Don't apologize dude. It takes a real strong man to allow his tears to fall.
@piashadononfroy12613 жыл бұрын
HIS STORY WAS SO REAL AND RAW😌
@valeriewebb98493 жыл бұрын
PREACH...SO TRUE!!! ONLY REAL MEN CRY!!! Don't lose hope Royal...where there's a will there's a way. And your still here my friend...never apologize for your pain and trauma
@666kizzie3 жыл бұрын
True x
@blondiexox3 жыл бұрын
It always makes me sad that people think they need to apologize for crying or showing emotion.
@valeriewebb98493 жыл бұрын
@@blondiexox DITTO and I’m one of them ppl too but FUCK IT!! it feels good to let a good cry out now and then…out everyday if your want
@tylermiddleton1529 ай бұрын
Him turning down that fix makes you know how important it is to him to tell his story.
@iyannabouvier8203 жыл бұрын
Their pain is always so close to the surface that as soon as they start talking about their childhood the tears start flowing. Thank you Mark for giving these people a voice loud enough for society to hear.
@thekatt...3 жыл бұрын
❤❤❤❤❤
@maikalias15023 жыл бұрын
damn right
@nicolehernandez63353 жыл бұрын
Exactly...My heart breaks for all of them. I thought my past (which led to addiction)was bad until I see how other people had to grow up😥
@davidschmidt77613 жыл бұрын
When there using they don’t feel nothing
@slow7reaper5223 жыл бұрын
Excellent way to put it
@dsmartinez60962 жыл бұрын
You can see his pain . Thanks for sharing your life with us. Much respect to you.
@spaceage-qo8wz Жыл бұрын
Well when he said he beat a dude brains out with a tire rinch and the judge told him to leave town by sun down that did it for me.😂😂😂🤣🤣 that's dat dope homie
@linaloo18242 күн бұрын
@@spaceage-qo8wz100%…5 min in I thought WOO now this is gna be some yarn! 😂
@TigerLilyNo133 жыл бұрын
Wow, Royal has had such a wild life, and this interview only scratched the surface. Please bring him back so we can see how he’s doing. Thank you for this, Mark and Royal. Very inspirational on many levels.
@doll26073 жыл бұрын
Yes keep us updated
@alyssagolden44443 жыл бұрын
I agree!
@JoshDisher3 жыл бұрын
Agree
@lolsamftw3 жыл бұрын
Sounds like utter bs to me. hells angels bike gangs and he literally killed someone was about to be put to death and then gets set free. Ok then bud.
@RainSkyPainting3 жыл бұрын
He I think he’s exaggerating everything he says
@midwest41482 жыл бұрын
I respect this man and everything he stands for , that man faced and went through HELL and yet he still has morals and respect.. stay safe brotha
@sakenfor46832 жыл бұрын
You from Milwaukee?
@midwest41482 жыл бұрын
@@sakenfor4683 yeah I am
@WoodyFn12 жыл бұрын
@@sakenfor4683 how tf you just guess that😂 guess where I’m from it’s in the Midwest too
@LeSwexy2 жыл бұрын
@@WoodyFn1 lmfaoo facts wtf
@LeSwexy2 жыл бұрын
@@WoodyFn1 but "414" milwaukee, i guess that's how he guessed lol
@_zacchi_47912 жыл бұрын
The fact that he chose to finish the interview instead of taking the money and going to buy it tells me he’s got a good soul. May he find his path and achieve true happiness
@kurtlangley11572 жыл бұрын
He chose not to because he was already high, knowing either way he would get that money, and he chose to finish to tell his story because he might not get the chance. Just wanted to put that out there as someone who's was an addict to multiple things to tell you what I know I see here
@jonnyjohnnsonn79232 жыл бұрын
He was already high?? Did u watch the video??? He said he was dopesick probably 8 times....
@firepainter8622 жыл бұрын
Addicts are master manipulators who constantly lie. He is not dopesick
@tylergraziano2052 жыл бұрын
If he was truly dope sick he would have bounced outta there quick. Believe me on that. You will screw over the love of your life to not be dope sick. Put that in perspective.
@kurtlangley11572 жыл бұрын
@@tylergraziano205 some control it better than others, some can function better and I'm talking from experience
@Stanley.772 жыл бұрын
I was totally blindsided by the specific type of abuse that he endured. My most sincere prayers go out to this man, and to every other victim that was abused by the same people who abused him. I couldn't even fathom such a thing.
@SoCal_me Жыл бұрын
Seriously! I can only imagine what happened to him at 6 months old too!!!
@LetThereBeRaineTV Жыл бұрын
Thank you so much for not revealing the whole story in your comment!
@nataliefenelon47962 ай бұрын
I am just reeling now having just watched this. My heart is breaking. As a Mother I cannot fathom a woman causing a child such trauma... but that's it hey? Obviously she has suffered in the past. But seeing this man with an open heart & love for his son... its where shit starts to shift. Humans... they baffle me daily.
@kimberlysmithcarlson17773 жыл бұрын
A man crying and releasing all that trauma is one of the most beautiful demonstrations of true strength there is on this fucked up planet...it was an honor to hear his story!
@J3MOdh3NOWX3S3 жыл бұрын
Hmm , I demonstrate true strength almost everyday. :)
@ellamayoxoxo95102 жыл бұрын
Well said
@420spacecowboy2 жыл бұрын
not true. I hope he gets better but to think he is the planter's hero is so stupid.
@kimberlysmithcarlson17772 жыл бұрын
@@420spacecowboy I think we can all have more compassion for other people and not less. Calling someone stupid is really toxic and this forum is not really a place for that.
@thomasdavison71842 жыл бұрын
A man crying in front of strangers or on TV is not strong. You smash that shit way, way deep down inside. Put your work boots on and pull your shit together. Cry in the bathroom where the wife and kids can't see you. A man's job is to assure your family that everything is ok and to look strong and confident even if life is turning to shit around you. If the person who is supposed to be the rock or foundation of the family is sobbing like a teenage girl what kind of message do you think that sends your woman or your children.
@Kylemathews12 жыл бұрын
He cried a little, and I cried a lot. I often forget that as shitty a situation I'm in, there's always someone worse off, and always someone stronger than you. Soft White Underbelly always reminds me of that.
@dragoon2602 жыл бұрын
True and real
@Lioness_of_Gaia2 жыл бұрын
Yeah, me too. It helps me put my problems into perspective.
@kaibe52412 жыл бұрын
It's why I love watching horror. hahaha. Because no matter how bad I feel, those people have it worse :P
@angelayates75562 жыл бұрын
Amen
@alharrison10382 жыл бұрын
7 billion people in the world, and still eventually there's a person who literally has it worse than anyone else
@skboog2 жыл бұрын
Everyone has potential but this guy has so much it spills out in his ability to story tell and communicate naturally through subtle humour, even while getting dope sick... massive props and hope the mans get to shake of those demons from the past
@FatherAndTeacherTV3 жыл бұрын
He's got a heartbreaking story! His mother truly damaged him. I hope that he finds peace and freedom from his addiction some day before it's too late.
@dontbelongherefromanother3 жыл бұрын
Can't understand how a mom could sexually abuse their son
@FatherAndTeacherTV3 жыл бұрын
@@dontbelongherefromanother I can't either.
@menzere20093 жыл бұрын
Yeah his dad his garbage also. He could have made sure his son was taken care of but he wasn’t enough of a human to do the very basics of being above vermin at all.
@FatherAndTeacherTV3 жыл бұрын
@@menzere2009 True that.
@alainadavi2 жыл бұрын
Every adult in his life is trash. He said his mom was a 16 year old sex worker, in prison and his daddy was 20. Like she is a abuse victim herself and his dad is a pedo. The biker gang and everything else. Like he didn’t have a chance tbh
@jMci7263 жыл бұрын
I’m pretty desensitized to all this being a recovering addict myself and an avid watcher of this channel- but I cried the entire time watching this interview. People like to act like addiction is a choice and that were just weak people. That couldn’t be further from the truth. Look at all this mans been through! And he’s still sitting here telling his story. Hang in there! You are strong and you are worthy! Sending so much love and grace!
@oliviashale56533 жыл бұрын
this. 💛
@srichmond321113 жыл бұрын
The ones that call you weak, are not worth your energy. The strength it takes to get sober and fight daily to stay that way is the hardest thing a person can do, and it never ends. Please know, I see and value you!!!❤️❤️❤️
@kimgraham45223 жыл бұрын
I feel ya on that. Nobody wakes up and chooses addiction.
@DAVELa-Soul9163 жыл бұрын
No body chooses addiction but we do have a choice on what we put in our bodies...hey I'm not saying it's easy...I've had a roller-coaster of a life and I'm finally getting thru all the bullshit...best of luck to the ones struggling.
@choke6663 жыл бұрын
I agree. And am also a recovering addict.
@truesavings19883 жыл бұрын
Royals story is so tough. This is the first time I’ve ever heard someone Thank Mark for what he’s doing for them. Mark you show all the rest of us the what and the why help us to understand it’s not so black and white. Helps me to be more compassionate. We all have a story to tell. Most of these are way harder than we could ever imagine. Thank you Mark.
@gwennk49623 жыл бұрын
Lots of people have thanked Mark. I've watched all the interviews that he has posted. What was different that I noticed is that he had a gift for Mark. Not too many people have done that.
@ChickenFerLei2 жыл бұрын
Let me tell you something, these interviews are sooo important for struggling addicts!! They just want someone to listen to them and someone to care!! Talk to one and I bet you’ll hear the craziest stories of your life!! I love this channel so much and what you do. Sooo much respect!
@ang_pie3 жыл бұрын
I was so taken in by this interview. He is a crazy storyteller. We need a Royal Part 2!!!
@napa29813 жыл бұрын
What this man has gone through as a child is horrifying. He has a beautiful soul. Praying for you, Royal 🙏🏼❤️
@obesiriusmusic46613 жыл бұрын
Drugs numb your emotions. I can imagine how emotional this guy would be if he was actually sober. I went through the worse emotional Rollercoaster when I got sober. Everything like the smallest things that isn't even sad was making me cry
@alexanderher76922 жыл бұрын
they both numb and amplify your feelings. i promise you he would be better off without the drugs
@EyeSeeDeadPeople442 жыл бұрын
Yes you are 100% correct.it takes a while to adjust once you're sober but it's so much better.i feel for that guy.
@rossdanes96312 жыл бұрын
I'm going through a similar boat "getting sober" I had to really crank back my drinking and staying off all drugs together. I think I drank 4 or 5 pints in 24 hours. I know at least 4 but maybe 6. The next day was awful and I wanted to cry so bad but I couldn't. A few days later I'm much better. Thanks for commenting.
@BlekJamal2 жыл бұрын
@@rossdanes9631 Pints of beer or hard liquor? Ive twice drank 2 pints of hard liquor back to back and once ended in a jail cell and the other time a week in the psych hospital. Take care of yourselves, you deserve it!
@finished62672 жыл бұрын
We need it to cope. People don't understand how brutal life can be.
@fantheman3102 жыл бұрын
Man what an interview. Better story then most movies I’ve seen. Really pray this man gets some peace in his life. I’d donate to a go fund me for detox if he went
@dawnw03242 жыл бұрын
Right? It felt like I was watching Forest Gump. Lovin this guy.
@Revert20172 жыл бұрын
Me too!!! If anyone starts a Gofundme, please Post it. This is a good man that did what he had to do!
@deepgaming29923 жыл бұрын
I've heard rough stories throughout my life but this story of his is just unbelievable. Mentally strong dude to have come this long way and be on this interview.
@celebralpelosi50312 жыл бұрын
Lol if you actually believe any of it
@juliegarrison4262 жыл бұрын
Unbelievable is the operative word here.
@butch420cassidy42 жыл бұрын
Yeah, he lost me at the whole eating out his mom to show love part.. that shit just sounds made up
@christopherking85262 жыл бұрын
@@celebralpelosi5031 I know right! lol! Most people on this channel are so gullible.
@Sw33tHeart3122 жыл бұрын
Lol yes lost me at the “friend ate by a alligator part” no scratch that. Lost me at the.. it’s just so happens you get inherited by your aunt your very first house in New Orleans the same exact year of hurricane Katrina… full of shit Lmao
@msaunsha3 жыл бұрын
He’s been needing to release this pain since childhood. 😢 My heart goes out to him. Peace and blessings to you good fella. 💗 Wishing the same to all of you too.
@hodad9242 жыл бұрын
So much emotion so quickly. Was not expecting that. Says something about his character that he can open up like this right away. A lot of pain in his life.
@kidamnesiak12 жыл бұрын
In my experience most addicts are constantly holding on to loads of trauma and sadness they want to be able to let go of. When you get someone like this who genuinely wants to hear everything you have to say, it just comes out like a flood. Addicts who live on the street are very closed off and defensive, because they are constantly in fear of what can happen if they let their guard down. But inside of themselves there is so much pain they want to let out.
@keepontruckinoutlawlife12482 жыл бұрын
Poor guy needs help needs to get off that shit
@Andi-tx1rl2 жыл бұрын
Don't apologize for getting sick. It brings the humanity in you to the forefront. There's a vulnerability to it. I don't think it took a single thing away from your story. And honestly, I hope someday you're interviewed again & living a sober dream if that's what you want for yourself. Listening to you was fascinating, though, truly.
@hattchetman_2128 Жыл бұрын
the fact he willingly finished the interview before getting well shows his character. I battled addiction for years on and off and detox is the absolute worst thing I have felt in my life.
@pleox422 жыл бұрын
When he mentioned his dad at the beginning and nearly began to cry, that shit broke my heart. I hope this guy is doing okay.
@huntershaffer87712 жыл бұрын
@@pandaman1968 A rapist is innocent?
@MoneyMack-N2 жыл бұрын
@@pandaman1968 that’s his sister dude. But at the same time you’re right, what he did after bashing the guys head in was super unnecessary and borderline psychopathic.
@canyon.county2082 жыл бұрын
When he mentioned what sexual act he would have to do to his mom blew my mind. There's some sick people in this world🤦♂️
@namjahs2 жыл бұрын
@@pandaman1968 dont blame a person living in hell for doing bad shit. rape and murder is unforgivable but dont act like he was born like that. evil is never genetic, its situational.
@fenixx2132 жыл бұрын
@@namjahs Tbh my life isn't a Hell like him but i'd kill anybody who touch my family too. Especially if that's some one I don't know.
@jennifercarr91113 жыл бұрын
He said it perfectly right! Addiction is unmanageable. No matter what you tell yourself, you will either recover or be an addict.
@mountaintruth1deeds5333 жыл бұрын
@@joefox9765 yep, accelerated decrepitude since early sixties and being born 64', I started to really notice it mid-late 90s and I didn't even know what poly tics were. I learned quick by 2000 and y2k scam, I knew we were in for something shocking, well we got the war on terror and the patriot act was ready months before 9/11, confirmation of our controllers and where we were headed.
@ac9793 жыл бұрын
Only recover from a hopeless state of body and mind.
@jennifercarr91113 жыл бұрын
I honestly think I would be friends with Royal in real life. I'm a recovering pill and heroin addict. I've been clean for just over 3 years. This man is one hell of a man and I have high hopes for you Royal. I really hope there's an update in the future . Thank you for allowing us to hear your story Royal. ❤
@charlottewillis95823 жыл бұрын
Way to go Jennifer😘 It's people like you that inspire these Desperate souls. Thank you for sharing. They need people like You, To give them hope that they can do it too thank you sweetie. So proud of you😘✌
@jennifercarr91113 жыл бұрын
@Dank Dank You just have to make the right choices and not really "hang out" with the drug user. But you can absolutely still be a friend and try to be there for them in their recovery. In the beginning of my recovery there would have been no way that I would be around users, but I'm well past the hard parts. Royal says quite a few times that he would like to get clean. You're right though, my sobriety and recovery come 1st above it all. I do hope the best for Royal.
@jennifercarr91113 жыл бұрын
@@charlottewillis9582 Thank you 😊
@charlottewillis95823 жыл бұрын
You would be surprised.
@GSXR903 жыл бұрын
I’m coming up on two years. Congrats on your 3!
@sgtpepper8142 жыл бұрын
I come from a privileged family, and I’ve always written off people who do bad things as bad people. This is so far from the case. People do bad things when they are put into bad situations. This story was seriously more moving than words can describe.
@ChickenFerLei2 жыл бұрын
Glad you’ve realized that! I respect that! I’ve been on both sides and I’m farrr from a bad person! But this shit will make you do bad things! It’s a horrible thing.
@loutenant28172 жыл бұрын
I think it's awesome when people are willing to open their minds and change their perspective. Good on you!
@Bassgirl422 жыл бұрын
I'm happy to hear because that's the whole point of these interviews.
@carllennen35202 жыл бұрын
Bullshit. People do bad things, because they are bad people. These "situations" aren't created by themselves, out of the ether. People create the environments they inhabit. You don't come from a "privileged" family. You come from a family full of people who made decisions in their life that benefited them. There is nothing wrong with "privilege". You need to start THINKING, instead of repeating stupidity that's in vogue in current year. "Privilege" has a definition, and it's not a bad thing. People are poor, because they choose to be poor. People are in "bad situations", because they make piss poor decisions. No one "does it to them". They do it to themselves. You're naive, and you allow other naive people blow bullshit up your ass. This man's "story" is just that, a story. We all made fun of these types in prison. They are stupid, and have nothing going for them, so they make up stupid shit, so people with think they're interesting, or "tough". They're just idiots full of shit. They take stories other idiots tell them, and make them their own. Nothing this dude said was true. Bottom line, people are successful, because they make good decisions. People are not successful, because they make bad decisions. I've wallowed in the gutter with this trash, when I was young, making bad decisions. When I decided I wasn't trash, I stopped making bad decisions, and now I'm "privileged". I wouldn't trade my "privilege" for anything. Stop feeling guilty, because others are worthless. It's fucking stupid.
@_EatShit_ Жыл бұрын
Not totally true I grew up with a kid who had the nicest parents had brothers and sisters who turned out fine he was never in a bad situation he was just a psychopath
@MeryllSorianoOfficial3 жыл бұрын
Thank you for your body of work, Mark. Truly powerful, humbling and important. I am a fan.
@Truthof.thestreets3 жыл бұрын
These last few interviews have been SO RAW. Two minutes into his interview and my heart dropped for him. My heart progressively sank even more for him as I continued watching. Sending him love, light and positive guidance.
@angiered43963 жыл бұрын
I have been a phlebotomist for over 30 years with a lot of experience with iv drug users. He is right handed and does most of his needles in his left arm. His left hand is swollen because of how all the needle sticks have restricted proper blood flow in that arm. I hope he doesn't want to die but even if he doesn't overdose blood flow restrictions are the beginning of infection then death. Please try another path my brother. You deserve better but you have to believe it yourself. Love to you
@joys37003 жыл бұрын
I noticed the swelling in his hand too. I hope he finds a way out of this addiction. He knows it’s going to be harder than heroin but it has to happen. He can do it. Believe in yourself. ❤️
@bradsully66203 жыл бұрын
Not just his hand, his whole arm is swollen. But I've been there. I hope he gets clean.
@amelie92713 жыл бұрын
It’s interesting that you pointed this out. I’ve noticed one swollen arm on most of the IV users interviewed on this channel and I was wondering what caused it. Thanks for the information.
@ayejay40283 жыл бұрын
@@amelie9271 could also be from getting an abscess, hitting an artery can also cause that
@bigchiefswingin52333 жыл бұрын
Hey nurse,that edema is getting bad
@traivoneibl64702 жыл бұрын
Strong man right here, as a recovered addict I know how tough that had to of been to tell this story while feeling even a little bit sick, this guy amazed me and he continued while being offered money for a fix. I hope this guy finds peace he never had a shot at a decent life it saddens me on how many of them like royal there are. Much love royal stay strong man!
@fredbologn23442 жыл бұрын
Coming off opiates is one of the most emotional experiences ever. Learning to feel again.
@calebjernigan20232 жыл бұрын
Fried bologna That is the truest shit I've ever heard man 10 years a heroin addict
@JetPackDino2 жыл бұрын
Yep. 16 years here. Coming off feels like death, to me. So here I am another year on... I just think I would miss it too much, so what's the point. Terrible attitude I know.
@topyeaa34432 жыл бұрын
I felt this because I been hurt an have no expectations for people cause being let down by people you truly love Hurt an being deceived an percs wud take me away from all of it an I would not feel nothing an I was happy cause I didn't wanna feel the pain so yea it does stop the pain but I been fw so long I don't know how to feel it's hard for me to care or truly love hard but my kid's my kids give me that feeling an mom but other than that I'm numb to alot of things
@x42xxx672 жыл бұрын
289 days clean for me. Staying away from demon pills
@misanthropic_shithead74382 жыл бұрын
How would you know? You've never done opiates
@D_23872 жыл бұрын
This was hands down the most interesting story I've heard from your channel. This man had my attention from start to finish, even with it being one of the longer videos you've done. I hope to see a follow up for him, and hope he's doing well.
@suedenim65902 жыл бұрын
His pupils are tiny he's high and lying, his story is complete and utter bs. They call it "kicking the habit" because your nerves randomly fire and its just not happening. You seriously think you could admit murder in court and they just kick you out the state? Come along now children. Trust me. He's high and he's lying. Addicts are manipulative. He's invented and practiced this story as he says. Pitiful stuff
@D_23872 жыл бұрын
@@suedenim6590 Cool man. Ya gotta love KZbin Phychiatrists
@suedenim65902 жыл бұрын
@@D_2387 friend if you believed that nonsense, you're the one to be pitied. Cheerio👋
@D_23872 жыл бұрын
@@suedenim6590 Never said what he said was factual, just that you went about the matter like a complete ass.
@ey3z4ya2 жыл бұрын
@@suedenim6590 Tell us what the real world is like then
@josephhancook82872 жыл бұрын
Watching him just punk it out and finish the story then admit he feels his withdrawal onset diminished it is about as genuine as it gets. Not many people would have continued, most would have copped then maybe come back. Not to mention Mark was willing to help....this channel never ceases to hit my heart.
@suedenim65902 жыл бұрын
His pupils are tiny he's high and lying, his story is complete and utter bs. They call it "kicking the habit" because your nerves randomly fire and its just not happening. You seriously think you could admit murder in court and they just kick you out the state? Come along now children. Trust me. He's high and he's lying. Addicts are manipulative. He's invented and practiced this story as he says. Pitiful stuff
@mikesantana59872 жыл бұрын
Thank u shyt is a load of bs not gna kill someone n judge gna tell u too just bounce and if someone was dopesick trust me they wouldnt be able to sit so still
@faithhoperecovery Жыл бұрын
I wrote a comment saying how genuine he is and how sad.... I'm a recovering addict, haven't touched dope since 2017, & I didn't even think of what u said. True asf. Ik I couldn't ever sit still, go to work, nothing
@MrJames-tw3so Жыл бұрын
@@suedenim6590 you don't know Gary,Indiana.
@edwardrodriguez9140 Жыл бұрын
@@suedenim6590gay for pay 💰 💯 😅
@kerrybayton83562 жыл бұрын
He seems like a genuine guy, wishing him all that he needs & hoping things work out for him! He deserves so much more than he's getting..
@bizzlesnach3 жыл бұрын
This was hands down your best interview. Wow. What an amazing person, this guy really captures the title of your channel- he really inherited the Kingdom of Suck. What a captivating individual that somehow kept going through life bearing a lot of hidden wisdom.
@TheDiodoros3 жыл бұрын
These fentanyl addict interviews have truly inspired me too quit the shit myself. 24 hours sober... Long journey ahead but that's what life's about! Edit: it's been exactly thirty days and I'm super struggling, can't lie.. Just split with my fiance of over 6 years, wanted to let all of y'all know I appreciate all the comments and reaching out. Y'all the real MVPs, still sober but man am I close to just saying fuck it. 2nd edit: It's been a little over three months now since I decided to start living again, thank you to everyone for the kind words and thank you for the hateful ones too. It's all been an inspiration to keep going. Also want to thank Mark the owner of this channel for these interviews, I hope they help others as much as they have helped me. 3rd Edit. Almost two years sober, anything is possible y'all, just gotta stay consistent. And to those that doubt me 😘 thanks for the motivation. 4th Edit. It's been two years and a couple months. It's definitely been a ride, but I definitely encourage anyone struggling with that lifestyle to make the change no matter how small. Everyone can do it 🤘🏻🤘🏻 5th Edit. I know I updated y'all recently but I got the best news ever this week. I'm going to be a father! It is actually crazy how much my life has turned around in these past 2.5 years. Thank you to every single person who has stuck around for this incredible journey!
@patricklevesque33 жыл бұрын
How u doin
@TheDiodoros3 жыл бұрын
@@patricklevesque3 Trying to take it one day at a time. Came very close to relapsing three days ago but thanks to my fiancé I didn't. Just gotta keep my head high and focus on working and staying clean.
@patricklevesque33 жыл бұрын
@@TheDiodoros I was clean but I had a few slip up's trying to get into detox then rehab
@herosofaddiction62923 жыл бұрын
Hell yeah, stay connected no matter the ups or downs
@herosofaddiction62923 жыл бұрын
@@patricklevesque3 part of the process brother, strength and hope man
@whackijacki72633 жыл бұрын
Biloxi is like Vegas with sweet tea NAILED IT!! Amazing interview! Royal you should write a book 📚
@orhandizdarevic5877 Жыл бұрын
Ive been listening to SWUB for at least 2 months now, and this is by far the best interview ive heard. The way he talks about what really happend in New Orleans. Man, we in California got such watered down news about it. My heart goes to all the people in the south who went thru it. Thank you for your story. And once again thank you SWUB!!!
@elizabethfeliz2213 жыл бұрын
I love how he wanted to finish telling his story instead of going to get high... He's a strong man. I hope he finds his inner soul.
@gwennk49623 жыл бұрын
I thought the same. At his core strong, sensitive and thoughtful.
@khoale47553 ай бұрын
It's payment for his story 😂
@frankie10123 жыл бұрын
Mark has provided a safe space for the broken, lost, and hurting to tell their stories. They can let their guard down for just a bit and find some relief just being heard by someone who cares. 💔❤️🩹
@wesleyAlan91793 жыл бұрын
🎯
@charlottewillis95823 жыл бұрын
Beautiful message, I agree.✌
@BLACKSWAN3693 жыл бұрын
He definitely is a blessing to all
@Fishing-gs9ku3 жыл бұрын
“Safe space” 🤔
@anthonyamare19023 жыл бұрын
@@Fishing-gs9ku is “safe place” less triggering?
@skin_by_scarlette12313 жыл бұрын
I love how he relates things to southern things like "sweet tea". Please bring him back for a part 2, 3, 4, 5,....I'm so interested. Very powerful interview. Some of his words shook my soul.
@Tbaby_3 жыл бұрын
And yet his soul still shines as bright as ever
@Phoenix-tq8lt3 жыл бұрын
The brightest stars burn the fastest
@BelleTolles Жыл бұрын
For him to have survived all he's been through, and still obviously have the heart he does is a testament to his strength. It's sad he hasn't had more chances. I hope he gets one somewhere down the road.
@lindarutledge91043 жыл бұрын
This guy is so sharp, and has so much potential. His stories were all very interesting. Wishing you health and healing
@TheKiddos772 жыл бұрын
This guy is 100% full of fucking shit Lmao.
@suedenim65902 жыл бұрын
"Stories" is right its utter nonsense. His pupils are tiny he's high and lying, his story is complete and utter bs. They call it "kicking the habit" because your nerves randomly fire and its just not happening. You seriously think you could admit murder in court and they just kick you out the state? Come along now children. Trust me. He's high and he's lying. Addicts are manipulative. He's invented and practiced this story as he says. Pitiful stuff
@thargor67502 жыл бұрын
@@suedenim6590 you sure?
@claymack11092 жыл бұрын
@@suedenim6590 yeah youre the expert
@suedenim65902 жыл бұрын
@@claymack1109 I own and run a foodbank non profit friend so, yup
@JustJenRx2 жыл бұрын
I pray he gets help, I pray he gets reunited with kid after getting clean.
@joshualife92372 жыл бұрын
Amen 🙏🙏
@1T0MMY2 жыл бұрын
Same but it’s practically impossibly to quit fent without relapsing which usually means overdosing because of the tolerance drop
@joshhagans63162 жыл бұрын
The way the court systems are and the fact that he has multiple records throughout his life even if he does get clean the courts don’t give a fuck I got a friend who has a long ass record from his teenage years and he’s in his 30s now and still can’t get his kids even though he’s been clean off drugs for seven years holding down a job for five and everything they don’t give a fuck the court systems are all fucked up and it’s sad =(
@ganggang61462 жыл бұрын
I pray he starts telling the truth every once in a while
@silkyjohnson75992 жыл бұрын
@@ganggang6146 who are you to say he was lying? A lot of it seems pretty damn bizarre to lie about
@jwforever74413 жыл бұрын
PLEASE do an update with Royal if possible...no words enough to wish him nothing but the best...biggest hugs from Downunder, from a former addict ...you will get past this 💕
What do you think an update would be. Hes been doing the same thing his whole life. Unfortunately 2nd grade verse same as the 1st but this man knows how to survive. I really do hope he gets clean.
@mishellemartin47152 жыл бұрын
Listening to these stories reminds me to try harder to be in my grandkids life to be present and available for them. I want them to know they are so loved and cherished. They have so much more to navigate through in this life than I did 50 years ago. ❤️
@tylerlienau75483 жыл бұрын
It was so cool how mark was concerned about him being sick and offered to give him money to get his drug. I have even more respect for mark after hearing that.
@marylougeorge98903 жыл бұрын
Yes. 👍❤️
@doll26073 жыл бұрын
Exactly!
@xomelxo14353 жыл бұрын
See, I don’t. I understand why, but not cool that he enables like that. I have to wonder, how many of the people he’s interviewed he’s given money to for them to get well. I love this Chanel, I’m an avid watcher and wholeheartedly love what marks doing here, but I don’t think that’s okay. (I’m sure I’ll get a lot of slack for this comment, but I stand by my opinion :/ )
@doll26073 жыл бұрын
@@xomelxo1435 he isn't enabling. He is paying them for their time. Every humans time is valuable just as every human is valuable. Its not like he pays the same people over and over to do drugs...smh. We would never know anything about these individuals if he didn't do what he is doing.
@hkm_8653 жыл бұрын
@@doll2607 when he says I’ll get you what you need right now at the end he’s implying it’s enabling. But yeah the guy is also getting paid for his time.
@The-real-doc-holiday2 жыл бұрын
I gave 11 years of my life to herion/fentanyl I’m actually over 3 years clean now found the best wife I could have ever been so lucky to have and we both never looked back on that life. We now have two daughters just bought a home and both work hard every day. It just goes to show no matter how bad you are you can pull yourself out!
@justinabajian10872 жыл бұрын
Very proud of you. My ex wife has been a lifelong addict. Most addicts don’t recover but this gives me hope that maybe someday she can be a mom again to our kids.
@mikeunt63332 жыл бұрын
ey Trav...wat did u do inordeer to detox nd stay clean?
@The-real-doc-holiday2 жыл бұрын
Justin the best thing you can do is love from a distance the kids definitely don’t need to see or hear about It I grew up the same way my mom was also a heroin addict we use to do it together and that’s definitely what gave me the mindset that it was okay but it’s definitely not ok. I’d never talk poorly about your kids mom your kids will one day understand why mom couldn’t be around. I hope your guys story turns out as well as mine my mother is going on 5 years clean now. I’ll definitely be praying for you!
@The-real-doc-holiday2 жыл бұрын
@@mikeunt6333 Staying busy and finding something you really enjoy doing helps a lot I know that’s tough at first because of the withdrawals but The quicker you get your mind thinking of other things rather than not being sick or what you gotta do to get high. Surround yourself with really good people and stay in constant touch with them. Always remember an addict alone is in bad company don’t be afraid to ask for help I’d do a medical detox if that’s possible where you live. once you get over those first 3-4 days I promise it gets better
@HannahMattox2 жыл бұрын
@@The-real-doc-holiday totally proud for you, internet stranger ❤️
@Highland_Fields3 жыл бұрын
It’s absolutely amazing Royal you are still sensitive and caring regardless of the horrific life you had. Your tears reflect a strong man inside.
@luther15463 жыл бұрын
This bum is a violent hooligan who assaults and robs people. He's also a complete liar. His story is nonsense.
@lisarodriguez69663 жыл бұрын
@@luther1546really? How do you know that?
@francesalexander25453 жыл бұрын
@@luther1546 the barracuda and Corvette gave this fool away. Lmao 🤣🤣🤣
@ItsFreshItsAnne3 жыл бұрын
@@luther1546 I'd like to know where you got this from?
@mashakooli3 жыл бұрын
@@luther1546 can't trust you or your opinion homie 😉 you comment this on ever video 😂😂
@brittanytoth94202 жыл бұрын
Wow, this has me in tears. You are such a strong man. You have a purpose. Your story is very powerful. I watched this video due to the fact I lost my baby brother to fentanyl recently. Keep your head up.
@rachaeljones47312 жыл бұрын
I really feel for this man. I relate and empathize. This man is the perfect example of how you can be an addict and a criminal but not a bad person. All my love Royal.
@Hateandlotus2 жыл бұрын
This man lived life so hard he makes dark souls look like bloos clues. I actually have chills . God bless him.
@thatgirlcharlee23682 жыл бұрын
My heart goes out to you! You actually have heart unlike some people in these interviews. Fentanyl is a trap I thought I knew addiction then relapsed and got addicted. It’s a miracle I’m alive and clean a year now. It’s possible!
@juancarlos24052 жыл бұрын
@mohammed ilyas Bullshit if you cant be good you FIND A WAY TO BE GOOD
@papawnanasaveslovesnlife95302 жыл бұрын
Congratulations to you, 👏⭐👏... Well done 👀💭💯, You👍 are worth it ✴️💃✴️, Keep up the good work 🤞❣️... Carry on, Carry on n 👀💭 what you have accomplished n wats yet to come⭐🌕⭐ skys the limit 💯❣️... Bunches of ❤️ to you 😘❣️
@ceedubya42642 жыл бұрын
This is wild. I’m from Mississippi, and I looked up some of the names he said and some of the people are friends of friends of mine on Facebook. Wild ass story man. Hope you get everything worked out.
@Conway1848 Жыл бұрын
what are some names
@jaredatkinson6669 Жыл бұрын
he is a liar sorry
@MultiMillionMeows Жыл бұрын
@@jaredatkinson6669 proooof or yooou're the liar
@Krulle373 жыл бұрын
What a crazy life story, and Royal did a very good job telling it.
@dontbelongherefromanother3 жыл бұрын
Compared to his childhood, mine was Disneyland
@xwanyatx3 жыл бұрын
This was heartbreaking. When he spoke about having to leave his son, you could see so much pain. Royal you have a good heart despite everything you've been through and I believe crossing paths with Mark in California will bring good changes to your life. You should start your own KZbin channel! I hope you are re-united with your son and he can have a chance at life too. God bless x
@kcRon3 жыл бұрын
I was addicted to fetty too, I went to the methadone clinic and haven't touched it in almost 3 months! It can be done, keep your head up!
@jojonesjojo89193 жыл бұрын
Good for you brother. Stay strong.
@Smokeyxz2 жыл бұрын
Now on them liquid handcuffs… it’s a journey I’m on subs, keep your head up
@jenniferohhjny9052 жыл бұрын
Them liquid handcuffs
@kellietaylor99132 жыл бұрын
How r u hope well I got two years in may 2022
@andrewaguirre11532 жыл бұрын
Awesome did that same thing over 40 days now off every op
@adoria52 жыл бұрын
Poor guy, he's been through a hell of a lot. Wish him well!!
@EllEss3313 жыл бұрын
Hey Royal! Thanks for sharing your story. I'm just an ole grandmother & wanna-be artist who just wanted to reach through the screen & hug the hell out of you. What you've been through, no human, or even an animal, should ever go through the abuse you've endured. Just that you are still surviving is a testament to your strength, your intelligence, your wit & your heart. Sending you boatloads of Love & Support & Wishing you nothing but the best. I loved hearing about you passing out your art & seeing you give Mark a piece. Keep on making your art. I carry art magnets I've made in my purse & hand them out to everyone. It feels so good to give. Which reminds me. ❣Mark has a GoFundMe❣everyone! Hit the button & give. Doesn't have to be much - every little bit helps!
@madisonmacdonald9892 жыл бұрын
You can tell he’s a great person, hearing his story and trauma was heartbreaking. I really hope to have an update on where he’s at and how he’s doing! My brother is in a similar boat, just like Royal he would do anything for me and he has.. I miss him like crazy and the pain of not being able to help or change anything for people in their situation is heavy. Sending love from Canada ❤️
@JRock5145142 жыл бұрын
@Madelyn It’s True what you’re saying about him. Are u in Vancouver? I’m in Montreal. I’ve been on different opioids over the last 15 years, yesterday it was my 15 year anniversary of my chronic pain nightmare. I’m lucky that I have two young sons otherwise I would’ve checked out of here along time ago. Maybe they’re not so young, 7 and 12. Over the years my body has become dependent physiologically on these medications. I went through detox once, And when 11 months without taking anything, but My pain is so severe, and I just wanted to enjoy my sons birthday party, so I took some of my oxycodone, the pain melted away and that was it, I was screwed. I’m on Suboxone now and it’s working pretty well for my pain, I hate some of the side effects of it, However I’d rather have this side effects than the severity of the pain. At least I get to enjoy my kids, much more so than I did for so many years. I really felt for this guy royale, look like a real good person. I wish the general public understood addiction better than they care to. I’m going to be in Los Angeles with my two boys for most of the summer, It would be really interesting to run into this guy, but I’m not bringing my kids to skid Row, that place is terrifying. I hope that you get your brother back…I can tell you care for him dearly. Good luck!
@persephonel21172 жыл бұрын
I just lost my brother last year to his addiction. Always make sure your brother knows how much you love him. Check on him and tell him as much as you can.
@anthonylewis92562 жыл бұрын
@@JRock514514 ibogaine
@fredbologn23442 жыл бұрын
Great person??? Lmao. I'm sure even he would disagree with you.
@moneyteamdream75812 жыл бұрын
@@anthonylewis9256 have to travel to Mexico to get it or??
@fsu37843 жыл бұрын
I remember when this channel had only a few thousand subs and now over 2 million!!! Definitely deserve it man what you are doing bringing awareness and understanding to these humans is amazing. And needed.
@JoTracy Жыл бұрын
My heart goes out to this man He's a beautiful human and I hope life gets much better for him He deserves a break
@SammysMysASMR3 жыл бұрын
Wow. he’s endured so much pain and suffering yet has so much love and kindness in his heart. An incredibly likable person. Love to you Royal 🙏🏽
@jkalous1003 жыл бұрын
What a sad story. I hope he is able to find stability. He seems like a decent person despite the tragedies that he has suffered.
@froandcara3 жыл бұрын
I know he’s there for money and waiting to get his fix so he doesn’t feel sick but he does seem genuine and a good soul underneath the trauma. I like him. Horrible what he went through as a kid. I wish we could follow their lives after these interviews. ♥️ thank you Mark for bringing awareness and compassion and your beautiful talent
@nicolecox643 жыл бұрын
I like him too!
@blazefairchild4653 жыл бұрын
You can see it’s getting close to a fix towards the end ,he is taking longer to get his thoughts out ,compared than in the beginning of the video when he is straight to the point.
@Kimberly_K_3 жыл бұрын
Agree , He seems genuinely honest 🙏
@peteypizzillo11423 жыл бұрын
Most people would have just walked out of the interview as soon as he offered to get him high
@TrevorCanToo3 жыл бұрын
That’s the most backhanded comment wtf
@IvaK24582 жыл бұрын
wow.. his mom sold him.. this is beyond horrible. He's had such a difficult life :( I hope he finds a happy & clean life!!
@drake00747 ай бұрын
It isn’t real. I know this guy.
@lanceprzybyla76625 ай бұрын
@@drake0074..... really.... explain please....
@suzanneanderson69213 жыл бұрын
Royal, God bless you, darling. I wish for you good things. To be perfectly honest, my biological dad left when I was 3 or 4. I never saw him again. As a 61 year old, I strongly encourage you to accept any help that is offered for your sake and most especially your sons sake. He needs a sober happy daddy who loves him and will protect him. Mark, thanks for your compassion. God bless you as well. Hugs from Nanabear in South Texas.
@theraptorsnest58912 жыл бұрын
This guy could be someone I could go fishing with, or get into trouble with as kids, or just hang out an contemplate life with but sadly our lives took different paths. I hope Royal finds his way.
@kylepeak70332 жыл бұрын
Respectable.
@StuartFuckingLittle2 жыл бұрын
@John Smith Depends if you are bigoted or not. People like to put others into groups, such as 'good' and 'bad', because it makes it easier for them to compartmentalise and understand the world.
@SoniCodaa2 жыл бұрын
@John Smith So much of a dirtbag that you couldn’t help yourself but to take 38 minutes and 19 seconds out of your wonderful life to watch this video and to comment on the height of your pedestal compared to his? Try to be nice to someone today… it would make this world a little better if you did, along with me and everyone else too. Smile more.
@abick87252 жыл бұрын
@John Smith Trauma does terrible things to people, but then I suppose you wouldn’t know that. If only we could all be as wonderful a person as you are John.
@xTayso2 жыл бұрын
@John Smith ur a privileged idiot u might as well not have watches the video he said his own mom shot him up with heroin u prolly couldnt fathom urself being off heroin
@Abel-wb4xk2 жыл бұрын
He is such a powerful storyteller. I have a feeling that his life is about to change. I pray that he gets clean.
@toriscott1881 Жыл бұрын
What an amazing young man! He has a huge heart! His survival always involves others that he cares about! My heart goes out to him and his girlfriend ❤
@tblends3 жыл бұрын
Best video you've done yet. This guy got dealt some seriously bad cards. I really feel for him. Wish him the best.
@finished62672 жыл бұрын
But you know how the repubs say, just pull yourself up by the straps and work hard. Don't forget to tuck in your shirt.
@KarlosXtina3 жыл бұрын
Dang. Imagine knowing that your own mom sold you for drugs. I can’t even imagine. Royal, it’s okay to cry. It’s okay to feel. Never apologize for your feelings or your emotions. Your feelings are valid. I’m sorry to hear about your son. Stay strong man. Sending you nothing but positive vibes and love.
@MisterBrit3 жыл бұрын
My heart feels for this guy. What a life he's had.
@JapaneseBobbyLeeАй бұрын
All of these interviews do such a good job of painting the picture and connecting the dots from childhood to adulthood. A lot of good people fighting their battles. Hoping for the best for everyone.
@user-qh2qe2ft7j3 жыл бұрын
I got 5 minutes in and I’m couldn’t hang. This dude deserves all the love a human can muster
@heatherrussell71903 жыл бұрын
Its hard to form a sentence when you're dopesick. Royal, youve got heart.
@alicerodgers26823 жыл бұрын
Mothers...and fathers, should never treat children the way that Royal was treated. The vast majority of the people interviewed by Mark are intelligent, thoughtful, inherently "good" people that were never given a chance. Generational trauma is real. You're a good person, Royal. Never give up hope. ❤
@HoneySz-q5p4 ай бұрын
The compassion of Mark, concerned about him getting sick is remarkable!!!! Also Royal's story is incredible, hope he's doing well, you can tell how much pain he carries! Bless him
@emmaseguin60513 жыл бұрын
Love this guy, he’s so genuine and honest, what a life he’s had, he should write a book about all his stories!
@LoloO423 жыл бұрын
My 1st thought was that he needs to write a book. He needs to write 4 or 5 books. He's maintained sensitivity. That's amazing.
@archiestewart25202 жыл бұрын
Thank you for giving these people a platform to share their story
@stevelacysgf13112 жыл бұрын
this has to be one of my favorite interviews on this channel. i really hope he is doing well. would love to see an update
@nomorecancelculture5442 жыл бұрын
Love this man, he's more of a man than most can ever wanna be and he still gets up everyday in this hell, I love you brother, I'm right beside you in that fight!!
@erinscharte39493 жыл бұрын
I feel so much for this man, I see and hear this sweetness in him... Thank you for your story.
@Exp.LJ12232 жыл бұрын
Guy has lived the one of the most tragic and crazy dramatic lives I have personally ever heard. Respect to him for surviving his struggle and still being a decent enough guy. I hope he gets to see his son and that he gets clean again and lives a happy life.
@nancyclutteur65172 жыл бұрын
You should be in movies. You remind me of Robert Duvall. Make sure your son can find you when he gets old enough to come lookin. He deserved to know what a unique man you are!
@mikaelkeazirian1222 жыл бұрын
I’m a heroin addict too. Basically no hope left trying to find a way. I’ve been clean before but lost my way. I’m trying to get it right again. This shit brought me to tears. I know the pain. The first 45 seconds I was crying because I KNOW your pain. And I’m so sorry.
@barkingbunny46893 жыл бұрын
He's just 4 years older than my son. Heartbreaking knowing that this young man could be so much more if he could just kick the drugs. Even more heartwrenching that this is the only life he's ever known. No child should have to grow up in these circumstances. The whole system is broken, especially in California.
@gordon31863 жыл бұрын
*Why is the system "especially" broken in California?*
@ayejay40283 жыл бұрын
@@gordon3186 they basically allow people to break the law there, and penalize people for defending themselves
@gordon31863 жыл бұрын
@@ayejay4028 --- *No, they "basically" don't. On what basis have you made that determination, other than just hearsay? California arrests, prosecutes and incarcerates criminals just like every other state does.*
@lloyddobbler18843 жыл бұрын
@@gordon3186 What are you, like, a liar? They prosecute you for shooting someone if they invade your home. They let homeless drug addict criminals live all over the street and public parks. You can shoplift up to $1000 and face no penalty. What exactly is the matter with you anyway?
@gordon31863 жыл бұрын
@@lloyddobbler1884 --- "What are you, like, a liar?" *No Lloyd, just someone who, unlike you, can disagree without being disagreeable.* "They prosecute you for shooting someone if they invade your home." *"Northern California home’s new owner kills intruder - son of the previous owner" ---The Mercury News. "They [homeowners] were not arrested or cited; the investigation is continuing, the sheriff’s office said."* "They let homeless drug addict criminals live all over the street and public parks." *Known criminals are routinely arrested. That drug addicts, "live all over the street and public parks" is a nationwide problem and by no means endemic to California.* "You can shoplift up to $1000 and face no penalty" *"Proposition 47 did not end prosecution of thefts under $950 in California" --- AP NEWS.*
@strawberryhair41643 жыл бұрын
"We will give you what you need right now" respect to you Mark,u understand and is willing to help this man out,some people might take this offensive but they simply just don't know.
@Kylemathews12 жыл бұрын
Yeah Mark has learned to understand now that he has been around enough addicts. He used to not want to support their habit because he felt like he was enabling them. But if you really know, then you know you're not enabling them, but helping them at the time, until later when they are ready to quit and sober up.
@badger2973 жыл бұрын
Pls bring him back! Sometimes I can feel the lies in the stories ppl tell on your channel. This felt genuine. Those tears are genuine. My heart goes out to this guy. Hope he finds his light.
@faithhoperecovery Жыл бұрын
I had a rough up bringing and man, this man has veen thru the ringer... hes so genuine, head up despite his situation; its nice to see such a strong person. So smart, so driven. I hope u c this man, im a recovering addict & WE DO RECOVER
@cafe_y_crema3 жыл бұрын
Literally the most interesting interview to date on this channel.
@avimisra13122 жыл бұрын
I'm mortified and gracious that you share stories such as these. Everyone has a story, and under the right circumstances this man could be seen as incredibly successful under society's standards; he still hasn't lost who he is even after all that trauma. The line "The Japanese suck at making firearms, because the one I had to her forehead misfired 3 times" speaks volumes to this man's story. I hope for the best for him
@elaineandrepont2 жыл бұрын
“Never break ones values” really hit me because when you were sold to the wolves, abandoned, disowned and were broken in your young life values have to be rebuilt from the ground up when you wake up to your reality. Royal has lived a life that is unforgettable. It’s a shame addiction is whole-hearted and a stubborn dependency. We all suffer from addictions and they seem impossible to break because all addictive substances actually intercepts our will-synopsis in our brain and the toxins also deteriorate our grey matter and prefrontal cortex for reasoning as well as tap into our natural resources for a boost of dopamine, etc. as the bodies main purpose is engineered to heal itself. ETA🌹
@kylepressonsk8Ай бұрын
This man’s story is absolutely incredible. I’d pay good money to see this in a movie or a book forsure.
@JoeDeezy3 жыл бұрын
When he was talking about his son and he said “I didn’t do drugs or anything for 3 years, he got me high” that hit me hard
@terluvsdarin3 жыл бұрын
I really appreciate this guy and his honesty. The courage it took for him to tell his story is admirable!! He has a good heart and that doesn’t happen often in addicts. This made me tear up!!!
@ruffrider26263 жыл бұрын
Wild story. Unreal the abuse that parents dole out to kids. Mom forcing him to do those things because she thought it was loving, is to me, unimaginably hard to comprehend.
@dowjones32 жыл бұрын
@Michelle Devine that is actually a very good point I didn't even consider
@jenniferreynolds37894 ай бұрын
This guy really had an impact on me. Once again he was born into addiction and abuse. He's smart, put together and has extraordinary life experiences. Plz keep up with him!!!