Getting myself out of a rut.

[@luna1r]

Damn, this video really called me out. I'm living almost the same daily life - working/studying from home, not really having a lot of friends, not going outside, spending most of my time in front of screens...it gets really draining. Your channel is a huge inspiration for me, I hope you're aware of that!

[@IsabellaDemarko]

A lot of us do unfortunately, but we can always change things around x

[@Denny-up3pi]

Wow feeling the same:/ what an impact had pande*** on our lives🤨

[@IsabellaDemarko]

PLEASE READ: Natural birth control devices are not 100% effective, please do you’re own research or speak to a doctor if considering switching. ALSO: This video is for entertainment not a guide. it only speaks for my own experience and is not intended to speak for all, nor should it be used as a guide for mental health issues. Please bare in mind that there is a lot that was not said in the video in order to keep a short and simple narrative. I am aware that this video is lacking a counter perspective, however I do do always acknowledge it. I am always working to present my content as responsibly as possible. Thank you.

[@madisonsabsoluterandomness5411]

So proud of you 💖 We all get like this sometimes and I’m sure you will find your way out of the rut! I’m sure I’ll come back to this video many times because I feel this way quite often. However I actually find that watching your videos make me snap out of it and get back on track. You are so well spoken, so thank you.

[@IsabellaDemarko]

You’re most welcome thank you for watching x

[@taylorlynn-art]

I’ve been following you for 5-6 years on KZbin originally for the Bratz content, but now I’m invested in your journey! We’re the same age, and I feel like going through these life stages simultaneously. I feel you with this video 💯 Hoping your journey here in the states helps.

[@ellienory8992]

I came off the pill this year - best thing I’ve ever done! Changed everything. I hope it does the same for you! x

[@annikartdeco]

I've felt stuck for so long and although I can't change my surroundings much for now, I for sure could try and make the most of them! This truly inspired me to start actually taking action towards that, thank you. And good luck to your journey, this is very brave!❤

[@IsabellaDemarko]

Thank you! I hope you will find whatever you are looking for x

[@abbeybuchman8927]

You’re always so well spoken.♥️ Really needed this video

[@joegreenslade7577]

This is just the video I needed, I've been feeling in a rut as well. I moved to London after landing my first professional acting role, but now it's come to an end and I just feel like I've lost my mojo; it's only been two weeks 🙄 Nice to know I'm not the only one. I hope you enjoy America, and keep doing things that make you happy!!!!

[@IsabellaDemarko]

I feel you on that one! I need to find my mojo again too

[@LittleMyMiss]

You go girl! I'm actually tearing up watching this because I understand your struggle and know what it's like to feel lonely, depressed and out of place.

[@IsabellaDemarko]

Thank you love x

[@TidesThatVibe]

Love how absolutely real this is. You're wise before your years and so genuine. Rooting for you as you visit my country! 💕👏

[@goldstonezz]

Excuse me? Been following you for ages and honestly im so proud of you. Literally going to the usa??????? HOW CRAZY. Been noticing your uplifted spirit on Instagram and i envy that outlook on life. Im happy for you, thanks for reminding me to be more in touch with reality

[@IsabellaDemarko]

Bless thank you lovely x

[@jennysheets3763]

Love your honesty, transparency! Love this new series ♡♡♡♡♡♡ The struggle you describe will take all of us a lifetime of mistakes, setbacks, and breakthroughs to figure out. It is a daily discipline.

[@IsabellaDemarko]

Indeed it is! X

[@shannonjulie2278]

This is amazing Isabella. The timing of it too. I’ve also been in a rut and severely depressed because of things that have happened to me this year. I’m only just now trying to start to make small changes and also a very big change (moving to the other side of my country) I’m determined to fight to make a better life for myself and I find this video to be really encouraging. I’ve probably said this before over the years, but your videos have always inspired me to do more with my life and now I’m finally doing that. Your channel has always been such a comfort for me, especially during this worst year of my life. I look forward to following your journey as I begin mine also. Congrats on getting to live the America dream! Ive always wanted visit there too! Where you’re staying looks amazing! I can’t wait to see more and I hope this does you the world of good. I wish you nothing but the best. 💖

[@IsabellaDemarko]

Thank you Shannon that means a lot to me that my videos could provide you some comfort xxxx

[@blancasans1525]

I've been feeling this way for a while now too. I am 23 and it's been really really hard for me to find motivation to do anything, even the more basic things or things that I know will improve my mood. I feel like I'm slowly coming out of this rut, and I've realised that the early twenties are so full of big changes that I didn't see coming, that they threw me off. Thanks for this video, it's very brave of you to be so honest about this, I've struggled to talk about it even with my closest friends. Just try to push through this, and it will eventually get better. It helped to think about my life as a tv show, where there are seasons where good things happen, and other seasons where I feel a bit stuck. Sending love

[@mbenzz3717]

Great video! I laughed out loud when you said you were obsessed with America because I've been obsessed with all things English for as long as I can remember! Kings, Queens, the country, the sea, TEA, lol. I adore England and can't wait to get over there someday. I hope you had an amazing time while you were here in the US and that you were able to get out of your rut. ❤

[@msparanoidmonkey]

CHEERING FOR YOU FROM MY KITCHEN IN LONDON! You are such a shining light and I can't wait to see how your 5 weeks in the US go!! YESSSS xxx

[@IsabellaDemarko]

Thank you my love xxx

[@TH4TGVRL]

the girl with the passion for making amazing content is back better then ever- 💕✨

[@mermaidsister8886]

I feel that all of our lives have become this and you are a complete inspiration to fix that! I'm sure you will find your way out of the rut and I wish you good luck while doing so! Hope you enjoy America!

[@IsabellaDemarko]

Hank you x

[@rededwards706]

WOW Isabella, I've been watching you on and off for years and have always felt so much comfort from watching your videos as we have the same aspirations regarding acting for a living, but it's not until now that I feel like we are the same person! The mindset you have etc, It's like a parallel me- I'm not trying to sound weird, but this video resonates with me on such a fresh level.

[@CandyAppleUT789]

Really happy for you that you are motivated to make these good changes in your life. I wish you a safe flight to the United States looks like a beautiful area where you are going. I wish I could join you on your getting out of a rut journey but I have 0 energy right now the only thing I can do is go to my workplace, rest, eat and watch movies. I have also deactivated my Facebook account and I did decide to delete Instagram but I kept Pinterest. Best wishes to you and your family.

[@IsabellaDemarko]

Thank you love, I hope you’ll find your energy again soon ♥️ x

[@CandyAppleUT789]

@@IsabellaDemarko thank you, I am just pregnant right now don’t worry, energy is going to the lil baby!

[@amyblaine7624]

I am in the exact same spot you are. I’m 22 and I feel like I’m just going through the motions of life. I don’t really have active friendships other than my boyfriend, I spend way too much time alone and online, and I don’t really nourish my body or mind nearly as much as I need to. This summer I felt really healthy in all facets of life, but this fall semester at uni really took a lot out of me and my physical and mental health just plummeted. I’ve actually decided to take a semester off to focus on my health. I’ll basically be doing this health journey with you!

[@IsabellaDemarko]

I feel you… I think a lot of us fee the same. It’s so important to take action and look after ourselves. X

[@ivysanders4368]

Thank you so much for always being your authentic self. I hope that you have a wonderful time in the states!

[@missbhoir]

I've never said this for any celebrity ever, but you made go like "you made a fangirl" I mean it!! Wish you loads of love and progress as you discover the sync between your mind soul and body, your purpose and existence in this Universe. It's much more than working and keeping up with social media updates. Your soul is thanking you for giving it a chance to be heard! For giving Yourself much needed dip, fly over roller skates and much more!! Keep up baby girl!

[@rubywillow2794]

I'm right there with you! I feel this. It's so easy to live in a box, and in comfort. This has been a good reminder to challenge my limits! Sending love & good vibes!

[@nourghers]

I have no words. I'm just so proud and motivated by you. Thank you. Love you ❤

[@thefrustratedneetaspirant7777]

Thanks a lot for this video Isabella. I really needed this, you have NO idea how much this video means to me. You are exactly how I imagine myself in my 20s. I am a student and smart phone addiction is literally destroying my academic life. I've tried to do a dopamine fast so many times and always failed but now I'm gonna do it seriously. Thank you again from the BOTTOM OF MY HEART. ❤️

[@IsabellaDemarko]

Thank you so much for such a wonderful comment x

[@Ilikeoatmealmorethanyou]

i'm excited to see where you decided to go to for 5 weeks! there is so much country side in the states to choose from!

[@dmace1331]

I love so much that you are doing this and are so honest about where you are at right now. I am 100% experiencing everything you are talking about. 😘

[@giovannad.2903]

Good luck Bella ♥️ totally relate

[@emaduh]

This is one of the best videos I’ve come across on KZbin ♥️ I wish you all the best in your life, you deserve happiness 💗

[@IsabellaDemarko]

Haha that’s quite a statement! Thank you love x

[@aoifeglynn2828]

Thank you so much for your video I feel the extact same with my life. I really want to put a plan in place to stop feeling this way. So happy that you going to America and looking forward to seeing your adventure x

[@jem4940]

Hey! Love this, If the cup doesn't work for you I really recommend period undies, they're great!

[@kritikamargadarshini2866]

Thank you for this video! It's like, I was blessed with it just when I needed it.

[@niituhh]

This video came out just in time. I'm planning on working from home next year and I've been afraid of falling into that same empty lifestyle. But honestly, I feel too close to you and the fact that your going through something like this makes me feel less alone and more hopeful. So thank you so much for sharing this with us. I´m so happy for you! I deeply hope you find what you're looking for in life

[@IsabellaDemarko]

Thank you and the same to you xxx

[@katehildebrant8420]

Thank you so much for this video! I really needed it.

[@thefrustratedneetaspirant7777]

"Unsure about my future" me too and it's scary!!

[@sylphira9947]

Nice! I also started a mental health and healing journey in September and looking forward to see more of yours!

[@nalu2680]

This is so exciting! Welcome to America, Isabella!

[@KN95X]

I definitely needed to watch this video 👏 the amount of screen time I use on the daily is pretty scary, I find I automatically reach for my phone as soon as I wake up to scroll through Instagram, Facebook etc before doing anything else. Even throughout the day I find myself scrolling, yet it’s still pretty much the same things I’ve already seen.. But feel the need to open apps & scroll, then binge watch tv series in the evenings - next thing the day is over and I feel I’ve hardly accomplished anything 🙃 It’s such an unhealthy habit that needs stopping 😵‍💫 I hope you have the most incredible time in America (not jealous at all..🙄👀) Take care ❤️

[@IsabellaDemarko]

It’s defiantly a struggle most of us face, hopefully we can find ways to break this crazy screen addiction collectively x

[@thefrustratedneetaspirant7777]

Menstrual cup are the MOST comfortable you will never regret using them. I've started using menstrual cup myself and I'm never going back.

[@jessbroughton8734]

you also have a good point social media has recked my brain ever since I started using it x love ur vids x .. jess :)

[@suaadinterests]

I feel you ♥️

[@joseewasmer2774]

You're so right, I think I have to make some changes too especially regarding social media

[@merlokiii]

I felt/feel the same, despite I interact with people everyday. But I don't go outside that often, I don't have a clear routine, little motivation, I feel easily drained. I know it won't last, but sometimes I really feel low 😅

[@DaisyRockbell]

i love your bare honesty i have been feeling the exact same way and want to move or leave the country (im from germany) but i really dont know where to start and how to finance everything, atm im on my apprenticeship but i really hate to work a 5`8 and i have been falling in a depressing hole for the past months

[@justicemcrae4619]

This is SO exciting for you! You’ll smash it 💖💖 I wish you could see all your accomplishments from an outsiders POV xxx

[@IsabellaDemarko]

Aw thank you

[@LiveLoveLacee]

Yes!! I needed this, thank you 💜

[@jennibeefit1454]

i love this!!!! im so happy for you☺️

[@chevalsauer]

Hi gurl, I guess I thought that you would take up the rollerblading like crazy, but thats me, I'm 50 and loving it!!! It is very therapeutic and I believe that it will give you all the good stuff your body and brains loves and needs, just a tip. Do you need some serious tips on Rollerblading that I can give you??? Take care

[@samanthaflatt6154]

Girl this is exactly what I need!

[@Диана-м5щ4ж]

I have the same problems! But I don't have parents :/ So I will go to the doctor and to the psychologist to try to get myself back together.

[@robynhitchen7820]

I think its such an important message to say that you have a good life but you're just not living it right. It makes it seem less of a task to turn things around.

[@lelo1489]

Sounds like a great series

[@BiancaMelrose]

I needed this video🙏🏾thanks for sharing and being so open in this video Isabella💜💜💜

[@IsabellaDemarko]

Thank you Bianca xxxxx

[@bal9944]

Your KZbin channel is great ❤️❤️ you're doing well baby

[@jjelazcezar2405]

Great motivation 😍 let's do this together 💪🏻😊

[@marinowy8998]

Wow I didn't expect this. I am excited for the next videos and let's all get out of a rut together guys. The moment I'm writing this comment I'm supposed to be doing homework for university lol.

[@cleophea777]

lovely video and amazing plan!! all the best from Switzerland!!❣🌟❣🌈🎀

[@allierenee5545]

Omg I’m so excited to see future videos

[@willowm9577]

wow this is so relatable. i love this video

[@marialauroba5772]

Loved the video!! Update please

[@dolphychauhan7463]

you can do it girl love you

[@CallMeQuietASMR]

I’m less than 2 minutes in and already you’ve described me to a T! 😅

[@thenailpolishbottle7267]

I am excited for you!!!

[@imti7593]

Hey.. Love you, girl! You are the most beautiful woman ♥️

[@imawakemymindisalive13]

me watching this like: wait… i’m supposed to feel happy with my daily life?

[@Mandi.Pandi.]

I'm excited to watch your journey :) this video already motivated me to get up off my butt lol

[@clarisse917]

Loved this!

[@alfiaashraf]

Many likes to this video Leading to real life rather the screen

[@ameliaroach7995]

I hope you enjoy being in the States!

[@FourThousandMilesTogether]

Yessss this is so relatable!! Also gave me Georgia from Angus thongs and perfect snogging vibes when she throws out all her magazines, stops eating chips and listens to dolphin music 😆❤️

[@IsabellaDemarko]

Hahah x

[@l.j6034]

I needed this video well done girly xx

[@Amy-cv2cq]

I’m literally in the same situation, but for me is difficult because it has caused me some kind of depression

[@Amy-cv2cq]

So excitiiiiing your journey 🥰

[@bal9944]

By the way, I work in a club, and trust me, instagram models do NOT look like that in real life at all, they look like two completely different people, so, girls, don't bring you down, because it's just photoshop. Not to mention, there was this girl who had gorgeous blue eyes on Instagram, and she went to the club and she had brown eyes... Everything is fake

[@Amy19959]

Eeek theres got to be a better choice for contraception for you!! Those natural ones are notorious for accidental pregnancies. ✋ speaking from experience. I did EVERYTHING RIGHT and still ended up with an unwanted pregnancy within 2 years. Worst experience of my life. And so many women have lived that experience with those methods. I now have a copper IUD and I'm much happier with that. Still not hormonal BC and much more effective than "natural" methods! Anyway, hope you're doing well and good luck in the US!

[@JBO2493]

I hope people heed your warning. It was irresponsible to post this without a disclaimer. Catholic style birth control only works to limit pregnancies, not prevent them altogether.

[@IsabellaDemarko]

Thank you for the feedback I will keep that in mind!! Xxx

[@IsabellaDemarko]

@@JBO2493 I didn’t even encourage anyone to use it, I said was I was switching to it for my own reasons. Hardly irresponsible but I guess I can’t please everyone.

[@Amy19959]

@@IsabellaDemarko thanks for your reply! :) yes, please just look into how many women have had it fail them!! I don't want you to have to go through that if you don't have to 😬 I hope you find something that works for you, and is safe and effective! I also hope you find a balance with working online because I always really enjoy your videos and I hope you can be happy making them 😊

[@JBO2493]

@@IsabellaDemarko Hardly irresponsible? The UK has the highest rates of teen pregnancy in Western Europe. KZbin is a public platform with viewers as young as ten. You’ve just posted a video, supposedly about improving mental health, in which you scapegoat the contraceptive pill and plug a book advocating ineffective birth control methods as a solution. You don’t get to sidestep accountability like that.

[@sillygoosegoose]

there's a google extension which blocks the youtube homepage! i think it's unhook

[@amanda6044]

A bit conflicted about this video. I think it's good to reflect on your situation now and then, especially when you're in a rut. But video’s like this are always the same; go to a different country, have some revelations, and life (with some changes) is good again. I always wonder if it really is a solution, and if it is not better to try it without drastically turn your life upside down (for example how would people who are tight to their place would do it?). I do think it is a missed opportunity when you talked about the cons of KZbin to not delve deeper into the subject. You say it does not give you structure to life, that you do not have colleagues, and you do not have a fixed income (but thankfully you do have some savings). But instead of the option of taking a side-job as an addition to your KZbin-work (one or two days can be enough to give you more structure, to have more contact with other people, etc.), you only talked about reading more non-fiction books, go more outside, and go to America. And that this will be the solution. I think it would be wise to mention that the new birth control you’re using is not as reliable a method as the condom or the birth control pill are. Be careful of the age of the audience. I know most people will learn this information in high school but still.

[@ImpetuousPorkus]

Those are all really great points. It’s certainly a blessed life if “smaller”changes are their solution. There are quite a few people I work with who are self employed via freelancing or they own their own business. This side job does give them structure and forces them to be able to complete their main job before being able to work their side one. There does seem to be a movement of women who are taking their birth control into their own hands, which is great to have more control. However, it’s been well documented that the fertility method alone isn’t as effective as condoms or other hormone-free methods like the copper IUD.

[@JBO2493]

Thanks for this. When I was 25 and in a rut, I went to India. It was enlightening but ultimately didn’t solve anything. I was running away from my responsibilities/adulting and those were still around when I got home. Also 100% agree that natural ‘catholic style’ fertility is dodgy as hell for someone who really doesn’t want to get pregnant.

[@IsabellaDemarko]

Hi Amanda, thanks for your feedback. I was expecting this comment, because I also had pretty much your exact thoughts while making this video (hence it taking me 2 months to pluck up the courage to post it) I have written and re-written the script too many times to count, trying to keep it as short and simple as possible. originally I did acknowledge the fact that a lot of people don’t have the opportunity to leave their current situation, there was also a lot more details about how making these cliche changes aren’t always the answer. Perhaps I should have left those parts in, but I continued to second guess myself, worried that people would take it the wrong way or that it all just sounded like utter bullshit! All I ask, is please understand that sometimes it is just not possible to fit all my thoughts, concerns, disclaimers and acknowledgment of the other side of the argument into one short consise video. I see the faults in the video, I was afraid of you’re exact comment, Amanda. but there comes a point where you’ve worked on something so long you’ve just got to hold on to your balls and release what you’ve created. I am still learning how to present myself as responsibly as possible, but I’ve found I always miss something no matter how much I re-write, re-edit and scrutinise myself. However, I am always always trying.

[@IsabellaDemarko]

@@ImpetuousPorkus I will certainly be mentioning the risks if I speak about natural birth control again! I tried to be careful with my wording as not to encourage the use of it, just to mention I was switching to it. However I do think I should have made a disclaimer!

[@buzziness4926]

I don't get it. I'm 10 I don't know what this is about??? 😕😕😕

[@EssenceofPolish]

Posted at the most perfect timing!! 😓😢

[@lottielee7440]

I wish I could do this but I’m chronically ill so I can barley leave the house

[@openfire]

When influencers talk about how much they dislike social media I feel like they’re asking me to unsubscribe.

[@JBO2493]

Haha! 😂

[@IsabellaDemarko]

I won’t try to stop you if you feel it would help you ! x

[@frogsarebtches3888]

for the place she is going ahy do I feel like its wisconsin

[@naomi2546]

Jesus

[@binirobinson4648]

Hi I think I’m first

[@himynameisriya]

Heyyy

[@_san_flower_]

Natural birth control method??? 🤦🏼‍♀️

[@shanec3610]

Omg when you started talking about periods I was sorry gurl I can’t relate

[@lalisabee1351]

Get a Dog! :D

[@fsmishere5992]

This was a very positive video but i feel like i have to point out that being ridden is not healthy for horsies and it changes their spine shape and causes back pain. Good luck with your journey.

[@danielanunez3556]

First of all- YOU HAVE NOTHING ON YOUR WALLS? Bruh g e t s o m e t h I n g t h e r e

[@IsabellaDemarko]

The flat was rented, I wasn’t allowed.

[@Диана-м5щ4ж]

why not to use condoms? or you are looking for double protection?

[@roxanaskittless9583]

Who knew after your teenage years life goes downhill

[@Samiegcacho17]

What happened to your red hair?

[@samwilliams2244]

Are you going to be a visa digger?

[@IsabellaDemarko]

Yes.

[@lunamelinoe_]

I love your 'Hi' and 'bye' .....no big deals... nothing fancy....just. perfect 😊✨ And yes....i will be waiting for your updates every single time and i am eager to see you out of that rut and live life to the fullest and get your health back both physical and emotional. Lots n Lots of love dear Isabella.. Love Karumbikurimbie✨❣️💗💖💝

[@IsabellaDemarko]

Thank you love x

[@lunamelinoe_]

@@IsabellaDemarko 😘✨🥰

[@Erdf3542]

I don’t have instagram, snapchat or tiktok. I have facebook for family members but don’t post on it. I’m 28 and I noticed a few years ago how social media was having a really bad effect on my mental health. Ever since I stopped scrolling down on other people’s feed I have noticed that I’m much more comfortable in my body as well as where I’m at in life. I have also implemented that I don’t need to be available to others 24/7 just because we all have smartphones. Good on you for noticing what’s causing you harm.

[@IsabellaDemarko]

Yes it’s very true x

[@lelo1489]

Sounds like a great series

[@florabliss6664]

Your life is so relatable to mine…in a bit different way ….this is so motivational for a challenged life that not only helps to beat procrastination, taking care of our health ,and grow our life into more successful fruitful existence. Lots of love ❤️.

[@IsabellaDemarko]

♥️

[@timwiesenfeld8031]

I dropped the pill too and beware, it takes time to come back to normal. I took it 4 years and it took me 8 mths to get my period back and then another 2 yrs to have it regulary. Changing my sex drive etc was an equal struggle.

[@2OO666]

Love you so much

[@erikagonianaki]

I loved it 😍 I'm hoping you'll find everything you need to make your life complete