getting my life back together then having a mental breakdown | a week in my life vlog

a court of thorns and roses (book 1) amzn.to/3u4sSPU
/ melissamerk / melissamerk
My Amazon Shop www.amazon.ca/...
Like To Know It www.shopltk.co...
Podcast: open.spotify.c...
podcasts.apple...
Discount Codes //
IHERB : www.iherb.com/?...
Get 10% off your first order with code - RRG565
Sprout Living go.sproutlivin...
Code : MELISSA20 for 20% off
Buffbunny bit.ly/3pUzlak
discount code : MERK for 10% off
Get some $$ on Mejuri with this link! mejurifinecrew....
I receive a small commission from some of these links

[@brijensen4158]

The grieving of our dogs while they’re still alive is so real. My dog is turning 15 in a month 😭 they deserve to live forever

[@kelseywoods4957]

Loving all your honesty and vulnerability in your vlogs lately. And yes acotar is the greatest thing to ever happen to me and I’ve never been the same. I’m also on dating apps and this vlog was like my entire inner monologue haha. Enjoy the series, I wish I could go back and read it for the first time!! Men written by women are just… there’s no words. Why can’t real men just take notes and realize we are starved for this. Anyway loved this and I related so hard ❤

[@cc326988]

Probably one of my favorite videos youve ever uploaded. This felt very real and authentic which is always refreshing

[@Masakog7]

I have been a fan for a long time, but fist time commenting here. I love your happy and productive vlogs which almost all of your vlogs are... but this episode hit me really relatable to me and I start crying. Anxiety and pets grieving while they are perfectly alive. Your gratitude meant so much more after you shared what you went though the dark rabbit hole of negativity. Thanks for being honest. I know it was hard to click upload but so many of us are thankful that you did it. We are all in this together. sending lots of love and hugs.

[@MelissaMerk]

❤️

[@jalysvettecrocker2405]

Love your honesty Melissa. I think a lot of us can relate with the ups and downs. Part of life.

[@megachong]

Finish ACOTAR, then read Throne of Glass to cure your sadness, and then finish it off with Crescent City. It is the only way :>

[@ciaobellaxo]

This vlog was so relatable... I literally cry about my dog dying at least once a month and he is 7 years old... he has grey hairs though, it breaks my heart. I just want him to be a baby again. Thanks for opening up and being vulnerable. These days always pass. Warm hugs girl.

[@natisimon1369]

I love how you are so open and sharing even your bad days This is what makes you so relatable and down to earth I truly wish you the best! 💕(and a really handsome guy as well, lol)

[@skyesilverwolf8762]

Your video was so real and honest x

[@lizfranco1522]

In my personal opinion, the older you get, the more you appreciate to spend time at home and by yourself. You can get 'social' by going to the gym, visit a family member. In my opinion people that make videos always feel the preassure to film themselves at events, in parties, in trips, otherwise feel their content is boring. And that's not truth. Vlogs at home, of routines are also nice to watch.

[@crazylatingirl94]

i think what helps ground me is reminding myself that there's a reason people write those stories and it's that they're not rooted in reality. it's nice to have somewhere to escape to but we have to come back. it's like going on vacation or to an amusement park. i also remind myself that im not perfect either or im not the perfect fantasy character in the books lol so i shouldn't expect anyone else to be either. as far as not thinking about our dogs dying... girl i dont know but i can't stop thinking about it either and it's a problem lol. i constantly tell my dog he better beat the odds and live until he's 25 😂

[@xojessi]

i'm glad you're feeling better :) nothing like getting sick and feeling so behind in your life!

[@rosiedubs6315]

Girl I read all acotar books in 6 weeks and let me tell you- no regrets I had the best summer ever alone in my room under the protection of Rhys

[@celestekoz]

I agree about the pop with a fast-food sandwich! I usually avoid Coke, but there is one type of sandwich that is just not the same without it! And don't despair about the dating scene: a family member just got married, she's in her early 30's and just had not found the right guy until two years ago. He was not at all what she expected, but he was the right one - so nice, such a gentleman, hard-working. There is hope!

[@receii]

I’ve been a viewer for the longest time but don’t usually take the time to leave a comment. Thanks for being so real and vulnerable, makes so many of us feel seen.

[@charlottedenhartog898]

Feel the same about Jan. We start 2024 in feb❤️‍🔥.

[@katrinacool]

I get that you like the fantasy but it's not real life so I say put the series away and get out into the world. Do it NOW while you're young because- trust me- you will regret. We are all not going to get this time back- you don't want to look back in 5 or 10 years from now wishing you had gotten out more. Glad you are back and feeling better and lots of hugs to Tika!! ☀️🌴🦩☺️😊❤️🥰❤️🥰❤️🥰

[@claudiadn]

you're such a great dog mom, my dog also turns 9 this August but you have to enjoy and cherish all the time you have with your pets.

[@Margaret_Hemenway]

the hourglass skin tint is like my FAVE! and summer friday's too! both 10/10 if you're still looking for a face product.

[@MelissaMerk]

ill check those out!

[@MeganTaylor973]

I feel like we've grown up together and I just always get so much peace from your videos and feel "seen". Thank you for sharing!❣

[@MelissaMerk]

🫶

[@bx012]

January was an emotional rollercoaster for me as well. I started hyper motivated into the new year and i‘m already falling behind my to do list and i was not sick. 😂 than i created much more work and chaos when i accidently set my microwave on fire - well it was more smoking. But still i had to clean the kitchen vom top to bottom to get rid if that intense burning smell. So i guess- it can only get better now.

[@ChelseaTrevor]

Acotar is the best series. Wish I could relive reading it for the first time again lol Sending you love Melissa !! ❤️

[@MelissaMerk]

it really is 🥺❤️

[@suzettelorraine6993]

Love you girl. The guy you are talking about, you won't find on a dating app. Prayers for you honey. May God bless your faith in Him. And bring you your man! ❤

[@easnider]

My cat turns 14 this year and I think about it all the time and it makes me so sad

[@lisaharry5829]

I think about that stuff all the time about my older dog. But I think it is to prep myself emotionally for it when it happens.

[@angelica.4]

ACOTAR

[@sarahg3956]

Loved this vlog! I can relate in so many ways. You are definitely not alone when it comes to how you feel about this current chapter 💛💛

[@allisondouglas8581]

I feel the exact same about my almost 12 year old chocolate lab Coco 😢. But we have to try and enjoy them while we have them❤

[@MsVictoria009]

I have dry acne prone skin and shea butter is extremely pore clogging for me! Might be a good one to try without for a while

[@letakennedy]

Fellow Vancouverite here - I think about my cats passing away too. Sad thing is they are only 1.5 and 4 years old 😩. The struggle is real.

[@whatsarahsaid9758]

I relate to so many parts of this video. More importantly, I also just finished ACOTR and I don’t know if I can emotionally handle the next book. It was so amazing but also wrecked me. Glad someone else can relate!

[@josephinearriaga7028]

The shower does work for me too; great reset.❤❤❤ We all have ups & downs....sometimes too many downs😢

[@emiliacarquez5717]

This is so relatable loved this vid

[@EmilyZapotocny]

No way - the 3rd book is the BEST !! Sadly for us, the male characters were written by a woman 😋 So they might exist only in our fantasies. Don't give up tho! Lots of amazing men out there. It only takes one ❤️

[@CarolynK33]

My dog ended up biting my neighbor who is unfortunately a cop while I was on vacation. I told my mom that I knew it was not a good idea for him to watch her and the situation was totally preventable because they live next door and there was always something territorial going on. I gave my mom months in advanced but our schedules did not align and she waited last minute to find someone to watch her. And even alive and well my mom without me knowing gave her back to the shelter because our neighbor could have sued us or ordered the dog to be put down so even if your dogs are alive cherish them forever. I had no choice in the decision and mourn her every single day. She was my best friend. My mom had an hour talk with the lady at the shelter and that is my only prayer that someone has my dog in their corner to give her a second chance. You never know what can happen alive or not. Just enjoy her while you can. I had so much anxiety with that dog because she was adopted completely wild, we spent 2k on training her ect and I taught her what love was but it was still not enough so just enjoy your dogs while you can and same with people too 😢 life is never what we can expect

[@njag__]

i've literally never related more. LOL. this whole video, it was like you were mirroring my thoughts on everything

[@MsBrittanyBlissful]

I’m watching this vlog because I’m having the same feelings as you. Needed a distraction. So just know you aren’t alone, and thank you for letting me know that I am not alone either.

[@MelissaMerk]

❤️

[@valerie4505]

Real life is hard right now, it’s okay to be consumed by a book, especially if it brings you comfort🤎

[@alexislantz4240]

😍😍 please keep us updated on ACATOR, I’m at the gym now and got a notification book 3 is waiting for me at home!! Book 2 was so amazing, love your videos and waiting you grow!!❤️ stay happy

[@BrutishNShort]

"let's go walk around in wet, gray air" LOL. but I agree that it still feels good afterward

[@lidamorgun5196]

This is my comfort blog 🥹

[@MelissaMerk]

love that 🤗

[@alexandracojocaru5525]

I'm glad that you are feelling much better now. It will be ok. I told you that I'm single as well so I totally understand your mood .... Hugs and kisses❤

[@rgrayson3]

All of this was so relatable! Thank you for sharing

[@nicoleee_marieee]

Acotar is the best series! 💘💘 ⭐️🌙💫✨

[@rebeccaphillips7488]

I hear ya gurl!! I’m ready to be alone & be a cat lady!!!!😂

[@rebeccaphillips7488]

Ok just had to do it!!! Bought the first book ….. I need some fantasy in my life!

[@morganhomewood4789]

I was 100% unwell after I finished the ACOTAR series, but its so worth it.

[@Meliiiiif]

my anxiety would not let me go on a walk in a forrest with my dog alone 😂😂

[@MariaH-lx2qs]

I have read all of those books except for the last one I am going to start it now I won't be off the couch for days😅

[@kendrasurprise]

My dogs are both under 2. I've dealt with pet death several times with past family dogs and it's a horrible feeling. But this for some reason seems worse mainly because they are my very own if that makes any sense at all lol my pets are both so young, but I definitely had this thought even already. 😢 I dread the day to come

[@lisabeck8202]

Vancouver January has been a freakin weird one. I so second that. We've got this... this too shall pass!

[@Kayleefromkansas]

5:11 Tika’s paw!!! ❤ so cute haha

[@kaylad61]

This is very relatable. I think about sad things every single day esp about my pets!😭 I have two horses and three cats. Most of them rescues. It’s torture to have pets and torture not to have them

[@MelissaMerk]

🥺

[@skyesilverwolf8762]

Omg I so agree x

[@sidneymz4445]

I couldn’t relate more with the ups and downs lately. Hope it helps going out more though 🫶🏼

[@isabelc.m9593]

Tika is 9?! Can’t believe I remember the vlog when you went to pick her up!!

[@MelissaMerk]

almost! I can't believe it

[@TheTaylorLayne]

I loved the Ilia super skin serum but it made my skin sooo congested I had to stop using it :(

[@MelissaMerk]

I've heard that from a few people! Sucks cause I love the product

[@jessiebosley1243]

When I read the ACOTAR series, I felt like I barely even lived in the real world and I was incredibly anti-social haha so it's an understandable feeling. But worth it!

[@MelissaMerk]

so relatable ahah

[@Likestorelax]

I can relate. Thank you for sharing ❤

[@Jane-gp2zf]

I've waiting for your video 💛 Feel so happy to start a day ✨

[@HustlerShells]

Those books also absolutely consumed me, I was checked out of reality just escaping into that amazing fantasy land and it is so much fun! But after obsessing about it for a hit afterwards, things do go back to normal, don't worry haha my standards are just a little bit higher now but they will balance out again, just enjoy the books while you read them for the first time!

[@IvyV]

Love your honesty ❤

[@bflyleo]

Stream of consciousness Melissa is the best! I think somewhat fantasy-like men can exist, but they’ll still have their faults (as do we).

[@DaliaAkar]

My dog just turned 11 and I am full of dread... you’re not the only one 💔💔💔

[@manfredbismark6688]

Hello Melissa. Nice to see you back! Have a beautiful day in Canada. Bye. Rudi.

[@BG-rr5fk]

I love the Elf foundation!!! Can you recommend some products to include ?

[@bullsgirl08]

I feel like we are both in a similar place. I was so motivated December and then I also got sick this month as well and now the months over and I feel behind in everything and like it won’t change either. It’s just temporary, we got this! Also, can I ask where that painting/photo of the flowers in the field on the wall is from?

[@MelissaMerk]

I feel good about February :) The art is from Homesense!

[@ervinsmoviecorner8748]

Nice one!❤

[@citrises]

Lol I so relate to fantasy romance vs reality. It makes real life hard lol.. I love the delu. I am no longer reading fantasy romance novels I need to face real life 😭😭😭😭

[@MelissaMerk]

ya I feel this 😅

[@Margaret_Hemenway]

What version of the kindle do you have? Do you like it?

[@MelissaMerk]

I got it in 2019. Its just the basic one, not sure the name

[@Margaret_Hemenway]

@@MelissaMerk all of my friends have recommended ACOTAR to me but I don't know- I tried listening to an audiobook of it and didn't get into it after the first 2 chapters. Does it pick up a lot? Maybe reading it is better which is why I asked about the kindle!

[@JennV-B]

I’m sure you already know this but just in case because we LOVE your fur baby, make sure the essential oils you’re putting in your humidifier aren’t toxic to dogs. A lot of them are. I don’t use them at all anymore.

[@kimberly_ngo]

Omg we are the same! I’ve been in my hermit era, falling in love with fictional male love interests 😂 and then I go on TikTok and the comments from m3n are so 🥴 I just block and go back to reading hahaha

[@malloryknox6802]

Tikka is still young, my dog is almost 14 and he's still doing very well

[@crystalbennett249]

Do you mind mentioning the yoga studio that you went to? Studio that you like?

[@tammyrovo7445]

Do you have alink to your handbag

[@melanieklarin2790]

Agree about the dating part. I read romance novels and it gives me hope but then I realize men aren’t like that in real life 😭😭

[@crystalbennett249]

What book?

[@MelissaMerk]

its a series ! This is the first one amzn.to/3u4sSPU

[@natashamaerz4543]

Do you get your eyebrows microbladed? they look so good!

[@MelissaMerk]

Thank you! I had them microbladed maybe 8 years ago so its 90% or more gone

[@natashamaerz4543]

Fan Girling right now that you answered! Thank you! 😊

[@goldier2264]

I know about the disappointments regarding men. I just want Jack from Virgin River, is that too much to ask for!😂

[@MelissaMerk]

ugh love virgin river. such a comfort show

[@missallicat87]

❤❤❤

[@ksenias2698]

hi, can you tell me the breed of the dog? Thank you😊

[@MelissaMerk]

she's a mini Aussie :)

[@sd-zp3ov]

Shea butter is definitely pore clogging unfortunately

[@MelissaMerk]

😭

[@jessicamduncann]

ACOTAR book boyfriends make us all question things, you're not alone hahaha but happily married for 5 years and can report that men like that do exist

[@nisierocksferia]

Do you lease or own condo? Is it manageable financially. Things are hard in US?

[@alexandracojocaru5525]

Hi! Mellissa owns her own apartment...😊

[@valkyria1976]

I understand you , I wanna live in harry’s potter world. ❤Saludos!

[@reipus]

❤❤❤😊

[@nicoleee_marieee]

& yes there are no Xaden’s in reality lmao jk

[@bugdrawsportraits]

I just came to yell at you for mentioning that book - I started reading two days ago and my life is already ruined 😫

[@MelissaMerk]

aha im sorry !! 😭

[@zaainrajpoot9364]

Superb performance 😍 love you u 🔥 baby Beautiful lovely sweet ♥

[@ashleyr9042]

the best men you will find in life are not living in the city...just sayin :P

[@xta30]

I also just finished the first book of the series!! ahhh it was so good but I also realized that I shouldn’t be reading the second book for now and just focus on light reads. But girl I can relate!! 🎉