I understand exactly what you're talking about but there is only one way to deal with your bf is LEAVE HIM FOR AWHILE My bf is English also and he lets me know always when he needs time or tired and I have exactly the same habit as yours so growing up is important if we love him. I meditate a lot and sometimes there is nothing wrong leaving him even we don't want to. I'm sure you'll be fine...take a deep breathe. Good luck 👍 💓