Therapist reacts to N/A by Bring Me The Horizon

[@MVDSYNISTERPRODUCTIONS]

I was pissed when somebody said this was the worst song on the album

[@irsyandwi7111]

Ikr!.. this is banger.. this is actually my favorite song of the new album

[@isaactorres7909]

Not everyone likes the same things, and that’s okay!

[@machiz2068]

Can't believe they amount of hate for the album as a whole. I love it. Saw them couple months ago and played maybe 4 or more songs from new album and was awesome 🤘😂

[@emmanuelhernandez769]

Actually it's my favourite song on the album ! So intense ♥️🥹🥹

[@DudeLoopNoob]

The album is so good that I've seen so many different opinions.

[@RichardJanvrinYT]

My favorite song from the new album!

[@Catto334]

It's such a banger

[@naDalous]

Definitely one of the best! Especially since I featured on it 😎😂

[@irsyandwi7111]

Same here

[@Lemon-je1zr]

As well

[@FadlyIbong]

Yes same

[@stevemoyer1968]

19 years sober so far Freedom is awesome

[@sampaiosampaio6768]

dude that's so awesome keep it up

[@douglab222]

God bless! I am 26 years sober from speedball, heroin, and coke. 23 years sober from drinking. Keep fighting the fight. You are not alone! This song hits so hard, and I cry as I write this.

[@GAFVM]

what do you mean by sober? no coffee? no nicotine? no weed? no alcohol?

[@DolphinDerp]

1 year and 6 months off coke for me

[@GAFVM]

@@DolphinDerp hell yeah dude stay away from that shit it is evil congrats

[@TOMBofficial]

Check out Dig It. Really spoke to me..

[@MrLinkinJason]

"I hate my fucking guts right nooowwwww 😞😔" That song spoke to me as well, it's sooo relatable

[@QueenNeonYT]

Dig It is the best song on the album for me🖤 Please react to it🥺

[@kiben_ytb]

@@MrLinkinJason same

[@EDCKnifeAddiction]

One of their best songs every. Dig It

[@B8Lola]

OmG the way I cried...that song is amazing

[@D_H52]

n/A stands for narcotics anonymous which makes sense because Oli was addicted to ketamine for most of his adult life

[@AdrielNeves-lx8wd]

He is still addicted, one time addicted, always an addicted... he may not be an user, but it's tough..

[@witcheemon]

It took me a full 8 days of listening to the album on repeat for me to realise n/A stood for Narcotics Anonymous and not Not Applicable. 😂

[@ctobolsk]

Afaik, Oli had a relapse during lockdowns and the album was written about that

[@garrick7076]

Ketamine isn't a narcotic though. It's a dissociative anesthetic. Does it matter?

[@maojorney5544]

And he still

[@Reckware]

The part where people call Oli a knobhead and what not was actually recorded on their tour, They recorded all the UK shows of us screaming out this stuff and merged it all to put it on the track.

[@zappyyz6368]

i was so stoked to be part of that

[@IRC_Bruce]

I'm sure I can hear my voice there 😅

[@hubertnitkowski9583]

i was there too

[@caffs7777]

me too! Was awesome to be involved in some small way! Best gig ever!

[@tramahticgaming719]

This is so on point with being an addict. “I know I told you I was out of the woods But I left a key under the mat for the wolves” The suicidal thoughts that come along with using is some of the strongest feelings I’ve ever felt. I’m so glad they put this song out and things like it. You have no idea how close some of the people are to the edge that you are around at work, the store, church, etc. I promise you love is the answer.

[@MrLinkinJason]

Bro this song is too fucking relatable. This along with the chorus of their song "dig it" from NeX GEn.

[@Fukudome628]

Bruh I hate how relatable dig it is sometimes but also can’t stop replaying lmao

[@jdslaughter6152]

"Unique in our own Wretchedness" is a fire record name idea.... Good one!

[@xambrehgm]

Im a suicide survivor. And im a musician. This song is something that I've tried to write a couple times. But they nailed it

[@JoaoWeberV]

Bring Me The Horizon saved my life. It's like those stories where someone is about to end their life but hears a kind of calling that makes them change their mind. When I heard the song (sleepwalking), I realized it described exactly what I was feeling-a cry, a release. Later, I learned about Oliver's story and concluded that just as he went through all that and came out okay, I could too.

[@JakepataneYoutube]

Same they did save my life aswell

[@scorpioproductions7068]

Should definitely react to Hospital for souls & Deathbeds.

[@Herobrine_-rt5qe]

Sleepwalking too

[@danteardy9309]

Hospital for Souls is my psychiatrist. Holy shit the lyrics is insanely crafted

[@joshuacalloway4637]

This song…when you’re on the bright side of the wagon, is so validating. When you’re on the dark side, I still feel heard, but it’s a reminder of what it means to fail with the best intentions. Oli has had a lot of songs about his addictions, but to me, this is first time he’s been direct about it.

[@randykee2685]

I love the way that ending beat carries out with the vocals.

[@coryjames4294]

When I first heard this, it took me a moment to realize what he was doing and it just hit me hard. This album hit at just the rigjt moment for me as I was (still am) going through some things including having addiction issues throughout my whole adult life with too many things as well as substances. I still have a few vices but not as many as I used to. I know Oli doesnt want to be a savior but hes been just thst for a lot of us.

[@danielmatthews4234]

Day 1 requesting 1x1 also by Bring Me The Horizon Also, I'm not going to put everything in this comment, it would be really long. But I'm at the point where it feels like everyone just lies through their teeth, you know? "Better days are coming" or "It'll get better" or "This isn't forever" are among the most common phrases I get when I do open up to people in my life. But things have been bad for almost seven years now (got depression at 13, almost 20 now). Everything I drag myself up, something big drags me back down, and each time it's something worse and harder to recover from. It doesn't get better for me, it doesn't seen to end, and I wish I knew why. I wish I knew what I did to deserve this, because maybe then I could get better

[@Pikawarps]

I’m 29, been depressed since 11. It might get better, it might not. But the only way to find out if it’s gonna get better is to stick around to experience the full story. You’re right, people give platitudes even though they haven’t lived our type of life, but as someone also going through sh**, don’t give up, find something you find worth living for. Much love from one internet stranger to another, brother.

[@ah-ys8gs]

Gaes

[@michellevanniekerk8766]

I never understood the concept of group meetings for addiction. How can other broken people fix you. But then i realized that your loved ones try to understand what you going through and try to be supportive but in a way because they dont understand the situation it makes you feel more isolated even with all their good intentions. Group meetings is where u can connect with others that truly gets you and their experience can help u to be a better version of yourself.

[@donavandowney993]

This new bring me the horizon album is a jam! I’ve listened twice today already haha

[@MrLinkinJason]

I listened to it about 10 times in a day

[@donavandowney993]

@@MrLinkinJason haha I made it to about 5 times lol it’s so different but sooooo good

[@seanquinn4787]

Your enthusiasm on this subject is so great

[@Zoe_Lipman]

One of my favorite songs on the album. I love how BMTH makes songs that are so devastating when you listen to the lyrics but go off so hard with the sound.

[@JU5T2J0KER]

As an addict myself, I wonder if the title N/A actually is a reference to Narcotics anonymous (AA but for more hard drugs) I don’t know if it’s a thing in America but we have it in the UK and I’d imagine oli would of gone to it and with that intro as well

[@TheoSheldon-o2h]

its a big thing in the us actually went to like a 100+ person meeting

[@JU5T2J0KER]

@@TheoSheldon-o2h wow! That’s crazy the biggest meeting I’ve been to was about 50 people and that was a CA meeting

[@Jesus-cu6vn]

It is definitely the reason for the title

[@cheehee808_]

It definitely is, the whole intro is basically how you introduce yourself at the meetings lol

[@bssenterprise]

I feel as she’s a clinician that she’s doing it in a supportive way.

[@masonshields5319]

her energy and videos just always brightens my day bro. even after the hardest day.

[@Andy-zf5rd]

She's too happy for the emotion portrayed in the song.

[@LastHyllian]

I was thinking the same all the video, like I know it's a catchy melody but I can't vibe that way to those lyrics, it is another type of feeling, Idk how to explain it

[@Random_Alt]

@@LastHyllian i can, due to the way my life has been sometimes and the way i deal with things I actually find it much easier to vibe to lyrics like that than something overtly happy

[@adrierek]

For me I relate so much with the lyrics I feel way more comfortable vibing to this song than any others

[@nylatolbert2827]

I'm always bopping my head to this song. Cause I relate to the feelings and know the contrast between the lyrics and Oli's tone.

[@carismo9502]

@@LastHyllian Gonna jump on the bandwagon with the others, "normal happy" songs makes me sad, while "sad songs" makes me feel free

[@TheLazarusOperation]

This is literally how I reacted hearing this. It's relatable, and just an absolute BOP

[@TheDeatharcana]

This is my favorite song out of the album. Fully encampsulates my thoughts, so relatable.

[@davidwilliamsblogs7993]

Man this spoke to me. What good song and good message. Rock on!🤘

[@cheehee808_]

Just made 4 years off heroin a couple weeks ago, time flies once you get clean lol. This definitely relatable if you suffer or have from substance abuse before

[@allesfilmer9]

Stay strong!

[@enigmamarmite3373]

You definitely need to react to “dig it” on their new album So deep!!!

[@ianwood9771]

9th sobriety birthday...lol. my typing sucks

[@azgerrr]

congrats!

[@nattyp2894]

Congratulations

[@MrMonochrome1]

Let's go bro, only one more to a decade. You got this 💪

[@ianwood9771]

@@MrMonochrome1 one day at a time brother

[@allesfilmer9]

How's it going brother?

[@dan7192m8]

Probably in my top two from the new album alongside Dig it would love to see a reaction to that as well

[@unidentified9695]

Everything I hear this song tears keep on welling up. I've never been an addict to anything but the chorus just describes how I feel on a daily basis

[@WhoKnowsIt00001]

You should react to the song called "Dig it" from their new album, it's really emotional.

[@stevemoyer1968]

Well from my experience, when I relapsed in 2002 i immediately believed the lies I told myself about myself again! Once I broke the 3rd step contract…. There wasn’t any takesie backsie and for 26 months I destroyed everything worthwhile in life Ya gotta get done but it seems every bottom had a trap door

[@richeh79]

I am still convinced, after watching many of these reaction videos, the input is still set to webcam instead of microphone

[@Lodea]

I JUST FOUND THIS CHANNEL AND I'M IN LOVE WITH IT, PLEASE DO MORE BMTH

[@kakaalmayda4061]

and then u must reaction dig it! this lyric in this song so fuckin’ hit me up :(

[@mansocksjr]

you should listen to the whole album since its a concept album with very compelling themes.

[@Sven_lx]

Love youre reactions!! They help me understandig myself and my thoughts better. Thank you for that :) Please react also to "Dig it" from this Album!

[@TheJGSPOCK]

i also recommend Dig It. way too relatable in life right now. such a masterpiece of an album

[@Scarlet0357]

She clearly got an eargasm

[@ccmustanggt99]

Being a known addict for almost 14 years I still have a hard time opening up to my failures in my recovery because the shame of letting those around me down weighs heavy on my shoulders. Even knowing they’ve been in the same place as me or worse. The only times I can openly state when I’ve relapsed is when I’m caught and forced to deal with it

[@HeartSupport]

From Micro: @ccmustanggt99 Shame is a brutal feeling, my friend. Thank you so much for posting. Recorded a video/voice reply for you here: www.loom.com/share/830075c4f04b49d18938bca6744ee9a2 - Hold Fast. :heart:

[@ccmustanggt99]

@@HeartSupport thank you so much for the kind words. It means a lot

[@jackgreene6991]

I absolutely love the ending of this song. Yelling "Where did it go wrong?", a cry of despair and hopelessness. But the guitar and bass bend up to complete the chord and make it major, ending with a hopeful tone. This signifies the process that is visible in the entire album: you can't start to truly heal until you understand and acknowledge the root of your issues. Once you do, it can only go up from there.

[@dyslexofficial2798]

Easily my favosong on the album. It actually kick started my path to sobriety snd helped get me into AA. I owe Oli a huge thank you

[@darth_traven3813]

I absolutely adore this new album. Please react to Top 10 Statues

[@Brandon-oe2gv]

Ya this song hit home for me im a recovering addict and have a lot of mental health issues i had to work through it cost me a lot my marriage everything i owned but the moment i looked into my ex wife’s eyes on our last big fight and seen the hurt I’ve caused the pain i caused i took my separation and a picture of her into rehab and stayed till i was okay i wanted to give up but just couldn’t let her down anymore i got out in December to get served with the divorce papers but also took over a business that’s going extremely good and i started a program at the shop if you test positive for drugs you have to options go to rehab on my expense or lose your job

[@victorreboucas5356]

Could you please react to an older BMTH song called Hospital for Souls? It helped me get through my father's death.

[@LetsSurvivePaddyPlays]

In 2020 i tried to end everything. I wont go into the details but i figured it was the genuine end for me. 4 years later my life is better than i ever could have imagined. I have a beautiful girlfriend, wonderful kids and a job i generally enjoy. I find it hard to relate to the person i was back then but when i hear this i recognise that pain so profoundly. You said it perfectly. It makes us realise we are not alone and whether youre in the midst of it or out the other side, talking about it can only be a good thing. Was amazing to be a part of the crowd vocals on this too. Also, i cried when hearing Doomed live because when i was at my lowest that was the song i related to the most. Love this band and really enjoyed this reaction and insight. Liking and subscribing now 😊

[@shinyman250]

This song really resonates with me. The whole song i feal like that but The line, make love to a chainsaw, really hits hard for me

[@carolinecoy3164]

This album is a masterpiece. And even though it's closely about oli's experience's, there's also a huge lore bk story about an apocalypse,the 1st ep was about that, then this is about the aftermath and how people are coping with it, there's cool characters,eve and Sophie, Oli being a character also. Sykey or something. Need to rewatch and get name right maybe 😂😂 Great reaction as always. Dig it or too 10 statues that cried blood. Such a cool album with aits cleverly thought out story aswell it's inner meaning. I totally connect because of my past with addiction because of abuse. Makes me feel like I'm not alone. And oli's voice is just the icing on the cake. Delicious 😋

[@kccrosson9761]

Whole album saved me and watching your reactions! 💯 I have epilepsy

[@K3n_R0y]

this is a beautiful reaction video 😅🤘

[@K33KZ15]

Yes, This Song Has a Deep Meaning other people just need to understand it Deeply. Like me I feel that way before.

[@jamiekstewart93]

Absolutely love your video breakdowns of these songs! Would love to see you react to some Biffy Clyro, songs like 57, Justboy, Machines and Folding Stars all hit so deep

[@AndyVilters]

Maybe their best work yet, for me personally it hit home from the first lines. The timing & synchronicity the day after relapsing at my window proves their spot on in tune & in total harmony with my universal experience & this world we live in! F#cking legends

[@MIDAH336]

I didn't realize people didn't like this song until i read these comments. This and Lost are the two highlights of the album in my opinion and i haven't listened to them since Suicide Season(2008 album) Step brother recommended i give their new music a shot and i was NOT disappointed at all by this album.

[@Kara-de5cz]

I love this approach of song reactions/analysis, super original and important ❤ I think you should listen to "Poisoned Arrow" from Arch Enemy (my favorite track from their album "Deceivers")

[@drrunikol8451]

i love her energy

[@Bringmethehorizondude]

PLEASE REACT TO DIG IT It’s such a triumphant accumulation of everything they’ve ever done. A stunning masterpiece and I’d love to hear your thoughts on it.

[@Defury8285]

You should react to some of Bilmuri's latest album, Better hell & talking to your ghost both have deep messages with the most hilarious music videos

[@Defury8285]

oh empty handed too

[@voodoo300]

I hope you do more reactions of this album, it's so deep. DIg It, youtopia, top 10 statues 😭

[@titustaddhaustaddltentakel9987]

This album completely caught me off guard. I wasn't really sure what to expect after they cancelled the three EP plan. It took me a couple of playthroughs of the record to decipher if I like it and as of right now it's one of the four records I listened to in the last six months I love most.

[@auroracousland3092]

im not an addict, but i relate to this song SO MUCH with my anxiety and depression, especially telling people youre okay now, then dropping back into the pit. My dog just died and everything is just hell Also: fun fact - i went to their tour and the crowd bits were recorded there😄

[@joshuacalloway4637]

I appreciate you so much. I have for so long. Your joy reminds me that I can also experience joy. 🙃🙃🤙🏻

[@spamsmith3429]

My good friend would have been so stoked to hear this song. Unfortunately she passed away 3 years ago from overdose. Her favorite BMTH song at the time was Sugar Honey & Tea.

[@ElegantJames]

Been sober for 6 years and this song speaks to me on a level I never thought it could

[@robertsmith6439]

Hi...my name's Robert and I'm an addict. It's been 4 years, 6 months, 17 days. I've gone through a lot. My story is too long and personal to just share on yt but I'm still here. @HeartSupport

[@HeartSupport]

From runner12: @robertsmith6439 Hi Robert! I so appreciate you being here and sharing with us! I’m sorry you have gone through so much and deal with addiction where every day can feel like a battle. I’m so encouraged though because of your last sentence…You are still here and that’s amazing! That tells me you are a fighter and that there is hope within you. No matter how hard it gets you still wake up to another day and you haven’t given up. There is purpose in your life. You matter and despite the struggle there is hope! We are here for you if you decide to share more of your story. You are not alone and I’m praying for strength for you as you face each day! Keep fighting and remember that you are loved.

[@HeartSupport]

From lu2910: @robertsmith6439 Hi Robert, I'm glad you've reached out to us. First off, huge congratulations. To have been sober for such a long time is no small achievement. You have demonstrated such strong willpower and determination to keep this sobriety. You should feel very proud of yourself for this amazing battle that you are conquering and know that you are so incredibly strong for doing so. We are so grateful that you are still here. Right now, I am grateful that I am talking to such a brave person and able to hear about your journey. I don't want to make you feel forced to open up, but if you ever do feel comfortable sharing your story, know that HeartSupport is the perfect place for it, no matter how long. I know that personally I would be more than happy than take the time to read your story and talk with you further. Know that you are not a failure, you are a very loved person who is an overcomer. I would not even call you an addict, I know there is so much more to who you are, your purpose, your character that defines you more than your past addiction. I am so proud of your journey, and I wish you nothing but the best for every step you take and for each day. You are so loved, remember that my friend! <3

[@dannylittle8789]

This is my favourite song on the album as i was at the manchester gig and we sang the lyrics to olly amazing 🤘🏻🎸😈🔥

[@grfxman09]

This is my favorite track on the new album ... yay.

[@dekuloveshair5667]

n/a is easily one of my favorites form this album, it’s such a banger I feel bad for the wanting to jam to it sometimes, I do hope Olie is ok for whatever it matters as some internet rando

[@TheTrishwils]

I'd love to hear your take on R.i.p - I know it's more about hating but that hate can chew us up - make us wanna do weird 'chainsaw' things too 🤣 I love your face reactions 🖤🖤🖤

[@arkarh1114]

In rehab listening to this song 24/7

[@atlasucks]

sickk

[@sliversoulfly]

I have notes. 😊 We are ashamed when we relapse, and this is tough because you're not trying to blame others, but the support dries up really quick if you do relapse. If you decide to kick everyone is right there and supportive, you relapse and most of those people disappear. It's a shame spiral that easily leads you back to using. The question at the end is answered by the drawings throughout the song. All are childlike or done in a child's style. Great reaction and thanks for what you do. It's a unique voice, and appreciated.

[@sliversoulfly]

The underware line is a double entendre. One, his drug of choice slows your heart rate way down. The other meaning is self love. Sometimes you just can't leave the house and have desires even when you're trashed. As much as I thought Shadow Moses was going to be my favorite BMTH, this took over top spot for me.

[@Percocet_Pete]

Having trouble with sobriety, when being drunk is honestly one of my favorite things in life to do.

[@Rad-920]

I think it was interesting when he mentioned "leaving a key under the mat for the wolves" because it feels that he's eluding that he's leaving a door open for relapse

[@AvengedHate26]

Mmmmm actually readying his breakdown at the end hurts more than it did initially

[@pancakesnake]

this is my favorite song on the album it's really catchy has a breakdown and is my experiences

[@chuckseagle5048]

Back from rehab, thanks for what y’all do! Dark side reaction got me in! @heartsupport

[@CarlosHuiskens]

Can't wait to hear you react to the final song on the Album called Dig It.

[@DecentSofa]

N/A was literally the greatest song on the album

[@brayanavitia9143]

I think that be an addict doesn't mean just sustances, sometimes it could be addiction to someone, to some behaviors, it could be everything that you could be stuck with

[@warpten2215]

I honestly cant believe you havn't done Strangers by them, Maybe you've already heard it but Id love to hear your analysis of it. Its up there with Drown for me

[@330m]

Dig it really hits hard also ( i didn't even know they made music anymore till tonight)

[@scribbles1940]

My and my buddies joke about wrapping our bikes around a tree all the time. Just say this song speaks to us

[@angelodiblasi3396]

I often visit that dark place. Bands like BMTH and Disturbed help me to get out of it.

[@galaxycat936]

Favorite song of the album, No Doubt

[@RickyTwoTiimes]

“But I still left a key under the mat for the wolves”

[@tylerwhite8429]

As soon as you said the word wretchedness... I immediately had to come tell you that you need to react to Trivium - The Wretchedness Inside

[@michaelpetersen392]

Please please react to Like Moths to Flames- What Do We See When We Leave This Place? Their entire new album is dealing with mental health but that might just be the most poignant song I’ve ever heard 💔

[@truxsuxable]

Been there several times evidently. Wake up in the morning and the first thing I think of is going to bed

[@nattyp2894]

They might not have used the takes we did but imma say it forever "I'm in a bmth song". They recorded the gang vocals at the UK shows

[@sethwood9240]

NA meeting.

[@ProxyChannnnn]

I connect way too much with this whole album, but this song hits me so hard..

[@jlucsol1947]

I find solace in relating to some of BMTH's lyrics. Also this song rocks my hyperactivity alot!

[@nocouponsforkaren8587]

This song was hard for me to hear but has really helped open up the conversation more. I dont tell my girlfriend how much i control the urge to drink when even the smallest inconvenience hits. Its just something you gotta live with and being afraid to talk about it only makes it worse

[@kiben_ytb]

MY lyrics: Hi, my name's Benjamin and I'm an addict (Hi, Benjamin) I'm here 'cause I'm not quite all there 'Cause what used to be my idea of a laugh is Now just me checking my pulse in my underwear Thinking I should drop dead, eat ____, go to Hell I could jump headfirst out the window Dark thoughts keep on filling up in my mind, oh-oh (yes, i have dark thoughts, ALWAYS.) Kinda wanna get ______, make love to a chainsaw Wrap my drop-top 'round a lamppost Not sure I'll be coming back down this time Hello, Benjamin, you _______ knobhead Yeah Did you think you had us fooled? And, baby, I know that I told you I was out of the woods But I still left a kеy under the mat for the wolvеs So maybe I should drop dead, eat ____, go to Hell I could jump headfirst out the window Dark thoughts keep on filling up in my mind, woah Kinda wanna get ______, make love to a chainsaw Wrap my drop-top 'round a lamppost Not sure I'll be coming back down this time ____ it Got out on good behaviour I'm sorry, kid, but I can't be your saviour I don't know what you expected So maybe I should drop dead, eat ____, go to Hell I could jump headfirst out the window Dark thoughts keep on filling up in my mind Kinda wanna get ______, make love to a chainsaw Wrap my drop-top 'round a lamppost Not sure I'll be coming back down this time (Time) 'Cause I'm _______ losing it, get a grip, ignore all the signs The voices in my head keep telling me I'm fine (i also have this) Out of luck, what the ____? What am I gonna do? Where did i go wrong?

[@SubArchitectDJ]

This song made me a BMTH fan very recently

[@Breadrc]

Your therapist is gonna need some therapy... oh wait wrong song :D

[@H.E.M.]

The song legit came out the perfect time. I was clean for 6 months but relapse hard this month. Still haven’t found a way out because it’s so easy to pretend everything is fine but all I feel is shame. BMTH always releases songs at the perfect time ever since I was a teen 😂

[@HeartSupport]

From Micro: @H.E.M. Yes, shame is a powerful emotion and such an overwhelmingly present one when you navigate the realms of relapse. For a significant time you have experienced how it feels to be clean, to have control over your own addiction, to feel maybe like regaining a sense of ownership over your life as a whole. It feels like being on this ascending road where one brick helps you take the next step, then another one, then another... the vicious cycle slowly becomes a virtuous one. It feels good to finally see light again after having known what real darkness looks like. But then suddenly reality seems to brutally slap you on the face... an unexpected event, a moment of vulnerability, an emotional trigger activates raw feelings in you, a loss, an unwanted life change... and you find yourself feeling like you're just back to square one. That somehow all your efforts during all these months would have amounted to nothing. Feels like falling so brutally from top to bottom without any safety net to catch you. At this place, you wonder how you're going to move up again, or if it's even worth it to try again... It's really hard when it feels like you are battling with forces that seem to have level 10+ strength while you are beginning to build your own muscles. Recovery does feel like taking one step forward and three backwards most of the time. And relapses are such a peak expression of it, making you navigate through this roller-coaster of emotions with a long stop at the "shame" station. Wishing to bring hope here for you in this place of darkness: there are more stations after this one, and they worth continuing for. The shame that you feel now is absolutely understandable, although it is also through these moments of relapse that healing occurs. That we learn how valuable it train our self-compassion muscle, and to keep on celebrating the actual steps we're taking, the energy we're pouring into our own healing too. My friend: 6 months is such a HUGE milestone, and in no way your relapse would ever erase any of it. You have proven to yourself during these 6 months that you ARE capable of experiencing life without the addiction. You've had a firsthand experience of how that feels, and that speaks so much of your own strength and resilience there. This is real experience, real results, real proof of what you *can* do. Please don't let the shame sink too deep. It is an understandable reaction that deserves to be heard and to have space somehow. But you don't deserve to let it be a destination. You deserve way much more, and so much better. For your journey keeps unfolding. There's still beautiful adventures for you ahead. And a version of you that will look back to this day while feeling so proud of how much you've accomplished. You.got.this. Someone out there believes in you. :heart: -Micro, Heartsupport Staff

[@H.E.M.]

@@HeartSupport thank you so much for this message. ❤️ Didn’t expect to tear up today🥹 I’m gonna take it day by day. God bless you.

[@JoshChurchill-qz8pb]

I listen to this song on repeat Clean off fetydope and then some without rehab or counseling for a few years

[@ericmoney4572]

Ever listen to any Against Me! Or Laura Jane Grace? Maybe Lucero? I'd really like a look at laura jane Grace's the swimming pool song or against me bamboo bones. You could do literally any song by Lucero or Ben Nichols. They all are about some kind of pain or passion or attempt at healing, and they aren't very metaphorical about it tbh.