Failure Girl english ver. 【Oktavia】失敗作少女【英語で歌ってみた】

this :) is :) fine :) nothings :) wrong :)
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Lyrics: sonimiki.tumbl...
Feel free to use as always, based off of Hazuki no Yume's translation.
Request a song: symphonymermaid...
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Every couple loud songs, I like to do a softer song (as best as my loud ass self can). Actually, as I was recording this, I even found an Ib version of the song, about Mary ( • Video ). I never thought about it, but it does fit well.
Honestly I don't know what makes me sadder, this song or the fact that the comments on the song video are filled with "I relate to this so much". I'd say I'd give you all blankets and desserts to make you feel better, but I'd be hypocritical since I'm still struggling with this sort of thing as well. Oh well. We can all be sad together at least! ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ
I got a lot of requests for this song and I've wanted to do it for a very long time, but writing the lyrics took forever. Whenever I have to write about self hatred I think I'm gonna do great but then the words seem very forced. Maybe I'm scared? Who knows.
Anyway. I managed to get them done today and sang it. You can always tell when I'm sad because I binge watch Sailor Moon and the only noise coming from my apartment is "TSUKI NI KAWATTE OSHIYOKI YO" over and over
I hope I didn't disappoint you. Thanks for all your support lately, it truly does make my day to see comments and likes.
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♫ Credits ♫
Vocals/Sub/Mix: Oktavia
Music/Lyrics: Kairiki Bear ( / kairikibear )
Illustration: Nou ( / nounoknown )
Character Design: Siomidu ( / siomidu )

[@petermarsella6537]

Oktavia: posts a song cover that's kinda sad Everyone: lmao me af Oktavia: you weren't supposed to do that

[@Lunaliladee]

lmao same tho

[@greentea9877]

Lol so sad yet true

[@kyuokuo]

We are all pogchamps inside with major oof moments.

[@bird9581]

@@kyuokuo this genuinely made happy and idk why-

[@TopEye64]

But...same Miku

[@Gracellot]

*sees the comments on how people relate to this* No, you're all my children now, I'm adopting all of you Edit: I'm seeing a new rush of children for me to hug so I just want to let you know I feel you and will bake you many cookies

[@zarinavina5391]

Akemi Chan Thank you..mom..?

[@Gracellot]

zarina vina *hugs* You're welcome

[@zarinavina5391]

Akemi Chan _hug_ ♥

[@Elizabeth-hu9os]

Thank you😭

[@ramonarize3721]

Akemi Chan I didn't make a comment, but relate. Can I still have a hug?

[@DRed-tw3hc]

slowly puts down red pen I was using

[@queenalice7483]

Levana Red I have a pink one does that count?

[@LowIntSpecimen]

@@queenalice7483close enough

[@LumenAzai]

1 year for a response lmao 😭😭

[@canon1729]

バツ....バツ....これもバツ.....🤯

[@RatesYourRagebaits]

Hey, if you don’t mind, can you… “Give me a red pen”?

[@Slaanash]

"God, if you're there listening to my song I want to be reborn worthy They say you don't make mistakes so do you just hate me?" Well damn. That's a feel.

[@dandi-lion33]

Ssme-

[@Chloe_Gee]

Same

[@aLiShii_]

I've questioned myself this my whole life, as to why is my life growing up is shitty with uncaring parents and getting bullied. And I would have to think as to why God gave me a unfair life while I watch others go freely..

[@Silly_Sulky_Seli]

"let's all cry togheter" I got my hankercief, has anyone tissues?

[@chimine11]

*gives ya tissues Here you are ;-;

[@Silly_Sulky_Seli]

Mine•exe :3 thank you

[@sleepy_sleeby]

*donates a costco box pack of tissues*

[@AlexTorres-hj2je]

Your grammar reminds me of my life. Crappy.

[@elina21596]

@@AlexTorres-hj2je you remind me of my teachers, rude.

[@TheWinterHaze]

The lows of severe depressive disorder in a nutshell. I hope those smilies in your description weren't gestures of self deception!

[@turtlesquare7174]

im sorry, but what??

[@GacktsOversizedTittiesYumYum]

@@turtlesquare7174 was there anything confusing about it, it's pretty obvious

[@SubZeroNexii]

That's severe depressive disorder? Oh. Oh no. :)

[@adaon2282]

Can confirm

[@reveriemaple]

LETS GOOOOO ITS THE 6 YR ANNIVERSARY OF FAILURE GIRL 🗣🗣🗣🗣🗣🗣🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥 i know literally no one will see this but i'm simply paying my respects to one of my favorite covers, thank you oktavia for this fucking banger a little too relatable i hope things have started looking up since you posted this, you deserve it and i still adore your voice just the same as i did when i first discovered your content.

[@nissnynass]

omg and this was 6 months ago

[@crowsfate2535]

@@nissnynassdamn if i only where here 4 days ago

[@lujainhasgottobekiddingme]

oooo this was 1 year ago

[@IZA124]

sCREAMS AT THIS BLESS YOU AND YOUR VOICE

[@OktaviavonSeckendorff8]

I'm late responding but THANK YOU!!!

[@moistbread8993]

Look at that, I made a mistake again You can tell I’ve lost count with the red pen It’s a fact, theses scars still reveal Despite how I’ve tried forcing them to heal See with that, they say ignorance is bliss Playing dumb, I’ve really gotten good at this It’s a fact, they’ll say whatever ‘bout me How I’m unwanted and loved by nobody Bruised before you, the pain the pain Have to push through the pain the pain Bid my breath adieu, the pain the pain hurts so* Everybody tells me I’m a failure, there’s no reason to even show me love No matter whatever I do, it falls short of enough i-I-I just have to try and fake through the whole way If I smile abidingly, would then it be okay? Look at that, seems I’ve scraped my skin again You can tell I’ve lost count of times fallen It’s a fact, theses traumas still reveal Despite all my tries to still conceal See with that, I’ll pretend nothing’s amiss Holding it in, I’ve gotten good at this It’s a fact, they’ll say whatever they think I feel their hatred covering me With choking feelings, I’m quaking quaking Self loathing, I’m shaking shaking Suffocating, still faking faking I’m whole Everybody tells me I’m a failure, there’s no reason to even show me love No matter whatever I do, I’ll still be the victim i-I-I still wonder why I breathe in the first place If I smile more naturally, would that make it all okay? God if you’re there listening to my song, then please, I want to be reborn worthy They say you don’t make mistakes, so do you just hate me? Crying my eyes dry, my heartbeat turns to a lullaby Maybe, maybe, when morning comes, I’ll smile for the first time So my life of failed attempts, ‘Till tomorrow, goodbye

[@queenalice7483]

Moist Bread thanks

[@pajama_gangster]

Thank you

[@pajama_gangster]

🙏 😊

[@morimori7456]

Virgo Lyrics much

[@Averageguy-vt7vl]

This song is sort of relatable to me since they(people) do tell me I fail at the things I do, but it's usually me that tell myself these things This is a great song and I love playing it. Your voice is softer than the other covers making it more ___________ I like it

[@candy.soda_4974]

We're the same. I want to give you a hug and hope you feel better.

[@YoppyVU]

I'VE BEEN OFFLINE FOR 3 DAYS AND I COME BACK TO YOU POSTING A COVER AAAAAA It sounds awesome!

[@OktaviavonSeckendorff8]

THANK YOU YOPPY ❤︎❤︎❤︎❤︎❤︎❤︎

[@rocket_1288]

u should make a english cover on mind brand

[@Sours56]

I know this is an old comment, but yeah, I think you/Oktavia should do Mind Brand, whether it be Japanese or English. I think you/she could handle the range and I think it would be beautiful.

[@plantinapot9169]

Yessss

[@OkamiLyra]

F U C K Y E S.

[@wistera8080]

I know all of these are old, but she did it 😂

[@somerando5975]

@@wistera8080 wait oktavia did it already?? I can't find it :((

[@Nerqie]

Look at that, I made a mistake again You can tell I’ve lost count with the red pen It’s a fact, theses scars still reveal Despite how I’ve tried forcing them to heal See with that, they say ignorance is bliss Playing dumb, I’ve really gotten good at this It’s a fact, they’ll say whatever ‘bout me How I’m unwanted and loved by nobody Bruised before you, the pain the pain Have to push through the pain the pain Bid my breath adieu, the pain the pain hurts so* Everybody tells me I’m a failure, there’s no reason to even show me love No matter whatever I do, it falls short of enough i-I-I just have to try and fake through the whole way If I smile abidingly, would then it be okay? Look at that, seems I’ve scraped my skin again You can tell I’ve lost count of times fallen It’s a fact, theses traumas still reveal Despite all my tries to still conceal See with that, I’ll pretend nothing’s amiss Holding it in, I’ve gotten good at this It’s a fact, they’ll say whatever they think I feel their hatred covering me With choking feelings, I’m quaking quaking Self loathing, I’m shaking shaking Suffocating, still faking faking I’m whole Everybody tells me I’m a failure, there’s no reason to even show me love No matter whatever I do, I’ll still be the victim i-I-I still wonder why I breathe in the first place If I smile more naturally, would that make it all okay? God if you’re there listening to my song, then please, I want to be reborn worthy They say you don’t make mistakes, so do you just hate me? Crying my eyes dry, my heartbeat turns to a lullaby Maybe, maybe, when morning comes, I’ll smile for the first time So my life of failed attempts, ‘Till tomorrow, goodbye

[@CandiedAppleSlices]

never heard this song before, i guess i should really get more acquainted with karakiri bear's stuff, since this is amazing. but wow, those lyrics... they definitely resonate. though i'm not familiar with the original, i like the flow and emotion your lyrics have here. and your voice! the choruses were especially beautiful. nice work!

[@byakuyatogami2905]

I just realized all of your thumbnails have grief seeds

[@Auxieliatrix]

It’s taken me so long to realize this because of your comment

[@sevengnomesinatrenchcoat]

they what

[@byakuyatogami2905]

@@sevengnomesinatrenchcoat in Madoka Magica, when a magical girl becomes a witch her soul turns into a grief seed

[@hi-ju1uu]

OMG I JUST REALIZED

[@ameladaptivedaydreamer949]

OMG i LOVE your covers,you always cover the songs that i love and also LOVE SO MUCH your voice :3 also i dont know if im just looking too much at it but most of the Kairiki Bear PVs the "protagonist" of the songs are always looking to the side like they dont want to make eye contact with people (us the viewers in the case) but then theres Heart Nonsense and the "protag" is looking at our eyes because she doesn't care anymore she just wants someone help.......or im just crazy xD i really dont know xD but it was something that i noticed and found interesting xD

[@OktaviavonSeckendorff8]

Wow, I actually never noticed that but... WOW OKAY THAT MAKES A LOT OF SENSE

[@ameladaptivedaydreamer949]

Oktavia von Seckendorff Oh really,i thought i was just too much at nothing 😅 but im happy that this little detail bring more life to the song and that i could be of some help to make the story of the song more rich and im happy you like my little theory :3 also keep being awsome sweety ;3

[@foamkyu3395]

LYRICS: Look at that. I made a mistake again. You can tell I've lost count with the red pen. It's a fact, these scars still reveal despite how I've tried forcing them to heal. See with that, they say ignorance is bliss. Playing dumb, I've really gotten good at this. It's a fact, they'll say whatever 'bout me. How I'm unwanted and loved by nobody. Bruised before you, the pain, the pain. Have to push through the pain, the pain. Bid my breath ado, the pain, the pain hurts so. Everybody tell me I'm a failure, there's no reason to even show me love... No matter whatever I do it falls short of enough. I-I-I just have to try and fake through the whole way if I smile abidingly, would then it be okay? ~ Look at that, seems I've scraped my skin again you can tell I've lost count of times fallen. It's a fact, these traumas still reveal despite all my tries to still conceal See with that, I'll pretend nothings amiss Holding it in, I've gotten good at this. It's a fact, they'll say whatever they think. I feel this hatred covering me. With choking feelings, I'm quaking, quaking. Self loathing, I'm shaking, shaking. Suffocating, still faking, faking I'm whole. Everybody tells me I'm a failure there's no reason to even show me love... No matter whatever I do, I'll still be the victim. I-I-I still wonder why I breathe in the first place. If I smile more naturally, would that make it all okay? ~ God if you're there listening to my song, then please, I want to be reborn worthy. They say you don't make mistakes, so do you just hate me? Crying my eyes dry, My heart beat turns to a lullaby. Maybe, maybe, when morning comes, I'll smile for the first time. So my life of failed attempts, 'till tomorrow goodbye. WOAH that took time to type out, and I hope you are doing ok

[@Extremebasilfan.]

Me when the adhd starts adhding

[@MoriiDraws]

how are you not famous yet?

[@Crybatty]

awkward_on_all_levels i feel like people usually have a thing for the loli sounding voices in the anime/manga community. (which is sorta sad imo.) And moe/cute/feel good songs. I love oktavia's voice though, especially for these songs.

[@moncherryhead7530]

absolutely, I agree with you on this. My favourite cover artists on youtube for these songs are people like Oktavia, Mikutan etc and so on- and they have more powerful stronger (and deeper than the loli sounding voices) in my opinion. and It stands true to all of them. For some reason people just seem to favour the loli and higher pitched singers when it comes to vocaloid covers. Maybe its to do with sounding like the originals? because they are sung robotically by vocaloids and generally in higher tones? Either way its very sad because these singers are amazingly talented and gifted with gorgeous powerful tones that I wish more people could appreciate. It could also be that weve reached a time where the western fanbase for vocaloid type covers has dwindled a lot. for example with the bigger names like juby and liz etc you can see a significant fall in views in some of their latest songs. Its really a shame though :( Still amazing artist Oktavia is and hopefully people like us can continue to support and watch her as she grows (as she is bound to one way or another :) )

[@Rikudo44]

Because KZbin's algorithms are utter crap that's why.

[@queenalice7483]

ShirohiOfficial who knows

[@Unused76785]

“If I smile abidingly would then it be okay?” Damn that hits pretty hard on my side. People always said I was ungrateful and I shouldn’t harm myself they called me annoying and a bitch. My mother even agrees with them! But then I started smiling more and she started respecting me. Even though it hurts to smile all the time I never tell anyone how I feel.

[@radiozap2717]

the line about the red pen hits harder when you know there's a superstition in japan about how writing someone's name in red ink will shorten their life. this is because the name of the deceased is written in red in the family register and funeral banners. so, considering the implications of the end of the song... ouch.

[@kefrika9950]

Damn, it just always impress me how just a song can relate so much. I'm just 15 and have still 2 years till I can attend to college. Well that is if I make it. I feel constant as a failure because I realize how smart I am but I'm to stupid to be smart. I'm lazy but I don't do anything about it. My parents and probably others have high expectations me, but I feel like a failure and because of myself I become a failure because I don't do anything about it. When I look at others they are way better than me and could achieve way more than me because they have the will to do it, meanwhile I'm just lazy to accomplish anything. I just feel like a constant failure

[@pklopin6395]

You just perfectly described how I feel Hope you’re doing ok and have a nice day

[@mlemx3]

damn did i write this

[@gardener5763]

same, man

[@Chuchu_train69]

The feeling of knowing someone there is having the same problem as me is insane

[@chelyr5517]

same but u also have the feeling that u could just disappear and nothing would change

[@xXfuffychickenXxreddivineaj]

0:27 PowaPowa P's Please Give Me a Red Pen... this lyric really hit me ;-; Still not over his death.

[@queenalice7483]

melonie yea me too 0:48 that one really got me ;-;

[@EclipseKid]

a lot of great symbolism and meaning in this. The scissors mean she's constantly cutting things apart, but it causes a lot of inner tension (the cracks) and it's like they're constantly missing something, becoming imperfect in the process. The picture is divided between black and white because the decision to confront has lead to a lot of understanding, but it's like something is always lacking- what's in between. The scissors miss out on something behind them (the green- which means love and blue, which holds meaning) and this is in a quest of self discovery while drowning in the self-hatred that others have taught her. "There's no reason to show me love" but this brings inner tension because she knows she deserves it. The measuring tape circles around her in approval because she knows she's actually pretty good, she just doesn't know how it all fits together. "I wonder why I breathe" her heart is beating, but barely enough to feel, but the more she feels the more she's forced to confront things. "If I smile more naturally, would that make it all okay?" She senses there's something about positivity and naturalness that's the key, and that's exactly right. The key is to not see these things- love, joy, approval- as some kind of destination. After a lifetime of being withheld love she's started to withhold it from herself, but this is not right. Love isn't something you earn. Everybody disserves it, regardless of what they are or what they do, because you separate the actions from the person and you don't hate the person themselves. The same is true of joy- it is in all things, in this song, which has brought so much meaning and understanding. The most negative experiences can become something positive that moves you forward. It's always a conflict of being dark but seeing the light or being light but not seeing the darkness. You just have to master your own positivity and be able to speed up your thoughts with optimism, which will prevent you from being as lovably deep all of the time, but you can interact with others and prevent yourself from seeing negativity that doesn't necessarily exist. Then you can interact with them in a meaningful way and bring them joy, and many of your own demons that might just have been your own creation will disappear. Then you can switch between them at will- negativity for seeing the way forward, positivity for conversing with others and getting through things. In my opinion, that is enlightenment

[@justalilbitsilly]

yippee 7th anniversary of cover i hope everyone's doing okay

[@moneybun]

Mmmm Hate how this song unintentionally lays my whole life out for everybody to see :^)

[@Solace6428]

Anyone want to make a massive pile of blankets to nest in, while eating ice cream and listening to sad songs?

[@raodekia]

So the entirety of my life so far, and whatever´s left of it, can be summarized in a 3 minutes and 17 seconds song. Huh.

[@queenalice7483]

raodekia I hate my life I always have and I still have 6 years at least of hating it left

[@zanpartizannes7822]

Heckadoodle, your voice is really pretty! This is a wonderful cover! Would you mind if I used your lyrics for a cover?

[@OktaviavonSeckendorff8]

Thank you! And yes, it's totally fine! I'd love to see your cover!

[@user-ge9bb5hw1z]

Umm, I'd like to see that, but???

[@em3ow]

2:20 Ignore this I'm using this for personal reasons

[@galactic4842]

tfw you are only 13 and you already relate to this a lot

[@queenalice7483]

Karkat crappy lives

[@kayotic_catgirl]

I'm a fetus and I relate to this

[@bijuutamer729]

13 is probably when you'd most relate to this.

[@Newnawn]

I'm 87 and a veteran from the Vietnam and I can relate to this.

[@Axios_Deminence]

Man, I started on this road when I was 8 years old. Been told it was just adolescence and now that I'm no longer a teenger, what is there to say now? I write and continue on with work, but what's the point. No more than ten times (probably less), I've felt wanted. I trust then I get hurt even more. I have lists. People who I blame for my detioration. Events in my life which I can remember in clear detail, all of them bad. Numbers, e-mails, every which way to contact people. Songs that I've listened to which speak for me. All of the contradictions with what people have told me. All of the lies I've told. All of the money I owe my family. All of my unfinished accomplishments. The methods and the times when I had an unfinished attempt on my life. When I die, I'm not going to be missed. Yet, I'll miss everyone else. I'll still have so many regrets. I never learned to play guitar by ear, I never went to each continent (including Antarctica), I never published my novel/web serial, I never sang that song for them. At the end of the road, it's just me who loses.

[@Zoiggelz]

Am I allowed to relate to this if I am a boy...? 失敗作少年？ 'Cause this is so similar to what is going on my head rn.

[@merinnnnnn]

I think you can relate to this if you are a boy

[@krowsilver8966]

Anyone can. What happened?

[@oasisflurry9933]

Damn throughout the video the girl starts crying my heart

[@bug_boy]

Guys she cant hear you she has her ears covered!!!

[@IsntChrome]

THIS HITS ME IN THE CHEST SO HARD God if you're there listening to my song, then please, I WANT TO BE REBORN WORTHY. They say you don't make mistakes, so do you just hate me?

[@tritonia_]

that feeling when you can't even succeed at failing life despite years of attempts xd

[@meatymaggot]

"It's a fact these scars revel despite how I try to force them to heal." "It's a fact these traumas still revel despite all my tries to still conceal." Those lines I could very much relate to. I always harmed myself and when my mother see's my scars she get's pissed that I am not grateful. Plus my older sibling was raped and I always applied the blame onto myself. My mother says she can't get a boyfriend because it always hurt me or makes me traumatized. It' s not just stop getting with people who are creeps or abusive!!

[@queenalice7483]

OMG THIS SONG KEEPS DROPPING OFF THE FACE OF THE EARTH I FOUND IT AGAIN I feel so bad for people looking for this and just like me can't find T.T It hurts so

[@travis.t7773]

stop reading my mind

[@pencilmistic1147]

you're my absolute fav cover artist aaaaa??? you cover like the best stuff and your voice is always top notch

[@ying_verse]

I love the timbre of your voice ugh

[@pleasedni]

This cover was made 20 days after my birthday...

[@vashustampede]

hoW DID I NOT FIND YOU NOW YOUR VOICE IS SO BEAUTIFUL GODDESS

[@user-ry4zj6mm4l]

日本人の方いますか？

[@hattalebem]

Me scrolling on KZbin at 2 am finding a song that perfectly describes my life

[@princekat8915]

Is this a series with People Allergy? :o

[@queenalice7483]

Prince Kat I hope so!

[@takumidoutou4412]

Prince Kat no

[@lotusuwu1893]

is it bad to kin this-

[@novelnygma]

this except i’m trans and quite literally a failure girl because i was born physically a girl yet fail to be one because i’m not one and i’m realising how stupid i sound my fucking god

[@novelnygma]

mm yummy loving the gender dysphoria tonight!! /s

[@pg-13otaku4]

Hey bro, same thing but in reverse. :P but seriously this song was dysphoria go-to before I knew what dysphoria was

[@cyb3r_b4tzzz]

"Look at that, seems I’ve scraped my skin again You can tell I’ve lost count of times fallen It’s a fact, theses traumas still reveal Despite all my tries to still conceal See with that, I’ll pretend nothing’s amiss Holding it in, I’ve gotten good at this It’s a fact, they’ll say whatever they think I feel their hatred covering me" is it a bad thing I relate a little too much to this verse...?

[@kreepskun4828]

DAYUM this is some gud shit gurl 👌👌👍👍

[@afewklikawayb.p.9098]

your voice is better than JubyPhonic

[@queenalice7483]

Afewklikaway B.P. shhhh they are equally amazing (Strongly agrees but still loves jubyphonic)

[@evanleijon5851]

When I first started selfharming, I found this song. It helped me to vent a lot. Five years later I’m in recovery from it and listened to this whenever I get the urge, and helps me to stop. A lot of your covers have helped me so much throughout these past few years and I wanted to thank you ^_^

[@grace11037]

Lyrics (copy and pasted from link in description): Look at that, I made a mistake again You can tell I’ve lost count with the red pen It’s a fact, theses scars still reveal Despite how I’ve tried forcing them to heal See with that, they say ignorance is bliss Playing dumb, I’ve really gotten good at this It’s a fact, they’ll say whatever ‘bout me How I’m unwanted and loved by nobody Bruised before you, the pain the pain Have to push through the pain the pain Bid my breath adieu, the pain the pain hurts so* Everybody tells me I’m a failure, there’s no reason to even show me love No matter whatever I do, it falls short of enough i-I-I just have to try and fake through the whole way If I smile abidingly, would then it be okay? Look at that, seems I’ve scraped my skin again You can tell I’ve lost count of times fallen It’s a fact, theses traumas still reveal Despite all my tries to still conceal See with that, I’ll pretend nothing’s amiss Holding it in, I’ve gotten good at this It’s a fact, they’ll say whatever they think I feel their hatred covering me With choking feelings, I’m quaking quaking Self loathing, I’m shaking shaking Suffocating, still faking faking I’m whole Everybody tells me I’m a failure, there’s no reason to even show me love No matter whatever I do, I’ll still be the victim i-I-I still wonder why I breathe in the first place If I smile more naturally, would that make it all okay? God if you’re there listening to my song, then please, I want to be reborn worthy They say you don’t make mistakes, so do you just hate me? Crying my eyes dry, my heartbeat turns to a lullaby Maybe, maybe, when morning comes, I’ll smile for the first time So my life of failed attempts, ‘Till tomorrow, goodbye

[@reiyiin]

Put it to 0.75x Thank me later 😆 ⬇

[@ewfahgehajigeamiefma]

this is has twelve likes im cringing

[@reiyiin]

@@ewfahgehajigeamiefma Lmao

[@K4gumy]

It sounds natural lol

[@notcatisa]

it doesnt sound as good? whats the point lmao

[@evna9246]

It actually said "rain" at the beginning.

[@OktaviavonSeckendorff8]

Yeah, but I decided to translate it as "drip drop" since I felt it was supposed to be like a sound effect!

[@nappingcactus1497]

Oktavia I see so many comments in your songs where people correct you on something and you always end up explaining how what you did is actually really smart and honestly I don't see how people even question you anymore.

[@wolfiebun5842]

Evna NANI YOU READ KANJI coooool

[@floofyguinepig9795]

God now this is bringing back memories of how my parents would get really angry and shout at me for crying cause I used to cry a lot. To be fair it was my fault since I burst out crying while we were walking outside, she genuinely trained me to smile if there's other people around but apperently it still looks awkward so I'm still practicing lol... Yeah this whole song is just... This sounds really selfish and self centered but it's because I am, but everytime I hear this I can't help but feel it was written specifically with me in mind... (I'm really really sorry for rambling on so ungratefully you don't have to read that all)

[@nissnynass]

its not selfish sounding ❤

[@honani]

First of all, you don't have to feel guilty for crying or venting. It's okay to feel not okay and show your emotions. Your mother is in the wrong one, you don't have to smile when you feel pain. I hope it gets better for you. Never blame yourself for something like this. You matter ❤

[@Asdf-rx8sh]

Damn- this song is definition of my thoughts-

[@chalkwarrior5542]

My body's not right. My mind's not right. Nothing is right. No matter what I change about my body it won't be right. No matter how I try to improve my mind it just won't happen. My chest is unright. No matter what shape or size I imagine myself with, it is unright. My legs and arms are unright. No matter what width, length, or color I imagine myself with, they are unright. My hair is unright. No matter how many intriciate variables get changed in my imagination, it is unright. I'm not even looking for perfection anymore. I'm looking for right. Everything is unright. No matter how I change it, it's still unright. It will never be right. I'm left to be in misery.

[@Coquitten]

Oh shizzle I almost relate to all of this :O Oofie

[@enchantedpastellix8829]

My brother has the best grades in the whole school, and even though I haven’t even joined the school yet my parents expect me to get better grades. And if I don’t work on the weekends or if I take a break for a bit my Dad calls me retarded and lazy and my Mum complains at me. And if I try to leave the room my Dad just follows me while yelling. Like, just today my mum let me relax for a bit because I felt sick and was tired and I was just sitting there and out of nowhere she started yelling at me to do work.

[@AmyRose603]

Hace poco que eh estado viendo algunos de tus fandubs... Y debo decir que tienes una hermosa voz♡ hasta ahora no hay fandub que no me guste, excelentes adaptaciones

[@sweetheartmorphine1988]

Would you be interested in singing for a vocaloid chorus ? I was thinking of 1925 or Failiure Girl we're leaning towards Failure girl). If y'all largely prefer something else I'm open, but those are my suggestions. Anyone up for this ? I can animate the final product and am a techno producer so I know a thing or two about mixing. All you need to do is contact me, send me your version of the song (we will have chosen) and I'll compile everything. Max would be 10 people, so yeah, I'd be so happy to even find half of that. What you do is amazing ! Love, PXR

[@cheese810]

No one has every told me I'm a failure. In fact I've been doing far above average my entire life, my friends and teachers often complement my art and I'm known as the smart kid who's especially good at maths. So why do I still try so hard to get my parents to appreciate what I do? Why do I see myself as a failure when I can't? Why was this I set myself when I was like 6 and still haven't completed?

[@Xemnii]

I relate to this so much lol Also a song that kinda resembles ur vent is called "Are you satisfied." Pretty good song so kindly check that out lol.

[@Name-fm9og]

Have a hug! I swear everything will get better! (づ｡◕‿‿◕｡)づ

[@kenyacross0402]

この英語のままカラオケにないかなぁ

[@fuzzystatic949]

I'm always waiting for tomorrow

[@queenalice7483]

xx jessy at first I wanted to say something like a joke but then I realized I wait for tommorow too. I hate everyday but the night isn't so bad...

[@Harmonini]

When you want to relate to the song but you’re Non binary

[@strawberryflavouredcloroxb1565]

my life in a nutshell

[@pg-13otaku4]

How did I listen to this in high school and not realize I was going through some massive dysphoria?

[@kalesalad7234]

criplignng derprieosn

[@SaferWafer]

Same

[@杏音-w6l]

歌詞の訳し方もなるほどなぁって感じだし歌い方も好き

[@ashcooper2881]

if anybody wants, here’s a rough translation of the japanese one in comparison to this!! ah, look, I made a mistake again with this, how many times has it been? hey, look, no matter how much i try to close it up, the gaping scars pop out again ah, look, i deceived them again , pretending not to see, pretty good right? ugh, look, whatever is said to me, nobody wishes for me to be here my wounds laid bare, it hurts it hurts i pretend to be tough, but it hurts it hurts i’m choking, it hurts it hurts y’know.. they say that i’m a “failed work” that i’m unwanted whatever i do, even if i try, it seems to be helpless. i just want love, love, love; but it seems like i have to fake my way to get there i wonder if it would be better if i smiled more? ah, look, i got scraped again, with this, how many times is it? hey, look, even though i try hard to hide it, the trauma comes oozing out ah, look, i held it back again, i’m pretty good at keeping a clear expression, right? ugh, look, whatever is being said about me i’m just covered in their disdain and bruises. this feeling of suffocation makes me quiver this inferiority complex causes my dizziness this suffocation leaves me empty inside they say that i’m a “failed work” that i’m unwanted whatever i do, even if i try, it seems to be no good i really want some meaning to being born, maybe if i smiled more naturally it would be better? dear god, if i am able to be born again i wish to become somebody who is loved. when i cry myself out, my pulse turns into a lullaby for sure, tomorrow i’ll be able to smile, right? goodbye, to my life full of mistakes (correct me if i made any mistakes!)

[@mrdumbguy6026]

How did I only find this until now!? You have such a beautiful voice!

[@ctorres-z2e]

JESUS CHRIST THIS IS FINALLY NOT BLOCKED IN MY COUNTRY!!!

[@Jolteon39]

All of these new covers have been so good! I definitely love these kinds of songs just as much as the loud and intense ones. Thank you so much for sharing, as always!

[@Hetalia_iscool]

I honestly perceive this song about intense self-loathing, and I kind of relate. It sucks even more that my self-hate started quite young, about 4th grade, although quite minimal. Well anyway, I like this cover, and one of my favorites after your english cover of Hated by Life Itself.

[@chaneychane9339]

I've been listening this cover for years and I want to say thank you so much for creating this🥺💗This song has become my comfort music that I listen whenever I feel anxious and upset.💗

[@Howdyheyits_Jay]

this song hits differrent when ur home alone and you finish online school gets done and you can sing at the top of your lungs and play this outloud, thank you for making this :)

[@FeverCrush1728]

This kind of songs make me active and energetic and I dont know why?

[@KuroNeko22949]

....it's the same girl of people allergy, isn't ?

[@sweetiemusiclove4ever234]

Whenever I listen to these depressing songs I think "I'M GONNA GIVE YOU A FUCKING HUG WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT YOU FUCKING FUCK!!!"

[@inuzukabonfire2073]

the double whammy of song, upbeat but sad song

[@anc.c3097]

NOTIFICATION SQUAD

[@queenalice7483]

тιтιѕan C.C little late but better late then never

[@HeroAkii]

This song really describes my mental state. I'm lucky enough to have people that'll love me no matter what. Everything I do is planned and acted accordingly to the situation. so that the fear of being hated and shunned for having a different opinion is lessened. For me, everything seems like a lie, a part of me manipulating myself and others to the point I'm not sure whether the personality I leave in this comment is my face or a mask sewn on. I'm pretty sure it is. Anyways, My life is too tangled up in this way of life so like the hypocrite I am I'll say this: Don't try to be someone you're not, It's not fun, It has a lot of downsides and eventually you may end up like me. Faking smiles and saying I love something only for the sweet people to do something for you that you actually hate. Be yourself.

[@alexfuller2865]

Yeah I could relate to this a lot. I use to be bullied in 3rd grade and Kindergarten. Many people would call me a failure but for me I am now in 7th grade no longer having people be satisfied. They always ask me “what happen to my happy little girl” I am a boy -_- and I harm myself a lot just got done doing it 2 hours ago I have so many scars and use cream that claims to help but it won’t heal the scars no matter how hard I try. Teachers don’t like me I am lonely and doesn’t have many people to speak to. When people ask me “What’s wrong?” I play dumb and pretend nothin is only so I don’t bother them. You can say your okay so easily I realized. And now I can’t even seem to do anything right. What ever I do no one seems happy with it I feel like a failure due to this. Honestly I think if I smile more it will make them more happy than they are. At least I hope it does..

[@deathrimentall]

I just wish you covered the new remix of this song, it would be amazing

[@lostinacatsmouth8389]

Hol' up, your name, which Ayano? *I need to know please, what's her last name?*

[@livewithme1109]

This song reminds me of how my dad makes me feel and treats me (it’s not physical) is this on Spotify?

[@Gacha_Ed]

So much better on 0.75 speed!

[@renisrandom8342]

It's sad... But I relate so much :'(

[@JayVAstro]

THANK YOU OKTAVIA YOUR VOICE IS STILL SO BEAUTIFUL

[@vampirepossum8544]

Tbh I felt this then I moved out of my abusive household and actually started getting better with support

[@LassBisharp]

I love how your voice sounds like something that could be a part of RWBY, when I still used to watch that show anyways.

[@TextualDeviant]

Wait, I was listening to this on KZbin Music and it was on mono, but when I listened to it here it's on stereo, what gives, KZbin? I came here to comment on this video to complain about it, but It's actually KZbin's fault, in this case. Edit: fuck's sake KZbin, I've tried everything and it's still on mono for this specific video, but ironically only on KZbin Music, anyone else having this issue?

[@TextualDeviant]

And of fucking course all the ads are still in Stereo.

[@k-onenthusiast5234]

what the fuck is mono and stereo

[@colorfulcupid]

this kind of reminds me of myself (the song), also good cover. :)

[@haneul3919]

Halo me too:,)

[@hayamikano47]

This is a beautiful cover, thank you for covering one of my fav songs (yeah i know the feeling of wanting to cover others in a blanket and hand them a slice of cake and help them but it would be hypocritical cause you cant even love yourself or convince yourself that your worth it.)

[@claabru]

oof there goes my heart

[@queenalice7483]

Emi Abreu oof there goes the tears

[@aubreypadi7841]

This kinda reminds me of Mikan from Danganronpa 2 Goodbye Despair

[@a01fe_m]

this song needs to stop being relatable-

[@marchingflute5181]

What a mood

[@detectivebiggs9875]

Holy shit your voice is amazing!!

[@PwnAMV]

It's a NHK day