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[@Ihaveschizophrenia1]

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[@JCResDoc94]

*dude: multiple acnts.* have one whr youre a chick. be a vtuber for a while? be whatever! ive also encountered some1 adrenal fatigue w a 10x 5mg amph dose: which isnt MH related, but GD is that towards he high end. i cant cmt on the weight, bc you know the Rx like i do. age does seem to have an fx. ive noticed more on myself of late. i dont eat: hips & even tiny belly. why cant we be the youngest, hotest, richest most desirable in every room forever? jacob, divide your experiences & have multiple acnts. play. live the life of another. you dont owe the world anything, especially if you are showing an aspect of yourself honestly. get in the culture wars, behind an anime avatar. no1 sick in anmy way chooses it. but you dont have to add more. new look, 2nd accnt. whatever inspires you first. follow it thru. comt on your own vids: wateva. live.

[@JCResDoc94]

*when you open you acnt as some1 esle: add me on other socials, but dont say who you are & see if you can get me to engage.* (tho that may be hard, im kinda standoffish.) but it is a game. follow any joy you find. stop when it stops. or do tell me at some point: whatever is most fun. folw the fun. =) _JC

[@Ihaveschizophrenia1]

I want to clarify a few things, I just dislike being treated as only some dude who's mentally ill. I'm glad to help people as much as I can, it just brings me down when people come to me and just treat me like that mentally ill guy and that's all I am to people.

[@svengangert2683]

One of the reasons for that is, because that's what your channel is about. It's even in the channel name, so that will be what you're known for. But there are solutions to that. You could start a second channel and talk about whatever you want, besides mental health. Many people who are subscribed to you would love that. Cheers!

[@Ihaveschizophrenia1]

@@svengangert2683 That is very true, I just wish it wasn't that way fully.

[@DannyD-lr5yg]

I’m so sorry you’ve encountered a lot of those! Don’t forget that people like that tend to be boooring, unempathetic, 1-dimensional folks. In my experience, with both my own struggles and others’, surviving and thriving with mental illness cultivates - almost demands - that the sufferer grow in empathy and depth. Basically, I’d hang out with you not because you’re mentally ill, but because you seem to have developed that humor, depth, and complexity that somehow only comes from surviving some dark shit 💝

[@ougabouga6799]

I been watching u for years bro and my favourite videos are the ones where u used to speak about physics and the kosmos with so much excitement and love for it.Sorry u are feeling that way cause alot of people focus on that part of your life more than the others .U are a very interesting person my friend!!

[@svengangert2683]

@@Ihaveschizophrenia1 Don't worry too much, man. I know it's easy to say, but we all have to live with our burdens. Like I mentioned, you can always feel free to talk about something else. You don't have to talk about mental health all the time, cause there truly is more to you. Schizophrenia doesn't define you, it is just something you have to live with.

[@TeamRocket2012]

"I'm in a constant battle with my own brain"-Jacobb That quote is my life with severe depression.

[@tobyhoward3340]

Hi weight gain is from the anti-psycotics, one thing that helped me in a life or death panic attack was to accept everything in the world as it is and let go to the fear of death, it feels like falling backwards into nothingness. The meaning to life is love (yes it sounds like BS). I take melatonin for sleep, 1.5 hours before bed otherwise I'm up for days and end up in hospital. I was tested for sleep apnea which made a huge difference after getting my machine, I wake up refreshed with as little as 5 hours sleep, my symtoms have reduced so much, even my negative ones have improved. One of my worst touch hallucinations was getting eaten alive by dogs, i tended to get paranoia and delusions, but also mind chatter, these days my mind is a nice place pretty much quiet with the odd song that pops up with what im thinking about or doing. 🙂

[@theethinethou]

I think I might have sleep apnea. Going to do a sleep study soon. I used to think sleep apnea only affected a certain weight range but I think that’s not true. Glad you’re doing better. Sleep deprivation really sucks

[@keyentity2285]

I watch you for understanding, not help. Doctors can't tell me what this illness is, they hardly understand anything of the brain. Watching you after my girlfriend got schizophrenia allowed me to understand the bit I needed to help her. You're part of that, but at the end of the day there is more to you than this. That's a beautiful possibility there to take hold of.

[@WaterPickle]

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[@hrbob8349]

Glad I found your videos.. I'm anxiety stricken for years.

[@placeholder6357]

you're a brave man for helping people with all this, especially with how daunting it is. keep at it man, but know when to be able to take a break and relax from it. you're a good guy

[@3niko]

Im a person too but yet people treat me as if im some animal because of my severe anxiety and depression. Its sad that these type of things happen but I guess it is what it is.

[@chrissyquartly2893]

When I go outside everybody I see as a possible threat, stems from my childhood of being verbally emotionaly abused and rejected by my friends family peers and strangers in public

[@WaterPickle]

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[@cyberiansilverfish7692]

I know it’s really hard, but I’m glad you’re still around making videos. I’m sure it helps some people feeling less misunderstood, and feeling less left alone with their illness.

[@suzannealsop3394]

Good to hear from you again. I had been wondering how you’re doing. Would be great to know more about your thoughts on all manner of things if you don’t want to just talk about mental health. You have helped me with my own mental illness by just connecting on here so thank you and stay strong always 💚

[@gis741]

schizoprenia most time come from childhood trauma, even those you don't remember or from taking too much drugs..at least what i saw around me. i had friend who were and i worked with him on past trauma, been not easy at all but he is better, really better now, more stable. having good schedule sleep and eating healthy, exercise, the music you listen to, working on your fear by confronting them help a lot. Have you ever try a healing session (energy work)? also help release anxiety...and also people around should let people on psychose talk about the voices or things you see without judgement. there some therapy i think in sweden call open dialogue got good result.

[@maddybaldwin7838]

i missed your vids so much! hope you’re doing well and taking care of yourself

[@Ihaveschizophrenia1]

Thank you! You too!

[@WaterPickle]

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[@davidjames3269]

Thanks Jacob For your honesty, I'm on haldol and abilify ,it makes me gain weight but only thing that works for me .been watching you on KZbin for years , I don't go outside that often either I'm on disability too You helped me more than you would ever know .hang in there your a cool dude!!!

[@JerryJmindfuladvocate]

Thanks for the video Jacob, always watching. I’m trying to come to terms with myself that using the word schizophrenia kinda feels like I’m speaking it into existence which I can understand on why you don’t want to just be referred to the guy that speaks on schizophrenia or mental health. I know there’s people that struggle with this condition like myself. But like you also said that not being around negative people helps you have a positive outlook on life, very agreeable. Anyways strive to stay positive Jacob there’s gonna be hell like days and happy days. Each day is a mystery and that is why you should keep going just to know what that mystery is.. 💯💚🙏🏽✅

[@Ravenwillowwood]

I enjoy your video’s ! Your a strong person. You would be surprised how many people look up to you!

[@bellella_6926]

It takes a little bit of time to adjust to physical differences in our bodies. Sometimes if there's PTSD in the mix our appearance can be linked to how we feel, depending, because it's so repeatedly and routinely a part of our every day no matter what has happened. And so when that changes, we notice, and we notice in ways we might not be cognisant of. With this in mind, gently taking it day by day has been key for me. I wish peace for everyone. Take care all 🙏

[@andredubenko835]

I get this is not a fun experience but the people crawling on the walls thing cracked me up a little imagining you in bed pissed off because they aren’t letting you sleep 😂

[@sebastianGunnarson71]

Thanks for the upload brotha 🙏🏻

[@user-ky7rt4hp1h]

You're helping people out don't stop and keep going.im the same way i would like to start a channel

[@JC-AussieDocos]

I literally can't think of anything right now except whats in those tanks haha, I hope that helps because whilst I found your channel looking for awareness, I would just love to know what animals you have there. I think I see another video of yours in the side panel recommendations, about animals, so I guess Iwill head there next :) Also I put on weight too since going into the late 20s and into 30s but you're a super good looking guy, incase you didnt know, so if theres extra weight, it aint hurtin haha, also you look healthy! I hope that helps to know, and im totally here for whatver content you want to post, post literally whatver you want it doesnt have to just be about mental health, have fun and do whatever you want :D (and u dont have to feel pressured to post either.) I am a fucking mess mentally, I know what you mean about people not seeing you as anything more than that. I counter it by just focusing on living my happiest life and I just share it and hope they can just start to see my joy and maybe itll spread, Ialso sometimes am negative, like you said, both is normal. You are a deep, intelligent, interesting, cool person, focus on your qualities and know you're perfectly human and awesome and what you're going through is not who you are. Oh and just about the hallucinations, i saw the transparent alien type people when I had psychosis from not sleeping, they didnt touch me just stood there, but I have felt pressure where I was being hurt when I had PTSD episodes, its full on, can relate to that. nowdays I jus dont sleep much and feel scared all the time, its 5am here, I just cannot sleep, totally wired from panic, source unknown. I am also in a constant mental battle. ive found something strange though, that lately I have found myself randomly smiling and today I just randomly had to dance and I felt elated. idk what it is but it felt nice after so many years of being on edge literally 24/7, it felt so freeing, just for a moment. All I can think of that could be causing this relaxation is that I did a bit of cleaning and decluttering. and I had some nice quiet times, if youre hearing things a lot I bet your mind isnt quiet enough, youre probably living on stress hormones 24/7. I get the heart disease fears too and feel like I cant breathe well, no bruises but stress rashes and I scratch myself in my sleep. I have no idea what helps with all of this , but nature walks are nice, maybe try that if you can. I have also been doing some stretching like yoga, maybe thats been helping. and eating more fruit and vegetables. But yeah as a fellow person living in constant battle and with a history of mental health stuff i totally get it, being seen as just mentally unwell all the time, its dehumanising and insulting. I do highly recommend just focusing completely on living life to the fullest or getting into stuff that you enjoy or make you happy. You will be living your best life so much that their opinion will no longer even matter, and the happy byproduct is the fact they may just start to see the side of you that you have been hoping theyd be able to see oneday :)

[@SomeNullBytes]

I feel you about wanting to be seen for more than some traits that you have. I have Schizophrenia and PTSD, and I often vent to my friends about it because it can be really hard to live with, and I sometimes feel like they just see me as the mentally ill guy. Or the guy that is traumatized from a bunch of bad shit. Sometimes I wish I could just go a single day without being reminded of my conditions. Just a relaxing day not thinking about anything stressful without anyone reminding me that I'm mentally ill. Dream day.

[@dallasthekid1463]

Missed you Jacob so good to see your face, I have schizo too and it fucking sucks. But I think everything will be alright, love ya bro

[@bayariant]

People gain weight as they age. Compare a young boot camp soldier to an experienced soldier after a few years and you can see how they bulk up there. The experienced soldier's are much heavier looking even though they are both fit. Or it's the usual med problems. For what it's worth I think you look better and healthier now compared to when you were 'skinnier'

[@sarvaise]

Been watching for a long time before I decided to be a psych major to see some insight and research others mental health. I have grown to see you as much more than just that guy that teaches me about schizophrenia on youtube! I would like to see you play some games you like on here or whatever you enjoy

[@KSWA1000]

His new Cat and reptiles

[@plasmakitty6390]

personally i have bipolar disorder and although ive only had a couple of hallucinations being in a constant battle with my mind is an always for me thats why i never tell anybody except close family about my disorder people begin to fear you if you let them in on the truth and it becomes your identity im sorry youve felt this way before you are so much more than your illness :)) we all are and we can get through our struggles together

[@aqeilrayn4988]

i hope you are doing well Jacob. Just do what you need to do to feel happy i just got one ques do u enjoy having conversations with others

[@Laughing-Carly]

Glad to see you’re doing alright 😊

[@KikyKreemcheese]

you're a way too interesting person to be only reduced to mental health. I certainly don't do it and I don't think other people see you that way either. I think it's incredibly tough to open up like you do and to live with those terrifying horrors every day for years and years and you just keep on keeping on. Strongest personality!

[@KSWA1000]

Thx for your channel

[@DollarStoreMiniFridge]

love you man

[@erwinzer0]

Really interesting video. I'm sure this helps a lot of people. It certainly helps me understand myself.

[@oneyeblind72]

i have a friend with bipolar (his mother also had this illness). his first symptom happened during a sleepover when we were friends. he was around 10 or 11, i was around 13. it was a night terror- still in a nightmare state but appearing wide awake, able to talk and walk. it's terrifying to witness it, but i can only imagine what it must be like living with it himself. he's in his 40s now, medications have helped, but the side effects can be unpleasant.

[@lil_weasel219]

sleepwalking and night terrors arent symptoms of bipolar. Nighttime hallucinations like ones due to sleep paralysis arent really linked to mental health dorectly

[@lil_weasel219]

Careful, sleep meds are addictive, and if you get hooked that keeps you up for days as opposed something intrinsic about your health otherwise. Its rebound insomnia, rebound anxiety. What you can do to boost the effect of benzos for sleep, is taking them togeter with melatonin

[@josephscott7837]

good to hear from you. i was wondering how you were doing

[@runescapekolya]

Hey man, looking great! You look healthy and whole different appearance!

[@lil_weasel219]

Metabolic changes come with ageing out of your teens-midtwenties, that cause you to not be able to eat anything w/o gaining weight kinda. But you should also get your thyroid bloodwork checked.

[@wanderirivers8151]

Looking good man

[@theethinethou]

Weight gain and insomnia are connected. If you do a quick Google search you can find out how. There may be a link also with your medication. I am not a doctor, not a medical professional, not a nurse and not even really educated on mental illness, but I do know that because I have a really really hard time sleeping right now, It’s nearly impossible to lose the 20 pounds I want to lose. There is definitely a connection between insomnia and sleep deprivation and weight gain. Also, sometimes I eat more than I think I’m eating. So I don’t know if your habits have changed with food or if it’s something internal in your body or your hormones or your medication. And then there’s the sucky fact that ad we age we change and metabolize food differently. I’d love to hear about your cat and spiders

[@MayaImaniAmani]

I actually stopped taking Seroquel because of weight gain. It sucks. Your videos make me feel less alone-please don’t stop making them 😊❤

[@Ihaveschizophrenia1]

I won't, I just need motivation, and video ideas. :/

[@MayaImaniAmani]

@@Ihaveschizophrenia1 you and me both

[@WaterPickle]

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[@WaterPickle]

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[@Laughing-Carly]

I sometimes see shadow people in my room at night and they just stand there staring at me and it makes me really paranoid because I hate being stared at 😣

[@DeeJaPhil]

All the best buddy, stay strong, in the same boat, but I don't see myself as mentally ill, I really believe what I know.

[@WaterPickle]

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[@johnserra604]

High dose Seroquel makes it harder to loose weight, because it slows metabolism through hormonal imbalance and increased cravings for carbs. You could try Keto Cycling or reducing carbs signifigantly while doing short intensity workouts like HIITs. Those types of exercises increase your androgen levels, and help you loose weight quickly combined with a good diet.

[@hartleyb8356]

That’s the first thing I thought as well. I gained a lot of weight when I was on it.

[@lil_weasel219]

all a keto diet does is cause muscle breakdown, The "weight" you lose on a keto diet long is muscle wasting. Keto diets also have a lot of contraindications amd are only really advised for Lennox Gestaut syndrome. Dangerous fad.

[@Frogger-by1cu]

My DM’s are always open my friend. Good video!

[@victorkd9926]

I’m a dude so you may get creeped out by this, but I have to say it, you are gorgeous.

[@SkillSetSage]

You are amazing

[@divinetiming8422]

@Agi He sure is! 🤗

[@greenpilgrimz3763]

Hey there. I'm new to this channel. I liked this video. I was just curious if you ever thought about attending church. Or reading the Bible? I struggle with mental illness as well and sometimes or actually usually it helps me when I seek out Jesus. Please keep posting videos and don't forget to reply to our comments. I really hope you find more happiness in life. Good luck brother! P.s. sometimes I also have a negative attitude towards people and think they don't like me very much, but I think with age. That starts to go away. I'm 38.

[@muscleman155]

Hey, remember that hallucination you had when you were a kid in your room? I remember watching that awhile back and I had the same experience. Can you go into detail about that again. Thanks, Mark.

[@chrissyquartly2893]

My Mom has also hallucinated seeing room full of people!

[@Rumkie-ji4zl]

I love your tattoo, is that Jupiter?

[@MyrabbitizCrona]

It's crazy cuz I found you when I was 16 and I've been going through my life and dealing with mental health issues then I come back and it's like we're going through life together even though I don't know you lol 🥴😂❤️

[@pytheas222]

Have you heard of Jerry Marzinsky? His work is pretty interesting, he talks about how these voices, shadow entities, and intrusive thoughts come from external 'entites'. He mentions several examples of afflicted individuals seeing the same shadow entities that someone else can also see, as well as examples of voices providing external information that the afflicted individual couldnt have known without being told. Would really like to hear your perspective on his work sometime, do you think this is legitimate? Hope your doing well bro.

[@dasp125]

What type of pets you got in the tanks? I used to keep snakes, find them vaccinating.

[@noreenquinn3844]

OK, for some regular chat... Did you watch " Bad Sisters" with Sharon Horgan, Eve Hewson ( Bono's daughter). It's a sort of dark comedy. The acting is great. Ideally watch it with someone for best effect. It will cheer you up, no end. Tell us what you think? Also, what music are you into? Do you like Miley Cyrus " Flowers" What about the new viral dance " Pink Shoe laces"..? It's as good an exercise as any for weight loss?

[@admkhaled5552]

Did you feel extreme fatigue and wanting to stay on bid all time before you were put on medication ? Any one feel this?

[@AnnaBulaklak369]

The weight gain could be due to the onset of aging and any new meds you take. I have Schizophrenia as well and takes meds. I am exercising also cause of the weight gain and I am 27 years old.

[@ninins6030]

I was just thinking about you....then you post..... trippy.

[@svengangert2683]

You look hella familiar.

[@chelseadecarlo2062]

It could be your medicine causing the weight gain even if you been on it for while I have no idea but most psychiatric medication messed my weight. All the medications you mentioned can do that.If you can get your thyroid checked hypothyroidism can affect your metabolism. Medications like what your on can mess with the thyroid. Lithium messed up my thyroid for a while and I was gaining weight. I have terrible luck with medication so I don’t take it because nothing works for me. Sometimes i take Ativan but only if I really need it I don’t have schizophrenia have been forced those medicines in the past by really. A lot medications can mess with the thyroid. Stimulant medication can do it and some food if it has soy. I don’t take thyroid medicine anymore.

[@philipmans9398]

We can talk. i also have Schizophrenia, i don't need help I'm coping well, just in need for friends i can relate to.

[@JCResDoc94]

*it may not help, but: have you ever heard any of mckenna talking to the mushroom people?* pretty wild. the universe is a wild place. sux of course that these capers are interfering. _JC

[@freedomdreamer1650]

Get a road bike and a turbo trainer and do some indoor bike sessions, that combined with careful eating and walking once or twice a day will probably make you lose some weight. Also the tiredness it will bring might mean you can lower your meds dosage as well but that might not be feasible if your hallucinations are bad.. all the best 🙂

[@mikec5783]

I remember you as the schizophrenic that has a keen interest in astrophysics. Have you been continuing looking into it deeper? You used to really seem energised by the depth of the universe. The medication seems to affect metabolism in a lot of people and change what your body breaks down. Perhaps look it up.

[@DiagnosisofParanoidschizophren]

You could create a KZbin channel with your name discussing your hobbies, talents, skills views on life and experiences.

[@jacoblegate8658]

Just saw you on 60 minutes! Hope life has been well.

[@teresaharrison9368]

Hey, if you ever wanna talk about other things, we're here to listen❤

[@caitlinsalyers1017]

Probably something irrational 😮

[@pattykemp6797]

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[@luanrachel2202]

Just hang in there, you don't know what will happen in the future, there is a KZbinr who recovers from this desease when he turns older

[@VTM9126]

Change your content then maybe some of you followers with see you for you. Show your hobbies, or whatever. If you keep bringing it up in videos that's what people are going to talk about! Best of luck man!

[@candicehughes4233]

I'm schizophrenic, I remember Seroquel made my heart race ... Maybe you need to change meds

[@Laughing-Carly]

I would be terrified if I hallucinated that 😳

[@divinetiming8422]

Have you had your Thyroid and Adrenals checked? Just curious because that can cause weight gain too not just medication. We don't hate you. We are here because we care about you.

[@derick-johnroman7249]

jerry marzinsky

[@dave_goldcrest]

Mental health meds will make you gain weight but honestly man you don't need to worry you are not overweight for your height.

[@pliit2101]

Yoo my guy how u doin bro

[@Ihaveschizophrenia1]

I am doing pretty good

[@Brutis1996]

Yoyo

[@rebeccamendez2691]

Jacob. You r so extremely handsome. I sure wish u cd be doing other things than what u experience all the time. I wish u cd hv another girlfriend . 💛

[@danielm.m.7654]

you cant do 30 push ups in a row thou

[@kimmoore0427]

I think you look really good with weight on your face. You look older. Not a bad thing.❤

[@shadykrogerus1196]

It's good to gain weight sometimes!

[@graycryptosporidium6974]

Screw all the wierd the shit bro diablo 4 is coming! Wotlk! Dragonflight blows!

[@jaydeyb7571]

Change the name of Ur channel if that's the case

[@randalpapadum1312]

Great video, you should make some more!

[@pattykemp6797]

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