction here is a part of the process to help humanity. Thank you ❤

[@mothermaclean]

It's ok to cry. Ren has a way to make you feel good and bad and everything in between I am a ren fan (a renagade) welcome To the ren rabbit hole

[@yasha.hartberg]

Welcome to the Ren-aissance! You're in for a wild and amazing ride. Ren makes us all cry--but in the best ways. His music has brought a lot of healing to the world.