Grieving the Loss of My Husband | 3 Years Later

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[@schumache101]

I can’t believe it’s been 3 years. I still vividly remember getting off work & I watched the video of you talking about him passing away in the parking lot before I headed home. It was just a few hours after you had posted it. That feels like an eternity ago, but also simultaneously as if it happened only last week

[@justdelrey567]

i feel the same !

[@kimmyhoffman3664]

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[@meahdahlgren5875]

Schumache101 ❤❤

[@kimmyhoffman3664]

@@margeryojije7862 my thoughts? That's not antruint close to a friend or anyone why remotely cares about you. Who are we to tell anyone if that state of mind how to feel? Do they think people want to go out that way? Some feel there no end to their struggle so they make their own. Some feel it silk never get or feel better so why continue to live if this is what life is about! Its a terrible decision, life changing of course. The saddest news to ever hear. Does this person also think that person just woke up and had a bad day or two so chose to do something so horrific? Sounds like that person has never felt the pain or struggles and I hope they never do. And I want you to know your thoughts and feelings are so relevant and so matter. And you deserve some one to share your feels with. You matter Nd I care. My daughter struggles from learn disabilities an loves upping people... Please think of checking out he very very small channel. She wants to be a KZbin star one day 😂but seriously she loves to inspire and already gets it.. Good luck!!! Her KZbin bans I believe is Peyton Fisher 💜 with the heart.

[@oliwialasiecka5530]

Yes, it's been 3 years guys life's going on

[@cassie.minimalist]

Coco was such a daddy girl😢 Landon loved her to the bits 💙 We are all so proud of you Camryn. Life is so beautiful but also crazily hard...

[@celinapalfrey6001]

Adhd sucks and hard to live with

[@celinapalfrey6001]

💙

[@ShaynaHibbard]

@@celinapalfrey6001 Vitamins most are low in who has That D/k Omega fats Allergies to Dairy

[@GraciePhillips-wf4ug]

Yes very true

[@aubreyk_xox]

3 years without him.. R.I.P Landon 💙

[@celinapalfrey6001]

😫😢

[@celinapalfrey6001]

I know how he felt adhd sucks and it’s hard to live with

[@mmgwife]

I was 12 the first loss I faced. It was my mom. She was taken from us by a drunk driver. I was on the cusp of turning into a teenager. It was the most vulnerable time for a young woman. It still hurts today at 48 years young. There are times even now where I wish I could pick up the phone and talk to her. I feel your pain.

[@imogenspencer2912]

exactly the same age for me except it was my dad, I'm 19 now :(

[@Alexandra-hh6qf]

💜💜💜

[@celiathirimanna5118]

i’m so sorry to hear about your losses. i don’t know what you believe, but as a Christian myself I do believe that I will see all of my loved ones again ❤ grief is just your heart telling you how much you loved someone, and that they loved you as well

[@hermionepink96]

Same except it was only 7 years ago and I was still so young. I still am in college and I can't imagine being 48 and living so much life without him here. 7 years feels so long I worry I will forget about him. My friend of 6 years died of brain cancer in May. I think I'm still in disbelief/shock phase. For anyone who doesn't believe in God- I told my Mom "Brooke is going to pass away tomorrow" and I was right. There's no reason I should have known that. I wish I had texted her I love her that last day of her life. ❤️‍🩹

[@eabhasheehan1994]

I cannot believe it’s been three years… Rest in peace Landon 💙 You are so so strong Cam 🫶

[@meahdahlgren5875]

❤

[@padafamfans]

I lost my dad on August 21st, 2020, due to covid. I never experienced so much pain as I do when I realize he's physically gone.

[@June-rb1nx]

I’m so sorry for your loss.

[@padafamfans]

@@June-rb1nx thank you ❤️🙏

[@erino_0]

I'm so sorry ❤️

[@naty1012]

So sorry for your loss 😢 I lost my loving sister to covid Dec 17th 2021, worst day of my life. I understand how you feel.

[@padafamfans]

@@naty1012 I'm sorry for your loss, Naty. I don't know if you believe in God, but I'll keep you and your family in my prayers 🙏

[@elizabethgrogan8553]

I think the manner of Landon's death was just awful for you. I lost my beloved younger brother to suicide, in the same way Landon passed. It is such a horrible shock. Some people avoid us, not knowing what to say. The guilt is just terrible, even knowing that we couldn't stop them. Time does change things. There is no set time for grief. It comes at such odd times. You've done so well. Your daughters are so loved. If people ask about their dad, simply say "he passed". You don't owe them any explanations.

[@detergenthwachae]

​@@JoshHutchersonOfficialthe fuck??

[@alicat7633]

@@JoshHutchersonOfficialdon’t be cruel. Even if he abused her, she loved him and the father of your children killing him self is hard. She made an entire video about grief!

[@JoshHutchersonOfficial]

@@alicat7633 I’m being sarcastic of course it was awful for her and the comment I was replying to just felt like DUHH to me

[@mirndacoe5904]

You just tell them your heart doesn't ever stop loving anyone. No matter what kind of pain they put you through. I know from experience, unfortunately, hold your head up. Girl, you are strong, really strong. And you're doing it, and you will make it, you and them babies.❤

[@michelledesjadon1476]

​@Thecheddargames she was talking about the way he died. You don't need to be an ass!!! Does that make you feel good about yourself? She also lost her brother to suicide, so mocking what she said is just really rude and totally uncalled for!!!!!!!

[@itsbellafromtwilight]

my roommate and i lost our partners to suicide a year apart from each other. i also lost not only that partner but two other friends to suicide as well in the same year. the first year felt like it was dragging, longest year of my life and genuinely the worst pain i have ever felt. grief is so complex. living life after a death really makes you feel like you cannot live life the same again and all you can do is keep moving forward. i still have days where i have to sit in my feelings of raw pain and feel it instead of suppressing it. 2 years later and it’s still not easy, i miss them all every day.

[@BlindSin]

Praying for you ❤️

[@nikkis7375]

Sending you so much love and light. I’m so sorry you and their loved ones have gone through this.

[@leixcea]

seeing you this last 3 years just shows how strong you are

[@hermionepink96]

you have to face whatever pain life gives you. I have faced much pain- emotional and physical I didn't think I could handle and somehow you find a way.

[@shakirabenjimin7249]

I mean she was teen when she married him so she has no choice but to grow without him into adulthood. It woulda been much worse if this happened in adulthood. Not to downplay her feelings but it was her choice to get married and pregnant young.

[@leixcea]

@@shakirabenjimin7249 don’t think this has anything to do with marrying at a young age but whatever

[@hermionepink96]

@@shakirabenjimin7249 I agree. She is entitled to her feelings on if or when she wants to get married again, but I feel like she has a bright future because she has two beautiful children, she is safe now, and she can be her authentic self

[@shakirabenjimin7249]

@@leixcea is that why she was capable of dating somebody 2 years after he passed? Most widows are incapable of dating again but because she’s young she has to move on because she’s got a whole life ahead of her and she’s lucky to be able have done that in such little time. That’s why marriage shouldn’t be conducted at a young age if the meaning of it is so easily disrupted.

[@Libbyvictoria]

When Landon first passed, I was absolutely devastated…I cried for hours and I couldn’t imagine how you were coping….you are so strong Cam! We are so proud of you ❤

[@simplycassie4982]

I can’t believe it’s been three years already Rest easy Landon 💙

[@meahdahlgren5875]

❤

[@kayleisanders6157]

You sound like you have a wonderful therapist to help you work through this, you are well beyond your years. YOURE SUCH A GOOD MOMMA, keep keeping on

[@MrsAlmaTrumble]

You are stronger than most people who lost loved ones. We're continuing to pray for you and the girls.

[@michelledesjadon1476]

I lost my Fiance a month after my dad died, so I was grieving the 2 most important men in my life. That was in 1995, 28 years ago. Sometimes it feels like 28 years and sometimes it feels like it happened yesterday!! Time definitely does heal, and the pain lessens as the years go by, but it will always hurt and I will always miss them so much. So many great things have happened in the last 28 years, I've had my son, I've been with my husband now for 21 years as well. Life does go on and like I said, the pain does lessen A LOT as the years go by. It took me many many years to heal. My heart is with you Cam❤❤❤

[@voguee2]

I can’t even tell you how well you articulate your feelings and experiences, you could be an amazing therapist, motivational speaker or author. As someone who also lost their lover to suicide 6 years ago, I very much empathize. It is an extra painful type of death to wrap your head around. ❤ Sending strength and love your way Cam

[@emmaf7802]

You talking about waves of grief hit me so hard it may not have been a person but I lost my cat a couple years ago and there are still times where I just break down because I miss him. I miss his snuggles how cozy he made me feel I just miss how sweet he was. I’m glad to see y’all doing better.

[@tavakasper4965]

needed this. i’ve never been able to explain grief and the waves it comes in but you really explained it perfectly❤ you’re amazing !!!

[@amay4203]

It's so positive to hear that the crippling waves of grief are more spread out. It's amazing to see how far you've come through this horrible event. You're a wonderful parent and speaking about Landon is so important for the girls, it'll help them so much ❤

[@jadelynsarviss8514]

3 years went by so fast. So proud of you Cam! Always praying and thinking of you and the girls💙💙 We all miss Landon so much and I love how you bring him up to the girls. Keep going mama you got this, we are all here for you and you are amazing and beautiful. Love you and the girls so much❤❤

[@witchhazelbetrayal]

Cam, in my darkest moments of grief I’ve taken to google, KZbin, Reddit, tumblr.. anywhere I could connect with strangers because sometimes that’s easier than talking to the people in your life even if they’re amazing. Posting these things on your platform is so important. In the early years of the worst grief I’ve experienced in my life so far, things like this were so crucial in helping me survive. Thank you on behalf of everyone who knows what it’s like.

[@gracemiller3861]

I am so grateful you made this video. People do not talk about what grieving is like years after the initial incident. I am so grateful that I had a therapist that taught me you grieve more than death. I became disabled this year and have had to grieve the death of myself and loss of so many abilities. It was so hard. Something I and so many others grieve every day. I always say grieving is a process of processing.

[@camillecrawford7388]

3 years go by so fast I remember watching that video and just cried for that whole day. I felt so bad for you and for your beautiful daughters. But see you come this way has helped me with a loss to thank you so much cam. You’re an inspiration and you keep it real thank you cam and your family. Rest in peace Landon 💙🕊️

[@JP-fp8uc]

I'm sorry for your loss Cam. I pray that you and your daughters will find peace after such tragedy happened. To anyone who is not feeling ok, taking your life is not the way you want, even if it may feel like it.

[@talisharussell6546]

It’s been 2.5 years since my partner passed away, and 5 months since my son was born sleeping. I’ve never resonated with a video more! Sending you love and light ❤

[@lusoares6500]

Cam, thank you so much for such an honest conversation about grief! I really needed that. Thank you for being vulnerable here on the internet, I know it's probably not easy so thank you SO much. Thank you for being so strong for your girls. I wish you all the best and pray that everyday you can find strength to keep going. Thank you.

[@hermionepink96]

I lost my Dad 7 years ago and it didn't even really hit me until 2 years after. I break down in intense grief more now than I did before. I finally allowed myself to feel after 5 years. I cried so hard my Mom had to hug me for a hour.

[@Mxoxo21]

Watching my grandma slowly pass away has been the most painful process this last week.. I know it’s not the same but it’s grief and it comes in waves . thank you for this.

[@gfs265]

I lost my dad out of nowhere about 3 months after Landon passed away. I remember watching your video explaining the situation and I remember being so heart broken for you. Three months later, I had to learn what that felt like. Thank you for talking so willingly about grief. You are teaching so many, including the girls, that it’s okay to grieve. ♥️

[@jordanhollingshead4885]

Cam, I’ve followed your journey since we were both 16 when I found your channel on my recommended page. I’ve always felt so close to you as if we’re friends. Being here through the years watching you and your family, I am so amazed by you and your strength. You’re such an amazing mommy!!

[@Gorangers999]

It’s so comforting to hear your take on grief. I lost my mom in January 2020 and I find myself in a similar grief path as you. Def helps me to feel like what I’m going through is very normal. I’m young and not married or have kids, it hurts to know my loving mom won’t share those experiences with me, I just know how important and special those moments would have been to her. I know that’s also hard to accept on your side too. 💔

[@bimonteiro27]

The way you explain grief makes a lot o sense, it is a very universal way of experiencing it and super valid. I feel the same. My grandpa died at 72 years old in a car crash in April 2012, it was a surprise since he was overall healthy but still he was an older man. Yesterday I cried about it, I remembered the day the accident happened, how awful the news were, how our whole family was in grief, how I miss him, and I thought of how he was not at my weeding and won't be coming back.... Your husband was so young, and it has been 3 years but that is not long at all. The feeling will always be there and sometimes it floods us, but as time goes on most of the days we can keep going and not be overwhelmed by sadness. Is not that we forget the person, but usually we remember good. memories so it does not feel heavy, but then sometimes the trauma comes back and it hurts. I wish you and all struggling with these feelings lots of happiness and more better days.

[@EmyLikesRaspberries]

I lost my dad when I was 8 years old, and I'm now 16. And to this day I still get hit with intense grief, it's definitely not all the time like it used to be, but every cupple of months I get that same feeling of hurt just like the day I found out I didn't have a dad anymore. It takes a while, but things do get better eventually.

[@adelaideahr7317]

I lost my big sister (august 07, 2020). And oh boy, do I feel connected to you! She was 29, was about to be 30. She had a heart attack. Out of the blue. And it's so hard for me to accept that, just like that she's gone. Thank you for talking about grief. I feel so close to you Cam. Lots of love from France x

[@nms4521]

Im so sorry for your loss. I had a major stroke at age 34 in Jan 2021. I was 3 months post partum and the type of stroke I had has a very low survival rate. I still cannot believe it happened and all the time since it happened I think I can't imagine missing these moments with my family if things had gone differently. I am truly so sorry for your loss.

[@June-rb1nx]

I’m so sorry for the loss of your beloved sister. May she rest in peace.

[@naty1012]

I lost my sister to covid. It was very sudden, I found out she was ill only 3 days before she transitioned.

[@themontrealgirl95]

hey girl. Im a 28 year old mom of 2 and i just cannot imagine not having my husband anymore . I cry as i listen to you and i send you a virtual hug ❤

[@JuMixBoox]

This video is very soothing and comforting. Thank you for sharing your true feelings and thoughts so well and calmly. That cannot be easy. I wish you nothing but the best for the times to come.

[@angieclark1985]

You have helped me with my own grief… I really appreciate and love your strength!!

[@pattycorm]

You are wise beyond your years. Thank you for sharing your heart, and I’m sorry for the hard moments. You are a great mom and your daughters are blessed to have you. Your raw truths are certainly helping others, and I hope eventually you will feel peace more often. ❤️

[@nikkis7375]

I can’t believe it’s been 3 years already. Sending you and your family so so much love. and sending love to anyone struggling right now and everyone grieving.

[@kaileylebel8943]

I’m so proud of how strong you are. I’m almost 21 and i couldn’t imagine life with 2 kids and no partner. I’m so impressed by you. I hope all goes well. Your doing amazingly 🎉❤ keep pushing forward

[@kellylyncottrell6191]

I felt this video. Thank you for making it. I'm currently grieving my dad in the middle of wedding planning. It's not easy walking through this knowing both my parents aren't here. Cam, you're a strong woman. Grief is hard to understand. Please know that Coco and DeeDee have you and they are growing into amazing little humans. Landon is cheering you on from heaven. Sending love to you & the girls ❤️🕊️💙

[@bethechange1226]

sweetheart, I am sending you so so much love. You are a strong woman and I’m sure your parents will spiritually be watching over you on your special day 🤍

[@kellylyncottrell6191]

@@bethechange1226 thank you so much 🥹

[@chlo_chlo_puff5108]

Hi cam- I am so sorry for your loss and am here to support you. Last week just marked the 2 year death anniversary of my fiancé - it’s unimaginably painful (and we did not have kids). I pray for your well-being and hope you find your own time to grieve and honour him

[@pipergreer446]

I lost my dad on May 2, 2019 a day after his Birthday I still cry to this day.I was 10years old now I am 15 I love watching your video cam u have inspired me to keep move and don't give up

[@tri-kit]

I think it's also so valuable to acknowledge the difference between grieving someone lost to someone who took thier own life. It's a choice they make in 1 moment that you have to live with for the rest of your life, and it's torture, I also know first hand. You are not alone🖤

[@Veronica72818]

You are always able to speak with such kindness and compassion. Its very touching. Always stay strong 🩵

[@christinem9280]

I cannot believe its been 3 years and i am so proud of how far you have come and how strong you have been through it all! Love you Camryn!

[@toriwallis7988]

Ive lost 3 immediate family memebers throughout my life. The first was my brother many many years ago which I belive contributed to my fathers suicide and my step mothers death by alcoholism. So much of this resonates with me. And it's so incredibe and open of you to discuss it publicly. Thank you. I wish you strength to hold sadness and happiness at the same time as you continue living with your grief.

[@Iris-bz8jh]

You are an amazing storyteller Camryn with deep insights in life

[@hassanhayek6067]

I’m so sorry for your loss and what you went through the last couple of years. Your doing well with how you’ve handled it. I know it’s hard to put on a happy smile but trust me I know you are really strong don’t give up I do appreciate you at least making this video for me and everyone else to tell us how you’re doing. Please just understand that I’m here for you and everyone else is. You are an amazing person never forget that❤️

[@rainshadows17]

you got this babe, I love how you're keeping the memory of him in your daughters, especially dee, cause she wouldn't remember how amazing her dad is.

[@ShaynaHibbard]

She was just 2 months when He took his old life

[@RosesandBlingPapercrafts]

You’re an inspiration Cam ❤ Hold your held high. RIP Landon 💙

[@raissajuliana8194]

I cant believe it will be 3 years😔💔...definitely teared up watching this. I'm so sorry for the pain you carry in your heart 🥺 I'm so sorry that he isn't here to witness your girls growing up with you and i'm so sorry your babies are hurting too. You are so strong. Sending love and prayers your way. R.I.P Landon 💙

[@jayjaydaily3932]

This resonates so much it just hit the 3 year anniversary of my boyfriend and when it does it it hits. Sending you so much love❤️

[@mollysequoia7127]

You’re so strong and so well aware of your emotions, the anger is absolutely justified as well as the sadness.

[@kaylene_gramps_medina_307]

Can't believe 3 years without him Rest in peace Landon Always know the Camily loves you

[@terrylewis_]

You mentioned having a wave of grief last week, I just wanted to touch on that. For me, my Dad passed when I was 10 and it's been 27 years since. June 1 is his anniversary and still as the anniversary nears my body starts to act up. Physical signs of depression and loss/grief. This year was especially bad for me, because I was already in a low spot, so it started earlier. Even after all these years though, my grief is still very visceral for me. I still miss my Dad desperately, even though at this point I have lived longer without him. And my feelings surrounding grief are different then my sisters and my Mom. I remember having a journal early on and I would write to my Dad, I treasure that journal today. Able to look back at what I was thinking and feeling -- and again, I was 10, so I was also telling him things like about how good "The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe" was to read. Anyway, I think grief is a difficult topic to talk about because it is so varying. Many people talk about healthy ways to grieve, and I have finally gotten to a point where I can think of my Dad and smile more often then cry. I had an incredible Dad, and wish I had him longer, but the truth is that no time would've ever been enough with him. I would always want more time :) Sending you and the girls love.

[@rajveerkanojiya2985]

27 years and you still miss him wow rip

[@ShaynaHibbard]

It's all different for cam cause she The one who found him hanging Him self in the homes garage They lived in Austin tx .

[@terrylewis_]

@@ShaynaHibbard Absolutely, I don't at all compare my situation - only to share that the grief is still there for me 27 years later. I admire Cam so much, she is unbelievably strong. I can't imagine finding a loved one in such a state. :(

[@avereesmith5289]

i am so so proud of how far you’ve come and how strong u continue to be despite everything.

[@danielmanges8936]

I lost my godmother when I was 13 and still I miss her talking about her still makes me cry even after all these years. The pain never goes away but we survive every day. Ur so strong Cam❤

[@ChicaNcousins96]

I found your channel only two weeks before Landon passed. So wild that it’s been three years already. It makes me so happy every time I see you posted a new video💕 I love you and the Camily❤️❤️❤️

[@user-fj5by4hl6s]

I watched my mom die 9 months ago when I was only 17. Grief is so difficult & society really deals poorly with it. Thank you for making this video & taking such good care of your girls. You are so incredible.

[@sweetpea3188]

I'm so sorry. I will pray for you

[@vickirobinette1452]

Bless your heart for allowing yourself to grieve your loss. It’s such a painful and overwhelming feeling to loose your husband so suddenly. I too had a lot of self blame. My husband was diagnosed and died 4 days later. I always felt as though I could have done something to save him from cancer. Somehow we survive. Everyone grieves differently, I understand wholeheartedly. Sending love sweet lady.💖🌸

[@kellysumey]

Hey Cam, I definitely know the feeling of loosing someone. I lost my grandpa and uncle in the years before covid came and I was definitely devastated because I was in my last year of high school ever. It definitely took a toll on me during the day of the school day but I somehow got through the day with the help of the teachers and friends.

[@Thestephouse1]

I hope you are doing well🙏

[@erincleaver6063]

I am truly in awe of your strength. I can’t even begin to imagine how hard this is for you. You should be so proud of yourself. I wish I could take the pain away ❤️❤️❤️

[@carleehodgins]

I’m so happy your grief has evolved. time does heal. you have been healing in ways to better yourself for the girls. you have a right to feel any feelings you have regardless if it’s 3 years ago or 13 years ago. Being open and honest with your girls is the best thing you can do. the abuse he caused was not right. he was sick but it doesn’t invalidate your pain. you loved each other deeply but being so young it crept up on you both having responsibilities. I’m here for you cam, coco & deedee

[@55MissyLou]

Gosh, it has been that long. 😢 It is hard to share this with someone who hasn't been through what you have been through. Hopefully, the waves come less. It will never leave you, how could it. Life doesn't stop and keeps circling. I always say that want to get off this rollacoaster. You are going through so much emotional turmoil that it can be hard to see through all the pain. Your doing a great job helping your kids get through each heartache they will feel but sharing with them your grief, shows them that yes it hurts but you will be their to help them work through their grief of their Dad. You hopefully will help them not to go through as much pain as you have been through. You are scared, that they will go through all the emotions you are going through. But hopefully with enough guidance by you, they will come out of this well adjusted. I think you show them so much strength with all you do. Your a great Mum.❤

[@dannblair]

seeing your videos from not too long before he passed, not too long after, and three years later has been a remarkable thing to witness, you are so incredibly strong and most importantly a great mother to your children🙏🏾❤️ i stand with you Cam🕊️

[@LisaW509]

Nothing makes time fly by AND drag on and on at the same time quite like grief does. I can’t believe it has already been three years. I’m proud of you for moving forward and doing the best you can for the sake of your girls. You should be proud of you, too.

[@maddiesteinbock2370]

I have so much respect for you Camryn💙 thank you for sharing this vulnerable video, your heart is so beautiful

[@caz1153]

RIP Landon. 3 years already, so sorry Camryn I know it’s difficult for you. He would be so proud of the way you’ve raised the girls

[@caz1153]

@@margeryojije7862 suicide happens for any reason, people should not think that anything is an excuse. If a person thinks the only way to stop it is suicide then obviously they haven’t been getting the support around them that they need. Some people can’t “suck it up” so to answer your questions about my thoughts on this, yes I think your “friend” was being very ignorant and completely insensitive. If people are struggling you should never tell them to “suck it up”

[@marissachan1007]

i can’t believe it’s been three years i remember the day of my birthday i was going to watch you and i seen it i cried and i felt so bad for you and your girls but i love that you are handleing it pretty well and hope you stay strong and i’m here for you anyday

[@Amanda-yp7js]

Really can’t believe it’s been 3 years.. you’re so strong cam and I admire you so much on trying to keep going and dealing with your grief! We love you and are here for you.❤

[@milkbread9995]

Your the toughest person I ever seen and i hope you know that your trying your hardest instead of giving in and that makes you different and a rare gem, we will always support you ❤️💙

[@alexarosekeyworth6238]

How has it been three years? I started watching your videos when Colette was brand spankin new, I was just about the same age as you. Fell in love with you both- together, as parents, as people. I stopped watching for awhile, but always checked in every few months or so. My heart broke hearing about Landon’s passing especially for those little girls. I’m sure wherever he is he’s proud of what you and your girls have become. You’re one strong woman ❤

[@tvdlover99]

I lost my fiance on 4/20/2023 in a car accident. Idk how to grieve him most days. Especially since he was cheating on me, and I didn't find out until after he died. I love him so much, and yet I'm so mad. Most days, I just miss him, but some days, like today, I just wanna curl up and cry. Anyways, thanks for this video 💕 sending you and your babies love

[@AriannaDiNatale]

I remember when I saw the video u posted about him passing away pop up on my instagram and I got so sad, I started crying throughout watching the whole video and cried for a few days after bc ik how he meant so much to you

[@xxaddikayxx2980]

I cried watching the video three years ago.. I miss him so much and always think about the kids not being with there dad and the night it happened I also feel so bad for Camryn R.I.P Landon 🤍💙

[@morganh5795]

I have been watching you the past 6 years and always looked up to you. I hope you are able to heal and love, I send all the best vibes and good energy your way 🩷

[@allheartandsong]

You speak so well and mature. You got this❤your kids are blessed to have you as their mother.

[@victoriadunnett4745]

Can't even imagine what you had to go through on so many levels. You also had to bring up two girls,one a baby....please feel so proud of yourself. Grief to an extent ,is beyond our control and takes us by surprise, but it can go on for years like you say. People think by avoiding,they help fix it,but it's such a process...I don't think time heals,more we adapt to how we deal with grief. Eventually.hopefully

[@itsxdney8182]

I remember watching the video 3 years ago.. I never forgot about it. Im so so sorry. Rip Landon💙

[@vegasgirl7O2]

I remember around 3 years being the last significant time that I reached for the phone to call my mom and tell her something! That intense feeling of needing to sharing something with someone who is no longer there. It was time. I think of Landon every time I see your face! You are strong and I am proud of you sweetheart. He will always be with you and your little ones. The only thing that is for certain for the ones left behind is that life must go on. Rest in heavenly peace Landon! Live well Cam XOXOXO ✌❤🌍

[@Sierra364]

This is so sad!! I have been watching since there first vid came out!! And knowing the fact he is not in the world anymore is devastating!! WE ALL MISS U LANDON!! RIP ,😭😭😭

[@haileewalters]

My bf passed away last year and even tho we were only together for 5ish months it hit me like a bus and it still hurts so bad sometimes. Same with my father passing away. Everyone tells me to “move on” and they just don’t understand. Thank you cam for making this video and validating these feelings ❤

[@jamesbillingsby8043]

You're so incredibly brave, thank you for inspiring others.

[@christalynn7495]

My cousin just ended her life last week. Its been a range of emotions. I have actually been thinking back a lot to your first videos after and how you just pushed through and have always tried to understand his side and maybe why he made that choice. I am trying to put all the pieces together instead of being angry trying to understand what she may have been thinking and feeling. So even years later, I wanted you to know you sharing this incredibly painful journey still makes a difference.

[@Sarah-ty5ev]

I am so very sorry for your loss. I hope her memory is a blessing to you

[@mlextine]

Sending you love, always! Your growth is tremendous. Thank you for sharing the good & the bad. You’re an amazing human, Cam. ♥️

[@Melissa-hu1qz]

I so feel this way!!! The shock and the memories that pop up all of a sudden hit like a train wreck.

[@kristakriener83lilblueyz]

You're such a strong and wonderful woman. This is a new season and this to shall pass. Thats what I was was told at my mom's funeral a couple months ago 💔 😢 😔 I'll pray for you and your little one's!

[@gmuz99]

I really can’t believe that it has been 3 years 🥺 RIP Landon

[@ewaterstram929]

Camryn I have watched you since coco was a baby when Landon passed away I couldn’t even begin to imagine how you were feeling I had no idea just 2 years later I would be going through the same thing as my partner unexpectedly passed away everything you said in this video is so spot on I thank you for being so open because it does make me feel less alone last may was one year since he had been gone I look at life before and it’s like it was a whole different person now being in the second year (it doesn’t even feel real when I type that) it feels like a whole new chapter of grief and that sick to your stomach feeling you get when the realization kicks in is just awful I know you’re just somebody I watch on the internet but watching you before and after your grief and before and after my grief feels like I have somebody there who understands you are very strong and I feel so proud of you for being so open I am so sorry for your loss

[@mojojojo1094]

How has it been 3 years. Been here since the begging of your channel. I’m sorry for all the hardships you’ve faced. Love you Cam 💙

[@celinesadiq1037]

words can't describe how much i admire you. The way you persevere and keep fighting for yourself and your kids is truly amazing. I can't even imagine what you must go through on a day to day basis.. this is such an incredibly difficult situation for everyone involved and i truly feel for you and your kids. You never deserved this to happen to you and your kids don't deserve to be without a dad. But the way you stay strong while raising your kids as a single parent is truly admirable. We love you and we are here for you always Cam.❤

[@whosneela]

i’ve watched you from the beginning and you have grown SO much cam

[@rosebojorquez1237]

When anyone loses someone they loved dearly, the pain will always resurface. For me its been years, I feel if I still talk about what I'm feeling to anyone they'll think omg here we go again. So I just work myself though the grief 😐. It passes but it will happen again. You're doing the best you can. You're not alone.

[@loribillings3810]

Sending you and the girls a hug. Your a strong young lady Cam and are doing a great job raising the girls. May peace be with you.

[@xanderjosephsmom]

I needed to see this today, I lost my mom in april, she was my best friend and her death was very shoking and sudden. I still don't make it a day without crying. Thank you for sharing your journey

[@daylight6312]

More power to you cam! All I'm gonna say, your grief is inspriring so many people to keep going and stay strong. I wish you nothing but peace>>>

[@reganmilligan8076]

I can’t believe it’s been 3 years. It’s been 3 years since my dad passed away as well, when me and my boyfriend got together and he told me the day of his birthday I balled my eyes out because it’s the same day that my dad passed. I feel like I have to be strong for him because I don’t talk about it anymore. I always be gentle to myself during the month of may because it’s such a strong month for me.

[@mxmmianaxo1160]

can't believe it's been 3 years, continue resting in peace Landon🙏🏾❤️

[@Crazetheunicorn]

I had lost my grandfather on March 5th 2023 and I miss him everyday. Really the past 2 and a half years of his life seeing the decline with Dementia has helped the grieving process, but there are still moments where it does hurt. I know he does give signs that he is still here in his own way from when he was alive.

[@celinesadiq1037]

I still can't believe this happened to you Cam... I've been watching you forever. No one deserves to become a 19 year old widow. Sending you so much love and strength. You're the strongest person I know!!!