hello quarantine, its me - bailey

[@baileyvanderveen]

I’d suggest watching at 1.5x

[@elenaascia8879]

AHAHAHHA

[@braxx1016]

oh bailey, im so sorry hun. its the worst time to be going through all of this! i can help support your youtube channel, i will watch every single video you watch, i always have. its a roughtime girl, but i'm here for you and i will try to make it easier for you. heart break and social distancing is shitty af. i'm ready forthis shit to be over with. it's been a hell of year. stay strong lady, it WILL pass. WE ALL LOVE YOU, just remember we all do here on youtube. get better, i'll send some care packages, i swear it will all lbe sealed!

[@Pandaa_xx3]

I never comment on any videos, idk why I just feel weird talking to people not knowing if they’ll ever read it. But you are one of my favorite you tubers EVER and I will always support you. I hope things get better for you, and I hope you find happiness again, you 1000% deserve it. You are such an inspiration to me and my makeup journey. Perhaps even just playing with makeup with no particular goal and just recording it. I know I would watch it. 💕 wishing you happy holidays and a wonderful new year.

[@baileyvanderveen]

I always read it!!! 🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤

[@emilyboo4381]

It makes me so sad to hear you say you feel sad, you’ve been one of my most favourite KZbinrs for years(I remember watching when you did that nyx competition and I felt so proud of you, I’m not a stalker promise!!)! Your videos gave me confidence in makeup at a time in my life when I felt my worst. And your humour especially on Instagram is the best, you literally make me smile so much!! Quarantine has been awful for me too, I’m a single mum with a kid with additional needs and no one cares about stuff like that during lockdown. Talking helps and just because there was someone once in your life who didn’t appreciate you I can promise there’s lots of people who you dont know (me included) who do appreciate you (and have done for a very long time) and the creativity and humour and smiles you give us! We’ll all get through this! Sending love 💕

[@baileyvanderveen]

Please stalk me!!! 🖤🖤🖤 thank you for being here

[@jessielouhoo]

Girl, I hear everything you’re saying in this video loud and clear and I’m pretty much in the exact same spot. Feeling the abandonment of someone leaving you and not being able to say anything about it at all, job loss and watching everyone getting pregnant and moving forward in their lives. I’m 36 years old and I’m really never sure I’m going to have the things I see everyone else having right now equals such heart ache. I’m so sorry you’re going through these things right now too. It blows. 😕

[@baileyvanderveen]

🖤

[@britelizabeth]

This broke my heart because this year has been so goddamn terrible, and I've felt like absolute fucking garbage - and the only thing worse is seeing someone else going through it. I'm 33, I haven't had a real relationship in 7 years. I've been ghosted, dicked around, you name it. This past year a situation came to a head with a guy I was in love with, and I won't get into details on here, but let's just say it fucked me up mentally and emotionally and months later I'm still not over it. Most of my friends are in relationships/married/buying houses/etc. I live paycheck to paycheck despite busting my ass at 5 jobs - and now 0 cause hey covid - and it's just. So. HARD. It makes me feel like a joke. Like a failed adult. So, you're not alone. By any means. I've watched your videos for years and you're wonderful and talented. Don't give up. Don't. xo

[@baileyvanderveen]

🖤

[@TheJadiePooh]

Thank you for being raw and honest. I wish more people would be like this because it's ok to not be ok.I've been feeling similarly lately, you're really not alone. Much love.

[@lakeithalacey]

I am a new Subscriber and your make up tutorials are awesome!!! 👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼

[@thegoldstyle9913]

Love you so much Bailey! You are such an inspiration. Despite everything you have not lost an ounce of talent (only grown), ability to make us smile and inspire. When I watch your content it only pushes me further. You got this girl 🙌🏻

[@natalierose1072]

Sweetheart my heart breaks for you and I'm going through heartbreak too 💔 It doesn't matter what was going on in his life, you don't treat people like that. He lacks integrity and is a coward. Im so sorry you were treated that way.

[@GeminiGlitters]

I genuinely hope you start to get better , throughout last year and this year I would watch your videos when I was going through a low self esteem and being ghosted too . Your helped me with a simple video about lipstick swatches while I was literally tearing up . You actually made me get the courage to go pursue wedding makeup artist , but Covid delayed that for this year . But i still haven’t given up the thought . Again love you ❤️😭

[@baileyvanderveen]

Thank you so much for being here. I’m glad I can inspire you 🖤

[@Blushgrub]

Sending you love! I am here with you in the red zone and it’s just bizarre. It’s been real hard. You’re not alone 💗💗💗

[@starlitbetty]

Bailey. This was so hard to watch. You always bring a positivity to things so I was so upset for what this year has been for you. I’m so sorry. I’m thinking of you. ❤️

[@brittanythiessen2593]

Sending you love and positivity ♥️

[@jasonr1971]

I been watching since your Vegas trip from years ago. I get so inspired from all the glam makeup. I’ll keep watching to support this fantastic channel. Hope 2021 gets better for you. Sending good vibes from Florida. 🖤

[@baileyvanderveen]

I wish I was in Florida rn

[@hollow.kittie]

Thumbs Up for trying! This is super relatable Bailey! I would love to see a pr haul and a year end faves and fails! Keep posting and for God sakes!!! START A FREAKIN TikTok ALREADY! It will keep you occupied and there is much so much more engagement over there!!!! I’ve missed you

[@baileyvanderveen]

I can show you the PR 🖤

[@anamarie4155]

Bailey, you haven't throw YT away! As long as you have your subscribers, you have people who will watch you. Use this opportunity to explote your channel. I bet you have ton of makeup, PR, the talent, the creative. Take advantage of that 😊 I am glad your results came back alright and I hope you get better. Love your content and can't wait to see you again 🖤

[@baileyvanderveen]

I need this as an alarm clock

[@simonefrancesreed1272]

I was in constant contact with a guy for almost 2 months. I'm talking literally every day we would call, text, send video's or pictures multiple times a day for almost 2 months. Then right when I needed him most he ghosted me. I somehow knew the last thing he said to me WAS the LAST thing. It was weird. But I gave him a week to respond... nothing. So finally I told him to "Be Better!" Because ghosting someone is cowardice. It's immature and cowardice. So I grieve and move on. Then 5 months later he texts me in the middle of the night with a picture of outside his apt covered in snow telling me he heard me and that things were better for him now and that he hoped I was good. 🙄 Now at that exact moment my mother was sick with an extreme fibromyalgia flare up. For that entire month I seriously thought she was dying she couldn't move or do anything. I was doing my job and taking care of her all with absolutely No help, emotional or otherwise. And he texts me this crap without an apology for abandoning me? 😂 I told him I deserved better and wished him well on the next chapter of his life. No one deserves to be ghosted. Man up and have a freaking conversation, you know? Bailey, you are so much better and deserve so much better than to be treated like that. You're right. It hurts like a death. But unlike an actual death you'll be able to move on and not hurt as much, if at all, from it. *hugs* I enjoy watching your videos. You've been missed. ❤❤❤ I'm glad you're back, no matter how long. ❤😀

[@ailishbeautyaddict6741]

So happy to see a new video from u Bailey x

[@yjsoto79]

I am in California and we are locked down at the moment also, so I know how you feel where you have all his anxiety and depression, it’s horrible. And the US only gave us 1200 bucks since Covid started, bull shit. And that guy wasn’t worth it, I know it’s hard but Time will heal it but it will get better. I was in a relationship for 18 years, so if I can get over it, you can do it too. 🥰

[@Kristenofthegenx]

I feel like a lot of us are in similar situations because of so many things happening during quarantine. Some worse some better but either way people need to be there for each other. I hope things get better for you & anyone else who reads this. 💗

[@reneek.6527]

Bailey, I’ll always be your subscriber and watch your videos. You’ve always been so real and genuine and I really appreciate that. I’ve been watching you since you’ve worked at Sephora back in the day and it obviously seems like you are going through a tough time but life will get better one day. Just keep your chin up and keep going. The reason you still have 100k subscribers is because you tell the truth and you’re genuine. We’d still watch even if you stared at the camera for an hour. RIP ex bf

[@SockHippie]

Hey I just subscribed to you! I hope you do the new colors of the powder puff nyx lipsticks. We have a similar skin tone so I like seeing them on you. I got will power and it is such a pretty soft lavender color. Stuff can be discouraging but I think you still have a lot of life left in a career for youtube.

[@katr9045]

Awww Bailey! My heart goes out to you during this time and wish you all the best.🖤 🍻 Here’s to 2021!!! Bless xx

[@lellio9285]

You didn't throw KZbin away your life took a different path, you are still here and you better upload all that PR because I'd love to see it! Love watching your videos and even when your going through it, IV still appreciated you talking about things because you speak to me and other people who have or have had the exact same emotions. Talk about everything. Many will listen. Never stop being you because she is fabulous!!! The only question is.... What will we all wear to Ur ex's funeral? (Snap) ❤️

[@baileyvanderveen]

HAHAHA dress code TBD 🤣

[@jordyneschmidt615]

Thank you for sharing this with us ... I'm sending you lots of hugs , love and all the positive vibes to you Bailey (and your kittie kats) ❤

[@MichMom6265]

💔💔💔

[@carolinahernandez5567]

Wow I related to you sooooo much with your breakup, I was in a long distance relationship for 2 years. We had plans to move in together once I graduated school, I honestly thought we were going to be together forever but he broke up with me in June because he wasn’t feeling it anymore -.- like you I am still going through the emotions of a break up. I miss the memories that we made together, I lost my best friend and that’s the hardest part. But I know that this is just a moment in time and the pain and hurt will pass I wish the best for you, with your health and personal life ❤️❤️❤️

[@carolinahernandez5567]

PS I barely have any friends and the ones I do have kids, my cousins are married and having kids and I feel like I’m getting left behind 2020 has made me feel so lonely especially since you can’t really socialize. I’m just taking it day by day Again wishing you the best ❤️

[@baileyvanderveen]

We have each other. I’ve realized time truly does heal all

[@MoonlightDestiny827]

Bailey, I really appreciate you being vulnerable with us and sharing such intimate updates in your life. I hope you know you still have your subscribers and our support. We will ride or die with you. We love you

[@Lupes_fiascos]

Love you girl ! 🥺❤️ missed you!!!! Take your time !

[@QuinnMakeUp]

Hugs!! You are such a beautiful soul! Things will get better ♥️

[@spawderdam]

Ghosting someone is so fucking awful. I truly understand your feelings surrounding that. It has happened to me in various ways but the last time it happened I totally broke. I was in a long (and I mean LONG) distance with someone, I was in Sweden and they in New Zeeland. I was prepared it was going to be hard but not that hard, cause I was the only one trying to schedule Skype time etc, while they were moving and studying and apperently "very busy" all the time. I got the same "just give me time, we'll be together soon I love you blabla". We had plans that they were gonna move here after they finished studying so I could finish studying (mine would take longer) and then we talked about moving to canada. But after I had been upset that I was apperently not being a priority for a while, we had a small argument where I was just feeling I cant keep being hurt and they saying Im sorry I love you, I wanna be with you. And that was the last thing they wrote. They didnt answer anywhere, I had to contact their mom cause I was so worried something happened.. But no, they just ghosted me. How can the last thing you say be "I love you, I wanna be with you" and then make yourself unavailable everywhere to avoid talking to you. It was truly excruciating, took a lot of time to get over the worst of that. Its been 1 and a half years now and is a lot better than it was but it hurt me SO much, opened up so many old issues. I will never forgive them for that. You didn't deserve that, I didnt deserve that.. Keep your head up, cry it all out. It will get better ❤ Thank you for being so vulnerable.

[@belindaramirez5531]

2020 has really been rough on alot of people....I had both Grandpas pass away and my daughter was diagnosed with Type1 diabetes in February. If you look for the silver lining in every situation, I promise it will get better. Keep your head up ❤

[@baileyvanderveen]

My thoughts go out to you and your daughter! 🖤

[@belindaramirez5531]

@@baileyvanderveen Thank you so much...she really enjoys your ig stories when you show your fur babies 😻

[@MsDevilBabi]

Sending so much love! Although this was a sad video, I was so happy to see your face again. Were waiting for you to come back and will continue to wait :)

[@baileyvanderveen]

Maybe tomorrow. Maybe next week 🖤

[@MsDevilBabi]

@@baileyvanderveen whenever your ready!!! 💄🖌️

[@PinkPrincesz]

2020 has really been a shit year for many😏. I’m so sorry you’re going through a rough time. Sending hugs and positive vibes your way 💕. Everything will be ok, things will get better, Even your KZbin, I truly hope you start feeling better.

[@alexiscarlin9690]

I am so sorry you are going through a rough time right now! Hang in there! We are all struggling to be honest I am thankful about being able to work and help out the elders during this pandemic so I am thankful!!! As far as the last single girl I feel you I'm almost 27 and my fiance' left me at the beginning of Covid. I just want to let you know that you are still young and have lots of time! Enjoy being single and you will meet the person you are supposed to be with in due time!

[@baileyvanderveen]

I’m so sorry to hear that :( we will now take our time finding whoever may or may not come into our lives 🖤

[@daniellem1978]

Aaww, baaaaabe! I wanted to hug the shit out of you when I saw this. I'm so sorry. When someone ghosts you it's the worst. I think it's fing cruel when ppl do that. I've been through it as well and it's nasty. I'm sending you loads of love xx

[@colourfulBelinda]

As someone who was diagnosised with MS 4 years ago, I really feel for you. My first question to the doctors were "Will I end up in a wheelchair?" as well. And the answer is always "we don't know." I also still have 3 numb fingers on my right hand from 4 years ago. So sorry about your Dad dying. Sending my love to you!

[@baileyvanderveen]

We can high5 with our numb hands 🙌🏻

[@GeminiGlitters]

Quarantine is so weird . Last week I had a rough time with anxiety. I send you lots of love and strength 🥺❤️. Love you bby

[@ratitavanidosa3107]

Did they ruled out “Neurogenic thoracic outlet syndrome”? It sounds almost text book description, and it’s fairly common among people who have to work with their arms elevated (hairdressers, make up artists). I hope things turn around soon for you, you have been incredibly strong and you deserve all the success and happiness that I know will come your way. Now that I know that you still get revenue from youtube I will rewatch all your videos (or even let them run on the background if I’m occupied) ;) much love to you

[@baileyvanderveen]

I will look into this!! Thank you!!!!!

[@rachaelesque3]

So sorry things have been shit for you. You got fire in you. Use it. 🖤

[@mistygray13]

I just realized I was never subscribed?! Fixed that!! We’ll be here when you’re ready for the next one Bailey! 🖤🖤🖤

[@baileyvanderveen]

Welcome!!!

[@MichMom6265]

I miss you. I love you. God bless.

[@baileyvanderveen]

🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤

[@yunassecretrapcareer6106]

Would u Bailey or any of the ppl commenting get the vaccine?

[@baileyvanderveen]

This is an interesting topic. I think we will all HAVE to? I’m apprehensive. It’s sort of scary to think about - but I also am not in line to get it first. Thoughts?

[@sinndymorr6358]

I most definitely will get the vaccine. It's going to be awhile here in the USA.

[@lellio9285]

Hi, im a biomedical scientist in England, one of the places that's getting it 1st and we are all a consensus of we r shit scared but u like have to don't u. X

[@yunassecretrapcareer6106]

I honestly don’t know and I’m scared. I have autoimmune issues and I think I’m going to be one of the ones that will be advised to get one. My Dr tells me I NEED the flu vaccine yearly so to protect myself I’m probably gonna need it, but I’m scared with all the conspiracies and false info out there. With everything happening out there in the world you don’t know what to believe anymore.

[@lellio9285]

@@yunassecretrapcareer6106 hopefully there will be more ppl who have had it before u need to so there will be more clear info about any adverse reactions and probably different options x

[@kiax7147]

You are always a priority and it would show through actions. He should of ended it right and you deserve so much love. I hope you heal soon but just know you dodged a bullet.

[@sinndymorr6358]

Hugs to you! I have had very minimal social interaction since March. I keep telling myself it will get better..someday soon.

[@baileyvanderveen]

🖤🖤🖤

[@lindaoreb]

He’s a loser and a coward! Although things seem bleak, there’s only one way to go - up. Don’t worry about being single. Those people who are allegedly “happy” are soon divorced and back to square one. Wait for the right guy. You make better choices when you’re older. You’re an independent, resourceful, pretty, talented, young lady. Be patient. This year will soon be over. Leave this year behind and 2021 will be better for you - be positive. 😘

[@sarahperni]

so much 💛

[@voightkampff7936]

I've been wondering where you've been. I came here a week ago to see if it was just youtube being youtube with not notifying me. Nope. You were gone. I'm in Alberta. Things here are so much more "normal". Damn....

[@baileyvanderveen]

Prepare yourselves for the second wave

[@voightkampff7936]

Oh Bailey..... :( I fuckin empathise. O man....... I have a degenerative neuro disease. I get Mri's several times a year depending on my inflammation level. You get used to them. Didn't you used to rave? Man, in the 90s and early oughts The 'Peg was THE techno and gabber capital. So many amazing artists. Fishead immediately comes to mind...anyways...mri's are like techno. Go listen to Richie Hawtin and then mri's won't be nearly as bad. ;) listen to Richie Hawtin in general. :D I completely and totally understand, get it, empathise, see so many parallels, wish I could hug you. Man this video hit home. Shit. I've been watching you so long...since way before Toronto. The Peg round 1. ;) I wish I could help you somehow. Words suck at times like this. Everything coming to mind is clche n weak. What I really want to say is: We're fucked. Share this blunt?

[@baileyvanderveen]

Puff puff pass baby

[@voightkampff7936]

@@baileyvanderveen puff, puff pass, girl, right back atcha!

[@lizziejohanna]

New subscriber! 🙂

[@crazybunimama]

I had a pet name boy, then I got a girl too. I also had one name baby Haha! Great minds think alike This shall pass, u will be ok! Good riddance on bf!! U deserve much better 😍🥰🥰😋😂🤗

[@baileyvanderveen]

Aw man and I thought I was being so originally ironic 🤣