Fans React to The Last of Us Episode 1x5: "Endure & Survive"

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[@j2o2]

WATCH THE EXTENDED VERSION @ PATREON.COM/JOHNNYODELL!

[@amogussy345]

Can you please do a vid abt All Quiet On The Western Front would really like to see it

[@houseofamma]

You giving away gifts Johnny?🤔

[@evesmith4020]

@@houseofamma lots of spam in the last couple of days.

[@lucasfiggy467]

What happened to episode 7 johnny lol they blocked it

[@j2o2]

@@lucasfiggy467 haven't even uploaded it my guy

[@jbv776]

the noise bella ramsey makes when henry shoots himself is heart wrenching, but absolutely brilliant acting

[@BudhagRizzo]

Yes, I agree. It made me feel absolutely terrible for Ellie. The acting on this show has been incredible!

[@CamReeds]

yea it was like a gasp-scream it was so fast the scream couldn't fully form past the shock

[@Arkthus]

Not just the noise. The look of terror too. This made the scene even more heartbreaking than the original!

[@LuzPanorama16]

The people that say Bella is a bad Ellie just look more and more stupid and bigoted for every episode

[@Gbaby_1241]

I loved it. I kept replaying it. It wasn't overdone screaming or wailing, it was just perfect as strange as it sounds

[@GHfan4life]

The little gymnast they hired as the child clicker was amazing, that creeped me out. I died at “acrobatic demon” lmao

[@airaalleah]

the kid's not a gymnast but a contortionists. still holy cow! that scene is fcking scary 😂

[@zveldarkus125]

Same That was the scariest scene for me in this episode 😂

[@thecosmiccall3802]

@@airaalleah well that just makes her even scarier! This kid is gonna kill it at Halloween parties!

[@KitsuneRokaku]

I was dying at "She breakdancin!"

[@seriousjoke99]

Ikr, got me laughing out loud 😂

[@thechanges2327]

Lamar Johnson and Keivonn Woodard did a spectacular job as Henry and Sam. Wonderful performances. This show has brought it with the stars every week. Stellar compilation Johnny!

[@zachary_smith1]

Yea I wouldn’t have been so sad if that acting wasn’t so good

[@sheilaburns8977]

I agree. I've watched this series several times and my eyes burn every time Henry looks over at Sam and says his name. His voice sounds so heartbreaking. (All of the actors in TLOU are wonderful.)

[@mad_ace]

The collective PTSD when all the infected came running outta the ground was spectacular

[@jltdqw]

Right, I was screaming like a crazy person. My dog was like, mom was wrong with you 😢

[@sixfootfourmike]

Kathleen: kids die all the time. Child Clicker: and I took that personal

[@yuripilIed]

henry and sam’s story was already tragic in the game but them making sam younger and him deaf made it even more sadder 🥲

[@Ibrahim-jl6hi]

Plus leukaemia

[@chrischika7026]

I thought the game scene was way better

[@karanjotsingh1873]

If you ask me games was far more cruel Sam didn't tell them he was bitten Ellies was smart enough to know blood sharing would never work As i remember ellie from the game If sam told ellie he was bitten her first response Would have been joel and Henry So he can have last moments with his brother The game cuts to black as Henry kills himself Its realistic and brutal The show is great I am just saying what I feel

[@CoalBurns]

@@karanjotsingh1873 For me the show was more gut wrenching because even though the game graphics are great they can't quite pull off authentic looking emotion yet. Seeing the look in Henry's face before he shoots himself and Ellie's reaction was what really did it for me.

[@karanjotsingh1873]

@@CoalBurns yeah But like the fluidity in the game cutscene Henry cried he scream (in the show he was more in shock ) In game the fear I felt from Henry having the gun was so much he could have shot ellie and joel in his emotional state it was major possibility (but I didn't feel it in show ) And the final In show placing the gun on head was effective but it was slow While is the game henry shot himself so fast the utter shock and disbelief and emotion trauma was felt long after the black screen

[@justdan9264]

Episode 1: ok...ok...the tears held back Episode 2: Not Tess! 😭 Episode 3: a heavy blow to the heart Episode 4: THANK GOD! Episode 5: Every piece of my heart is shredded

[@adamarisv.3747]

this is so accurate

[@YurikRoss]

This show/game is just a series of trauma one after the other. And things are just gonna get bleaker

[@Blue1sh]

@@YurikRoss if this get a season 2 we all know who will die

[@kelvinanthony1791]

​@@Blue1sh not if... the show has been renewed already

[@jorgecabezas1966]

@@Blue1sh I hope the change the story, and keep joel around for a while

[@northwind2538]

The pure hypocrisy of Kathleen telling Henry that Sam was supposed to die while she's so hellbent on getting revenge for her own dead brother is WILD.

[@AlyssaK83]

And the poetic Justice that she died at the hands of a clicker child.

[@perenniallachrymosity276]

Well, I wouldn't exactly say Michael was supposed to die compared to Sam getting a leukemia diagnosis in the apocalypse.

[@we_are_bacons]

Ikr hypocrisy and revenge led the town to doom all because she wanted revenge that her brother didn't want

[@mannylugz5872]

She's a psycho.

[@likeicareusewe]

It's not hypocrisy. Sam has cancer, her brother didn't.

[@nokturn882]

The acting from everyone in this show is top notch.

[@TheSuperNats]

Even actors who are in a single ep, bring their A game like Sarah, Bill and Frank and Sam and Henry 😢

[@thewolfshark5914]

Fun fact about the infected in the game. They are 100% still alive and aware of what is going on, the fungus just hijacks their motor functions. They are still seeing and feeling everything their body is being forced to do while the fungus slowly splits their skull open over years. In the game when the infected are not attacking something you can hear them crying and begging for someone to kill them. And when you first see infected in Boston one is a woman eating her friend that is crying saying “no stop please don’t make me”. It’d be cool if they showed stuff like this in the show but it doesn’t seem like they will

[@blanca.b3104]

That's some next level horror. To be just a passenger in your own body, doing horrific shit.

[@bryana50cents16]

fun fact about the show, they tell us this in episode 1 in the beginning .... so this isnt news?

[@jonathandelgado8384]

Once they become clickers, any ounce of human presence is gone for good. From that point on, the fungus is in *complete control* .

[@minecraftsteve2504]

@@bryana50cents16 because some people misses it You need to chill

[@NoPawn]

It is still very possible. They probably just have to go a little further in the show. And they are not pulling any emotional punches as it is, so brace yourself.

[@axelkjell2320]

The thing that breaks me is the noise that Sam does when Ellie is cutting herself. He cares so much about her, he doesn't want her to hurt herself even to try to save him. He was so young and innocent...

[@VergilLover69]

*He was too pure for this world 🌍 man 😢😢😢😢 R.I.P SUPER SAM*

[@MsKayla84]

It is crazy having played the game and still feeling sad knowing what's about to happen. The "Bloater" looked soooooo darn good. Like this show is the best video game adaptation hands down for real.

[@VergilLover69]

*Was really wondering whether they were even gonna show the bloater and how it would look. And just like the clickers, they didn't disappoint. 10/10,000 for the effects team 👍🏿*

[@xXxfandehalflifexXx]

@@VergilLover69 10/10,000? The effect are that bad? lmao, i think you mean 10,000/10

[@VergilLover69]

@@xXxfandehalflifexXx *2 months man waited 2 months to respond*

[@xXxfandehalflifexXx]

@@VergilLover69 Yeah , i waited, cuz the video disappeared from youtube a day after release, obviously, is not like im watching the video and comments now, right?

[@VergilLover69]

@@xXxfandehalflifexXx *I thought it was funny*

[@DariusFrench6273]

This episode is another reminder of how brutal and unforgiving this world is, regardless of who you are. Something as simple as running across a group of infected has catastrophic effects to deal with and even doing the right thing has consequences. It’s no wonder Joel closed his heart off in the first place. The quicker you get attached to someone, the more likely you are to lose them. But GOD, does it hurt EVERY TIME they make us fall in love with someone and then take them away.

[@VergilLover69]

*Welp imma crawl into bed and cry 😢*

[@andrewquejano746]

The bloater's entrance was epic! I find it very satisfying that it made its iconic kill on national television to none other than Perry the voice actor who played Tommy in the game! Best ep so far! Tell me I'm wrong!

[@Clay__99]

''gymnest?'' ''fuckin' breakdancing!'' ''ACROBATIC DEMON''

[@seriousjoke99]

Laughed my a*s off by their comments, “SHE’S BREAK DANCING!” “WHAT AN ACROBATIC LIL DEMON!” Lmaoo 😂

[@chb_dlx]

<a href="#" class="seekto" data-time="995">16:35</a> Ellie's reaction 😭

[@caydenr8803]

“It’s black history month”💀💀💀

[@mannylugz5872]

Katrine got too obsessed with revenge she ignored the grave danger that eventually wiped them all out.

[@8BitPerception]

I mean thats pretty much the whole premise of the game. It's very anti-revenge. Especially part 2. Revenge never solves anything but only makes things worse in the end.

[@emsteele-keller9358]

YESSSSS thank you for bringing so much joy and making me feel not so alone Johnny 🖤

[@bklynbrwlr]

The collective reaction to the Clickers and the Bloater was TOP TIER!!!

[@Vihan__17]

fun fact the way the bloater kills him by ripping his face off is the same way you die if u get caught by the bloater in the game. The first time i saw it was during the underground part where joel and ellie get separated

[@gerikgooch]

Kudos J2O! Reaction videos are usually boring. THIS is the definitive style for a reaction video, IMHO. By cutting through only the best moments of the show, you’ve created something energetic, funny, and touching. And the fact that you’ve included so many reactions from a variety of watchers helps show how universal our humanity is. When the storytelling is this good, emotions can’t be denied!

[@quantummidget]

Yeah once I found this channel it quickly became one of my favourites. J2O doesn't half-ass it, there's a bunch of effort that goes into editing each of these

[@anonymous_idontreplylmaous72]

This is arguably the best reaction mashup channel

[@giorslatt]

that ending broke me😭

[@yolomolo3889]

"BITCH THE FLOOR IT'S STILL BREATHING" LMAOOOO

[@TheChadD315]

She's so funny

[@Montcoshire]

@@TheChadD315 “Gran Daddy, what the F you doing up here shooting at folks?”

[@jorgecabezas1966]

The first time in the game when I saw the death of henry and sam, I didn't cry, it was more like a boom in my head I was shocked and my mind was trying to processing it. Repeating myself "what", "no", "why now", "ah goddamit"

[@Sciagurai]

This is an interesting experience: crying watching people cry, while they watch something that has already made you cry twice.

[@gerryleon1148]

I heard that Sam may have purposely faced away from Ellie while she was sleeping because he knew he wouldn’t be able to hear her moving after he turned, and wouldn’t attack her since he’s deaf.

[@dannyboymac]

Those smoldering body's we saw last episode, when Joel and Ellie come riding in to the city, are those collaborators. Nicely done, story wise .

[@houseofamma]

This has got to be the BEST episode for your compilations yet. I mean wow. I loved this episode, and I so loved watching everyone's reactions. I just love it. Thank you, Johnny.

[@davidrea6310]

Henry, I would imagine, had to come to terms with the fall of Kansas City and everyone he knew, was because he needed to save his brother’s life. A life that Henry had to take himself. That’s a special kinda tragic.

[@HappywifeTaylor]

I cried so hard for Sam.

[@mrnascarnate1834]

This show can literally pull your strings sometimes

[@MartinPoulter]

As always, the editing is absolutely excellent, like all the reactors are in the room together. Johnny has imitators, but no equals.

[@average__height8033]

It wouldn’t be the first time I’ve cried to a show but it was the first time I was sat there like 😳for a full 20 minutes.

[@jonathandelgado8384]

Apart from Ellie, Sam, and that one kid in the beginning, we've *NEVER* seen an infected child!

[@leonardobraynen1524]

Even in TWD you never truly saw child zombies *EXCEPT THAT EPIC OPENING SCENE WHERE RICK BLOWS THE LITTLE GIRL'S HEAD OFF!!!* SEASON 1 EP1

[@mxaviervega]

The way i identity SO MUCH with the woman who said “I miss coloring.” 🙌🏼

[@zachary_smith1]

This episode hit me hard. I almost cried. That little boy was so cute. Damn man. Good acting.

[@hunterg1036]

<a href="#" class="seekto" data-time="527">8:47</a> that was an AMAZING walking dead reference bro said “yeah he gotta clear?” 😂

[@BellCrookz]

Soooo this show is just one big tragedy after the next…Bill and Frank really had it all 😅

[@AntonAdelson]

Wait till the end...

[@VergilLover69]

*Bill and Frank's end wasn't tragic more like heart wrenchingly beautiful. Sure they chose to off themselves, but they both lived a surprisingly loving and long life. And in the end they chose to spend their last moments together and end their lives on their own terms. Where as Henry and Sam's end was tragic. Sam didn't chose to get infected he just did and their wasn't anything Henry can do and his grief he took his life. Not trying to argue just my personal opinion, both scenes were sad in their own way, but one was tragic*

[@BellCrookz]

@@VergilLover69 I mean that was the point of my comment... When I said "they had it all" it was meant to exclude them from all of the other tragedies viewers have witnessed up until this point.

[@VergilLover69]

@@BellCrookz *gotcha* 👍🏿

[@elchamber]

<a href="#" class="seekto" data-time="698">11:38</a> from "the Last of Us" to "Days Gone" 😂😂😂

[@Heavenly828]

<a href="#" class="seekto" data-time="671">11:11</a> this had me crying 😂

[@obunkystaind]

Dude, whoever is editing these reactions is everything! I love you. I wait every week for a new episode 😂 these are so perfect.

[@evesmith4020]

His name is Johnny O'Dell and he uploaded a channel update video on this channel. Check it out.

[@nicholasthereactor3116]

This episode made me sad, I can't believe that henry and sam are dead, His brother got bitten just like in the game which means he is officially dead, While his brother henry shot himself to death just like in the game as well, It really made me sad and heartbroken 😭😭😭😭.

[@janjumper216]

nah man that ending with sam had me so much in tears man even though i knew it was happening i hoped they wouldnt completely stick to the game

[@johnnyy5327]

Hearing the pure fear in Ramsey performance hits man

[@epbrown01]

I'm impressed - a lot of these reactions were *just* uploaded, so I figured we'd be waiting until Sunday.

[@thealjohnsonshow2188]

+epbrown01 The episode aired last week Friday on HBO Max because of the Super Bowl.

[@epbrown01]

@@thealjohnsonshow2188 Yep, but a lot of reactors didn't upload until after the weekend. Some only uploaded on Wednesday.

[@TonyTylerDraws]

Ellie trying to use her blood broke me Update: it still does 😢

[@cheriegoldie7179]

Your edits are soooooo much more entertaining than the others on KZbin. Thanks for all the hard work you put into creating these.

[@jediclonekag13]

<a href="#" class="seekto" data-time="835">13:55</a>-<a href="#" class="seekto" data-time="856">14:16</a> B.I.H. Kathleen🤬 <a href="#" class="seekto" data-time="889">14:49</a>-<a href="#" class="seekto" data-time="1010">16:50</a> R.I.P. Henry and Sam😔 This episode was insane yet heartbreaking, especially since we got the debut of the Bloater in this show.

[@ramirogonzalesvela5857]

Excuse me sir...What means "BIH"? I´m from South America

[@danishaiman2244]

@@ramirogonzalesvela5857 BlTCH in HELL i guess? 🤷🏻‍♂️

[@jediclonekag13]

@@ramirogonzalesvela5857 It’s internet slang for “Burn In Hell”.

[@ramirogonzalesvela5857]

@@danishaiman2244 idk men thats why im asking you

[@ramirogonzalesvela5857]

@@jediclonekag13 Thanks men

[@poisonedivysaur]

I'm so glad as a gamer we got to see that Ish did, in fact, live in this world, too. Also, Perry is tommy's voice actor in the video game.

[@FutureWarrior8k]

What made Sam’s death worse is that he was still there when he turned. So he was forced to watch himself ruthlessly attack Ellie before everything suddenly went dark. I honestly think he screamed after being alerted because he was begging himself to stop and at the very least scare Ellie enough for her to run away.

[@DJToested]

now THIS was a bad-ass reaction video! All my favorites in ONE, and blended pretty awesomely! Thank you!

[@choco.munchiez]

everyone's reaction when the clickers came out had me DYING 😭

[@shauna.a8701]

12:29 though 😂

[@captain_commenter8796]

This episode was a good reminder that this is a zombies franchise in a post apocalyptic world. The zombies were fucking RUTHLESS, especially the Bloater and the episode didn’t give everyone a “happy ending” just how real life is never truly sunshine and rainbows.

[@Username-li1je]

<a href="#" class="seekto" data-time="84">1:24</a> "B*tch the floor still breathing" 😂

[@AlyssaK83]

Yes!! We got bloaters! Shame they don’t shoot spores like the game but I like the ‘raging hulk’ aspect of them so I’m happy. This episode broke me so bad. This was even more heartbreaking than the game. TLOU continues to do things right; we may finally have our near perfect if not absolutely perfect video game to live action adaptation.

[@dotunfadairo8496]

Another great compilation. Thank you Johnny. You do amazing work 🤗🤗🤗

[@isobellexlittlehood]

<a href="#" class="seekto" data-time="698">11:38</a> <a href="#" class="seekto" data-time="706">11:46</a> my favorite part right there... The reactions are just priceless when the infected came out <a href="#" class="seekto" data-time="749">12:29</a> especially the Blaoter 🥲🥲🥲🙌🙌🙌

[@patronusfilm]

just what i needed to watch! thank you for the amazing editing

[@jgreg3596]

I was hoping that they would reference Ish in the Henry and Sam episode, and I was happy when they included the drawing from the game.

[@Xloudy684]

<a href="#" class="seekto" data-time="807">13:27</a> “what an acrobatic demon” I thought this was the funniest reaction to that scene 😂

[@avnir8966]

Mine was the reaction before that one "she’s breakdancing!"

[@nashbutler]

The end is so trippy I’ve stayed in that hotel so many times and next week I’m there for like 10 days straight it’s gonna be weird

[@thealjohnsonshow2188]

Phenomenal episode once again. Seeing the Bloater in live-action was glorious. Ironically, it doing the jaw rip game over death on the original voice of Tommy was poetry. Melanie Lynskey was pretty ruthless in her short time on the show. She made every second of her appearance count. But.... Henry and Sam. What more can I say about them (other than me liking the change to have Sam be deaf in the show)? Beautiful bond, beautiful dynamic with Joel & Ellie and a tragic end to their tale. Damn, do I love this show.

[@naomie.reacts]

aw man, this episode hurt!

[@lkf8799]

You're edits are always amazing 🤩 Thank you for doing what you do 🤗

[@salvadormazal2105]

The amount of time it took to put all of this together + the fact that it highlights some of the best reactions/moments of the show. You have my subscription, sir.

[@captaincodypotato8386]

Another great video! Thanks for these. They're a lot of fun.

[@TheJakeaboo]

these videos are great. you pick the best people to pile into them and just damn. good work!

[@khaleesimandy74]

I absolutely appreciate that you does these. This is where I know who to follow on here. I've been watching reaction videos since Game of Thrones. And I'm picky on who to follow. Thank you for giving me an easier way to find who are awesome to follow

[@raelewis7]

The irony of it all being the town literally caves in from the revenge Kathleen tried to exact for her brother that said she should forgive

[@mrs.johnson4831]

When i tell you i was WAITING for this reaction video for DAYS!!! 😂 These ppl funny as hell! 😅 I’m so happy i found this channel!

[@evesmith4020]

Check out his old channels gammaray and skybound

[@vbadimothebadassjackass8011]

<a href="#" class="seekto" data-time="790">13:10</a> Her face still gets me every time XD

[@gentlebeast3567]

This is one of the best editing I truly like well done thank you and keep editing like this because this is so much entertaining reaction after reaction in every beautiful and shocking scenes or even a short dialogue you got some reactions I think I'll watch this many times great job 👍👍👍👍👍

[@pookling]

I cried uncontrollably in this episode I swear

[@masonperich1760]

i gotta say, its really impressive you are able to add your own take and flair to other peoples reaction because you make it unique. editing had me dyin

[@itsonlyshay]

The fact that his first kill had to be his little brother. 😢

[@kylec254]

I LOVE THIS SHOW!!!!! I played the game a long time ago but I remember it so vividly. I really like the changes they do. They make the show way more entertaining and heartbreaking at the same time.

[@runespar]

"Different flavor of crazy" is a great line.

[@mosesrodriguez4647]

I've watched this episode multiple times and I still get emotional at the end. The writing, directing, cast and crew have all been amazing!! For those who don't know or haven't watched it yet, the directing, writing, acting and set design are just as amazing in the show Chernobyl. I'm sure plenty of people think the show Chernobyl is a horror show, but it's not. It's a recounting of how things went down when the reactor exploded. The director really knows how to bring emotion to every scene in Chernobyl and it is felt the same way in The Last of Us.

[@reindolfkyei-baffour2704]

reallly happy to see you post this much love ❤❤

[@clarkbrolly9688]

Loving your take on this series with amazing contributors

[@reconsoldier135]

“Hello there, sexy Santa 🎅🏻” 🤣🤣🤣

[@uguess3609]

<a href="#" class="seekto" data-time="1050">17:30</a> even the dog's crying 😭😭😭😭

[@djm122270]

I've been waiting for this one! Excellent content for sure!👏❤‍🔥☺

[@frankwithrow377]

I was blown away playing the game and again watching the series,excellent stories and plots

[@MakuArein]

I've said it before and I'll say it again. You make the best react compilations. Everything is just so cohesive. Also, 5 episodes so far and the show has been absolutely amazing.

[@uwchannel2119]

All these episodes are great, but VERY VERY emotional. Man this show is a masterpiece just like the game!

[@RS-bn1ty]

Seeing those infected jump out of the sinkhole, I had the biggest smile 😂 I think I’m just a fan of the game and seeing them come to life like this just made me so happy. My face when I saw the clicker and bloater, smiled from ear to ear lol

[@Sirvikrail]

“They’re adding to the trauma”. David creepily says hello!

[@BroPaulSyrel]

The emotional episode ever

[@vantablacc3264]

This game can really make you tear up, game or show. I usually don't too, but this game just hits you right in the feels man. Damn masterpiece of a game.

[@talkandeattv]

great comp as always

[@Fallsoul556]

Was waiting for this video 😹 Ending hit hard 🥲

[@redguardoverall6807]

Easily my favourite episode of the season so far. Spectacular acting all round by the cast.

[@justatypicalyoutuber8402]

You have got to be one of the BEST reaction mixers on KZbin. The way you edit these videos make it seem like they're all in the same room but in different areas. You make it sound and look like they're all having a conversation while watching. Love that!

[@leonardobraynen1524]

Same. Found these guys on TWD SEASON 9 RICKS *"DEATH EPISODE"*

[@Jasel71]

@<a href="#" class="seekto" data-time="526">8:46</a> my dude said that it's Morgan shooting and the other guy mentions "clear" cause that's the episode they find Morgan again and he's shooting at them! I keep seeing a lot of references and similarities between this show and TWD. Two great shows!!

[@johnle9883]

been waitin on this thanks j20

[@sonnyankau9239]

this episode was incredible & all of the reactions had me dying of laughter until the end lol. this show is incredible. i found it so profound that Henry's first (and last) kill was his brother. absolutely heartbreaking.