Ghostwire Tokyo's DEPRESSINGLY Perfect Culture of Japan - Gaijin Goombah

[@Zegaexiron]

Video Starts: "Oh boy, culture!" Video Ends: "I'm not crying, *you're* crying!"

[@girl1213]

No one's pain is dumb. You love something, it lets you down, and it hurts because you love it and it's not fair it doesn't appreciate it. Dumb is an excuse for those who justify their own bad behavior towards others.

[@thechosenbeastdoesgames956]

could not have said it better myself. Gaijin Goombah is many things but dumb is about as far from what he is as can be. He has been such an inspiration for me in many aspects.

[@gabrielswee585]

💯❤️👍🏻

[@fogblades6811]

Very wise words

[@unknownchoujin1436]

When Gaijin went on his rant about how he missed Japan, I felt that in my soul. I've never been there, but I hope to one day visit, if not stay there. That mixed with the music in the game almost made me shed tears. I hope things get better and that we'll be able to go to Japan soon.

[@lchassefang]

I can feel it too. It's like walking through a memory of that one special place that you connect to on a level not measured by any means, and knowing that, at this current moment, you can do nothing to go back there.

[@ebindelgado9660]

I've loved Japan ever since I was a poor Latino child with a sushi making father. My one and only dream is to go there. But the more I see Japan rejecting foreigners, the more my dream drifts away. But I'm not giving up my dream that easy

[@Nod_Lucario]

I was born in Japan, almost 30 years ago. I want to visit the country someday, see it in full. Maybe not necessarily go to Tokyo or Kyoto, or visit the large indoor swimming pool (I fogrot where it's at, but I think it's in the south, probably in Kyushu). But to one day go to Aomori prefecture, close to where I was born. Just see what it's like there, because I was too young to remember what happened there, before my family moved to Hawaii. I hope one day to actually see Japan with my own eyes. Just to truly experience it for once in my life.

[@christinalittleton3771]

Me too. But due to how we're not sure if it's safe to travel by boat or by plane due to how rare the crashes are, I'm not really sure, but it doesn't stop me from learning more about Japan and its culture. This may sound crazy, but sometimes, I would pretend that I'm there... even though we don't have what they have.

[@vahlok1426]

I've wanted to go to Japan long before it was considered weebish or overly popular and the like, so yeah me too. I want to see the cities, the countryside, meet the people, etc. A few years ago, I had a Japanese professor in college, and she knew how much I wanted to go and wanted me to go on her study abroad class to Japan. I would've too, but I could never afford it. Then Covid hit, and I thought I never would would get the chance to, and I feel I never will still.

[@deanospimoniful]

Not sure what to say bro, but you are not alone. There are people out there that care about you and want to support you (as Aki has definitely indicated). Don't give up hope. We'll celebrate with you when that day comes that you set foot on Japanese soil again. God bless, man.

[@Dai-Dye-Dan]

Came for the entertainment, stayed for the feels. Chin-up Gaijin, it'll get better.

[@goffrd137]

I'd love to see that second video on Ghostwire, GG. For a number of reasons I likely won't visit Japan but I'd love to do so. I enjoy how honest you are about Japan as a nation and culture; the good and the bad. I think there are things that I feel Japan can teach western culture. Some of which you address in this

[@iaxacs3801]

Thanks Gaijin I saw the lower reviewer score and was disappointed that this game, despite me being so excited for it, wouldn't be for me. Now it's gone back up the list and I can't wait to play it when I can

[@bthsr7113]

I've heard the gameplay is good mostly.

[@monroerobbins7551]

Honestly, when I first saw Ghostwire, I was expecting GG to cover more of the social commentary in the umbrella wielding, constantly smiling enemies. But… this, the message, hearing GG talk about how this game made him cry, and reminded him of a place and culture he loved? If he does read these comments, I hope he remembers that it’s not dumb. I felt the same when I played and saw What Remains of Edith Finch. Every time I saw that game, it reminded me of my grandmother, and her house, and her mannerisms… so don’t feel dumb, about your feelings. Being reminded of stuff you feel you can’t reach out to again, or that there’s a wall you can’t surmount? I relate, and a lot of others do too, with things that hit close to how you feel, too. Sympathy, mate. Hope you’re well.

[@NottJoeyOfficial]

God, I have had a love of Japan since I was a child. My first experience with Japanese culture was Nintendo games and your videos so many years ago. Back in October 2019, I went to Tokyo for 2 weeks with my friend and it was the best experience of my life. I had finally achieved a childhood goal of going to Japan and it made me so happy. I even got a fortune at a shrine where my travel fortune was that I would visit a place I always wanted to as a child, and it made me smile. I remember coming home after those two weeks and being so excited to go again. I have been wanting to go back again ever since, and I've even come up with the idea of my dream job being going to Japan and just making videos for people on different aspects of the culture. I'm so happy I got to experience that before covid hit, because it's so sad seeing how many things I enjoyed while there just so recently have changed due to covid. If going there once for 2 weeks has changed my entire life and what I want to do in the future, I can't imagine having lived there for a while and not being allowed back, I'm going crazy because I won't be able to visit for the foreseeable future. Thank you for another great video, I love seeing you talk honestly about your time in Japan and spreading information on the different aspects of the culture. Hopefully they'll open back up soon enough, I'd love to see you make more content while in Japan again. I always find your videos to be some of the best on Japanese culture there are, and it always makes me happy to see more!

[@purehyper124]

Please do not say God as a reaction to something.

[@SnaxTheSnaxolotl]

Gaijin I understand how you feel. I felt this way after Covid started just after leaving for home after visiting my fiancé

[@dracotitandovahkii7175]

*hugs in compassion* You're not foolish, it's alright to miss a place that you love.

[@insainraven9875]

Man this second half hurts like hell, I was set to spend two weeks in Japan, a dream vacation and a life goal of mine two weeks ago. My girlfriend saw how bummed I was and we went on a weeklong Japanese week, we made home made steak stir fry, watched anime dramas, made fluffy Japanese pancakes. It was fun but it was also a painful a reminder of what could have been

[@ShyDigi]

Keep your chin up! Japan is planning to open their borders sometime in the next few months, with an exact date being decided upon after the trial runs this month!

[@Gochen86]

After seeing this video, my desire to get and play this game to 100% completion (something I almost never do in games) has only increased. Heck, I'm probably gonna go over to Twitch and just watch the streams if they're still up. And as someone who has always wanted to travel internationally to not only Japan, but multiple countries worldwide, yet has never been in a financially secure enough place to do so, and couple with the fact that I'm a very empathic individual, the pain in Gaijin's voice as he recounted the memories nearly brought me to tears. That is a pain that is not only physical, but a pain that seeps into the very core of your soul.

[@Z0N1C38]

I have probably never commented on any one of these videos, but hearing just how much pain and sorrow lives in the heart of Gaijin, it struck me the same. It hurts so much because I wanted to travel to the country on a food and spiritual, and cultural journey to see what I can see and learn everything I can about one of my favorite places. I'm sure many of the Vtubers residing and born on Japanese soil wish for the same thing as you do Gaijin. We just need patience. Stay strong dude

[@AkiterraVarlineau]

(hugs my hubby because I love him)

[@Shadow952013]

Huh, would've figured that they might have gone a little more esoteric with some of the yokai... Still looks fun, can't wait to get my hands on it

[@Tzen03]

Thank you for being so open, GG! It was really heart-warming to hear your thoughts and feelings on this one, and props to the developers for making such a game that could make you feel like that. You're definitely not alone with missing a place in your heart, and one day things will get better. Keep your head up, Sir!

[@Apophis324]

Honestly, I don't agree with you saying that your emotional experiences through nostalgia were a dumb thing. Not at all. I think that is what nostalgia does best, bring that memory of good times back, along with a hint of longing for things being as they were in your memories. Mix that with the fact that a lot of your nostalgic feelings that came from this game are memories you could totally try to recreate, were you only allowed to go back. Contrary to regular bouts of nostalgia, that are often linked to a time in one's life that was more carefree and easy, times that cannot be recreated, your nostalgic feelings are tied to physical places, real products and people, existing things. It makes it all the more tough that you could be reliving these feelings for real if the world was different than it is at this moment. Have faith, Gaijin. Eventually there will come a moment that you can step through those Torii gates into the bright world of your memories.

[@namnams1495]

That talk about you missing being in Japan made me sad, not like bad sad, but just I just felt sad for you, especially the twitch chat part, where they could even tell you were going through something. And the line "Trying not to ball my eyes out on stream" (probably misquoted it) hits heavy with me as nearly every week this term of college I've been trying to hold back from emotional collapse while talking/cooking with my roommate because the stress I've been dealing with this term and how much I've been overwhelmed. Thanks for the video and the Japan talk, it was something I can't describe well but I'm glad I had this video to watch :)

[@XionEternum]

I've been playing this game awestruck by how... good it would feel to live in a place that wasn't so car-dependent. Literally being able to visit like 5 unique places be them shops or friends' places in the time it takes me to walk a couple miles. A couple miles of seemingly endless road flanked by anywhere from nothing interesting (most often) to farms, forests, large parking lots, needlessly massive buildings, and anything and everything you're not "meant" to walk or bicycle to. Then there's the cultural sights and iconography that make me think, "I learned about that from Gaijin Goobah!" and I'm so glad you made a video on this, but I am sorry it hurt you so much. I hope you are able to go back soon~

[@tlaren]

I'll admit, I'm a bit emotionally raw due to some personal news of my own from yesterday, but hearing you go off on why you miss Japan so hard... it really struck a chord with me too. We'll get back to normal again, in time. It hurts, but... the pain will fade. And we'll be back home soon enough.

[@jawllypop1750]

This was an amazing video, and also so very sad. Japan needs to realize that Covid is not our fault. And nobody is going to fully recover until they open up to the world again. We need Japan as much as they need us. During these harsh years, we need each other to stand together and overcome this terrible time. Not to cut off completely.

[@bthsr7113]

We, or at least certain current and former politicians, are at fault for not taking the pandemic seriously and providing strong leadership on combatting a serious epidemic, but it is true that NO nation can thrive alone. Not even the USA can thrive alone, and we're sitting on a lot of nice assets.

[@Kaeram_Archives]

@@bthsr7113 "We, or at least certain current and former politicians, are at fault for not taking the pandemic seriously and providing strong leadership on combatting a serious epidemic" Hard disagree with that, after seeing certain countries/states having a laxed attitude towards it and coming off of it reasonably well. The only thing plaguing the world now is people still trying to latch on to the whole "Serious Epidemic" deal and are keeping EVERYONE from moving on, not just themselves.

[@jonathangoodwin5609]

I agree. Though I also understand. I mean, I can see that they worry that if they reopen TOO early, all of the progress we made could go to waste and things will go back to the disaster it was at the beginning. It is unlikely to happen, but I can understand that concern.

[@pikajew3578]

@@bthsr7113 ''NO nation can thrive alone.'' Japan from 1603 to 1868: Am i a joke to you?

[@pikajew3578]

@@bthsr7113 Also, no country has a moral obligation to let outsiders in or allow them to stay. That's just a subversive leftist argument made by those who wish to see the native population of countries like Japan, USA & those in Europe replaced with those of foreign blood. I'm not saying that's what you are necessarily but it is a good idea to consider the things you say and what they advocate before posting them.

[@EvynTheBooksmith]

I had to stop the video at 12:30 to say this before it slipped my mind. There is no way, not a single way, that I can allow you to say that it is dumb to be upset and sad about missing a place that means so much to you. I don't know much about Japan, but it is a place I would like to visit given the chance. However, that fades in comparison to those people who have spend time in the country. Those who have studied the language, the culture, the history, and who just wants to be a part of a place they feel connected to. To be shut out, to be gatekept, just because of the unfortunate circumstance that you wasn't born there. It is such BS and I completely understand why it makes you feel the way you feel. I will now return to watching the last few minutes of the video, but I just wanted to say a few words. I truly hope Japan will open its borders again, how unlikely that may seem, so that you can come back to a place where you have a few roots in the past.

[@kitsunehanyou09]

I can't wait to see more of your videos, especially the Pocky and Rocky one 👀. It may be difficult and this suggestion can be ignored, but it'd be kinda cool if you were able to Collab with Shogo again or with Nobita when you do the video on Japan's sociocultural issues made manifest in the game. Excellent work, GG! Here's hoping that Japan's doors open again

[@elizabethj9358]

It's not dumb at all!!! English immigrant living in America here. When you've lived and breathed in two cultures you get split into two pieces, one in each country and the only way to reunite them is to travel back and forth from time to time. Covid made that impossible for me too, and when I got Pokemon Sword, I did the exact some thing. I found places in the game that looked EXACTLY like England and I'd just get lost in them. It is not dumb to have two homes and it is not dumb to feel sad or to miss one of them, especially in situations like this. That's just what people who've lived in America their whole lives want you to think.

[@Kankan_Mahadi]

I love the hard hat tanuki the most & I think a vending machine with a tanuki tail is adorable. I'd love to see how a kami used her "amazing rack" to save Japan twice!

[@johnsonbaroncaveler6634]

The second half of this video... Hoo boy. My heart cries out for you Gaijin. I can't fully comfort you with the knowledge I have or the words I can say, and my experiences will not fully resonate with others as much as yours but know that your pain is as valid and truthful. A lot of people also want to live the life they want to find in Japan, myself included, so the fact that in these trying times the borders are closed, fully hurts. No pain is invalid or unwarranted for its worth. Pain and sorrow is a genuine feeling that comes with attachment to what you love.

[@TheSubjectx]

I feel you man, I planed a vacation to Japan in 2019, and it would have been my first time going. my plan was to go in 2020 during the cherry blossom season. I also wanted to tour most of Tokyo, Kyoto, and Osaka. I had worked tirelessly at my job, and even skipped meals to save enough money. When 2020 hit I was excited to go, But I remember the rumors of a virus floating around. I was leaving in April, but the country locked down before I could go. This game was a lot of fun to play, but it was a bitter sweet because this game was kinda like filling that void to me because the main selling point to me was I could see and walk around tokyo. Hopefully in the coming future we both can go to japan.

[@billyjoneswatson]

Wow, I never been to Japan and this man got me emotional about Japan's Lockdown. Just so much emotions toward the end of the vid. I wasn't able to catch the streams cause of college but wow... I really felt those emotions. No Doubt it's raw and it must have hurt more to try and edit those words down to fit within the vid. Honestly, I grew up with Anime and Manga as a kid. And as I grew, my love deepened with my own research into the culture. I fell crazy in love with Yokai, the Baku becoming my absolute favorite. Every day I learn more and more about Japan. And your channel plays a huge part. The amount of times I have sent a link to a friend to help explain things. HECK! I remember using your vids as a reference Material in a College Presentation. I want to see Japan so badly but man... If I was given the first ticket to Japan... I would, without a doubt, hand that ticket to you. And I hope that ticket arrives to you soon. Thank you for the amazing content you make.

[@xyzen9673]

When i saw the depressing in the title, i tought he was gonna talking about how the faceless suit yokais. And how it reflects japanese work culture, how every office worker is just a faceless cog in a machine... But it was about how... Xenophobic? Japan is

[@trashman1605]

I'm not saying that no Japanese citizen is xenophobic but it's mostly people in power just like a ton of other countries

[@rayq4235]

Can you elaborate? because i don't get what you mean

[@xyzen9673]

@@rayq4235 the work culture in japan is super toxic... If you dont work overtime, you will never get a promotion and it wont even be paid overtime... They have no time for their families and are basically just walking husks of men... They have to conform to society or they will be discriminated against. Thats also why they are xenophobic... The majority want to be part of a singular society and anything not part of that society scares them. They arent racist they just dont want change. They want "normal". And whats normal to them is the society they live in... Unfortunately they have adopted a closed minded mentality for too long... Now back to the faceless suit yokais. They are the fodder, the faceless cogs of society... They embody the "society first" mentality of the japanese.

[@0TanookiSuit0]

I understand where you're coming from, BUT, what other game has done a 1 to 1 interpretation? I think it's nice to see it that way for once since 99% of other media does put their own spin on it.

[@TheCreepypro]

we were never meant to carry the pain of this life alone thank you for sharing it means more than you know to us your fans

[@MercuryAlphaInc]

You can feel the absolute love for Japan in every word you said there at the end, Gaijin, so it's not hard to empathise with how you feel. And as someone who'd love to visit Japan someday, I definitely can empathise (especially since your videos on their culture have fanned those flames for a while now).

[@Crimsontears83]

I think you forget how proud of their culture Japan is. Also, how happy they are to share that culture with others. A game that "just" shows the culture is new and interesting to foreigners and still interesting to the Japanese. As for your feels for missing Japan, I totally get it. It's the main reason I don't plan on leaving. I currently live in Aomori and my parents often ask when I am coming back. I told them that I know soooo many who went back to America only to miss Japan and want to move back and can't due to planting new roots and family in America. Even when my dad brought up his friend who moved back to America as an argument for me going back I asked does he regret leaving and my dad was like, "Yeah he actually misses it a lot". So yeah, I have no want to leave the country. Lastly, i feel you're being a little hard and dare I say selfish(i know that sounds harsh) when it comes to the country opening up. Like I said, I totally understand, but you're looking at it from a place of one person wanting to do a thing. Not from someone trying to do whats best for an entire country. Given how far the yen has fallen I'm pretty sure they want to open things up and get tourists back into the country. But they also want to keep the people safe and bring the covid numbers down as far as possible. And I certainly won't say the countries views of foreigners doesn't hold some sway on if they open things up. I have seen people treat me different just because I am foreign and be a bit more worried about covid even though they know I live here. But it's more about trying to find the right time to open things up. Yes, people are vacinated but the longer we go around spreading it back and forth to each other we might get yet another varient and it could spark things up again. Trust me, i want things to open up again too. I haven't seen my family and friends in America in four years, but I can't visit until I can be sure I will be able to get back here to Japan. Just try to be patient man. It will open up again soon then the first round is on me......if we meet that is lol

[@namonaisonzai9336]

15:10 "Mata au hi made" *Starts bawling * You're not alone and your feelings aren't stupid man. A lot of dreams have been shattered because of these decisions Japan's made... Hang in there.

[@AndrewTraver]

Yes! Ive been waiting on a ghostwire video! Wasn't much that happened in the game, but to have it broken open by you is what I've been really waiting on XD

[@ArifXero]

This is way wayyy below what Gaijin is feeling, as someone who spent 15 years there. But hearing him rant kinda got to me and I wanna share my story, if as a rant. Back in 2019/2020, I was nominated by my university, to go to a Uni in Japan, as part of a mobility program. Nothing major, just a semester, 6 months in Japan. I'm basically done with most of my credits and extra curriculars and my undergrad thesis. All I had left was my internship. I was ready to postpone that final semester and repeat it for a chance to go to Japan. I met people through events from that Uni, and they even offered to be my guide when I reach there. I wanted to experience what it felt like to study abroad, an opportunity I didn't get to experience before. And then COVID happen and everything was put to an immediate hold. Months pass and nothing changed. Borders stayed closed and time went on. I did my internship and waited and waited. I had the option to do an online mobility but, I knew it wasn't the same. At the end of the day, I had to cancel the mobility program, and as of writing this I already graduated. My "last hurrah" of my undergrad days are gone. The doors I so desperately waited for stayed shut and I'm bitter. Some of my friends got to go to other countries as the borders relaxed and opened. Canada, USA, etc. Some of my other friends got to travel to Europe with money saved etc, and I'm just stuck here in my home country, happy and bitter at my friends. It's a ramble and I'm sorry for taking your time with my "all-over-the-place" story with no point. Thanks Gaijin for your amazing content, and while I'll never feel the pain you feel, just know that the community you created here on KZbin are forever grateful to you.

[@saintoflastresorts2272]

While Japan will eventually open up it might not be the same Japan. Just be happy that you had the opportunity to visit a pre covid japan

[@rylansato]

Dude, I feel you. I was depressed returning stateside after a year in Japan as I didn’t feel I belong in America and my calling was in japan. Fortunately I returned in 2016. Now, I worry about my family coming for a visit to officially meet their granddaughter. I worry they never will get the chance. I don’t think Japan’s border status has to do with vaccines and mask as they allowed the Olympics to happen regardless. But more so with the government’s inability to suddenly break out of a situation. Japan doesn’t like sudden change. The Japanese have been in this situation for over 2 years and are used to it. Despite being one of the least affected countries, Japan is acting too cautious when other countries have opened. I think they should open up and go back to normal. Too many people are mentally affected by their actions and it’s why suicides up. Let’s be real here, since when has japan actually cared about suicide? If they actually cared about the mental stability of people then they’d open up and go back to normal.

[@antoinewilliams290]

Getting homesick is normal to everyone who felt that way when love a place and enjoy. Sad to remember at first it at first but don't forget to remember the good times.

[@loganandreassen2821]

This was actually beautiful. I loved watching your channel learning about things, and for the past years(it was at least long before 2020) I was depressed, often alone(either by choice or not), and felt like I was trapped in a sinking hourglass. But overtime I was inspired to write haikus because I was so fascinated to the culture I didn’t see before. Thank you for the years Gaijin Goombah. Enjoy my addition to the subscribers.

[@sylvanstrength7520]

EDIT: Much love to you, man! I felt your sadness hardcore and I feel it too even though I’ve never been. Ahhh! I was thinking you weren’t going to mention the social commentary and there you pointed it out at the very end as a potential future video! I want so badly to visit Japan someday but I’m not sure how many years it will be before I can afford it. Shinto and Buddhism are my primary faiths and I have great respect for the culture and for kami-however my lack of physical connection to Japan is causing things to be more difficult for me.

[@deucesommerfeld1248]

I have always wanted to travel to Japan, and you actually gave me inspiration to go and check out some cool sites. When Covid hit, I was wondering if Japan would open it's doors again. And then I heard about the travel ban, and it was so saddening. Hearing you open up and talk about your stories in Japan and hearing how much you miss being on Japanese Soil, it's very touching. Have faith, believe in the possibility! We'll both go to Japan someday, I have hope.

[@happyhatebot]

This is a great video in a way on the power of immersion. Where if you do all of the little set pieces right in a book, a movie, a game, or what have you... You don't just show, or tell, an audience about the events depicted. You *take* them there, and lead them by the hand as you tell the story. And all of the emotion and information you can wrap up in something as simple as a walk down a street can have so much impact. Looking forward to hearing your triumphant tale of return to a place you love so much, mate. And I'm sure I'll still be right here watching each update with rapt attention, as someone who also just loves culture and history in general.

[@drpretzel2086]

Tanuki: life’s full of ups and downs. Me: you ain’t wrong Tanuki you ain’t wrong I just wish the ups were in sight

[@Nekomancer69]

Get over it. You will go back eventually and you still have the memories.

[@wuba5456]

Listening to how you missed Japan but it didn't seem like it'd open its doors made me feel so sad, but then the potential for more videos and "DID HE SAY 'SOCIAL PROBLEMS'" made me more excited, I hope you feel better and continue telling us about Japan until you can return there

[@GM_Darius]

I've been there, Gaijin. No where near as far as Japan, but stepping into any game that has an environment akin to northern Vermont - vast, green spaces of pines, that feint feel of cold in the air, the small urban areas that are just pockets of people - it easily makes me miss where I grew up and places where there is more nature than people, while still having a feeling of not being too far from civilization.

[@trapsaltnburn]

I'd love to see that other Ghostwire video, when you're comfortable making it. I thought of you immediately when I started playing the game, and I'm glad to hear the game is as accurate as it is. And you've given me a lot to think about. Thank you for that!

[@thesharkpianist]

Watched this video alongside you and others, on Rabbit's stream. Wow, that ending monologue hurts a lot. I can't say it's the exact equivalent, but I know what it's like to have a place that's so integral to your identity stripped from you. It takes time before the healing begins, for sure. I hope you're in a better state than when you uploaded the video, and may strange musical mashups bless your day.

[@daviddent5662]

If ever there was a need for a double like button it was this video. I hear the pain in your voice at not being able to go back and I think of a member our Discord who went as a student studying abroad and is brought to tears nearly every time somebody posts something about Japan in RL. It KILLS me to not be able to comfort him as I got over my wandering heart wanting to live in Japan some years back when I had to stay on my family farm. I study the ways of the Samurai sometimes as my little feudal fantasy I wrote in high school sometimes pops in and tries to make me write it, though being a white non-published author I don't think it would do well as a e-book, but I have no desire to ever go there and have settled here. I wish I could give you both that peace in my heart but I know you left yours in Japan's soil. In some ways I'm kind of grateful to have lost the desire to travel there after high school as terrible as that might sound.' Anyway I was never impressed with this game from the trailers, it came out too close to Kamigawa Neon Dynasty and I saw Yokai+fancy neon stuff and my brain assumed it was trying to compete with MTG illogically. Until your video I wouldn't have put it on my list but it looks gorgeous and I've been craving a new game that gives me the same action and exploration dopamine rewards as Jedi Fallen Order did and this looks like it might even surpass that! Thank you for writing, editing and producing this during your painful reliving of Japan's shunning outsiders at this time. I very much appreciate it and will pray one day you and my friend Bael get to return to those distant shores welcomed by the country you love.

[@kurisu7885]

I actually do kind of get how you feel. When I was a little kid I got to visit Disneyland with my family, and in Middle School I got to visit Cedar Point, and I haven't gotten to go to any kind of amusement park since then while getting to see new places open, namely Nintendoland, and seeing all the attractions I want to see in modern parks, like all the Marvel and Star Wars stuff in Disney World, I even watched a lot of guide videos, hell I even watch some about Japan itself and would like to visit one day, but I was hit in the face with harsh reality and I sort of came to grips with accepting that, it'll probably never happen, ever. Sure I can do some virtual tourism using my VR headset and video games, but for me, especially in my financial situation, my dreams of ever setting foot in those places is likely going to only ever remain that, a dream, and I can't help but feel utter defeat and depression at those thoughts, especially since I live in a part of the USA that rarely if ever gets anything. It's why I was so hyped up and excited that a Round 1 arcade opened up not too far from where I live and why I always look forward to met next trip there, I got to play games I only ever got to read about before and I kind of get a small taste when i go there. I know it's probably silly, but, yeah. Same reason I love the conventions I go to. It lets me have just a small bit of that dream be a reality.

[@aidanjackson5084]

8:05 - That part about interval preferences of 5's at Shinto Shrines would explain the reference in the Noragami series of Yato accepting 5 yen as payment for the various wishes granted by him. Nice

[@GacLosen6556]

Gaijin, I completely felt everything you said when you said you missed Japan and you wanted to go back. I was in the JET program from 2017-2018, and since then, all I've thought about is going back. I had plans to return in December of 2020, but so many things happened in between then and now, that I can't fathom when I'll get my chance to go back. What you described about the country, your experiences, the places, and the things you saw, missed, and want to go back to, I legitimately felt it and teared up. You're not alone in the way you feel, Gaijin. We're in the exact same boat. But I also believe that boat is heading straight to Japan, and to a better future. We may not know when it will happen, but we both know that it will once again. Stay strong, Gaijin. いつか、私たちは日本に戻ります。

[@MoonSpiritChannel]

I know your pain, GG. 2 years ago, me, my mom and sister were so psyched to go to Japan, but of course being 2020 and all, Covid hit, and our dream vacation (as well as my bucket list vacation) was completely dashed because of it. And seeing Japan just shut the border to outsiders like this is so heartbreaking to those who love Japan's culture and everything. Maybe when this pandemic is over, our hopes will finally come to fruition. I mean, it's not like this will go on forever, so yeah, let's take it one day at a time.

[@mesiagamer5217]

Honestly I wish you would make that one on the social issues of Japan using ghostwire Japan as that base. Anime amarica already made an episode on the honestly oppressive student culture of Japan and how that translates to the rest of society. However I feel your take on things would be interesting and I would definitely love to watch it.

[@nicodalusong149]

Might want to check out his other channel then.

[@davidjackson6475]

My heart goes out to you Gaijin. You're one of my most beloved youtubers and I hope you get to go back to Japan on a regular basis to bring us more awesome content. Also good luck with the therapy; being denied what we love the most always hits the hardest.

[@EclipsePheniox]

I went to Japan in 2019 before the pandemic and I loved it so much that I already was making plans to go back in 2020 on my own with my own itinerary. But as we all know, the pandemic stopped that in its tracks. So Gaijin mate, I really feel ya. I want to go back soon too, let's hope they open their doors soon.

[@matrixiekitty2127]

I know exactly how you feel to miss something and somewhere so badly, especially over the pandemic. It’s a horrible ache that just leaves you so sad with longing. Here’s to hoping we all be able to return to those places, or at least find somewhere that can fill that void if returning isn’t an option.

[@13wolfy13]

On missing Japan, I can understand that feeling. I grew up on a lighthouse. When I moved away, I got to visit it twice. A little piece of me is still there, and when the pandemic hit, I wanted nothing more than to take my husband and newborn son to that island, where I felt it was safe. Even these days, I still want to take them there because that's home to me. It's all I knew for a long time. It's where I'll always feel safe. Now, my country is making it harder and harder for me to get there. Between trying to destaff the light stations, to rejecting people with families from taking work there. I don't think I'll ever see that place again, or be able to show my children that part of my life. It hurts. I imagine it's much the same for you, there's a sense of home there, something you want to take comfort in, especially in these harder times. Japan is a part of you, and you just want to reclaim that. I hope you can get back soon, take care. And don't ever feel ashamed of missing anything so dearly.

[@deciduous_reaper]

honestly when Gaijin talked about how he missed Japan and how they haven't opened their gates for Foreigners and seeing the whole game of Ghostwire Tokyo like honestly I literally felt the same since I've been obsessed with Japan as a Teenager was watching videos about places to explore learning about Japanese rules, bought alot of Japanese design shirts and I even have a poster of "Under the Wave Off Kanagawa" by Hokusai and even my parents knew it as well that they were planning on my 21's birthday that I was going to japan.......but since of COVID and the closing of Japan's Foreigners I was kind of devastated that even when i play games like Yakuza 0, Kiwami 1 and Judgement I felt so depressed abit that even watching the video made me felt like i was going to tear up abit but yeah just hopefully when this is over we can all go to Japan oh also ill still get Ghostwire even if it might going to do the same thing being kinda depressed but it was my most wanted game that made me want to get a PS5 in the first place. but yeah loved your video's been a long subscriber to you Gaijin and hopefully the time will come.

[@not2shabby]

I know how you feel, Gaijin. I feel this in my heart of hearts. The facility I live in is on isolation due to COVID, and not being able to even go out to dinner with my father for an hour absolutely tears me apart. I hate our situation, and I hate not being able to do anything about it. Which is why your videos help me (and most likely millions of others) so, so much. So thank you.

[@nestoraquino-serrano7058]

Hey, Gaijin. I just want to say I'm right there with you in these sentiments about missing Japan. A lifelong friend of mine and myself, as an Airman and Marine respectively, got the opportunity to be stationed in Okinawa, Japan. We fell in love hard with the environment, the people, and the culture, and we've been pining for Oki ever since. We were just some Texas kids who got a chance to see the world, and we try not to get upset when we recall the joy of exploring such an incredible pocket of the world, only to remember we cannot return for the time being. It broke my heart to hear you talk about your experiences and what you miss in Japan, especially with how much of your life and soul you've invested into their culture. We'll get through this, man. We'll see Japan again someday!

[@gamershadow8]

It's okay to feel that way, hurt and depressed at how accurate the game got japan. i'd be in your shoes too if i moved countries and was able to visit my state in a game. we're all here for you because you are an amazing creator. when i watch your videos, i always leave them learning something new. thank goodness its opening again. we hope you feel better.

[@BrotherRoga]

It does truly sadden me that Japan still has it's doors closed to tourists, though I can certainly understand why. A part of me wants to go live there for a while, learn the language, get to know the culture by going straight to the source. Heck, if all goes well and my wallet can take it, I'd probably do it too. The Genki Japanese and Culture School in Tokyo caught my eye in particular, but again, it's not something that's easy to do for anyone right now.

[@euclideansquid8667]

Your pain and frustration is absolutely valid, Gaijin. Like you said, two years worth of planning and potential was wrenched away with no indication of when you might be able to restart it. That would wind anyone up regardless of what those plans actually were. And likewise saying "one day it'll happen" would absolutely start feeling hollow after two years of saying it. As someone who has never been to Japan but would absolutely love to go, if I can ever afford it, I fully empathize with you. All I can say is embrace what the tanuki said; life has ups and downs, but take it a day at a time and remember there's a horde of people here to support you even on those downswings.

[@Green_87]

I saw another video about the whole border closing for Japan. From what I heard it has to do a lot of the older generation and them not working non-japanese people in the country. Idk how true that is but it's a possible contributing factor. I've always wanted to go to Japan ever since I saw Gundam wing, Space Battleship Yamato, and Samurai X play on toonami. I hope I can some time soon I can spend a lot of time in Japan.

[@whitecomix4915]

This was an depressing video but it just shows how this pandemic effects people in a different way. Stay strong gaijin goombah you may not be in the land of the rising Sun but your love for the culture will never die.

[@aubreymhill]

Way to be sincere dude. Thank you for sharing. I just wanted to 1+ the idea of that second video.

[@Raziel_Hijikata]

Thanx for the video I really enjoyed it, I appreciate how hard it was for you to maje it and Im grateful that you shared your thoughts and opinions as well as feelings about the game

[@InkanSpider]

Loved watching Gab play this game, and it made me want to play it myself to bad. Also Kuchisake-Onna joining the game was probably my favourite part of it

[@camoakes976]

I feel you there Gaijin. I graduated in 2020 with plans to move across the the country to pursue an acting career. But every time there was a glimmer of hope that shows would open and I could get out there, everything would shut down again, often for reasons that don't entirely make sense because the arts community is extra sensitive to these things. But I can't imagine what it must be like, both physically and emotionally restrained like that.

[@squeethemog213]

Took me a bit to get to this one but man *hugs* I wish you the best man and thanks for a surprisingly tear jerking episode ;w;

[@dashawnhines9612]

Thank you for your video I appreciate it hang in there good fortune is always around the corner 500 😊

[@rachaelfinlayson8407]

Thank you so much it is incredible how much your videos means how many people I hope you're able to go see your friends and family against soon

[@isaiahallen8199]

I'm equal parts glad and sad that I came back to this channel with this video. I'm glad you rekindled my interest in this game, but it also hurt to hear how emotionally painful this game was to you. Your pain isn't dumb, it's real, and it's okay to feel the way you do. I hope things get better, and I look forward to the next video!

[@JeannieLove]

I don't think it's dumb you feel the way you do. I'm glad you're opening up about it, even if it's got me emotional. Honestly, you kind of lived my dream just by living there before. I've always had a huge interest in Japanese culture and history. I did a paper once in school about their trade history with the US. In 12th grade English my final assignment I could write anything and it was a fantasy story using my character from a FF7 roleplay character I made back in the day. Finally, I did a speech for my final assignment in the public speaking class on how Final Fantasy got its name. I got a really good grade on those last two. Wish I had more assignments like those that I could write about things that interest me.

[@loonboy1996]

I've felt this same sadness for about 12 years. I grew up in the United States Air force. My family's last duty station was Usaf/JSDFAF Yokota. It represents a fair bit of my young adult life. My father was medically retired from the air force after Being diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis after a tour of duty in Afghanistan. We left in December of 2010, nine months later it became the Frontline of the recovery efforts of the Fukushima nuclear disaster, It deeply affected me as many of my friends and congregation of my church (My family are Latter Day Saints, mormon.) Had to evacuate for the duration of the disaster recovery. The massive culture shock of moving from Japan to our home of record in Fernandina Beach, Florida. I hadn't lived in the mainland United States since the age of three. I've endeavoured to return to Japan, a place that felt the most like home in my 15 years as a air force kid. Your Channel saved me from a very dark period in my life. Thank you for doing this. You are one of the main reasons I'm still here, now at the age of 25 . We will get back there someday, here's hoping we cross paths at the great Meiji Jingu Shrine in Tokyo.

[@drizzle7876]

This video has given me new inspiration for a book. Thank you, Gaijin Goombah, for always speaking from the heart.

[@Dude12Dude2]

The feelings you feel are valid mate, you've said so yourself. Japan has issues that it needs to address, and you've been trying your best to help that. Keep on trucking mate

[@totallyinnocent6626]

Reminders of our past can have such incredible power, and it's both sinister and delightful. It strikes you when you don't expect it, while fostering comfort and bringing up long-held sorrows. From a videogame to a movie, a book, even just a familiar sight that inspires deja-vu. No such reminder is "stupid" for the power it holds over us.

[@Plainofices]

I'll be honest that rant on the end hit me hard. I never been to Japan, and these types of games, this video, learning the language for the past year, learning it's beautiful and quite remarkable history and mythology, it's culture...it just makes me want to experience it more. I wish to go to Japan one day, when I save up some money and such of course. But till then, I only have these alternatives. Waiting for word that I'll have a chance to go there and experience it with my own eyes.

[@JSD324777]

As someone who'd visited Japan nearly every year since high school and was all but confirmed to be going to study abroad there summer 2020 I definitely feel that pain. Just gotta hang in there and count the days until they reopen the borders, whenever that might be, then dive in and make up for all that last time.

[@LordBloodySoul]

Don't say that it is dumb to be upset over the nostalgia you feel, Gaijin... Saying that it is dumb - that is dumb of you... I can relate to these sorts of feelings. And they are precious. You shouldn't feel ashamed of it. For the longest time, I couldn't play a single Final Fantasy Game, because my grandfather died before we could finish Final Fantasy VII, back in the old days. It was one of his favorite pass times with us, when we were kids. We played Final Fantasy VII through, when our grandmother was bedridden, and she knew her time would come soon... She urged us to play it with her, just like we did with grandpa before... And we did... We finished the game... Grandma died two days after... And I couldn't play that game for a long time, because of the oppressive feelings of sadness attached to that. It took me till Final Fantasy XIII, till I got back into the franchise. Always still feeling a sting, when booting up those games... But it really hit me, when I started the Remake... I have played the Remake of Final Fantasy VII now. With my kids... And it hurt so bad. Everything was different, but also not. I could remember the times with my grandparents. The comments my grandpa made on each level and fight. The funny voice he gave Barrett back in the day, which is similar in tone to what we have now... It hurt, and I felt so awful for breaking into tears in front of my children. Because of a game. But, I know now that it is fine. It hurts, because of how much I loved them both. How much they meant to me. And it is okay to hurt like that. So don't feel afraid of showing this side of yours. Japan means a lot to you. It is your second home, basically. That you miss it is not something to be ashamed of. It is showing how much you care. And that is wonderful.

[@digitalparker]

Gaijin, I hope you feel better soon. Its also my hope that this provides an opportunity for us all to reflect on what's happening around us and examine the principles and freedoms we want to support. So that people and groups that wish to divest us of our happiness can't decieve us into doing so willingly

[@shahiemsantos]

Almost cried at the end 😢. Hope you're ok.

[@gsafian]

As a fan or follower, I never been anywhere to travel, because of the expense. I can only relate of homesick and finding a place to be at peace with friends, family a good laughs. It's rough when something is close but, in time the "doors" will open again. I always wanted to travel to japan but, never had the courage and wanted a group of friends to travel. However, I am always happy I have met you on your channel gaijin just wish I'd was there to brighten your day in tough time too. BTW that ending was a great laugh she has Huge "Knockers" XD (I need to buy Ghostwire)

[@shawnheatherly]

Big part of why I'm so frustrated with people who haven't taken the pandemic seriously.

[@quinncykaluzniak5429]

it's not dumb, missing places, what they do, where you used to go, all of that, can be hard, very hard in some cases, like yours, i'm not sure what to say beyond that since all i've missed was a good game i used to play before the studio's benefactor's benefactors shut down due to bankruptcy, but i can say that you've done well and i think you'll keep doing well and... thank you, for showing us this game even with how hard it was for you

[@millicentmok3299]

I feel this. Not just Japan, but coverage of Hong Kong hits me with sadness too. And I'd love nothing more than to see the other video of the "enemies" that are basically the social issues covered by Shogo and others.

[@WarmLillie]

Some of the best things are a bit of a tragedy and very simple. Like a kitsune kiss.

[@thalianox2492]

I really feel for you not being able to go back to Japan, but I hope things will get better. I'm sure every single of your viewers wishes you the same. ^^ Best wishes to you

[@pyoheliobros5773]

This was surprisingly emotional. Very nice

[@sleepyfox1342]

i know how you feel Gaijin and im so sorry. i know this pain. Financial issues are preventing me from going back to my hearts home, Arizona. I know its not exactly the same, becuase if i had the money i could just go back, and you cant go back to Japan even with the money to do so. Stil, i know what its like to miss a place so dearly that it brings you to tears just thinking about it. My soul belongs to the desert, just as yours belongs to Japan, and i hope we both get back home soon. *hugs*

[@KenjiShiratsuki]

Hey dude, I dunno if you'll read this but if you do, know that I know exactly how you feel. I was feeling it for a year myself. I was supposed to go back to Japan to study at my university I was at before, last fall. Japan didn't open up. Then spring came, still nothing. I was worried I wouldn't even make it for SUMMER until finally I got told I could get my visa. Now it's almost 2 weeks I've been in this country again and I'm just now settling down in my new apartment. Now that I'm on the other side of the problem, I can see exactly how much it hurt to wait this long. I registered in the spring, quit my job before summer to prepare, and had to wait a whole more year instead of four months. The depression hit me hard enough that I actually didn't get sorted all the things I wanted to do before I came. I didn't even realize how much it had killed my motivation until right before I left. Don't give up, they'll let people in again soon. Covid isn't gone yet and we're not sure if it will go away permanently or not. The rigorous processes to go through once you arrive at the airport, at least at Haneda, made me understand WHY they don't want tourists. It would be impossible to control so many people through all those processes, and a lot of it relied on people behaving. Every visa holder wanted to behave because they could be kicked out, they could have their visa revoked, and it wouldn't even take as much as expelling a tourist would. The last time we had a pandemic this bad, it lasted 3-4 years. We're probably almost done with this one, thankfully, so keep your hopes up. I hope to catch you when you come back, maybe hang out in Akiba. PS: If you need any research material, like pictures, books, etc. let me know. I have access to a library in my university and I can paraphrase anything you need out of those books (provided I can translate it...) and I'm totally cool with going to places and getting pictures and videos for you. As a graduate student, I'm going to have more free time than before, I think, especially this summer, so don't be afraid to ask!

[@Tyler-sy7jo]

I once spent three weeks in China on a school trip. A couple weeks in, we went to Gulangyu. It was a foggy morning as we boarded the ferry to go across the harbour. In the distance you could make out a large suspension bridge. Skyscrapers of various height towered over the boardwalk. There was the smell of seaspray and, admittedly, smell of polluted water. The heat hadn't set in yet so there was still a bit of a cool breeze in the air. I was taken back to a gray morning in Halifax, Nova Scotia with the fog rolling over the harbour with its smells and sights. The image of the two suspension bridges made blurry by the fog in the distance. That was the first time I felt homesick on that trip. That was only two weeks spent away; I can only imagine how much worse two years would be. You needn't say its dumb to feel that way. The mind is not always rational and emotions are powerful. You'll be able to return someday. Take care, my dude.

[@Artista_Frustrado]

that last part hit me in the feels, never been in Japan but i felt that when i saw the Club SEGA pictures with the name changed

[@Doom_master1122]

I feel your frustration Gaijin. As someone who's eyes opened up to Japan at a relatively later point in my life, I was able to visit and fall in love with the place. I understand the Covid stuggle. I signed myself up for language schooling and saved up money and was ready to go. Until the boarders shut the month before I was suppose to leave. I was stuck being told "Maybe this next month!" Every step of the way for 2+ years now. We would get paper work ready, tutions paid, and get ready to go. Only for the border to still be closed, or a new ruleset be in place, or a new covid variant causing them to knee jerk into even tighter restrictions. At one point I nearly cancelled it all out of frustration. I didn't for some reason. However, this leads to a bit of guilt, as of now, as I'm typing this, Japan did ease some of its boarders to specific avenues and visa holders. I was able to finally make it into the country. The process of entry, however, was exhasuting and it makes you feel like an animal, science experiment, or even being judged as if I'm a criminal, (Even AFTER leaving the airport and entering the county) I spent nearly 4-5 hours being pushed through lines and lines of paper work, tests, and other scenarios just to be able to leave the airport. I'm glad I did, as once I made it in, its exactly how I remember it and what I wanted again. I do hope you get to come back here relatively soon Gaijin, one of my favorite things about your channel is hearing the passion behind everything you do. I think 2 years is long enough of a wait for you.

[@LexarVN]

I haven't played the game yet, but I think I probably would have had a very similar reaction to that sequence from the sounds of it. I lived in japan for a couple of years and I miss Japan every time I play a game or watch a movie that portrays aspects of Japan really accurately. After getting a stable job about 6-ish years ago, I've been trying to visit Japan every couple of years, but the closures have had me pretty depressed too because it keeps feeling like Japan just won't open again. But I'm trying to keep up hope, and I hope you can too.

[@gamithemighty5932]

it is never wrong to be sad nor to cry in front of anyone. if anything, sadness allows us to release and reveal our pain, to let us gjve into it in a healthier manner than rage or internal suffering, if you cannot cry then you cannot live, it is more important to let out your worst in a healthy manner than to hold it in until it burst in a fit of misery and rage. let yourself out and let your self heal. that is what sadness and tears are for.