I’ve never felt like this in my life

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a week in the life of a final year medical student | getting my life back together/weekly vlog 2022
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[@ThaliaRam]

You're not a failure Faye. You're a remarkable, beautiful, kind and intelligent young woman. Trust me, I've been through (and still do) the crying moments..You being vulnerable and sharing your authentic self is helping a lot of people, myself included. Please take care of yourself and do what you need to do to heal, whether it is vlogging emotions to let them out, hanging out with your friends or even just simply resting. 🥺❤

[@Spikeswift]

Whoever it is putting you through this needs holding accountable. No-one should be made to feel that they are in the wrong for speaking up about terrible treatment they have received. Please don't feel guilty and doubt your decisions to speak up. I know you haven't told us what has happened as it is confidential but as an old lady I can read between the lines. You are very brave x

[@minamann8792]

You are such a wonderful and brave person… don‘t let anyone tell you different. It’s so brave to put yourself out there!!! Stay strong and vulnerable, we can be both at the same time 🤍

[@life_of_lou]

Stay strong Faye - I promise you've achieved what you set out to do in that you've helped other people feel reassured and not alone :) i'm in my 3rd year of med school and relate to so much of your story. So thank you, always, for sharing. Sending the very best wishes x

[@sabihasayeed1670]

You sharing your highs and lows isn't disorientating at all. It makes me feel like I'm not alone because most days I do feel like that. Especially what you said about not wanting to get up in the morning. And then I'll have good days scattered amidst the bad ones. And sometimes it feels like what's the point of good days if it's gonna be followed by a bad one. But as the Doctor said "What's the point of being happy if you're going to be sad later? The answer is of course because you're going to be sad later." Thank you for sharing your journey, and I do hope you have more of the good days/moments and less of the bad days/moments.

[@starryxblue]

It was so lovely to see you be proud of yourself in real time haha. Vulnerability is a superpower, it just isn't seen as one but you affect so many people by sharing :)

[@rachelbreen6963]

I hope your Christmas season is filled with only the rainbows Faye, sending loads of love. You always brighten my day when you upload something, you being honest is so refreshing, we can't feel good all the time and you're helping people more than you know ♥️

[@aurelieconstant9760]

Thank you so much for sharing those vulnerable moments! It’s very brave of you!

[@abbiemeakinxox]

Stay strong but also let go Faye, don't feel embarrassed of your emotions. You are an incredible woman & it's okay not to be okay as cringe as it sounds. Sending big hugs girlie💕

[@celiamendoza3946]

Stay strong ❤️ you’re doing the best you can. You’re on the finish line of one of the hardest and emotionally draining degrees out there and I can’t think how you must be feeling. Just know you’re doing the best you can and that’s more than enough.

[@moserland511]

stay strong girl !!!!! love and support from Morocco

[@katehoffman2139]

I’m currently applying to residencies as a medical student in the USA, and I completely understand how you feel! Thank you for sharing Faye! We will get through this difficult year!! We are here for you!

[@harrietellingworth1649]

You are such a brave and wonderful person! You are amazing for achieving what you have done and you should be so proud. Love you and your channel and will always support you and your journey x

[@niamhclarkson1347]

😥aw Faye honestly you got this, you have worked really hard and there's not long left to go. Please remember you are worth it and you are smashing it despite having ADHD it must be really difficult but you are not alone 💖

[@keskaur3630]

Ur tears are legit making me cry you’re so so strong you’ve got this baby girl !!! 😢

[@EleanorW0018]

sending you a big hug honestly 🥺💓 i hope you feel better soon, I've been mega emotional recently too ❤️

[@Katie-kp6cf]

I can relate to this so much- I am the same as you, I feel so much better when I share my personal situations with others and being vulnerable and open about what exactly I'm struggling with. And the thing you mentioned about relying on talking to other people to help you process/ get through tough situations But I've been stressing about it quite a lot recently because I thought I was the only one who felt that way- but when I don't have anybody to talk to I feel like I'm going to explode + I end up ruminating on the though so much in my head and just beating myself up about things to the point I feel even further away from ever coming to a solution. But I feel a lot better knowing there is someone else feeling this way too- maybe it's not weird after all? I can't thank you enough for sharing this & I hope things get better for you💞

[@Kate-kg5pf]

Your honesty and vulnerability is so appreciated, it’s so important to open up and you never truly know what people are going through behind closed doors, there is nothing wrong with being a cryer, your tears if anything show the compassion you have which will take you so far as a doctor, you’re doing amazing and never let anyone (including yourself) tell you different! You’re smashing it Faye 💗

[@elizavanvredenburch2035]

You are amazing Faye, thank you for sharing and being so vulnerable.

[@lauramackay8425]

You are alot younger than me, but you are wise beyond your years. You are a great role model Faye, showing your vulnerability and being real. You really are an inspiration. Sending love for the struggles you are going through x

[@mary.vazquez]

Ok, so I’m not down watching but THANK YOU SO MUCH! For letting us into your life and showing us what your going through. It’s hard now but I know for you it’s going to get better ❤ no matter what we are here for you love 💗🫶🏼

[@rejoiceamieghemen4638]

Thank you for this vulnerability, thank you for this openness. It is something me, and probably a lot of your other subscribers needed. I am the exact same - never cry, always shoving things to the back of my mind, and if and when I do reflect on what is going on, it almost always feels impossible to see a way forward. For me my goals feel impossible because of my mental health and giving up does always seem like the only way forward and the only way out. You are strong because you've made it this far, and worthy enough to carry on because of how much more you can do. We have got this.

[@abbiehazelwood2848]

Thank you for this and being so honest❤️Watching this has made me realise I need to take a step back myself and take a breather, thank you Faye. I’m glad you’re feeling better ❤️

[@deborahQM]

Thank you for sharing this, it helps so much that other ppl might be going through this. I have been fighting with my mental health for the past 3 years now. Seeing this helped in a way. Hope you’re doing better, thanks again ❤

[@FayeBate]

I hope you’re battles start getting a bit easier Deborah!! Sending lotsa love 💗

[@sudeyesil1809]

Thank you for your authenticity ❤ Stay Strong, love you 🫶🏼

[@jennywang6473]

i cried with you there in the middle

[@geraldiner9326]

Sending you love and strength to get through the tough situations you are facing

[@alexisshearn9176]

sending you so much love. stay strong Faye xx

[@hansinisingiri3046]

Yayy to your unfiltered kinda vlogs yet aesthetic!!

[@KaylaBlack1]

Hey Faye, I’ve been subscribed for years now and just want to say thankyou for always being so real with us and sharing the successes but also your down moments. Sending you all the positive vibes ❤ I just downloaded headspace, I think it will be very useful since reaching such heavy burnout in the nursing world, the medical industry is so low staff doctors, nurses, ains, everyone. Makes it so so hard to feel motivated to go to work when you know your workload is doubled and the environment / management is getting toxic. I’m from Australia, so can’t talk for London. But anyway, hope you are feeling better soon ❤

[@Elle-xk2yf]

I took two days to watch this ..I love how raw and authentic you are to yourself and to us ..we need to express to exit some emotions and you did well !;)

[@FayeBate]

Hey Elle! Thanks so much for the support lovely!!💗

[@tajamajhenic7046]

Truly thank you for your videos. Its been rough and its comforting to see that the bad times also come to an end. Im a new viewer and the life you live now looks like its worth the pain you had to go through in the past. So thank you for sharing these moments. It makes me realize that the rain does stop at some point.

[@emilycraven386]

Keep being yourself we love you💗 xx

[@_tialipovsek]

Thank you for this video

[@FayeBate]

Hey Tia! I’m so so sorry you’re having a hard time 😢 I’ve got my fingers crossed that it starts getting easier!! I definitely could do with journaling a bit more and this has motivated me to journal a bit more 💗💗

[@NataliaGlebocka]

I deal with the same thing as you Faye go on anti depressants they have helped me soooo mcuh more and they may help you. I think your amazing and thank you for being so honest

[@nesmayassien5413]

Your videos always make me feel better. Your honesty is a lifesaver ♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️😔 Keep being you Faye

[@Molly-lt5dz]

Thank you so much for sharing this Faye definitely helped me, especially with what I'm going through outside of just college will take moments from this like taking it day by day minute by minute when I'm feeling low recently subscribed and cant wait to see future videos from you xx☺

[@Raycarlaxo]

Thanks for showing your vulnerability. I hope you’re okay lovely friend xx ❤

[@FayeBate]

Thank you Carla 💗💗

[@nadiafrylinck6075]

i am currently in a rainy period. this vlog helped me so much , thank you ❤

[@keskaur3630]

Gal ur so brave I absolutely ABSOLUTELY ADORE YOU OKAY !! I HOPE YOU UNDERSTAND 😭 U THE REASON IM DOING MED :( xx

[@maddieforbes2703]

Seeing you this upset is really hard to watch. Stay strong, things will get better. You’re so loved by your KZbin family xxx

[@annaloboda3540]

Karen should stfu with her white woman tears.

[@aa_282]

I wish u were my friend u seem so lovely and bubbly, take care of urself girl🥺🥺💕💕

[@hannahcollardgray4448]

I can relate to so much in this. It’s probably hard to talk about it, but I love that you’re open about your journey with disordered eating, as I’m currently trying to recover, but having undiagnosed autism at 24 is hard. Maybe I’ll be diagnosed by the time I start university.

[@stephanimonster]

We live in a world full of "perfect" people living "perfect" lives, while all of those situations are so fake. Noone of these is real. Faye don't second guess yourself about the things you uploaded on KZbin because we appreciate you for being yourself. That's how we resonate with you. It is the struggles that we all face everyday, the silent battles that we go through. Personally for me the month of November has been really really tough but I came through it as a winner. So, we all struggle with things but at the end we have each other and this helps it a bit, to know that someone is going through the same things. We love you Faye, keep doing you, greetings from Greece!!

[@Christina277]

The fact that I have my CVS and Respi exam the day after Tomorrow and I'm still watching Faye's vidss😭❤️

[@AmandaSbarros]

Thank you so much for this video, I watched it crying with you. I also have ADHD and I thought the meds would help me but they keep me out of depression episodes which is great but does not help with the ADHD part at all. I am studying to be a psychologist in Brazil and I almost died trying to pass the exam to get a scholarship for college. I achieved what I wanted, I am studying psychology at my dream university for free, however, I still feel like it was luck and I am not good enough. All of my colleagues are rich, I can not fit in, and the loneliness is real. This year I want to improve my English and give my best in understanding the college subjects but still does not look good enough. I wanted to take some online courses in English, however, I need to improve my speaking and my writing before considering this possibility, so I decided to study this entire year before looking for English online courses that would give me certificates at the end. So, I have 2023 to improve my English alone because money is something I do not have and I also have to take extra courses outside of college to get extracurricular credits for my degree. I need to take care of my health, this includes going to bed at a reasonable hour, eating healthy and enough food, working out because is something I love, and taking care of my hygiene, OMG it is too much for my brain. It hurts to see that even doing all of that, for some reason I am always behind, ALWAYS. I feel so not good enough, all of my colleagues traveled to Europe and USA this past holiday, and half of the class is preparing for an exchange in England, and I am here trying to improve my English ALONE without a perspective of real using. I am trying my best but always behind, especially as a woman, I am not organized enough, I can not remember dates, and I also feel so unworthy of admiration. I am trying so hard and the last time I saw my doctor she told me I needed to be more organized, plan better, and have more discipline, sometimes I just collapse crying in my room because I can not take anymore but I have to for my own sake. So thank you for this video, you are strong and brave, and you are going to be a doctor and it manages to build an entire audience here on youtube, you are amazing. Thank you so much for inspiring me.

[@beboduh]

i appreciate you. 🤍

[@FayeBate]

💗💗💗💗

[@BabeeMilly]

You inspire me ♥️

[@FayeBate]

💗💗💗💗💗

[@samanthaainembabazi7889]

I'm a med student and i totally get it

[@dfsx7934]

i love u so much

[@dreaming_of_that_mbbs_mbchb]

My psychologist said - feeling the emotion letting it be there even accepting it and opening the door to it and crying is what you learn in therapy not crying makes it worse not screaming not feeling sad not feeling angry makes it worse because you simmer longer and boil over eventually Feel the feels

[@dottywhl5335]

Stay strong everyone, you got this, and you're not alone

[@ntbri]

Girl I feel you, me rn

[@FayeBate]

😢😢😢

[@amycolucci6769]

Sending love from usa

[@nataliarooks2526]

This will deffo not solve everything but make sure you're taking your vit D tablets! I genuinely think that's helped me in the winter months for sure, hope things get better for you gal x

[@SophieHyde0]

rafi winning bingo gave me enough serotonin for the month

[@FayeBate]

You nd me both xoxox

[@annaloboda3540]

Stfu with your white women tears. People are becoming more woke and not falling for this.

[@annaloboda3540]

What are you Karens gonna do? Report my comment? Wanna speak to the managers of the comment deletion? 😂

[@matttanner387]

I love you

[@ishasingh6268]

❤❤❤

[@sophiemartin5757]

❤❤❤❤❤

[@FayeBate]

💗💗💗💗

[@margotdegraeve2832]

i can't live without my adhd medication

[@LeahRebecca]

🥺🥺🥺🥺

[@thislifeisagame9540]

You book for the exam?

[@dreaming_of_that_mbbs_mbchb]

Autumn for a girl

[@lisnerymarquezayala9532]

Faye please look for help like going to a psycologist or psychiatrist

[@lieketsengmasemene7777]

🫂

[@SophieHyde0]

did you just put an egg on a pizza? also can tell instantly when you in rafis flat due to the cleanliness

[@FayeBate]

😡😡😡😡

[@FayeBate]

egg in pizza is a thing I just didn’t do the thing very well

[@mochi1149]

I cba to watch the whole vid, why's she crying so much? What's the issue?

[@racheldemain1940]

She doesn't say! I was finding it draining too.

[@anita4371]

Please please please consider going part time when you start your doctor training, do half your hours Your moods are not stable and you will need more time to recharge between shifts. Recharge by walking, volunteering, going into nature, spending time with other cohorts, animals. I'm 47 years old and really taking a few years longer is a drop in the ocean of time. Please do not do full time

[@AmandaSbarros]

I really needed to read this last sentence. "Taking a few years longer is a drop in the ocean of time*, THANK YOU.

[@kellytyler5164]

You know, even though I find you to be OTP and can only handle the "party girl" in small doses, unlike how I feel about most KZbin 57vloggers, who behave like attention-seeking where's I can feel compassion for you. I just want to know if you could date a guy who was just like you. I agree with what you said at the end of your video - that it takes far less energy to deal with whatever pain you may be feeling or why than it does to face our problems or fears head-on. If Dylan cannot or won't give you what you need, it's time to move on, girl.

[@GroovyD3]

when i first saw how long this video is i was like ( how’s gonna whatch that this is so long ) but i literally just enjoyed watching it till the end , you made me think about my life thank you🤍🫂

[@Anna-je8sg]

Faye, you got me into studying with Anki and I couldn‘t be more grateful bc I passed all the exams I studied for and failed the last time. And this semester I got soo much to get into my brain. Would be impossible without it. Someone asking me questions is ligit the only way I can keep something in my brain, but nobody would want to ask 150 questions per course over and over again.🫶🏽 made my life so much easier.❤️

[@sophiebelbin490]

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[@jehoiada_bassey]

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