First Time Hearing In My Blood - Shawn Mendes | Suicide Survivor Reacts (WITH SONNY VON CLEVELAND)

[@MentalAmanda]

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[@bbkivines3244]

Shawn released this song at 19, as he struggles with anxiety and this song addresses that

[@sophialoizos9035]

he is honestly so talented, he is only 22 and is one of the biggest singers in the world. you should react to mercy next and lost in japan by shawn

[@briannaheath6923]

Facts bro 😎 he’s amazing and his messages are incredible ❤😊

[@vam02359]

He was nominated for a Grammy for this song and the Album this song is on..self-titled Shawn Mendes. He’s amazingly talented singer/songwriter.

[@picklethepickle6680]

Please react to more Shawn Mendes! He is one of the biggest singers in the world, and also one of the youngest. His career blew up when he was 16 and he is 22 now. You have probably heard some of his hits like Stitches, Mercy, Theres nothing holding me back, Treat you Better, Señorita, and If I Can’t Have You

[@MentalAmanda]

I have heard Stitches and just didn't know his name!

[@rg9991]

I'd recommend Wonder by him, it's about self love and self discovery

[@simu31]

I'm goning to have to thank you for bringing another view-point which I hadn't thought about previously; "take something to make you feel better". In that light, understanding of the words. Yes, shine a light on that

[@isaiahwelch8066]

Sooner or later, by trying to numb the pain you feel, you numb the empathy you would otherwise feel for others. I've known people that felt like that -- but until now, I never thought to share music with those kinds of people. Music is the universal language -- and the ultimate barrier destructor. Great video, Amanda! And Sonny, bro, great to see you! #HoldTheRope

[@MentalAmanda]

You're right! You can't selectively numb things.

[@isaiahwelch8066]

@@MentalAmanda : I've also known people, that when they go numb, numb _everything,_ so they never feel at all. I, myself, was one of those people for 15 years, because of my grandma's death, when I was only 15 years old. For years, I felt tremendous guilt that I failed to save her, because of a medical emergency that ended up taking her life. I had just learned CPR the previous week, and did what I could (checking for a pulse). It also didnt help we were about 9 miles out of town, and had no cell phones in 1998. In spite of people telling me I did all I could, I felt guilty that I couldn't save her, because I was the "smart one" in my family. And in that moment, I felt helpless. Powerless. And later, felt guilty. Since then, I've come to terms with it -- but it didn't help the fact I became a true stoic person. I was so numb, I didn't, _couldn't,_ feel anything -- up until a few years ago, when I started listening to symphonic metal. Back then, it was Within Temptation. One day, I heard a song -- I think it was Truth Beneath the Rose -- and I started crying, because the lyrics hit me like a fully-loaded Mack truck going 80 on a freeway. Truth Beneath the Rose is about redemption, and second chances -- and for me, it made me realize that if I did nothing but try, I would be redeemed in some way. The pain might always be there, but at least I can feel it again. Nowadays, Yaad by Bloodywood and Meadows of Heaven by Nightwish are the two songs that, if I'm dealing with something, death in particular, I use to help me grieve. It is very cathartic for me, in that way.

[@MentalAmanda]

@@isaiahwelch8066 My parents passed 16 and 14 years respectively and it still hurts immensely. I also harbor deep guilt. But I can feel the hurt now. And the joy when it comes. So I think I'm in a healthy place. It's crazy how much music can help us. I'm writing an entire book about just that! How Chester Bennington saved my life. Know you can message me at any time if even just to talk about them 💖

[@MentalAmanda]

@@isaiahwelch8066 PS. I did a Bloodywood first time hearing reaction too. Good stuff!

[@isaiahwelch8066]

@@MentalAmanda : I highly recommend doing a reaction to Yaad. Be warned, you might need a Kleenex or two -- maybe the whole box. I also highly recommend Meadows of Heaven -- on me of the few Annette era songs of Nightwish I felt was actually good.

[@rg9991]

Hi, I loved your reaction to this song, it means a lot to me and it really helped me through a dark time...I would recommend you guys listen to songs like "Youth" by him (talks about how the youth is suffering because of increasing violence and unrest), "Wonder" which talks about self love and discovery, "Monster" by him and JB (talks about the pitfalls of fame at an early age)

[@MentalAmanda]

This song has been in my head since I reacted. Thanks for the other suggestions!

[@carolinejacob9226]

The video of the song Youth is trully amazing !! So inspiring for youg persons in general but also for all of us. Please Amanda Webster take a look

[@mariopardillo8618]

In keeping with the theme of mental health, I'd suggest you listen to an artist named Aurora. She is a young Norwegian singer and some of her songs really strike a chord (pardon the pun). Her live performance of her song "Lucky" at Nidarosdomen Cathedral is very moving and her music video of her song "The River" is quite powerful.

[@billywade7794]

Finally my girl is getting the recognition she deserves. Anyone watching Amanda should subscribe. She is an amazing human being whom I consider a friend. Building subscribers one at a time. Love love love you...... On another note. I never knew what this song was about and now I just love it.

[@MentalAmanda]

Merci beaucoup mon ami!

[@revsus88888888]

Great video You made together! I love it when people are positive and understanding of how it is to feel anxiety and depression. I thought, as many others, that depressed people just need to do something fun to just snap out of it, i got hit by karma, i now know what emotional hell depression and anxiety brings. If you want suggestions on other artists that highlights these kinds of issues i recommend: Citizen Soldier - Would anyone care. Sixx :AM - Skin. Those songs are my go to songs. I hope you watch them if you don’t then you don’t. 😁🤗 Anyway, have a lovely lifetime everyone!

[@MentalAmanda]

I grew up in a small town where "get over it" is still very much the mentality. Hence my passion to educate and break the stigma.

[@bbkivines3244]

React to more Shawn Mendes pls

[@Idefixu]

Hi Amanda and Sonny! Sonny, you know what ever topic, theme we're talking about there is propably a Nightwish song that has something to say about it. For example social media addiction (+ pills for this and that, lipfillers... still haven't seen a woman more beautiful after): Nightwish "Noise".

[@dafiosman8186]

It'll be OK by Shawn Mendes another great song 👍

[@pickboaa]

Great to see our boy Sonny with u!

[@dr6959]

He and his gf Camila Cabello ( another amazing artist) are both the only celebrities that I really see talk and open up about mental issues and their experiences so I'm grateful for that.

[@carolinejacob9226]

I hope both of you are safe. I appreciate your honesty and your courage, because it is not easy to talk about our failures, our pain, our mental suffuring. I have to say, that I didn't know Shawn Mendes, but now I like him as the artist and the person he is....so many songs inspire me and give me hope in the future...Do you know the song "Youth" (feat. Khalid) ? The offcial video of the song Youth is trully amazing !! So inspiring for youg persons in general but also for all of us. Please Amanda Webster take a look, I pretty sure that you'll not be desappointed.

[@MentalAmanda]

I didn't but will make a note to check it out!

[@madilynn_rocky2644]

i love that he makes songs on such important topics :)) you should react to a little too much and hold on. their kinda like this their deep.

[@idontknow-vq9hu]

Sleep Token - Blood sport (from the room below) Sleep Token - Drag me under Sleep Token - The Offering Leprous - Castaway Angels

[@martinlindazzrvdl]

Hi Amanda, thank you for the channel! I can really recommend ghost love score live at wacken 2013 (important to have live version) by nightwish. It helped me to finally see that I’m worth fighting for. before meeting my wife of 5 years now I always ended up in the same relationships, I attempted suicide when I was 16 because of extreme bullying. I always ended up in relationships where my girlfriend just used me and I always thought it was me who wasn’t normal. Why would I be, haven’t been since I was 16 obviously. I am now 35 and happily married, and we have a great son of 1,5 years old. It took me 15 to 20 years to finally get passed it emotionally. For me a semicolon tattoo really helped me, together with this song (among others)

[@MentalAmanda]

I had that pattern of repeating toxic relationships too! Glad you found happiness. And don't worry, more Nightwish to come!

[@kiethaaron48]

It’s funny you caught the phone part so quickly, hence it’s why I’m here..

[@Ohhelmno]

I actually was able to take mind off of things by joining Twitter and being able to talk to others about things like sports and other stuff and kinda keep my mind occupied when I felt the anxiety coming on. It was the only thing that worked after years of drugs and doctors and all kinds of other unhealthy coping mechanisms.

[@kerimmejdoub1381]

Chandelier by Sia is also about numbing the feeling by partying. You should really react to that one! And Sonny should check that one out too... And after that for fun, Sonny should also introduce you to Babymetal. Not really about mental health, but gives you so much energy.

[@mtg4917]

You guys should react to his song mercy

[@Perktube1]

Two artists, one serious, the other frivolous. BTS singing Butter is a feel good song for summer that you might like. Another serious artist with a PHENOMINAL voice is Dimash Kudaibergen. He sings in many languages, but you can feel what he's singing. You should check out his song SOS first, at the Slavic Baxaar.

[@MentalAmanda]

As a language nerd, I'm intrigued!

[@Perktube1]

@@MentalAmanda he speaks a little English, mostly Russian and Kazakh, but sings in more languages because he learns the songs phonetically.

[@Jane.S600]

@@MentalAmanda yes please react to Dimash..Sos🙏

[@christianlangenberg6614]

Hey Sonny there..!✌️ He is a big fan of Nightwish, with the goddess Floor Jansen. 🙏

[@pynshaimarshiangbai9229]

Thank you God

[@harryhenderson8467]

When I was younger in my 20s and 30s I was really messed up , drugs tried to kill myself 2 time's overdoses everything . Got married had 3 sons , to make a long story short , on February 27th of this year my middle son Steven hung himself and I can't get over it .Everybody acts like it's over but not for me

[@MentalAmanda]

Of course it's not over. And it never will be. The pain will become more bearable over time, but it will never be over. I'm so sorry that he lost his battle. I hope you can find strength so that you can share his love and memory with the world. RIP Steven

[@harryhenderson8467]

@@MentalAmanda I really do appreciate your words more than you know thank you I think you understand Harry

[@valentinv5773]

Please react to Elastic Heart by Sia or The Greatest by Sia both very powerful videos. Enjoyed your reaction to Shawn!

[@MentalAmanda]

I've done two Sia songs and definitely will be doing more!

[@mbo191]

Original video please for Elastic Heart, the one with Maddie Ziegler & Shia LaBeouf. Yes, the kid from the Transformer films and the last Indiana Jones film. The cage in the video represents the mental illness that both Sia and her father suffered from when she was younger. In the end Sia managed to get out of it, but her father didn't. Cheers / B.

[@mbo191]

@@MentalAmanda - One more thing - You say you have quit facebook so maybe you don't know (or maybe you do know), but every now and then there's a Mental Health week or day and people ask you to raise awareness by copying and pasting a text on to your own page. I never do that copy-paste thing, I bang in the link to Sia's Elastic Heart instead. kzbin.info/www/bejne/gYi9eHR7rc9gm9U Cheers / B. P.S. Did Sonny like the vegetarian food?

[@lovers_cult]

Please react at a Sia song with him!! I suggest Elastic Heart video, it's so powerful and emotional!

[@mysilentbravery]

Thanks for uploading. If you have a second come check out my music videos - I'm an indie musician and think you might dig my sound. Really appreciate it!

[@epinibrahim4649]

Hi can you react to NF? he had a lot of song about mental health. thanks.

[@jonathanrowe1827]

Have you heard the tragic story of how he left a beautiful wife and his son so he could pursue his KZbin career? Nope, it wasn’t Shawn! 🤦‍♀️😆

[@MentalAmanda]

If you looked at my videos AFTER this one, you might get your answer :)

[@sonofthesea3298]

I might disagree with Sonny at the whole facebook thing. We can all discuss if certain social media platforms should be used for "negativity",and that would be a totally diferent subject for another time. I even limit who can see "my worst updates",as i dont want to be a burden to other people. So to alot of people i come off as this superficial,happy go lucky "soccer team supporter". Its because they dont see the real me....ever. And to hear people who are very public and open,indirectly encourage to cut people out that struggles.....as an "expert on mental health" (professionals calls me that,nothing i claim to be myself),i find it very alarming. Then its interesting that the subject "some people are better to hide theyr own pain,suffering then others" came up. I am one of thoose,and i know the types out there. How other people think,i have lost alot of people on my "online friends lists" over the years. Most of the "negativity" is "a call for help",it doesnt mean that they need anyone to take on the role as a psychiatrist or whatever,but just someone that has the time to talk about everyday things,someone that "wants to do some activity with you,or to hang out with". (Of course,im just talking for me personally,but i know people out there thinks & feels like me as well) Some just keeps on getting beat upon,even the "public agencies" (doctors office,fire dep.,police and alikes) who are supposed to help you,can actually work against you,to a point where you feel that they "clipped your wings". I get it,Sonny has met some people that pulled him down with them,but not everyone that "dwells in theyr negativity" is like that. Some are constantly fighting to feel better,reaching out a hand but its never grabbed by anyone. And like i said,people are aware...they notice people distancing themself from you,and they start minimalizing who can see them when they vent,because they need to get out frustration. It can feel abit provocative and hurtful,even "ignorant" to hear that "you need to distance yourself from "negativity". Not all "self pity,frustration,anger,sadness" and so on is part of that negativity that Sonny is so "against". Like i said,i understand where he is coming from.....just be cautious who and what you call "negativity". What i can relate to more,is the "superficial,happy go lucky" lifestyle everyone tries to imagine to you they have. Like there has been so many people here that got exposed,and they admitted that they actually faked theyr "travels,theyr breakfast table each day...absolutely everything was photoshopped one way or the other". And whether or not they publish real things or "paints on the truth" abit,or completely fakes it....imagine the impact that has on people dreaming of doing the same. My best friend had to completely distance himself from all social media and the internet for a long long time (several months),as he could not take in and process everything he saw on a day to basis. It wasnt "negativity" that became a problem,but social media in general. His brain needed a break..... I call it the social media hysteria,everyone is so hung up in portraying themselfs as "successfull,lucky,happy" that they dont even think about the consequences it can have on people already struggling. I can honestly say that i hate facebook as a platform,to a point where i rarely post anything,im barely active there. So the few times i do,its mostly venting in "status updates". The rest is "superficial stuff" noone else cares about. At least thats my life experience up till now. Other then that,i of course agree with drugs or alcohol abuse,if its with or without mental health involved. I know people who just got so addicted,that they became mentally ill on top. I lost a childhood friend to drugs,he was actually on a recovery programme and was to start working for his uncle the very next morning. But he was so excited,maybe abit nervous that it interupted his sleep. He was on the phone with the doctors office to do the right thing,to hear if he could get something non-harmful that would help him get that nights sleep,before his big day back in actual work,and not dealing drugs like he had been doing until he got caught by the police. The doctors wouldnt give him something,so the desperation came over him,so he called "old friends" who gave him some bad shit. His uncle found him the very next morning,sitting in the couch with a needle in his arm. He was no longer with us.... We who knew him as a friend,share a common agrovation towards the doctors for not helping him. He did clearly not want alot of strong addiction medicine to get high on,he just needed help sleeping before his big day.

[@MentalAmanda]

I actually agree with you. I have no issue with people posting emotional things on social media media to garner support. It's when it becomes repetitive and they aren't doing the work to improve it that it becomes frustrating. I avoid social media because I get into a negative comparison cycle.

[@sonofthesea3298]

@@MentalAmanda now that i fully understand. I was probably there more then once in my life,whenever i posted it was "frustration". But noone really grabbed my hand as i mentioned,and i noticed my numbers dropping on the list. I checked and understood who was friends and not. My solution was to keep it all to myself,and when i vent it is not viewable to "the world". Might be one helluva "history" for whoever controls the profile when im gone though lol. On the other hand,i can be exhausted or just mentally out of it,but if i see people being "negative",i do interact with them. Because as i have felt it on myself,when noone reached out to me,in hours of need. It just got worse. So i try to prevent others from getting in a "bad repetetive circle",as i have been in and sometimes still find myself in.

[@MentalAmanda]

@@sonofthesea3298 I post my struggles now to provide validation for others. The online world is never my first line for garnering support. And if I WERE to go that route, I'd do so in a group or Reddit or something specifically aimed at that. Or now, here in this positive community I've created. Certainly not on my FB or IG. I was always met with the same cold and callous responses there.

[@HistoryBuff]

Wait...WUT!!?? SVC!!!!!!!

[@RaquelAurilia]

Thanks for uploading! If you have a minute, I uploaded a cover of Billie Eilish. As a fellow music lover, I'd love if you'd check it out. It's on my channel. Hope you like it!

[@testpattern23]

Wolf Hunterz in da house

[@johnhurtme]

This song gave me hope, and more importantly strength, as my mother was on her languishing March to the grave, as I cared for her by myself when Alzheimer's had all but erased everything about her.

[@zahira_rania]

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