. . .an explaination. 08-04-2024

[@charlescrompton2009]

Dear Graham and Hazel you are not alone you have over 15000 friends. Feel the love and support. Model Railways saved my life when my wife and twin boys died. It was hard but I managed to pull through with Mental health team and tablets lifting my spirits. Don't let the B's get you down. Your layout and car is Fantastic. A lot of people are jealous. You Your Lady and Family are the most important and precious people in the world Graham. I send my best wishes and love. Take care Richard Canterbury

[@duckman5642]

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[@chaz8873]

You Sir are a brave man. For anyone to bare their soul as you have done is incredible. Everyone has a breaking point, everyone, the key to surviving it is how you look at yourself, how you treat yourself. Your a strong man Graham, a skilled man, anyone can see that, I personally can only aspire to the layout you have created, but I will, because you did. Have some time away, right away from social media, lets face it, there's nothing social about it. Kind regards to you and your lovely wife, I hope you can find a way back. Thank you.

[@johncatsoulis]

Graham, your modelling skills are an inspiration, and your layout is a work of art. I've always enjoyed your videos and learn so much from them. I have very much appreciated the time and effort you've put in to sharing your layout with the world. Take care of yourself. There are a lot of us on your side.

[@tremellesykes3841]

Sir I have watched and enjoyed your videos for quite some time now. I've never commented before but feel compelled to do so tonight. I do not know you personally but I must say I love you for the strength you've presented going through the trial and tribulations of the last years. You are not alone. I will pray for you and your loved ones.

[@billabongoneill]

Seven years ago my lovely wife was diagnosed with a terminal brain tumour, she died after an 18 month battle and at that point two lives ended, that was five years ago. When she was ill I stumbled across your channel I had no knowledge of model railways or any interest in them however because of that your channel has been a complete escape from reality and has been extremely beneficial to me at those times when there is only darkness at the end of the tunnel. Thank you.

[@BEAR_UK]

Speaking from experience, I totally get it. You’re both in my thoughts. Please take your time to do what you need to heal. I’ll be here that is for sure. I love this channel and the Gentry. Please, please reach out and ask for help. Everybody’s needs are different and so too will be the help you receive.

[@paulwoolcott7823]

Hi Graham so sorry to hear of your current situation please take as much time as you need to recovery your family and friends are always there for you. You bring so much enjoyment to thousands of your subscribers we all look forward to see you in the near future best regards Paul & family

[@chrish9974]

God bless you Graham and Hazel there is a lot of love and compassion to you both on here. You have bought a lot of joy to all of us especially during the dark times of COVID. Best wishes Chris

[@justn2trains]

Thanks you for the wonderful videos! Your modeling and skills are very inspirational, thank you for sharing!

[@patricemurat5124]

Bonjour Graham vous êtes très fort vous devez continuer à parler sur KZbin cela vous libère de tout le poids des choses de la vie. Vous êtes vivant et très courageux de rapporter votre témoignage ne vous laissez pas envahir par la tristesse, vous êtes quelqu'un de très sensible cela se sent mais encore une fois vous êtes un homme extrêmement généreux Graham. J'ai perdu une maman il y a 5 ans, au bout de 5 ans j'ai eu du mal à retrouver mes esprits, mais maintenant et grâce à mes amis cela va mieux. On vous ❤ Graham.

[@gadgetman1701]

Hi Graham, as someone who suffers terribly with depression and got to a point where I needed help both counselling and tablets, it helped me so much. please there are people out there that can help and will get you though this

[@jonpinney8537]

Graham, it is your layout so have what you want, where you want!!. Please take as long as you need as your mental health is the most important thing. You are an inspiration to all of us fellow modellers and if our layout is half as good as yours I would count myself lucky. We will all be here for you when you feel ready to return. Please take care of yourself, all the best Jon & Hollie.

[@railwaydays7596]

Hi Graham I have been in the same position myself recently and all I can say is it does get better I promise!! I don't blame you for taking a break from making videos. I have been doing the same thing myself. I love your channel and the content you create!!

[@johnkeitley9168]

Graham, we are with you. For the record, modellers everywhere have been very grateful for you time, effort and skills. This is a hobby that grows through sharing of our individual journeys. How anyone could be anything but grateful for another's contribution to that pool of knowledge just amazes me. The fact that you have gone on sharing your wisdom through times of personal difficulty is awe inspiring. Thank you again for what I have learned from watching you and I wish you and your wife absolutely the best for the future. Bye for now, John

[@sparky107107]

personally I think you have the best layout I have ever seen, details lights, trains, buildings. blood sweat and tears. I am truly amazed. have been over many years.

[@terrywest6645]

We are all with you Graham!

[@ralphwest8156]

Be strong Graham as best you can, you and Lakeside are an inspiration to us all, your attention to detail is second to none as you take us on these fabulous journeys of miniature railway life. Take your time and have a break, reset yourself and we'll be waiting for your return when it's right for you. God bless and take care.

[@ernesttucker3157]

Graham, please know that there are many that appreciate you clever creativity. I have learned so much from you and admire your skills and perspectives. As far as your man hole cover, I think it's great and have since you made it. Good luck to you and be well. I look forward to seeing you soon . Most sincerely, Larry Tucker New Mexico USA

[@thespookdeville5112]

All the love and care there is. I'm 76 in October, unfortunately I totally know and understand you my friend Hope we both get through this somehow. Love and respect your work. Rodge David Kidderminster UK 🇬🇧 ❤️ xx

[@garrburton3375]

A very emotional and heartfelt video Graham and one that brought back memories of my own moment…. Now thankfully quite some years ago. I like no doubt a number of your other subscribers don’t have a model railway and whilst into modelling both look forward to and in wonderment at the world you and other You Tubers have created and continue to develop. Your imagination and the modelling skills that you so freely share give so much inspiration to many. I do obviously watch a number of your colleagues and their layouts and it seems that as an outsider looking in they to seem to have been plagued by both ‘the gatekeeper’s’ the obsessive rivet counters and the inept. We all know that many of these individuals seem to fit a certain profile and whilst in better times their statements are treated with the contempt they deserve, when we’re either in or slipping into a dark place the comments can have a disproportionate impact…..they do say that a negative is stronger than a positive. For what it’s worth you have a great channel great skills and a lovely way of putting it across…..15,000+ subscribers kinda says it for me. Your subscribers will be here for you when, and only when you feel up to returning…….your personal health and that of your good lady is the most important. Graham, keep safe and enjoy the step back. Kindest Regards Gary

[@Classic_Coachbuilt]

Hope you can feel better as soon as possible mate, during a very bad time for us and during the lockdown period you kept us motivated and at times our lifeline to the world. We cannot thank you enough for all you have done to keep our spirits not just up but alive. I wish I could offer some advice and help, in the way you have helped us develop our hobby. Please take care pal, with best wishes and love to and Hazel.

[@Jared-tf7mi]

Hello Sir - I have watched your videos for a long time (I’m 34 and live in Texas; I hope one day to have a layout the size of yours!). I just wanted to tell you that I’ve always very much enjoyed them and am grateful to you for sharing your passion. I am terribly sorry to hear of your struggles and truly hope life soon reminds you of how good it can be. Keep steaming on and I very much look forward to your next video, whenever it may be!

[@russellbenton2987]

You’ve been through a lot Graham. I don’t know what to say or what to advise because mental health is a complete unknown to me , but I do understand where you are coming from . All I can say is I wish you all the very best for the future . Sincerely I think you should get some help . I think you are a long way from going into hospital , so I’d consult your GP who should be able to refer you to a psychiatrist . But as I said I know very little about this . Could there be some support groups around ? There will be people who know better than me . All the best

[@SimonLivertonCentral]

Hi Graham, all I will say is you both must stay safe my friend, and take care. Cancer is horrible, which affects the whole family. My wife still finds it difficult accepting my cancer. I will be thinking of you both over the coming weeks until you are back, but only when you feel better…Simon

[@eddherring3088]

I've beaten cancer twice, if I get it 3 times I get to keep it! In 1996 I had Hodgkins Lymphoma 18 months Chemo and in September I was operated on for appendix cancer and had a right hemicolectomy which I'm recovering from now. I'm good though just the physical recovery from the surgery. 💪

[@Proper_Chuffed]

Bless you Graham. Look after yourself first and foremost, you are a great modeller and exceptional chap. Make sure you take all the time you need and find the small things that make you happy sir. Sending support from South Africa. On a personal note I have loved watching your videos and found them always so informative and interesting. Take care sir

[@sparky107107]

you sir,, to me are one of my idles here on you tube, and this video tool balls to post. I understand and I know what I say don't really mean squat. you do you, take the time, ALL the time needed, and make life , hobby and Hazel a joy again. I love ya,

[@ronnyskaar3737]

Thanks for your wonderful videos. It's allways a joy to see you have a new video and I immideatly look forward to see it. Sad to hear you are not feeling well. But we are many who appreciate you, the beautiful layout and your skills. Best wishes to you. I look forward to see you soon again. You have allways a great sense of humour in your comments. It's there in you. Don't be afraid to get help. You understand so much allready. Best wishes from Norway. Ronny.

[@chugwaterjack4458]

Mr. Foulston, just go ahead and fell however you like. Rule one applies to all of us. At 80 years of age, I have taken up model railroading again, fist since 1961, and it has helped me thorugh the loss of my wife to Covid in 2020.

[@stratblooz1]

Watching your videos has helped my mental wellbeing..... Looking forward to catching up on updates from yourself and a few others on KZbin such as Al and Everard junction is one of those 'small things' in life that's actually one of the important things. God bless, catch you when you're back

[@davemarson7241]

Graham my dear friend, life does get you down at times, what you have been through over the last few years, i wouldn't wish it on anyone. Depresstion is a terible thing to have, sometimes you need to stop, and take time out. Don't let people get you down, take a few weeks off. I wish you all the best my friend, take care, and don't let the buggers get you down.

[@williamking8552]

Keep well Graham, I look forward to you appearing again on my monitor. From down under in NZ

[@michaelbrian219]

Hi Graham, please take care of yourself and Hazel that is all that matters, everything else is by the way. I have enjoyed watching your videos, if and when you make some more, I will be ready to watch them. Best wishes, Michael.

[@fiona6710]

Hi George , thank you for your honesty , you are so real and i can see you wear your heart on a string. Your warkman ship is as i said previously, is truly a labour of love . My good advice to you , is to try to take no notice of these people . These peole are looking depress you and bring you down . I would love to see these people try to even attempt to make this intrecate layout as you have done . It is truly amazing , and the manhole is so so good , wanderful thinking . It all adds to the authenticity of this amazing layout . My housband is so bowled over with your layout , he cant stop watching your videos . Please , please , please , do not stop making these wanderful videos ,as they give us both great joy to watch . Many thanks 😊

[@ericwatkins2554]

Graham - my heart really goes out to you. You have always said it's my railway and it's not prototypical. There are a lots of people out there that take great pride in critizing other folks efforts when they have never attempted to build a layout on the scale you have achieved. To argue about a manhole cover is absolutely rediculous - after all if it pleases you that's what matters and it is your layout and ideas after all. Maybe they are not to scale - who cares - you are providing inspiration to countless genuine modellors out there and giving them ideas for their their own layouts. The varied aspects of Lakeside I am sure are an inspiration to other modellors - it really is a pick and mix of ideas from the the canal scenes to the castle then to the village to the High Street with moving vehicles and onto the vintage yard and steamers. Take care of yourself and seek advice wherever appropriate and just remember that most of your subscribers love and value your contributions to the modelling world - my layout/my way. After alll - who paid for it - who built it - who enjoyed it - YOU - and that's what really matters. Eric from West Wales.

[@tompetty1880]

Your channel has always been an inspiration to me and has played a great part in getting me into the hobby and building my own model railroad. You once told me that you didn’t know how you would have coped if it hadn’t been for Lakeside. That was a very honest statement to make so publicly and I take my hat off to you for always being such a stand up guy. I know we are all, in the main, only KZbin subscribers to your channel but we are all collectively a Lakeside community who only wish you well.

[@lambert0259]

Hi Graham, your channel has brightened my Days when i've been down in the dumps, you do what you have to do, your health is more important than any think else, i hope you get the help you need, see you in the future.

[@RoyGilbert-zx1bp]

Be brave and look after yourselves. Take a deep breath and come back to us soon. Thinking of you❤

[@Andy-ly9ry]

Stay strong Graham. It's what you want to do with your railway. Don't let the haters win. I use to film my railway and put videos on Facebook only to get mocked for them.

[@dafyddthomas7299]

Agree 333% - unfortunately in same boat as your good self Andy & Graham; haters, spiteful jealous people like to mock others that are A) trying to learn more ( classed me in this with OO) B) successful in their production of great and useful content - such as Graham. - Must say one of the best OO Layout I've seen on Ytube

[@Andy-ly9ry]

@dafyddthomas7299 I did want to create a channel a few years ago but when got mocked for what trains I ran with what coaches, I thought this anit for me. I have my trains that have saved my mental health 🙌.

[@dafyddthomas7299]

@@Andy-ly9ry Nothing wrong in using Coaches X,Y,Z with Loco 1; creative and having fun is key and ignore the haters; often jealous and sometimes spiteful

[@dutchborg]

Dear Graham only a brave man can share this with his YT friends !! You are an inspiration for me and i think alot of friends that follows you. It's your railway and your funny and pleasure with it nobody else but I can understand your chioce. Think about your self and take your time THANKS for all your craftsman ship journey you have shared with us. I will keep following you and hope you find your pleasure back.

[@garymennell2664]

Hi Graham your a man for detail. The stuff you do is very inspiring.It's your railway nobody else's. I have watched you for a lot of years now. I do understand what you are going through as i was there when i split up with my wife after 25 years of marriage thought no fault of either of us. Talking does help. Please speak to someone it does help. You and Hazel have gone through a lot in the last 3 years. Look after each other, give her all our love. I wish i could put an arm around you and say you will feel better about things. Gary from County Durham.

[@jamesmcleavy3638]

I empathise with you, depression can be a pain in the head, Hazel is your soul mate so stick by her she needs ❤️ at the moment

[@odenviking]

you are not alone graham i my self suffer from depresion and i had my low in february and it all began last fall when my mother passed away in a hospital bed. thanks to contacted my carecenter and got in contact with a therapis and a gp. i am feeling better thanks to medication. a tips contact your local gp or a therapist to get the mutch needed help . i know my self it takes some time to climbe up from the low place . i like your manhole cover. graham don`t care about those gatekeeping trolls i know it is hard when you are feeling low. i wish you a good recovery from your low period. 🇸🇪🇸🇪🇸🇪🇸🇪👍👍👍👍👍👍👍

[@JoeyBatman888]

Things will get better. It may not feel it at the moment but they will do. I suffered with severe anxiety and depression not long ago and know what you are going through. I got professional help with a therapist and it made such a difference and it helped me out a lot. Stay strong.

[@parekstrand7045]

Hi ! Take care and all the best to you 😊 It is a really nice layout you have and I enjoy watching your videos ! Best Regards Pär Stockholm/Sweden

[@AnthonyWilliams-ew3wp]

I think that talking about it with us is all part of the process of get through this period. Stay strong and stay positive, you’ve a lot of chums out here.

[@stevealbums7897]

Hi Graham, I won’t name Names, a family member has/is going through exactly the symptoms you described. Only after months of professional medical intervention has the darkness slowly turning into the light. My simple opinion is we have to learn to control how we feel with coping mechanisms. I do believe everyone at some point feels as you do but if they are very very lucky the feelings last perhaps a day or even hours and they return to dare I say normal. Take all the help and advice you can. Hazel went through the darkness into the light and I feel so will you. Just takes time and understanding from all concerned. Steve

[@philbird6196]

Graham I too suffer bouts of extreme anxiety and depression due to a lot of my ex Army comrades passing away suddenly this year and I too find myself wondering when is it my turn. I fully understand where you are coming from on that point. Minor life problems are exacerbated to stupid levels of intensity and hard to understand why. I think you are suffering from PTSD after your recent Family issues and I think you should consult your GP sooner than later Take it from a former combat veteran there is absolutely no shame in doing this, it will help. Take your time and hope you get well soon.

[@greengiant1258]

Hello Graham, hear, hear, I agree with every word you've said, try not to let them get you down, many of us support you, stay strong and take care , Allan

[@afm1948]

Graham, I too am 75 years old and recently lost my younger brother and two other family members. My wife too had a long heath problem (she is very much improved now). And yes, I too have had to think about my mortality, and how I look forward to seeing my grandkids grow up. So I've got an idea of where you are coming from. My best wishes to you and Hazel. I would think that as a 1st step would be a long chat with your GP to try to find a road to overcome this temporary issue. That said, Lakeside is truely a superb .layout and is an inspiration. Your Mastr Modeller award was not given for no reason. You do need to step back and look to your own well being. The layout videos can wait and your followers will understand and wait in support. Again best wishes for you anf Hazel. Arthur

[@waynemeakin]

Graham, I've been there. Not the same circumstances, granted, but your words are so true about depression. You are 100% correct about 1 negative comment in a thousand hurting so much. I was a pro drummer for a while and mostly people were brilliant with me, but there is always 1 comment that really hurts and that has the effect of 100 bad comments. It eats away. I ended up packing it all in and lost all confidence. No matter how many try and get me to start again, I wont. Anyway, best wishes mate. Take your time. Come back when you are ready. I and thousands more love your content and support you. Even though we don't even "know" you. All the best Graham. Get the help you need and come back stronger. Thanks for everything Wayne.

[@alastairwilson457]

Graham, thinking of you and Hazel. You have been a huge inspiration to my own layout efforts...oh, and the manhole cover looks great. I've had issues with depression myself over the years so get how flat you must feel and concerns for the future. What helped me was my faith as well as getting dirty with a spanner. That beautiful Gentry must be needing some attention?! Give me shout if you want a cofree sometime. Keep strong Graham, you have so many friends and subscribers supporting you. God bless

[@turbine6202]

Sensible words as always, Graham, and well done for sharing them. I am currently helping my family to heal after three decades of my actions causing them untold pain. Being brought up to show no weakness and share nothing really didn't help. Without recently admitting my failure and my need for help I would not be here today, and neither would my amazing wife. Your railway, and the skilful work you put into it, can wait. For what it's worth, one thing I did learn is that 'all will be well and all will be well and all manner of things will be well' really is true. This does not mean that things will be easy, but the outcome of all things will be good and I wish it for yourself and your wife.

[@johnodonoghue7381]

Graham , you have my greatest admiration for soldiering on over the last 3 years , I only hope the mockers are watching this and taking due notice . I and all the other genuine members I'm sure will join me and wish you a speedy recovery and thank you for all the videos you have recorded through your troubled time my friend . I can only wish you a speedy recovery and lets get you back when you're feeling better thank's again you're an inspiration

[@brucemacklin2969]

Having travelled a similar road last year i can "only say always look on the bright" i know it will be difficult but it helps.

[@garywapshare6775]

I very rarely comment on the content i watch but you sir have prompted me to say, I believe you are a much stronger person than at the moment you probably believe yourself. To feel you have to explain yourself to people you dont even know shows a strength you must have deep down. Please take care, get help and get better, sod the rest of the world and get into a better place were you can feel able to show us more of your wonderful layout. All the best

[@stevesjagcetera]

Graham, I love your modeling skills you are an inspiration to so many. I understand your frustration with the KZbin comments I sometimes feel the same, that’s why I stopped posting videos for a while. Hope you feel better soon and come back with your amazing content.

[@keithdenner9441]

Thoughts and prayers for you both.

[@wce261md8]

I love your videos Graham. Thanks for sharing. Take your time get well and don't worry about what people say. You are wonderful person and an artist.😊❤

[@DavidGreen-km2su]

Hi Graham, I have watched your videos for several years, and enjoyed them very much. Your model is to be admired and you ought to be proud of it. I really love your Christmas videos and have shared them with friends who are not model railway fans, and they too have been impressed. Please take your break away from KZbin in your current mood, as further unwarranted criticism will delay your mood changing to a more positive one. I will miss your contributions to the hobby sadly but you need to put your self first at this point. Take care, and I hope you find the resilience and strength to return one day to share your great modelling again. Rule 1 - it is your model! Thanks again, David

[@northwesttrainsmodels]

Hi Graham am so sorry things haven't been good for you and the things you have been through, you have done better than most would have under the circumstances, do what ever you need to do to get your self feeling better and take all the time you need, your viewers will be here for when your back, i've said it before and always will keep saying it your one of the most talented people i've seen on youtube and you have always inspired me with your different projects, your layout is amazing and i have always enjoyed seeing your other projects on facebook with your garden and especially your pond a few years back, take care of yourself and look forward to seeing you back with a new project 🙂 Tom

[@erniekapp7675]

Mate I feel your pain - have been through it and have come through the other side. I’m now 80 and really enjoying life and working in isolation on my layout with 2 or 3 friends. The world is full of negative critics. My experience in rehab was challenging but most of the support staff were most helpful. Being in care can remove all responsibility and help recovery. All the best and good wishes. Ernie - Australia

[@22YZ450FX]

Thanks for sharing! I am a new subscriber and enjoy watching you and learning from you. I think the cover is cool and very creative and now I know how to make my own!

[@brooklyngraham1151]

Hi Graham. I feel badly that you’re having difficulties. There is no way to explain to people who haven’t been where you are, just how you feel. I know all too well. As a registered nurse, I would get so depressed over the situations I’d be put into. Please do get some help. Generally, to address your concerns, the only way that you would be hospitalized is if you are a threat to yourself or others. You do seem like you were in a bit of an overwhelming situation, and recovering from that takes time. I sincerely hope that you find your way, either with another’s help or through your own means. Take good care. Brooklyn

[@johnwyldbore73]

Good luck Graham, you take as long as you need mate, we’ll all be waiting here for when you come back to us. Take care and you’re doing the right thing by putting yourself and your family first. ❤

[@SteamerEdge]

Over the years I've come to realize that all Hobbies are mainly about wonderful charismatic people, you are at the top of that list Graham and an inspiration to us all. You are 100 % right to take as much time as your need for yourself and get your mental health back. Take care of yourself , I wish you well - Paul

[@MichaelStevens-f7v]

Your not alone Graham.Bless you and Hazel .Avoid any Negativity if you can.and enjoy your Railway.We are slowly getting into spring so hopefully you can put into your wonderful Garden .Take care lots of love Michael

[@nihalweerasena3692]

Hi Graham All that matters is Hazel and you Physical and Mental Health. Your'e caring and strong man do take your time and come back to your hobby when your are ready. You have been a great inspiartion and we are modelling skills are amamzing. I am confident you will return back when you are ready. Take care. best wishes to both of you.

[@paulmarmion358]

Stay strong mate been where you are but with friends you will get through it stay safe

[@DMRJ]

Take care of yourself. Please work on becoming whole in yourself and Hazel. I have slowed down on YT and see a therapist every two weeks. We will be here when you choose to come back. My prayers to your good health!

[@charlesfrost5126]

Hi Graham, so sorry to hear about how you were feeling. I hope you feel at least a little better. One day at a time my friend remember your never alone. All the best

[@kenbatten4412]

Take it easy Graham. Always remember a huge number of your subscribers are so interested in what and how you model, and the overall impression. Wish I could model as well as you do.

[@JasonStevenson-pb1bp]

Graham, I have never felt the need to comment on any video before today. The work that you do on your channel is an inspiration to a lot of people who like myself have not got the same skill level as you. Sending love, Please look after yourself and Hazel. And see hope to see you on here soon. ❤

[@KidarWolf]

I've been there, Graham. I've felt very much like life wasn't worth living. I hope that you're able to find peace and joy again, and I'm glad you're willing to be so open about this, because you may not realize it, but it can help others who are struggling with their mental health to feel like getting help isn't a bad thing, and that talking about your difficulties can be good for you. I think the most important thing is to take care of you. We're just a bunch of strangers on the internet, and most of us are thankful for your hard work on Lakeside, and on this channel, but at the end of the day, you work for you, not for us. We're just blessed when you do choose to share your love for your hobby with us. We'll all still be here when you're ready to come back to this. I don't know whether it helps, but you're not alone in struggling with this. Many a youtuber has had trouble with their mental health being affected by the comments on their videos. So many of the people I've followed for many years have had to take a break to work on their mental health, and I think it's good and healthy to set boundaries like that. Personally, I love your man hole cover, I think it's really clever, and really cool, and it's inspiring. I love that maintenance pit, it adds so much life to your layout, and is a wonderful little scene within the art that is Lakeside. With regards to getting help, what I can tell you is that the very last thing anyone wants to do is to take away your autonomy - there are massive legal hoops that have to be jumped through for someone to be admitted to a psychiatric ward, and the goal is always treatment in the community wherever possible. I don't know whether you have access to some of the resources I do in my area, but there's this wonderful service I've engaged with where, when I'm feeling at my worst, particularly at night, I can go talk, have tea, coffee, hot chocolate, and know that I have one on one attention for as long as it takes for me to start feeling safe to be alone again.

[@alancoomes2797]

Graham, you have over 15K subscribers here and I'm sure every one of us wish you well & will be still here on your return, however long that may be. You look after yourself and do what you feel necessary to get around the corner. Best wishes to you and Hazel.

[@AndrewH561]

Graham, my thoughts and best wishes to you and Hazel. I have always taken inspiration from your videos and your skills as a modeller are at a standard which I can only dream of getting close to.

[@stephenpayne3337]

Graham, love your videos which are inspirational and have helped me with my layout development, wish you all the best and when you are ready to post another vid, will be watching out for it!

[@chrisbeckett8361]

Hi Graham hope your ok, stay strong my friend. If you ever need anyone to talk to, please reach out. Watching your videos have got me through some low times. Don’t let the haters get you down they aren’t worth it. Take care pal

[@LZDEN]

my dear friend,my thoughts are with dear Hazel and you,and im thinking of you both.and wish you a speedy recovery,i know its not easy,as i have suffered myself,the work you have done on your splendid layout is just fantastic,have a rest and a break and come back when your ready.bless you both.

[@richardmorton4362]

Please take care of yourself. You are a major inspiration for my getting into model railway. People just need to remember it’s your layout and as my mum always used to say if you can’t say anything nice don’t say anything at all.

[@onnomulder9775]

Please take care of yourself my friend!!! You and Hazel stay strong! Take your time to recover! I wish you both al the best!! Cheers Onno.

[@matthewotooleis]

You are very brave mate. I’ve had depression myself in the past and I was hyper sensitive. I found no interest in all the things I used to love. I was scared to go to the doctor and take tablets initially but I would recommend it to anyone. It’s the biggest cliche of all but time is a great healer- look after yourself and sod the haters. Don’t let other people ruin what you love. It’s a manhole cover for you- it was a teaspoon for me. Keep that manhole cover on and don’t compromise with idiots! Like you I was scared but even just talking to the doctor helped me very much- please get some help mate. 👍🏻

[@theangelsmodellingandrailways]

You're right to take a break, mental health is your main focus Graham. I've long been a supporter of yours and will continue to follow your channel. You have been an inspiration to many over the years, take inspiration from us and take a long ass break and focus on yourself. A wee holiday away somewhere is always a good start. Take care and wishing you all the best. Brian @ The Angels

[@HeadstoneRailway-xs6zz]

Well done for having the strength to share ( and acknowledge )how you feel, I hope the local NHS can offer help, you have been through a lot but you aren’t alone, ( i hope the rivet counters are pleased with themselves!) Take very good care and keep going! (And i hope there is a flurry of apologies forthcoming.)

[@bazza2302]

Hi Graham, I cannot believe that people would mock one of the best layouts on KZbin. I live in Australia but absolutely love your modelling ability and attention to detail. I hope to replicate some of your ideas once my own layout is up and running. Hope you are not away to long, but obviously mental health first. Hope to see you back soon. Take care.

[@danielholden-storey5107]

You need to take yourself to a safe place and give yourself the space to get better. Death at our age (I am 76 on Wednesday) can be a real concern and sometimes it gets banished from our thinking but then it reappears. It's the way it is Graham. However you must take yourself out of the fray and simply be yourself and 'play with your trains' and not worry about those of us who love your videos and your layout and your skills because only by taking yourself away can you restore your mental health. If we care about you then we will understand and clearly many empathise closely with your feelings. Take care my friend.

[@Seymourphotos]

Hi Graham, So sorry to hear how your feeling, and all I can say is I wish you the very best, as for your railway Its one of the very best and so inspirational, your modelling skills are second to none. Ive watched and studyed your layout and have taken so many ideas on board for a future layout. All the very to you and Hazel, Please take care, and you will be back making your amazing railway. Kindest Regards Alan.

[@Marly51]

Graham... modelmaking is what brought me to KZbin and there are some wonderful people like you here! So sorry to hear what you are coping with and wishing you and Hazel all the support you need, with time to focus on yourself. ❤️

[@stephendavies6949]

Hi Graham. I know from personal experience that sometimes you have to ask for help. I lost my dad and sister during lockdown within 7 months of each other. This sent me into a spiral of depression and eventually led to me seeking professional help for depression. It takes a real man to admit he needs help. Depression cannot be dealt with alone. And yes, it is a chemical imbalance in the brain that causes it. I wish you all the best, sir.

[@hirstyboy97]

Hi Graham,I am new to your channel but I can fully understand how you are feeling as I have many health issues including depression due to my issues ,I have watched your videos now for a couple of weeks looking at your process for n scale railway modelling,and looking at the comments people have put on I can feel that you are well appreciated by everyone on here so like I say to people regarding my issues is as long as you have good people around you I fully believe that this can get you through anything, I have had 2 major breakdowns which left me feeling that my life is over but I seemed help from total strangers and I found I could open up more without criticism,so stay strong both of you ❤️👍🏼

[@clivengauge]

Sorry to hear about your troubles it is hard to live with depression know all about that stay strong you're layout is great wish my layout looked as good keep safe and look after yourself and your family thank you for sharing

[@colinnewmarch1106]

Graham, sorry to hear that, since lockdown there are so many angry and envious people out there.Your channel was the first I subscribed to ,Lakeside is superb, your skills are exceptional. The back story video was inspired.I had a minor stroke in 2022, no on going problems,however it makes you think, life is not a rehearsal ,and I take every day as a bonus. Best Wishes to you and Hazel , keep modelling

[@davidstead4048]

Graham these people are not worth the air they breath. I know what it’s like to be depressed, I personally went through three years of depression. I recently had two heart attacks in the space of 6 weeks and now I struggle to get to my layout . I don’t do videos because of the reasons you talk about . The people who are knocking your manhole cover have no imagination and are probably of the rivet counters in this hobby .I know it’s hard but try and let it not bother you , it is as you say futile . Take care and God bless you .

[@duncancampbell452]

Hi Graham am sorry to hear your news I haven't been following your channel for a while now you aren't the only one there's many people in the situation your under just now your not alone I'm going through a bad time also please look after yourself and take care.

[@gazclass58]

Hi Graham and Hazel, I know that you both have been through a lot over the past, though years with your personal life and family. Twelve years ago, I was in a similar position, nearly losing my wife and my youngest child due to complications at birth it a long road to travel to get my Mrs back on her feet and she did have a relapse 2 months ago for me I managed to stay strong mentally and physically. So my advice would be to take a break and get your self's better help is available, my friend. I don't want to see you disappear, Graham. I've enjoyed the time flowing you. Kind regards, Gary Leicestertmd

[@going2thedogs]

All the best to you Graham.

[@justinfox9426]

Graham your a wonderful person.. I completely understand I lost 2 very close family members within a year 1 was my father and its still an every day battle at times I feel like I've lost so much but I keep trying to live on (this to shall pass)but it is very hard... I know I will miss not only your model building skills but the stories to go with your layout... keep your head up and try to keep traveling down the higher paths in life though it is very hard at times ...I do believe some people are just jealous or can't help but hate others on social media

[@RobPember]

Hi Graham, I've been watching your videos for several years and after seeing this one felt I had to login and comment. I enjoy seeing your layout and your down-to-earth approach is refreshing (I don't get much time on my own layout, but I run whatever trains I like... hobbies are meant to be fun)! Speaking up on what you've been going through takes great courage - just a thought, but perhaps see if there's a "Men's shed" or something similar near you? Sending you very best wishes, Rob

[@kevg707]

Graham so sorry to hear of ongoing struggles... your not alone although you always feel you are..take the break and see where you go ..thank you for sharing super videos and a super layout and know that many ..the majority do appreciate it and your work.... you and Hazel take care

[@andysfishingandflytyingcha2310]

Graham, so sorry to hear this. As somebody who is a suicide survivor and had depression after a very serious illness that hospitalised me for 6 months during covid with no visitors l would urge you to go and see your GP in the first instance. There are things that he can suggest, talking therapy, mindfulness or a short course of anti depressants (these really do work). It would be highly unlikely that a bed placement would be the way forward with your type of illness. Remember depression is a physical illness like any other caused by a chemical inbalance in the brain that can be rebalanced with medication. I truely hope that you have a very quick recovery, you've already done the most important thing by recognising it in yourself and talking about it. Take care mate. Andy.

[@unreasonable4rce]

Hang on in there. You are a Great Guy. The darkness will pass. Life is worth living. I’ve been where you are and it ain’t fun but the clouds will soon part and the sunshine will come into your life again.