☯Feeling Like a Burden in the Family☯

kinda hard to find a thumbnail where i'm not crying but whatever. Anyways its my birthday today c: Even though this is a sappy video - like really sappy - TRIGGER WARNING - (as per usual). Anyways lemme know how you feel in your family placement - seriously hope it's better than how I feel. The perf lil fam come back after my birthday lol weee fun.
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[@HannahLily27x]

I completely know how you feel. I hate how people like onision say stuff like "people with depression/ e.d/ self harm issues need to get over themselves" because it is a chemical imbalance in the brain, we don't purposely feel the way we feel.

[@sophiewhittaker6000]

Hannah Lily i get what your saying , ive been diagnosed with chronic depressionand suffered with self harm and eating dissorders for the longest time and honestly onision is the reason i stopped self harming, some people cope and recover better with no bullshit attitudes like onisions

[@meghanorrell4688]

self harm is not a chemical imbalance. eating disorders I'm not sure of.

[@sophiewhittaker6000]

self harm isnt , its an action , but the need to do it and depression is they are dissorders

[@Angels1168]

Meghan Orrell self harm is an action against one self. its to match whats going on whats inside on the outside. they cant control whats going on, so self harming is the one thing they can control eating disorders is a mental illness. its a chemical imbalance, that says you are fat, feeling that you are fat, when you are skin and bones.

[@meghanorrell4688]

+Candice Lewis yeah but it's your decision. in onision's he's not making fun of self harm directly, he's making fun of the people who broadcast it all over the Internet and say stupid stuff like "look what you did to me". because they didn't do anything to that person. it's all on them, it's their own actions and they can't blame anything or anyone else for it. sure it's their way of coping but it's not helping the situation in any way and is only harming you more. and he says that if you really wanted help, you'd go get it. and that's true. doesn't matter if you're scared. if you 100% wanted to stop self harming, then you would go do something about it and work on getting better and talk to someone instead of putting yourself in a situation where you'd only be triggered more (a blithe social media account)

[@melanierussell341]

i completely understand. my father feels the need to constantly remind me how expensive i am to take care of. i literally asked for supplys for a school project and he yells at me about how much money i always cost him. it makes me so afraid to ask for essential things :-/ like im sorry that i exist and cause so many problems i didnt choose to.

[@norahcarere5116]

I want to give you a long distance hug, but I can't. Stupid laws of space time. Oh well, I can give you this at least. *Hug*

[@d.m2506]

Same :/ sadly :(

[@atomicbarbie809]

That’s awful my dads the same I feel guilty it’s like we don’t want them for the money we want to be loved

[@sara123lovesmusic]

My dad is the same.. why didn't ur mOther buied u supplys(girl problems) he is pissed cuz he have to buy me things... It is like don't eat to much, u Will be fat and do u have any idea of how much money i spend for ur food.. why didn't wash ur hair at home do u know how much water u spend? .. Blah blah blah along with: think about what u do and change everybody is above u mentally... U have no friends that is prove that what i say it's true!! Faking idiot!!

[@sara123lovesmusic]

It is like i am not gulity cuz u made me..

[@user-ty8ei7sg8t]

making these videos is like a therapy for you, but watching them feels like a therapy for me! and I'm sure I'm not the only one! Because you can explain your feelings, while I can't, and when you explain them I feel like you're also explaining my feelings and I'm so thankful for that, because you make me understand myself and my feelings way better ! I love you

[@BabvBlues]

MoonlightCat x Thank you c:

[@hilalus8415]

+MoonlightCat x you literally just said what I've been wanting to say ever since i found her channel

[@MiniMiner91]

It is. I love it I literally watch it everyday.

[@josephine2512]

My mom and dad literally tells me all the time how I make their life difficult, how I ruin their life, how I make problems for them and so on. Thanks that's really gonna help me get through everything, that's gonna make my depression and anxiety better. That makes me feel so much worse. I hold things back just so I don't make more problems for my dad (I don't live with my mother, and haven't seen her or my siblings in almost a year) and when I finally take my shit together and tell him how I feel and shit, he doesn't listen he just tells me how much problems that give him and tells me to stop thinking and being the way I am. I cry just thinking about it, it just another burden and I feel so bad and responsible for making problems for him. I'm sorry just felt like telling you, and just get it out. I haven't been to my therapist in two mouths, because my dad don't think I need to any more... I tell him every fucking day, and I just get worse and worse. And fight not to self harm.

[@jessicarose7719]

I hope things are getting a little better for you, if you need to talk I'm here

[@jojoaldar]

If you want to talk please just tell me and I'll be there. Stay strong and alive, love

[@shradhashenoy5520]

I hope you fee better soon. I love you :)

[@Aliff_Klg]

Same here.. When i have kids.. I will never treat my kids the way my parents treat me.. Even if my kids becomes nothing.. I will always give them love.. And care untill the day i die

[@Sasuga_Skky]

I %100 feel the same way. I fell like a burden on everyone I know. My friends don't seem to care about me. After my 3rd suicide attempt none of them asked me if I was okay, if I needed help. No one was there for me. My family didn't notice when I ran away for about 4 days, I love them to death but that doesn't change the fact that they make me feel unloved. The only person that actually gives a shit is my best friend Mark, who has so many problems of his own I don't want to give him mine as well. Thank you for putting how I feel into words.

[@HayleeFox15]

Clicked on this because it feels good to be relateable. ♡

[@moneycake5037]

I've cried with you the hole way.. I've never related to you more

[@ghotay3]

You keep saying that your parents are amazing people, right after describing something incredibly shitty that they did to you! I think you should stop trying to defend them and their actions, because you need to recognise that you are NOT at fault here. Telling you that they're going on holiday a little in advance is just COMMON COURTESY - I live with strangers and they would tell me that kind of thing. Not to mention all the stuff about excluding you despite the fact that you are FAMILY I don't mean to bash your parents here. I'm sure they are good people in many ways. And even while it's possible that they are thoughtless or forgetful (which I am not sure of at all), that still doesn't make it okay because it is making you feel so bad! I hope things get better for you. Sending all my best vibes and wishing you a happy birthday x

[@BabvBlues]

ghotay3 Their actions doesn't make them bad people. They are still amazing people even though the things they do don't appeal to me. They do so many more amazing things but this video only focuses on most negatives. Surely there will be a video up showing that I do appreciate the things they did for me

[@ghotay3]

Howsenselessdeath Howpreciouslife I'm sure they're not bad people, but from the information in this video it seems like they don't really see you as a priority in their lives, which is sad because you are family. That would be really nice to see, get some positivity up in here :)

[@darkowl8627]

+Howsenselessdeath Howpreciouslife I get.u.have.a.life.and.ur.problems. are way worse than mine, but.i would really love a.way to talk to u.and, i.really.need help and.h.seem to get it. sorry if.its too much, its chill, iam used to.it love u.and ur.vids xxxx

[@SabrinaUmstead]

I connect with this video so much I cried from the feels

[@missymorales7376]

Once you feel confident that you have found your purpose in life, you won't feel like a burden to anyone because you'll know your place on this planet. Remember we are spiritual beings having a human experience & some of us have tougher lessons to learn, but I'm glad you are here to share those lessons. Have a wonderful birthday and know that the universe supports your existence because you serve a purpose. Love & light.

[@nikki5198529418]

and just so you know, you are NOT gross when you cry your adorable and it actually breaks my heart that you feel the way u do, and felt, and honestly, those are not first world problems i think they are more then justifiable to feel the wy u do about jeez girl your my hero, your an incredible human being and i cannot believe how yyouve beeen mistreated!! -excuse my typos, my nails lol love u girl. i love your vids, i cant exactly relate but i understand. xo

[@hollyamberblue]

You are my favorite youtuber because you are so raw and real you don't sugarcoat things. You are an inspiration to me and your words keep me strong. Thank you xx

[@midwestmasocist]

these older vids make me feel homesick for a home that doesn't exist

[@Lune.luxxxxx]

this makes me value my parents ♥♥♥

[@Lune.luxxxxx]

so thank u so much

[@zeninspiredlegacy]

I remember my drunk uncle bursting into my room, cussing me out, and calling me a black sheep for absolutely no reason. My dad and mom always call me lazy. They say I've caused so many problems for them. My doctor thinks I have fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue syndrome, major depressive disorder, and an anxiety disorder. I don't know if this has all cultivated because of my sexual assault, or because of the verbal abuse I've received my entire life. My dad's side is baptist and they realize I'm not "religious" so it's created a huge divide and they always act disappointed in me. My mom treats me differently since she found out I'm not straight and cisgendered. Funny that my dad doesn't seem to care about that as much. Even though they do a bunch of really sucky things, they act like they've done nothing. I know they feel guilty though because they always try to make things up to me by buying me things and fake affection.

[@sydneymarquezmm]

HOLY heck. Our lives and personalitys and how we feel and how we react to things are so similar DUUUUDEE.

[@trsptvswsnk2709]

I totally understand why you feel like a Burden,I feel the same way to and it's awful but anyways Happy Birthday stay happy not crappy :)

[@trsptvswsnk2709]

She is X)

[@Jenskulii99]

My parents left their suicidal daughter home alone for two weeks in a house full of pills and razors..Good parenting... well, still got a week left

[@scotthorror2519]

I feel for you

[@m0on.avis.]

It's worse if their suicidal daughter is only 12

[@sarahsmulders7838]

issie arbagondanagblav the age doesn’t matters at this point.

[@Jenskulii99]

@Aura Darkskipper thanks, I'm okay. :)

[@someone-by5tq]

@@Jenskulii99 💙 that's good, stay save

[@pdiddle8]

This made me realize this is exactly how I feel. I feel like they just wish I was easier to raise.

[@PinkcherryJuice29]

I love you and I think you are an amazing person. Don't let anyone make you believe that you are not worthy of love, because you are ! You are beautiful, smart, talented and so many more ! Believe in your self like no one has ever done, because you are amazing. I have neurotic depression and my parents tell me that it's nothing, it's aufull to be in such a torture and hear your parents say that it's not a big deal. Your parents should be proud of you and love you, if they don't it's 100% their fault not yours ! Don't feel bad and guilty about someone else's mistakes, you just keep being you and everything will fall into place !

[@skymartinez5042]

I really wanna hug you

[@tars330]

She's mine go away

[@InfernoKladd]

Me too

[@aubreycharlier2527]

When u started crying, I just wanted to stick my arms through my iPad and hug you! I'm always here if you need a friend to talk to :) ilysm

[@xmrchubbyx]

Letting out all this emotion is good. You understand yourself. Meditating has worked wonders for me I think everyone else should too

[@andreagerstner1292]

I totally understand. This sounds silly but sometimes I feel like even my dog is higher up in the 'family ladder'. >.

[@MiniMiner91]

I love this video so much. Not because she's hurt because it's just so true. I love it.

[@hex1275]

Happy Birthday! I also feel like the black sheep. Its hard having two successful siblings, while i cant even function in society. While they travel the world and work hard i go to my therapist.

[@Poppy-wz4gx]

I feel this on a way different level. My brother gets everything he ever asks for like games, systems, an iphone, skateboard, basketball, t-shirts, and hats (usually around christmas time). Whenever I ask for a ps3 and video games, my mom always says "That's too expensive, I'm not paying $300 for a system and games."There was even a time when my mom went to the store brought back doritos and soda for my brother, but completely forgot about me. I even asked her how she forgot and her answer was, "Sorry sis, I was too busy getting Riley's stuff and forgot about you" Then she had the nerve to start laughing and I went into my room and cried because she always forgets about me. Being the second child sucks because its always about my brother... He's 19 and Im 17...

[@Fautex]

i think i've never seen such an inspirational person like you. i really can't believe there a people like you out there. having a past, being creative in so many different ways, intelligent, understandable, real, so polite und with such a great big heart. just stay as you are ana

[@aishaali6361]

I definitely watch you're videos when falling into depression for about 2-3 months. I must say, your video really helped me to move forward for my situation. I thank you for all the advices you've shared through your videos. I hope that things get better for you ☺

[@soleill931]

No one could ever be ashamed of you. You're amazing and you're so strong. ily

[@selineboland8262]

6:52 you just apologise for your feelings. you don't need to be sorry

[@Enirahj]

I don't watch your videos everyday but when I do, I cry because not only do I feel bad but I can really relate to your videos. I do feel like a burden to my family and I've self harmed before. When I watch your videos it's like a relief because I now know I can relate to someone and not have to feel like I'm alone or the only one. So thank you :)

[@gracekaseman8716]

I love the way your tears fall. I love he way your nose moves when you inhale. You're beautiful. I'm so sorry about your story, I know how you feel. You're not ugly when you cry, you're adorable. ❤️

[@ZizYoubizHERE]

i cried with you because i know exactly how you feel especially with depression and everything, everything hurts a million times more. and when your parents know how suicidal you are and they still treat you bad..same

[@sophie7162]

I'm so sorry! everyone should feel loved and wanted

[@tatianabandras9987]

hate to see that you feel this way too! you're such a beautiful person inside and out and it's not your fault that you feel this way. I think it's amazing that you speak your mind out to us and I think at the same time you should also tell your family how you feel because there's a chance shit may change. I'm currently struggling with the same things... so sorry if this doesn't really help. but I'm sure with time all this shit will go away! 😔💜

[@phoebeweiss1465]

i love you so much, i really do. i care about you and accept you for who you are one hundred percent.

[@caradarling]

Wow, that sounds really shitty. Especially when they tried to leave you out of vacations. I'm so sorry you have to go through this, I feel really bad for you. Just know there are people that love you. ❤️

[@madiwinter1993]

Wow this video was so relatable and I actually started crying.

[@Nyer1234567890]

There have been things in my past with my father that could call for, even to this day, resentment toward him. Two main points to keep im mind is that firstly, most fathers are just doing their best, it isnt easy. Secondly and most importantly, "you cannot choose the man your father is, but you can choose to love him". Cool quote i think that really puts it into perspective.

[@JenWilliams]

i've watched like almost all your videos in like three days and a lot of them have really struck a chord with me. you seem like such a nice girl who, like many of us, has had her fair share of troubles in life, and i really admire you for being able to speak out in such a tangible, relatable way, irrespective of what other people might think or say, or how people's "reputations" may be affected. i hope making your videos gives you as much strength and support as it does to some of the people who watch them :)) xxxxxx

[@MrGamingGodxX]

You are a very smart person. for some reason i can't narrow my emotions down to the exact reasons/causes but you help me understand that i'm not the only person on the planet feeling this way and it's really comforting, thank you.

[@sara123lovesmusic]

I am so sorry for everything u have been through.. and I understand u so much.. when u feel like People do things Just because it's right not because they Love u.. and feeling like a burdon, feeling like People are ashame of u.. So relatable.

[@IsabelMacauley]

I totally agree with you, I always feel like I should be different around my family because of the way I am

[@nikki5198529418]

im adopted, i feel the exact same way. always have. hang in there. you are AMAZING.

[@janelmckenzie2918]

I literally adore u. That sounds weird but honestly you have a big heart. And you remind me so much of me in going through so much stuff as well. But just stay strong.

[@maybenotserious]

I feel your pain so much! We just cant change or choose your parents... :( Love and hugs

[@adrianelisabeth7449]

My mother has always had addiction issues too. My childhood still effects me to this day. You inspire me so so much, I would never be able to talk about this❤️❤️

[@tom-marvoloriddle3717]

i'm sorry you're feeling that way, i know it's really hard to feel so separated from people, so different but i hope that you don't forget through all that your sunflowers love you a lot and maybe that can make you feel a bit better. it's not easy to have a good relation with your family because everyone is so different, yet lives so close together. just keep in mind that you will always be a part of something, and you will find people who will make you feel wanted, because you are. ^^ take care

[@justmeashley7923]

Wobbly but much clearer than your previous videos. Clearly I’m binging your content. You’re so much younger than me BUT I learn a lot from you. You’re wise beyond your years sweets!

[@hannahvolquartsen3503]

Girl I was exactly in you shoes when I lived at home 😭 those feelings are still fresh for me. You are so fucking strong you can make it! And once you can have your own place it will feel like a palace to heal in. Lots of love for ya❤❤❤

[@userdoesnotexist424]

I know how you feel! My mother makes me feel that way a lot. She is caring and all that but when i express myself, she usually insults me because we don't have the same taste in a lot of things. Like, when i go out (if she sees me. i sometimes am sneaky because i don't want the review of my appearance... ) quite often she will point out a flaw or smth. She hates that i use make up and i don't think she realizes what make up does to my confidence. It is so helpful for me. It helps me a lot most of the time i don't even care what other people think of me, i do it for myself. *i'm in ranting mode rn, so...* She always compares me to my 2 older brothers. They got better grades, they were better and it really fucks me up. It's always like i'm the different one. She always points it out but she does not know how it affects me. I'm usually the one who is different... and feeling like the ''different one in the family'' feels like you are not in the family, i've felt this way maaaany times. With time, i've learned not giving a shit but it still gets me. You just have to remember that you are not a burden, you have a place in this world! Ana, you have inspired so many people already, who knows what is going to happen in the future. Your sunflowers really love you :) idk if anyone even found this helpful. BTW. Happy birthdaay :)!!! Love you!!!

[@jordynglazier2215]

I related to this so much.

[@faith-rx3jb]

Happy Birthday! 💕 I hope that your day gets better 😊

[@mentalhealthwithalana]

I really feel for you, not trying to bash your parents but what they did was very wrong and you have a right to be sad about it. You are amazing! Thanks for sharing your struggles 💕💕

[@kristyhemstreet7846]

Happy birthday! I can't explain how fucking much your videos mean to me. I know you film then for yourself , which I really respect. Lots of people on KZbin do it for likes or views, you don't care about that. You really have impacted the way I look at my life, and I can't say thank you enough. Your amazing , don't change! :)

[@laurenconiglio6174]

happy birthday gorgeous. you are not alone, and as much as you think you are you are not a burden- they love you so much! let it all out baby girl you are so strong!

[@a.silencedchannel1160]

It's not important for unflowers to have a "perfect" view from you " the most important " is to see you ❤️❤️❤️

[@lunaindie55]

I am so sorry to hear that you have to go through all that shit. :( Sending hugs !

[@sarahf5057]

You are so precious and loved by many fans. Never forget that! You are so strong and beautiful thank you for being such an inspiration. 💖 have a fabulous day lovely

[@vittoriaanna8961]

You're such a lovely person, I'm so sorry all of this happened. Keep your chin up, babe.

[@saucymilly]

I always watch your videos EVERYTIME I feel angry and that I wanna blowup and cry so what I do is cry with you lol I watch your videos when you feel frustrated and sad and it gives me like a "finally I'm not alone" feeling.

[@holliehamstrung8612]

I know how you feel. By the way, I relate to you so much, and that helps me a lot because your living proof that you can get better, and emotions are real. I struggle with depression and self harm and stuff. You've helped me so much. :)

[@chickeesz]

u are sososo amazing babe remember that! if u ever felt like ur alone u have all ur supporters here! love how ur such a strong person!💕💕💕

[@ashiaaylee1427]

Honestly i love you. Truly love you. And no I haven't met you or even live on the same continent but you help me so much. Because i feel the exact same way. It feels better to know someone understands ❤️

[@reporterpeytonlewis1256]

I feel the EXACT same way with my parents. My parents are divorced too and I get it.

[@catherineweidemier3406]

you're my inspiration your videos help me so much 😔💞👌

[@antnonie9076]

So much pain, I feel so sorry for this girl

[@joanaoliveira7770]

I totally feel the same way, I have everything i want to say to you in my head but the words just don't come out. I really hope that you feel better soon, you deserve it. Happy birthday, I love u

[@cloudthecat4841]

Just want to say I admire how open you are in your videos. I know a lot of people will think you're 'privileged' blah blah but the way you discuss your feelings honestly make your videos very relatable. We as a society don't do that enough. Thank you.

[@maddymcewen5965]

Honestly you have helped me so much, you're videos always make me smile. sometimes I start crying while watching them but that's because I relate to you so much and you put my thoughts into words. I love you so much, my bestfriend showed me a video of yours about your suicide attempt and I fell in love and been watching every video ever since. I love you so much.❤️

[@kayleekingdom4466]

Happy late birthday girl!!!! and i know how it is to feel that way. I come home and go to my room everyday and not once do my parents come to ask me if im okay. It is very hard to deal with because the more they show that they dont care thats when we become rebellious and do things to grab attention. I wish i could talk to you lol because everything you say is so relatable..thats why i watch every single one of your videos. Stay Strong girl ....I know its hard...

[@fiendev.9725]

I can relate to this and I completely understand your feelings

[@jhaishaw9788]

i actually love you so much you don't understand. i have been watching your cideos for quite some time now and feel i can relate to them. i feel, normal... thank you for everything and you won't understand how much you have helped me. ps i love you 😘

[@lycheethefruit5628]

I totally know the feeling. My mom had me in high school by accident and was never really able to give me the childhood many of my friends had. And now many years later she's had two other kids and they're 6 and 2 years old. I feel like they were the family my mom really was supposed to have and I'm just the burden my family have to drag along on every vacation and the burden they have to pay lots of shit for. You should come to Sweden though I'd let you stay with me.

[@XxxXxx-yz8sy]

Thank you so much for sharing stuff like this. It is so important to be open and vulnerable.

[@autumnsimpson984]

i know how you feel i am going through a close situation with my dad my brother my step mom and my sister in Florida. you are not alone! you have been such an amazing role model for me and you have inspired me to start my recovery with self harm. thank you so much for helping me through this difficult time in my life.

[@kittycass5257]

I feel ya, stay strong beautiful.

[@tannili2]

Omg babygirl I'm so sorry. I understand how you're feeling I've been in similar situations as well

[@nathannicholson2933]

I know exactly how you feel. I've always felt alone, like I'm an outsider in my own family and circle of friends. I think it's because I'm so shy and I don't really feel comfortable interacting with people, so they don't interact with me. My fiancee of two years left me two months ago and I feel even more alone than I have ever felt and it is fucking torture. I truly love her. The reason we broke up was my fault, i won't lie, and I don't blame her for leaving but it hurts so much because I had major depression stemming from when I was bullied in school. I'll be 27 next week and I don't even feel like I'll be around for it because I'm so lonely. My parents don't even invite me around for a takeaway. My mums excuse is that I would have already had tea before they had theirs and I just can't help but think what's wrong with asking me before I have my tea. My sister says that I never come around and I don't go around because I have no reason to. Why should I take the time out to visit people who don't even ask me if I'm okay during a week when I've taken time off work that was meant to be spent on holiday with my fiancee who had just broken up with me a month before, she's gone on holiday and I'm sat at home crying myself to sleep? Why would I do that? How dare they blame me because I feel left out. I shouldn't need to ask if I can come around for tea one night. Not to mention my friends are going to New York next year and I didn't even get asked if I'd like to come. I honestly think I have no friends or family that care about me. They say they do, but they call me selfish for wanting to end my life. That's just adding to my mental problems and I don't need it. I hate feeling this way, I hate feeling so lonely.

[@andreilungu9080]

I couldn't relate to a video more than this. Thank you.

[@imaginareality]

It's absolutely okay to feel left out and unloved and like a burden for being treated the way that you are. And I'm really sorry, too, because it seems like your dad just doesn't understand what you need and how important it would be for you to feel like a part of the family at all times. But yeah, no parents are perfect and usually they try their best.

[@Anne-qm1rn]

you are amazing. and it's so good to hear the words that are hiding unsaid in my mind.

[@Indiahunt0603]

I hope you know that we really appreciate you. Your videos always brighten up my day and make me feel better x

[@tomie4173]

Happy Birthday!!Aww please don't cry on your birthday! :(

[@maddisonwandschneider1532]

I definitely know how you feel! But we are here for you, we love you! I cried for you! ❤️

[@meganswogger5715]

Happy birthday! I hope you have a wonderful day, you deserve it! We all appreciate you so much, thank you for everything you do for us! You're an amazing person, don't forget that, no matter what happens. We love you!

[@droolss]

I always look back at this vid when i feel alone and I helps me💘💘👏🏻

[@cherishrose507]

lm always looking forward to your videos , your really amazing .. I know you have been through a lot and don't like to talk about it but you facing your problems and telling people has made you who you are and helps other people ( me, me ,me ,omg me. ) so thankyou so much for sharing your problems and telling people, it helps you I can tell , ( I remember you saying that this was therapy for you well this is also therapy for us) Thankyou , honestly your amazing an hope you had a gooddd birthday ♥♥♥

[@jannessaheo8349]

you are so genuine :)) i love watching your videos, their so down to earth and i feel u i have a stepfather.

[@madicampbell4429]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! I love your videos! Stay strong!

[@nicolevargas2183]

I feel the exact same way in my family sometimes and btw it's my friends birthday too😂and happy birthday 😏😎🎉

[@Iminyourwalls4200]

I really hope you're doing better

[@sysmmhg]

it hurts like a perpetual losing game.

[@BabvBlues]

sysmmhg Oh so poetic

[@BabvBlues]

Howsenselessdeath Howpreciouslife (compliment)

[@sysmmhg]

Howsenselessdeath Howpreciouslife Thanks Johanna

[@erica5334]

you are such an amazing person and I can relate so much to how you feel about your family and everything that you talk about, and I'm so glad I came across your videos because they give me a piece of mind and you seem so real compared to other youtubers and I don't know, you're videos are great and I just want to thank you for making great videos that are real.

[@camillec6381]

i'm not sure if this is still relevant & i know that it's nowhere near the same, but you have a huge family here on KZbin that's seriously always here for you.

[@chefmatthammerschmidt8408]

I am the lost black sheep of my family. I had a hell of a similar experience. This video put me on the edge of crying constantly. A suicidal farm kid is almost unheard of.

[@leec5036]

i'm in a foster family and i know exactly how you that feels, it hurts so so much

[@thisisnotme3861]

If you need someone to talk to I would love to be that person. I'm willing to help in any way that I can

[@NiamhAndBentley]

Happy Birthday!! I sometimes feel like a burden but i feel the same as you. I know my family love me and i love them but with all this stuff that they have to do with paying for a counselor (i see a psychologist now which is covered by our insurance) but I feel like they wasted the money because it didnt help me and it sucks. But im learning to control my thoughts and positivity and stuff.