FENTANYL KILLS: Ryan and Matt Williams' Story - episode 126

[@Whitewolf19846]

Over 3 years clean and sober after a 10+year addiction struggle with oxy, percs, heroin and fentanyl...I was one of the lucky ones

[@antonellasampogna6753]

@@Whitewolf19846 you should be extremely proud of yourself. I have friends that were not so lucky.. keep it up!! God bless.

[@nancyx6390]

I'm so happy for you ❤

[@denisedwyer4929]

God bless and keep you, Mark. ❤

[@elizabethbrown4972]

Yes with God all things are possible❤

[@mariestreeting4213]

❤️🙏

[@lucyhanna5172]

At one stage this lady had two drug addicted sons, a husband who had suffered several strokes and keeping down a job. The burdens she had to bear were so heavy. After all her suffering she is helping others by telling her story.

[@jamiewilson2550]

My mom was also super naive about drugs. I quietly became a hard-core alcohol at 19, tried to take my life several times bcus I felt so depressed and trapped in addiction. I was genetically predisposed from my father's side. My father had died from opiate addiction when I was 6 years old. Im 35 and 3 years sober 💗 I did the inner work, I've made it through, and I will never drink again.

[@ConstanceMccoy]

@@jamiewilson2550 Congratulations 🎊 👏

[@patriciaque197]

Well done! Kudos for "breaking the cycle"😊👍🏆🙏🕊🙏

[@tracygregory9116]

Stay strong ❤

[@denisespencer6550]

Well done

[@lizardwhispererfivehead3552]

Thank you Jesus ❤❤❤❤🫶🏻❤️‍🔥🙌🏻

[@marytague6268]

My daughter committed suicide several years ago & I found her hanging in her closet! Impossible to get over it! You can only go through it.😔

[@kathykay6602]

My heart goes out to you. RIP daughter and peace to you too.

[@MZTHICK76]

So sorry for your loss 😢

[@christiangirlforhumanity3853]

I am so sorry for your loss.🤍🙏

[@jessnails845]

I'm so sorry that you found your daughter that way. 💔

[@tinalib913]

I'm so very sorry for your loss.

[@CM-wf2uo]

“I couldn’t save mine, but hopefully I can save yours”. Those words she ended on, really choked me up. Thank you for sharing your story.

[@sonquatsch8585]

i felt it too.

[@EmRozey123]

The end destroyed me 😭😭

[@ellemmenn2930]

That hit me like a baseball bat

[@Catmom-gl5nt]

I feel more sorry than words can say for this woman, but…. I still don’t think she has accepted that there was so much more wrong with her sons than drug use alone. It doesn’t sound as of the deep seated issues causing the substance abuse were ever addressed. Requiring alcohol to face middle school is not normal. The fact that she couldn’t tell her son was perpetually drunk is also concerning. As a teenager, I experienced sudden, inexplicable extreme abdominal pains. After months of tests, doctors had no idea what the problem was. One of the doctors spoke to my mother privately and asked if I could be experimenting with drugs. My mother laughed because she knew me inside and out and knew that wasn’t the problem. We later figured out that I had probably been experiencing abdominal migraines, as I have had croton the age of 10. My cousin’s son was diagnosed with abdominal migraines and we put the pieces together. My point though, is my parents not only knew my brother and me, but our friends as well. If I was coming home black out drunk, no one would have been ok with that. They would have been incredibly concerned the first time and would have fought to make sure we never needed to numb ourselves that way again. My heart breaks for this woman and I think she experienced a perfect storm of genetic predisposition mixed with at times, willful denial.

[@helenaterschegget8791]

@@Catmom-gl5ntthe other brother started the same road as his brother because he passed away, prior he didn’t do anything. Which especially for twins isn’t abnormal, it’s already painful to lose your sibling, as a twin it’s even harder. The idea that there HAS to be a root to everything, or why some people drink and others don’t, doesn’t necessarily mean there are problems within the family. There still IS a lot to learn about addiction. But the idea it’s just the bottom of the barrel is long gone and why these series. It can happen with literally EVERYONE. Her son just gave an excuse for his drinking. Not every anxious person will drink. Not every person who drinks in childhood will die of OD. My neighbor was 50 when she became addicted, due to getting pain meds for an operation. Prior an upstanding veterinarian.. And it’s been a long road since. As long as we treat addiction as if it only happens to damaged or low IQ, or poor people, it will never get solved. It again can happen to anyone

[@Valentina_Academy]

When a mother cries, all the mothers in the world cry too. 💔 All my compassion to this mother and her unimaginable pain. God bless you

[@sevenskies7031]

@@Valentina_Academy I’m crying with all the mothers that are facing this nightmare 😩

[@singmysong1167]

'When a mother cries, all the mothers in the world cry too.' Such a profound, beautiful statement, but so true. I found my heart breaking right along with hers!.

[@reginahaley3723]

I absolutely respect how this beautiful Mama doesn’t sugar coat her story. Or try to make excuses. She told it like it is. Sincere condolences for the loss of your precious sons. God bless your family.🥰🙏🏼🥰

[@KevaFlores]

I agree

[@CharlotteD-sh1co]

@@reginahaley3723 Agree 💯

[@CharlotteD-sh1co]

@@reginahaley3723 💯 Agree

[@Mystique_Missy86]

I totally agree!

[@zinnia3684]

I wonder if God was ever prayed to or called out to. Faith in the Saviour would have been a game changer.

[@karencorban607]

To suffer the loss of twins to fentanyl is simply unimaginable as a mother 💔

[@bernieryan1343]

It's so terrible. That poor woman. God love her. Her poor beautiful boys. The suffering they all went through and such a loss. 😢

[@maxineheller9345]

@@karencorban607 why did they even use it. It's not an accidental overdose, they new it was wrong

[@maxineheller9345]

@@bernieryan1343 Please tell me what suffering. I have kids. The know better than to go to anyone or a drug dealer to get pills in the first place and ones that have fentynal. The were aware. Not accidental

[@karencorban607]

@@maxineheller9345they have a disease which is hard to overcome

[@Pardee416]

@@karencorban607 A friend's daughter, who was only in her early 30's, lost her life after taking a pill from her friend for a migraine. After she slumped over on her couch, the "friend" got scared and left. My friend got concerned when she hadn't heard from her daughter the next day so she drove over and found her dead still slumped in the same position on the couch. She was a mom of 2 young children. So many overdoses and deaths of people who didn't even know they were taking this dangerous drug.

[@tonyaray6498]

I lost 2 of my children to fentanyl poisoning, Andy and Adam were 15.5 years apart in age but exactly alike each other. Andy was 29.5 years old when he passed away January 16th of 2020. Adam found him that day when he got home from school. I found Adam slumped over on the floor in his room, his face in a pool of vomit and blood, blue and frozen. May 21st 2023. Adam sat with me that night before telling me he loved me very much, he was sorry for the worry he had been since Andy passed away, Adam was cutting himself severely, overdosed 4 times in the 6 months before he passed away. He was telling me goodbye and I didn't know it. 😢. My heart is beyond shattered, as I am sure you 💔 know exactly how I feel. Adam was 17, both of them were so smart, would do anything for anyone, but they were taken from me forever due to the murder pill that is showing up in everything...very sorry for your loss, hugs to you from Indianapolis, Indiana USA 🇺🇸 from a mom of boys gone far too soon 😢

[@myredpencil]

Oh precious and sad mama, my heart is crying with you. Hugs and angels all around you, your job loving them will never end. I'm so so very sorry you are without your own sweet boys.

[@carladavis8102]

🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽

[@StickysituationTV]

@@tonyaray6498 stay strong 💪🏽❤️

[@bernicedavenport1142]

So sorry for your loss.

[@pretty_lilcryer2926]

Heartbreaking. I hope you find peace. Sorry for your loss. ❤

[@dollymando]

This poor woman. Just illustrates the frustrating lack of help for mental health and addiction

[@FionasNonna]

Start electing state officials who make it a priority. Medicaid is state run and it's a failure on every level

[@deboramccallum3987]

That's exactly true, people are left to fend for themselves, left on outskirts of society to survive ...many don't. Her grief is palpable.

[@marykalous8400]

My daughter was only allowed 30 days for inpatient therapy even though the facility said she needed 90 days.

[@JaxonSmithers]

Or the frustrating lack of border security that allows all this dope in. We can’t stop all of it but we can stop some. Less fentanyl coming across the border means less deaths.

[@dancingkay2604]

Everyone’s scared to blame the BILLION $$$Dollar Pharmaceutical industry! This is by Design!

[@UncleDuTheWatchman]

People Pleasers almost always end up self-destructive because they disregard their own emotional and mental health to make everybody happy.

[@JayBeltz-e7s]

This made me really think...finally I relate completely . I was completely that way.thankyou jay

[@paxsmile]

@@UncleDuTheWatchman so so true!!

[@derekgovender6840]

@@UncleDuTheWatchman yes I agree .

[@adonis4ya2]

Her is pain palpable 😢

[@MarcellusBrown-x9h]

Facts spoken! Your 💯

[@flickboogers9325]

Takes an extremely powerful human to share this story. Thank you.

[@SeekAfterGod]

I tried quitting I was in a constant state of quitting for years. I hated it I didn’t even wanna get high. I just couldn’t function because of withdrawal so I was always taking just a little bit, so I wouldn’t get sick. But being in a constant state of withdrawal for years. Couldn’t eat couldn’t sleep wasn’t feeling well. I got so sick of it. I eventually paid 50 grand to go to rehab. Which I had to save up for. Everything I tried everything I did nothing worked. I finally got so desperate i decided to try Jesus I just threw myself on the ground and said “Jesus you see me if you do not intervene I’m going to die.” I didn’t feel a change in that moment, but the next morning I woke up and I’ve never been the same since. Im clean. I can’t believe I just said that. Yeah there’s no drugs in my system. It’s almost too good to be true but it’s all thanks to God. Everyone I went to rehab with is still using. And it’s been four years I’m the only one of the whole group that’s clean. Jesus is free to anyone and He is our only help. Since i first came to Christ, Jesus has done many other things for me things that I thought were impossible. I’m telling anyone right now. What do you have to lose? It takes one minute to ask. I always wonder what my life would’ve been like if I had come to Jesus sooner. and I don’t care what your problem is if it’s something completely different, Jesus is the answer for any problem. I’ve only been Christian for four years. And my life is unrecognizable I love life I went from wishing I was never born every day to loving life in just a couple years.

[@MrN75nokia]

Congratulations keep up the sobriety

[@stylzeunique2964]

Thank you for sharing your testimony. I really admire you. Your testimony can save many souls. I pray that the Lord Our Savior keeps you in perfect mind and spirit.

[@SeekAfterGod]

@@stylzeunique2964 Thank you dear one. there was a time when i was too proud to tell my testimony i was embarrassed of the mess. Jesus saved 4 souls through the testimony of how i came to Christ. although God gets all the glory It brings me to tears that I got to be a part of that.

[@joeglennaz]

Thank you for sharing your testimony. I know if Jesus we can do anything. He saved me from some things too, and it could’ve only been him. There’s no other way.

[@nancyx6390]

I also agree with you about getting on your knees and asking our Jesus for help. I won't get into my story because it's too long but I can tell you if it wasn't for praying to Jesus I would not be here! He is out savior...our father...our king 🙏

[@childoftheking2214]

My son died from fentanyl when he was given “something” for an extremely painful abscess tooth. He was not a user or a drinker. He trusted the wrong person. Fentanyl is not just killing those with addictions. It is heartbreaking to hear these stories.

[@amyg8761]

So sorry. It's terrifying to know this stuff is everywhere. It happened in my family too. Makes me sick.

[@McGMumof3]

@@childoftheking2214 given something by WHOM?? Must not have been an actual doctor?

[@annakaye1629]

@childoftheking2214 What? The dentist gave a lethal dose of fentinil? Plz explain.

[@lanni8224]

I am so sorry for your losses

[@lanni8224]

Thank you!

[@rosiew1952]

oh my god, to lose any child is devastating , but to lose both of her twin sons is just traumatic. so so sad . my heart goes out to her x

[@takeitbreezy]

Oh Mama, I just want to hug you. Thank you to every person who tells their child’s story on this channel. I hope you all know how incredibly meaningful it is.

[@Beccaroo690]

I wanted to hug her to she is a sweet loving and caring mama💕🙏

[@donnamagauran1058]

God bless you all.

[@miamibeach7166]

YAAASSSS 🥰 🤗 🥰 YES HUGS PLEASE 💔🪽💔

[@miamibeach7166]

I NEED ONE 🤗

[@kayjay3888]

My mommy soul is shattered on the floor for all of you who have lost a child. 😢

[@darleneyoung8737]

Be a year on the 27th that we lost our youngest son to this horrible disease. So hard to deal with. There’s so many of my friends who has lost their child to this disease also. I often wondered how they could go on living and now I know.

[@kayjay3888]

@darleneyoung8737 I'm so very sorry for your profound loss. I can't fathom the strength, grit and sheer determination it must be just to take another "next" breath. 💔

[@darleneyoung8737]

@@kayjay3888 I don’t want to.!

[@erinmckee8908]

It's so sad how many people are mentioning the fact that they lost a child. My heart is breaking. I'm going to go hug my teen kids.

[@kriskadobermiller9293]

I just lost my ONLY daughter June 3! I will never be the same! This is just terrible! Such a terrible loss! Prayers for those who still struggle! Hug those close to you!! Love more! Tomorrow is not promised ❤

[@judybroshears7974]

My heart is broken for this precious mother.

[@jiid84]

That last line just absolutely broke my heart, “I couldn’t save mine, but hopefully I can save yours” 😭

[@rm4519]

Zero judgement on this wonderful momma, but more of a general thought: I believe teens today need to understand how to mindfully sit with being uncomfortable and "unhappy". I often wonder if kids have completely unrealistic expectations out of life. Just a thought.

[@amyrush4613]

@@rm4519 I have this same thought all the time! As someone who works in mental health, I see it all the time. I wish it was something more we can do about this or we will continue to lose people.

[@Nicole__C92]

I have a ten year old, your whole comment scares me 😢

[@Nicole__C92]

Ty

[@foggyqubti6288]

Yes this is it😢

[@Homeschooler64]

@@Nicole__C92I’ll be praying for your little 10 yr old…ceaselessly. As well as this poor lost generation. Such an at risk generation. I have a 19 yr kid..I too am so scared of this very thing.

[@vgoogleuser8136]

God keep this mom wrapped in your embrace. May she continue educating families and preventing futher suffering. Praying for her and her family. 🙏 ❤️

[@tinalib913]

Im sorry for your loss. RIP Ryan and Matt 💔

[@kateschroth3304]

I am sooo sorry for your loss. May Ryan and Matt Rest in Peace. I am so moved that you are speaking out about this. You are extremely courageous and brave

[@lauraclarke7617]

God bless you and what you’re doing! You are so strong! Thank you for sharing your story and speaking so candidly about your twin boys Ryan & Matt. I pray you find peace for all pain you’ve endured. I love what you’re doing and I find it so inspiring that you’re working in prevention and dedicating your life to helping others. We need more loving, compassionate people like yourself helping to make positive changes and spread awareness. Thank you!

[@lisastewart5885]

So extra-sad as your sons had tons of potential. So sorry. 😢😢

[@lisastewart5885]

​@@kateschroth3304And strong.

[@Sarah-jg9uw]

I'm so sorry for your loss losing a child/children is the worst thing you can ever have to go through, so tragic. It's not right to bury your kids. 💔😭

[@yvonnebannon7623]

I’m crying as I write this. That lovely woman, mom to her beautiful boys…so gut wrenching that she and her family had to go through the loss of not just one but both of her sons. Her twin boys. I can’t believe that. If she ever reads this, kindly know that I’m hugging you virtually as one mom to another. I’m so very sorry for your incredible loss and know that you were everything to those young men, your sons, who loved you very much. You are so strong and brave, that you even get up each morning, let alone go to a job that you hope makes a difference in someone else’s child’s life. God bless you. ❤

[@carolynkiem868]

May your life be LOOOONG AND MAY GOD HEAL YOUR PAIN,this was not your prob DRS are murderers, drs PILLS can cause death, and suicide. Mum WE ALL LOVE YOU. BRAVE HEART

[@Niaicyy]

I’m crying now too, such a beautiful soul the end broke me when she was saying hopefully she can save someone else with a sad smile on her face. I just wanna hug her & shower her with love that sweet woman didn’t deserve any of that I’m so upset 😕 she’s so strong & resilient she gave me strength. I lost my uncle this year to fent he always had a beautiful smile too #ripuncle I’ll love you forever. I hope everyone finds peace 🙏🏽 & to the mom in this video man I have so much love for you I hope you find peace, comfort & happiness

[@PiggyLovesOllie]

I was thinking the seemed very dissmissive and non chalant???? Forgive me

[@joylannetter2451]

This story has shattered my heart my first born daughter's the story is similar to to your son with the apologies (ripped my heart). Fentanyl took her out June 15, 2022. She, too, had co-occurring disorders coupled with cocaine and pain pill addiction. She had let me know that she was tired... I'm tired of being tired... Tired of using drugs.. tired of drugs using her... and tired of each day being self-destructive. Her last voicemail message was apologetic and lots of "I love yous" I finally got the courage to listen to the whole voicemail from 2 years ago. When will it end 😭😭😭

[@erinmckee8908]

I'm so very sorry. Please never blame yourself. Addiction is such a monster. ♥️♥️

[@sherrillcornett4212]

Been there also... buried my baby boy in 2011 from an overdose of heroin...he was 32😞 My oldest first born son overdosed 10 yrs later...age 47...his heroine was cut with fentanyl...I do not think he knew. 😞 Sending love from one grieving mother to another. Your work is important! 😊

[@lemaa4820]

🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽

[@onemargaret]

My condolences 🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾

[@MarcellusBrown-x9h]

Only 5 more credits! This tells you, how the disease of addiction, will take control of your mind and distort your judgement to the point, you don't know, night from day! It's rough, I mean rough, it always with you even. After getting clean for years! RIP guys, no more war and fighting , now your in God's care! 🙏🕊️🕊️🙏

[@ana62301]

Why were your kids taking drugs?

[@maramalfoy7630]

​@@ana62301Seriously? 😐

[@BrendaNeedle]

I lost 2 of my precious children to fentenal.Your life is never the same.

[@kellymariepettit]

@@BrendaNeedle I am so incredibly sorry 🫂🫂

[@janicejacome]

I cannot say anything except l wish you healing as much as possible and strength...l wish l could help but lm sending a prayer n a hug. Addiction has destroyed sooooo much in my family..l have 1 so very LOST. Mostly worried about my grandson almost 14...l'd give my life to secure his. . ❤

[@brigitteafridi2361]

@@BrendaNeedle 😢😢

[@orangutansareorangepeople]

@@BrendaNeedle wow 😮 very sorry for your losses . 🙏

[@lisadee1623]

I’m so sorry, sending you a huge hug ❤

[@AliceJones-yc1kh]

Dear Mrs Williams, my heart aches for you and your loss. I have a brother who suffers from mental health issues. He lost a beloved friend his senior year of high school. Even in his sixties he still talks about this passing. You are both strong and courageous parents.

[@tinalindsey1598]

My God is it hard to be a mother no matter what kind of kid you have. Moms are just destined to suffer too. ❤️

[@hunnydoo7737]

Sadly, it's a thankless job.

[@milanimorales2645]

We gotta find our own peace sometimes. Cant always connect our happiness with the kids happiness because if they are falling to pieces, you give your best support and then find your own joy.

[@Oceaneyes-eh6vs]

This poor mother had to deal with all the suffering times 2. I can't imagine.

[@sfwatxyo2162]

I don't think of motherhood as thankless at all. ​Though sad, this mother got to bring two beautiful lives into this world, and though their time on earth ended too soon, she can find solace in the time and fond memories they shared in this life. My adult children express their gratitude and thankfulness to me very often and I am blessed to see the lives they've built for themselves. That's all the thanks we should need. She'll see her boys again 😊. @hunnydoo7737

[@helenaterschegget8791]

I would not say thankless. It’s just our kids don’t understand our feelings, we so desperately want them to be happy and it’s very hard to see them struggle. Every child will struggle, and usually grows out of it. Then when they become parents they begin to understand someone is dependent and how you want to love and protect your child and it’s beautiful but also painful. Let people be the ages they are. They will catch up

[@greg6873]

This mother broke my heart...two young sons gone, yet , she keeps going and fighting for other people's children....I'm wiping tears away...

[@peterruddick1952]

This woman has gone through an outrageous hell, yet narrates this horror story so well, God bless her, she is an incredible survivor and may she find some solace somehow

[@esmith4646]

This is the hardest one I’ve heard in this series this woman has been to the farthest type of hell and back she doesn’t deserve this sending prayers and this woman is so likeable and I just can’t even believe this happened to her it just kept getting worse and worse and worse. Jesus these videos always inspire me to stay sober I never want my mom to feel this way. I’ve put her through so much in my addiction. This woman is literally the strongest person in the entire world. I was actually crying like crying crying watching this. None of these have ever made me cry and I’m sobing.

[@tinalib913]

Some stories affect us differently. I'm proud of you for being sober. ❤ Keep it going!

[@merk.9285]

I've yet to watch one of these videos without crying every single time. I also watch them to stay clean as I can't let my parents lose another child. They already lost my 2 older brothers too young. I kicked fent and heroin over 2 years ago and haven't touched it since. I simply don't want to die and more importantly don't want my parents to lose another kid. They had 4 boys and no daughters. Now they only have two sons. Me and my younger brother, if they lost just one more of us I think they would die of heartbreak. At least my mom probably would based on how hard it's been on her. I feel guilty every single day that i even used fentanyl for the short time period that I did (6 months max daily use) I could have and should have died MANY dif times. Watching these videos just solidifies me into not relapsing or even dabbling with ANY drug on the street. I won't even experiment with coke or meth anymore because it can be laced. Same goes for Xanax, I'll only take benzos if im prescribed them which isnt nearly enough but worth not getting fent. I overdosed one time on a xanax bar and it made me blackout stop breathing and had to be narcanned multiple times in hospital till i woke up at home on my couch the next with zero recollection of the overdose or hospital trip. Nothing. Just remembering popping the bar and thinking wow it tastes awfully bitter so it must be good shit (had loads of fake bunk bars before with nothing in them but chalk) so i was glad i didnt get ripped. I had some left after the OD and I tested em with a fentanyl strip. They all came back positive for fentanyl. One red line. I couldn't believe it. This was back in 2018. Why they would lace a supposed BENZO with a deadly dose of an opioid when they aren't even the same drug I thought. Obviously to kill people on purpose which is sickening. You won't get repeat customers if their dead off the first $4 fentanyl bar.

[@tinalib913]

@merk.9285 Congratulations on your 2 years of sobriety! You're 💯 correct in saying that your poor parents can not lose anymore sons. Use whatever you can to keep your sobriety. I think not wanting to die is a damn good reason. You already beat the reaper once. Please don't do that again. We're all still glad you're here! ❤️‍🩹👍

[@karringtonjackson8666]

Congratulations to you!!! Keep pushing!!!

[@feelthejoy]

Congrats on your sobriety ❤ Keep up the hard work

[@tonihajdaj2640]

All the love in the world to this mother. I watch one of these stories every day and her story will live in my heart forever. “I couldn’t save mine, but maybe I can save yours.” Not a drop of your love falls on barren land. Thank you for showing us your journey.

[@Shelsight]

This mom is amazing. So honest, truthful, candid, open… she has probably saved so many lives in speaking her honesty through her tragedy… the last few minutes broke my heart though. Amazingly articulate and honest woman. Especially when she said she’d wished they told her initially as they would have helped them as parents. And then how the parents and sister tried to get proper help via the courts to get treatment - and they were denied that chance… And the insurance screw up that lost them those fateful days. She never deserted them. She tried everything. I’ve sat here crying for her and her husband and daughter. I truly hope she knows how much she has, and will, help other teens, young adults and parents… This is one of the most powerful videos I’ve ever seen.

[@Spankyduke2682]

Ma'am you were the most involved, supportive and sacrificial mom I have ever seen in my life. There are no more "what if I had" You did it all and then some. Coping skills development is key. I've heard it over and over from veteran professional workers in that area.

[@lindavanalphen5046]

@@Spankyduke2682 educating yourself as a mother is key to raising children. Surely if they were drinking before school, a mother would notice something isn't right. One can smell alcohol. If you're close enough to your children you would notice. Not a good story.

[@ivonaivona668]

​@@lindavanalphen5046 in theory yes, in reality not always

[@Sunnahiman]

This is very sad, I have tears in my eyes. Mental health worker from 1973 to 2023.

[@stumack9755]

me 1984--present.

[@PatFord-og7rv]

Bless you heart and don’t blame yourself . I am a mother whose son was killed from fentanyl. You did the best you could .

[@esmith4646]

I’ve put my mom through so much too Moms are super hero’s

[@JosedeJezeus]

And yet we live in cultures where men carry family name… something is upside down with how we live.

[@deniseblackburn33]

Me too

[@fritzfxx]

Moms are also cranking out junkie kids at a terrifying rate. As an addict, I love my mother dearly, but it doesn't take a genius to point to some pretty obvious pitfalls in the path we took together

[@JosedeJezeus]

@@fritzfxx the point is this: human life grows INSIDE of women, *NOT MEN,* and it’s a HUGE DEAL. The motherhood experience is UNIQUE, and SACRED: a true miracle experience.

[@karlaplascencia7998]

This poor sweet mother has lived a thousand lives in one lifetime. So much sadness. The psych medications are not always the answer. Both boys needed so much. This family fought an uphill battle. I had my daughter watch this. Your video will help save lives.

[@reneemartin2073]

I know the feeling. I lost my baby son 3 years ago this month, and my oldest son just went through detox, and he’s going to rehab on Monday. It’s the most devastating thing a parent can go through. My sons weren’t thugs, they are both highly intelligent, handsome, kind, funny guys. People should be aware, it can happen to anyone. And I mean, anyone. And it’s a pain you never want to go through. There should be funding all over this country for help.

[@kimmib1987]

@@reneemartin2073 Absolutely there should have been funding when the crack epidemic started because since then there has been a graduation to harder and more lethal drugs

[@IMSHARP777]

It definitely can happen to anyone!- Addiction has no shame.

[@Lisa-ew5cr]

Neurosurgeon pioneers addiction treatments using ultrasound | 60 Minutes: kzbin.info/www/bejne/bXOqpYmAaNF1mqc

[@sheryl7638]

@@reneemartin2073 Yes! And why are not ANY AUTHORITIES acting with urgency to locate and stop the people behind the production of these pills ? Have you ever heard of Yuval Noah Harari? Global elites and those in governmental seats of power have been influenced by him and his homicide solution to reduce the population . Because this is shocking and unthinkable that nothing is being done about this by the authorities who are highly trained and have intel and are highly paid to do their jobs But they're not acting on Why not? this just keeps going and going - story after story of murder after murder taking place and the authorities are not acting with urgency that this crime against humanity demands ? The murderers producing the poison are not being located and stopped and convicted One cannot help but wonder ....why not? If the authorities who pledge to serve and protect the citizens do NOT ACT STOP these crimes....WHO will?

[@nunyabusiness7927]

This episode was especially hard for me to watch. I have twin boys who are 17 now. We sent one of them to Florida last summer for 90 days of inpatient treatment. He's doing better now (as far as I know), but the worrying never stops. His brother does not use drugs at all. They're together right now in Myrtle Beach visiting some relatives and going out...and t's terrifying.

[@THEBIGLIE20]

Keep them away from Fla if you can

[@deboramccallum3987]

Hopefully they will follow a healthy path, but if they don't ..don't blame yourself

[@diana7676]

Twin issue

[@amandanoel26]

As a mama in recovery, I pray every day that my struggles prevent my boys from using. I cannot fathom losing them this way. 😭 I’m so sorry mama. I have no other words but I’m so sorry. 😢

[@ashleyshayia8087]

You got this mama!!! you will make it through Amen!!! 👏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🤎

[@MsAdventure531]

💙🙏🏼👊🏽

[@mandy7131]

Samers I quit the pills But when they dad died cause of the same thing I relapsed I pray every night Please god I can't leave my son's behind I was clean off morphine pills But relapsed These videos I am quiting Getting the help

[@melistasy]

​@mandy7131 you got this! ❤️❤️

[@Poolberi88]

Its the first time i have seen a woman cry so much without a tear shed and kept her makeup in tact...never draws a brealth until she tells the story perfectly. Well done Mum. Your boys will be very proud of you. You have a great way of relating the story....its a gift.

[@carolynware5282]

I lost my oldest son, who was brilliant and so good natured. But drugs and mental illness drove him to suicide. I will never be the same. I miss my sweet boy so much ❤ gone at 29.

[@dennesmoore8531]

May God bless you and your family

[@amybusch9253]

I am so sorry for your loss 🙏💔

[@RandiPearson-zk5sp]

@@carolynware5282 sending love 💕 and prayers 🙏your way ..

[@fitnurse27]

I am so sorry.

[@marksneddon3709]

Sorry for your loss ❤

[@A28CB]

I can't imagine the pain of losing not 1 but 2 kids to the same evil. May you be strengthened by the work you now do, saving others from drug addiction.

[@sonquatsch8585]

AMEN !

[@junebarnett7350]

Mental illness is the most difficult illness to treat and be aware of. God bless you.

[@lyncollins9770]

I lost my son 6yrs ago on his 49th birthday. None of us saw it coming .Miss him everyday .You never get over losing a child whatever age 😢Why he chose that day I will never know 😢was from drowning

[@rainbowmommy1224]

My heart is crying for this lady. Losing her 2 sons and dealing with her husband health and frustrated with the place that turned her son down for no insurance card. Bless her heart. My prayers are with you 🙏 ❤️

[@jello12345]

My God. This woman is something. The amount of stress and suffering she endured between her boys, husband, work, life ... And still working hands on to find meaning in this life. Bless you.

[@MonsteraMami]

OMG .. When she said his insurance card came on the day of his funeral... my jaw dropped. That's SO crazyyyyy. What a FLAWED system; completely could've been avoided!

[@glcmranger421]

Easily avoided. Don’t take pills from unlicensed, unqualified people on the streets. Why complicate it? These Fentanyl deaths will not stop, because too many people refuse to accept that these laced pills were not ingested accidentally. It’s tragic and it’s senseless. Sick individuals are poisoning pills as a form of entertainment and it’s just a vicious cycle and that includes the cycle feeding the videos to the KZbin masses. Sickening what society finds acceptable today.

[@Smokemifugotem]

If only life were so black and white.

[@michelleruffin6903]

Not flawed. EVIL!!!

[@emmaemma1048]

I think it’s more that the rehab refused to see him, because he didn’t have the actual card in his hand. Doesn’t mean they would not receive their payment.

[@knucklegame5050]

Can't Put the blame on insurance tho. They've been doing that to inner city individuals for YEARS. Yet they STILL had to Stay Clean and Wait. So let's not act like HES the only one that has happened to. Thats just the Way that the Process Goes, the individual has to want to STOP USING

[@marlenebrockmann1553]

There is no easy way to lose a child. I just completed 25 years since the loss of my daughter. I didn’t think I could live this long without her.

[@GetonMylevel132]

You are stronger than you know. Your daughter would want you to go on and live. I am sending a big hug, as a mom, I know this is the greatest pain. I pray that someday you can feel your daughter’s arms wrapped around you when you see: 🌅 beautiful sunsets 🌈 rainbows after a spring showers 🌊the lull of ocean waves 🌲the smell of fresh pine up in the ⛰mountains and hearing her favorite 🎶music come on the radio. And when it’s time for you to leave this earth, your daughter will be the one to lead your soul to heaven.

[@Veedub09]

Thank you so much for this comment.. I’m four years in.. my daughter took her own life at 25 years old. I didn’t think I could get to this long…

[@marlenebrockmann1553]

@@Veedub09 It’s a tough road to travel. I’m already dreading the 27th anniversary because then she’ll be dead longer than she was alive. It’s a terrible experience to lose one’s child.

[@dittohead7044]

@@marlenebrockmann1553 Absolutely 😢

[@Alicia-w6k6r]

@@marlenebrockmann1553 I absolutely know that feeling. It has been 16 years for my boy and it tore me apart even more when I realized he has been dead longer than he was alive. Another milestone grieving parents have to go through.

[@Mountain_Mamma]

“I couldn’t save mine, but hopefully I can save yours”. One of the most selfless and beautiful comments. My heart goes out to this family more than any words can express. The bravery and vulnerability you shared will def save lives!!❤

[@debbieblair3329]

Prayers and hugs for you mom. Can’t imagine going thru this with two kids.

[@kiwiroxy]

This wonderful lady… her last words “ I couldn’t save mine, maybe I could save yours “ …Stay strong all you, mums and dads, who are fighting for your children life.

[@Marilyn-np6ls]

This story brings home how important it is to teach your children and grandchildren that is is okay to express their feelings. At four and five, you can begin teaching this by saying," How do you feel about that?" when something, really anything happens. You can model it by expressing your feelings (constructively) throughout the day. I'm a Pre-K teacher, and I spend a lot of time letting my students practice this skill and encouraging it.

[@singmysong1167]

Good idea.

[@zaidarivas7152]

I am so sorry for your losses. I went through almost the same thing. My son was a self medicating schizophrenic. He died of a fentanyl overdose last summer. Same struggle. The US does not take care of the mentally ill. Mental Healthcare is atrocious in this country. Again, I'm sorry for your loss, my condolences.

[@amybusch9253]

I am so very sorry for your terrible loss 🙏💔

[@michellebridges2604]

Thank you for sharing! I could not save my son either. Sending you all my love and prayers ❤️🙏

[@vvvggg1718]

Hugs. Me either 💔

[@WandaOlinger]

😔😢🙏🙏

[@42042O]

I’m sorry for your loss.

[@tazztower44]

their mom is absolutely beautiful in every aspect possible..she didn't deserve this

[@merleedwards5639]

After hearing these tragic stories I realize how blessed I am. Only by the grace of God.

[@woofer13]

Oh, this was your god's doing? I didn't know your god picks who dies and who doesn't.

[@jackiecurtis8588]

@@woofer13, WOW! That’s a bit harsh! A little “angry” at God, are you? You might want to think about that.. 🤷‍♀️ just sayin..

[@woofer13]

@@jackiecurtis8588 I'm not angry at 'god.' There is no god.

[@NanaD-ve9tt]

I’ve never cried so so much. She truly is angel here on earth. I hope she has time with her grandson. Rip Ryan& Matt 🕯❤️‍🩹🕊

[@Ellia454]

To see the pain going from this beautiful lady, brocken heart makes me speechless....

[@UncleDuTheWatchman]

It is absolutely INSANE for a rehab to not accept someone who is trying to get help because "we don't do intake that day" or "you need your physical card in order for us to help you". These agencies are only out here to make MONEY. They do NOT care about addicts. SHAME ON THEM FOR TURNING RYAN AWAY TO HIS DEATH!!!

[@wellmanfarms9855]

Amen to that! It is very hard to find a legitimate place to help

[@patrinajasso5689]

Did this mom grow up in the stone age?.

[@andreamoore7002]

@@patrinajasso5689 What do you mean?

[@rosamariann]

This brought back all the horror I went through trying to get my sons into rehab. It’s not easy. It’s hard to even get them to the point where they agree to go; and then if you don’t have insurance or Medicare (which my one son has) or Medicaid, very limited choices where you can go. Then if you do manage to get in, the programs don’t last nearly as long as they need. A month is most times not long enough. So much easier these days to be given clean needles by the government 😡 I have known quite a number of people who have lost their sons due to the fentanyl crisis. My older son overdosed 4x! The last time his brother heard him fall and saved his life (he couldn’t find the narcan). I came home to police cars and ambulances at my house while they were working on my son in his room. That was last fall. He is doing much better now, praise the Lord 🙏🏻

[@rockstarmom3121]

It costs money to run these places and without profit there is no desire to open them.

[@elexis3728]

I honestly don’t know how she has managed to hold on before and especially after. To say she has been through a lot is definitely an understatement!

[@monaanderson9907]

Bless you for sharing your story and the outreach work you’re doing

[@lisacheetham1009]

This is so heartbreaking, addiction is a horrendous thing.

[@SRob353]

Turning an addict away from treatment for lack of a physical ID card infuriates and sickens me. My heart goes out to this woman.

[@millenniumtowerskelton5143]

Mama, I am so sorry for the loss of your sons. Your story broke my heart. I🙏🏻

[@42042O]

You never not once gave up on those young men. You are one of the best mothers I have ever heard speak. You should be proud of yourself. You did nothing wrong and everything right. I’m sorry things happened that way nobody deserves that especially a loving, kind , articulate person like you. Thank you for your story.

[@l.w.echols2107]

@@42042O Truth!

[@annettecole7307]

Denise, what a powerful testimony!!! Thank you for the COURAGE to share your story.

[@JusticeforbabyDylan]

Thank you for sharing your story. My heart breaks for you. My 3 month old grandson and my 4 yr old granddaughter was taken to the babysitters while mom worked. I actually had them living with me because mom had just gotten sober and I wanted to make sure that my grandkids were ok and had a place to live. That morning I before I walked out the door I stopped to talk to my grandson while mom was getting ready for work. He was cooing and smiling as I was talking. I left and shortly after she left and dropped the kids off at her cousins for her to watch them. I get a txt later on from mom saying the kids are going to just stay over there since she has to work early in the morning. I told her well maybe now you can get a little bit of sleep. Over the night she was txting asking how are the kids babysitter said fine. Next day I get a call around 12pm by mom saying that she needs me to get to the hospital something happened to my grandson. All I could think is that mom did something and I now have to get custody of the kids again. I get to the hospital and I was told to wait at the desk. What seemed to be forever! Finally a cop and a nurse escorted me to the back and as we were walking back my chest started hurting and I told them I just had open heart surgery please I can’t take this! I come to these doors that say trauma and they open them up and as they do the nurse says that there is a pastor here if I need to talk. I hit the floor crying because I knew that my grandson had died. Soon as I get into this room mom is sitting there saying weird stuff and all I can do is ask how ?why? Who did this? They first said it was co-sleeping till about 5 months later we finally got ahold of the detective and he told us it was fentanyl! The babysitter was using and either put it on his gums or in his bottle thinking that would get him to stop crying!!! The heartbreaking thing is that my granddaughter seen all of this and she is now 5 and remembers it all! The babysitter is still in jail waiting trial. They are saying that she won’t get much time if any for killing my grandson! I have to live in heartache and guilt everyday. I thought by having them in my home the kids would be safe!!! My grandson deserves justice but from the sound of it he won’t get it.

[@vvvggg1718]

I lost my son to fentanyl 3 years ago. I can't imagine losing 2 kids. All the changes that poor mom went thru 💔 I can relate 🫂

[@senses70]

I really feel for that incredible loving dedicated mother and her terrible losses. My heart is aching for her and their closed ones. I was moved to tears. RIP boys.

[@isabelltecaxco-yd3lw]

My sister has lost two sons, one was murdered in 2005, he was 31 and her second son died in 2021 in April five days before her birthday 😢 he died of overdose and he was 46 so she's been hurting for years. I'm so sorry for anyone who is suffering from this nightmare drug

[@chanelgez2146]

so sorry for your sisters loss of her two sons bless you both ❤❤

[@christinadelviscio6664]

So sorry for your loss 😢

[@carmeldelaney1086]

What a brave Mother.Drugs stink, if only young people would think before popping rubbish into their bodies.

[@brendawilson4882]

I lost my boy June 24th 2015.He was a twin.I still grieve

[@Alicia-w6k6r]

I lost my son September 2008. His birthday was June 24th. ❤

[@nameissturdy1390]

I have no words. You’ll be in my thoughts. 🙏❤️

[@msicky1]

Your last words..."I couldn't save mine, but hopefully I can save yours."😭😭😭 Every parent should have their kids watch this. My heart goes out to you and your family❤️

[@beckyleslie4091]

There are no words adequate to acknowledge your horrific loss. God bless you and your entire family.

[@sonquatsch8585]

i agree...i feel like if i say anything to show support or acknowledge its just gunna be completely insufficient.

[@jons4534]

My god, so much guilt, regret and pain. I feel so sorry for this mother. Sounds like she was fighting a losing battle for years. 😢

[@lovingturnip]

'I couldn't save mine, but hopefully i can save yours' -- this had me in instant tears

[@nataliegebhard4064]

This is so touching and you are so brave ❤️

[@theresekirkpatrick3337]

We have clearly lost the “war on drugs “ it’s worse than when they started this campaign in the 80’s. 😢

[@shazondiabailey9013]

Nobody cared then.

[@carinakaron8068]

'A war ​' on anything is doomed to failure.@@shazondiabailey9013

[@vickimanager]

Back in earlier decades, kids took drugs to party, get high. Now they are self medicating for their mental health. Tragic.

[@Fredoaye]

The war is against now they killing us china,Mexico. While we dump money in Ukraine

[@kristinvelladao1145]

Thank you Biden!

[@BonnieNycz]

Im so sorry. I lost my 30 yr old daughter to fentanyl, 30 yrs old, 7 yrs sober. Hugs to you

[@ThePolypam]

How? Did she relapse?

[@kjb3d]

This one broke my heart. Probably the saddest one so far.

[@marykalous8400]

I was all in my daughter's business from age 14 until about 19. The older she got, the more discussions we had instead of me scolding her. She has said she knows she can tell me anything without judgment. I'm so glad she can, because I'm sure it has saved her life several times. Our jobs as parents are never done I'm sorry for this momma's loss. 😢

[@rhodamiller3031]

Please don’t get comfortable with that, mine was my best friend and we talked about everything(I thought) I wish I wouldn’t have believed he told me everything!

[@jenger5405]

I have never wanted to hug someone that I've never met before like I want to hug you. ❤❤❤❤❤

[@henessy.-.45]

I am an addict...and i am also a mental health counselor... your testimony is heartbreaking. That business with the insurance card infuriated me

[@babyzizi1]

Heart wrenching

[@Lisa-ew5cr]

Neurosurgeon pioneers addiction treatments using ultrasound | 60 Minutes: kzbin.info/www/bejne/bXOqpYmAaNF1mqc

[@shelleymalone2456]

This poor woman. Heartbreaking. What a tragic story.

[@CynthiaNichols-o2s]

🙏🏽🕊️💔praying for God’s healing hand on every family & person battling addiction.

[@markstaver5735]

My heart breaks for this woman, i hope she finds peace. She and her family will be in my prayers. With love from Australia ❤

[@BFoxy1326]

My fiance took his own life about 10 months after her little brother took his. For me… devastating, but for his parents? to lose both sons less than a year apart? it’s unimaginable to me as a mother. Her story broke me 🥺😩

[@sunnyboknow]

The honesty in the series is so relatable. Thank all of you for sharing.

[@LivLovePray-f5o]

God bless and keep both Matt, Ryan and their family. What a nightmare for the mother....giving birth to children creates such a bond for a lifetime. Part of her passed when her sons passed.

[@KimfromMichigan-x2u]

So sorry for the loss of your sons.😢.

[@cozzyrose]

This is just so heartbreaking 💔 How brave for her to share her story and that of her late son's 😢

[@King_504]

The insurance card showing up the day of the funeral is just painful

[@sonquatsch8585]

yeah really quite sinister actually.

[@zaidarivas7152]

I gasped. But this is the state of healthcare in the US. I still can't get over the rehab place not doing the paperwork. That kid was a heroine addict, its not something to toy with and if he wanted help, you give it to him.

[@carynmartin6053]

She should have sued that rehab!

[@odalisgonzalez6875]

I hope so..unbelievable

[@AmberU]

The ultimate slap in the face just infuriating! Ppl are so selfish your employees have more paperwork so they wont accept a patient absolutely disgusting actually illegal id think you cant get government funds and refuse to see folks as far as i know.

[@sade6907]

I wish I was close enough to give her a warm hug. May their souls RIP.

[@donnahackworth9546]

God bless you and your family who have been through so much... God is the answer ... lean not on your own understanding...... Proverbs 3: 5-6

[@nunyabidness5505]

This really made me cry and i dont even have any family members with substance abuse issues. This mom is truly an sweetheart, she didnt deserve any of this. I hope her heart can heal

[@gigilamoore2656]

You did all you could, mom. I hope you believe that. Thank you for sharing your story.

[@leighpennington2350]

Prayers For This Momma 🙏 To Turn Such A Tragedy Of Losing Both Sons And For Her To Do More Educating On Addiction And Mental Health 🙏 Hopefully Her Pain Saves Some Lives By Them Watching This Video 🙏 Stay Strong 🙏 Just Breathe

[@sade6907]

This is a VERY strong woman, to have shared her sons' tragedies without falling apart entirely. I cannot even begin to imagine the pain she went through bearing witness to the decline of BOTH her boys. I wish for her continued strength. The boys' decline may have also contributed to their Dad's health decline.

[@deenabeauchamp5290]

Oh Mama God Bless you ❤️💕. I understand both Matt and Ryan …. I was them both . My mom was you!!!! At the beginning you were so naive …. Now you are a WISE WOMAN. You may not have been able to save your sons lives ( as you explained) You sharing your story kept me clean for the rest of the day. It was heart breaking listening to you share. I pray I never put my Mama through that again. I pray you find comfort in your daughter and grand children.