He is half of my soul, as the poets say | The Song of Achilles

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From a book The Song of Achilles by Madeline Miller: www.goodreads.com/book/show/1... The Song of Achilles retells the events of Homer’s Iliad told from the perspective of Patroclus. The book reimagines the relationship between ancient Greek Trojan war heroes Achilles and Patroclus. The novel follows Patroclus' relationship with Achilles, from their initial meeting to their exploits during the Trojan War, with a particular focus on their romantic relationship.
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[@leni3862]

All the credits (audio, song, art, the book...)with links are in the bio go check them out!

[@cristinasanchez6850]

Sorry to bother but i need the audiobook SO MUCH. But the description link doesn't work 😔

[@gabypina1436]

@@cristinasanchez6850 audiobook by Frazer Douglas

[@AJ_12-09]

​@@gabypina1436is it the same as this one?

[@givemeavocados]

so happy they are forever together in the underworld...

[@ghoullover6040]

sometimes i wonder if they were ever reborn in this world and found each other again 🥺

[@angelyj.7807]

@@ghoullover6040 it’s their choice. But why would you leave heaven even if you’re in the underworld

[@ghoullover6040]

@@angelyj.7807 ah, i kinda thought that we don’t have a choice u know, it’s controversial ofcourse maybe we do, but yeah if there was a choice i don’t think they would ever leave each other 🥺

[@angelyj.7807]

@@ghoullover6040 some part of me believe that we do and that “forever” is a long time that we want to experience new things as souls, yeah know and that’s why sometimes you feel like you don’t belong and that you belong in the world you created because that’s were you were before here. (I do hope you know what I’m talking about or else I’ll look crazy) 💀

[@ghoullover6040]

@@angelyj.7807 helpshsj i had to read it like thrice over but yes i do get what you’re saying 😅

[@alyssaboyles9793]

"If you love me-" STOP IM DYING

[@WhoAmI-xv5dt]

What chapter ?

[@iisimplyamy8031]

​@@WhoAmI-xv5dt chapter 30 i think

[@helenajakobsen6220]

-let me goooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

[@Beeanimates]

;-;

[@Mat5881]

@@helenajakobsen6220 y e s

[@sahniellejacobe1121]

Patroclus: *If you love me-* Me: *LET ME GOOOOOOOO*

[@leni3862]

Ah yes my favorite band Panic! At the Achilles

[@appledorayaki8456]

Truly the song of achilles

[@pixxxu7159]

I was so angry at achilles when patroclus died, thank breseis for venting my anger at him

[@kaia5025]

what did achilles do wrong?!

[@fadhiltahir7049]

@@kaia5025 his hubris basically caused Patroclus’ death

[@James-wc9eq]

same

[@justtosuffer4604]

Yeah me too, tbh I couldn’t cry in the end because I was literally so mad at Achilles. If it hadn’t been for his pride and honour Patroclus and he himself could have a happy ending.

[@lumauve7807]

So hurt by everything ngl 🙁🙁 Achilles was just so blinded by everything at that point- no amount of words could reach him..

[@alysaloha]

When I think of Achilles' love I think of figs, an olive crown, golden curls mingling with dark brown locks. When I think of Achilles' rage I think of a spear piercing through metal, flesh, and bone. A blood and dirt-stained face only interrupted by dark mossy eyes. I think of a lion and it's prey. And I think of golden curls gathered, ripped out, and falling onto the chest of a fallen lover.

[@leni3862]

Beautiful. Thank you

[@Gods.no1idiot]

If you EVER write and publish a book, sign me up to read it first cuz this sort of poetry and imagery was not what I expected from a yt comment section!

[@j.one0098]

yeah, me too

[@tothescars]

I just realized that when they were younger, Patroclus was easily carried away with rage, envy, and pride. Not until him meeting Achilles, whose warmth melts every hatred and loneliness he has, steps in. "He smiled, and his face was like the sun." Patroclus saw Achilles as the light that brought him out of the darkness. A companion that assured him he never had to walk alone. And a lover that accepted all his imperfections. However, as they grow older. We can see how the picture suddenly flipped. Achilles turned out to be the one conquered by hatred and pride, while Patroclus became everyone's sunshine. Achilles was cutting throats, Patroclus heals through his words. In spite of all, in spite of Achilles' earthquakes and mistakes: Patroclus' love accepted him, whole. And when the time came that Patroclus begged his lover to fight, joined the war, killed a demigod, and died---we saw how a part of Achilles died inside as well. To him, Patroclus was sunshine and he was midnight rain. To conclude, it made me realize how they are both each other's light whenever one goes astray. Achilles' attitude towards that end may be upsetting, but that only strongly hints that despite of being a demigod, he is more of a human. And he took accountability for his wrong choices, grieving for his Philtatos, most beloved, Patroclus. Indeed, the characters were imperfect, but it is their flaws that emphasize the art of being human. That these imperfections are nothing compared to the perfect love they have for each other, even in the afterlife. "In the darkness, two shadows, reaching through the hopeless, heavy dusk. Their hands meet, and light spills in a flood, like a hundred golden urns pouring out the sun." Patroclus and Achilles' love is boundless and everlasting, no one compares.

[@AvaJoyce314]

Never going to be able to listen to midnight rain again without crying thanks 🥲

[@rachaelwade675]

“I am made of memories,”

[@Marie-uy4yp]

I think the last two or three pages in the book broke me so bad. It is a month since I read it and I can't get over this story. It's like mourning the loss of a good friend. Ahh I hope someday I will get over it. This book really touched my soul and my heart. I will never forget it ❤️

[@leigh0630]

@@Marie-uy4yp the last few pages were SO heartbreaking every time i read them they break my heart over again aughhhhyuszdfs

[@aristosachaion8892]

Achilles’ eyes lift. They are bloodshot and dead. “I wish he had let you all die.

[@alessandrafarina4258]

That part really hit me deeply.

[@yuuuta0]

LITERALLY MY FAVORITE QUOTE

[@nekomaslut3917]

The hitch in the voice on “if you love me-“ and the emphasis on the “anything” on “anything else” both have such emotion in them I can’t this book is so beautifully written I can’t I’m gone Edit: I just finished soa and i am sobbing and have been for like an hour- I am a wreck. At least they’re now together in the underworld

[@rachaelwade675]

I finished it a few days ago and can’t even anymore

[@mythologybutgayer9219]

NSJAJSOW I ACTUALLY SCREAMED

[@bangtanwings4854]

Oh, it's a book? Imma add it to my list.

[@thespqrguy]

@@bangtanwings4854 it is and its actually not that long and a fairly easy read! I ~accidentally ~ read it in one sitting lol

[@bangtanwings4854]

@@thespqrguy Ooh, even better then! Thanks for telling me!

[@ggukie886]

I SOBBED SO HARD I CANT THIS BOOK MADE ME A CRYING MESS

[@rollseyes286]

Name?

[@ggukie886]

the song of achilles

[@snowflower._.]

I'm in the middle of the book it's beautiful

[@imovedtoanotherplaceuwu9355]

@@snowflower._. i feel bad for your eyes then.. especially on the last 50 pages.

[@isabelleerb1021]

i finished it last night and i cried straight for the last 50 pages. I was bawling my eyes out like a baby. And, like I knew what what going to happen. I know what happens in the iliad. Yet i still cried and cried and cried.

[@KeeganMegson]

"If you love me" will always break me

[@chimakiso]

I've read a lot of books throughout the years and I swear none of them have left an deep, lasting impact on my life the way that this book has. Not a day goes by where I don't think of this incredible story, the characters, and the beautiful love that these two had for one another. Since they want to turn books into movies and shows, I seriously hope they consider this book.

[@maddiesonghurst3670]

when patroclus had more to say before he went into the battle but thought he would have other times to say it but obviously never could i honestly cried so hard.

[@isabelleerb1021]

This is the most beautiful book I have ever read. Period. I finished it last night bawling my eyes out for the last 50 pages even though i knew exactly how it was going to end. It’s a masterpiece. I don’t think I have ever read a book that has impacted me so much. If you haven’t read it, read it now, you will be sad but hearing their story is worth every tear.

[@rishitamalhotra3090]

I finished this book recently and I haven't been able to move on to another book since. The memories of Achilles and patroclus back in phthia when they sat on the beach, patroclus admired him while he played the lyre and watched him lovingly while he slept, their happy days filled with laughter in pelion, and then achilles seeing patroclus dead and keeping his body in his tent with him holding it all night, achilles later dying with a smile on his face, their ashes mingled and buried together and then them finally reuniting in the underworld with no war or death to separate them ever. I try hard not to think about them or the book, but it's just not possible. I wish the time had stopped for the whole world except them when they were in Pelion together having the best time of their life and Achilles would still be the innocent & modest Achilles rather than the proud & heartless Achilles :(

[@phantomlordxd124]

I just finished it now and i still feel nothing i feel empty

[@abookoholic6252]

I was depressed for days after finishing it for the first time. I cried on and off at work and in school and moped for the rest of it. I had to start a new high fantasy series to distract myself.

[@CookieCat-gp9cq]

Just finished it and yup, also feeling empty

[@nuzeee_k]

Yeah I just stared into the ceiling while crying so hard

[@tesoroofall8499]

Yeah same. Just finished it today and I feel so empty. My heart throbs every time I think about that space of time they were separated.

[@kshitarsi5018]

Me rn I'm so saddd and I'm searching for edits to comfort myself

[@oogabooga279]

i will never look at figs the same way ever again

[@l0vely_di0r]

I have not even gotten to this part yet but I’m about to cry because it still hits so hard

[@leni3862]

I feel you! Every line from this book hits where it hurts

[@leni3862]

Also are you enjoying the book? I really hope you are!

[@l0vely_di0r]

@@leni3862 I really dose I cried 5 times today because for this book

[@l0vely_di0r]

@@leni3862 oh I am 100% enjoying it i hate reading a lot but this book Omgs I love it so much I am 10000% rereading it even tho it makes me sad it also makes me have a lot of other emotions I’m about to be crying in class tho lol

[@leni3862]

@@l0vely_di0r oh wait for the end you aren’t ready!!! I cried so much oh my god I almost choked! If you want to can massage me on insta @_l3narda_ and we can talk about the book!

[@genericredcircle8027]

SPOILER: I think the thing that breaks my heart the most is that it was Achilles’ ego that really killed Patroclus. He put his reputation above everything else, ignoring all the warnings and allowed Patroclus to go into battle. Achilles had spent his whole life since meeting Patroclus protecting him and ensuring, no matter what, they would be together. But when it came to it, he sent him away leaving him to die alone. He ignored Patroclus’ begging, ignoring his pleas and basically killed him.

[@robynpeace9048]

I think it was like that cause he was so sure that he would have been the one to die first, like he never even imagined Patroclus dying before him

[@ceton1843]

I think you can't describe achillies honor and what it meant to him as "ego". To the people who lived back then honor meant more than to us now. Our preception of that concept has changed drastically. I really love that about achillies character in soa. Madeline Miller doesn't change his values to make him a more likable character to us, readers from another time period.

[@somuchforstars]

what makes it really sad is how he kinda realized it far too late

[@samrydhy]

When the prophecy said that the “best of myrmidons” would die first, i knew baby Pat was it. And then Breseis says it too and omg. Achilles would’ve been devastated at his death.

[@genericredcircle8027]

@@samrydhy I’ve never thought of it like that but you’re completely right. Just makes it even more heartbreaking

[@ohmyvoid]

i’m never getting over this book stop

[@Jasminayy]

Been almost two years since finishing this book and it’s still so dear to my heart

[@keiia444]

I've finished the book a long time ago and i still cant recover from it help

[@nuzeee_k]

Remember how patroclus didn't say all the things he needed to say to achilles cuz in patroclus' prospective there were other times to talk, after the battle, tomorrow and all the days after tomorrow😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢

[@khyizuku2762]

*_"They were friends"_*

[@l0vely_di0r]

I just finished it and yeah no I’m not ok it broke me and I cried 12 times now because for this book I love it but the ending confused me a little idk if they are together or not I think they are I hope

[@leni3862]

I feel you on a deeper level. The ending is meant to be interpreted by the reader, so I’m pretty sure there is no correct answer as to how it ends which i find extremely beautiful and heart wrenching. Im so glad you enjoyed it it truly is a work of beauty

[@anoosha.u7511]

Well according to greek mythology and belief, the ending was quite literally Achilles welcoming him to the underworld, so yea ig it's better to think they did.

[@l0vely_di0r]

@@anoosha.u7511 onus thank you you don’t know how happy that just made me!!!!

[@triskel8161]

Im 100% sure they are together at the end. Remember when Patroclus said "I could recognise him by touch, by smell; I would know him blind, by the way his breaths came and his feet struck the earth. I would know him in death, at the end of the world." Even the ending where their souls find eachother in the underworld indicates that. Their death is immenesly tragic but I'm happy that they were able to find peace.. hand in hand.

[@l0vely_di0r]

@@triskel8161 yeah I got told that they were! So that makes me happy

[@angelina9203]

I JUST FINISHED THE BOOK AND SEEING THIS??? JUST BROKE ME

[@amydieca4]

"if you love me" *SCREAMS INTO THE VOID*

[@505ism]

I finished the book couple of days ago and i haven't been able to start reading anything else since then because of how it has destroyed me.

[@Lourii]

"The gods wished to punish him" Chiron answered. Achilles shook his head, impatiently. "But this was a greater punishment for her. It was not fair of them." "There is no law that gods must be fair, Achilles" Chiron said. "And perhaps it is the greater grief, after all, to be left on earth when another is gone. Do you think?"

[@tesoroofall8499]

I notice that a lot of us readers in the comment section are mad at Achilles. They are mad at him because he basically sent Patroclus to his death. Well... that is understandable. There's nothing wrong about being mad. But there is wrong in hating him for it. Maybe...maybe he was mad at himself when it happened. Maybe he hated himself afterwards. Maybe some of that grief and pain we see when Patroclus died was Achilles realizing that it wasn't Patroclus that did it himself but Achilles that did it to him. Imagine a half of your soul dying because of your own pride? Would you have felt those same emotions? Yes. You would have. You would have been torn apart, utterly torn apart. You might have raged, as Achilles done, wept as he did. You might have destroyed and killed and ravaged, as he did. You might have felt the desire for life fade away, like there was nothing more to live for. Like he did. Then, after he finally passed, he still wasn't with Patroclus. Neither could rest until, finally, Achilles's mother added Patroclus's name to the monument. Taking pity on them. It was only then they could be reunited. Only then they could rest. Think about this. Remember that every decision we make, every word we speak, never affects only us. There is at least one other person whose life will be altered. We never see the true effects we make in others.

[@bertienorris44]

I adore this book. However, if you guys really want to cry try no longer human. It is the epitome of sorrow and the saddest thing I’ve ever read.

[@robynpeace9048]

You mean 人間失格 by Osamu Dazai (太宰 治)?

[@bertienorris44]

@@robynpeace9048 luckily I do speak Japanese so yes :)

[@Kei-oy9fc]

Bro I love both books so much. Do you have any other recommendations? I feel like we have similar tastes

[@ceton1843]

Omg this is literally what I plan to read next. My friend read while I read soa and now we plan to just switch books haha. Pain here I come.

[@myaduhart3370]

THANKYOU FINALLY SOMEONE MENTIONED THAT BOOK

[@MR-sj6vc]

oh my god i’m in so much pain this book is amazing

[@spacefrog_2203]

This book will forever be a part of me; it has taken a special place in my soul.

[@brandonthevampireslayer]

His smell makes everything stand still. It’s like time moves slower and faster at the same time when we’re together. I smelled him and I was brought back to the time we met. It shocked me. He asked me what it was, seeing my reaction. I shook it off because I couldn’t bring myself to tell him, “it’s you”.

[@asereth_]

3rd day after finishing the book and i have a question, how do i move on from this book? 😭

[@leni3862]

You don’t. You cry every time you think about the book for the rest of your life.

[@argella1300]

Go read Circe

[@aristosachaion8892]

@@argella1300 will it make me cry?

[@elalokmic5561]

@@aristosachaion8892 yes

[@maxt.p.9995]

it's my third day today, how are you? Are you well? Did it end?

[@reshiejung]

Im broken....im sad...and at the same time im happy because at the end, they saw each other again.

[@sunflower9484]

" I'M MADE OF MEMORIES " oohhhh my poor pat, my sweetheart pat... ;))))

[@lumauve7807]

Why is KZbin recommending this every morning after I just finished the book 🙁🙁 can't say I'm upset though- the pain is all worth it for the beauty and emotions I managed to feel because of the book

[@rosie_mary6029]

I haven’t read the book yet but just hearing this makes me cry because I know how it ends TwT

[@maddiesonghurst3670]

this book has such a hold on me i can’t get over it. im happy they are in the underworld together but i wish they didn’t have to go through all the pain and could of lived happy, beautiful lives together like when they were with chiron.

[@dangitzcharlott5350]

Finished the book 15 minutes ago, TEARS HOLY SHIT

[@Sabrina-zq1ww]

i wish the whole audiobook had background music!! it would have made it beyond perfect!

[@Federkleid_16]

I love this book, the way how is written is art... This part of the story broke my heart...

[@harithaharidas7462]

The last few chapters killed me!!We can't finish the book without crying.Also,i am so happy that they reunited in the underworld and for that closure!!Uff..no idea what I would have done if thetis didn't patroclus's name on the wall beside Achilles!!

[@loisannett720]

I was prepared to cry when I read the book, but in the end I didn't... I think from the very beginning I knew what was going to happen.

[@skelly8896]

this book will never let me heal

[@pluto1857]

I can’t handle this pain..

[@mynameisntleah2213]

I'm in so much pain since I finished this book, I literally don't know how to move on after this 💔

[@azizalarrie28yearsago8]

I didn't know that I will cry today

[@ButterflyColors]

The “if you love me” always destroys me

[@nikunicsori]

this has been recommended in my feed for atleast 5x now LET ME MOVE ON FROM THE PAIN I BEG

[@nikunicsori]

its here aGAIN

[@leni3862]

HAHHAHAHA THE GODS THEMSELVES WANT YOU TO SUFFER

[@giantgrog]

this book has me sobbing, screaming and punching tables

[@bbymilky9574]

Day 1 of reading the song of achilles

[@caseyriley9791]

buy milky did you like it??

[@redpencil1409]

Hey lol its been a month..

[@amelitaok3386]

@@redpencil1409 she is heartbroken i feel it

[@redpencil1409]

@@amelitaok3386 tough times

[@supernovanebula]

Hey, if you finished reading it: My condolences If you haven't: what place are you at, do you like it so far?

[@lance694]

Didn't expect to be sobbing at 9 AM, but here the hell I am. "if you love me" 😭

[@lovelyhades]

Keep coming back to this….. heart been broke so many times- 💔

[@ayushisiinha]

There should be a motivational video about how to get over The Song of Achilles 😭😭

[@aishwaryapahwa]

Thank you! I really needed a video like this after finishing the book. Thank you :')

[@leni3862]

:)

[@hippieab1713]

Second line was my favourite

[@sophiahannahsobrepena2740]

This audio shattered me more than anything else but I keep coming back because it's also beautiful

[@owls290]

"In the darkness. Two shadows, reaching into the hopeless, heavy dusk. Their hands meet, and light spills in like a hundred gold urns pouring out the sun"

[@ChatRose2810]

I watch this on repeat everyday

[@ack5372]

This book hurts me

[@haileys6205]

I'm in so much pain

[@burdie9032]

I have done it," she says. At first I do not understand. But then I see the tomb, and the marks she has made on the stone. A C H I L L E S, it reads. And beside it, P A T R O C L U S. "Go," she says. "He waits for you." In the darkness, two shadows, reaching through the hopeless, heavy dusk. Their hands meet, and light spills in a flood like a hundred golden urns pouring out of the sun.

[@giovannalopes6726]

THIS HURT SO MUCH OMG

[@XianXianV]

It hurt me too much to read the part where Patroclus was compared to Cleopatra. The parallels are almost identical, it hurts me to read the paragraphs of desperate patroclus over the war. It was profound to read how he crouched down and begged Achilles through tears.

[@itsmemarie7613]

I cried so hard because i remember this scene, which is very hurtful

[@user-wy2hn8ul6b]

Omg i cry every time I hear this 😭😭😭😭

[@m0rb1d.am0r0us1ty]

I've just finished this book yesterday... Sobbing-

[@brayle_vibes5887]

Just finished reading the book😭 "Zeus I don't feel so well"

[@peepeeman7120]

i hid my copy because i kept reading it when i was sad, glad this came up on my feed

[@alexanderjohnnangel6997]

This book broke me

[@arpitalalwani6520]

This book is such an emotional release. I'm scared to read it. Hell die I'm not ready lmao

[@nuzeee_k]

The last 30 or so pages will rip ur heart, take a pack of tissues with u.

[@arpitalalwani6520]

@@nuzeee_k i was doing a hell of a job not crying untill "he waits for you" This book should have trigger warning tbh

[@nuzeee_k]

@@arpitalalwani6520 haha I started crying the second patroclus died and didn't stop till the end

[@ayeshadiannesantelices9511]

I don't know how many times I've watched this

[@O-5Council]

Well then...now I have to go find a crying Jack Bright...

[@maynardo4237]

I finished this book today and started crying

[@pantelipetsi415]

I cried out of happiness when i read the last page

[@coffeeinagraymug]

I did not just cry watching this 5 minutes before my exam starts

[@sophiahannahsobrepena2740]

My heart shattered when he said "If you love me" Also me:LETT ME GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

[@paniramia719]

The pain in my soul

[@sydneyyw23]

I’m crying

[@leyla7046]

is it sad if I know this by heart now by the number of times I replayed it.....

[@m1ilmail]

WHY ARE THESE GETTING RECOMENDED TO ME IM CRYING NOOO I CANT DO THIS I CNAT

[@ashlynxlover4425]

The ending was so bittersweet 🙁

[@lele11love11]

my god i'm crying bye

[@Ben-bm8ov]

"Name one hero who was happy"

[@luzmedina8364]

no puedo mas de la emoción, y aun no leí el libro. PROXIMA LECTURA AGENDADA

[@leni3862]

Update us when you start reading it!

[@malaikabuendia3437]

I AM NOT OKAY RN WTF

[@infamouscha]

I wished they could have stayed with Chiron on Mount Pelion forever. I wanted them to stay there, and be happy there forever. With nothing more to do but to love and grow with each other.

[@roradye]

WE NEED A THIRD PART

[@leni3862]

Sadly I didn’t make these audios:’) the credit is in the caption and they haven’t updated so i was thinking of making my own one! Not sure yet though but would love to do it

[@fouzya8310]

I'm never gonna recover 👍🏼

[@maddiesonghurst3670]

the ending of the book honestly broke me. idk why i hoped some fictional happy ending would happen and they’d magically come back but they didn’t and i just wish happiness for them.

[@katherinecorey9635]

I use this as a test to see if I’m over the book. The answer ? After a couple weeks ? Is no .

[@dreamydonno]

I need a movie/tv adaptation like ... last year. TT^TT

[@miffyluv4473]

i think it is absolutely destroying that patroclus died for achilles' pride. he deserved better :(

[@l0verr..]

please let me go please I finished the book not to long ago and i can't escape it i loved it so much and they are half my soul mind the reference but pleaseeeee I need happy videos of them

[@MmU5hr00m]

When i was finishing this book i was crying and chilling at the library, so this girl, probably a year or two older than me walks by, sees me crying, which book im reading and just goes "youll never get over it btw" she just leaves after saying that

[@MmU5hr00m]

And she was right, Im still not over it

[@ginavallefuoco4428]

you have no idea how PAINFUL

[@ashl3333]

saw a hannibal edit to this monolog but it sadly got deleted I wish I could watch it again