Feeling alone when I'm not and conflicts about romanticizing experiences with my dead friend.

In this video I get vulnerable about a hard time I'm having on a road trip with some friends and in the midst of that venting I have a bit of a breakdown over my friend who passed away last year. I talk about struggles with different personality types, my own internal process, and I cry, a lot.

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So you stay in the car when the others are sleeping and you're not? Is there no other things to do?

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Well because of Covid I wasn't going to try to meet anyone new or go to any public places. I didn't feel safe going to hiking trails in the middle of the night. And we were random stop offs kind of in middle of nowhere US. I didn't just sit there and do nothing though, I practiced my ukelele, carved avacados, video chatted with a friend, and read my book. I am going to do a more specific video on traveling while polyphasic soon where I go into more detail on that. This video was more just an emotional release.