MY BODY DYSMORPHIA / Girls Next Level Podcast

[@bes03c]

I never ceased to be amazed by Bridget's elaborate record keeping and Holly's encyclopedic knowledge of Vegas and Playboy history.

[@audreystarr6166]

Honest confession..with how much you've both been spoiling us the last several days, I feel like I've just had a 4 days long slumber party with my besties. You guys are such class acts and the hours of hard work behind the scenes is not lost on me. ❤

[@Albatross1703]

I think it's crazy when people tell you to be grateful especially when their only reference was the show.. that's almost like telling Tina turner to be grateful to ike turner for discovering her and helping her get famous.. people don't realize that's the number one way abusers gaslight their victims, and just because they have done good things for you doesn't mak3 up for the mental and/or physical abuse.. keep telling your truth!

[@blairg8171]

This ^^^^^^

[@lesliedemarco1691]

That is so true omg. I know because right now I'm living it and I'm trapped.

[@alisonleigh100]

And HOW WEIRD is it that Hef gives Bridget and Kendra “permission” to stay out as late as they want in Vegas… 2 grown women… on vacation… lol

[@kathleenhansen4344]

The “fuck no” with the hall pass question was everything 🤣🙌🤍

[@Lynnjj509]

Kendras mother was hoping to be the 4th girlfriend 😂

[@janicetehie3839]

Her mother is the reason Kendra is the way she is. Her mother is just awful.

[@tifftalkspages]

We are getting spoiled with videos ❤

[@loriparker76]

Yes and we ❤ it!

[@joelwidgins6329]

Yeah carrot alert right""🪄🥕🏇

[@JDLbased]

"where's my girlfriend. I need to have a girlfriend beside me" is so spot on, having been in a relationship with a destroyer, and such a thing with these insecure chauvinist abusers

[@volume2517]

I'm a girl and I love you girls. I watched the show when it aired and loved it then. When I went to rewatch it a few years ago, I couldn't. It was so degrading to you all and I was so mad at myself for not seeing it as that way originally. I knew there were moments that were edited to make you look this or that demeaning way but I truly thought you all three were in on the joke and knew that you'd be portrayed in those ways. I thought you were probably making so much money for the show and had so much fabulous, expensive stuff given to you by HH that you likely thought, "Who cares? Let them laugh. We're laughing all the way to the bank!" I'm so happy, proud of you, and thankful that you're telling the true story behind the show and your true experiences. I'm still sorry that I didn't pick up on the horrid underbelly of your living situation while watching the show but I did always think it very odd that HH hadn't made any of you playmates when you were and are absolutely gorgeous. I always felt like he was using that to keep you trying to appease him - as a dangling carrot (no bunny rabbit pun intended at all) in front of you. I also wonder if you ever felt that way. HH acted as if you weren't "good enough" or "pretty enough" or something when he'd keep denying you your dreams. I always thought wtf is wrong with him? He's an a$$hole. Now I know so much more. He was a disgusting, deplorable, felonious man. I've read your books and I've believed every word you've said since you decided to speak up and speak out. I'm so sorry for what you endured.

[@candelaarias9440]

i 100% agree

[@trishk7846]

Late 90's to Early 00's was rough for body image!

[@valeriejsnead]

I am so so so happy and emotional listening to Holly talk about this. I have struggled w body dysmorphia since my childhood. We need other girls to know what your mind tells you isn’t always the truth. It’s so hard. Love these girls, love them for doing this.

[@TaraSmiles7]

OMG... Holly, when you said Hef was thinking "I need to have a girl sitting next to me", I got shivers. EXACTLY. I really think that may be the biggest reason why he didn't like you trying to shoot baskets. As far as he was concerned, he wanted you planted next to him. He needed to look like "the man with all the women". Sitting by himself was not an option.

[@peachxtaehyung]

That was Bridget but yes I agree

[@Skylermckenzie010]

I love all these videos you’ve been really getting me through moving into my new house girl it’s so stressful but I appreciate y’all so much thank you! ❤

[@WarrenLSoCal]

I honestly ❤️ these SO MUCH! These are way more fun and entertaining then the original show was. I love how you both get to be real and show your true personalities. Keep it up! 🎉

[@carrrie_lynnn]

I just love when you girls mention a food thing and Holly just has to stop and order whatever thing it was that sounded good...so hilarious! i wish i could do that but i live way out in the country so there are no post mates.

[@sarahschouveller1993]

Thank you for posting all of these on KZbin ❤ softening the blow I'm feeling right now going from summer to fall 😢😩

[@yellowrosetoo]

It’s great! We don’t have to pay for Patreon. I’m guessing they are doing away with that.

[@sarahschouveller1993]

​@@yellowrosetooI was thinking maybe Patreon gets episodes when they're new and then they'll come here after they've been out awhile ...?

[@hannahv1930]

@@sarahschouveller1993 I'm a Patreon we get lots and lots of posts with photos it's wonderful to see all the things and situations they're talking about. Also bonus posts the recent one is with Jen Colbert a producer from the show. I love supporting them as, I loved the show back in the day but never realised how traumatic the living situation was.

[@Ashleightheaddict]

I'm so glad I'm not the only one who feels this way not saying fall isn't nice and pretty but it's cold and it leads to winner and I would much rather have summer lbvs but everyone loves fall and says screw summer basically

[@sarahschouveller1993]

@@Ashleightheaddict exactly!

[@Me-gq6xe]

You guys are my Comfort show

[@christinagarcia6648]

I love my ferrets but if you do the little grass patches in their cage it really helps them smell better made such a huge difference for my three little guys

[@ashleyrose4115]

She said watch Kendra make baskets....or not 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂 💀

[@jakestroll6518]

They need t9 stop talking about Kendra at all. This was a bad time in her life and their throwing constant jabs in the name of reviewing the show is nasty.

[@ashleyrose4115]

​@@jakestroll6518 It was a joke, not that serious bruh

[@chrissievee76]

Hef was abusive and I’m glad more women from all different points in his life are stepping forward with their stories. He was held up as this amazing guy, but that’s only how he and the company crafted his image. Watching these again makes me cringe because now that the curtain has been pulled back, we can see the cracks in the facade.

[@atamoura]

Abusive is such a strong word

[@kaylheecarroll3186]

I've been binge watching these podcasts ❤😊

[@Angellsection8]

I dont agree with Kendra often but good for her for grabbing that jacket 🧥😂

[@chipchipcheerio]

33:30 they sell playboy mugs just like that at Hot Topic, Spencer’s or Ross

[@smokey5883]

I noticed lots of playboy stuff at Spencers while school shopping

[@ChachiTAli77]

In this episode I picked up on his tone & nastiness. I also felt like he was going to have Holly do some weird bedroom stuff because of her push back..... totally thought I was over thinking it..... wow wow wow on hearing the backstory

[@dianesullivan5588]

I love your videos & I'm re-watching the Girls Next Door episodes now. I hate it that you ladies weren't treated well! You're both beautiful, brave & awesomeness overload! ❤️

[@perkycurlyfries]

You both are such a fun team

[@Ellisbelleee]

Bridgets jennifers body top is so cute omg

[@rosebusch238]

I can't help but wonder how these ladies (especially Holly) transitioned to normal relationships with all of the new found freedom.

[@janicetehie3839]

I don't think she really ever did. She did get divorced. She had trouble connecting with her husband or so they said. God love her.

[@tashaturner4609]

That episode made me wanna go to the Palms SO bad when it first aired! I wasn’t quite 21 yet....I was like a couple years away from it...but my dream was to go to the palms! 😝

[@ct6852]

That rooftop bar with the glass floor that looked down on the street was super famous at the time.

[@dustin628]

I bet the manager tells every celeb that visits that their wax figure is the most popular 😂😂

[@yvonnedashlopez]

Omg!! Bridget luv, luv your heart sweater! From where?! Ty! Luv all your pj’s from your days on GND! From where do you order your pjs from? Ty!! Blessings xo

[@katrinamay]

The high roller suite experience! I can’t believe I have spent a couples days in an $80,000 per night suite in Vegas at Caesars palace! 🎉 it was never a goal of mine but it was definitely a super cool experience experience!

[@karmawereta3255]

Yaaaaaaay! Love all of your videos so much ❤

[@tashaturner4609]

Kendra uncle was there because of the job at the playboy club! I remember that being said on the show!

[@mitchelleroberson]

I love these videos and feel so lucky when you give me a heart ❤😍 thank you for this podcast and what you share it’s all so entertaining and I can’t believe you ever thought you were fat

[@cassandrashelton3690]

Holly we wanna see your pets!! I didn't know you had ferrets!

[@tashaturner4609]

Ever since that episode 1st aired- I felt bad for Holly because I could see that Hef was being a controlling a-hole to her! So it is noticeable to the viewer that you were having fun Holly. And when Hef wants to go to bed....I felt like that was rude because it was obvious Holly was clearly enjoying herself and wanted to hang out longer! As she should! She was like 25 then!

[@stephanieallen6406]

I notices it to and remember feeling bad for Holly like she was drug away from all the fun and it was her Bedtime.

[@JenJen0601]

Hi! I know you two are both very busy but hoping to see some Hallloweeeeennn content!!! 🎃

[@veeroseerum]

love you guys so much; i resonate with alot you have to say and just know i see your growth an your inspiring

[@alisonleigh100]

When I watched this episode, I thought Hef seemed embarrassed that you weren’t making baskets. And it did come across as a very awkward scenario where he was being controlling of your behavior.

[@lesliedemarco1691]

Holly & Bridget you are both so beautiful & intelligent ladies. And Holly, that man was a P-G for making you feel fat or not pretty. It makes me sick. I'm so happy you are both successful and living your lives.

[@sandy9504]

Love the videos too.Also both of your tops are cute🩷

[@lunallena5594]

The clothes in that store were cool. It would be cool to buy clothes that you guys had that had cute bunny prints on pjs, women sweatshirts, etc. I still thought Kendra was hilarious about promoting Olive Garden to Roberto Cavalli. I used to order their mushroom ravioli ala Twilight.

[@diabmetry1574]

In before 1000!!! 🎉🎉🎉

[@meschahayes1003]

Please keep the videos going!! I skip the non -video ones

[@cherylfielding1504]

Hahaha Funny No ,,,no woman would yell out to Hefner,,, you're the man,!!!!,, No🤣🤣🤣💜 Xolove

[@DisruptorMind]

Love you gals ❤

[@tb9041]

Can you do an episode on how you use to do your hair and makeup when you lived at the mansion. Also talk about your clothes and if they were picked out for you and the colours.

[@kariwick-InnerPeaceCoaching]

Just fyi = Holly (Madison) has her own channel here on youtube where she does some makeup/hair tutorials on her look from the GND days. 🌞

[@TheAshleyboss]

The basketball scene I could def always tell how rude he was and then how awkward and uncomfortable you felt after. I always remembering feeling awkward watching it and thinking you seemed so shut down after but trying to act “normal” (which is the worst feeling)!

[@MadieTaylar]

love the content..if you both run out of video ideas, it would be cool to see you both try on or show all the outfits you kept from playboy. You could also try to recreate a normal day at the playboy mansion at your house. There would be so many opportunities for you girls to make jokes.

[@jlcmsw]

The part where Hef told Holly to sit down because she wasn’t making free throws really irked me. It wasn’t like she wanted to streak through the casino. She just wanted to throw a basketball. Just let the girl have harmless fun!!

[@lunagabriella213]

Oh 100% was Hef joyfully giving Bridget and Kendra freedom! He tore you down in front of the cameras 😞💔 I've had that happen. I'm thinking of something my ex and even his dad did. His brother and sister were toxic as well. But it was just so random. Like I would say something and not ever to into detail, or not talk, and then someone would make the nastiest comment towards me like I was just worthless. It was horrible.

[@dustin628]

Question: Was your autograph signing at The Forum shops the first time you really realize just how famous and popular you ladies had become/were becoming? Or was there another moment? Or what was the moment either of you realized you were now super famous in your own right

[@pearlali136]

Shopping spree means shopping spree. There should be no bill to Hef.

[@jessicab2682]

Where is this bridgets jumper from 😍

[@kellymontgomery4233]

I thought he was scolding you Holly. I thought that when I first saw it . So sad

[@MelsWorld636]

I used to watch the show when it first aired. Im about the same age as u guys (maybe a couple years younger) and I thought Kendra was so "real" . Watching it now shevannoys the shit out of me because she acts like a fucking child. I just started rewatching and I randomly watched the Marie Antoinette episode. I noticed that she seemed annoyed that everyone was celebrating your birthday. I def noticed some tension that I didn't before. It's crazy how perception changes as you get older.

[@dustin628]

Yeah isn't that crazy! I felt the same as you, watched it when I was younger, absolutely loved Kendra, and now watching it she drives me nuts! She comes off as such a spoiled, egotistical brat. I'm sure she isn't anymore and no hate but yeah that's such a mindfck to see now lol

[@nocturnalbeauty94]

Aww ferrets

[@tessaerikse]

so interesting how they seem so much less on the sage page as before!

[@AlexisBelon]

Okay this is the video I’ve been waiting for! Btw if you’re into nyc vlogs but if so, you might like mine. Swing by, take a peek and stick around if you like. I’d be sooo grateful. 🙏

[@AntGorgeous]

We don't have olive garden in the UK and would love to try it when I visit Vegas next time (We've been 7 times - We love Vegas) What would you recommend to get for my first visit? (This question is open to fans of the podcast, not just the girls).

[@trinabobina7674]

Start with the gnocchi soup! And I would recomnend Get the 5 Cheese baked ziti Or the tour of Italy. Soooo good lol

[@KateJohn459]

Fettuccine Alfredo!

[@jlcmsw]

I’m not a fan of Olive Garden personally. I honestly think it’s the worst restaurant food ever…to each their own though. Lots of people love it.

[@ct6852]

It's super generic Italian and I love it. lol

[@lunagabriella213]

Shrimp fettuccine alfredo both there and Red Lobster is so good. I mostly figured out my version of alfredo sauce (aka poverty sauce lol), but I'm still too traumatized to mess with shrimp at home. Right before the pandemic I was dealing with a ton of shrimp gutting and prepping for appetizers at this Tex-Mex restaurant.

[@athena7042]

I wanted to know about the dysmorphia in the title. I didn't find it.

[@ValentCaraballo]

[@Billiebabs98]

There’s a really ratchet tv network called NowThatsTV that just did a reality show Dejavu in that same exact basketball suit 😭😭

[@lisanancollas2330]

He was abusive to you ladies. I am glad you realize. Hopefully, you are helping other women realize that women should be treated better by their boyfriend.

[@alisonleigh100]

The body dysmorphia and skinny obsession is very sad 😔

[@dustin628]

The confederate flag gets censored out on Kendra in the show on Amazon. Also, you ladies are censored too if you get naked

[@giaafshar8419]

i really think holly’s current style is really hot and sexy. i guess im not into high fem style.

[@karenflam]

Olive Garden is gross. Do not get it.

[@rachellefebres4183]

So early

[@andrealange3581]

You sound like my 70 mother in law complaining about her 90 year old mother in law. Old people get crabby and upset that they cannot do stuff that they used to. This may be why you need to date people your own age. I think you have learned your lesson.

[@jakestroll6518]

You guys have been very cruel to Kendra this whole series. I hope you both grow to understand the impact this has had on HER mental health. Holly you’re too comfortable in the worship you get from your revenge.

[@arielsclamshellbra]

They're allowed to talk about how they feel and felt at the time, that's the whole point of the podcast. If kendra takes issue with anything they say she can speak for herself and refute it but she hasn't because even someone as empty in the head as kendra has to be self aware enough at this point to be able to acknowledge she was a brat and also a huge asshole for defending hef to this day.

[@janicetehie3839]

Kendra has since been hospitalized with a panic attack and has said she has had to take time off for therapy, as the Playboy Mansion ""really messed me up."

[@dustin628]

That isn't true at all! They haven't been cruel in any way. They are just stating the truth. What actually happened. Kendra is a big girl, she doesn't deserve to be coddled and babied her whole life when she was so selfish and awful to Holly and Bridget her entire time at the mansion. So please, with all respect, get a clue.

[@dustin628]

​@@janicetehie3839wow so Kendra is finally doing some self reflection? Because up until now she was Hefner's main supporter and the biggest crtitic of the girls

[@Immaculate_Loo]

Flashback to Ago’s delicious peach martinis! I think about them waaay too often. 🥹😭🍑 I’m loving every bit of the podcast after discovering it about a month ago. Happy Holidays! xo 🩷💖🩷

[@GirlsNextLevelPodcast]

Glad you like them!