Euthanizing A Ewe (Sad Day) | Vlog49

[@rand0ms90_VR]

Bro. Who else started crying once she dragged her body out? Ruthie, This is a sign we love you and care for you. Please rest accordingly and peacefully.

[@JJUrdzela]

I think that part of being a good keeper of the flock, is knowing when, and not letting the animal suffer. You have shown in the last two weeks your love and commitment to your flock by helping to bring so many into this world. You are a good shepherd Sandi!

[@missamericausa]

Joseph Urdzela Great Shepard.......💔✝️

[@marymarden8513]

Sad, but keep your head up

[@ElysetheEevee]

Phew, half-expected to see that one person’s comments in broken English about how it’s bad to euthanize animals in pain.

[@deniseemond9263]

Even though it was three years ago I cried watching this. My heart goes out to you. It’s not a good thing to have to get through. But she was so clearly suffering. We NEVER take this part of animal husbandry lightly. 💝

[@janicefaust6396]

I am so sorry for your loss, Sandi. My heart is breaking for you.

[@conniesanchez2625]

I'm still crying

[@teddycuda]

The juxtaposition of the living tenderness and the violence is stunning, poignant , touching and sad. Our animals have to be given relief when they're in pain; to do this yourself takes courage, strength and love. Lots of love.

[@soyoucametosee7860]

I have followed you on KZbin for a while now. Thank for acknowledging the good the bad and the ugly. And for giving us all the real life perspective of farming that I have understood all my life.

[@missamericausa]

sharon r bower ✝️

[@klover_leaf]

Ya. Owning animals and a farm is amazing but it's not all babies and fun.

[@angeliparraguirre7329]

@@klover_leaf that is unintentionally a good metaphor that also applies to life in general.

[@bethroundell8424]

Well done Sandi! She stayed with her flock until the close of her eyes. She will live on in the genes of her lambs. That is all one can ask of the stock is to carry on the duty of the farm. Maybe what she lacked in lambs was replaced by the joy she put into being your special friend. She wouldn't have be able to give so much to you if she had more lambs to tend. Ruthie was success as she filled your needs. God bless you! He will send more special lambs as needed. You need softness of heart to uphold your toughness of heart on the harder days. Shine on Sandi! Sand sparkles, not bright like diamonds, just a good glow when you get down and look real close, popping up when needed. Feb 21,2022

[@elisapetras8136]

So sad, and all of the faces of the ones watching as you brought her out.

[@Lanchoooo]

Elisa Petras Yes!! We would put animals down outside of the presence of companions.... if a crow is shot? the rest of the murder will not return to that site....

[@heathergriswold7037]

Agree

[@hsichingchen406]

is "getting skinnier" an infectious disease ? why Euthanizing ewe Ruthie ? just let it go naturally by God ! i know someone must kill animal to offer us mutton !

[@klover_leaf]

@@hsichingchen406 if she hadn't than this Ewe whould have suffered. I don't think you understand. I'm guessing you don't own animals. Some times you have to euthanize them for the good of the animal. "Getting Skinnier" literally means that this Ewe, despite having enough food, just wasn't getting enough energy to maintain her. She didn't have any fat and little muscle. It's 100% understandable why she had to euthanize her. This is exactly like a dog. Sometimes they just can't be fixed. Sometimes you have to do this, or they will suffer a slow, painful death.

[@hsichingchen406]

@@klover_leaf do you have their consent ? can you conduct Involuntary euthanasia to animal human being ? i mean no sadness at all, be practical, we raise animals for meat , just considering meat quality and cost down !

[@alsmithangeleena1569]

All the other sheep watching as you dragged her away really had me in tears😭

[@SandiBrock]

really sad... I still have trouble watching this one

[@ANIMOM1976]

I think that was their way of paying their respects.

[@shepherdewan]

Sandi Brock do you give ruby a cuddle

[@shepherdewan]

Sandi Brock ruby is a clever girl

[@annmittelstadt2938]

Yes, I noticed that too. So sad.

[@deemariedubois4916]

I know Ruthie was lovingly put to rest years ago but this brought tears. Sandi thank you for showing all the parts of farming.

[@jenniegreening4697]

Don't look at it as "Putting her down", look at is as you are ending her misery, no longer in pain. You will see her some day again.

[@lilbatz]

Ruthie looked so sick and miserable. You sending her on her way was a kindness.

[@dancingfirefly7761]

You are a brave and courageous woman, Sandi. I see how much you love and care for your sheep. It says a lot that you loved Ruthie so much that you didn't let her suffer, and also that you euthanized her yourself instead of getting Mark or the vet to do it. Thank you for sharing this with us.

[@meganrortiz]

I love how you're so close to the sheep that you recognize their children, mothers, and sisters without needing to look at tags. That really says a lot about your emotional investment of these lovely animals.

[@kascialelonek8757]

I can’t believe how all the sheep watched you drag Ruthie away. RIP Ruthie 💕

[@jhutch1681]

It was like they were all paying their respects...

[@KarmaEnforcement]

Sandi, I found your channel by accident and now addicted to your sheep life! I have started from the beginning to catch up. When I saw the title of this one I almost didn't want to watch. But I told myself I owed it to you to watch every part. It was not how I expected to feel. I felt sad for Ruthie that she was sick, but more so for you that not only you were having to watch her suffer but you also ended her suffering. To say I cried is understated. You were so brave. I can't say enough how much respect I have for you that you did that yourself alone. Watching this reminded me of when our mare that was 6 months pregnant was injured and was down. We couldn't get a vet out to put her down before the next day. My husband said he would put her down. I couldn't stay. I felt like such a coward. I loaded our other 5 horses on the trailer and took them to my nieces farm. I didn't want them to see that. My husband told me later on as we were crying about what had happened. He said that my nieces husband stayed behind and offered to put her down for him. He told him. "No I have to do it. There won't be any love in your bullet." That struck me so hard. He loved her enough to take the pain of putting her down to make sure she wasn't alone and it was done right. That's what this video reminded me of. You loved her enough to take the pain of doing it yourself to be with her. Thank you for sharing your life with us. You are an inspiration!! Much love from. Alabama 🇺🇸

[@rosierose1791]

And PETA says farmers don’t care about their animals 🙄 rip

[@hsichingchen406]

is "getting skinnier" an infectious disease ? why Euthanizing ewe Ruthie ? just let it go naturally by God ! i know someone must kill animal to offer us mutton ! i know someone must kill animal to offer us mutton !

[@TheQuietOne95]

@@hsichingchen406 Because as Sandi said, she tried to help Ruthie through medication and had left her alone, up until she wasn't eating, separating herself and was in pain (grinding teeth) . Ending her suffering is better than leaving her to endure it until she died from whatever disease was causing the wasting (getting unhealthily thin to the point it negatively affects muscles, organs and general quality of life).

[@hsichingchen406]

@@TheQuietOne95 do we have their consent ? can we conduct Involuntary euthanasia to animal human being ? i mean no sadness at all, be practical, we raise animals for meat , just considering meat quality and cost down !

[@TheQuietOne95]

@@hsichingchen406 We do practice involuntary euthanasia in humans, in cases where the patient is brain dead, and or injuries are considered "incompatible to life" it falls to the next of kin to make the decision, and the wishes of the individual may sometimes be ignored. Regardless, naturally an injured, sick or dying animal is culled off by predation or the elements, and thus would not suffer prolonged pain or illness. In a human made environment such as a barn however, where humans control everything and are 100% responsible for the condition and well-being of their animals it is at times necessary to make that decision to end the animals pain, because they have no means of ending it themselves except for starvation or dehydration which are arguably far worse and Ruthie was not eating. As for eating animals that have died naturally, generally that isn't practiced for several reasons. If the animal is diseased, the flesh is usually labelled hazardous due to the risk of transmissible diseases that can be transferred to humans or our pets. But generally if an animal dies of old age it is a poor quality meat and a lot of people dislike it. I'm really not sure what your argument is here though... Ruthie was clearly more a pet. She was cared for and I highly doubt Sandi had any intention of eating her, and 100% had her best interest in mind.

[@hsichingchen406]

@@TheQuietOne95 euthanasia ro human being, first, the law say ok, then, strictly in accordance with "due process of law", means what ? mission impossible ! just consider animal meat quality, cost down to handle animals' lives !

[@hollybrown2384]

This video actually made me cry 😭😭😭😭😭😭

[@SandiBrock]

Me too!

[@anthonybinning3853]

Sandi Brock you can see in her eyes that you were her friend also

[@hsichingchen406]

is "getting skinnier" an infectious disease ? why Euthanizing ewe Ruthie ? just let it go naturally by God ! i know someone must kill animal to offer us mutton !

[@denniswoodby6369]

Me too.

[@paigeklingele1953]

Me too 😭

[@ouraussiefamilylife4596]

This made me cry, you can see what these animals mean to you

[@Ima_sniperrr-Louisianacowgirl]

Ikr it made me cry too

[@slugabunyhawaii7255]

Me2

[@barclayfarm-britishwhites4039]

I think 🤔 it's good to know that all life matters. We must appreciate their life and their sacrifice. A good shepherd loves their flock and their lives are intertwined. Without the sheep the shepherd would not have meat and wool to eat and to trade or sell for other goods that others produce. Without the shepherd the sheep would no longer be cared for and bred and propagated they would no longer have protection and the end of life in nature is if you have ever watched a real documentary is never very kind or peaceful for either the prey animal or the predatory one. Life and the end of life is harsh and usually does not end neither quickly nor peacefully.

[@scottkellogg3502]

Thank you for posting this. It was helpful in putting down an old friend. Dreama was 14 years old. I found her yesterday and she couldn't get up. I decided it would be kinder to put her down.

[@SandiBrock]

Hey Scott. Agh... its not easy. But you're so right... its always kinder when they get to this point to put them down. No different than a pet. But man... it makes for some sad days after.

[@Akai-Shade]

I have seen this before it is a disease that happens to a lot of older sheep there was no way to help her and she was just gonna hurt more and more until her body slowly shuts down, you did the right thing

[@SandiBrock]

Thanks Clara. I agree.

[@meghanplamondon8639]

Omg, you are by far one of the strongest people I know! You were able to talk is all through this , all the while your heart was breaking, amazing. . The other sheep honored Ruthie by giving her an honor guard as she was taken out, that’s how special Ruthie was. She would have thanked you for ending her suffering , and she was lucky to have you taking care of her. 😓❤️

[@cloakinghawk]

Having a heart dosent make you weak. It makes you stronger. ❤

[@stacyeandrew2]

The fact that you have so many pictures of her and you know who she is and who her baby is , is amazing to me. And how special it was that her baby that is an adult is staying near her momma when she isn’t well. So sad

[@Amerisis1972]

I am sitting crying like a baby. Omg. You are so strong. And yes it’s hard but knowing she is not in pain anymore, not sick. Rest In Peace Ruthie.

[@barbaraortiz3001]

OMG I feel for you so sorry you lost your pet friend. I cried when you were taking her away and all the other sheep looked over the fence as if to say goodby...

[@SandiBrock]

Broke my heart.

[@marionphillips5979]

The last most loving thing you can do for your animal is to keep them from being in pain.

[@sarahreddin9601]

Damn it 3.5 years later. Only watching you about a month and decided to go back to the start and watch everything. I’m sobbing my heart out!!

[@sparklepurple24]

This is exactly why I'm a new subscriber. You are an amazing shepherdess and I love your heart. Other sheep farms may have a lot of the same details to share in their videos... but they cannot compare to yours! That's because it's YOU at the heart of it all. Thank you for sharing the human side of things that are tough. Your courage and strength are so precious to witness.

[@monkeytales6446]

5:17 I love how all her mates were lining up to see her off.

[@jporras1439]

It's 4:30 am on January 21, 2020 & I'm crying. The sheep watching over the wall as Ruthie was leaving did it for me. Showing respect for their friend.

[@MichelleS-Gamer]

This came up on my feed on 31st July 2022. That was a hard watch. It was nice seeing the other sheep paying respects to their friend. Sandi did the right thing, it was clear that Ruthie was in pain and suffering.

[@katesquad3867]

I've watched this many times and everytime the music and all the sheep paying their respects tugs on my heart strings.

[@karenmurkot2153]

@@katesquad3867 Me too! I'm bawling.

[@lakefarmliving563]

Held back tears as I watched this.. We just added two goats to our farm last week and I've been watching your videos for a couple weeks now. Thank you for sharing your story and your life with us, even when it's hard. I'm glad she had a few moments with you and her sheep friends before it was time. She was with her favorite human, so thank you caring enough to know when it was time and knowing you were the one to do it. Much respect! Keep up the good (hard) work, you inspire me daily to be the best farmer I can be!

[@lindsaylackeymb3cfarms357]

I truly respect you for posting this. Brings a tear to my eyes. Its extremely helpful. I have 2 with names and when that day comes it will crush me. Thank you for being such a strong woman. RIP Ruthie.

[@minawa252]

Just remember hun. Ruthie is no longer in pain and in a better place. You did all that you could for her. She gave you beautiful lambs. R.I.P Ruthie look down on your wonderful owner and the rest of the flock.

[@besamecuh1217]

who is here after ruby had rusty? grandson looks just like his grandma

[@jimmywarner1105]

I have been there with horses and cattle on our farm. First time is the absolute worst but it never gets easy at any time. God bless you for not letting her suffer.

[@judymeyer1760]

The fact that you loved her enough to help her die is in some strange way, beautiful.😥

[@debyzimmerman6617]

My heart broke for your loss. I've been in your shoes and was able to do the job only because of my love for the animal and wanting to end their suffering. It never gets easier but having animals puts that responsibility on our shoulders as their caregivers in all aspects. At least you have her daughter....❤❤

[@nikkiiketo2154]

It's all part of owning animals, but you for sure did the best thing for her. People think farmers dont give a crap about the animals they raise but when you have ones that have been around for so long they become like family. RIP Ruthie.

[@SandiBrock]

Thanks so much Nikkii... you're so right. These are the WORST days...

[@pennyduncan9609]

Sandi....every time I watch this I cry my eyes out....you are an amazing lady Sandi she is not suffering no more .....God bless ruthie xxxxx,

[@FeatheredLife]

I'm sorry this so late cuz my own experience with euthanization stopped me from watching it until today. I bawled my eyes out the first time I had put a favorite sheep down. The experience was so traumatic for me that I couldn't do it again for years. I would call a vet b4 I would do it again. Sandi, we all make your own peace with having to euthanize. Rest in Peace Ruthie.

[@courtneymartinello7725]

Bless you for your strength to take care of her. Watching the sheep as you pulled her body away was so sad.

[@LL-vj5yp]

It’s a difficult life you live. My respect. You did the very best for her. God keep you.

[@lisaarbour6784]

So sad and such a hard thing for you to have to do. She is no longer suffering though. Thank you for sharing the hard part of farming...the reality of farming... with us. God bless you and may your friend Ruthie RIP.🙏❤🙏

[@vickyrose2239]

I cried with you 😭 You are very strong and loving person. If you were egoistic you would let her die in pain but YOU ARE NOT! you gave her peace and relief and I'm are thankful for that ❤ Can't even imagine how hard it had to be for you.. stay strong sweetie ♡

[@minawa252]

I also know this was so long ago but you gave Ruthie a great life and other ewes and they are watching down on you and the flock from the rainbow bridge. God bless you all

[@crazycoyote1738]

Sandi, Thank you for your straight from the heart videos. God bless you and your flock.

[@SandiBrock]

Thanks!

[@oldsouthernwhitelady949]

This is why I watch you, your heart. Grace and peace

[@jocelynhyde2197]

Rest In Peace dear Ruthie you were an amazing sheep we will keep you in our hearts forever She’s now in heaven and you will one day see her again Love you always ruthie!

[@jennigrace5696]

I am so sorry. Thank you for being one of the few people who don't show the animal being put down.

[@zogreid]

Awww, beautiful Ruthie, it was so sad to see all of there head's over, watching u move her, AT LEAST she went where her family was, where she felt comfortable, where she knew, not in a place where it's clinical, and she had u by her side, r.i.p Ruthie xxx hugs from Manchester UK xxx

[@cookiemobers5650]

I lost my 27yr old mare Annie, on Dec 5th, to colic. Animals have a way of getting into your heart, sometimes closer than other people. Thank you for caring for Ruthie enough to let her go when it was time.

[@bethnovicki8438]

God bless you.....you gave Ruthie a dignified ending to a wonderful life.

[@TJP-tq4np]

I would be a terrible farmer, but I am thankful that there are people who can handle the bad along with the good and manage their farms properly ❤️

[@glitchysan9594]

My nana is having to put her dog of 12 years down today. She is very depressed and sad. We were hoping daisy(the dog) was going to make it until after Christmas. But she will miss it by 1 day. She has congestive heart failure and hasn’t been able to breathe without her oxygen mask. Please hope my nana gets through this...

[@alexisjankowski3281]

Kimco Draws That’s so hard! I am sorry. I have been through losing dogs. I have one more dog who is 13 years old. I don’t even wanna to think of it....

[@rand0ms90_VR]

I recently had a dog die in front of me. Four hours earlier she was taken to the vet and told to have heart failure. My dad was sitting on the couch and noticed her stop breathing, they pushed on her chest and try and get her to breathe again but all she did was spit up blood. The other dog didn’t go near her. She knew she was gone, I’m the one to feed her and such and to know that she’s gone and I won’t feed her again is heartbreaking

[@jillossotron8163]

Our eldest cat died a few weeks ago. Loved her so much. Rip Sprinkles the cat.

[@AM-xo7lr]

Poor Ruthie definitely wasn't right - that distressed little face! But at least she got to be with her own flock including her offspring until the last moment, and that is surely the most calming and happy place for a sheep.

[@zoiesomers6393]

I know this happened a while ago but I just wanted to say how strong you were to do this. I couldn’t even imagine having to do this to any animal. I’m sorry you lost her ❤️

[@flowingwaters5118]

Some animals just hold your heart and while its hard to let them go and even harder to do it yourself, you know that you didnt let them suffer longer than they needed to. I appreciate that you show all aspects of farming.

[@ericabirdsong]

Girl I’m crying with you. I’m sorry for your loss. RIP Ruthie.

[@hayleythompson7595]

This broke my heart. The mark of a good person is the empathy they show to creatures. You're an amazing woman sandi, i admire your strength xx

[@guystubbs4426]

Always hard to lose a member of the herd. Especially one that you have created a bond with. It always seems to be those dang bottle babies you keep as ewes that become our "friends" in the barnyard. You did the best thing for her. She is no longer hurting. Good stewardship.

[@kathrync5640]

I cried with you and for you. Putting them down is hard enough but having to do it yourself is harder. Bless you for loving them all like you do.

[@anytirellc]

this is where good friends can be helpful. as someone who isn't emotionally attached could euthanize your "pet" without such sadness. i have one cow that i could never do in (even though I've done dozens) i certainly would call a friend instead.

[@SandiBrock]

Good idea! my husband would have totally done it. But this one, I wanted to do. I wanted to be with her in the end.

[@100snyderm]

Speaking from experience no matter whether you actually euthanize or not it still hurts when you have bonded with an animal. I had my brother euthanize a goat for me this year (he has more experience with firearms). First one I have had to do in 7 years of owning goats. It still made me cry....

[@angeliparraguirre7329]

I don't think that works like that. Someone may get an animal euthanized, but are not likely doing it themselves and still feel a loss of the relationship they had with them.

[@GinaBush-gb6tk]

I cried watching a friend putting her friend out of misery. God Bless you, Sandi.

[@kalynshafer751]

I felt her pain. I had tears going down my face when she started pulling her out. That's the hardest part of owning any animal.

[@Nikki_81]

I'm only just watching this, and watching you get emotional made me so emotional as well! Even when you have a working farm it is hard to not get attached to them! From sheep 1 to sheep 10000! I respect how you proceeded with this video. Even though it's been 4 years since this video was put up and I only found it by wondering who ruthie was based on your remembering ruthie cup. This was still such a sad but beautiful video! Thank you for sharing!

[@justinhigginbotham5799]

All of the other sheep were paying her tribute when she was being taken away RIP Ruthie

[@helend6085]

So sorry for your loss. A beautiful sheep. ❤️

[@shelleys900]

I know this happened awhile ago but I am new to your channel and am watching them all catching up. Poor Ruthie. She was loved and had a great life. Gotta say I bawled. You were very brave to make the decision and do this for Ruthie. RIP.

[@SandiBrock]

Thanks Shelley... this was one of my hardest days for sure...

[@colleenkopp56]

You don't have to cry, I cried enough for both of us!! Sorry you lost your friend Ruthie!!

[@torisimmons7926]

I’m 12 and when I was 6 i was helping my pop on the farm and my lamb died in my arms she was all black and I named her blacky so I know what you are going through I was crying for like and hour she was my favourite

[@alexandraschreck7824]

I love that song...and have a very special connection to...a happy one. So glad it could help you to pass this difficult moment and what had to be done.

[@dakat1726]

When you gently brush her head after bringing her out of the pen, tears.....we try to make our goodbyes just that, good and with great thanks to the wonderful animals who touch our lives.

[@truddle1]

I just now viewed this video. What a wonderful heart you have. I would have been shocked (and disappointed) if you had not reacted this way. It brought tears to my eyes.

[@lesliebarger897]

It hard say good bye to a friend a friend that is a pet even though a sheep she was like talk it was your pet there's a certain animals even if they are livestock your friend

[@josummers5045]

Proud of you for being honest about doing the hard things.

[@countrygirlxo7188]

Makes me think of when my dogs die, we all have to go through it someday. Still doesn’t make it easy 💔🌹 R.I.P. ruthie

[@sarahpetersen6576]

Oh wow. This was in my recommended and thought it was new 'til I saw the date flash on the screen. I'm so sorry you had to do this to a beloved sheep.

[@JudyHart1]

This is the suck part of having animals.

[@simplyequestrian1767]

I am so sorry for your loss. I can't imagine having to do that to one of my own. You are a strong and very kind woman. Your animals are blessed to have you as their caretaker.

[@tanyadueck1483]

I can understand keeping it a special sad moment between you. I think that's a good thing to do.

[@JbirdL2233]

Thank you for sharing sweet Ruthie with us. She was so beautiful and sweet.

[@MsMOLLYKINS]

Death is a part of life but that doesn't make it easy. Farmers more then any one get this xoxo rip

[@ArreisMorsCI]

Oh Sandi, I'm in tears!!!! This is heartbreaking, I can't imagine how you felt!!

[@zombiewarzunter4703]

I just saw this video in my recommended today nearly a year after this. I wasn’t crying until I saw that all of the sheep were staring and watching as the body was pulled away.

[@dalekirkland930]

Ohh Sandi..this was so sad..it had me crying right along with you..my heart breaks for you and your friendship you had with her 😭💕

[@brandivalentine7267]

Ugh! My heart broke watching how sick she was n she deserved to be released from her torment. I know it’s not easy even if you didn’t name them. Did you ever find out what made her sick?

[@shawnoutcelt]

Sandi, you take your job seriously and you do it with love. I've nothing but the utmost respect for your choices and way of life. Your hard work and dedication to your family and your flock is commendable and deserves nothing but praise. Wishing you and yours the best of 2020. And I cried with you...

[@DJ-bh1ju]

You've shipped off hundreds of them to market knowing what was going to happen to them. It's a bit different when you have to do the job yourself, especially to one you've developed a bond with.

[@SandiBrock]

Indeed. Very hard...

[@stephanieellis5399]

Sandi also mentioned in another vlog that when they're healthy and going to market it's not so bad. But when they're suffering, that's what makes it hard. Or at least that's what I understood from what she said. Sandi, I'm so sorry for the loss of your Ruthie.

[@hazzy6866]

@@stephanieellis5399 I'd have thought when they are ill it's putting them out their misery and would be easier but killing hundreds of healthy sheep would feel wrong because there's nothing wrong with them and they don't want to die.

[@edemontfort9482]

@@hazzy6866 I could never do it. I could never watch a precious lamb being born knowing in the back of my mind I was going to send it off to be slaughtered. My mind could not compartmentalize in that way. My job has been animal rescue for the last 50 years. I understand slaughter is necessary so that people can eat meat. I'm just saying that I personally could not raise and care for animals that were going to be slaughtered and I've been that way since my aunt raised a calf to butcher. I liked that gentle calf and never quite got over that they slaughtered a "pet".

[@outsidersongs2682]

@@edemontfort9482 I lived next door to a smallholder sheep farmer, who was maybe in his 50s, and he took good care of them (aside from castrating lambs with pliars) but he hated sending them to slaughter. He was attached to his sheep. It was a line of work that he had inherited and I often felt like he had no idea why he was doing it. He was always poor too. Each year he would pick a favourite lamb to save as well as those selected to be ewes. So he was always followed by about 6 adult sheep that he fed milk to and let wander in and out of his kitchen. I don't think he liked it at all. They were being born to be killed. I feel like if a lot of the best livestock farmers saw footage of the slaughter of their particular lambs, piglets and calves at the abattoir they would be horrified and traumatised. It would be a bad shock.

[@indigomoon9994]

😭 Major respect goes out to you. Debated if commenting would re cycle this sad memory, but I didn’t see anyone comment the following (at least I didn’t see)... I noticed that all the others watched you bring Ruthie out and they also watched you walk back. It was the sweetest thing. You are so loved by your sheep and they were all there with you in this moment. They respected you and most importantly you were not alone. Thanks for being humane and human. Xo

[@cherylwright6493]

Thank you for posting this. I have a very special wether that is 13 years old that I have to put down today. He is the first sheep I picked out for my flock. He's been a wonderful friend. Even though he's a wether, we were able to use him as a teaser ram when we were doing V-AI. He loved his job! :-) I will miss him dearly. You have showed me that this method of euthanasia is much better than a gun. Farming is hard. Many facets of it that most people don't see. This is one of them. So sorry for your loss of Ruthie.

[@SandiBrock]

Hey Cheryl, so sorry about your friend. Yes, these are the hard days for sure...

[@bonnieabrs1003]

Hallelujah. Perfect. The hardest thing to do. Horse folks say when they pass they go over Rainbow Bridge to lush green fields & wait for us to join them. I can hardly wait.🐎❤️🙏🏻

[@cookim8364]

You’re amazing, my heart aches . Even though it was a year ago. You’re so strong and compassionate. You didn’t let her suffer. Even if it made you cry. It’s not a weakness it’s because you cared and still do a great job. I have been loving watching you lamb this season!!! All the best for 2020!!!

[@AdaMcEwanWilson]

Oh Sandi, I am still binge watching you again and I had to stop and tell you, I actually love how you are with your pets. You are what I call a empath. If you lacked any of these qualities you wouldn't be able to keep going. You are a beautiful soul and your compassion shows. As tears stream down seeing you in so much pain, I am hugging you tight from Iowa. I know it's been a few years now, but that heart hasn't changed. Much love to you.

[@zoexx2646]

I have seen her is some of your old videos but never really felt anything but seeing you take her out really got to me, seeing all the others try and see what was happening 🥺💛💛

[@curisitykilledthecatnone7730]

I'm so sorry for your loss!! It must have been so hard for you. But you did what you had to do. At least she knew she was loved. You did the right thing by not making her suffer😢😭

[@conejitaconsentida1821]

Im not going to cry .... Had me crying 😭 This was very sad.....

[@liseforget1687]

I cried with you. I have seen Ruthi in other vlogs. She loved you so much. You did her a favour. She is no longer in pain. I can only imagine how hard it was. Hugs.

[@bambambillybears8170]

It’s so sad but what impressed me the most was how the other lambs acted like they knew what just happened!!!

[@ANIMOM1976]

I'm confident they did. 😔

[@dorothycordova1678]

They absolutely did. I am sure they knew that she was sick.

[@rajoba7981]

Having a Sandi marathon, watching old videos. This one made me cry my eyes out. And I'm so thankful for it. ❤️ Thank you so much for all you have shared.

[@kirwanqueren]

Aw Sandi, I feel that one. Damn onion cutting ninjas!

[@Bandit37804]

Sandy, I love your videos and love that you share your life with us. My heart broke for you having to do this and I cried with you. God bless you.