Fentanyl Addict interview-Nikko

[@raullaureano1941]

I wish you find what you are looking for. Lost my daughter 10/09/2022 to fentanyl. Listening to you helped me a little to understand. You have the courage to ask for help - my daughter refused it. She was 30. Peace to all 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

[@the13nobody24]

Sorry for your loss im sending hugs your way

[@sokaroka1]

Thanks for sharing mate. I hope you find peace.

[@SammysMysASMR]

So unbelievably sorry 🙏🏽❤️

[@ritasanders7499]

Sorry for your loss, Raul. Prayers that you find peace.

[@johns73]

God bless you...Wish you health and hope you find strength buddy. !

[@drkdrumz]

He doesn’t want his daughters to say “he didn’t love me enough to get clean,” but that’s exactly what they’re going to say. Good luck dude…. You can do it. 👊🏼

[@user-id2nw9pd1d]

It's a hard thing when the physical addiction takes over his heart and his best intentions. 😭

[@iJuanGutierrez]

Facts he can do it mate

[@kat8436]

Exactly. His babies need their “daddy”. I hope you find a way

[@Vineeth..v]

Many stories here have that thread, doing for thier child bc they don't want the kid to end the same like them.

[@SilverDramaQueen1]

I got sober 24 years ago for my 2 and 4 year old daughters. They are elated that I don’t drink and they don’t even know how bad I was…………..

[@williamnepinak5490]

Hey Nikko, I'm 25 too and deal with addictions. Try and go to a group where you can meet others like you trying to be sober, I'm not talking rehab or AA but just a addictions centre, they can help you go into sober living and sober working. It's great to be able to go somewhere safe and you can decompress and bounce ideas off others, have people who really care about you & find insight into why you use. You got this man I believe in you.

[@angelagreen1266]

Yes, Nikko-. look into a place called Green Oak Ranch in Vista. It is in north San Diego county not far from San Marcos or Temecula, and they have an a sober rehab/work program for minimum 9 months… it looked like an excellent program when I was researching it. Best of luck Nikko you can do this. For your girls. ❤❤

[@OwenGilmoreOG]

AA can work if you work it, as well or better than a rehab center. Rehab centers usually feature AA meetings anyway. Maybe NA would be better for an addict since he doesn’t drink alcohol.

[@donnagravely4147]

I second this. Just straight NA etc is good too but I must say making friends there is usually a mistake. Speaking from my own experiences of course.

[@joeferris5086]

When Mark asks "what kind of emotions do you go thru" and he said Stress, man that brought me back. Someone recently told me that being in active addiction is being in a fight or flight state 24/7, and that is 100% true. You never feel relief. You don't feel relief when the drugs are in your palm because you are looking at them and you're thinking "how long is this going to last? I need to make this last me X amount of time, etc", and it will never last you half that amount of time. When I got clean i was so exhausted for the first 6 months. The body needs to get a ton of R&R after living like that for so long. It's a terrible way to live and I wouldn't wish it on anyone. Best of luck to you bro. You can do it. Unfortunately you need to just be completely worn out with it before you can commit to recovering.

[@rae7864]

100% true. I was so terrified at even the thought of getting clean, because I thought I'd forever be wanting, waiting, just in that constant state of fear and hopelessness.. I'm happy to report that is NOT the case..I've been clean for over 6 years now with a beautiful 2 year old baby girl and that stress, is gone

[@estevangriffin4826]

Spot on...

[@noneyabusiness6601]

Some believe all it takes is hitting "rock bottom" but what most don't understand is with drug addicts is when we hit "rock bottom" the drugs help to find a new rock bottom. It's sick and viscous but you really gotta want to change and be better and have that good guy on your shoulder or a support system of some sort to help you see the light. Not everyone has a rock bottom. Not everyone is strong enough to deal with life and tragedy without drugs.

[@user-id2nw9pd1d]

Annnd Fentanyl makes the struggle entirely a different beast

[@Mark-gn5rw]

Rock bottom? Ha I went thru concrete/ steel bottom. 6 years clean now . Have nice day..thnx❤

[@DAVIDTORRESANI]

I've known guys like this my whole 34 yrs. Of life. School,work, round the way. They all are the same kind of men. Full blown junkies knocking young girls up as addicts Using them with what charm they possess. Guy's like this still have an ego or stubbornness That makes it difficult to help them. Well good luck man. Forgot the blame game and Charge the problem. Before your kids are old enough to remember you like this.

[@barrywolf2145]

i feel for the guy's upbringing, but 3 dui's and 7 totaled cars? he should be in jail for 10 years.

[@DAVIDTORRESANI]

I do as well, but Like you said, he should be in jail. Young and white is what's saving him probably from prison. Because he would definitely get the bad end of the prison life. Lol sorry but truth. I keep thinking if he were young,black and unattractive?

[@tsunamisurfer7325]

@@DAVIDTORRESANI bro bringing up race is way old school like ‘98 type shit..

[@DAVIDTORRESANI]

Bro! Lol Still relevant issues. Lol How is existing issues made vintage to your mental? Lol how?

[@justbeachy4968]

@@tsunamisurfer7325 I’m not sure what planet you surf on but I’m glad racial profiling doesn’t exist there. I’ll tell you a little story and you can tell me what you think would’ve happened if the person I’m speaking about was not a preppy white kid. My daughter and her friend were on their way home one night when they saw a young guy laying in the street who looked to be all bloody. They pulled over and realized it was someone they had gone to school with. He was unconscious but they were able to get him into the car. For some reason, she called me to call 911 and they drove him to our house. I ran next-door to get my neighbor who’s a physician and she could not get him to snap out of it, but quickly realized he was very drunk and covered in chocolate syrup, not blood. Rescue units, sheriff’s department showed up and they finally got the kid to mumble he attended USC and gave them his father’s phone number, who came and picked him up. Meanwhile, the sheriffs were kind of laughing that this must be some sort of initiation. I just kept thinking to myself, if this kid was black, there would’ve been no questions asked, no, calling the parents. What do you think?

[@BlisteringBlue42]

I have a terrible habit of comparing myself to others (mainly my former classmates) due to social media. I know people never post about the bad times in their lives and that it isn't reality, but it's hard nonetheless. These videos help me appreciate what I have and to have gratitude for those who love me and are always there for me. I'm so lucky to have an amazing family.

[@user-qb9fn4or1u]

He seems very humble but very sad at the same time...when u go through sh*t you either become more grateful or arrogant...It's your choice...Hope the best for this dude.

[@rootfish2671]

When you're on the bottom of society you have nothing left to lose.

[@ChrisPBacon-wm8dk]

He kills people tho. He sells that shit that kills people’s family members. No sympathy for this guy from me.

[@rootfish2671]

@@ChrisPBacon-wm8dk His GF died right in front of him snd he admits it could have been easily prevented if he had Narcan but he was only thinking about himself.

[@ChrisPBacon-wm8dk]

@@rootfish2671 7:26 - 8:30 He mentions he cuts and sells carfentanyl (100x STRONGER THAN FENTANYL) he also said the girl never did a drug in her life. But lo and behold, she ends up dead. That was somebody’s daughter. Again. No sympathy for this guy. She offered him an apartment and for her dad to pay for everything so he could stop selling drugs. But he said “it’s not that easy” dudeeeeeeeeee. I’m holding back my words right now.

[@rootfish2671]

@@ChrisPBacon-wm8dk yeah he's a complete and utter scumbag spreading this poison to others by selling it. One of his loved ones already died on his watch through his reckless behaviors. His daughter is better off without him in her life until he is completely sober & kicked the habit for good

[@froandcara]

We are rooting for you, Nikko. Don’t sleep on the fact that you are young and can change your mindset. Just vision it and do the steps to get out and find a different purpose and lifestyle. Focus on you. Do the internal work to see what patterns you have that caused this and choose a new pattern. Find the help you need from good people but don’t rely on them. You’re going to have to find work that doesn’t look anything like your lifestyle in the last 10 years. Easier said than done but those of us have done it. So it can be done. Find your strength.

[@milque1854]

this is so backhanded, he obviously saw the patterns and tried his best to fix it, still the system and awful manipulative people kicked him back down. in that situation you would probably starting using again too.

[@abbyl458]

She’s just sharing her advise and trying to be positive for Nikko. You should consider being more positive as well. She’s saying it’s not always the people around you, you have to find purpose within.

[@iansteward4708]

Is t backhanded at all…she’s right.

[@thespiritfont2023]

You’re only 25. You can still fix your life and have everything you desire by 35. You got so much time if u take it!

[@Dpurple28]

He acts like his life is over

[@Boostedboiiz]

I've been exactly in his place at the exact same age, at 25 when you've had 10+ vehicles and wrecked half of themcad you're addicted to the perk 30s aka pressed fentynal pills, it literally takes a grip on your life. You see hoe he is sniffling a whole lot in the video? He's dope sick, that's why he's having a hard time even putting his words together. I can relate whole heartdly. I just got out of rehab exactly 30 days ago today from the blue 30s, I may be sober now with a total of 60 days, but I still constantly think about getting some and getting high. It is mor strong than heroin, they say it's anywhere from 50x to 100x stronger than heroin. It's a terrible drug. I hate it, but at the same time the absolute euphoric rush it gives you, it's so addicting it's ridiculous, imagine taking like 10 hydrocodones at one time but without the Tylenol in it, the Tylenol its mostly the Tylenol is what makes you sick. 💔

[@jen-ms4xo]

@@Boostedboiiz well you left your comment 6 days ago so you now should be going on 67 days clean I hope you stay the course it's not easy but it's worth it I'm glad you got clean don't ever go back down that ugly road again there's so much life to live without drugs fucking off your life

[@ans_939]

I was diagnosed w/ generalized anxiety disorder and panic disorder at 19, Started using xanax and got completely out of control. It didn't even have a calming effect after a while, I took it to be "well" and "normal." Weaning off the addiction took months and was excruciatingly uncomfortable, but totally worth it. Learning meditation to calm down and therapy is totally worth it. Good luck Nikko ❤❤❤

[@napa2981]

Too much self pity. There’s no hope for him until he sees himself as 100 percent responsible for his circumstances. A series of poor choices. Made by him. I wish him some sense. I wish him well after that.

[@amberk4978]

His responses to his circumstances where within his control. His circumstances may not have been.

[@maq3009]

It's true, but I bet if it was a woman, you would all pity her.

[@MrBudgiejoe]

You hit the nail on the head. I have watched loads of Soft White Underbelly videos but this is one guy that I just can't take to and find hard to pity. He is completely wrapped up in himself. I think if he forgot about number 1 for a change and concentrated ONLY on helping others, he would come out of this just fine. The alternative is self-destruction. Furthermore, if he doesn't get his shit together in the next few years it might be best to stay out of his kids' lives, for their sakes. Otherwise, I could see him leeching off them when they get their first job's pay. I hope he reads this, although I somehow doubt it. ☹

[@maddyfox8545]

Totally.

[@secondary955]

He has been using since 15. He has the emotional maturity of the same age. He hasn't grown and he is only 25. Have some empathy or did you not hear him say his own mother told him it was perfectly fine to sell drugs in her home when she is a medical doctor. I wonder what addiction you have you can't stop? Food, attention, drama, sex, alcohol, pills, street drugs, gambling, or whatever you use excessively to cope with your emotions. The majority of people can't take responsibility or stop overeating food yet you think it is so easy for him to stop taking one of the most addictive street drugs. That is not self pity you heard it is the brain under the weight of toxic substances. Why do you think alcoholics get clean and then get overweight or obese? It's cross addiction. They just find another way to cope.

[@Krstinedprtz]

Nikko, I wish the best for you. I think that you are skimming over your own responsibility in the various scenarios you discussed. It will be difficult to get clean if you believe that others are always responsible for your pain without taking some accountability. Move close to one of your siblings, your mom or your kids, get a job to keep you preoccupied and eventually things will improve, but ito will take time

[@shannonhuddleston1851]

I'm 54 and starting over, all my family is deceased except for my son and he has a hella gambling habit, he can't pay his own bills, OMG I could go on son..... please get yourself together, you are worth it!!

[@leneo1731]

You should be so proud! That takes some serious courage. Most people in their 40s and up don't change. They believe what's left is so short that it ain't worth it. That's just such as sad way of thinking. It's never to late and even if it's just to get two years of a new beginning it's worth it. I'm sorry that yiu have no one exept from your son who's struggling big time. I hope you can find som good friend through some groups or something because we all need friends. I wish you all the best. Lots of love.

[@jen-ms4xo]

@@leneo1731 love your comment you're right having a new beginning at any age is what matters

[@jennymowery79]

It's rare to hear anyone say this is their worst time of their lives I can understand it's hard when you are totally alone

[@christinahite74]

Loneliness can destroy lives

[@rootfish2671]

I hear it all the time

[@SevenHunnid]

I do food reviews while I’m high on my KZbin channel

[@rootfish2671]

@@SevenHunnid High on Fentanyl?

[@BGeezy4sheezy]

It’s hard for non-addicts to understand the hell of addiction. It’s possible to hate doing something and keep doing it over and over. It’s literal hell

[@gabrialjackson5878]

I really hope this is a turning point for Nikko. He deserves it

[@AnthonySal]

This guy needed a glass of water in the worst way this entire interview.

[@fransantiago2152]

I have been watching these videos for awhile, and they never fail to move me. I have been around for 60 years and i can't be so cold as to dismiss people who are down and out. I hope this young man gets the help he so needs...Nikko...please know that you are a special soul...God bless you and wish you the very best. Your daughters need you!

[@isthisit93092]

Sending good energy to this man. I hope he becomes the person he knows he could and wants to be.

[@ryanmalone2681]

When Mark asks “what’s your biggest regret”, I’m always amazed that nobody answers “don’t f*ck with drugs”. Seems like the obvious answer.

[@meghantomurgatroyd7634]

Some of them say that. Not enough though

[@NASkeywest]

I’ll tell you what. I had been on hard opiates for over 10 years. Been through withdrawals fully 8 times at least. The last time was coming off fentanyl. I’ll tell you, it was the most intense and bizarre Withdrawals I’ve ever had. The thing I kept thinking was, “damn this stuff isn’t a drug, it’s a weapon.” An it is. Chemical warfare and mass destruction on our streets and neighborhoods and the Government does nothing about it.

[@nhlibra]

They could stop their purported "War on Drugs" in no time flat if they wanted to.

[@colleenprinz3129]

100% agree. I heard the fentanyl goes from China directly to the cartels! Then bc of our completely open border, straight to our youth!!

[@meghantomurgatroyd7634]

Couldn’t agree more. And it’s working pretty damn well

[@mongogojjo5944]

Revenge for the opium wars. But yeah fentanyl is a nasty opioid, I've always thought of it as "the crack of opioids". So glad I kicked heroin and got out of the game before this fent BS started taking over everything, now I'm working on getting off suboxone and stopping my heavy drinking.

[@nhlibra]

@@mongogojjo5944 Wishing you the very best of luck with your goal of sobriety. Your body will thank you for better health decisions. 💜

[@SM-kk4rx]

Kinda wish his parents and siblings could be interviewed I’m sure their accounts are more factual

[@Bonkedz]

I’m his step brother. I’d like for you to know he’s being unfactual

[@CherrrrBear]

Please get help, please!!! I’ve been in recovery for years now. I promise you can do this.

[@nicolacorcoran8318]

I’m moved by his honesty, self awareness and so hope he can find the strength to be able to change his life and feel some happiness.

[@rshelton119]

It’s not too late for this guy!! 25, you can still pull yourself out of this chaos!

[@waltzforvenus_9164]

I feel for this guy. Seems like he’s genuinely trying . Sadly sometimes even when you have good intentions you get thrown the worst curve balls . I hope everything works out for him.

[@aquavita1]

One thing that is rarely talked about is how American media constantly glamorizes dangerous and unhealthy behaviours. This can be very harmful for people who didn't get proper parenting. I have been watching this channel for a while and people often say that they used to find things that led them to the streets cool.

[@UnlimitedCurrencyFitness]

Shoutout To You Nikko For Continuing To Push Forward!

[@alangarcia1577]

Bro.... This is Alan From Highschool and Middle school... If you ever need anything hmu. I'm still in Temecula. I never knew this side of your life bro. I struggled with addiction too and still do.. but all we can do is take it one day at a time. Hmu bro. Hope you can get yourself where we all know you can be in life 💯🙌

[@stacycrombie]

Hey, Alan... Do you have an update on Nikko?

[@icecreamcheesesticks]

Wait did he just say his mom is a doctor and doesn’t mind him doing and selling drugs from his house? Tells you a lot about the logic of doctors in this country

[@user-mq6dy2ee5f]

Nikko- it's never too late to try again to turn your life around. You can get off drugs, you just have to keep trying. I am sorry your family didn't set some decent boundaries with you regarding drug use and drug abuse when you were growing up. I am so so sorry you lost your girlfriend to drugs and had to witness that. That is so traumatic.I hope you can get clean and surround yourself with a new group of friends and support network that do other things besides drugs. Just try to remember why other people in your life set boundaries with you though, and might not want to help. it's hard to want to trust people who are living in the life of active addition. It's going to be hard to work through, but maybe someday you can connect with your family again. I hope you can.

[@steveb7429]

Hey bud you’re only 25. You’re at the beginning of your life’s journey. When I was 25 - which literally a lifetime ago- I felt that so much of life was over. But trust me: your life is just beginning. Make the right choices and you will see that I am right

[@guillermomontoyo]

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[@cjwilson3759]

Such sad storie, I am truly blessed to be where I am after my recovery blues were the worst thing I’ve ever met. And I wish all dealers were forced with harsh repercussions

[@Rogu666.]

Most dealers are just users tryna support their own expensive blue habit it’s depressing trap/cycle

[@Dpurple28]

Same they should be charged with murder

[@laurah6057]

You can do this Nikko. Don’t give up on yourself. You are worthy of a happy life.

[@laurabrychta5105]

My sister is an addict, and I’m hardened to the stories. Addicts are the best liars and manipulators. Honestly, I have a hard time sympathizing.

[@Dpurple28]

You should try to help your sister before she dies than you will really be regretful

[@emmad9344]

I know exactly what you're talking about. People don't understand unless they have also lived for years with an addict and bent over backwards to help them and had God knows how many promises broken. And im sure you have also gone out of your way to help your sister. It NEVER works unless they decide that's what they want.

[@Dpurple28]

@@emmad9344 I know from experience lost both my parents who had addiction issues and I feel like I didn't try hard enough. One day they might accept the help. My mother passed away from hiv and I was only a kid than and her loss never gets any easier.

[@jen-ms4xo]

@@Dpurple28 I'm sorry about your Mom I bet she'd be proud of you've become today

[@peacelily64]

I tried helping nephew with alcohol for 8 years he has quit only because of courts making him blow everyday for a year .. I did the tough love I got tired of the drama and bad vibes that came with him in my life

[@haileyquick9854]

“Trying to find myself in other people” - Wow. Deep

[@CannabisEct]

Baby boy I can literally tell how wise and knowledgeable you are. You are young this was a blessing and it’s happening for a reason. God has plans for you but only if u want them. if you are only 25 you are in ur prime time to get right 🖤🖤💯🤟🏾 goodluck I believe in you. I know exactly what you mean speaking on anxiety and feeling like ur chest gone explode no lie that’s why I hit the blunt shi really helps me. I know alot of ppl who do hard core drugs but can’t smoke weed cuz they say it makes them paranoid

[@CityofAtlanta7]

That story about the girl sounds sketch to me. He said the girl didn’t use drugs, then said she smoked blues a bit, told her don’t touch the fet, but left it out..if he was cutting fet w/Carfet, he was willingly killing people, so he deserves what karma he’s getting imo. Another white boy, trying to live a life like he’s from the hood, by choice not by default. Like he said. Full scholarship, got clean & blew it. Typical person who has it all, throws it away, trying to be something he’s not. Sad.

[@nhlibra]

Rough post (not to me however). Sadly, I think you are very accurate. I have heard more than one interviewee say...I told them not to touch it", yet they left it out in view. Hide that shyte if you are protecting the other person. Sounded sketchy to me too. Slept off Xanax for TWO days?

[@CityofAtlanta7]

@@nhlibra Probably the story he told police so he wouldn’t get in any trouble, or for his conscience sake. The xan story, well it’s believable..happened to me once. I took two and a perc 10 one night (straight from medicine bottle) both substances. I was at my buddies, I had no tolerance to the alprozam. Buddy never woke me up. In his den, dark as night, no noise, yeah I woke up 2 days later. My girl cussed me out, didn’t believe me at first. Never took xans again.

[@NinjaNick636]

Why do you gotta say “Another white boy trying to live a life he’s not from”? You act like white people can’t have struggles, only black folks can right? Gtfo with that bull shit.. White people can live in a “low income neighborhoods” and deal With the same fucking struggles a black person does. I’m sure you seen the White Boy Rick movie. I guess he wasn’t about that life either

[@CityofAtlanta7]

@@NinjaNick636 well Nick, he clearly said he grew up good & even had a paid education, yet he chose to be in the streets by choice. Of course, all walks of life are also fortunate, also choose to piss it away, in this case he just happened to be whyte* maybe you misunderstood me.

[@dustinlong1435]

Parents truly matter to a child. Unfortunately, his failed him.

[@nhlibra]

We only hear one side of the story...

[@Bonkedz]

@@nhlibrathanks for saying that, they did not fail him his story is very twisted

[@SammysMysASMR]

He alone is not responsible for someone choosing to reach for something he warned them about. She was doing drugs as stated. While blame is being placed blame this country and it’s citizens for its involvement in the drug trade and for people dropping like flies. Blood all over our hands. Right wrong or indifferent he’s human. He’s alone he’s crying for help it is what it is. Without hope and love he is doomed. Be love because the alternative serves no one well.

[@ZeroPhilosopher]

responsibility in this country is at an all time low. people have become so susceptible to poor choices. ground up

[@craigslist6988]

@@ZeroPhilosopher it's the disease of individualism taken to the exteme by a generation of spoiled brats who mistook luck as their own individual ability. A great economy and the fruit of extreme sacrifices by previous generations created a paradise of opportunity, which that generation mistook to be the standard lot in life. Given everything except proper parenting and appreciation for how lucky they were, they not only squandered the wealth in less than one lifetime, they turn around and blame their kids for the consequences. And in one final childish tantrum, they've thrashed around tearing apart and selling off the system that made it all possible, clawing greedily at every dollar they can hoard as they sink into the grave. It's disgustingly disgraceful to watch how their generation goes to the grave. And every generation since that has echoes of their narcissistic spoiled behavior. Inherited wealth, corrupted systems both government and corporate, and poor parenting. F_ck. Boomers. Hopefully when the already rotting skeletons let go of power in government we might have a chance. People can return to a balance of individual and societal responsibility. Maybe. Or maybe the momentum carries and this all keeps happening until it's all gone..

[@hardcase10]

Rooting for you man, lived a lot of lives at just 25

[@mechanicaldudeag]

Someone should explain to him that he has 1k dollars in his pocket, and no physical disabilities ect. Walk out that door and take the 1st legit job you can get. Be reliable and little by little things will improve. Many fathers out here today bust their ass all day every day at a shit job to provide for their children and never see 1k dollars after bills are paid. Taxpayers have put 60k into rehab for you already. You made and continue to make bad choices bro and it's no one's fault but yours. Man up kid, fight the hard fight to change your environment and stay off drugs. It's the most difficult thing ever, but it's the ONLY way. Your kids need you and I wish you luck.

[@hugekokroa6h426]

Are you autistic or just fucking stupid. They just spent 20 minutes talking about how he’s waiting to get accepted into free housing. You don’t just get up and “get a job” as a homeless person

[@mechanicaldudeag]

@@hugekokroa6h426 "Waiting" you said it yourself moron. How's that working out for him? He's gonna get housing....then what? What if that falls through. Let me clue your dumb ass in on something. NOTHING changes and never will until YOU dig deep and find the will to make the hard choices to change your situation. Give him everything, but you cannot give him the will to fight for sobriety. 1k dollars gets you a hotel room,food and clean clothes for work until you get your first paycheck. Keep coddling and making excuses and see how that turns out. Next time try and make an intelligent reply dummy

[@hugekokroa6h426]

@@mechanicaldudeag k you’re clearly autistic as you don’t understand the fact YOU CANT GET A JOB AS A HOMELESS PERSON. Tf do you want him to do rn💀💀 so autistic you gotta edit every single comment you post LMFAO

[@hugekokroa6h426]

@@mechanicaldudeag dude really wrote a whole paragraph 🤣🤣🤣😭

[@hugekokroa6h426]

@@mechanicaldudeag retard thinks you can get a job without an address 💀💀💀

[@Toddtoddy78]

It’s pathetic to me that rehab would ever cost 30k per month. What a sickening racket. And they’re largely ineffective. My observation is that those who get sober do so for two reasons- fear or disgust.

[@helenaneumann1872]

If you look at other chronic diseases of civilization, then the expensive medicines and aids usually do not lead to healing, but rather, if it is not too late, to an understanding of the illness and a change in lifestyle. The drug addicts stand out so negatively because they "no longer function". We need new strategies for dealing with lifestyle/civilization diseases of civilization .

[@rezzin7620]

This individuals self pity is palatable..unfortunately until they begin to take responsibility and surrender their isn't any hope for them..good luck!-)

[@Jon_8]

This interview will be a life changing experience for this brother. The world is your’s bro, grab it!

[@Dpurple28]

How are any of these interviews life changing they get thrown 10 dollars to tell their story and that's it

[@jen-ms4xo]

@@Dpurple28 how do you know they get thrown $10 to tell their story 🤔 I'm pretty sure they get way more.than that

[@AshleyExtremeCouponer]

Toxic relationships are not OK when you are trying to get yourself better

[@vonderloo3184]

Every comment is meant to say, "Go to a fkg rehab."

[@daltonschannel8405]

This dude still has time to change life around and be very successful. He's very intelligent and speaks great so if he WANTS TO and reaches for help, his life could be awesome but if I were him, I would not waste any time. GOOD LUCK!!

[@samhatch1657]

How are people on Skid Row looking way better than those on 3rd Ave in Seattle?

[@nhlibra]

I could be wrong, but something tells me at Nikko's young & impressionable age, he listened to a lot of rap music and watched shows like MTV Cribs. Im saying this because of things he mentioned in this interview and knowing how our subconscious mind works when we expose ourselves over and over to repetitive content. Couple that with a mother that wasn't watching closely (according to Nikko), a mother like me who demanded that that music get turned OFF in the house. When my son started listening to that music genre, I took the time to listen to a few songs, then looked up the lyrics. It was a "Hellllllll-to-the No" moment for me. I sat him down for a serious conversation about my opinions regarding those lyrics plus the videos. I was a pretty flexible mother that gave my son a lot of freedoms, but he knew what he was dealing with when I drew the line. "Garbage In/Garbage Out" Nikko, if you are reading these posts... Find the time (? clear-minded hour or 2), a quiet location (? library) and sit your butt down and write each of your daughters a letter expressing your thoughts and how you are struggling to find your way back to normalcy. You will have to seek a safe place/person to hold onto them for you, to give them those when they are older and able to comprehend. This can be done whether you are still with us or not...and I hope you are.

[@diannewhite573]

Love your comment. I was exactly the same with my son. Listened to certain lyrics to music he started to get in to-encouraging drug use/depravity etc. He also started to hang around with a few kids who (although I accepted them. & allowed in the home), were a rather worrying bunch,, so, sat my son down & we talked. Like you, I was a reasonable mum & I loved (love) my son so much & guided him & guarded him with my life. He’s now 32, married, with my gorgeous 6 year old granddaughter, has a good career & he’s happy, balanced & wise. Becoming a parent, when I still young myself, wasn’t something I planned, but the love I felt, was so strong, I did everything in my power to be the best parent I knew how, it was hard, very hard, but it paid off. These kids, well, my heart hurts for them…

[@syrupinjection]

coming from an addict - I’m now 22 and I grew up in europe (!) - the influence american “trap” culture and the music that comes with it had a huge impact on me. I always was the type of person that was attracted to drugs but listening to songs that kept repeating how great lean and percocet were, I just had to try it. Here I am now - 22 and addicted to oxys - and I wish I never would’ve been so easily impressable at my young age. man. no one to blame though other than myself

[@jen-ms4xo]

@@syrupinjection you're still young you can turn your life around get into treatment and help yourself live a better life it's not to late you don't got nothing to lose and everything to gain at this point pal I'm praying 🙏 for you

[@moka7242]

This “Designer Drug” culture is so sickening. And when you look at these rappers that talk about drugs, they seem so lifeless and depressed. It’s so unfortunate

[@sylviasanpedro8013]

I'm so sorry for all you went thu, you are so humble. You can get though this. One step at a time. You seem like a great dad, wish you the best. Wish I could give you a hug.

[@joeythegypsy]

Death is easy. Life is hard. Best of luck brother. I know how it is i was addicted to heroin and homeless. The longer you stay off the shit the easier it gets. I wouldn't do dope if someone paid me to nowadays. I know where it leads. Leads exactly where i don't want to be.

[@Dpurple28]

How did you get clean?

[@kennalindsay8198]

So sad he needs hug and some guidance and help I wish nothing but the best for this young man

[@kakarikidiet5586]

The good news is that you have time to change compared to most out there. The bad news is that you don’t have the mental discipline to fix yourself. Warm wishes and money won’t help this young man make less excuses. Go out there and make a decision to go clean and have no fear. Conquer your fears and weaknesses

[@kurtbaldwin6984]

I know one thing, that daddy tatoo is incredible

[@judysteadman799]

All the breaks, all the help and now this. You were so blessed with that Rehab. And Back down the filthy Rabbit hole😢

[@leneo1731]

I feel bad for him if he thinks he's going to get housing within 30 days. If it was that easy, why are almost all the people Mark interview homeless? Some of them have waited for years, if I've got it right. Some of the people interviewed have been homeless for 30 years. It's insane.

[@latoyiajackson4458]

My ex son n law got housing within 30 days when he went to Cali. It’s programs for people out there, a lot of people don’t want the help because they are addicted to the streets.

[@kylawatts5368]

Pardon my ignorance but I am confused and looking to learn… I’m always confused when I see “fentanyl addicts.” We’re being taught that it’s the deadliest drug we’ve encountered, with it being easily snuck into other substances and disguised, and being easy to produce, so how does one become addicted without immediate death? Is it due to frequency of opiate usage? Like if they used other substances prior to switching to fentanyl? Didn’t watch the video yet to hear his story yet but it’s a general question. Thank you!

[@rong461]

Always wondered this myself

[@Dpurple28]

They are already on an opiate so they have a tolerance already

[@MomsRoots]

People don’t start off doing so much it will kill them. Most start off smoking a little which leads to doing more and more. Tolerance is built and a lot then turn To using a needle. It’s a slow build up. Besides all of that, they never know what they are getting and how potent it is. They might do an amount one day and be fine and the next day do the same amount but it’s stronger than the last dose.

[@kirstinleal794]

Nikko, At 25 you still have a chance. People are flawed and everyone has their own struggles. Your identity can not be found in others. There is one who loves you unconditionally. His name is Jesus. If you seek him with all your heart you will find him.He came to help the sick. He loved on the people cast out by society. He walked the dark hills. Please find a Christian church in the area that has a recovery program and has a heart for people struggling with addiction and life in general. Also, love and accept yourself. Care about yourself enough to really try. Accept that you have made mistakes in your past. But they don’t define you. Stop the guilt and shame cycle! Don’t give up! I am praying for you and for your salvation and freedom from the evil of drug addiction!

[@juliekailihiwa8150]

Nikko, MSU is an awesome wholesome college and campus, and Springfield is great place to raise a family. I see why it appealed to you. You haven't missed your opportunity. There are resources in Missouri to help you detox, get clean and ultimately surround yourself with a nurturing kinder community. I see you totally thriving in SW Missouri and living a happy sober life. You need to break free of your past, and move forward. Springfield is a very nice place to live, where you will likely find the kind of life and support you've been searching for. It's a very faith based Evangelical Midwestern type of place. Country farm folk too. Suboxone treatment is available all over the country now, and it works well for Fentanyl /opioid abuse. With medical supervision and intervention, you could be tapered off Fentanyl to Suboxone to avoid withdrawals. Nikko help is available and you don't need your family to access Suboxone to move forward and upward. It's your decision my friend.

[@carolynngibson]

It’s never too late my friend those regrets could turn into dreams

[@Dieppaloveplants]

I hope you find the help that u need i was a addict and been clean for 1 yr and not going back there lots of help outhere hun you are a young smart guy do it sober feel amazing wish u the best get sober plzzz

[@nhlibra]

He had an AWESOME grant to attend a $30K/month (x2 months) rehab. What kind of help are you referencing that would be better than that?

[@CannabisEct]

You already said her name already and u said she didn’t do drugs yet you said she do 30’s and blues. And idk how ppl do fent cuz o.3 of it can kill u cold

[@out_to_sea]

The benzos cause major damage. You think you're alllll good - but you are not all good...

[@kennelson3848]

Only way out is in - stay real - it is inside - love yourself.

[@Paula-zo5cg]

So true. Thanks.

[@Nick19328]

Man I’m getting tired of the fentanyl interviews it’s too depressing man I feel terrible for those who are stuck in that hell hole

[@lindabonkoski2673]

You are doing great work mark thank you. Letting these people know it's not all fun and games.

[@jeremyfriedrichs4656]

Absolutely heartbreaking Hopefully he gets on his feet soon... Any updates on him?

[@vickiladu6755]

I was wondering how he’s doing now too!

[@heycafferky8272]

Nikko, hang in there. You are young and can turn this around. Your little girls are enough to give you something to care about; to help you continue to push forward and get some help. Family is a hard nut to crack; but, family comes in all forms. There are good people out there, people who would envelope you in. You’re a smart guy with the world in front of you. Start out small, remember life hands us all set backs and is unpredictable. Get some help, you owe it to yourself. We’re rooting for you and hope to see a good update!

[@adriensmamabear]

Do you ever come to the Bay Area? (To do interviews etc)

[@tatijanvier8092]

This man can do it he really needs to get therapy and away from the bs. You can do this.

[@elizabetht1323]

I can see and hear your hurt, it's not just about getting clean but working on your emotional needs too. I hope you can try again. Please do not wait to try again you can do it.

[@LOZUPONEJ]

His mother wasn’t a medical doctor. I call bs haha. Hope he turns his life around

[@Bonkedz]

I’m his stepbrother, she is a medical doctor.

[@adriensmamabear]

HEY MARK... I was just wondering if you knew about the UK based channel that is EXACTLY like yours.... He asks allll the same questions, same background, same set up, it's crazy,! It's called The Taboo Room.... just curious :)

[@carloscastanyeda]

Jesse pinkman without Mr white.

[@JavierID]

How exactly is the hand he’s been dealt “shitty”?

[@ChrisP3000x]

Time stamp of "daddy" tattoo explanation?

[@jeep19]

IMHO, his problem seems to be addiction, females, and birth control 🛂🎛️

[@brittanyaston8523]

I am from Temecula and this has happened to sooooooooooooo many kids I grew up with

[@nhlibra]

I did quite a bit of research on Temecula. That city intrigues me. I used to live in San Diego. My x-husband and I used to take weekend drives all over but we never landed there, our mistake! Im looking at retirement soon, my son is in San Diego. I might do the snowbird thing, half here and half out there. That's why I was researching Temecula.

[@nadinekorner-schiavo5126]

@@nhlibra & that is relevant why?????

[@Karen-tt9ot]

Lord forgive me if I'm wrong and I'm trying not to be judgmental but the last couple interviews I've seen of these younger people this one and the lady that was talking about suicide on June 1st ,they have a lot of victim mentality going on and in this young man's case he doesn't choose to see that addiction is the number one problem and it's trickled down to everyone of his other problems .just imy opinion still I hope for him and I pray for him and I wish him the best

[@stavrobalot2792]

hopefully you woould find right direction becuase you look like a very smart guy,educated, blessed you 🙏

[@jasons187]

Dude lived in a nice city. Been there for 10 years

[@myeyeswentdeaf6213]

Good Morning!👋🐼from 6:05 Brooklyn NY 🇺🇸 to whatever time of day it is wherever in the world 🌎🌍 YOU 🫵 are, my SWU fam.

[@Gram72534]

4:12 am in the mile high city, have a great day my friend...

[@wesleyAlan9179]

Eyes Went Deaf, my brother 🤟 Hope you have a great day! 💜🙌

[@wesleyAlan9179]

@@Gram72534 Good morning, brother Gram#7! Wishing you an amazing day!💜🙌

[@007janerussell]

3:15 AM on Vancouver Island

[@angelamarymahoney]

Hi! 👋 9:19pm in stormy Sydney ✨️

[@michellebouchard4427]

Nikko your only 25yrs old you can still get your master's degree your young don't give up you have a long life ahead of you. Out God in your life and pray . I'll pray for a better life for you drug free🙏✝️

[@Calverts399]

Some of this young man's issues are very immature. Relationships end all the time. Nothing new. Quit feeling sorry for yourself and get your life together for your girls. They never leave till they grow up.

[@dominikz.1376]

The reason people do fentanyl is because it’s fun

[@Day-ZDuke]

Hate seeing the excuses and deluded understanding of their situation He sits here saying he never had any help in life, his mother won’t come save him....I wonder why that is? He has probably lied to her and done bullshit that eventually she had to give up on him

[@cdwag23]

Got a girl pregnant in Havasu after dating for 2 weeks? Yikes 😬

[@rainrabbit9209]

Nikko is also the name of a beautiful blue hydrangea. Compassion

[@shannonhuddleston1851]

Addiction doesn't discriminate son, you have plenty of time

[@jewelsofalady]

I think he’s a bit naive about being able to get housing in 30 days from what I’ve learned watching SWU But…

[@dianabritoart]

Nikko we see you. Please find help and may God bless you with the right people and love.

[@daveansell6212]

What's the common denominator?

[@stacycrombie]

Is there an update on this kid?

[@alexkaa]

I'm often wondering watching these interviews, that, if things weren't already bad enough altogether, the large majotity of these people also seem to hesitate little to plant children in these shattered worlds - in the majority quite surely the next generation of humans with that bad starting parameters that the likelihood of them struggling and suffering is very high. Of course you often don't plan for that, and of course the heavy drug use doesn't increase the probability for responsible safer sex, but I can't help to feel sorry for this innocent, vulnerable next generation to be set into these rotten grounds of foster homes, molestation and poverty... 🙁

[@orlandorivera69]

"I took a couple Xanax" and she was dead. And early in the interview what did he say about Xanax. Enough said

[@lisareichow7667]

Shows how it could be any kid from any background

[@alisha.IMbalanced11]

You have to stop waiting for someone to save you. - to magically make it better. If your not clean you will never get that straight life your looking for. That requires owning your shit taking responsibility of your actions and doing something for yourself for you and no one else! Take care of you first and start your focus there. Little changes makes the big differences. Start with NOW … start changing your ways and start choosing to do better. ..then focus on tomorrow then focus on the next day and then the next - little by little piece by piece. Do not focus on what anyone else and what they thing get shit straight for you and everything else will fall into place but until you get you right nothing will ever be solid for you.. You got it- get your power back. Choose to get clean...

[@madmanpaul8823]

Gotta keep pushing..Get help and get clean step 1 you deserve it for yourself and nobody else happiness and peace is waiting for you grab it and hold on to it..