JULY CHECK-IN | Hannah Louise Poston | MY BEAUTY BUDGET

[@AngelicaNyqvist]

Omg Im getting all fuzzy inside hearing that what we talked about made some thing with KZbin easier for you. Makes me so happy! I love that you post more, more Hannah is always a good idea haha :P

[@HannahLouisePoston]

thank you so much Angelica! You are the best!

[@AngelicaNyqvist]

You are! :-*

[@sarahruns262]

Came here for a fashion check-in, got an entire deep dive into the creative process and a few personal revelations too! I know I'm 4 years late but I'm here for it.

[@emmeviene]

I don't mind middle ads if videos are longer than 15 minutes, which is almost always in your case :D You do what you feels right for your channel. I'll still watch your content.

[@ANTHONYRAPPISAGOD]

47:04 Regarding your addiction comments - I've found the concepts expressed by "Moderation Management" to be extremely helpful for this. The way alcoholism is presented in our society is really toxic: you're completely fine until you're a bona fide alcoholic, in which case you must remain abstinent for life. This means that people with unhealthy relationships with alcohol don't seek out treatment until their habits have become destructive, for fear someone will tell them "you can never drink again". MM suggest periods of sobriety with careful introspection about motivations (sound familiar??) I think moderation is a wonderful and worthy goal. Enjoying something but knowing when to stop.

[@skincarewithaustin]

I've actually never heard of this! Thank you for sharing.

[@HannahLouisePoston]

thank you for sharing this!

[@IonelaCh]

i don't mind the mid-vid ads. it takes 5 secs to skip it. no one will suffer and you can make a bit more money. Also, while i appreciate your corporate responsibility vids, i enjoy watching these newer content ones a lot more.

[@bellajenna87]

Creators don't get money if you skip right away though.

[@aboycalledfish]

Yeah I heard you have to watch at least 30 seconds (or the full ad if it's 15 secs long) in order for the creator to make any amount of money. Source: Pewdiepie

[@IonelaCh]

@@aboycalledfish cool, thx. good to know. I will watch Hannah's.

[@eringunnett]

While I appreciate your corporate ethics videos, as the year went on you seemed to enjoy doing them less and stressed about them more. The recent content you've put out has been so energized and excited and different, and I love it!

[@singerwb6454]

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[@joeyl695]

Can the Corporate Ethics thing be quarterly or semi annually? So many of the companies repeat anyway.

[@martynkal.1248]

This is a really cool idea!

[@Lynnonymous]

I think the ads are for you to earn a little more for what you do. KZbin has an ad free option we can pay for if we choose. Otherwise all your hard work and effort is free to us. I think we will survive ads. Those who may complain are just being selfish in my opinion. Again, all your work and effort is free to us. Free. KZbin is free entertainment. A few ads isn't asking too much.

[@BeautyNookbyLauren]

All the yes to this!!!

[@Dan_Chiron]

Totally disagree. YT is *not* free entertainment if we have to watch ads, because that means the platform is monetized. The model consists in putting pressure on creators to sell YT advertisements in order to be paid for uploading their content; in everyday life that wouldn't make any sense: if I you create something that will give me profits, then I have to pay you, instead of saying 'Well, thank you for your stuff, now sell this and that to earn your money'. If the money from the ads went directly to the creators I wouldn't see it as a big issue, but that is not the case. Creators will earn a tiny percentage of the whole income. For you it doesn't mean too much 5 ads in a video? For YT it represents millions of dollars. That's the game. I believe there are more effective ways to support our favourite creators. For example, donating 1-10 dlls a month wouldn't mean too much for most of us; if a third of the suscribers did that, that would give the creator very good bucks. There's also merch, paid meet-n-greets, workshops, on line lectures, sponsorships... we are not obligated to do as YT want us to. We can bend the rules.

[@korikayleen9818]

Dan GD you’re right, but that’s a whole different issue with KZbin itself. if you have issues with the platform, that’s not Hannah’s fault or any creator. youtube is a massive money making monster, like the majority of big corporations. they exist to make money - this one also just happens to allow individuals a creative outlet.

[@Dan_Chiron]

@@korikayleen9818 I know. As you can see, I'm not finger pointing at anyone. I'm just saying that, as a viewer, I'd feel more comfortable giving my money directly to Hannah (or any other content creator) instead of giving it to YT in the form of passive ad-watching. As a viewer I am willing to pay for the content itself, which is what reports value to my life. I think if some creator said 'Ok, I won't have ads, but please donate 50 cents per video' most people would go wild; but it's not a problem to pay YT 10 dlls a month for not watching ads. Why? Maybe I have this point of view because I also have a creative job (outside of YT) and, in my experience, the creator is in the lowest line of revenue charts, unless you're super famous or you're in a self-employment scheme. I believe as consumers we can change that a little bit; we're not going to "tear down the system", but we can help creators to get a more fair payment for their work. Maybe we all should consider that as an audience.

[@BeautyNookbyLauren]

Dan GD I don’t think it’s unreasonable for KZbin to make profit off videos. They have created a system where individuals not hired by the company can host content they’ve created, get free advertisement from KZbin for it (Hannah did not individually find all her subscribers herself or have to pay outside advertising costs), and have nearly complete freedom to create any kind of content they want, on any schedule they want. If Hannah or any other creator was posting videos on a self hosted website and we were discussing running ads verses asking for donations, that would be an entirely different discussion. Hannah does have an option to donate directly to the running of her channel, which I’m sure viewers have taken her up on, but I don’t think it’s fair to ask her not to take advantage of the built in system for payment on the platform she’s choosing to host her created content on. 🤷🏼‍♀️

[@vorkutyanka]

I haven’t noticed, not until you have mentioned that just now. What I have noticed, and enjoyed tremendously, is the increase in your uploads! Thanks to Angelica for leading you in the direction to the revelations you’ve had! Those have, on turn, lead to us getting more content from you, and that’s a huge benefit!

[@dissolved29]

Same same.

[@dcc3470]

All i feel when watching this is overwhelming gratitude that you chose to embark on this KZbin journey. The work you’re doing on here is so important and truly helping me change my life.

[@leslieann9028]

Your emotional transparency and eloquence is so refreshing, Hannah. It's been a pleasure watching your growth, your evolution, for the last year and a half. Everything, just everything (!!) can be a process, and it is what we make of it, what we choose to do with it. Perfectionism can be crippling. Allowing a bit of freedom, relaxing one's self-imposed regulations and moderating expectations, can bring JOY. I see joy in your face, eyes, smile. Feeling internal joy is so much more important than having everything 'just so'. Thank you for all you do.

[@AldonaAnna89]

Advertisement in the middle it’s completely fine ! Sometimes I go back to the begging of your videos to watch ads once more. That’s my way of supporting you and your channel. I can’t afford to help by PayPal, so I’ve chosen this way :) Now, I’ll be able just to keep on watching 🎉

[@ofthebeanvariety]

I highly encourage you to have a section that you pause yourself with regard to mid roll ads. That way you have a purposeful void for an ad to fill so that what you're saying or doing isn't cut off. Yes, letting go a bit is hard. I have struggled with that too. It's a lifestyle and psychological challenge and change.

[@jazwhoaskedforthis]

I think ads are the nature of KZbin now, and I think what you bring to the platform absolutely has value. I think it’s worth sitting through an ad, and usually I feel like KZbin ads are trying their darndest to be unbearably annoying. If I really can’t stand it I’ll go to the restroom, come back, and rewind what I missed. I think talking about how shopping and overshopping impulses impacted you in very detailed ways is so important. The dollar amounts, the cost to your personal space and what you’re able to use before it expires or in a lifetime, etc. - it’s all something I think most people are trying to laugh off or ignore or rationalize in their own lives, and looking at it (especially debt and hoarding) in a public space like this is so useful in the way that you do it. These reflections are valuable to the KZbin beauty landscape, and I’m grateful that I’ve found them.

[@kati_craig_]

The language you use to talk about your addiction to shopping reminds me of the language of eating disorders and food addiction issues. Certainly one must always eat, and similarly consumption of things is part of our human cultural experience. It’s definitely not like substance abuse - the physiological ramifications of those types of addictions cannot be moderated with budgets or arbitrary limits - but acquiring things can be so compelling that it feels that way. These types of long, deep-dives into your process are so helpful and interesting to me, so thank you for another compelling conversation. I only wish we could have these chats in person. I bet the collective ‘we’ could talk so late into the night that we’d close down the best speak-easy, tinkling our glasses of bubbly and regretting nothing the next day. ❤️

[@HannahLouisePoston]

I agree that there's a lot in common with food issues! My journey towards health with food has helped me on this shopping journey for sure. And I totally wish I could hang out with everyone at a speakeasy!

[@sunfloweralkh]

Your videos and talks are like therapy to me💓💓💓

[@mysticfox1563]

I hate ads; that said I think you should definitely put them in. It’s just the nature of the beast.

[@itsmekimc.2620]

You articulated this very well and it definitely struck home for me. I feel the same way with many things in my life. It’s like when once you say you’re on a “diet,” all you can think about is food... it just all gets so heavy when restricted. Almost a new obsession. I’m trying to figure out this whole “moderation” thing. Oh, and I don’t mind the ads. Git that coin gurl! 💰 😘

[@robintaylor3608]

wow, i'm so glad you shared all of that with us! i appreciate all you said, and i'm so HAPPY to see you relaxing, making more content, being happy and free and creative! and learning more about yourself and how to move forward with what you want your life and your spending to be. self-discovery can be SUCH a hard thing... looking at ourselves with eyes of truth, not hiding, not harshly judging. good job hannah! you are lovely and i'm so happy to be part of your little community. i love you right back!! xo!

[@vorkutyanka]

I haven’t noticed the middle add either, and you should place them. Your content is wonderful, and if there is a way to increase use revenue, you should use it!

[@alyssacalloway3793]

I’m having a Y2K flashback. What’s gonna happen when Hannah runs out of colors for the title sequence?? 🤣

[@sarahlonging1911]

Hannah, you are a gift to us all! I learn so much from you with every video. I can promise that your work has bore a lot of fruit in my own life. And I want you to be able to support yourself as much as possible through this avenue because you are not just entertaining us. You are providing a valuable service. That is to say that I would never mind you adding ads or sponsorships to your videos to make the coin!!!! We all want you to succeed and are so grateful to you. No worries about the ads.

[@HannahLouisePoston]

thank you Sarah!

[@jaymiecyrus7172]

First off...this up do with the red lip is 🔥🔥. So classy. Secondly...I don't see anything wrong with putting ads in your videos. Every beauty channel I watch has them. And I watch ALOT lol. Now some can go overboard & put an ad every 3 mins & that's annoying, but just a normal amount is fine. I'm so glad you are having the time & energy to film more often because I've been loving your content. Lastly...I'm glad you have eased up on yourself & are enjoying uploading & buying things. As long as you stay in your budget I think is the main priority 🤗

[@goharmartirosyan15]

I am really enjoying the content you are creating lately and especially enjoying the overhead shot videos. It seems that your videos are better when you are not tied down to schedule and can just film when the inspiration strikes you.

[@zeynb5727]

I can't believe the timing of this - I went to bed last night and woke up this morning considering a no buy. I want to do it for financial reasons just to set rules for myself, but at the same time I'm in a similar place as you right now regarding makeup. I'm in the best place I've ever been - I'm not engaging in addictive/obsessive behaviors in the seeking, wanting or buying, and I'd describe the relationship with makeup rn as light, easy and casual. The weird thing is, I'm almost wondering if doing a no buy will make my relationship with makeup 'weird' again, just because it's the 'all or nothing' kind of mindset. I do believe heavily in moderation in all things in life and a healthy but balanced relationship with it, so I'm wondering if full deprivation will make it something to covet and lust after and spend hours researching again.

[@katerinaray87]

I really think you have answered your own question there. You know what works for you

[@HannahLouisePoston]

so interesting!!

[@SamanthaMarchxo]

You look so chic! It's so good to hear your enthusiasm for KZbin :)

[@supposeyounever675]

Watching this after having already watched your haul that you kinda mention here. Love seeing the full circle of allowing yourself to like your purchases and not feel burdened by some flexibility glad to see this has helped you! 😻

[@Winterknits]

I have noticed your level up :) Love your content, thank you for sharing your project!

[@msparker3500]

I am glad that you are givning yourself the ”ability” to post that you want. I like the videos where you talk lol, aka everyone. I am also glad that you are putting adds in the middle of a video. Watching those is a chans for us that don’t do patreon to support the YT:ers we like to watch. 🥰🤩

[@irenerivera6080]

Oh Hannah, I get you girl!!!!! I understand postponing more time/emotionally consuming tasks and then “punishing” myself (by not doing other more enjoyable things) for procrastinating what “ has to be done”. I hope I can learn from you and “relax more”. I love your channel because of your insight beyond “beautiful things and beauty products”.

[@karindwarswaard]

i don't care about middle ads. they only bother me when i'm watching a docu and there is an ad every 5 minutes.

[@silkehuybrechts7832]

This is the first time I have seen you lost for words. That tells me this was difficult for you to talk about, so thank you for sharing what you're going through despite of that. I'm a little more than half way through my no buy year and I'm noticing some pretty big changes as well. My only pair of summer shoes broke today. I thought I would be happy I would get to shop for a replacement, but I'm not happy at all. I'm annoyed I have to go through the proces of finding the perfect shoes and I wish I could just keep wearing the ones I already had. That really surprises me, and tells me I'm making a lot of progress. A big part of that is thanks to you, Hannah, so thank you, for holding my hand during this project and being the friend I needed this year.

[@HannahLouisePoston]

Hi Silke! I'm so happy to hear about your experience not wanting to shop for shoes. That is a really big deal, I completely identify with that from no buy year and it is a sign of serious progress, you are right! I love your email and will respond soon :)

[@trolfek]

HANNAH! Firstly, you look mah-velous, dah-ling. Love the geometric print, your hair, bare eyes and the bold lip. Secondly, ads are not my fave, but you do what you gotta do. Thirdly, this was literally a therapy session. 😁 The letting go of control IS THE MEAT OF THE ISSUE. You know that spiritual journeys are rife with paradoxes. Letting go of control, trusting your heart, not your head, taking care of yourself, and being mindful of the journey is revealing to you your best version of yourself and what is not to love about that? Keep meditating, having gratitude, truly be kind to yourself, be open and present and enjoy the journey. That is enough. Acceptance. This really isn’t about the things. This is about you. A suggestion about the corporate ethics videos. They are full of all the things you are expressing in this video, which are important, surely, but heavy and full of details. Perhaps do one video per new corporate entity. Free up the structure to make a shorter video that can be focused, but deal with overall themes rather than picky details, except where it really is consequential.

[@HannahLouisePoston]

thank you!

[@xkaleidosaurusx]

Hannah, it's so beautiful to hear you talk about how invigorated you have been feeling lately with filming and such! I know last month you were talking a lot about how overwhelmed you felt, so I'm so glad to see that that wave has passed! I hope this wave of energy lasts you a long time :) Thank you for putting so much of yourself into your content. You truly shine.

[@toomuchcyan]

god, hannah, the entire second half of your video is so inspiring. i noticed when you started talking about holding onto the heaviness, your eyes had so much emotion. my whole heart is with you on this journey, and i support your channel because i have benefited from your beautiful words and critical mind. i have so many things in life that you have helped me find the baseline of contentment, and place of healthy consumption, with. thank you so much for your work on this platform! ❤️

[@zusamy20]

I'm loving your content lately, you seem more relax and I love it. I can understand the struggle about making everything perfect but the reaility is that sometimes is ok to let go a little and don't be so harsh to yourself. :D thank you for your honesty as always! ❤ We love you

[@rapa3978]

Two things: 1. Having a friend or family member who can analyze elements of your life objectively and kindly is something special. 2. I think this video highlighted the fact that you're taking some power back from the rigid grip shopping had (has) on you. I really commend you for taking a deeper dive into what drives your thought process and behavior. And for doing this so publicly.

[@lgreen]

Also, I adore your top/dress! I have been loving abstract black and white pieces but have been appreciating them from afar instead of with my purchases.

[@Eva_R966]

The back pain story was the opposite of boring, the way you narrated this experience evoked such strong imagery of what it must feel like in my mind that it made me excited to hopefully read a book of yours in the future!! 😄

[@geekbabe100]

Corporate ethics is important...but...I think glitter tutorials are more important 😂 My only advice is this, don’t get so caught into a rigid schedule that your content gets predictable & stale. We need to have you shock us occasionally 😀

[@ZijnShayatanica]

I've been trying to overcome my own perfectionism this past month, as well... That feeling of punishing yourself as a means to the desired end is incredibly relatable. The unnatural stress-inducing feeling that comes with letting go, because it's so foreign. It's definitely hard to manage! But you've had such a great deal of success & I hope mine will come soon -- it will happen when it happens, so long as I make it a point to continue working on myself. I love you, too. It's been so nice to meet you through your videos & watch you while I go about my own life. 🖤

[@ZijnShayatanica]

And please keep putting middle ads!! As long as it's just one ad instead of two, it isn't overtly disruptive.

[@sonyasupposedly]

So glad to hear that you're feeling more free creatively! I always look forward to your videos.

[@sarahwalden178]

First, this video was amazing. I found myself smiling and nodding and wanting to stop and take notes but not being able to tear myself away from the screen! I love what you said about strict adherence to particular kinds of rules, especially all or nothing kinds of rules, that can in a way just reinforce certain mindsets, but are still an important stepping stone to a healthier life. This is such a beautiful and nuanced way of looking at shopping and consumerism in particular. I went on a low buy in January, and it worked really well for awhile, but then I found myself obsessing over what to buy, saving items in case something better came along, all those behaviors that were hallmarks of my compulsive spending before the low-buy, just in a slightly different form. I knew I needed to give myself apace to evolve, so I ended the low buy one month early, did go through a couple of bumpy spending months, but am emerging with a much more relaxed way of thinking about spending. I’m buying less than I have in previous summers (time off of work is a shopping trigger for me), and enjoying the things I have more. I am going to budget during the year to keep myself in check, but I feel so much more relaxed now that I did when I spent too much or when I was on my low buy. But as you said, those weren’t mistakes-they were necessary to get to this point. And this point feels really good. I can walk into a store, see that there’s nothing I want or need, and leave without searching for something to want. If I find something I want I enjoy the process of thinking critically about it, not as a punishment, but as a way to preserve the joy I find in the things I already have. And if I decide that item is worth it, I buy it without worrying about what else I cannot buy, or if that was the right thing to do. And now, whenever I do this, I’ll think of you standing tall, facing your demons, and buying your maybelline lipsticks. I’m so glad they’ve brought you such joy. I feel like so many of my comments end this way, but thank you. You are doing such good work in the world. I’m glad you’re taking care of yourself.

[@janebarnette6548]

your dress is STUNNING! I love that pattern on you--you are a fashion maven!

[@stevieray7203]

Oh man did i need the back story right now...Thank you from me in the future to past Hannah!!

[@SkyNessa321]

First of all, you look beautiful as always. Loving the contrast of your shirt and your bold lip. Lovely choices for this video’s look 😊 I think this is my favorite of your check-ins so far. Your energy and movements radiate so much more positivity and enjoyment than I’ve ever seen from you. It’s wonderful to see you laughing and happy while tackling these serious thoughts and feelings. Your thoughts on moderation, self-punishment, and examining motivations have given me a lot to think about. Thank you for another insightful and inspiring video, Hannah. Also, I have been loving the extra content and hope it lasts as long as possible because new videos from you brighten my day! I support the middle ads. You deserve more compensation for what you do here. It doesn’t take long to skip anyway. Thanks for all you do to share your journey with us 😁

[@HannahLouisePoston]

thank you so much Skylar!

[@heatherwatson2160]

Hannah, you're a writer... what about making the corporate ethics videos into a newsletter or blog? Written info for us all to reflect on while shopping??

[@cyberbrujx]

crying. this just resonates so much and you haven't even gotten to the shopping part. lol. love you hannah. thank you for sharing yourself with us!

[@aboycalledfish]

I do very much enjoy your videos for your thoughtfulness. I started getting into make-up in May (completely out of the blue for me). Dropping $80 on make-up a month when I had previously spent $0 has been a challenge to figure out my feelings on. Especially when I also worry if this is just a phase and I'm going to get bored of it in a few months, possibly resulting in hundreds of dollars of product sitting in a box collecting dust. Watching you and Angelica, and Abby Williamson and countless others on the platform has helped me SO MUCH. In fact it was Natalie Wynn in one of her Contrapoints videos on Beauty who made me realize that sitting down and doing make-up is a ritual that gives me the opportunity to rewire my brain after my year-long recovery from depression. So as someone who is on a journey of recovery as well, thank you

[@iamnotanacrobat]

and yet another video where I think "this is my new favourite video of Hannah" (..until the next one..). so happy to see you being more relaxed!

[@makeuppuzzle]

Love this latest raw video as usual. Shopping your stash for wild ginger was such a good idea. It truly looks stunning on you! 😍😍😍

[@HannahLouisePoston]

thank you Teresa! xoxo!

[@abidavies154]

What I like about the way you do middle adverts is that you sort of pause and introduce the ad. I like the intermission kind of feel you give it rather than it being a random interruption in the middle of sentence or something :) I'm glad you're feeling less perfectionist about your videos x

[@SaucerJess]

Girl, get that ad money! I'll watch even if there are 30 ads in a video 💚

[@Letty4]

I like less edited videos as it's more like regular conversation.

[@bklyndreamer1536]

Letty Brown I totally agree that very edited very groomed video especially when not edited well is so unauthentic. Hannah video is like listening to one of your girlfriend vent or talking while washing dishes it gives so much to think about

[@mh6107]

I loved you on the half cousins podcast the other day! Could you do a video about writing at some point? I can’t be the only one interested.

[@tinythingy4]

I am always bewitched by your plant in the background... i love plants it is so dreamy! I long for when my plants grow as big and strong (all my plants are babies)

[@tondeman6912]

Hannah,I love this video,and your ideas.I love your “vintage look”it realy matches you,love the hairstyle,the make-up with the red lip,and the black and white top/dress,it looks like a dress,xoxo wendy🙏

[@imperfectlyEm]

Thanks for revealing some of what you learned from Angelica. I'm a little overly bearing on my editing and it takes me hours. I realize I edit a lot because I'm still new and awkward in front of the camera. AND my filming tends to create very long videos without a heavy editing hand. BUT you and Angie are inspiring me to try to loosen up a bit....

[@HannahLouisePoston]

you will get there in time! Don't be too hard on yourself. I think I had to edit a lot at the beginning partly for comfort and also because it took several months to learn how to talk fluidly so that less editing was required, if that makes sense.

[@imperfectlyEm]

@@HannahLouisePoston Yes, it does make sense! And thank you! I so appreciate the reminder to be kind to yourself AND the encouragement.

[@maeriel2057]

I love this look - very classy and elegant! I'm completely on-board with you adding more ads to your videos. I really appreciate your content and I think you should get paid for it. Ads are an unpleasant inconvencience but only for (literally) seconds and, as you say, we can pay to escape them if we choose.

[@sydneyschallock7426]

Hannah I was one to comment on your PR video about running another ad and I have to say I didn't even realize you started running them until you said something! That's how second nature they are "nowadays". It makes so much sense now that you say you have KZbin premium. Ads have really become much more prevelant these last few years and I guess you just had no reason to realize. Bottom line you running another ad is not going to make it break it for someone to decide to keep watching your videos so you might as well make that coin! Also, I would LOVE to hear how you changing your ad structure changes (hopefully increases) your earnings. This is just out of a pure curiosity and sitting here cheering you on from the sidelines. I said this before, but you deserve to be compensated for your time just as much as anybody else. You make long form content and ads are a natural accomplice!! ❤️

[@HannahLouisePoston]

yay, thank you so much Sydney! I really appreciate the nudge.

[@annettelundy948]

Thank you for this video. My obsession is food. Your journey has taught me a lot about myself.

[@HannahLouisePoston]

I've struggled with food too and the journeys have a lot in common

[@TheDarlingM]

Hannah: I'm an inconsistent commenter, but after watching the end of this video, I have to at least make the effort to say how much I love and appreciate your channel. I watch every single video and read most of the comments when I can. Since KZbin is video, it "moves" - movies literally come from the word "movement." So setting rules (you're a huge inspiration to me for sticking to them) is important, but change is inevitable, and differences in periods of our lives are so fascinating, and doubly so when you have the self-awareness to reflect on them. It sounds like your stress manifests in your traps? Mine does, too! Massage is great for it, as well as applying heat, and pressing the tight spot in a downward motion for about 30 seconds at a time to break things up. Hope that helps

[@HannahLouisePoston]

thank you so much for this lovely comment

[@MoonlitSunflower]

I'm glad you're relaxing and easing up on yourself. You never seemed unnatural before but I think I do see a slight difference now, in a good way. It's nice to see you speaking in a more impromptu fashion. I do also enjoy seeing you put out more content now :) I don't mind at all if your regularly scheduled videos aren't put out un a specific order right at the beginning of the month. I appreciate the time and thought you put in to your videos examining ethical practices of companies you purchase from, however I do not mind if you combine a couple or a few months in to 1 video. I don't mind middle ads. I do find it kind of annoying it is excessive (3-5) times in a 15 min video. I think you're less likely to get the ad views on ads placed at the end unless people watch through to the very end and let the ad run. Often times I'll click on the next video to watch as you're blowing your kiss goodbye.

[@monongahelacats]

I love having more content from you! You always have something interesting to say, and it's well thought-out. I appreciate this.

[@kirrisolly-slade1313]

Have definitely notice the increased amount of content Hannah and have been loving it! Having said that I’m glad you mentioned that of you need to you will drop back from the amount you have been doing. Here for the extra content but not if it means extra stress and anxiety..... Julene’s outro was ringing through my mind for almost the entirety of this video... ‘let’s take a deep breath and let go of our collective grip on perfectionism...’

[@thevioletrevolution]

It’s not boring, it’s real shit! Love that you are talking about it too. 💜

[@stephanielegg9060]

So happy you did the ads! I think on a 55 minute video 3 middle ads is good. You should definitely see more $$ coming in!

[@tatianadorman7786]

💕 Hannah- this video resonated with me. Thank you for your honesty and for being so free with your thoughts, fears, joys, feelings, and more. Basically, thank you fo sharing your life with us! You are awesome.

[@HannahLouisePoston]

thanks Tatiana!

[@HannahTheWeird]

Your talking about moderation reminds me a lot about my thoughts on moderation with food and health as I've worked to better myself after 2 months in a residential eating disorder program.

[@amberkane5169]

I have gotten a lot out of your videos. My husband is always saying he hates our house. I think it is because we don't have beautiful stuff around us. We have gotten a few new things. We did our bathroom floor and he loves it. I am going to try to focus on having beautiful stuff in my home. I relate to a lot of the things you have mentioned that relates to me about my shopping habits. I have been watching you for three months and I have only bought one piece of makeup. I bought Samantha March's highlighter collab. I really wanted to support her and I could afford it this month. I have been going to library and getting books and reading them. I got rid of my Birchbox because you were talking about having minis. I don't need minis in my life either. I still have to get rid of IPSY, but not quite there yet. Your channel has helped me a lot. We are going to have some debt paid off, but I am going to keep working on not impulse buying. I do love you corporate videos. They are very eye opening. I finally hit a wall and realized that I trying to make myself better in buying stuff. I have been appreciating the things I have.

[@BeautyNookbyLauren]

I haven’t finished the video yet but wanted to share my thoughts on the first half before I forgot them. 😅 I’m a huge fan of your corporate ethics series, it’s something I’m really interested in and I think you do a wonderful job with it. That being said, I’m a huge fan of your channel and I like all your other content just as much. So I’m basically going to be watching and loving anything you put out. 😋 I do think that you took on an enormous project that could probably be an entire channel on its own though, and I can absolutely see why you’re overwhelmed and stressed out by it. I think if you wanted to keep going on it without continuing in the same way - maybe you just choose one company you’ve purchased from in the month to talk about? Or maybe you focus on all the brands but only pick one or a couple things to look into. I chose about 4 years ago to start buying cruelty free products, that was one big change that’s taken years to research and feel comfortable with. Now I’m starting to tackle one or two other ethical issues. It’s okay to do something and not everything. I think that ties in with your statements on releasing control over perfection. About the ads - you have really good taste and I trust you’re not going to put midroll ads every 5 minutes of an hour long video. 😉 ads absolutely don’t bother me and I’m happy to support you through them. Like others have said, KZbin has an option for paying to remove them. I’m more than happy to have ads included for the privilege of more Hannah content. Alright, on to watch the shopping part! (But before I do, thank you so much for all the extra content lately!! It has been so fun and inspiring. ❤️)

[@HannahLouisePoston]

thank you so much Laurynn!

[@shubhangigupta97]

How is it that your uploads are always the best time for me to watch! Just sat down for my lunch break and now it wont just be me and my sad sandwich

[@lysrobinsdaughter6599]

Been having similar feelings these past two months about shopping - of course, with the restriction of a small budget you want to make sure to spend it in a smart way, for things you really want. But I can get a tad obsessive with needing to hunt down the best thing, spending endless amounts of time and energy comparing stuff and thinking which of the many things that have caught my eye will be the most worth it - and that's, as you pointed out, still not a healthy relationship with stuff, I'm still obsessing over the next new thing all the time. So I need to keep reminding myself that getting new stuff will never quench the thirst for new stuff (thanks for preaching that to us all) and especially with beautiful things like makeup and clothes, no matter how pretty a picture I've painted in my head around this new thing I want, it will always remain just stuff. I will never find an eyeshadow that forever fulfills my need for new eyeshadow, and no pretty skirt will ever be the be all end all of skirts. So it's okay to sometimes buy a thing that I just like and that fulfills it's purpose, it doesn't have to be perfect. Sure, after I buy this there will at some point be another thing that I also want, but I'm slowly, very slowly, learning to be happier with the things that I chose and not constantly fretting over the fact that there might have been better choices.

[@729kristi]

I could write a novel here about the mental health effects of trying to be an ethical shopper and citizen. I have been doing the environmental and corporate responsibility thing for close to 30 years and about 10 years ago I had to take a step back and allow myself to “be gentle” and not so “judgey” as you say because of the impact it was having on my mental health. I still do what I can and try to be mindful, but it was just too much. I loved the pictures that you painted about standing up and forcing the demons away. I realized that I needed to be healthy first if I was going to have a healthy impact on my local and global environment. And I think that you are starting to get a glimpse of how heavy and depressing the corporate responsibility conversation can be. I encourage you to do a summary series at the end of the year. Keep track of your stuff, log it, record your thoughts and the process, but do a mini-series or a documentary (Shane Dawson style would be awesome!) of your journey and your findings. That is my recommendation. Even if you decide that it is too difficult and too depressing to continue...that too is a conclusion and a finding.

[@HannahLouisePoston]

thank you Kristi

[@abeautyproject]

Kristi Alexander this was such an insightful comment. I have tried in the past (and to the best of my abilities now) to be a conscious consumer but also fully believe that placing all the “weight”, as it were, of being environmentally responsible and the corporate responsibility on the consumer is such a gamble that only benefits the corporation. It takes an immense amount of effort and can definitely affect mental health because it’s like telling a single person it’s on them alone to save the planet, when the reality is that no matter to what extent a single person goes to be responsible for our environment and consumerism, the bulk of what needs to be done to address that falls in the arms of the corporations-which they’re not doing and will probably never do. That’d cost them money. It’s easier for them and governments to push the narrative of personal responsibility, no matter how much it really is a Sisyphus pushing a boulder up a mountain situation, than it is for govts to force corporations to address their waste. Which is not to say that we shouldn’t live with awareness and do our best, but also... the onus shouldn’t be on the person who forgot to recycle a bottle. It should be on that bottle maker and the environmental impact making that plastic bottle is creating to begin with.

[@HannahTheWeird]

You mentioned the pressure you put on yourself to make it that last tiny bit more perfect, and how many of us have mentioned we couldn't really tell the difference, and that reminds me of something Hank Green once said. He talked about how his secret to productivity was to do everything 80%, because largely, that last 20% is where you spend the most time trying to make it perfect, you often don't know exactly what perfect is, and often, we all have different definitions of perfect. Letting something into the world at 80% means you can start working on the next thing, and you can take feedback, and make your next 80% be better.

[@HannahLouisePoston]

YAS HANK

[@rebeccablashock3829]

Be your own creative self on the direction of your content. Grant yourself grace and film what you are in the mood to film. (And adjust your filming "schedule" as you need to.) We are all winning with Hannah videos! Moderation is my new favorite word! Hugs! :D

[@castackpole]

I've also been trying to reel back the perfectionism with shopping/saving lately. I'm not on a strict budget/low-buy (as I have never really struggled with a shopping problem), but I am a full-time student who is simultaneously trying to save for grad school. I've always been conscious of spending my money wisely, but over the past year or so, I think I started taking the "fewer nicer things" mantra (we have that one in common!) to a bit of an extreme. I set the rule for myself that I had to have an item on my wish list for a while, periodically reassessing whether or not I still wanted it, before I could make the purchase. I distinctly remember going into Aritzia (with enough money to buy something without financial risk), spotting some beautiful pieces, but not even allowing myself to try them on because they weren't on my wish list. I still keep a wish list, and I think that the general rule of sticking to it and making conscious, premeditated purchases is good, but I'm realizing how much mental energy I have spent making those wish lists, analyzing them, tweaking them. Recently, I bought a couple of thrifted pieces either the day that I saw them or a couple of days later, and I found it really freeing. Moderation is a difficult line to walk when you're a perfectionist, but I'm practicing xx

[@HannahLouisePoston]

it's such a journey! I feel you!

[@janelles5444]

Good personal example of being "hard on yourself, but not too hard on yourself": I was on a no-buy July to reorient my focus for spending. Samantha March came out with a new highlighter with Ofra. My only highlighter had significant pan--I'll finish it in the next month or two. I didn't let myself feel bad. Yes, I broke my no-buy, but I don't feel guilty. I needed to replace a highlighter, and I got to support Samantha. What's to feel guilty about? That was the only purchase I made during my no-buy so I honestly consider it a success! Great video so far (I'm stopping at the second half to go to bed--I'll pick up tomorrow night) but I always love hearing your thoughts!

[@francafila19]

I totally get the upper-back stress thing; with me, it hits when I stop and try to relax. I have to let all that stress go through the process of 'bleeding out' as it were. I also get the moderation thing.The all-or-nothing model served you for a while and now it's time to adapt it, because we change, we develop, and life changes. I'm glad that you have enjoyed making your videos and you are finding a new burst of energy in this direction. I understand what you mean about feeling obliged to the point of not wanting to move in any direction. There has to be a more organic of managing things, but difficult to work out. There has to be an element of self-discipline when you are self-employed, as you know, but if that results in doing nothing, as you say, it's counter-productive. I know what it is to stare at a screen... But having to just do the thing... Awful. Don't really notice the ads. It's just for a few seconds anyway.

[@Pineglade]

I'd rather no middle ads

[@victoriabyers5161]

You look even MORE elegant than usual in this video!

[@geekbabe100]

Yes,i it is okay, sometimes its just a new lipstick, not a moral falling!

[@hawilliams27]

I feel like now that your editing your videos less I'm getting a better hold on who you are as a person and I have to say that I really do like your personality even more than I did before. You're so honest and open in such an elegant way. Bonus for me in this case: more Hannah to watch!

[@HannahLouisePoston]

thank you!

[@christinamixemong9568]

You are killing it on YT lately! I love your content right now.

[@Josh-pe5pl]

I pay to not receive middle ads too. So worth it. I find it annoying as heck! I listen to youtube all day too--like the 1940s before TV.

[@DoubleAgne]

Hannah, your words make me emotional. This journey, what a lot of people would think is a simple thing to do, a silly thing to overthink about, but it is so difficult to try and find the way to live in this consumerism jungle. Your words and advice inspires me, helps me to find my own way, helps me to find my own thoughts. Please keep doing your thing, find your own way for yourself, follow your heart, because that brings so much joy for me and I believe for so many others. ❤️❤️❤️

[@son_yia]

Anything that helps your channel is fine with me. Ads help you with some money, and when a person really likes a youtuber, the ads, pr and sponsored content, makes the person happy because that means growth in the youtube world. I really love your videos. So it makes me so happy for you to get pr, sponsors and all the things!! You deserve that and much more!!😘

[@HannahLouisePoston]

thank you!

[@erinsfaces]

It's SO HARD to balance the creative with the work research stuff - I totally relate to this. Love what you do and I support glitter bonanzas :) xoxo

[@tinythingy4]

Thank you for sharing your insights, i learned things about myself too

[@stephanielegg9060]

I love that your doing different content! It’s keeping things so exciting as a subscriber

[@cutiepiedaina]

$6/mo for KZbin premium is AMAZING and so worth it!! I love it too

[@littlewingedzebra]

middle ads are absolutely common! i've heard another youtuber say that you can place them in very specific spots, so this youtuber always, IN the video, announces when there might be an ad in order to eliminate the surprise of it interrupting the video. that's a lot of extra work to do while making and editing the video, so probably not worth it, but just a thought. also, it'd be very interesting to see a day in the life vlog!

[@alexmayday007]

Hey Hannah, first of all I would like to thank you for putting up so much FREE content for us lately! I don’t think you should limit yourself in terms of ads, and the middle ones are fine for me. I love the thought of a creative person being compensated for their work, so if that helps, do it! Regarding your corporate ethics videos: I love them, I find your research methods to be admirable and I enjoy finding out more about the brands I purchase from. However, if you find that you don’t want to do them anymore, I think that is completely fine, too. You don’t owe us anything. I am very much looking forward to seeing the may update if you want to finish your research but if you’re not in the mood for it, don’t do it. This has been on my mind a lot lately, and I don’t want you to lose your interest in uploading just because you feel like you have to! Anyways, I love your videos! Xx

[@aidank6332]

I don’t mind ads in the middle of videos, it makes no difference to me ☺️ though now that I think about it, I can easily name the beauty channels that put the maximum amount of ads possible into every video, and it does rankle a bit. Both because it’s annoying for the viewer and I think it also says something about the creator’s motivations for posting the video (whether that observation is warranted or not). But 90% of ad placements I don’t promote to conscious thought, probably because they are consistent with what most other channels are doing and therefore unremarkable. Have you looked at what Angelica does? I’ve watched her videos for a few years now and never taken active notice of what she does with her ads, so that might be a good place to start.

[@heta4737]

Hi Hannah! This was souch a lovely and interesting video to watch! About adds: many people nowdays put an ad every 10minutes (wich I think is the max?) and personally I find it annoying. But I feel like a middle-video-ad in every 15 to 20min is fine (like in TV). Especially you deserve so much more money for what you do here, so I feel that you could easily put three middle-ads per video.

[@TashiSoCali]

I’ve roped all of my friends into a no buy August now lol completely inspired by you

[@fbmbassist]

Thank you for this video. :) What is that beautiful green plant behind you on the left? It looks very healthy!

[@nikkiwilliamson4665]

I have youtube premium but I have only had it about 3 months so still very familar with youtube ads. I think mid-roll ads are fine so long as there aren’t too many of them. Like don’t put 5 ads in a 25 minute video. But one ad at the beginning and one in the middle of a 25 minute video would be fine.

[@julzzbott]

Middle ads are so standard now that I doubt most people would mind! I had noticed you didn't use them because I'd gotten so used to them for long videos. I couldn't imagine you bombarding us with ads every minute, I am sure you'd place them intentionally so that it didn't make the video difficult to watch or irritating. We're here to support you, and if a few extra ads are part of that effort, we'll still be here.

[@karenjohnston2844]

I almost always watch KZbin on a touch screen tablet. When KZbin first started doing the middle ads I always thought that I'd brushed against the screen and had moved to another video. After a few times I got what was happening and am now used to it. The only thing that bothers me is that the ads are inserted willy nilly (😄) and remind me of the way local TV channels used to cut to commercials without regard to the drama playing out on screen. Maybe they will be able to improve upon that but even so, as a mostly passive viewer, they don't really bother me. Sorry if you talk about this after the point where I stopped your video but I am curious if you have any say in who gets to advertise on your videos?