Bipolar Rapid Cycling. Filmed as it happens.

[@andrewbowers_]

You’re an example of social media’s practical use and how it can benefit all of mankind. Good on you champ and hang in there my friend.

[@kaesaikrasun4720]

your 'mind'?

[@NARKISDUDE]

Sounds a bit funny to me, since Facebook makes many people depressed around the world. personally i'd like to think KZbin is less of a social media that FB

[@Beastgrows]

Who are you? Mark Suckerberg?!! This video's fake as fuck, the only rapid cycling this guy's done is on his pushbike heading down to collect his welfare check!

[@whiteisright4142]

Fuck off idiot

[@Beastgrows]

Doomerve เชียล่า Yeah, what an idiot, glad somebody can see the fake as fuckery going on in this vid. Cheers Bro!

[@anamira2908]

You're truly a warrior. People have no idea of how strong people with mental illnesses are. I sincerely wish you all the best in life, you deserve it.

[@bplreloaded1721]

I second that shit bubba on LIFE!!!

[@univuniveral9713]

well, life is not easy for anyone.

[@OrangeDiamond33]

I can''t stop masturbating am I a warrior too?

[@rats.4561]

Why are they strong?

[@univuniveral9713]

Bear-ly Right question. Suddenly in the modern world it is better to have cancer, or be disabled, or dive in the sea to save a dog when you do not know how to swim, be born without a brain, or have a child without a nose... then you will be called brave and strong. You will never get any praises if you are strong and prove your talent.

[@nikoscastellanos3323]

You're an incredibly strong and brave person for putting this on youtube, thank you for this video. I as well as everyone watching this video hopes for your recovery as soon as possible.

[@aishasadiqa1178]

Nikos Castellanos p

[@andreaspaulding5757]

There is no recovery from Bipolar disorder.

[@bipolarxtc]

#TheBipolarTruth Hey everyone, thank you so much for sharing this content. I started my own channel to speak up about mental health and was curious if you all wouldn't mind watching my videos, subscribing, liking? I'm looking to positively put messages out there to educate others on Bipolar Disorder.

[@kittens9136]

To have such an awareness of what is happening to your brain & body and yet have no control over it is one of the most horrific things that can happen to a person. I really feel for this man and hope he is doing well & loving life now ❤️

[@thool]

I have this picture of mental illness in my head, is like being strapped to an armchair watching life happen to you and your body and brain react of their own accord and no matter how much you scream and cry in your armchair inside, no one can hear or see you. Just my own experience, can anybody else relate?

[@hunterfisher9562]

I have been happily married to a Bipolar women for thirty five years, she is the mother our children. She is a Titan and my Soulmate, when she crashes I take her in my arms and hold her. Winston Churchill and President Lincoln and Mary Lincoln were Bipolar. We all have problems, I am dyslexic and suffer from P.T.S.D. what is normal?

[@gia9551]

Hunter Fisher this is such a sweet comment

[@Prettymapleleaf]

Hunter Fisher beautiful. Wishing all the best for you and your lovely wife.

[@lina-mx5gb]

Hunter Fisher Wishing the best for you and your family❤️

[@hunterfisher9562]

peanut butter Thank you I guess we are all human ,steel isn't steel till it's forged

[@hunterfisher9562]

emilyge0rgia Thank you sweetheart ,my grandfather told me a man's got no right to marry a women, unless he is willing to do everything her parents would do for her.

[@vaiadaldisfinearts8028]

How much of smartness and strength is required for someone to be aware of what is happening the actual time that it happens!

[@diesfromthecringe3573]

Alot

[@RuboXing]

Its the ability to controll your toughts while your pyshics condition almost not alows it

[@stephsmanicshenanigans8017]

For me to start noticing my own mania I would film myself when I felt like was going to be (it gives me warning signs I know of now) but filming and watching it in various mind frames helped me to know now when I’m manic and not just my normal anxious depressed self. The little moments of clarity used to be awesome but now they are just freaky because it’s no longer my normal.

[@brazyrist]

To stay sane while YOUR mind betrays you is UNIMAGINABLE ive seen schizophrenics do same and never ceases to amaze me

[@jaxtongunner4731]

You probably dont care but if you are stoned like me during the covid times then you can watch pretty much all the latest movies on InstaFlixxer. Have been streaming with my gf during the lockdown =)

[@davethedm]

Suffering with severe depression. It feels weird in the moments that I’m not depressed - like it’s not real. I can’t even imagine feeling manic after depression.

[@LaCarusiella]

It's true...what is normal feels weired when you are weired all the time and weired is normal for you

[@Envyousluck22]

It feels little crazy but you think it’s normal but you know it’s not right but you can’t help but to feel or think that way .. literally crazy

[@letsdothat]

I love this man, he makes a great friend. I wish him a lovely life.

[@mylifenoneofyourbusiness9564]

People they run away from us.

[@unknowntosociety01]

@@mylifenoneofyourbusiness9564 i dont blame em one bit we can be pretty wild at times and they dont deserve to ride along with us through that

[@mylifenoneofyourbusiness9564]

@@unknowntosociety01 all we need it’s support and Love.

[@Smudgie]

I can't imagine the strength of will this takes to film yourself at times when it is possibly the last thing on earth that you want to do.

[@Scrabble12]

I have rapid cycling to, it wouldn’t be hard to record at all, I’m not sure what you’re talking about.

[@bellamckinnon8655]

@@Scrabble12 I have the same, and it would be hard for me

[@rektspresso7288]

@@Scrabble12 I think they meant it would be hard for some people to be willing to document themselves in a vulnerable state. Not as in it would literally be difficult to set a camera up lmao

[@29aaronjones]

@@Scrabble12 sharing a personal struggle is what is meant by "the hard part", not turning on the camera.

[@ionacrazy]

Thanks man, i rapid cycle alot but sometimes i forget im cycling and think im lazy or a mess, your description is an enormous help.

[@MiamiCubanbcn]

Nunya Business that is true cycling, when you forget you are cycling. Not when you anticipate it or plan for it.

[@kathrynmcmorrow7170]

I am ultra-radian like that. I began to cycle faster after resorting to psychiatric anxiolytics. But the best things for me are ALL healthy practices. Just pace yourself as well as you can.

[@Broken-Flesh]

Damn, the mind truly is a battle ground.

[@wouldbabyhitlerkillyou4217]

so is my asshole

[@alisontunny9362]

Molten Smegma you may as well say damn you large intestines because brain chemicals derive from the gut ( and that’s where Drs will focus medication in,the near future. Improve the gut flora and you get rid of depression and anxiety.

[@rawdonwaller]

Truth.

[@Parasmunt]

The first step is to stop letting it be a battle ground.

[@dollhouse3009]

@Alison Tunny yeah right, I'll believe that when it happens. Or how about you just go for a nice walk?? Don't talk shit you know nothin about coz if you'd experienced this stuff u wouldn't be writing that crap. Unless you are delusional.

[@haleyschmidt8275]

I deal with the exact same symptoms and I’m very glad that I found your video. I’ve never really understood what exactly what was wrong with me, but this video is extremely helpful for me. Thank you so much 😊

[@laurajayne8519]

I am diagnosed Bipolar Rapid Cycling and its like a constant whiplash battle! people assume i am lazy and then motivated! they just don't understand the real struggles that come with Bipolar! on the manic days, i am like a cleaning fairy and my home is sparkling, but on the depressive stage, i can barely be bothered to get dressed, let alone clean! and its on these days that i am judged as "lazy" by my family! they often say "put some happy music on and dance around whilst you clean" that for me is the most insulting thing they can say, if only it were that easy!! anyway, well done for sharing your stages in bipolar. Its a brave thing to do x

[@unprocessed_life]

I've always felt compelled to get tested for this. I am usually manic and have never really experienced a big depressive state. I have felt tired some and some days the truly high manic days, there's a huge difference from normal high energy.

[@upsydaysy3042]

Robert Goldman trolling these comment threads is not nice

[@hiimjosh868]

im like this? i dont think i have it but you just described me basically, one day im motivated and loving and then the next few days iwont want to do anything and ill stop caring about things

[@chelseaozanic92]

Robert Goldman you're so awful

[@AISocialNetworks]

Put some happy music on. Yeah I tried that yesterday and it had me in tears. I go thru being motivated and I clean my house, then I go manic and destroy the place, then I get depressed and just lay in the filth. Then I balance back out and I say that was so stupid and I'll never do it again then 2 weeks later I'm a mess again.

[@BruceSeesall]

Hi brother. Hang in there and thanks for sharing this with the World. I know a family member that is Bi Polar. Thanks for sharing man. Love from Canada.

[@vinakane3150]

Bruce Sees all definitely love from Canada!!! 🇨🇦

[@craftybynature3760]

Bruce your awesome keep up the great work.. sadly mental health is more common now than ever..

[@wesleyoleary1032]

watch ur back mr fat lazy slob

[@Vgp-rp4iu]

Mr Fat Lazy Slob wow you are a complete waste of space. why would you even say something like that? you being a fat lazy fuck is a choice you have made you miserable piece of shit. these people can't control this disorder.

[@secretmuse420]

trucker V you took the bait bro, don't feed the trolls with responses :))

[@wywardmoose]

I can’t even imagine this.. Having easily triggered Depression almost every week is already hard enough, you’re so strong ❤️

[@IAmNinasaurus]

I hate when my bipolar is rapid cycling. Although it's better than being depressed for a week it's a lot more exhausting to be shifting so quickly. I used to enjoy mania a lot, before I realized how annoying it is for everyone around me. This video's pretty cool because you can actually see the difference in your mood and actions. I tend to switch between extremes which is really hectic. I crave stability.

[@user-pt2ss2zd3y]

Dolce Luxe What a fantastic description! I'm not being facetious, just that you totally nailed the description of BD perfectly! thank you! ❤

[@user-pt2ss2zd3y]

Dolce Luxe What a fantastic description! I'm not being facetious, just that you totally nailed the description of BD perfectly! thank you! ❤

[@cellogirl11rw55]

Dolce Luxe That's good. Had she considered ECT? It's safe for pregnant women.

[@hunterfisher9562]

JaninasSolar_system Those of us that have spouses with the disorder , we try to protect and help those with this disorder instead of taking advantage or humiliate those who have problems . An old African proverb said it takes a village to raise a child!

[@LINKINservicedog]

cellogirl11RW I had ECT years ago and have proven long term memory side effects. Also, I'm married to a doctor who says it's not good for a fetus and can be fatal in some cases. Not good to give medical advice especially about a pregnant mom and her unborn child. Just saying.

[@susskinsgamer]

I appreciate the effort you've put into this, especially during the depressive state. You're doing a service for all people suffering from mental health issues, including me. Thank you.

[@DemetriusFuller]

Thank you. I learned a lot, and I'm humbled by your courage.

[@Lauren-ks4ep]

I'm so glad I'm not alone in this

[@judithlado6004]

Lauren Freeman ikr

[@Will831100]

Feels like a constant roller coaster of emotion. Its a feckin pain in the arse.

[@Will831100]

Thanks for pointing that out. I've been convinced a while that the weather affects me. I always suffer at christmas and seem to be better in summer with regards to the ratio of good to bad days. Being as i'm in Lancashire that would fit also as we generally share our weather.

[@Will831100]

Whats that? Forgive my lack of knowledge but i'm only just getting to the root of things myself now after 30 odd years of trying to figure out the issue. It's only my mums diagnosis at 60 odd that's given us the indication. Just been put down to depression and bad temperedness till then and that's where people are missed I think. They're just branded as volatile for lack of a better word. I'm lucky I have understanding, great friends or I might have nothing and not be here now.

[@Will831100]

Been through the vit D treatment already. First thing they looked at. Not worked, Thanks for the info though. My fact for the day.

[@tapgirl0155]

You give such a gift to those of us who want to understand this better. Your generosity of spirit is amazing. Thank you.

[@emilyvonshultz]

Thank you for sharing this. Bipolar is one of the most difficult mental illnesses to understand, and it is important to educate and increase awareness.

[@elizabethholton40]

I am rapid cycling, though the fastest i've ever experienced is 3 days. THANK YOU for being brave enough to do this. I can show this to people and maybe it will help them understand. Much love, and take care of yourself!

[@itsjudystube7439]

I don’t know who is still reading through these comments, but I have found that the video was wonderful and illustrated my own experience very well. As well... everyone’s comments have been illuminating. I no longer feel on my own, and would like to thank everyone for taking the time and being brave enough to come out and talk about this. ❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@FSMface]

Sending you some positive thoughts from the U.S.! I think you are very brave to share this, and what you describe is exactly what I've experienced with other family members. Thank you for having the fortitude to share this with the world, you are doing a great thing and spreading awareness. All the best, brother!

[@fatlover5472]

Thank you this helped me very much as medical student interested in psychiatry

[@msDanielp369]

Alahu Akbar

[@kathrynmcmorrow7170]

You want to help yourself?

[@sarahakil7788]

hi

[@sampiazza7483]

I don't rapid cycle that quickly, but at it's worst, I can shift every hour or two. Shifting every half hour is rare for me. But something that helps me out with managing my feelings is exercise. Exercise helps me immensely (going for walks, hiking, swimming, biking, going to the gym, etc.), it helps me to keep my emotions regulated and be in and sustain a more positive mood and attitude. And being outside and getting some sunshine rather than be couped up inside all day helps as well.

[@michaelstafford2451]

Sam Piazza thank you

[@nadie0595]

I agree whole heartedly, I was able to maintain a 4 mile a day walking regimine fpr over a year... Until a thing happened

[@pawnstaar]

yes of course all of that makes you feel better, but when you are on a low you can't get the strenght the energy to do so.. at least for me, i know i could perhaps make myself feel a little better but i just can't

[@jean-michelmatthijssen2146]

Sam Piazza wtf, I thought that you have to have these episodes for at least a day in order for you to be considered bipolar? I mean, I can also have some moodswings during the day but isn't that normal?

[@nadie0595]

Jean www.nami.org/learn-more/mental-health-conditions/bipolar-disorder

[@MichelleCWeber]

My almost 16 year old son was just diagnosed in January. We are just finding the right cocktail of meds for him. This is great insight for me as a care giver.

[@kellyberry4173]

Thank you...feel like I been fighting forever...much love to you for thinking of us and sharing. ..so much love to you. ...hang in there. ..didn't know that there were so many of us. ..in a way, it's comforting.

[@jonesyagain]

Just wanted to say thank you for sharing this. I hope you are travelling well.

[@FrancesHart99]

Fascinating, how generous of you to show us. I've heard about it but never witnessed it. You are helping people understand what you go through. Take care.

[@Kklvr86]

the way he shifts his mouth in depression. Reminds me of the awkward feeling when trying to concentrate on things or speak to someone when you're in depression depression. I feel like a different person in Mania. someone I cannot recognize.

[@realascanb222]

krispykremelvr thats called depersonalization.

[@Kklvr86]

sumkindal8dy ty, it's a terrible feeling.

[@michaelfloden3488]

that was amazing. i felt your depression in the beginning of the video and noticed (obviously) your mania as the video went on. thats just incredible how rapid your cycles are.

[@adamwright4555]

Extremely well explained! It's also amazing how in tuned you are with your emotions, and understanding of them. Thanks for the educational video, peace and light my friend

[@terinathompson]

I am waiting to see a psychiatrist to get a proper diagnosis of Bi Polar. Thank you for sharing. It makes me feel less alone. Sending well wishes to you my friend. I can relate to what you experience. I always did like rollercoasters..I just had no idea that one would be inside my head affecting my life when I was older.

[@5winder]

Psychiatrists suck the life out of you. Jesus heals.

[@lelandmyllari]

5winder sure but he's not all healing. people need extra help sometimes or they'll fly off the deep end.

[@cellogirl11rw55]

5winder Jesus heals, and so do psychiatrists.

[@zenitlord3313]

cellogirl11RW Except psychiatrists

[@dissadistfied]

Te Rina Thompson wow ..

[@Sniffthedrippings]

God bless you brother. You have shared a part of your life that is so intimate that people who do not suffer from bipolar will never understand. I cannot express into words what your videos mean to me and I'm sure a host of others who suffer in silence or from fear of ridicule. You have a special gift for touching people who are afraid to speak up but also describing to people the absolute hell it is to have this disorder. After watching your videos I said to myself my life does have meaning and these cycles are only temporary. God bless you kind sir and thank you for sharing your experiences. Just know that you are not alone in this struggle and I am relieved to know I'm not alone either. Peace brother

[@EddyJames]

Thanks for doing that. You are an inspiration to many. This type of sharing is so helpful and I commend you for being brave enough to let us see what you go through.

[@eclectickreations]

Herman, thank you for showing me what you go through in your rapid cycling, or rather your ultra rapid cycling. I feel for you my friend. I hope this ends for you quickly. Thanks for educating me.

[@lisahind8858]

Thank you Herman for sharing this well done and edited video. It really helps me understand. Take good and gentle care of you Herman.

[@mikesch5465]

You are an incredible soul to face and share your illness in such a public way. Your bravery will help many. I applaud you.

[@adinosaurwithaflamethrower1227]

Thank you for filming this. You have done a great service for public knowledge about this disorder.

[@nightwalk1393]

it's tiring, very very tiring. when I'm having manic episodes, I just wish I could stay depressed all the time because I know in a few hours I'll go back to depression anyways, and the shifts are very exhausting. as I'm typing this I'm very excited, singing and creative, and tonight it'll all change, it's just inevitable. it's always tiring. I'm watching the video and it's just ridiculous, it's exactly the same thing I'm going through, cool.

[@janegiovanna6494]

This is me

[@Silent1Flame]

I don't think I've had mania before. But when my depression went away once, I was so devistated when it came back. I hate just getting a glimpse of what I can't have. I wish my mood would just stabilize, so at least I can know how I'm going to wake up feeling tomorrow.

[@luketrout9877]

There is a strong link between bipolar disorder and great creativity you are special make use of the conditition best you can,hang in there

[@reybeach189]

Night Walk I seriously thought I was just fcked up for being like this and I hate being happy sometimes bcuz ik it never lasts I rlly need a therapist

[@Aero_Dust]

Night Walk I can relate so much too

[@aysegulatavi9107]

You're such a brave man, wishing you a rapid recovery mate 🙏🏻❤🙏🏻

[@bishop1029]

“i will deal with it as i always do”

[@EmpressofChrist]

I really wished pain didn't exist depression sucks bipolar sucks. it gets in the way of everyday life enjoying life. :(

[@anamaria-zo5ym]

Fitness101 #IGotGainz #SQAT you are strong and Beautiful!!!💗

[@yoavzoller2256]

Pain is important, there are people that don't feel pain which means that their hands can burn and they would not notice which is bad

[@Will831100]

If you have kids and deal with mental issues too I really do salute you. I have avoided kids up till now due to the wish not to inflict my problems on them. I don't know how I would cope. My issues make it hard o get myself through a day, never mind kids too, then there is the relationship side. Trying to find someone to put up with your issues too is also not easy.

[@judithlado6004]

anxiety sucks too and other shit

[@Will831100]

It doesn't work like that pal trust me. I have spent 30 years with docs suggesting every other possibility and solution and they don't solve anything. Yes they help to ease the levels to a point but when your body truly decides it's not playing ball it really is beyond your control. I had friends with your outlook and none understood till they went through depression etc themselves. I have a friend now who was like you but currently has depression etc and has panic attacks just making decisions now. It can destroy lives.

[@jigo13]

Simply wow! Really inspiring. Thank you so much for sharing this man! People are with you!

[@janamomcilovic7460]

You are amazing. And a very strong person. Keep fighting. God bless u.

[@alteroccatv]

Legend! Thank you for posting: the mother of my child is bipolar and we need all the help we can get

[@thegreendank1]

I feel for you man. I have a buddy that I'm pretty sure is bipolar and he'll go from locking himself in his house for days to non stop talking and super energetic. Stay strong brother.

[@29aaronjones]

TheGreendank , has your friend ever discussed what that is like and how do they cope? I have a relative who I consider to be undiagnosed bi-polar.

[@spencerallbritton9459]

Wow man, thanks for sharing this and I wish you the best. I struggle with depression and that’s bad enough, I can only imagine what you go through. I can definitely relate to the feeling tired thing and not caring about anything/ not being interested in anything, it sucks. I have never had a lot of energy and it took me until I was older to realize it’s mainly my depression. I hope you can deal with it well and that good things happen to you. Never forget you have a strength to you most others lack.

[@frankwick3989]

Same here. I was drinking and sleeping a lot because I thought that's what was normal. Then I quit drinking and realized I was a funky basket of stuff. A bit of depression maybe but some baggage that can be exhausting. I have listened to Dr Ron Seigel is great for the scientific side of it. kzbin.info/www/bejne/l4HPeJKtaZWkhac

[@pamwasham2152]

Spencer Allbritton Thank you for posting here. I am the same way you are. Not bipolar just terrible depression. No energy as you described. The depression seems to drain all energy if there ever is any to start with. Also I don't want to talk to people when the depression is real strong and isolation is really not good. People are supposed to try and be around people and interact with them. Probably it's true but the guys who write that stuff are usually not suffering from depression. Sometimes I just get so dang tired of this never ending battle. It is better than being bipolar though as I can tell from watching this video. Thanks again for posting. Hang in there and know that I'll remember you. There are lots of us really but we hide.

[@pamwasham2152]

Thank you so much for making this video! That wasn't the easiest thing to do when you were going through this rapid cycling day. It really is a valuable thing to see though and you did such a good job of describing all of the different things you feel as each different part of the process is happening. I know people who suddenly want to clean like crazy all of a sudden and they probably are bipolar and don't know it. I sort of wish I felt like cleaning but I only have the depression so there is no energy for such a thing, smile. I wish that they would create some medication or even another way to treat patients who suffer like this. The meds might help somewhat but they don't do enough. Then there are the side affects. You have great courage and I really admire you for not giving up. Some people do you know. Thanks again for taking the time to record this for us. My hope is that somehow things get easier and you can enjoy life without always having to struggle with this!

[@dustinbaconflipper]

you are an extremely brave individual: good job, and hang in there. You're taking the lemons that life has given you, and you're throwing it back at life. Inspirational

[@philippamediwake1148]

It’s fantastic that you are mastering your illness with great insight. I admire your courage

[@mauroz100]

Thank you for sharing this! Slowly but surely the stigma on mental illness will be lifted.

[@laxman9695]

Thank-you for sharing your story while it happens I am also a bipolar for many years.I usually try to find this kind of videos.By knowing so many people coming forward with bipolar I feel very safe that I am not the only one.And in future I am sure that bipolar will seen as same defects like any other normal defects so nobody have to hide about it.I wish you a happy and healthy life always.Take care friend.

[@stefani076]

Thank you so much for sharing your story, wishing you the best! 💜💚💜💚

[@Alsaddique]

My heart goes out to you & I salute you for hanging on

[@austinpoaurs9871]

Thank you Herman. I just woke up from 5 days of mania. It was like being Rainman, but with roid-rage. Thanks again for making this video.

[@TheRealDEArgentina]

Davids Camera "rainman with roid rage" shit that's hilarious

[@gigglesmansonn]

DE Argentina. 🤣🤣🤣

[@GiantsAmongMen77]

I’m the same way so intense in a positive way then it’s Ike a crash , bam to the opposite side Of the spectrum

[@MrDcrules]

Thank you for your courage and honesty Herman. Hoping you are hanging in there these days.

[@MicahSieben]

I feel you. I'm also BI rapid cycle. I agree with you on alcohol, even with mood stabilizers, the ups and downs during and the following day are more extreme. Because of this, I am not a huge drinker. It helps to have good people in your life, and I hope you do. My wife is wonderful and extremely understanding. Much love and respect for what you deal with on a daily basis. The struggle is not yours alone, and every day we fight together. Every day is another victory and well deserved. Always remember that.

[@10MinutestoRouletteFortune]

i would drink as it played in real well with my mania that I actually loved as most of us do aside from pacing the floor late at night. I stopped drinking and had to force myself into thinking that it will only cause the depression that can be the depths of HELL.

[@OffspringGaming]

he'll yea I'm bipolar rapid cycling. and recovering alcoholic and addict. I had a slip on alcohol recently and it cycled me so hard. And threw me into a psychosis state As well.

[@petethepirate730]

I cant drink at all anymore. I always use to drink with no problem. Now I after about an hour of drinking I get so much anxiety I want to leave the situation and then my night is pure hell.

[@jenniferclose9684]

My mate has bipolar disorder. He has been largely unmedicated for most of his life. During the few times on medication he became suicidal. He has suffered rapid cycling for months in 5-10 min intervals for the 7 years that we have been together and for most of his life prior to meeting me. Four months ago, I started him on vitamins and within 2 weeks, we noticed a difference. Just recently he stopped drinking alcohol. The difference in his moods has been utterly amazing. He still cycles but nothing like it was before. Particularly, the rage is almost gone and the intervals between cycling has increased from minutes to weeks. Im not advocating the use of vitamins over medication just sharing what has been life changing for us. Thank you so much for sharing this video. We need so much more of this! You are not alone. Wishing you the best xx

[@brydiebray5017]

I take a specific vitamin myself!

[@tomorrowisanotherday2853]

Jennifer Close Thank you for your comment; I was wondering, could you share which kind of vitamin is the best to use?

[@lauraaltieri520]

Thank you for sharing your experience and explaining what happens in this kind of situation. Bless you and all the best 🙏🏻

[@themadcap1898]

I just went through this again. I thought that I was losing my mind..

[@origin2405]

I'm going thru it rn I fuckin hope tomorrow is better and not deeper. I'm drug less FUCK

[@UmmZubayr]

I hope you feel ease soon. I hurt for you guys because my husband is bipolar. We have been married for 21 years. It's been rough, but I know I have to be there for him no matter what. Stay strong!

[@aboriani]

I wish I had a wife like you... Keep up the wonderful work you are doing, you are saving a man's life...

[@powerstation0872]

The Madcap Same. Been rapid cycling for like a week and my brain feels legit fucked. I'm manic af right now tho so that's pretty cool. Can't wait to go to bed and wake up depressed as shit!

[@simocreations]

Thanks for uploading this video. its great you can share this with us. I hope it helps many people to understand. I wish you all the best

[@killerMILLER117]

Thank you for taking the time to chronicle your experience so that we could learn from it.

[@delshadxenakis]

Oh wow! I’m proud of you for sharing! I think it’s amazing you understand your different feelings of your bipolar diagnosis. Hang in there and love from San Diego!!

[@blerg]

Thank you for sharing - this allows me to be more understanding in the world.

[@VelcroKittie]

What an absolutely incredible video Herman. As somebody else pointed out, this is the power of social media when used for practical and educational purposes. This is the type of video that should be shown in the classroom so that viewers gain a more in-depth understanding of bi-polar and metal health from somebody who experiences it regularly. I can only imagine what it feels like. You're shown a beautiful beaming light but you know it will inevitably disappear only to reappear again but only after having no choice but to go through utter despair and darkness. I cannot thank you enough for this. I don't suffer from bi-polar but I am very interested in mental health in general and I am very happy that finally we see the first glimpses of the taboo being lifted. It's because of people like you Herman. Thank you

[@sarasotauptoseattle]

1 out of 5 people with Bi Polar 1 commit suicide and it's still not taken seriously (by many people). My heart goes out to you and I think it was a great idea for you to make this video. Even though people will never be able to fully understand us, at least you showed them a glimpse of what it's like. Sending love your way. (**experiencing a Type 1 mixed episode right now**).

[@larchpine9802]

75% of suicides are middle aged men an no one takes that seriously either... or even knows about it.

[@SamirCCat]

Get help. Call a suicide-hotline in your country or simply 911 (or 112 in Europe). They are trained to save lives. When your episode is over you'll be at a much better place, and glad you survived. Take care of yourself.

[@marlynnestruwig8987]

Fred Flintstone god doesn't exist grow the fuck up

[@abc456f]

Fred Flintstone God...hmmm...a god who made us in his image? Hard to believe in god when there is so much suffering in the world. Did this man somehow deserve this illness? Children with cancer? If prayer worked all these people would be healed. If there is a god he's not a very good one.

[@imdeadserious6102]

Fred Flintstone please consider your faith and the possibility of abandoning it. as religion only hinders progress and gaining knowledge in the world. it would be a much better world if religion was abolished by now.

[@Compassionateguidanceprinciple]

Bless you! Thank you for sharing your experience. You are so brave! ❤️

[@carolinemccullough9838]

Exactly- my heart goes out to you brother. Thank you for giving us a life in your day. I don't know how you manage it, but well done - you are a true warrior. May God bless you and keep you safe

[@adrianagibson4850]

You are strong! Thanks for educating me on this topic!

[@anon8577]

I have bad depression, but recently I have been meditating in my own way and this has helped me so much. Breathing exercises are a life saver for me. I keep my self busy, attend the gym everyday and the sense of euphoria after being in the gym is great for my mind. Healthy living is a benefactor as well, keep the engine running smooth.

[@iBaraban]

Anon very wise. A lot of mental disorders connect to bad lifestyle, diet, habits.

[@wanitahynds3972]

Thank you for sharing.... Stay strong and remember you not alone

[@q-p_____W]

You are Very Brave. God bless you

[@italianchair5801]

i completely understand, im bipolar too and it is extremely exauhsting. my work ethic is based completely on what i used to call "random bursts of energy". i realize now that it was hypomania. when i get manic, i get delutional. when i was in 8th grade i thought i was going to be an author and publish a book when by the end of the month. i thought i was an amazing author, but i only ended up making 10 pages of it. when i go back to read it now, i realize that it wasnt nearly as good as i thought it was at the time. at one point, i thought that i was going to create a formula that was going to inovate modern transporation as we know it. i thought that it was my purpose in life and that every body else was just an obsticale to get in my way. i thought that they should be honored to even get to talk to me. that was when i was 15. (that delusion didnt last long though) when most people are depressed they cant stay awake but with me, i cant sleep. lately on average i get about 3-5 hours of sleep (im not depressed right now). today i ditched art class and went behind the staircase because i was depressed, but then after 2 classes i was way too energenic and i was constantly laughing. every little thing was funny. i started laughing when i was doing a group presentation. it wasnt manic laughter, but it was just this constant giggling thing. we had a joke at the end of our presentation and i ended up just sitting on the ground laughing in front of everyone. it was extremely embarassing, but i just kept laughing. i dont know if this happens to you too, but after the rapid cycling is over for me, i get this guilty feeling. when i start getting manic, i am EXTREMELY irritable. throughout the course of one month, i had 6 breakdowns of anger where i would just freak out, and that doesnt usually happen to me. i dont know what was going on that month, i think i might have had a mixed episode. im not completely sure though. im only 16, so i havent learned how to cope with it without medication, and the medication im on makes me feel so boring, tired and dull. this week i skipped taking my meds, so thats probably the reason this happened in school. i hate taking them, but my mom forces me to. being bipolar is just exhausting. thanks for making this video to help people understand what its like.

[@LadyVoldemort]

Italian Chair I understand you very much. I'm 36 and never even realize until these few days that I need help. I always thought that I would be a great woman, successful in every aspects of life...but then I found that I'm actually just this "failure" and all my life I was just delusional. I feel so disappointed with myself, and treated people around me badly. I didn't mean it, I swear. I always want to be the sweetest person everybody loves, but now I'm not. I hurt people that care and people I love the most. And then I feel guilty and want to kill myself. I've been like this since my early 20's when I keep depressed and many times almost commit suicide, and then in a few days I became so energetic and happy again, and everyone seems to be happy around me, I'm so proud being the class clown all the time...until the depression episode comes again. I am so tired and angry and disgusted at myself so much... 😢😭😠 I hope you can find a better help than me. Be strong, you're young. There's still hope for you. Maybe even still for me. Okay I don't really know what I'm ranting right now because I'm shaking and so enthusiastic to write this. I don't have any medication, only some Alprazolam my doctor gave me because of my depression lately (I'm just divorcing my husband who slept with my best childhood girlfriend). But I don't like taking those pills because they make me sleepy and stupid and dull. Thanks for sharing and sorry for writing a book on your comment. LOL.

[@lornatw]

Italian Chair I am so grateful you shared this- wow- I convinced myself I was an author too and wrote loads, but now I get more depressed than anything. I did not know that my intentions to do great things were perhaps dillusions. thank you. x

[@viktorvega7465]

Italian Chair at least your delusion was of being something big, mine ones didn't even make sense lmao. So embarrassed whenever I remember

[@SamirCCat]

Italian Chair You NEED to take your medications, it will worsen your illness in the long run if you don't. Be grateful it was discovered at such an early age, with the right medicine combination you can have a long and rich life! If this medicine gives you side effects (not only that you miss your ups), talk to your doctor about changing it. The important thing is to take SOMETHING, because our brains are sick and need assistance. Just like diabetics. Also, I basically only have mixed episodes, and being EXTREMLY angry and sometimes violent is very common for me. I used to break chairs and throw flower pots (NEVER hurted anyone else, only self destructive). I've been on better meds now and been through lots of therapy to help control impulses, so I'm not violent, just orally attacking anyone in my house. I even hate my cat for a few minutes, which shows how bad it is because I adore him more than life itself.

[@LadyVoldemort]

Double Baggins Whoa, you intrigued me with your comment. What is this delusion? Is it related to Lord of the Rings? I'm curious, Lol. (Mine is related with Harry Potter universe...clearly. 😂)

[@weskal5490]

Thank you Sir for sharing your experiences with this condition. You are a Champion!

[@kaylacarpenter272]

Most people aren't born this way. We have a tendency to ignore the fact that situations in early childhood 100% affect brain chemistry and eventually set up chemical responses in the brain to experience mood disturbance cycles, even in a decent enviroment. Deep deep experiential psychotherapy is the answer, along with diet and exercise and supplementation. I struggle with this and I come from a background on continuous narcissistic abuse, physical and mental.

[@Maryxx95]

LittleFawn Uwoduhi i was sexually abused when I was younger and dealt with neglect from my father. Now I am extremely depressed (6 years) and anxious and very insecure. I also have slight delusions and I constantly dissociate. I definitely agree with what you're saying. I find myself often asking "what's wrong with me?"/why am I like this?how did I turn out this way?" and then I think back to the way I saw the world as a child. It's crazy cause it didn't realize how sad of a child i was until I sat down and thought about it, then thought of the reasons why.

[@azugirl111]

It is a mix of genetic vs environmental factors

[@fallingfeathermoon6440]

LittleFawn Uwoduhi Exactly!!

[@TheNipSnipper]

brave man. thank you so much for sharing your experience! lets show the world mental illness even if we have to shove it in their faces. destroy stigma.

[@morganhughes-blockel7409]

Thank you for posting this. I have a 9 yo son with rapid cycling bipolar. It helps me as his mother to see videos like this. It helps me to see what to look for to help him cope as he cycles. Thank you for sharing. 💖

[@iron60bitch62]

Rapid cycling is the most disruptive to a persons life

[@stevemartinek7719]

I was diagnosed at 18, my first hospitalization. I'm 46 now, it just doesn't get any easier with time. It has a will of it's own.

[@MichelleCWeber]

I will keep you in my prayers. I have two kids with BP. One with a Dx, the other self medicating and no Dx. From a caregiver perspective, this is what I’m seeing.

[@Alaskanman]

I understand, it comes back with a vengeance. Not trying to offend you or presume but have you tried medication?

[@cheyloo]

What insight! Thank you so much for sharing your experience! The sensitivity you talk about when cycling into mania kind of sounds like what I experience when I get a migraine. It amazes me that you have the presence of mind, while you are in the depression, to speak on camera and explain it so well. I have experienced depression several times and it has been so crippling I wouldn't have been able to do what you have done here. You have helped so many people by doing this video. Obviously it's been viewed well over a million times. Again, thank you and please don't give up!

[@Scooterpie-oc5cd]

Holy crap, I have gone through this but did not know that it was anything. I usually go the opposite way, where I start off at the high end and am very super happy and nothing can stop me then I get really super irritable and every little thing sets me off and then finally I am super depressed. I always wondered why I got like that and could never seem to control it.

[@marrop2760]

You probably have HASHIMOTO'S THYROIDITIS.. Hormones are extremely powerful - women experience it differently than men because of our hormones.. hashimoto's is an autoimmune disorder of the thyroid gland.. Michael William - (Medical Medium) says it's caused by the Epstein-Barr Virus which many of us have.. but it is a thyroid disorder.. I was misdiagnosed..

[@denisebailey3956]

Mar Rop I think this is what's going on with me. My doctor for the last 5 years tell me that my levels are fine, but it's on the lower end of normal. Question is how many times did you have to check.. with your doctor before they found out?

[@marrop2760]

The Dr. missed it on my blood test.. I was so mad.. I had gone to see her because of an acid-reflux issue..I was misdiagnosed with cancer around the same time .. I was meditating and when I woke up I heard my Guide say: You Don't Have Cancer - so I went to have my pathology tests re-done at Princess Margaret Hospital and it was a benign nodule - some sort of connective tissue nodule.. I had also had two hand operations (I worked as a Medical Trnscriptionist) for so-called repetitive strain injury which was actually my thyroid going wonky.. also started losing hair on one side of my head - thought it was hot rollers at the time, stopped using them and still would thin on that one side..then I stopped having my period, horrible digestive issues (hence the blood tests above), losing hair, gaining weight, panic attacks, horrible headaches (it was going too slowly at the time).. so I was given thyroid meds - The Internist gave me too high a dose and it was awful.. hyper as heck, diarrhea, nervousness x 1000, hungry all the time, no sleep, body buzzing so badly felt like i could feel the blood coursing through my veins - bad mood - just pay attention to your body.. it doesn't show up a lot of the time - perhaps there's a test for Hashimoto's? not sure.. when too fast it feels like you're a running motor..I have seen Drs. on Dr. Oz saying the way Drs. check thyroid issues today is WRONG.. and they gave out info on what the numbers should be compared to what the Drs. are taught in med school.. so try the best you can to find out as much as you an.. Anthony William - he's a Medical Medium - a Hay House author - wrote three books.. one is on thyroid - he states that Hashimoto's is caused by Epstein-Barr virus (Hashimoto's is an autoimmune disease).. Good Luck.. I remember when I was younger I'd be laughing away in the kitchen with my brother & his friends, joking away being silly and then I'd go into the living-room and bawl my eyes out.. (all the time wondering to myself: what the heck is going on here?)..We are intelligent enough to know ourselves... I'm a dowser.. I can always dowse for you if you have it.. I have the flu right now.. but will take your name down and do it for you..all I can say is: HORMONES ARE POWERFUL AS HECK & AFFECT PEOPLE IN SO MANY WAYS.. NOT FUN AT ALL...TAKE CARE.. I'LL GET BACK TO YOU.. I TOOK YOUR NAME DOWN..

[@kilIstation]

Mar Rop Thats what my mother has, she wasn't diagnosed until she had me, which was in 2004. She was born in 75', so she had to go through a lot without any answers.

[@davescruton2829]

Scooterpie666 lol my nick name in the Corps. was Scooter and I am bipolar II.

[@thedissociatedpress3753]

I know this video is a few years old, but I wanted to thank you so much for posting this. I have type 1 bipolar, rapid-cycling, and when I was first adjusting to meds, I was cycling 15-20 times a day at my worst. Mixed states were very common for me, and the cycling is hell. It's exhausting, but unfortunately (as you well know!), it's impossible to sleep it off when out of nowhere, mania decides to show up again. I first started showing signs as a child but didn't see a psychiatrist until I was 18. For six years, I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder, which makes sense--you don't go to the doctor when you feel good, right? At 24, I finally found a psychiatrist who was willing to do intake over a series of sessions and focused on mood journaling in between appointments as well as my extensive family history of bipolar disorder. I'll be 29 next month and have more or less been in remission for five years, though as you noted, sometimes bipolar likes to pop through the meds. The best way to educate people is to share our stories. Thank you for putting a face to bipolar disorder. This is an amazing illustration of what it's like.

[@Beastgrows]

The Dissociated Press FAKE. GET A JOB.

[@thedissociatedpress3753]

? You're right on the "get a job" front--I'm a broke-broke grad student studying to be a mental health counselor. Perhaps once I finish my indentured servitude--oops, I mean internship.

[@Beastgrows]

The Dissociated Press Allow me to rephrase then: get a PROPER job! Mental health is mostly myth, tell somebody they're crazy and treat them differently as a result and the prophecy becomes self-fulfilled. I've got a degree in Psychology...So what! Wish I'd done something useful like engineering or joined the Fire Brigade. Bloody shrinks!!!

[@Beastgrows]

The Dissociated Press If you visit 3 different shrinks you'll get 3 different diagnoses. People are just different personalities, mental illness is very lucrative for big pharma.

[@emmachennofficial]

The Dissociated Press I totally understand the misdiagnosis. I have MDD & have had it for years. So many people think that my "normal"/"stable" is a form of Mania & they think my lows are cycling. Also with any person mentally ill or not there can be forms of mania, so people confuse (especially) BI Polar 1 with MDD, because they dont get the difference between the two, because they really are so slight. Im glad you were able to get the proper diagnosis so that you can treat yourself more effectively & enjoy life a bit more. For me, I was on anti depressants for a few years, but lately with my coping skills & therapy, I havent really fallen back into my depression so for now I feel pretty normal & ok. All the best! ❤

[@elektrofox2746]

You are doing something very very important filming things like this. This is a great treasure for all of society. Good luck in life, my friend!

[@lamoncheri7358]

Thank you for sharing this. I rapid cycle alot. My depression dominates the cycles. I'm on three mood stabilizers and two antidepressants. The part that i cannot tolerate is the loneliness. I want so bad to marry but my cycles are too much for many people to handle. God bless.

[@AISocialNetworks]

Same here. The loneliness is the worst part. I think I'll start taking my meds before things get worse.

[@judelion8655]

Lamoncheri My Dear I'm the same my dear. The loneliness is the worst part of it. However know that you're not alone in your loneliness! (if that makes sense)

[@jeanninefourtwenty]

I couldn't have said it better myself. I never realized how many other people felt this way. Thank you for sharing.

[@GrinddalCPH]

My wife is bipolar and we have been together for 10years, be honest with a potential partner, let them see all the bad is complemented by soo many good things, that a person who is not bipolar would ever give you. I love my wife more than anything, bless you all.

[@ambercastillo7644]

I have rapid cycle Bipolar Disorder. if you need anything please message me. you're not alone. you cant push someone away who knows what you're going through 💖💖 I can have 8-15 episodes daily without my meds. with my meds... I haven't really been keeping track tbh. but about the alcohol and drugs. he's right. I'm drinking a beer right now though lmfao. You just, you gotta find a way to control it. there will be days where you can't and thats okay. but there are ways to control it. its still taken me a long time to figure out better ways of controlling it. but cleaning, video games, anything to keep your mind busy will help you ride out the cycles (:

[@shastriratimanjari7867]

I cant thank you enough... its starting to make sense and i dont feel alone in this. Thank you.

[@KoldCharpley]

Thank you so much for sharing this. May you have stability.

[@adaptiveagile]

My sympathies. I have the same hyper cycling nightmare. Generally in a depressive state. For me, the agitated mixed states are most confusing.

[@Sharrendan]

Hello, I'm suffering from borderline disorder. this could be me in the video. i feel you, man. Stay strong. there are many of us ♥ Greets from Germany!

[@justanothermusicianofemoti548]

i hope you get better soon, people have no idea of how talented people how suffer on the inside are and how beautiful the things they can create out of their pain are. all good wishes from norway❤️

[@thesaucewhisperer6073]

I hope you find that peace you deserve in life.

[@ibfi546]

When I had my most recent manic episode my hearing was so amplified it was painful it was like I could hear air waves it was crazy

[@brazyrist]

And are you in control when the mind betrays you ? Or you just ride it out?

[@ibfi546]

Bristian Alvarez when I try and control it it’s like a bad trip so I have to ride it out, I have type 1 so if I go manic I end up in hospital really takes a lot of drugs to get back to normal

[@brazyrist]

@@ibfi546 and it just happens right like you dont have a trigger?

[@ibfi546]

Bristian Alvarez when I’m extremely stressed or haven’t slept in days I go manic. First time was cause of antidepressants and didn’t know I had it

[@brazyrist]

@@ibfi546 its cause i have a friend he's super smart computer wise loves games his happy place in a way and tbh we'd be in class and he would just get so mad and throw stuff threaten kids and stuff in that sort and after everyone was asked to leave the classroom we would walk in and boom calm as ever and just playing games happened alot and he would tell me he cant help it something just clicks in an instant he tells me behind close doors he trys hard to control it but he doesnt have a clue on how to even start

[@dvaidr]

Thanks for posting the video. I really do hope that your condition improves. All the very best.

[@ninaa6744]

I have supported people with rapid cycle bipolar but they do not have the capacity to explain how they are feeling. I found it really interesting listening to your different emotions and how you recognise the changes in you. Thank u for sharing. 😀

[@christinapalafox987]

It's so eerie to see this happen to someone else- while I'm thankful that you've shared this, my heart also goes out to you for having to deal with it. I'm also rapid cycling bipolar, though not quite as fast. I get a lot of anger and I actually black out a bit- I also have a left temporal lobe seizure disorder that causes absence seizures, and I think that the mania might trigger those.

[@andrew72587]

Thanks for uploading brotha! Your definitely helping a lot of ppl out here that have problem as well! God bless and please take good care of your self!

[@RudyCaseres]

Thank you for sharing this.

[@ArekkusuMiyazaki]

I’m 86% sure I’m bipolar, I know it’s not okay to make a self-diagnosis but the feeling and the behaviors have been really clear. I’m seeing a doctor on Monday, I’m very scared, I’ve been feeling awful and confused. Thank you for sharing this video.

[@eternal_sinister]

Hi I’m interested in how things were going for you? Did you have your doctors appointment? I’m still in a „diagnostical phase“ it takes a long time to get diagnosed properly and there might be many misdiagnoses meanwhile. Hope your doing well xo

[@Webstertheology]

Update???

[@ruby-qv5bd]

Thank you so much for sharing this with so many. I grew up with a mother that had this and it helps me now to hear you talk about it and how it has had an impact on your day. Much courage on your part and I really thank you so much. Blessings!

[@frankfromupstateny3796]

Has nothing to do with education....beliefs, family, previous experiences....you either have it...or don't. It's tough...really, tough...and it can best be described as "a wave" of change...and one can feel it in one's energy levels.