HRT Stuff No One Told me Till I Started Transitioning

[@ceebailz]

i cried a bunch at sad media pre-hrt now i additionally cry about cat pictures on the internet

[@madmillion88]

MADELINE CELETE PFP!

[@AW-sx8hm]

There's a pair of video's that *will* make me bawl already (kiwi and 'need someone to lava') and hopefully I can start from nextish week. 😊

[@arcticpossi_schw1siantuntija42]

sounds lovely, I'd like to do that

[@erin1569]

The scariest thing HRT does is make plushies appear on your bed randomly. Last night, I got scared because something moved in my bed, and it turned out to be a plushy duck that appeared out of nowhere.

[@sarahcivilization9905]

Heaven

[@quinntu]

this is a serious issue, I don't have room for thisss

[@livliveart]

Ducky Momo? 😱

[@Lou-q6d7l]

Real

[@shadowthespikythingy]

idk, I found plushies appearing before my egg even cracked

[@tmmaster6904]

"but i see people transition and their whole personality changes! they become so much more calm and emotional!" girl that's called you're happy now, that's called you were feeling bad and now you're not

[@CrystalBlaese]

wait people are normally just calm and not on the edge of a breakdown at any given time?

[@VLena_art]

@@CrystalBlaese wait what? really?

[@dinamosflams]

the amazing things that "being confortable in your own body" can do to a person

[@itshel2677]

@@dinamosflams I honestly can't imagine what this must feel like. Let's hope I get a decent therapist so insurance can pay for hormones and surgery.

The emotions can definitely be overwhelming if you're not used to them.

[@ConfusedWeeb]

"Prepare to cry. A lot." Emotional freedom is probably the thing that I'm most excited for, it has been far too long.

[@_allegra]

I tell my friends "it's like I used to be emotionally constipated, and now I'm not!" 'Freeing' is an understatement ❤️

[@Nova-_-]

same here i hate feeling like my only emotions are angry and frustrated (like the other emotions are definitely there but they're not THERE, y'know?)

[@ConfusedWeeb]

@@Nova-_- To quote YukkoEX: "I spent my entire life repressed! I don't understand emotions! YOU THINK I UNDERSTAND EMOTIONS?!"

[@IndigoWatercressVA]

@@ConfusedWeeb Based Yukko quote

[@runito75]

@@Nova-_- this is one of the reason why I plant to transition. I hate frustration and anger, and not be able to cry.

[@KarmicID]

Additional effect of HRT : You start to make relaxing video for other trans people

[@Sp3pS]

This is a scientific fact

[@Nova-_-]

HRTV: helpful, relaxing trans videos

[@KarmicID]

(Psst, thanks for your attention btw :3)

[@superStarshines]

@Nova-_- I need* a 24hr livestream of this NOW. I betcha this can/will happen... imma suggest it frequently until thenat least....haha srsly a few of the right eyes, no one unites like the trans community:D 🤷‍♀️ ✌️🫶

[@superStarshines]

@KarmicID lolol Goober you earned it, :3 ☝️ funny haha = thank YOU🙃

[@HansLemurson]

The notorious HRT.

[@CassyCat4]

Super Nintendo Sega genesis, If you take spyro then you constantly piss.

[@GoblinCorn69]

@@CassyCat4 5 inch long ween, as I pee, in the toilet Gotta lean, and touch my knees, to not soil it

[@ganymedeuhhhh...1029]

"I love it when you call me big momma" - The Notorious H.R.T.

[@Tovatype17]

@@CassyCat4is this actually true ? I’ve been taking Spiro for a month now but I don’t really think I’ve started urinating more than before… should I be concerned ?

[@CassyCat4]

@pugie833 a joke grounded in reality, Unfortunately certain places its your only option but it was effecting my sleep as it starts to effect your water (and salt) retention. Best thing to do is hydrate with water regularly and keep a jar of pickles handy but if spyro works for you its without hydration and peeing problems its the best. I'm not a doctor though.

[@LilyMoonWitch]

100% agree about the whole "HRT will change who you are" misconception. One big "change in my personality" is that i love to dance now, even if its just me, alone, jamming out in my room, aha. But as i love telling people - Its NOT because im a different person - its cos before my transition i felt like i was controlling a meat puppet and awkwardly moving its limbs in order to occupy a certain position. It didn't feel good. Now its MY body. It feels good to dance. HRT didn't change me, it changed my body to fit me.

[@LilyMoonWitch]

Also, your hair looks amazing!

[@____-nr5sx]

dancing feel much better but maybe is because u can express yourself in dance? is just me singing while dancing?

[@hoshiboxofficial]

its definitely a change of how people perceive you mostly. Gender is so wired into a lot of the populations mind that even that simple fact being visibly different is a huge change to how people may perceive you (and then say it changed who you are)

[@joebloe4734]

Omigod. The meat puppet analogy. I've used this before. Yes. 100%

[@NinlilsLittleEnby]

​@@joebloe4734oh man I've been saying I'm just a voice in a meat machine since I was a kid 😂 glad I'm not alone

[@QwertyCaesar]

HRT made me a morning person. I was a morning person until I hit around 11, 12, 13 years of age. Two'ish decades of being a night owl staying up to 1 AM minimum and waking up ideally at 1PM and then suddenly in less than two months of HRT I'm waking up well before my alarm even on workdays, sometimes before the sun is up.

[@sarahcivilization9905]

I hope I get this.. I can't keep a proper sleep schedule to save my life, living your entire day in the morning is just... sad

[@iristhepuppygirl]

I have actually noticed this too, I have to stay up till midnight to take my hrt dose, and my next one is normally at 8am but I keep finding myself waking up at 6 or 7 before my 8am alarm goes off

[@QwertyCaesar]

@@sarahcivilization9905 This didn't help. So far it hurt, actually. I'm still part night owl so part of me wants to stay up until 2AM while the other part wants me to wake up at 7.

[@sarahcivilization9905]

@@QwertyCaesar oh.. I see, I'm sorry

[@Technicellie]

It also changed it for me but in the way that I am way more flexible on when I go to sleep and when I wake up. I even need less sleep than I used to!

[@bellarosethorne]

as far as the "being more present in the world, stopping and seeing the flowers" yeah that can happen. It's the same logic as what you say in the intimacy section immediately after this. It's the change in circumstances. You've taken off a lot of that dysphoria weight that's taking up your mind, and you're actually finally able to go about without that weight on your shoulders. and if you're not dissociating because of dysphoria so much.. you're gonna be much more aware of the world around you and from a perspective not *separate* from the body your'e in - because you're no longer trying to escape your body.

[@Seloliva1015]

When starting hrt I felt the same way, I kinda really want to be in my body sometimes now... and I feel the need to distract myself from my thoughts much less

[@DerHoppel87]

That sounds like derealization and it's know to be fixed for most people by HRT

[@SonyaWaifu]

Since transitioning, I actually love my room being toasty now. Like 75-78 fahrenheit big cozy range. And I'm perpetually cold in winter

[@hasanmuttaqin464]

i envy anyone who live in a placy where 75 fahrenheit is considered hot, that's my room after air conditioner

[@AemeliaRPG]

"Chocolate became an obsession" you say as I'm eating the best chocolate I've ever had... damn, I have to wonder if its the HRT.

[@paintingsky7208]

I wish i could transition even just socially but anxiety over change being worse than being uncomfortable as a guy.

[@SomeGalNamedEve]

Just because it's hard doesn't mean you can't do it!! It's not healthy to build imaginary walls around doing things, please don't stop yourself from being happy just because it'll be hard in the beginning.

[@peenyweeny3834]

i think weve all been thru this &like by all means stay in the closet if its for your own safety but if ure just waiting for the "right time" or for the anxiety to go away... its not going to and it might even get worse if u dont do something.. really recommend finding a gender therapist or something or maybe trying out the first steps of transitioning with a small group of people u trust. best of luck x

[@vjcn9378]

If you know that it’s for you, do it. You’ll never escape if you don’t try.

[@wiisports3230]

its not something that happens or has to happen all at once. remember that if you choose to transition you can take it as slow as you want/need to

[@paintingsky7208]

@@wiisports3230 here's how it is in my head: fear of change is greater than dysphoria and thats it

[@haxune]

It's wild just how much more calmer this is to your voice tutorials, but I'm all for it.

[@MideoKuze]

I am gay, transitioned a long time ago. When younger trans women ask for help voice training, I recommend your videos. I found it interesting that you mentioned trans women having a difficult time understanding that they don't need to give up masculine hobbies when they transition. I had a difficult time understanding that I didn't have to be attracted to men. The more things change, the more they stay the same, I guess!

[@tealkerberus748]

This. Speaking as a cis woman who is more at home with chainsaws and anglegrinders than makeup. Using a chainsaw is a womanly hobby because I'm a woman and it's one of my hobbies. Trans women shouldn't be forced to conform to the 1950s stereotypes of womanhood to be accepted as women any more than cis women would put up with that nonsense. Cis or trans, women and girls who enjoy that particular type of femininity are valid - and so are the rest of us who have other interests.

[@Tivallia9010]

I really want to start transitioning but I don't know where to start at all. The anxiety of change still lingers with me because I always moved a lot with my parents. It's just large uncertainty that's scaring me. I really want to transition so bad thoughhh

[@IndigoWatercressVA]

I’m watching from a red state. Kinda like looking in a store window and you see something you really want and then realizing you can’t buy it.

[@vir2plus]

DIY hrt is a thing.. if you have money

[@IndigoWatercressVA]

@@vir2plus I’m a little hesitant about DIY

[@vir2plus]

@@IndigoWatercressVA just make sure you check your blood pressure, and screen for risks like thrombosis. (and don't smoke tobacco.) I'm poor because i fucked up my life with addictions, and I've been waiting for 2 years.. finally starting soon. It's been the most difficult and depressing time I've ever experienced. There's more to life than just your gender, HOWEVER, it IS a big fucking deal to get the treatment you need, to fix such a basic part of your self.. ANyway. i'm just some random asshole. don't listen to me.

[@LupeSunglass]

​@@IndigoWatercressVA thats fair, just make sure you get regular blood tests if you can.

[@LilaCorvus]

@@IndigoWatercressVAoh… buddy… I feel for you completely. I went through the same thing. I can’t tell you how to live your life, all I can do is reach out a hand. If you’re feeling that really specific longing, it’s more likely than not that those feelings will get louder and louder until you can’t hear anything else. It doesn’t just go away. There is NOTHING that can truly stop you from being who you truly are, from letting her out. I feel silly writing this because you will probably never see this, but maybe someone will. You are not too old, too masculine, too ANYTHING to transition. I told myself the cruelest things for so long. I wish I had believed sooner because I am so much happier and look so much more like ME than I ever thought possible. Like Lucy said, its just a box, it’s not that scary, but the impact can change your life for the better. If you feel alone, and just want to talk to other people with similar feelings, the youtuber Leadhead has an amazing discord server, if you come, look for Lila. I will be waiting to welcome you 🩵🤍🩷

[@Cat_the_devil]

As a teenage trans girl who has non-supporting parents and still learning how to be a girl (I've only found out for about a year now), this video definitely helped me understand more of what to expect. Thank you! Btw you're so pretty! Literally trans goals >w

[@princessjulieta]

I'm sorry. That's sad.

[@tsudough]

Yo same, except I've known for about 3 years and my family situation isn't that bad

[@cat_jk00]

THAT OUTFIT IS ADORABLE

[@ceebailz]

you describing early twenties as an early period to transition (because it is) makes me really happy that i was allowed to start a bit before I was 18 im always aware of how lucky I am but it still makes me happy thinking about how much time ive got ahead of me :)

[@fairyprincesslucy]

yeah you got lots of time

[@ambralemon]

i felt behind before starting my transition, i finally think i can bear feeling behind while actually being myself c:

[@Robyn_007]

I felt the "more present in the world" thing after one of the first times I came out. The mental clarity from not having to think about my gender for a bit was the source me thinks.

[@connorkeefe2483]

I'm not Trans and don't have gender dysphoria but I wanted to say that hearing about people feeling better in their bodies and like their inner conflict is being resolved after HRT is making me feel better about my own inner stuff, if that makes sense. So thank you

[@hasanmuttaqin464]

yes, everyone is allowed to relate whether they're trans or not

[@nargames]

After all the people saying I'd regret it, the only thing I regret is not starting sooner, Your never to old to transition, never to old to be yourself!! Your valid and loved :3

[@AshaiTides]

Patches are also so easy. You just apply them every three days and forget about it.

[@redex3036]

my sense of time is so terrible that i would forget about it for too long

[@Schmoogie]

From my experience they always fell out. Ended up switching to tablets

[@AnnaF867]

Personally I went with tablets since I already take daily pills so it was easy for me to just add another pill.

[@Vlaffffy]

Easier than the funny pill??

[@vasxus]

Patches can't be that easy if the valve corporation can't give their games patches

[@SomeGalNamedEve]

15:36 "I'm not a spectator to a movie, I'm inside of it" This is actually a _perfect_ way to describe it, I will definitely be stealing this in the future

[@HormoneMuncher94]

The first time I injected estrogen I felt like a goddess. I felt high(not because of the hormones, just the euphoria I felt) and as I use hormones I experience glee more often, I feel happier because I don't have to worry about my body. I am already taking action about it and I'm proud of myself

[@Zane-It]

As a Cis man channels like this one help me stay informed and become a better Ally.

[@notactiveherenow]

i really appriciate the videos, im 13 myself and cant legally get hormones or blockers for quite some time and school for me is going to be rough but these videos give me hope tysm ! ❤

[@theiaraine]

me going to pick up the hormone pills at the puberty store

[@TheHaggisInquisition]

As a non trans person I found this video to be really helpful in further explaining HRT. Also I adore your outfit as it looks so nice and radiates happyness.

[@PrettyNeatArt]

That bit about feeling behind has been so prevalent for me, especially earlier this year. Since I’m in college it’s been hard dealing with twoberty, all the emotions came boiling up right after my dad died and right as the semester started. It made classes hard to bear, even forcing me out of class and decommissioning me for the rest of that day. I’m so so so lucky to have the friends I have here. My best friend always comes to comfort me, and has even put in perspective for me, me the one who has spent all her time watching all these videos about twoberty and about other people’s transitions and the struggles that come with it, and it took her, someone who knows very little about hrt in general to show me that what I’m going through is actually a lot more than I’ve been giving myself credit for.

[@Hanaishere11]

why am I actually considering this now I thought I was just kidding myself.

[@KiraKiraK1lla]

I REALLY LOVE YOUR OUTFIT!

[@fairyprincesslucy]

thanks! its actually a blouse I bought back in 2012

[@theiaraine]

Emotions wise everything is super clear now. They are very easy to control and I know how to think through the anger and happiness. I'm colder and calmer and I like it that way.

[@lars_larsen]

Watched this literally on my way to a local IKEA to track down a certain shark I've been wanting to aquire, and saw all the plushies in the background. Then I thought to myself "Is this my future?Sleeping under pile of plushies and blankets?" and promptly started walking faster towards IKEA.

[@tristanband4003]

I suppose...hrt might be the only path to feel human again.

[@hasanmuttaqin464]

it might be, if you feel like doubt you can start on anti androgen first before esterogen, anti androgen make you less masculine, if you like it you can stay on only androgen, if you want to be more femme take on esterogen, and if you don't feel like it you can always go back

[@asliwins337]

Post top surgery I had a beautiful moment while jogging: I noticed all the flowers and butterflies around me. I'd been jogging in that area for ages and never really noticed them, not cared, but it took my breath away

[@lurkie-o]

I thought that i researched the hell out of this but like... I've only heard around half or these, crazy

[@_Jade_888]

Love the room the plushie pile is so cute! 💕☺️

[@MelodyTCG]

The timing of this video is perfect because i recently scheduled my first appointment for later this month And today i had a dysphoria triggered dissociative episode and panic attack at work and have been trying to calm down all day and this helped

[@lushwish]

goals goals goals goals goals

[@shads3955]

Thank you for the video, I discovered your videos the past few days at what feels like the perfect time. I've had varying levels of gender dysphoria about my gender/sexuality for the past few years now but I think I've finally decided that I'm a Trans Woman and as such am now actively pursuing transitioning (which involves me starting a silly fight with the British healthcare system which is good in that its free but bad in thats its still got a transphobic agenda being placed upon it by those meanies in Government). So this video about HRT is so helpful and has provided me with a lot more confidence about it in general! Also, I also think your videos are very neurodivergent-friendly! I'm Autistic and I find they're very relaxing and I never feel overwhelmed watching them even when you're discussing pretty heavy topics! So thank you from the bottom of my heart for your videos :)

[@fairyprincesslucy]

I'm happy the videos are accessible to neurodivergent communities

[@JadeTheIdiot184]

Listening to this while being helped with homework lol. Don't tell my friends! But this helped me alot because I've been really scared to start HRT and I haven't yet. Now I might do it at some point. ❤❤ Thank you again for making these videos, They've helped me more than you could imagine

[@Hanaishere11]

Hope you make the right choice for you!

[@PsychicJaylen]

Today is my birthday (April 9th) and I wanted to say thank you for supporting me all this way with your ASMR's and your help validating me as a trans Girl. My name is Jaylen (She/Her). my most recent suicuide attempt from gender dysphoria was on November of 2022 and I was on a really dark time of my life, from your asmr audios I have now become better than I could have been and now the transphobic people from the past now don't seem like anything but a bad dream, I an now more calmer and am willing to trust the process of transitioning and accept the reality that not all forms of satisfaction will be instant. Transitioning is gonna be a long tough process and I do understand I will not have any support from family members if I do choose my path to transition I am now 17 years old and I'm only 1 year away from legally being able to start HRT in the state I live in and when I do, I'm gonna have to start making my own stories like this

[@fairyprincesslucy]

thank you for sharing your experience, I'm glad my videos and asmr stuff could help you on your journey, you got this

[@gmarefan]

You can always move cities when you hit 18 too!

[@JarJar-po1ig]

This comment hit a little deep for me I wish you prosperity and happiness and success on your journey ❤❤❤❤

[@superStarshines]

@PsychicJaylen best of luck, and can't wait keep for these future video0os lol :3 so happy for you, sounds like you found some peace, keep it up, and ..🥲I'm really happy for you..🫶☮️

[@thomasholcomb7681]

Wish someone told me I couldn’t eat as much. I tried to eat the usual amount… and then blehhhh… took a few times to realize i was over eating lol

[@fairyprincesslucy]

relatable, this info should be more widely known honestly

[@ogpandamonium]

This is gonna be the worst thing

[@TimeLemon]

yeah... I've gotten a bigger appetite since starting E but if I eat too much I really suffer sometimes.

[@Chillwave6]

in my case since I'm skinny naturally and gaining weight is pretty hard so I've started eating way more now (still pre hrt though), it'll be interesting how much i have to lessen on that. I'm just glad i have to eat less.. but then again thats kinda the thing, I know a lot of people have the opposite issue.

[@ogpandamonium]

@@Chillwave6 I'm pretty much the same

[@toast_OW]

You are a my angel!! You have helped me so much through my transition. I just came out about two months ago so I’m definitely a baby but i have learned so much from you!!

[@MysteryMinerva]

Secret Little Haven background music SLAPS :3

[@elijasuiters9932]

My chest is already sensitive, I already get serious butterflies, and I already tear up during my favorite rock operas. Estrogen is gonna be WILD

[@coldramen9816]

I (hopefully) start in a month and I'm already emotional and I'm like,, a tad worried but also it's gonna be for the better I hope 😭

[@Snoodle829]

If you're already emotionally sensitive and able to cry and show strong feelings, estrogen prolly won't affect your emotions much. The only reason people cry more on estrogen is because they're repressing less. Estrogen doesn't actually change your emotions, only your emotional responses.

[@PinkPanda-Zx]

@@Snoodle829 What do you mean by emotional responses? Just curious since I'm considering going on estro.

[@hasanmuttaqin464]

@@PinkPanda-Zx when hrt you got rid of dysphoria, when no dysphoria you can show emotion better, when not man you don't need to pretend man, when no need to pretend man you no need to pretend tough, combined mean you don't need to repress emotion so you feel safe to cry

[@manatillia]

I’m a new teacher. Being in the classroom can be hectic, stressful, and a little overwhelming at times. However, I work well under pressure, and remain calm, cool, and collected. I want to try E, but I’m worried that the changes it brings to how I experience emotions will impact my performance as a teacher in these critical early years when I’m trying to establish the career I’m going to spend the next 30 years doing.

[@fairyprincesslucy]

If it helps, I started E DURING a prac teacher thing I was doing back when I was trying to become a Japanese teacher. It presented some challenges, but I was able to make it work and I feel I handled the prac teaching well. I believe In you

[@manatillia]

@@fairyprincesslucythat’s actually so encouraging, thank you so much!! 🥺🥺🥺

[@tealkerberus748]

I'm three months late to the conversation, but if you haven't started yet, I'd suggest starting at the start of school holidays. It'll give you a bit of time to get used to how the changed hormone balance affects you before you have to ride that balance in public.

[@wxSHENRON]

lowkey not even trans but those videos are one of a kind, what a banger to put those on background, real shit frfr.

[@God_of_Flame]

egg

[@eveisunavailable]

@@God_of_Flame what about this makes you think "egg"? you people gotta stop just throwing that out there without having concrete evidence something is happening

[@artemisfaul3445]

@Megaraptor250 Can't a cis guy enjoy HRT now(if this is what this comment is about)? Like, I'm cis(I suppose?) and I, too, want HRT

[@artifactU]

@@artemisfaul3445 egg

[@f0ren51c5candy]

Thanks so much for the awesome video!

[@theiaraine]

Good luck and happy birthday.

[@Cyphoenic]

Congrats! Good luck coming out, whenever you decide to do that

[@MasterTurner969]

Happy birthday.

[@ms.aelanwyr.ilaicos]

hbd&glhf!

[@theiaraine]

@@ms.aelanwyr.ilaicos what on earth do these mean

[@pn1099]

I didn't transition until late 34 (around two years ago now), and it was the best thing i ever did for myself. Wish i had watched this video when i started HRT: it's wonderful

[@Deliverywitch]

This video was a delightful to listen too. Im 10 years into HRT so it was really fun for me to nod along. I even had a couple "ohhhhh" moments! Your videos are amazing and i really appreciate the time and energy you've put into them ❤

[@thewanderingraven260]

I'm 27 now and haven't started HRT yet, but I've come out to my mom and friends. And this framing of thinking of HRT as puberty is a little daunting, but also kind of exciting, my 1st time with puberty wasn't the best, so maybe now going through a 2nd puberty as a woman with the experience and maturity of being in my late 20s will make it a lot more manageable, and I genuinely can't wait to actually be able to feel my emotions without them feeling so muted, like they're stuck down a well and I'm just catching the echo of them 😔... Anyways really excited for everything that's in store for me 🥰 Btw I can confirm you look super cute, I was admiring your hair and style the entire video so when you mentioned it at the end I knew I had to tell you :3

[@qwertzuwu]

been on hrt for like 6 months why am i watching this good stuff tho all very true :3

[@bellarosethorne]

oh definitely on the temperature stuff, I DEFINITELY feel both the cold and the heat more... it did not help that the one summer I've had since starting HRT.. is the hottest summer on record. It already sucked more than ever at the *reasonably hot* temperatures... and then I spent one day out in the heat and it made me ill for a month.

[@Blahaj-the-1kea-shark]

God, I can't wait until I can have HRT. It sounds so exiting and fun and so EUPHORIC...............

[@randomshark1814]

me too… ;w;

[@AldinRamic]

Personally for me It doesn't. but that's just because I'm a cis Guy

[@Snoodle829]

​@AldinRamic what is even the point of commenting this?

[@AldinRamic]

@@Snoodle829 I guess I just wanted to get my thoughts out

[@Blahaj-the-1kea-shark]

@@Snoodle829 Engaygement

[@Rosslaew]

I loved this video format, especially seeing you talk, it feels ... cosy I guess ? Thanks for your videos

[@maowtm]

Thank you for making this video! Can definitely relate to the second puberty stuff. Good luck!

[@fairyprincesslucy]

thank you so much! I am glad you enjoyed it and could relate to it :)

[@RowdyZeePAY]

I love your room and you look so pretty! Thanks for making this video

[@FrozenBun]

Cool person on camera and explaining something I'm interested in. I'll watch this more than one 😊

[@5o1ipticdrone]

I am at 7 months and so far so good but I started crying when it started to rain today. I am taking Spiro and yes its a sodium craving so pickles daily, just a pain opening those jars. Yes, I am feeling much more in touch with the world and nature, which definitely a part of my experience as well! In the before times I was just living on automatic and disengaged. Thanks girl for sharing your experiences and you're hilarious too btw! ;^)

[@fairyprincesslucy]

glad you enjoyed! maybe we need to like gather trans guys to help the trans girls open pickle jars haha

[@5o1ipticdrone]

@@fairyprincesslucy One did kiss me the other day and from my experiences they do know how to treat a lady.

[@estarossa1847]

The pickles statement is me fr ❤️🥒

[@dadavismo4881]

Omg! Love your outfit and room!! ❤

[@im-radio]

your plushies are so cute omg

[@prageruwu69]

i'm starting hrt in the other direction (t) soon and i can't wait. amazing voice btw.

[@ms.aelanwyr.ilaicos]

I hope it's everything you hope it will be 🫶🏻

[@cupidcutie2323]

Another effect of feminizing HRT is the vibrancy of colors increases !

[@rebeccasam3434]

What you said about noticing things and being more present (probably not saying that right) DEFINITELY applies to me. I feel so much better integrated with myself and with my life an with my body too. (On top of no longer having constant pounding headaches!)

[@TomiThemself]

"Hey bb! New gender goals just dropped!"

[@LadyShowla]

*vibes to the music*

[@pisscvre69]

my ears perked up like a cat when i heard that secret little haven music LOL

[@VillagerSK1]

Non Binary here, definitely make more of this plsssss

[@fairyprincesslucy]

the receptions been really good so I will!

[@notaguy4289]

I already am SO BAD with the cold it´s gonna be hell when I take HRT 😭😭😭

[@scarlettNET]

I just began Estradiol (2 mg a day) this week so this is good timing! :3

[@Demokirby]

CIS guy here - Have a trans girlfriend (she is so wonderful ) and your videos have been so useful during my education in helping educate myself on things on trans experiences when we first started dating and continued learning. thank you.

[@Jamie_Elizabeth192]

i'm almost 2 weeks into HRT and am waiting for all the good things, seeing this is a good thing to prepare for the wonderful things to come.thank you girl

[@ItIsAnEllie]

I feel like having a bit of a script would help videos like this one. There is some great and genuinely untold/underemphasized things (such as perception of heat & the inability to eat as much) sprinkled in there, but I feel like most of the video covers commonly known things. 😅

[@seekervaltriz9447]

When I came out to my fosterhome as a girl, they immediately denied it being even possible. Tried to force everything masculine onto me. One of the things they said to me, cuz I had (and still have) a girlfriend, who is also trans but the family didn't know that, but so they said I couldn't be trans cuz I had a gf. "You have to have a boyfriend if you're a girl" they said. Like, dude, what? What they also didn't know is that I'm pan and polyamorous and got both a gf and bf now. The fosterhome is out of my life now and their license to take care of children has been revoked because of their trans- and homophobia.

[@mariomaniac581]

As horrible as it is to hear you went trough that, for what it's worth i'm glad they lost their license! Also that's one of the weirdest arguments i've ever heard, glad you found your happiness. Best of luck to your and your partners

[@seekervaltriz9447]

@@mariomaniac581 Thank you ^^

[@Its_Squiddd]

praying that hrt makes me like chocolate (specifically cakes and stuff like that cuz why is the flavor so rich i cant) bc i wanna like it😭😭😭

[@megamovieman101]

Thank you for making this. It helped me know for certain that I do NOT want to go through HRT 😅 the body changes already kind of freaked me out, but the temperature changes, eating habit changes, and going through puberty again are just things that I can NOT do, especially the last. I had severe mental health issues during my teenage years, and the hormones made it so much worse. Like I remember my suicidal bouts started because I knew my irrational feelings were caused by hormones, and I felt trapped in my own body. I literally just don’t want body hair 😭 that’s it

[@TheKally]

loving the 2009 youtuber setup and camera quality (not a joke, i love the vibes)

[@Chloe-xb4dk]

YOUR VOICE IS SO PRETTY ONG ;0; and also thanks for this calm video

[@SGJetPro]

Thanks for this! Coming up on half a year transitioning. It can be scary, but I lucked out with my support system. That’s the biggest advice I could give; surround yourself with people that will affirm you and your new identity. Makes a world of difference.

[@red_roy]

not interested in hrt myself, but keep up the good work :D also youre [respectfully] cute

[@IzzetNilson]

I was just about to make my comment be about how nice your hair looked! Everything about your hair in this video is so cute!!

[@fairyprincesslucy]

I'll happily make a video about hair

[@conorhendrey7209]

I second this, I was gonna leave a very similar comment😅 Your hair is so pretty I'm gonna die🥺

[@Nelsea7190]

hrt really does open your mind to others you might be open to sharing your life with. personal choice still rules the day but options you didnt consider or accept before dont seem so out of place.

[@JessieTrinket]

The one that has caught me the most off guard is _just_ how sensitive the nipnaps get. I didn't realize you could stub your nipple on a doorframe, but *YEOWCH* can you!

[@lizb7271]

15:30 So, I thought I didn't relate to the whole being more present in the world thing, but then I remembered how much more I take photographs since transitioning.

[@MadelineMyujikaru]

GRAHHH VOICE GOALS !!!! (demigirl) (good video by the way!! Thank you :3)

[@a_shrxydud]

because I'm not 18 yet I have to do an assessment with a psychologist for them to determine if I am competent enough to make the decision to start HRT, but hopefully if things go as fast as I think they will then I can start in August

[@AttenuatedNecronym]

Spiro makes salty foods in general the best thing ever! Just you know maybe go easy on potassium rich foods like potatoes and tomatoes and uh oh bananas.

[@theiaraine]

spironolactone is a diuretic (makes you pee more) so it might make some crave more salty foods. My sense of heat has changed as well. I feel like every temperature has a different quality now.

[@grimmcreole44]

Stay valid 👽 and know you're hydrated 😭 💜

[@LunaLaura248]

Hearing about what E can do makes me sooo excited, euphoric and also very happy. Thank you for the video, it definitely made my day. I hope I can get E soon.

[@CronusPerson]

As someone who is still a bit unsure of her gender identity almost everything you mentioned sounds desirable. I can't wait for the day I finally get on HRT.

[@MadnessSpeaks]

When I started taking estrogen my appetite went crazy, like 6 meals a day. I had very low body fat and no fat in the areas women are supposed to so I think my brain just thought I was malnourished for a while. Now I've got some feminine fat distribution and my appetite has gone down to less than it used to be

[@ms.aelanwyr.ilaicos]

Yep, my appetite spiked too, which, like, nbd I am pleased with the results

[@puffton9782]

Thank you for this insight, my main worry about estrogen was that I would lose weight (I’m very underweight rn)

[@Technicellie]

Funnily enough mine spiked too, but I lost a kilogram that I got back, maybe my body is compensating for the loss in muscles? 🤔

[@nixDrgnslyr]

"don't try to push your limits, you will throw up" I take this as a challenge, will update whenever I start E

[@NyatMeilu]

This is so well said! The information comes off so naturally!

[@ChristyAbbey]

Colors are brighter for me.Also, I didn't really expect to be a teenager in my 50s.

[@etherealradar]

I was watching this shortly pre-hrt, looking back on the last almost 6 months is fun 😊

[@cedean6755]

goals omg