I don't want anyone to find out who I am. Wallah1i wallah1i cannot tell you how much I loved her, more than myself, more than my family and more than this whole world. She was everything to me, I lived to love her. I did not know that a person is capable of such love, although she is not a wife and not a family. God alone knew how much I loved her. But Allah did not bring us together, I was nothing to her. She didn't even look in my direction. Alhamdulillah1 She knows, I do not know. For many years, I have asked in every dua to forget her if nothing comes of it, and to bring her together if we are prescribed to each other. But there was no answer for many years.. in a row, and I loved her more every day. I cried every night, asked Allah for help, it was the most difficult ordeal. And at the same time the most experienced lesson. I still love her!