Fentanyl Addict interview-John

[@truth-hurts3089]

Can see the pain and anguish in his face. Unbelievable amount of trauma for 1 person. Stay strong buddy.

[@Boyhead1973]

@ravexbabe - 100% agree. You can see it in his face... broke my heart even before he said anything...

[@chantelle22]

Agreed

[@kellyannmanning4614]

I feel so bad :( I can't imagine going through that. Hugs to him.

[@jimmerrell1688]

Addicts are selfish and depend on people feeling sorry for them. Believe me I know.

[@danduane1413]

@@jimmerrell1688 I agree that they are, I've lived with them too. I will say that he does seem different than most. I can't paint everyone with the same brush...

[@leebay6093]

I never comment but this young man really got me, he’s a strong, intelligent soul and I hope he can get his life on track, live one day at a time John, you can do this, we are all wishing you the very very best 💪

[@chrisfalcone5211]

Your a G mang. Get a lil job, start saving And get to your kids.. get outta l.a. if possible🤘🏻

[@cadena141]

me too

[@marylougeorge9890]

Yes. I hope his life takes a turn for the best.❤️

[@sayvaughncyrus2143]

you need to check out Gabriel's interview...hes another fentanly addict...now THAT guy is brilliant

[@dakotataylor8779]

Dude the definition of “I have no more tears to shed” stay strong man, this bouta to be one of the greatest comeback stories of all time.

[@cleancarasmr83]

He really lights up when talking about computer programming. THAT is what he needs to be doing. THAT is is passion. I hope he finds his way out. What a lovely soul.

[@skyking228]

Kudos to his former brother-in-law for taking in his two kids. I can't imagine taking on such a tremendous responsibility. Always interesting, thanks!

[@holland9199]

Yep foresight was good 👍

[@Bibi-zh4ic]

Mark, I began watching your channel once every week or so but now I wake up every morning to hear a new story. I have developed a genuine interest in learning people’s background, people who are often judged for their decisions without understanding their circumstances. Thank you for opening a platform to share their story.

[@feliciaalbanese3338]

Yes!!! Me too

[@erincatanzariti3866]

So do I. I don’t miss a vid these days.

[@Plow55]

@@erincatanzariti3866 nnn

[@5Whyz]

@Mark Shmuck Comment of the year, Mark. You are definitely the cool one here

[@pottymouth9891]

@Mark Shmuck Wow you’re comments on this channel span from blatant racism to pure hate speech. The words you spew are a direct reflection of yourself. Vile, ignorant, miserable.

[@stormwarning9182]

I don't have any experience with people with fentanyl addiction or how it affects their behaviour, but when I look at John's eyes I see a person in shock. He's such a sincere and gentle soul, I hope he can find his way back to a place where he and his children can be together again. Life is short, and every day is precious! Thanks John, all the best!

[@ayten3617]

They feel anxious frantic worried sensitive and very very physically sick.. To sick to even go get more drugs if they wait to long.

[@morgenmachen2400]

It's a prolonged state of stress, marked by high amounts of adrenaline and activation of fight or flight, supression of activity in the prefrontal cortex (decision making part of the brain). There are regular periods of withdrawal which put high amounts of stress on the regulation systems of the body (blood pressure, temperature regulation, immunie system) .It's absolute chaos on the body, mind and soul.

[@suchabadkitty1293]

@@ayten3617 You're NEVER too sick to get a fix. NEVER.

[@suchabadkitty1293]

@@morgenmachen2400 It is chaos indeed. As I head out to get my daily methadone? Yeah... its basically hell on Earth.

[@morgenmachen2400]

@@suchabadkitty1293 yup, I'm well aware, I answered from personal experience. I've been on methadone for close to ten years and today I have four years clean. Methadone and the program have been a big part of that for me. I hope you're doing well today!

[@danielmeuler2877]

I was using Fentanyl for the last 4 years of my addiction. as of the 1st of the month I have 20 months of Sobriety. I had No hope of getting clean. I had resigned my self that I was going to Die a Junkie. But I grabbed onto a Moment of Clarity and reached out for Help. Recovery is a Lot of Work, but not even close to the amount of work Active Addiction is and was. Whenever I listen to fellow Addicts on this channel, I pray they can find the Peace of Mind that leads them to long term Sobriety.

[@AntiPlatitude]

Bravo, brother.

[@j_draagon.]

Dude this story is so intense, this guy has literally been put though emotional agony. I love the faith he continues to have. Accepting his anger issues and trying to fix them make me think he will get cleaned up. He has tons of potential for sure, he’s so knowledgeable, his vocabulary says it all. I hope he gets cleaned up soon. Not all fathers think of being their for their children in an emotional way.

[@Tranquility32]

Such a smart, talented, sweet, gentle soul, with a loving heart. I’m grateful for John sharing his story. Though I’m at a loss for words to express how sad and sorry I am for things that happened to him and his family. Heartbreaking isn’t a big enough word. Sending him lots of love and prayers. And wishing him well.

[@SilentSymhphonies]

I just wanna hug him:( he’s been through so SO much trauma … I hope he’s able to get in recovery and try to have his life back to whatever degree he can :(( I’m so sorry for the pain you’ve had to go through :(💜

[@jacquelinem3655]

Hope to see an update for John. I feel like he’s given up, but he’s got the capability to turn it around.

[@elliec7677]

You CAN do the withdrawals John. I did withdrawals from an opiate and it’s horrible and scary but you just have to keep telling yourself that it’s only temporary. One minute at a time. One step in front of the other… you CAN do this. Those children need you in their life 💕💕

[@suchabadkitty1293]

Nope. Long term addicts often have PAWS. That ish can last YEARS. This is why opioids have the highest recidivism rates. And for those who have other health issues? It can be very dangerous. We now know that people CAN die from withdrawals.

[@brunolima7402]

John is a good example of how a perfect storm of terrible events can take a person to become a drug addict. A very sad story because he had it all to be a happy person if not for all the tragic events with the ppl he loved. Thanks for the video.

[@deerski4426]

I wish parents would realize how much damage they are causing their children by letting them witness terrible things such as fighting, drinking, drugs, abuse, etc. Good luck to this young man. I hope you find peace and tranquility in your journey ❤

[@Kimikosnoh]

These are the same parents that say “we stayed together for the kids”. Smh

[@thefitzs]

@@Kimikosnoh there's more to staying together for the kids than just physically staying together. That's only the first step. The most important thing is to commit to choosing to love, no matter how hard it may be. BOTH must commit.

[@terywetherlow7970]

Parents are lost too and either make it or don't.....the aftermath is the next generations to deal with, sadly. Drugs are never an answer.

[@SuzanneDeniseB]

Same. It took me years to get past the abuse. It stays buried these days..You have to learn to push forward. It never stops hurting 💔. Please be safe everyone. Sending love.

[@terywetherlow7970]

@Lori Joy Fine Art Channel SOCIETY needs classes!!!! They benefit or wither from the majority of a persons life too. Schools are a disaster.....I honestly believe that an imprint of God is missing. Breaking up family is by design.....evil is doing it's best to consume goodness. $$ and power have corrupted all that used to lead.....

[@craftygirl9666]

Hugs to John. He strikes me as a person who deep down does have the strength to get sober and try again. I can imagine that after losing so many people he loved and was vulnerable with, that he might be reserved to allow himself feel love. I hope he's able to get/stay clean.

[@happyday8280]

Honestly this man’s life made me cry … he is so shut down … I hope he manages to get clean … he is so clever and needs his children to be close to him

[@pcankar]

He is such an intelligent, sensitive, kind man, but he is so full of sadness and despair. I wish him all the best. Your kids need you. Stay strong and get yourself on track.

[@hyssean12]

Get back on methadone. It saved my life I was on 60mg for five years while I dosed down slowly and did counseling etc. I came off the methadone last July and I am still clean. No desire to use it just makes everything harder doesn't solve any issues.

[@joannekerr3]

Congratulations on your hard earned sobriety Sean! That is awesome👏

[@familylifescienceeducation5227]

"does not solve any issues"...no truer words have ever been spoken. Keep staying sober, buddy, come what may. God bless. 🙏🏽❤️

[@hunterfraley6817]

Coming off methadone is really hard on some people. I rather go suboxone route. My dad said worst coming off that stuff and he’s done it all.

[@knowyoshiz7525]

How bro I've been on 140mg for 8 years and I still have trouble going down and backsliding not much but its happened

[@joehenshaw87]

How bad was it for you doing It that way and coming off because I’m in the process of coming fully off, I’m just wondering the opinion of someone who did it the right way and didn’t just either stop taking it or got locked up and had no choice

[@RadRedhead222]

It’s so hard for me to imagine losing everything and still having hope. Thank you, Mark! Best of luck and prayers to this young man 🙏🏻

[@Pogo1977]

My heart breaks for this man. His eyes show his spirit. Such pain and hollowness. I hope to see him again with life on his side for a change.

[@suchabadkitty1293]

Right? This guy has been through way more than most. Very sad.

[@monicdavis6150]

He is so depressed. I hope he can pick himself up. It’s hard especially with the heavy things that have happened. I wish him the best.

[@heatherh.197]

The best part is he doesn't have to pick himself up, he needs to allow God to pick him up. Johnny, your a beautiful soul. God can and will pick you up. Allow Him to. 2 Corinthians 12:9 But He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is perfected in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly in my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest on me.

[@keksandwich]

@@heatherh.197 Stop with the religious bullshit

[@bunnyolson9484]

As always mark your stories are real and so inspiring. Keep up your beautiful 😍 gift the lord has blessed you with. From the frozen praire of South Dakota

[@mosaicwonders]

@@heatherh.197 dpppp

[@Zara_Brown]

Uuhhh. I want the absolute best for this man. He's just a regular guy who's been through horrendous trauma yet still has the most calm and quiet demeanour. I really hope he gets ALL the help he needs. This breaks my heart ❤

[@helenf.glover7403]

Me too, Zara! I want the best for him and to be filled with lots of love and happiness 💗 He really made my heart hurt.

[@CoCoaSabella]

My heart literally breaks at your story! Praying and hoping for a full recovery! Most of all, hope that you’ll be able to reunite with your children and all live a wholesome, happy, healthy life 💙

[@kurdishgirl6361]

It always makes me happy to see that little smile at the end. I loved Mark’s questions during this interview: do you believe in God after all you’ve been through? What does all that teach you? Etc. I hope John gets clean, finds a decent job and gets back his kids. I can see him being a great dad. Hope he makes sure those what if’s won’t be his biggest regrets one day. I believe in him 🫰🏽

[@helenf.glover7403]

I saw that sweet little smile too. 💗

[@fk9424]

I’m your age John. We’ve had similar lives in terms of trauma/parents and seeking mental silence. Total sensory deprivation to not feel. Know that you can do this; I was weaker than you appear and by far. Please reach out if you feel the need. Much love.

[@amberhaystaylor1934]

John, as a fellow Delawarean- wishing you all the best. I hope you find your way to a sober and happy life. Thanks for sharing your story. I’m rooting for you.

[@JoyJoysWorld]

Me too Amber from New Castle!

[@topshelf3273]

Yup, hang in there John. -Kyle from Wyoming DE

[@brendaandjohnroark-rivera7710]

Another Delawarean here, wishing him well! Newark

[@WaveyCuts87]

Fish-Magnolia, DE I wish we could get on the lanes again one day fam🙏🏾you got this!!! Stay as strong as possible!!!

[@jacobs1707]

He seems to have a good deal of self awareness and intelligence, if anyone on this channel is likely to recover I believe in him

[@Nikki-sf6bs]

I have to take breaks from this channel from time to time. Whenever I come back I am always so happy to be here. I really hope John can recover. My heart is hurting for him.

[@crizzysworld]

He seems like such a sweet sweet soul!!!! I really hope life starts getting better for you man. I'm so sorry you have had such a hard road.

[@laurashipp447]

Some of these stories are absolutely astonishing! This young has been through hell and back a few times from the word go. Please, please please find your way to recovery, you deserve peace, healing and a good rest of your life.

[@ollietabooger925]

I prayed for his daughters, him and his wife. what a strong guy, he can do it though. I kicked fentanyl April 11th. it can be done

[@oceanai1975]

I cannot fathom the trauma this beautiful young man has been through. and despite everything he still has a kind and pure heart. I hope he realizes what a light he is for this world and that there are thousands rooting for him🤗

[@kerrybee8327]

💕

[@colebrownel4091]

There is so much I want to say to this guy. It’s the first time I’d say someone’s fentynal addiction is justified. I wanted to just hug this poor dude and tell him there is a better way…but damn how do you when someone has been thru what he has. Brother, the fact you’re alive and saying the things you’re saying, even tho you don’t believe what you’re saying yet, it IS possible to come back. Tho I can’t imagine the pain you carry, the fact that you can still say those positive things means they can come out of you.

[@suchabadkitty1293]

Wow...judgey.

[@johngallegos1235]

I appreciate your empathy, I finally got a job and start work tomorrow making 17/hr. Slowly saving up to move into an apartment. I'm setting up a GoFundMe per my friends and family request as they want to help. I will share it here as well when its up. Thank you for your kind words :)

[@suec1238]

@@johngallegos1235 Hello John, I hope you are doing well. Thanks for that quick update. As you can see your story touched a lot of us. Thank you for sharing your story.

[@bugbleach6530]

This is the perfect example of how broken the american healthcare system is and how it doesn't just affect the sick, it affects their entire families and circles. It is a brutal cycle. I'm so sorry for this man and wish him the best, losing people to cancer is one of the most painful losses there is

[@blakefoster8244]

I want to give this guy a hug. I feel so lucky to have the life I do. If I’d been dealt the same hand of cards as this guy, I don’t think I’d be doing as well as he is. Despite his current addictions, he’s exceptionally strong willed and I wish him the best!

[@dp6970]

He’s numb to loss. I can relate and I feel like I’m cold hearted for it sometimes (however, I never tell people how I’m thinking). My heart breaks and goes out to him.💔

[@JOSHEY20]

I have a couple family members with drug issues. Watching this hits home. This is very heartbreaking and you can see the pain in his eyes 😢

[@marydestefano7498]

Of all your guests for some reason I just stopped breathing when he said his mother got shot. What followed made me want to crawl up in a ball and sob. My heart really aches. I never wanted to comfort anyone as much as this young man. Wow. I feel his pain. It’s deep. Good luck to you 🥰

[@redeyestlouis4651]

I feel like deep down he's accepting dying from an overdose wish i could do something. Once again this another HUGE interview for me Mark, damn I feel for this guy and there really isn't shit I could do for him. I HOPE YOU GOT KIDS TO CARRY ON THIS AWSOME LEGACY YOU GOT GOING ON HERE!!

[@Tata-iu3fy]

Sadly there are so many addicts that would accept dying from an overdose any day. I was one of them, until I got clean 15 years ago.

[@katierobinson7831]

I'm only 3 minutes in, and this man's story has shaken me more than any other video on this channel. It hits very close to home. He deserves all the health and healing. Thank you for giving him the space to tell his story, Mark.

[@EmEm872]

So much sadness and loss for one person. My heart breaks for you John, I really hope that in the next interview with Mark that you will be telling us how long you have been free of substances and about to start a job. Please look after yourself, you are of value.

[@stevenbest6923]

I really wish this guy the best and hope he reads this.

[@taylahjane8491]

I’m not one to comment but this one really got me. John, for such a young person has gone through more trauma than most would in their entire life. I’m so hopeful he has what it takes to get clean, get his life back, and his kids. Please do follow up’s on John, I think with help he could really make it.

[@breelee4362]

I clicked on his video bc it struck me the sadness and pain in his eyes, and of course now I know where that comes from. What a heartbreaking journey he's been on. I'm a very empathetic person which makes hearing these stories extra tough. They also make me so very grateful for the life I have and the chances I've been given in my life. I am grateful to those who are so vulnerable to share their stories with the world, with all their pain and flaws. Life can be so incredibly unfair and so fragile. My heart goes out to him. He's obviously very intelligent and maybe with a little luck and determination, he can heal from all the trauma, and provide stability and love for his own children. It's also sad to think that his trauma could get passed down to his children, if they themselves end up orphans. Don't give up hope.

[@CHSN-1]

You've been through a lot bro... You have a great story man, thanks for sharing. Your outlook is inspiring🙏

[@BuddhatheRockstar]

I appreciate how aware he is about himself. He clearly knows what matters most.

[@cp-skii5332]

Fentanyl is one of the hardest hitting drugs right now. This guy is a very intelligent man, and even he got hooked on. I pray he can come clean and fully get better.

[@charsiu_808]

Coming through the southern border..

[@Gram72534]

@@charsiu_808 first it came from the eastern ports! Straight from China! The south only second to the east! They Chinese sell the raw materials to the mexican cartels. If you want it to stop you have to address the China issue, first!

[@TruthHurtsSoGetAHelmet]

Definitely coming thru the border and the hardest hit cities are all run by Democrats and have been for decades. Insanity is doing the same thing over again expecting a different result. Voting in Democrats definitely has proven doesn’t work so make a change by voting red. Gotta get America to go in a different direction because this surely isn’t working. We’re going downhill fast!

[@Gram72534]

@@TruthHurtsSoGetAHelmet your brain washed! Enjoy your koolaid breakfast! Lol!

[@Gram72534]

@@TruthHurtsSoGetAHelmet did you erase your comment? Or was it KZbin deleting it for misinformation? Lmao!!!

[@bodaciousdes6654]

Lots of love and healing energy for John. I see the pain & sadness is his eyes and it's heartbreaking. I pray God lifts him up and reminds him he is with him and he is loved. He still has a lot of reason to live. I hope he seeks help for his trauma and drug use then gets back to Pennsylvania. Have faith in yourself John!

[@davewilson9738]

Thats enough to test the best of us. Take the help, find your feet and get your children back and your life will come back to you, be well John.

[@brianpeterson3752]

Heart breaking to say the least. John - Kick this addiction’s ass. You can and you will. The world needs more good people like you, functioning and contributing.

[@Dapryor]

I’m sober almost three years and this interview showed how lucky most people are. He looks like a shell shocked veteran. I hope he makes it out okay.

[@jonathank7487]

He’s been through too much to bare. It’s a miracle he’s still here today. This man is so strong… it’s time he starts having some good life experiences. John, I hope you can find your way back into a program and get some treatment for the trauma you’ve been through. It’s like I want to reach through the screen and take all your pain away. I’m Praying for you…wishing you the best of luck from here on out. I wish I could do more.

[@JayN4GO]

Extremely intelligent. Hope he gets the fuck out of LA and around the area of his kids. He’s smart enough to get clean.

[@taylorjohnson9321]

Someones intellect doesn't have anything to do with getting clean or not. You can be smart or as dumb as a box of rocks people stay sober because they want it bad enough. There's nothing more to it.

[@The_Majestic_Ibis]

Wow what a interesting guy I hope things go well for him, thanks mark for doing these interviews.

[@fran0162]

This man is the same age as my son. My mother's heart is so full of sorrow for him. Hes been thru so much in his life. Hope he gets well.

[@RUDI-UK]

As an addict myself, the fear of withdrawal this young man talks about is really just as bad as the actual event, if not mentally worse. I really hope he gets through the trauma and eventually move on to a happier more stable life with his kids.

[@michellebarron1987]

any update for you?❤

[@mercedesd236]

I just want to say that story was emotionally impacting. Praying for you dude I could tell you're in a lot of pain. To tell you honestly the truth I probably would have done the same thing you did if all that had happened to me. Keep your hopes up things will get better eventually you just got to keep putting one's foot in front of the other. Go back to your kids they need you and you need them.

[@discospiders]

This man has a good soul, I really hope things work out for him.

[@danyellesimmons1232]

I recognize those eyes, only because I've been there. Thank you for your testimony this morning. You restored something I've lost lately, 2 things actually.. My mustard seed & hope. My heart is & will continuously pray for you.

[@dgdkavsj5512]

God bless him he’s really had a tough time and had some unfortunate events happen, I pray things work out for him and his kids

[@suchabadkitty1293]

"God" has not blessed this man in any way.

[@dgdkavsj5512]

@@suchabadkitty1293 that’s why I said “God bless him” no child left behind truly failed I see, fuck you and that cat

[@sharity3289]

Oh, my...Mark, this video perfectly illustrates how addicts can come from all walks of life - poor, rich, professionals, flipping burgers at Mickey D's. I think this video touched me the most, from all the videos that you've made that profiles addicts. I'm an opiate addict. This is definitely not the future that I ever would have foreseen, nor would anyone else. I graduated high school, valedictorian & summa cum laude, 3 months after I turned 16. I had a Governor's Scholarship that provided a "free ride" to any college in my state (Kentucky). My 1st year of college, my mental and physical health issues began to surface, and I dropped out of college. I've languished since then. The only thing that I've been kinda successful at is being a mom, but I've had a lot of help from my parents, who have allowed my kids and I to live with them. I live in a small town, but I've managed to keep my addiction a secret from the world at large, but I'm sure ppl wonder why I didn't live up to my potential. I'm 40 now and my kids, 17 & 21, are the only reason I keep on pushin'. I'm just tired.

[@Deelifull]

Wow. Graduated at 16 & then college for (1) year?!!! Impressive. I'm curious but do you remember who or what instance first introduced you to drugs? ____ ? I asked my Mom & she shocked me with telling me it was my aunt, when my Mom was a teenager. So pissed. My Mom also didn't admit her drug use until 2017, when I darn well knew she's been an addict for the last 20 years. I know her better then the back of my hand. Duh. Nar-anon helped tho.

[@mongogojjo5944]

​@@Deelifull it's nobody's fault for introducing, people can make their own decisions. I'm an alcoholic and an opioid addict, I don't blame a soul besides my self and my inability to cope with the world.

[@DEBO5]

The second this guy chooses to get sober he can get a software dev job within a month and be living better than most people

[@meg1065]

This guy has been thru so much. I can tell he has such a kind soul and there’s so much ambition behind all that heartbreak and addiction.

[@jennifertrifunovic9657]

What a heartbreaking story :( it’s incredible what some people are able to withstand, I’m not sure I would have been able to cope. I truly hope you are able to see through your determination to get your life back on track and will be looking out for a positive update for you John! Your kids need you and your wisdom, you have a lot to offer them.

[@RoaringJaguar]

I want to give this good man a hug a tell him that he is loved and supported ❤️

[@cleancarasmr83]

“I do plan on getting treatment soon.” I sincerely hope it’s sooner rather than later. I always hear people say they’ll do it one day, and they never do. Those babies need their daddy. My heart aches for him and them.

[@simonsays9572]

I hope one day we all get an update about John. Clean, good paying job and with his kids 🙌🏻

[@maureent8653]

Take care John. Thank you for sharing your story with us.

[@pattisharpston6907]

What a great person. So intelligent. He has been through so much! Praying for him to get help. He has potential to be very successful!

[@Tony-eh7oj]

You have a kindness that is so sincere, your great advice to never hold grudges, you have obvious intelligence, I would love to hear how you are doing very soon.

[@florsierra9591]

I've seen a few of these stories and none have moved me as much as this one right here. I wish I could take his pain away. I'm so sorry you carry so much on your shoulders! Please don't ever give up. Keep fighting for your kids and for your own happiness. You deserve it. 💓💓💓💓💓

[@emmafr1edman]

John, thank you for sharing your story. There has been so much tragedy in your life and I can only hope that you find peace and happiness soon.

[@diamondstylus100]

You should team up and work with this guy on some tech projects for SWU. He's one strong spirit for keeping going through all he's faced.

[@truesavings1988]

My heart goes out this young man. Praying life is merciful to you and you get back on your feet and get your babies back. They will be your strength to continue on.

[@adamgullen446]

What an incredibly strong person. Thanks for sharing your story, I think just hearing how you've handled it can give people strength

[@tegser]

This story is heartbreaking..what an amazing guy to come through all of this..stay strong and know that everyone watching this video sympathises with you and wants you to succeed 🙏

[@samanthacostido7823]

To lose the closes woman in your life… the one who brought you life and the one who gave your children life….. breaks my heart.

[@Mr.Green.Shoes.999]

This is going to make me sober. I have the best life in the world and cant stop abusing drugs and have been searching for anything grasping at straws trying to stay sober. I love my family much more than myself. What this man as been through hurts me deeply and I have recently started speaking with God again and the "You Always Have To Stay On Good Terms With Everyone" is now the mantra that I will repeat over and over to stay off drugs. So John if you read this with all of the tragedy you have been through please know that you Saved/Changed the life of this 45 year old man and his family. If you ever want to reach out you can I surely don't know how to comfort you but I can tell you the difference you have made and me and maybe it could help you maybe not. -Jon

[@Mr.Green.Shoes.999]

9 days I wasn't kidding. I have battled for 15 years this was my turning point

[@oyu...]

First time commenting on KZbin. His story is just intense and heartbreaking. It's just got me...I can see the pain in his eyes. I just wanna give him big hug and wish him all the best !!

[@melodycoats2351]

I normally don't comment either, but this guy really got to me. He seems like such a gentle sweet soul that has been through so much pain and you see it all I his eyes. I hope he can find a way to heal and be the awesome person he is.

[@BelleLundon]

We all have choices to make and some choices we make lead down a path that only holds us back or can bring darkness in our lives. Today I made a bad decision to indulge in my addiction after I stopped for three months. I ended up putting toxins in my body and still suffering a terrible headache. I actually wanted to get more but luckily I had a friend who stayed on the phone with me and reminded me to not get sucked back into the lifestyle. This man has coping strategies…mines was remembering all the chaos it brought into my life…but I barely had self control. Definitely want to remember today to avoid this happening again…dare to walk away.

[@biancamarlow2310]

Such a strong person. Even if he doesn’t realize it. Just goes to show that addicts aren’t horrible people. I’m a recovering addict, and I know there is so much judgement in the world. He will inspire so many people.

[@tarahbeck3939]

I really hope he can find a way to recover from his addiction. From there, I hope his life can take a positive turn. Bless you John. Hang on!!

[@lilkyraereti1127]

Poor dude. Far out, heavy heart for him. Wish him sobriety and peace and may he find love.

[@fleetsma5119]

What amazing inner strength to be so young and control his temper. You are so inspiring to me. Don’t you ever quit! I’m cheering for you! Mark, Please keep touch with him!

[@annieseaside]

Please accept Mark’s help getting you clean and back East, CA is too expensive and too man drugs. Whatever time you are blessed with with your daughter BE THERE IN PERSON! She won’t care if you are disabled or at McDonalds. Go to her! And your son you got that chance! Get home!!! 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻❤️

[@trippyliquids]

yeah you don’t wanna go to rehab in california. unless its like up in the mountains away from that whole “recovery” community down south. way too many drugs here

[@RealmCenter40]

I am in no way a professional or even an armchair amateur at substance rehabilitation that being said I suspect without addressing the underlying mental health condition attempting to solve the substance problem is a fool’s errand.

[@sallyann985]

@@RealmCenter40 on the other hand addressing any underlying mental health problem is probably much harder to do when you have an addiction to feed on top of it.

[@absoluteauto4]

This poor young man has been through the mill and he's only 32. I hope he finds his way because he deserves it.

[@lisakrieg3076]

Wow! This poor guy…he seems like such a nice and talented guy. This poor guy has been through so much and so much loss and sadness. 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

[@mikestanutz3801]

John... your strength is inspirational. I will never forget this interview, nor will I forget you. All the best...

[@MarthaGarcia-yj2jm]

Your story reminds me of Job; he lost everything, he told God it would've been better if he had never been born. Job stood in faith; God blessed him 10 fold. I believe your life will turn around, all your trials are rainbows in the end. When you go through your pain, as you process every event in your life, allowing yourself to heal, forgiving yourself, allowing your soul to grieve all the losses you've experienced, there will be an abundance of blessings, you will have more than you ever imagined. Allow yourself to heal, give yourself permission to feel your emotions, process all you have inside, don't bury it. One day at a time. I'm sorry for your pain. I can't say I know what you have been through, I can only relate to the pain of losing a parent. Everyday is a new day for you , a clean slate, you get to choose what type of day you will have. You're not your addiction. You're you and only you know how to get where you want to be. I hope for the best for you and your daughter. T/1

[@willsmith39]

Do you god squad trolls never give up? Unbelievable. Did you actually hear what he had to say about God? Maybe take a break from the constant proletysing and actually listen to someone for once. Ironically it would actually be the Christian thing to do 🙄🙄

[@andreajxo7050]

Wow this one really hurt my heart. John, I pray for you and your children. You can overcome this, I feel it. Get the help you deserve, you have so much potential to become something great. You’ve been through so much trama and heartbreak but don’t let that define you. 💪 I am rooting for you!

[@Ashleyiza]

I think some of us just get handed a shitty deck. But the only positive out of that is that without those people... How can others find hope or find help.. He has a purpose here 🦋. My heart breaks for him. He is so smart and self aware.

[@bahnaa]

It's crazy how much he has been through and yet how strong he is. Very clear on his mind and not giving up. This makes me reflect on my life and look at things differently and certainly appreciate the life the I have a lot more.

[@meganmoe917]

He looks like he’s in so much pain and is so used to pushing it down. Beautiful man that needs some help, therapy and recovery. And I don’t doubt he can do it.

[@juanna]

“what are you afraid of” “i would say not much” ☹️i wish him healing and the best of luck with gaining full custody of his kids.

[@antoniatroselj42]

John, please don’t get stuck there! 🥺 I would hate to see that!! Get up, find help. Help yourself, you deserve it! I know that’s easy to say but you can do it! Reunite with you’re children, they are all you have and they love you and need you in their life. Don’t settle for a couple of calls. YOU are irreplaceable for them! I belive in you! 🍀 xxmuch love

[@peacefulwife5199]

John....it was like hearing myself talk when you told your story. You can get back what you had. You can. I'm almost 65 years old, I got my life turned around and now I'm enjoying retirement. YOU CAN TOO. I'll be praying for you Sir.

[@cwblackistonio1641]

Dover, De? I’m from Salisbury, Maryland. Go back to the eastern shore/ Delmarva. You’re better off there.

[@zoe9632]

You've endured more trauma & loss than anyone should have to bear. John, it's more than a possibility for you to get your life back. No it won't be the same but it can still be wonderful. You got this.... I can feel it. 💙 from Australia