Feeling Like I'm Not Good Enough | Hospital VLOG Nights

[@natalieruiz1054]

You are very inspiring. You're a mom. A doctor. A wife. You have got so much on your plate and thank you for being so honest.

[@katypary6733]

You’re a very intelligent woman not a lot of people can get in med school let alone make it in and you’re making it!!!!! You’re a kickass mom, hardworking and great wife which is important! Don’t ever doubt yourself ❤️❤️

[@sazizi3570]

I'm glad you talked about this. A lot of doctors on social media talk about being so nervous as a resident, but say that they ultimately nervous for no reason. You sound so real to me. This vlog really struck a cord within me.

[@Esteban_LoveRevealsPeople]

Non-med student...no nothing about the medical field but I love ❤️ your vlogs. Now if someone told me "you didn't hurt anyone, you didn't kill anyone" I would be thrilled 😁. All the other stuff goes out the window. I've literally had to leave a job of 8 years and start over and go back to school because of people. Hang in there Jenny...you have touched so many people online and off.

[@drjennale]

TYSM ❤️❤️ what did you go back to school for?

[@user-lu6yg3vk9z]

Esteban I hope u realize u dont need an M.B.A. and fiance degree if u are working for yourself. People get degrees in order to work for someone.

[@user-lu6yg3vk9z]

Esteban Another thing is that there is already an oversaturation of people holding M.B.A degrees. There are plenty of people holding these degrees working in jobs that have nothing to do with what they went to school. KZbin Peter Schiff college let me get your thoughts on the video.

[@msn27-18]

I did my med school in a foreign country(Turkey) in Turkish language , though am from Africa. And during med school I had some professors who made me feel worthless. Like I didn't know anything, and worse still they tell it to my face despite personally me feeling like I had done my best. Yes I graduated finally but at times it still affects me as I have the same doubts when faced with challenges in the medical field. Thanks for a good support system at home am able to navigate through. Love you n your channel for keeping it real! Hugs xoxo

[@shannonjohnson4314]

precious pearl don’t doubt yourself anyone that has made it as far as you have come is definitely someone who deserves to be respected.

[@Dee14444]

Glad you shared this experience. We are definitely not alone. I come across people everyday who don't leave a chance to nitpick , and I am slowly trying to not let that affect me in the long run. Sadly such people are there in every aspect of life. Stay strong Jenny, more power to you.

[@OShawna23]

Hello Dr.Le I am so sorry to hear you cried -I want you to know your so inspirational and I hope to be half as smart and caring as you are to my future patients -Theirs thousands of other people like myself that thinks the best of you and your capabilities -keep striving Beautiful ❤️🙏🏽

[@irinas4100]

Hey Jenny, i felt so bad seeing you kinda sad. i wish i met more doctors like you, positive, kind, humble... i had many many moments like you experienced with your coworkers, but you are an amazing strong woman who balances work and family, and you should be proud of that! you work nights and still hang out with your baby. i would just enter my home and go to bed without saying hi to anyone probably. so, please keep that in mind...you are an inspiration.

[@madisoncrosson6937]

I just graduated with my EMT certificate, and I'm in the process of obtaining my IV cert. I definitely experienced a moment of feeling like I completely sucked because I couldn't find a vein on my peer, then I missed one, then blew it. I felt like I might as well have just walked out completely and had to take a moment to collect myself. So, I totally understand that feeling and I'm going through it myself.

[@dr.jasonhwang5174]

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[@hrj1016]

I love how real you are, Jenny. I'm glad you make these videos for people just starting their med school journey like me.

[@maryameskandari]

I feel you girlie! Feeling worthless and not good enough most of the days, especially when one senior resident decide to pick on me, and make me feel shit most of the days!

[@rebeccalynne5001]

I work in social services and I had this one job and it was horrible. I was constantly being told, this isn’t good enough. You’re doing this wrong or you’re not doing this to our standards. That job was so emotionally draining and just broke me down to the point where I felt like I wasn’t good enough and that just wasn’t true. Thankfully I was able to leave that job and move onto something else, but it’s hard when you’re in that kind of situation because it can really take its toll and you lose that confidence. Thanks for sharing that and being so open.

[@raeram2008]

I'm a new neurosurgical nurse, I get this a lot. So many times I miss slight things I'm not trained to see in my patients. Many times it's something nobody would've seen but I put so much pressure on myself. Glad to hear such real emotions from an MD perspective!

[@meghanbernier7620]

Thank you so much for sharing this with the world. I’m an OMS1, just started out in July and there have been so many times thus far that I have felt this precise feeling. You are a total inspiration and I look up to you so much. Whenever I feel as though I can’t study anymore or nothing is sticking or I feel like throwing in the towel for the day, I watch one of your videos and know that it will all be worth it. Keep on keeping on, because what you do absolutely matters, not just to your patients, but it matters to all of your supporters and the people that see you succeeding as not only a doctor, but as a mom and wonderful person. Thank you for all that you do and for sharing your vulnerabilities with the world. It absolutely makes a difference!

[@angelicagarcia2679]

Thank you for being real with us and not trying to sugar coat everything. This is an incredibly demanding profession physically and emotionally. I can't believe you're doing it all with a family. This really helps those of us who (especially us women) who are looking to take the same road you are. It helps us know what we are getting into.

[@amberrhii]

Honestly, I get those “worthless” vibes when it comes to my math courses. Any sort of science is pretty easy to understand but my calculus class has been killing me. I’ve been rethinking my decision of the medical path but I know this is something I truly want. I just hate how my GPA isn’t great enough as a premed student.

[@layray210]

As a new grad nurse, yes 1000% I've felt the same way you have! I could only imagine how harder it'd be if I chose to become a doctor instead. In all aspects of life, I'm naturally a slow learner, but a thorough person. So it was hard having to take more time to learn different procedures or how to chart different things than most people, feeling my coworkers judge me... I have panic attacks in my sleep thinking I missed something or did something wrong, lingering 2, 3 days after a shift has been over... it was extremely stressful and hard in the beginning but I've just made 6 months out and find I'm doing way better since I transitioned to night shift.

[@neenahcarrasco2720]

I feel not worthy and capable of anything at the moment that is why I clicked this video to make me better and it did! Someone was chosen over me for a certain thing and I felt like I haven’t been doing enough or my best to earn that position so I’ve been hard and down on myself! Thank you for not making me feel alone

[@redsloane879]

My experience of a "WTF am I doing" moment was the first time I saw a family for counseling (psych) . I remember telling myself well THEY don't know they are your first family, so go forth and be confident. Will always remember that!

[@dragonking5767]

The first 3 years High School I have felt worthless because I felt that I was doing everything wrong in school and even at home and it just felt like everything was crumbling around me that's why I feel that you are such an amazing role model to be able to share your story in order to help connect other people's lives and show that you are not alone so dont worry Jenny your amazing and you got this

[@rickeymurray5581]

Ngl you’re so real and honest. I love your vlogs and what you were mentioning was literally how I felt when I first started my internship. I was so used to doing great at everything and when I made the smallest mistake I felt so dumb. It makes me feel so much better knowing I’m not alone and that it’s perfectly normal to feel that way. 💕 I hope I meet people like you on my journey to medicine.

[@user-td6fq7or8d]

Wow you don't know how much I needed this VLOG today as a premed student. Thank you for your authenticity and genuineness. I was on the verge of quitting school as I felt overwhelmed. Thank you for normalizing my experience and helping me see that I'm not alone.

[@drjennale]

You are not alone!! Shit gets hard sometimes. It’s ok to fall down. Just don’t stay down for too long. Hang in there.

[@caroline3206]

School has definitely made me feel that way. I feel like it's a constant pressure to be the best. I turned to the KZbin community to find people that I can relate to. Thank you for opening up about this.

[@drjennale]

I sense of belonging makes all the difference. Welcome to this community!

[@jessicacae1909]

jenny ive been watching u since u were a 3rd year and you are such an inspiration to me. Im going to be premed next year and i aspire to be as good as a doctor as you are Your not a failure, your an inspiration to myself and others. Dont be so hard on yourself and keep up your great work

[@drjennale]

TYSM ❤️

[@eligeddes1808]

I did really bad on my mcat the first time around and got in a bad depressive funk. I felt so bad about myself I got got scared to apply to any schools at all or retake. I just sat there sad for basically a whole year. I retook it and did much better and I'm applying this cycle! Just got to keep moving forward.

[@abbithaaa]

This is my number one fear of going into medicine... I'm really really really hard on myself so it's really difficult for me to take criticism well. I currently have one year left of undergrad and while I know I have it in me to make it through whatever I decide to pursue in medicine, I'm absolutely terrified of continually feeling like I'm not good enough. Thank you for making this video and letting me know I won't be the only one. You're an incredibly bright and strong person, and this experience will be one of many that is there to strengthen you even more.

[@marquekander590]

I'm a Cna working as a sitter and I feel worthless everyday. My goal is to become a nurse and that's why I'm still working in this field. After seven years, I think I'm burnt out. I spend 12 hrs, m-f sometimes weekends with one person who has a lot issues. Cna's are overworked and underpaid and I feel like nurses, doctors, and patients family's don't give a sh*t about us. It may just be me, but I feel like people underestimate us and treat us like we're nobody. Well, I'll stop ranting. Thanks for sharing your experience. I appreciate you. ❤️

[@creatively41lb]

Marque Kander I am a registered dietitian and I really value the sitters! They can help me out with so much information about what a patient likes or dislikes, how well they ate. Patients who need sitters are usually in a place where they can’t speak for themselves and your observations and knowledge of the patient really help me in my part of caring for them. Thank you!

[@marquekander590]

creatively41lb thank you.

[@Exoticbeauty015]

Yea I was a sitter for 4 years during the overnight shift it sucked. Some Nurses treat you like crap thats why I had to leave. I dont want anything to do with nursing at all.

[@nikiann8230]

Jenny, thank you for saying this! I am about to start my FM residency and I am beyond nervous for the moments where I know I won't make the right decisions. Hearing you reminding us to stop, take a breath and not beat ourselves us really goes a long way. Keep killing this Doctor-Mama game, you're doing a great job!

[@oliviasophia223]

Hi Jenny, I just wanted to say thank you so much for filming these videos I am a mommy of two and have been ready to apply to nursing school for awhile but have held back because I’m afraid of not being able to juggle it with school, but your honesty has really inspired me to try!!! I love how you showed everything because when I watch other blogs they just show the good stuff and my life has a lot of good but there’s a few curveballs in there! Anyway thank you!!

[@RR-dd4vy]

Thank you so much Jenny sharing your breakdown experience. It’s so important to me that you shared, it make me to think that I’m not alone, I will get through it and things will be okay at the end.

[@NurseLiz]

First of all, I loved seeing this different aspect of your rotation! I work nights so I always enjoy seeing others routines! In terms of inadequacy Im currently struggling with the transition from nurse to NP. Going from being comfortable and competent in my role, to feeling like I need to spent time researching every decision I make, It’s been hard. You are doing GREAT!

[@berythex]

Jenny I love your videos! As a senior medical student, I really appreciate you letting us into your personal and professional lives. Your videos are really encouraging especially when I've felt totally in the dumps while studying and feeling inadequate much of the time. Thanks for keeping it real!!! You are such an inspiration to so many medical students, premed and high school students, alongside residents. Keep your head up because you are doing a fabulous job! Much love to you and your family always! You are going to be a steller family physician :)P.S. Wyatt is waaaayy too adorable!

[@jenniesunflower5451]

I love your personality. Thank you for this. I'm just a student scrub tech but have found so many parallels in relation to your videos. Thank you for sharing your vulnerability with us.

[@lisakear6320]

I think you are a better doctor b/c you are in touch with your feelings and not afraid to share them. As a woman, mother, wife, sister, employee, etc. I always struggle with this. I am harder on my self than anyone else could be.

[@angelamariapg]

I’m currently ending my 3rd year of medical school and I can tell you that I’ve seen the same thing happen to interns when I was on nights for internal medicine. They’d have to do morning report and the residents would rip apart their cases/ choices in management. Watching your video and seeing it happens at other places too makes me think that it’s just part of the grooming process. I’m sure you’re doing amazing and you’ll be a better doctor for it at the end of the day.

[@drjennale]

Gotta have a taste of that humble pie sometimes.

[@angelamariapg]

Jenny Le I remember the night before morning report they’d all be dreading it. I’m not going to be looking forward to it 😭 . Anyway I love your videos! Ill be a future DO too ❤️ thanks for inspiring us all and showing us you can be doctor and mom too!

[@cuongynguyen]

Ur candor is great. When I was in a brand new nurse I felt the same way. I think to feel inadequate is a part of the job. In ur mind u want to have all the answers and be the best but honestly it’s fuel to be better and do better. Keep trucking. Be safe :). Thanks for what u do

[@rodriguezkingz2]

I ❤️ and appreciate the honesty of this video and all your videos. Thank you!

[@rcc1463]

Thanks so much for sharing this because these feelings are so relatable! I look up to you so much and its inspiring to see that you still go through self doubt like the rest of us. You are so amazing for wanting to be the best you and the best doc that you can be. You juggle soo much and excel at all of it, this is just another character building moment that you will overcome! Thanks again for sharing and keep your chin up!

[@Emily-lk8zi]

This video came at a perfect time. I'm a law student and I am going through the same emotions you are in terms of not feeling good enough. Had a breakdown and cried my eyes out just like you did. I appreciate your honesty in sharing how you felt about it because I feel like there is not a lot of people out there who are willing to talk about the negative feelings that come with being in these types of professions. Thank you for the pick-me-up and being relatable. Keep on keeping on! You are doing great, I have no doubt.

[@drenini]

I am a new graduate nurse on medsurg/Tele I have definitely had meltdowns and a couple nurses that have put me down. Mind you I’m 5 days into this and I am so hard on myself.. had a breakdown the whole bit. Glad I’m not alone in feeling not good enough sometimes.... what has helped me persevere is my faith in God... !

[@bravefight7549]

It happened to me several times... I study medicine and the way people expect from you stuff at so many points would literally drain you and as you said i have gotten this moment where the choice of engulfing stuff in and soothing myself isn't anymore available so i start weeping and sobbing my emotions out which is so healthy and it always helped me transpire a bit... But now i feel like hypnotizing the way i react to the external world is the best deal and so far it is working... It is really hard when you are so idealistic but i try to enrol myself in many cathartic activities like running, reading blogs and books that i love, talking to the people i love, singing or anything else... I have to tell you that you are one of the people that kept me pushed and oriented towards my goal in aspiring to become a doctor... So thank you and you are literally priceless!!

[@andreeanasca8216]

Dont`t let that get to you. You know you are doing your best, and it`s a learning process, that is why you are doing a residency. Your confidence will keep growing as time passes and experience builds up! You`ll do great, keep up the faith!

[@adrianerssss]

I feel worthless 24/7. I just graduated from Veterinary Technology in December and currently working in an animal hospital with technicians that know a lot. I feel like I am slow just because I'm still not used to doing things in a fast pace. Trust me you will learn by others and have your own mistakes and you will become an amazing doctor. I myself of course still learn with my peers and get tips. I DEFINITELY UNDERSTAND WHERE YOU'RE COMING FROM. Best of luck !

[@SweetVioletsBurmeseCuisine]

Hi Jenny! First off, I just want to let you know how inspiring you are to me as you go through the journey of medical school and residency all while having a baby. I am currently in optometry school and cannot imagine raising a family while still in school so props to you! I started my first day of clinic about a month ago, and I still remember the nerves I had before seeing my first patient all on my own. My nerves were calmed after realizing how grateful and kind my patients have been to me but I am still getting a hang of the ropes of things and I know I still have a lot to learn! Thank you for sharing these moments with us, even when you are most vulnerable. I can totally relate to feeling incompetent and feeling like even when you are trying your best you still are not achieving the results you were hoping for. About 2 weeks ago, I had a rough day working in the optical lab making glasses. It was a totally new experience for me and it was only my second day on the job. Throughout the day, I made many small mistakes and towards the end realized that I forgot to do something that resulted in a bunch of glasses having to be remade. I was genuinely trying my hardest but I was also overwhelmed by the whole process. I felt absolutely awful and had a breakdown in front of my instructor. I went home feeling really sad and disappointed, but I knew I was being hard on myself and reminded myself to keep things in perspective. I quickly bounced back after a generous serving of ice cream and after watching one of my favorite shows. It was in these moments of feeling like a failure that pushed me to work harder and to figure out ways to improve in the future. I know the journey to becoming a doctor is going to be full of these moments. It's a matter of learning from your mistakes and making the most of these experiences. Good luck with everything in your residency!! -Allison

[@manisymone8622]

Exactly. You did not kill or hurt anyone. I've had that plenty of times. Even more when one saw me learning very fast or picking up things faster. Could not understand wether it was jealousy or not, but I pulled through!🙌🏾 Please hang in there. You inspire so many people including me.

[@AshtonWTodd]

Thanks for your openesss and honesty. I will be a pediatric intern July 1st starting on night shift.

[@namelessnelly]

You have touched my life so many times in ways you don't know. So please don't give up, this too shall pass Jenny! Much love to you

[@rachelmarie2122]

Hi Jenni! New nurse here. I’m 10 months in as a Surgical Telemetry RN and I have been feeling the same way lately! I’m so glad you mentioned it in your vlog. I’m so good at the emotional part of my job, but I often let that get in the way of the technical parts of nursing. It can be so disheartening when I am corrected every 15 minutes for something throughout my workweek, and it makes it hard to want to come back at times. Corrections come so often that I often feel I am simply not good or talented enough for this job. What I really want to do is be an OR nurse, but I don’t want to walk away from a job just because it’s too challenging, I want to learn all I can from it first. And I am glad for all the corrections, but by the time I make it home and out of the shower I’m emotionally and spiritually drained from trying to make all my corrections work during the shift! Thank you for sharing your journey with us! We’ll make it through!

[@duckiie15]

When I first became a pharmacy technician, I also cried and broke down in front of my coworkers once. Not only were some of them telling me I was wrong in a nice way, but I had patients literally screaming at me telling me I was too slow. So yeah your going to experience that with any job that isn’t easy.. but with time you will learn and have to teach others! Just remember this time so you never become a snobby doctor :) Btw 2 years later I’m at the same job and I’m totally comfortable and teaching others!

[@SammY-ue4yv]

Im a nurse, Ive been where you are..sometimes I cry when Im too tired after 13 hours on my feet and doctors fussing at me. But then I come back for more !!! youre just going to have to get used to being told "you screwed up" or "you suck. Youre going to fuck up in life ok. period. but you're also going to be brilliant because of your fuck ups. and this goes with everything in life. This is a learning process and and the more mistakes I make the more I learn. Just commit to being confident and don't let those suck words break you and don't let this stress build up again. Get your frustrations out immediately. Don't take suck words so deep into your heart and personal. Just listen objectively and learn. I am the nurse I am because I made mistakes. Im proud of those because I also help make others great and Im still learning and forever learning from our patients. Make sure to see your positives and let your strengths lift your weakness. Maybe you'll be the attending giving me orders someday. Good luck in this crazy medicine life we chose.

[@jenmal898]

OMG!! Your speech is exactly what I needed to hear. I just became a manager at a new doctor's office and everyone is apprehensive about my approach n ways and make it known to the point where I am always being questioned. I am a bit lonely because I moved far from my family and friends for this new job and I am alone. Feeling judged for everything. To the point where I cooked dinner and questioned myself on how I prepared it!! You are amazing and this helped me realize that we can see the best in everyone else but be our own worst and hardest critic.... why is this?

[@drjennale]

It’s always hard starting a new job in a new place. Once people start getting to know you and trust you, they’ll question you less. Hang in there

[@luomanfei]

Wyatt trying to clean up was the cutest thing.

[@Kristina-D1111]

Many times I’ve felt worthless, stupid a complete mess up many times I think I hate myself I wish I could do more for everyone in my life I wish I could help more thank you for making this video it helps when you know it’s not just you feeling this way at times

[@WilNSteph]

*HUGS* to you. I'm only now catching up on your videos. Just recently discovered your channel and loving it. Mama of two now as well...and I'm the one in real estate. *haha* What you do is amazing and your kiddos are so lucky to have both you and Stan. Blessings.

[@kathandramarie317]

I’m currently a pre-med student and you are such an inspiration to me. I enjoy watching your vlogs and I’m grateful that you keep it real. I’m so close to starting my medical school journey and I’m thankful to you and the other medical vloggers for reminding me of why I want to pursue medicine during the times that I feel worthless. Also where is that orange sweater from? I love it.

[@maggievictoria5246]

Thanks so much for sharing this! I am in graduate school for education, and I have been feeling really inadequate lately. Thanks for reminding me that we’re all in this together. ❤️

[@ReclusiveMountainMan]

I don't know why higher education can be so abusive. It's like the teacher's job is to break you down and then they justify it by saying it's good for you. Hang in there. It is normal to feel like this when you are going through a intensive training program. You take your job seriously. You have a lot of responsibility. You are also sleep deprived. Sleep deprivation is the root of all evil. It lowers your resistance and can color your perceptions. One night shift can affect your whole circadian rhythm, and it will take a while to get things back to normal.

[@sunflower9481]

Thank u Jen! I've been feeling like I'm Shit at my job lately so it's soo applicable to me. Feeling encouraged!

[@robertstanley9633]

I appreciate you being so open and honest with your experience. As someone who has a Type A personality and works with negative toxic energy, I have been experiencing this quite often lol A big take away is just to take care of my energy and not be bothered by other peoples actions. You have inspired to go back to school so Im taking Summer classes in hopes of receiving a medical billing and coding certification. Not the same as being a doctor lol but hopefully one day, someday, I'll be heading towards that direction. Thank you

[@NovellaStyler]

its okay to feel down at work especially when you have been so busy. People make these little comments to others without giving much thought Its not your fault . Just get your own group of positive friends at work to motivate you. Thanks for sharing.

[@Centnl287NAve]

I used to teach tennis, and had so much anxiety worrying that I wasn’t good enough. I spent weeks worried about that, but the truth was that people loved taking lessons from me and kept asking for me to teach years after I stopped. Some people are just mean who like to be negative and hurtful. Don’t listen to the mean criticism. Strive to improve, but congratulate yourself on what you’ve been doing well and on the hard work you’ve done. Wishing you the best!

[@peyton4164]

Jenny, I look up to you so much!! I love seeing you thrive as a doctor and as a mother and it gives me hope for my future. I worry about being inadequate all the time, my peers always seem so much smarter and better and I hate having those thoughts as a premed student. It just seems to click for everyone else except for me! So it's refreshing to see that you have your dark times too because it reminds me that it's ok, those bad thoughts usually aren't true and you are not any less successful by having them sometimes ❤️

[@stacya2724]

All your videos are always so inspiring! I think as human beings its natural for us to be hard on ourselves because we want to be perfect but we are all doing the best we can! You are doing great! Keep doing what your doing! Your inspiring us all!❤️

[@PinkLadyDaria]

You are beyond amazing!!! You can be proud of yourself, there are not many people that could do all of the things you do!!! Love your videos 🤗

[@trungngo8676]

I feel what you went through. All we can do is be the best that we can be and it will be okay. Forget those who doubts you. ❤️

[@uluvserenity]

Im a first year science grad student. Which means we havw to juggle being in the lab morning till night every day along with course work and assignments. Anyways. I've been feeling the same way recently. Its tough when you're doing your best and your supervisor doesn't think so. So thanks for sharing that x

[@taymax24]

You are the best. So relatable ... keep up. We need more doctors that we can actually relate to!! Thanks for sharing your life. ❤️

[@146shell]

I feel like that now! I have Turner syndrome and because of this I have arthritis and osteoporosis in my knees, back and hips. I’m not able to work at the moment. I worked in care 14 years and was a team leader for a while. I was bullied at times and it was hard. I felt it was because I am small and ppl seen me as being too young. hugs xx

[@lemmeknow1]

Thanks for sharing this Jenny! We all feel this way several times during our residency. Stay strong 💪 You are doing great!!

[@brittanyyang7697]

Everyone feels worthless/not good enough at times because they try to meet the expectations that has been set for them, and once someone tells them that are doing things wrong.. it does cause a little bit of discouragement. But hey girl! If you weren’t good enough, you wouldn’t be where you are today with your life. You’ve accomplish sooooooo much and you should be proud. And like you, I am hard on myself and it mentally kills me when I feel like I have “failed” ...my situation was that I went to college for the first 2 weeks, had to drop out and left with some debts :( I didn’t drop out because college was hard, but because there was barriers in my life that had stop me from going. I was really devastated because I thought I was going to be behind on my education; I legitimately planned out my entire education and I was expecting myself to graduate by 2021 as a undergrad Biology major and go to Medical school.. I cried to my mom and she told me that it’s never too late to go back to school and that I shouldn’t feel discouraged or left out. At that moment and time I felt pretty shitty about my life.. but then I would remind myself that this is just the beginning of my success and even though I have to take a step back, I am actually not behind. I’m just taking a different path and one day I will go back up and I am proud to say that Im going back to school this coming Fall 2018 to not start over, but to PICK UP where I left off with in the beginning. So don’t be discouraged Jenny, You’re a great inspiration to me :D and I hope to be just as successful as you one day. Stay strong 💪 you got this!

[@tiachu]

hi jenny!! thank you for making this video with such raw content. i recently finished my first year of undergrad as a pre-med student and i love watching your videos to get a peek as to what my life may be like in the future. it's a little nerve-wracking to know that our feelings of unsureness about ourselves/our capabilities stay with us as we continue in the medical field, especially seeing as i have so far to go to get where you are. but at the same time your videos always make me feel better because watching you accomplish what i dream of makes it more real, makes it less scary.

[@freidakaye]

So many breakdowns about myself through my life time but what’s funny is most recently, i got really depressed about my photos. My husband is a professional photographer and he does photo work with lots of people who are “gorgeous” etc. so naturally we do photo shoots together for fun and I always have the expectation of myself when we shoot. As a result I get very angry with myself because I feel like I’m not pretty and I don’t look normal like people on social media who always have the cute pics and all. When this happens I try to get myself out of this dumb vision by cleaning, doing my studies or watching my KZbin videos!! You channel included and I happen to just finally finish this video out right now and it associates with me. Thank you for letting me be part of your community even tho I’m not a Med student or a doctor.

[@raakeshmadhivanan1945]

Jenny just remember this "every master was once a disaster"..we learn everything and anything eventually..cheer up 😊 Lots of love, a fellow resident

[@lilsamantha1]

Night shift is very hard..props for you...keep on strong Jenny ur amazing in my eyes 💛💛

[@TheAgeofFabulous]

Hi Jenny! From another Jen, I completely understand. Yes, I had the same thing happen last year and I am the same way. I want feedback but I also want to be the best. It’s a hard, conflicting role when you want to constantly strive to be the best, you want feedback but you also are strongly impacted when you think you’re not being your best. Since I’m a bit older than you, one thing I’ve learned is that you have to let perfection go. You have to strive to be your best but accept that you can’t be your best 100% of the time. And when you make mistakes, learn from them and try not to make them again. But you can’t punish yourself for making them because you’re going to constantly put yourself into mistake jail if you do that.

[@NurseLiz]

The Age of Fabulous I loved this and needed to hear it.Thank you

[@jenmal898]

The Age of Fabulous beautifully said 😊😊

[@rashaddaw3990]

This was a beautiful message! I too have issues with being hard on myself. I strive to be the best person for myself and when I cannot achieve something it is a HUGE deal to me. I think it just comes from the fact that I know my potential and when I fall short I feel stupid or not smart or I will never get it right. I am currently in PA school and I have been struggling to let go of the perfectionism but I don't know how to. I talked to my advisor about it a few times but I cannot shake it. I am nervous because what she felt and what she went through I know I will go through but I want to not take it personal and see it for what you just said. That I will make mistakes and I am not perfect and I can only do my best. I guess my question to you, if you would kindly read and answer me is how did you overcome it? I am still young so I am sure that plays a factor. Thanks for your time.

[@fatimaa1418]

Thank you for this video, Jenny. I hope you feel better and I want you to know that you are an inspiration for so many people so keep your head up :) You've already accomplished so much and I know you will continue to grow and be successful

[@jessiebinni3118]

Every day even as someone who studies law and is studying from home asked to spend time with family cook dinner and clean the house and meet friends and volunteer at the advice centre and yeah list can go on but the reading seems to always fall short for uni and people complain that I am too busy so yeah hard to please everyone I guess we all are on the same boat don't worry your amazing though x

[@redsloane879]

"Strengths and Limitations," not Weaknesses....gives us more hope !😀 I think many professionals experience this when starting out. Think back to when you were studying for the MCAT...and look how far you've come and where you're at now. You rock Jenny!💞

[@drjennale]

If you guys haven’t seen it - go check out my insta story @ms_jennale I talk about eating at night and intermittent fasting!

[@aesthetically-cozy]

Hi Jamie just saw this video if yours, and I can totally relate. I am very hard on myself too. I am studying to be a nurse and starting out as a PCT, I was on the night shift too before I moved to my current workplace (I am happier that I moved hospitals due to the politics, bitchy coworkers, and long hours and couldn't even move to part time. So now that I've moved, I've gained morel appreciation for my work, and time I put in! hope you will pull through (: wishing you the best of luck for you and happiness!!

[@anna_m59]

Jenny! Don’t be so hard on your self. You are doing great! It is sometimes too much being a mom a wife and being good in profession! We have all yo and down time. It will be pass. I am working in OR and I know how you feel. Chin up beautiful girl.

[@thenightdances21]

I'm feeling like a failure at this exact moment as a nontrad premed! I feel like no matter what I do in general chemistry, I just end up doing worst. I made a 71 on my first test & I just cried b/c I wonder if I'm smart enough for med school. I'm currently taking gen chemistry over the summer and I have my second exam next week. I've never made a grade like this in undergrad !! (I'm doing an unofficial post-bacc). Normally, with all the studying I put in; I usually earn a high Bs and As! Thank you for sharing your journey and honesty about residency!! I definitely will watch more of your videos!!

[@kevinphan6351]

Thanks so much for your video. I am 4th year Caribbean med student and it helps me a lot. Could you please make more video about how to do research in residency and what modules you read everyday? I will appreciate your help a lot. Best wishes for you and your family ❤️❤️

[@theresa_lp]

I just discovered your channel and love your videos :) I am a social work student and I love your perspectives on all your experiences! Very inspiring, I’d like to start a channel of my own. Keep up the great work!!!🙏

[@nhathunguyen9676]

Hi Dr,. Jenny, i'm the type of person who don't really show a lot of motion when people blame me. I got complained by my boss on last Thursday. She was pregnant and she was mad at my for everything. I didn't show much that I was so sad/mad/disappointed ab my self, but then I keep thinking about that these days. My feeling is just exact like your. But I start to think that I/we am/are too young to be the best, that's why we keep trying, and be better. I know sometimes we aren't wrong but then we all learn new things everyday, if not, we also learn how to handle own feeling. Don't be too stressed ab this !! Cheer up, everyone is gonna be better if we stick with it until the end ! I believe so, and I believe in you. You are gonna be such a good doctor in the future, then you will train new residents and be such an awesome senior.

[@yarakandoth7202]

Hi Jenny...I'm also doing my post graduation in internal medicine in India..I have faced this situation a lot of time..but I think that's natural...i know it feels horrible...but...as u work u become better...and one thing I have learnt is to never lose confidence... And to believe in myself.

[@nataliemariano3501]

Wyatt is so adorable! I love watching your stories with him on Instagram 💙

[@lilacmuseic]

You are such an inspiration❤️❤️❤️ my fiance is in residency i know how much work it is and it’s crazy how you can work that much and still able to do youtube 😲😲😲

[@therealbritneylache3052]

Hey Jenny!! How awesome are your videos !! Also we were friends in middle school at piedmont! (Britney McKenzie) Wonderful to see you doing such great things !

[@Karen-hr7in]

you look so tired...I totally feel for you. In spite of that, you have such a positive attitude. Rock on...

[@KianMDvlog]

Jenny, I always find your videos that show your vulnerability to be more reassuring than other videos that are super upbeat/happy on youtube. Thank you so much for sharing!! Do you ever have second thoughts about uploading raw/emotional footage? Your channel is such an inspiration, infact, I've just gotten accepted into medical school and I'm trying to start a channel (haha)- your authenticity is something I hope to emulate

[@drjennale]

Congratulations on med school!! I think that I have such amazing subscribers and community here on KZbin that I never have second thoughts about uploading raw emotions. Everyone here makes me feel very empowered to strive to be my best but also understand that we’re all human and make mistakes.

[@ErzaFairyTailErzaScarlett]

I have PTSD from being bullyied. Well, I felt like I was stupid and just a Wierd person. Just having the diagnosis helped me a lot.

[@laurel9023]

Im a nurse, but I totally understand how it feels to cry at work... and then have to go back and take care of patients.

[@wdeemarwdeemar8739]

Hi Jenny, you will be a great attending one day. Just keep moving forward. I am a utilization review nurse and have been an Asst mgr, manager and director, and I have made hundred maybe thousands of doctors cry. Being unsure is a good thing believe me it’s the docs who think they know everything that mess up and do harm patients. The good doctors have no clue who I am and probably never will, the bad ones will dive into patient rooms that aren’t even their patients or will go upstairs or downstairs just to avoid crossing my path. I have over 900 physicians here believe me even the chief of staff makes questionable decisions. That’s all part of practicing the art of medicine.. so keep practicing. There are residents here that run circles around some of our attending physicians.

[@creatively41lb]

I spent my entire dietetic internship feeling so anxious about not being good enough. It was such a long road just to get to the internship and all the rejection had really affected me. A big part of my anxiety’s during the internship was a lack of feedback. I worked with 3 very supportive, kind dietitians, but they only ever told me I was doing great, never any feedback. That with all the negative self thoughts made me so nervous. Was I so bad I wasn’t even worth the time to teach? 5 years out, I am really regretful that I didn’t seek help in getting that anxiety under control. I am a great dietitian now, but I think I could have gotten so much more out of my internship if I had been in a better place mentally.

[@janeli9568]

When I was a medical scribes at a psychiatric clinic, I made many mistakes on patients' notes. I was blamed by my provider basically everyday and I tried to improve everyday. I understand that excuses like "English is not my native language" could not be made, but I admit this is also the truth. Being a medical scribe, I needed to take notes on every detail that patients talked about as well as other sections on the SOAP note. Plus, the patient population is also special. Being an immigrant, I found it hard to catch the details. Although I had improved a lot since the first day of being a scribe, the improvement was not enough. That experience has been my insecurity ever. However, it also has been a motivation that is pushing me forward. Tomorrow will be my first day of medical school. I somehow need to thank that experience and the criticism that I got for reminding me to try my best and not to be looked down by all the people who thought I could not get into medical school. I will try my best to be the best medical school student and doctor I can ever be! Jenny, you are a such good person and doctor. After those experiences, you will be a better doctor in the future! Keep it up and don't lose yourself! I support you!

[@giggles14smilechick]

I just did CITI and HIPPA training for a program at Stanford, and theyre sooo long, and you have to do them like once every like few years

[@rachelrichsims]

My Lord, what does anyone expect With being sleep deprived and overworked mentally and physically. I know it takes a certain type of individual to be a Dr., and I myself could not do it due to knowing and understanding myself. (Im an empath) and my emotions would be taxed to the limit, risking mental instability. I thank all the Doctors for doing what they do. Every being in this world has different strengths that can be used to help others.

[@jaynefenton7648]

Lol I kept pausing the video because I thought the kids playing was my cat getting in a fight outside. All we can do is try our best and learn from our mistakes, I’m sure you’re doing a great job so just keep pushing on x

[@smallpupmom1083]

Love watching your channel. You have an amazing husband and a beautiful child. Have you ever watched Violin MD channel on You Tube. She's in Canada and I also love watching her channel. I'm not a Dr, I'm just a typical senior citizen (young at heart) and just love watching both of you. All I can say today is medical care has changed enormously. It's like Doctor's of today's society don't have the quality time to spend with there patients. To me were just like a number, so when I go see my doctors I always have too remind them what I'm there for and that really saddens me. I dislike that they only have 15min increments between patient's and that creates a lot of problems. I see a hand specialist and she's the only Dr. that literally spends an hour with you. Her patients never complain because we all know how good she is explaining things, gives exceptional quality time and is extremely caring. Her and I are of the same age, so maybe that's what we call "old school", lol. Well have yourself a great day, stay strong and positive and at the end of the day you'll be thankful. Happy day to you and yours ❤