Healing From My Old Wounds - Muthoni Gitau

Unresolved trauma festers like a flesh-eating bacteria on a wound. The longer it stays unattended to, the deeper it eats into the soul of the host. Muthoni Gitau, an African content creator and DIY queen knows this all too well. After a traumatic violation, Muthoni thought she could suppress the pain and for years, sought ways to numb it with alcohol. This only led to more pain. A caring friend and a therapist have helped her begin dealing with the layers of pain. Now she doesn’t need to hide behind red lipstick. In this candid and courageous story, we are encouraged to feel and deal with our pain to heal.
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[@willykasafi1563]

One thing I will teach my kids is the fact that they can come home no matter what happened they can come home.

[@misskarun2548]

this am almost 30's and this is something my dad says to date

[@faithonyimbo5171]

My mum almost sings this.... Whatever happens, come back home, your mother is still alive.

[@dianaigoko4871]

Same here

[@nellymisiko9720]

My mum made sure of this to date you can go home whenever 'it's your home' she would say

[@wambuibobo4821]

My daughter came back to me home @32years. She's mine and this is her home

[@phoebe5103]

The friend who watched and said/did nothing is as bad as the predator. You can't convince me otherwise.

[@tabitha2670]

I believe there are so many Muthoni's out here but we cant get the courage to express ourselves like this.

[@kagendokaecha9080]

I've been around muthoni and she's such a sweet soul, you wouldn't be able to tell the trauma she's gone through. I really wanted to hug you watching this, you are warrior baby girl, sending you lots of love

[@TheKingiscoming-Repent]

There is one who heals, there is one who can remove you from a dark hole, there is one who can turn your life around. No hope can be lost with Him around and in you. His name is Jesus. He did it for me, He can do it for you🤗

[@KMStar-hk1gc]

Very true.Only Christ can do it.

[@christinenyarangi3286]

Why didn't he prevent the dark hole from happening in the first place, I wonder🤔?

[@nthenya3712]

This evokes such strong feelings for many of us who've gone through something similar. I really doubt the 14% figure is accurate, many many women never report sexual abuse and rape to anyone. Ask women around you and without a doubt, they all have a story. Muthoni is an amazing storyteller, and I pray she'll truly find healing. Thank you so much for sharing.

[@cathythuo8606]

#Nthenya I totally agree with you. A good number of us still dont have the courage to open up because of the shame and blame that comes with it.

[@maureenjagona8138]

Very true

[@leobrown7527]

14%is a 1/3 of what is reported.There is no support in the country so people prefer to keep it to themselves.Remember there is what they call intimate partner sexual violence.That is considered rape even if it is your boyfriend or spouse.

[@micente4028]

@@diana-pn2hu a majority of the cases are unreported. 14% is probably lower.

[@GingerNalotesha]

The fact that I relate😭 I pray that we all heal one day❤️

[@shirleyn.8563]

♥️♥️♥️♥️Hugs

[@naimawalendo5341]

Me too..Hugs ♥️

[@cynthiaatieno2486]

❤ love and light to you

[@dollyo4663]

Hugs

[@Muthonie]

We will dear. We are ❤️

[@nancyndichu8088]

at some point I could not hold back my tears..I wish you well Muthoni as you go through therapy. Be sure that by sharing this it has encouraged or given someone somewhere hope. You are strong Muthoni!

[@MetaPhysical369]

This broke my heart.. We African are so cruel towards our children. What happened to this talented creative young lady had happened because she was so afraid of her father! 💔 Sometimes, we trust friends more than our famlies! which is wrong. Our families should be our support system, not our suppressors.

[@janetmuthoni6919]

You can't really blame the parent coz do they really know what they're doing? Given what they've been through n maybe what they're still going through to provide for you. Sometimes life becomes overwhelming n we lose it

[@micente4028]

@@janetmuthoni6919 I don’t think that blaming but stating a truth that is unfortunate. The parents may not know what they are doing but that doesn’t negate the fact that had they been supportive, the probability of such things happening could be lower.

[@mercymickey4889]

May we all get an Alex in our lives. Hugs♥️

[@rebhoney6803]

I was balancing tears throughout this video. I'm so sorry about this experience Muthoni. May you indeed receive your healing. It shall be well

[@shirleentilya1240]

This beautiful soul is extremely brave to share her story. Muthoni, your scars will be your stones to build a higher platform to share your journey. Well done for narrating through the tears. You are beautiful both in and out & this is not how your story ends. God bless.

[@sadeykamochu]

This is so raw and deep. I couldn't understand the depth of it until she broke down. Muthoni this is so brave of you to share. Sending love to every woman who has had to go through this❤

[@muthoniek]

Watched this with baited breath, you're courageous Muthoni!!!! I admire your humble nature, the best lies ahead of you. And may God bless you with truthful friends!!!! 🙏🏾

[@faithwanjiru7393]

❤️❤️❤️❤️ sending hugs baby girl.Am sure therapy will work for you girl and thank you for being courageous to talk about it, you may not realize it but you have actually healed someone in a way.I love engage talk so much ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️😩😩

[@suzanmaepe9778]

Muthoni, thank you for sharing your stuff. So many alcoholics and drug addicts will tell you that they drink to numb the pain. Sexual assault is so traumatic, i can definitely relate.

[@anjelineokoth38]

sex predators are all over...and sometimes they hide as people who offer to help us at our darkest times. fear and shame makes us hide within these experiences changing the course of of our ambitions, goals, and self worth ..i am so sorry you went through this...I wish you recovery in resolving the unresolved traumas that impede your personal growth and development

[@esthernjoroge9221]

My heart goes out to you for bearing your vulnerability. In addition to the SA (sexual assault), my takeout is to provide a safety net for our kids to never ever doubt that their safety comes before anything (be it rules, opinions, sanctions etc). Wish you well as you progress in your healing journey.

[@hnwjosephhnwjoseph2266]

The two dislikes are from the friend and the predator....

[@alisonlyezire9951]

Please provide tissues for the speakers, they shouldn't have to wipe their tears away with their hands.

[@charitysafehaven]

I really teared up listening to Muthoni's story. It's not okay to judge someone when you don't know the story behind the person. Praying for you to find healing and to continue being that voice of encouragement to women (esp the young) who can listen and resonate with.

[@Ichbinthee_dali]

You just never know someone’s struggle and story. Much love and respect for sharing your story and wish you every little bit of healing

[@waihiga124]

SEXUAL VIOLENCE AGAINST WOMEN IS PERPETRATED BY MEN WHO ARE NOT WORTH THE HONOR OF BEING CALLED REAL MEN. PERIOD. Hugs Muthoni. May healing find you.

[@wanjikugitau1065]

Felt like going to give her a hug 🥺.You are so brave and beautiful . Sending lots of love to you and anyone else going through hard times.

[@wangarimwangi7395]

Thank you for sharing your story with us.

[@kuikaranja]

Thank you for sharing your story, Muthoni. Sending you love, good vibes, and healing!

[@nicolewanjiru8132]

You're a strong lady. God bless you

[@dianafaith1085]

Thank you for sharing your story Muthoni.Love and healing🤍

[@cathythuo8606]

This is so heartbreaking Muthoni. Am so sorry you had to go through all this. I still can't fathom how your 'friend' would be ok with this happening to you. You are a star and no one can dim your light sweetheart!

[@Vonnie_Mwangi]

Thank you Muthoni for sharing your story. Very inspirational.

[@annalisekathomi2336]

Im so proud of her May God comfort her and heal her to full recovery and to grow beyond her wildest dreams

[@graceshrew9033]

Hugs Muthoni... You are awesome and courageous for sharing your most vulnerable place in life. May you continue discovering yourself and truly enjoy life...

[@NoelCynthiaMusicLoveLight]

Thankyou so much for sharing your story, Muthoni. Yours is a story of pain and courage. Your fighting spirit is an inspiration! This lady is amazing, strong and worthy of every good thing that life has to give.

[@salimakibathi2862]

Thank you for your story..you are such a strong lady and just been able to talk about your trauma makes you a hero because some of us don't even have the courage to talk about our own traumas. May you receive healing

[@Shee_Wainaina]

Super proud of you Muthoni. Mega hugs and you are doing great towards your healing. Sending love

[@njokikiama2790]

Amazing, strong girl you've turnout to be...😍 God bless you as you take the wonderful path of healing you have chosen🙏🏽

[@nidahmutheu4309]

Muthoni, you are beautiful and authentic. thank you for sharing so deeply about what happened to you. May you find healing. May God comfort you and bring you total healing.

[@Mugs7]

You are a strong woman. I am so sorry Muthoni. May the Lord heal your scars and lift you up. Thank you for sharing. 🙏🏽

[@lilianwaringa4544]

Hugs darling, you are victorious. I wish you every beautiful blessing that life has to offer. You are beautiful, talented and powerful ❤❤❤❤❤

[@jedidahakinyi9681]

Oh, Muthoni! I am so sorry for your pain and everything you've been through. I love your work. You are a beautiful person. May you heal from this. Much love

[@carolinewamuyu6222]

I've always seen your strength @Muthoni, even here, so much of it. Beautiful girl.

[@Miyu-cy7es]

Wow! Friends save lives! And really the red lipstick looks really good on you. Quickest healing, kudos for sharing your story 👏

[@catherineakinyi5630]

You are an amazing young woman. Believe in yourself. Much love and respect to you 💝

[@Shesh452]

What a story! More strength baby girl. Keep going. You are a star🌸

[@felixruto8028]

Powerful... The fact that you are able to talk about it helps you heal... Keep making progress, you are a beautiful soul

[@JK-uv3ck]

You are beautiful, thanks for sharing, May God continually strengthen. Thanks for never giving up

[@eddahwachuka1066]

Thank you for sharing your story Muthoni. May you get healing in all ways and may your story touch many lives. You are phenomenal woman full of love, life and colour. Hugs hugs hugs

[@e.cheruto8509]

Muthoni you are beautiful, your work is beautiful and I am so sorry for what happened to you. Healing is a journey.

[@charleskimanimuchora5234]

love and light.Thank you for the courage to share this.

[@janeg4547]

Muthoni, you have a great future. Do not let whatever has happened to you stop you. May it propell you to your greatest heights in life. You are a winner.

[@WanjiruWaithaka]

This hit me really hard. Love and light Muthoni. Thank God for friends like Alex.

[@slysly5723]

Ooh Muthoni.. I shed tears along with you.. Sending you some Hugs.. Keep healing Muthoni.. Trust the Process. You are Beautiful.. Intelligent eloquent Woman. ❤️

[@maryannewambui2646]

😥I believe children should be able to come home anytime regardless of their circumstances.

[@Bosses_Roses]

story of my life..thank you for being brave enough to say it loud

[@REGINA686970]

I am so sorry Muthoni for the pain you had to endure. I pray that you get to heal all the crevices where pain seeped into and stayed. I pray that pain leaves once and for all. I pray that your heart is open again for love, for joy and happiness. You did such a brave thing sharing the pain, keep walking it gets better as you walk.

[@zamcheller]

It takes courage to share , you are brave and beautiful May all the experience the red zones transform you to a more stronger and caring woman . Hugs dada 🤗💋💄

[@jowyobado33]

Muthoni,you are in control ! Sending you love,light and healing ❤.

[@wanguimacharia5964]

Oh no Muthoni 😢😢😢😢 Hugs, love and light. May you find healing a day at a time 💜

[@mercymsezeni838]

😭😭😭 How the friend sold her. This is heart-breaking. How men encourage evil is despicable. Praying for you. I can't believe how the other friend made you doubt. I just wish your parents were supportive.

[@nzisamusila8920]

hugs dada you are one strong soul to fall and rise again over and over even when struggling with it

[@iwonder_tk]

I really resonate with the crashing at others and chasing independence. Moreover, Muthoni is truly strong. God bless you for sharing your story and may he guide you always.

[@alirahama6312]

Keep healing those wounds,keep forgiving every day,and one day you will wear your scars with pride. Don't worry,better days are coming,If I got through it,baby girl you too will do!.

[@planetmediatv2900]

You are strong and the fact that you are able to share your story proves that..Thank you for sharing you story I am sure it will encourage other victims to speak out to their close circles and continue working on you✔

[@gracewairimu6530]

May your healing be permanent and may you be stronger to overcome anything that might try to remind you of your pains.

[@stellambuthiamallya4158]

You are a beautiful, authentic and very eloquent. Sending you the best wishes

[@khamisaisha739]

Love and light Muthoni. You are strong ❤

[@JessicaAfricaOfficialke]

You are beautiful, courageous and very eloquent. Sorry for what had happened. Friends can be your foes. all shall be well. cant wait to listen to your poetry.

[@mercileenngina2692]

You are a strong person Muthoni. My wish for you is that you may continue to find happiness despite the trauma.

[@marymutua5620]

I am glad step by step you are finding healing

[@florencenjoki3663]

Oh Muthoni thank you for sharing. This just had me in full tears. I almost wanted the mama bear in me to jump and hug you all through.... I don't know the right words but sharing this...thank you❤ this will change lives

[@Mbarie]

I wish I could hug you🥺🥺 I'm so sorry for that terrible ordeal. I pray you continue healing daily

[@judithnasimiyu97]

You are strong and an inspiration.

[@thegodlyprincess_kenya]

I knew you were going through the most. I am sending you love and grace 💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓

[@margaretkungu1281]

Hugs mama.. It shall be well:-) Praying you find healing..

[@harrietbosibori]

Hugs,...love and light to you!

[@idawairimu7093]

Thanks for sharing.. This is what our children are facing in the world... May God protect them..

[@cheekbonesgoddess228]

M glad you have let go of the person who hurt you...time heals everything lots of hugs Msoh🥰💝

[@andaliamaureen]

Thankyou for sharing yourself with us Muthoni. I am so sorry you went through that. I am so sorry. Keep healing ❤️‍🩹

[@phyllismbugua4186]

So sorry Muthoni. May God protect you. You shall overcome. Sending hugs and 💘

[@vallburetti7824]

Such a strong and an eloquent lady!! So sorry for what you've gone through❤️

[@hoorulain5527]

Pole sana.am feeling ur pain.and I wish fathers can be freinds with there daughters.and just be kind enough.

[@wairimutororey6614]

a powerful and inspiring queen

[@sistersshenanigans]

Pole, speaking about it is a step towards healing.

[@salnkiro3835]

Proud of you Muthoni, you are a warrior, you are a fighter, you have conquered the worst. From now henceforth, consider yourself an overcomer because you are. Hugs baby girl, you are loved 💕

[@angelam4136]

Crying along with you and wishing you continued healing. Considering that this was something you've always tried to numb yourself to, you were so strong to share this story!

[@magdalinemwangi4189]

Pole sana, Muthoni for all the hurtful experiences. You have worked hard and you have been strong. May the Lord really do you well. You will be well.

[@graceelkana9246]

This is a touching story and muthoni is strong wish her well in the healing process

[@Akadi2023]

Authentically spoken. I'd love to listen / Read to your poetry.

[@ireneatieno8729]

Heartbreaking. Self medicating is so common and so misunderstood. I am so sorry about all the issues you faced.

[@phyllisi.340]

My heart goes out to you Muthoni. You are one of the most creative people I know! Your DIY KZbin channel is super!👌. You are beautiful and have a long great life ahead of you. If the abuser is watching this 😡😡😡. And the said 'friend'..😡😡😡. How do you allow your friend to abuse your 'friend'?? Vengeance is the Lord's..Sending you love and hugs Muthoni 🤗🤗😘😘.

[@violetingahizu1114]

You are so brave coming out to talk about it.am sorry gal, soldier on and don't give up

[@ritaenon2878]

Wow... More power to you.

[@edithmbogoh4557]

The best Engage Talk of all time 😌

[@felistusnyamusinyangena6925]

Honestly this gal needs help that I can't explain

[@elleakenya]

All the best in your healing process

[@dorothywambui6870]

You are a strong and beautiful girl....dont let it draw you down!

[@constanceouna4859]

Thanks for sharing muthoni! Looking forward to celebrate the opening of CATSABLANCA💙💚💛

[@Kapotokarei2023]

So inspirational 💕💕💕

[@nursemaggie2321]

Oh my goodness, what a young pure African lady! I felt the weight on my shoulders, thank God you are still here and the amount of details and attention you pay to your emotions will help you heal even better. My heart goes out to you in every loving way possible. Please pray too to your heavenly father through Jesus, tell him your challenges in your private chambers and HE certainly will comfort and support you

[@khroniclesofkoko]

Hugs Muthoni🥺. Long and awkward hugs because you don’t know me. Thank you for being vulnerable to share your story💕. May vengeance be the Lord’s and may His Love be a light in your life, Jesus loves you 💕

[@ArthurKwaSky]

This is deep, I can totally relate....