How Do You Keep Living After The Death Of Two Children?

[@mistyn380]

I just lost my only son at 13yrs old to hospital negligence on 12/08/21, and I don’t know how to live on. This grief and yearning for him every second is unbearable. Once I’m up I’m crying because my heart hurts so much and my soul is crying out to his. I would cry throughout the day until nightfall then I would cry myself to sleep. I have a love and hate relationship with God at the moment- One moment I’m cursing at him for taking him away and where was he when we prayed so hard? The next I’m pleading with him to take me away from this pain and unite me with my son, then I’m asking him to just show me my son is with him safe and happy. Everyday gets harder and darker. Im just existing. Thank you for sharing your story I can’t imagine losing two children. I hope that I’ll reach where you guys are one day.

[@noway2708]

Hey, that sucks. I lost my oldest son Jan/08/2020 and to this day my life consists of horible nightmares, poor hygene, poor eating habits, crying everyday, and I would comit suicide if it wasnt for my youngest son who is diabled and requires me to be here, I am also a single father and have not any freinds and am alone 24/7, my phone does not ring anymore. I wake to screaming depresion every morning. I must trust in the Lord for any comfort he sends via Holy Spirit. Day by day by week by week the days add up and I miss my son so badly

[@mistyn380]

@@noway2708 I’m with you, I find myself starting to drinking more to numb the pain, but it doesn’t. I’m in a dazed I forget how many days I haven’t showered, and honestly I don’t even care. I used to workout and was in great shape, but now I just binge eat because while I’m eating, my mind isn’t so focused so much on his passing. My son had spinal muscular atrophy so he never walked, but one of the smartest and wisest kid anyone can meet. So I understand how much weight you’re carrying. I’m so sorry for your son’s loss, I can tell he was loved tremendously. My email is [e-mail] if you ever want to connect.

[@lucymindu2386]

Same to me, I lost my son six months ago. My world turned totally dark.. I can't think of anything else rather than thinking of him, how to rewind the past.. Now I'm a retired from my job and till now I have nothing on my mind,..

[@mistyn380]

@@lucymindu2386 I’m so sorry to hear that 💔. Was he your only child? It’s been a little over a year for me and it hasn’t gotten any better. Someone described the pain of losing a child as “it’s like going up a steep hill with a bag pack full of rocks. First it’s difficult to impossible to climb the hill but you’ll eventually build muscle, so even though it gets does gets easier, you’ll always carry that pain with you. That pain will never leave. Life is so gray now and so purposeless. Planting and gardening have helped, I do recommend it. Praying for you 🙏. We will see our kids again in our eternal home.

[@lucymindu2386]

@@mistyn380 thank you for your concern. I still have to more children but he's so close to me. He's just came back from home when his boss telephone his father that our son has passed away. As you said, the pain is always there mingle in our heart till we meet again in eternity.. He even told me in my dream that he is not dying but he just got sick and now he's cured and work at a very far place . 😭

[@ErickytheArtist]

Lost one of my twin girl 2 months ago at 22 months old. I miss her so much everyday. I never would've imagined this would be my life. I had so much faith she would live because of how well she was doing every single day. She had heart defects but you would never know by just looking at her cause in the outside she was still as if a child without heart defects. She still had energy, she played hard, she sung, dance an jump all day, she was so smart an advanced so in my mind God is healing her she is thriving everyday until the doctors are even happy with everything. Then one morning she just woke up crying an then seconds later collapsed an my life changed forever. She was the youngest of all the kids an a minute after her twin sister but she acted as if she been here an she was just so goofy and silly and always had me laughing an she boss everyone around in the house. One day I will see her again. I just have to try my best to keep pushing now. God please help all of us. Give us the strength

[@jimfoard5671]

Amen.

[@Mariam-kg7fr]

My heart goes out to this family. I lost my 27 year old son Jacob on 11/20/22 to an overdose. I don't wish this pain on anyone. My faith in God is the only reason I'm still alive.

[@mistyn380]

I’m so sorry for your loss 💔. I lost my son in 2021 and getting to know God and Jesus Christ is also the reason why I’m still alive. Even though, every day is a rough struggle..I’m so tired of our government not giving a hoot about what’s going on with all these drugs flowing in from Mexico and most are laced with fentanyl. This wicked world is only getting worse. Sending prayers your way 🙏❤️. We will see our kids again in our eternal home.

[@Elonmuskateer]

@@mistyn380 my son took his own life last summer, 23 years old! He was taking stuff, coke- god knows what else is in that stuff, our whole family is tormented and devastated. Peace and healing to you …

[@Caroline-qj8os]

I don't understand, God said people who commit suicide are going to hell❗

[@Mariam-kg7fr]

@@Caroline-qj8os God knows people's hearts. Worry about yourself, not strangers on the internet:)

[@Caroline-qj8os]

This is about me too My niece and nephew are gone as well ! Cancel Reply

[@lauracole5272]

I found your story to give me hope for myself. I too have lost two boys, 1st one born Robert was 3 yrs old (6/24/1981) killed in a car wreck I was in. Recently my youngest son Stacey 35 yrs old 7/30/2020 died from a severe asthma attach, was on life support for 9 days. I have one more son that keeps himself distant from me. I feels as though I have lost three sons. I have that unbearable pain in my heart. My baby boy I have wrapped my life around, he has been fighting with asthma all his life. I have been divorce since my two living boys were 5 & 7 yrs old. I still unmarried. Your story has helped me. Not many people have lost two children, and it's a total different thing to deal with. Thank you for sharing your life.

[@christineterpens3136]

So sorry for your losses Your words written show the loving ,caring, mother you were to your son's. Take care.

[@motherofangels1710]

I am sorry for your losses, I agree it is that much harder with multiple losses and then for your surviving child staying distant... heart wrenching. I've tragically lost my 2 youngest children & my oldest child. My surviving son was "parentally kidnapped" by his step dad at age 5, now he is 20 & after years of searching he finally made contact 3 months ago, but after 15 years of being told bad things he isn't interested in seeing my or ready to reunite. That felt like having a sword thrust through my chest all over again. I do not understand why everything has happened but I know God has a reason so my job here is not done yet, I know when this life ends I will be with my beautiful Angels again and sometimes I get to see them in my dreams, and I get other signs. I hope you find the strength to help carry you through until you can see in color again.

[@lauracole5272]

@@christineterpens3136 thank you

[@lauracole5272]

@@motherofangels1710 don't give up. I'm hoping and praying that my only son comes back around again. My boys dad has told my boys all kinds of things to turn my boys against me. My youngest son Stacey told me or would call me telling me what he had said. But he didn't believe him at all and we got closer and closer threw all 35 yrs of h life. So hang in there. Hope for the best and prepare for the worst. Pray for his health and happiness.

[@josephstitt1006]

My four year old son died in a wreck almost three months ago. I survived. I have two others to raise. I just hope I can stand strong abd be there for them. The pain gets deeper everyday

[@yogalivingwithkaren2119]

Thank you, as I try to understand why my 21 year old son Conner Budge died in a tragic car accident while driving back to campus in Malibu CA, this gives me comfort. I am a Christian and my son accepted Jesus when he was very young, but had some questions. I have had some god signs that he is in heaven, and this gives me comfort, but the pain is so hard. So as I heard this story and read the stories below, it does give me comfort, I just want to send love and light to all families... Blessings

[@dorotagajda9889]

I lost my 11 years old doughter by suicide nearly 2 month ago. On the second day after her death I startet slaping my face and screaming I was a bad mother then my husband holded my hands and we started to pray with tears to God for help. After a few minutes I stood up and felt i dont want to be here at home I want to go to my christan church. They all 60 people waited for us. I saw them in tears, huging us with love. We sat together and I felt something like love, peace and light in the same time. Since then I'm my God child, putting all I have to him, praying for peace and help to carry this pain. People are asking am I ok, but I just say God is carrying me, I live in a miracle of his love. My marriage is healing, non of my kids are traumatize: her death was at home in her room. I found God's grace, he embraced me and still leading me.

[@jamiMB]

My 24 year old son died on 8th of May 2020. 26 days ago. I am not sure I will be able to cope with it. Have two more children. I don't have hope and motivation anymore. Just breathe for my remaining children. Bs. As. Argentina

[@juliegraham8133]

Keep putting one foot in front of another. Your children need you.🙂

[@brendadrumm9708]

I lost my beautiful daughter a few yrs ago she was forty two yr half later lost my son of thirty two he gave up he grieved for her I have one remaining son who has head injuries he's in the depths of grieve without them

[@margaretryan8694]

Cope with each day , I lost my son on 16 June 2019 don’t look ahead , some days are ok ❤️I don’t know if you get use to the pain, but the pain does ease❤️keep faith in god❤️and keep close to family❤️

[@collinreesejones5525]

Be strong beautiful friend... 😍😍😍😍

[@rodneywright9156]

I lost my little brother long ago and it still breaks my heart... I'm so sorry for your loss 😢

[@lorenafrigault]

I too have lost two children, one to suicide at 30 and yhe other accidental. I am glad you found something to hang on to.

[@brendadrumm9708]

I too have lost two children one forty two and one thirty two yr half apart the agony is terrible x

[@kmm291]

I lost my daughter my friend at 55 just 6 months ago and my son at 39 back 8 years ago,my friend as well,it is devastating!

[@AwakeningtoGod]

Lorena, we’re so sorry to hear about the passing of your two children. We understand your pain and please know we are praying for you. 🙏🙏 Please consider joining our private FB group for the brokenhearted. www.awakeningtogod.org

[@Sheila612Miller]

So sorry for your loss. I can't imagine.

[@kitty-vj6yv]

How you dealing with this unbearable pain

[@dr.lorismith445]

Four years ago, my dad died. 18 months ago my beloved sister died unexpectedly. 6 months later my mom passed away. A month later, my other sister passed away from cancer. A month later, my brother in law committed suicide. I feel like my heart is Broken beyond repair. Now, I just try to breath without fainting. I’m sorry about the loss of your beloved children. I share my own story to let you know I understand. I’m glad you guys are doing better. I’m not there yet. I’m not sure I ever will be. I just feel left behind...it’s almost the feeling of being abandoned. One day at a time, I guess...again, I’m sorry for your loss.

[@Alexandraalexxaaa]

I m so sorry for this all pain you have.......i send you strentght even i dont know you,🙏🏻

[@dr.lorismith445]

@@Alexandraalexxaaa, thank you...truly. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@sixteen.candles.4644]

I wish i could hug you

[@francine8302]

Keep you eyes on Jesus for He is the only one who understands your pain, and will bring you comfort. No one should have to endure the amount of sorrow and pain you have, but believe me, you will be together again in Glory and there will be no pain, no sorrow. God Bless you and may you find the peace that only God can bring.

[@purpleviolet207]

Sending hugs and prayers.✝️🙏✝️🙏✝️

[@edithugorji6398]

I know that ppain.I buried my 17 years old son 2 days ago after fighting leukemia for almost 1year. It is almost impossibile to move on. Bless you all.

[@Katarina4567]

Oh, Edith, I am so sorry for your loss. I will pray for you. JESUS is there if you turn to HIM. I know .....🍃⚘🍃

[@based_mediumchungus1788]

@@Katarina4567 Jesus gave leukemia to that 17 year old kid. jesus does NOT love all. I hate god.

[@edithugorji6398]

❤

[@gy8275]

I lost my twenty year old son due to a gun shot to the chest while getting robbed three months ago and it has been the darkest time of my life every day that I wake up I relive that night that he passed and cry until I can’t cry anymore I’ve been at his grave almost daily because it’s the only thing that gives me peace and comfort besides my other children I am so sorry for this family and all of you on this comment section my heart is with you all I don’t know if could’ve lived through what some of y’all have been through you all are so strong and courageous God bless you all.

[@corawilliams6670]

I lost both my sons in May and June of 2022. It hurts so bad I don't think I'll ever get over it. To top it off my mother passed in July the same year. I don't put my pain and burdens on others about how I feel. They do not rknow how depressed I am. These last 8 months has been the most terrible of my life. I just pray to God to be with them in my dreams. I know they're in a spiritual world now. It's still so unbearable.

[@thegroomingbabe1325]

I’m going through something very similar I have lost all my family and have no friends. I’m praying for you.

[@stacey5974]

Hugs to you.

[@sari8619]

So sorry for you loss. How are you now? ♥️

[@JCisReal]

I also have lost two of my children, both my sons. Rocky passed at 4yo in 1987, Isaac recently passed at 25 on 12/06/21. Isaac never met his big brother. But now I believe they are glued to the hip in Heaven. I am in deep grief right now. I put my trust in God to get me through it without becoming bitter. He has once already, I know he will again!

[@mistyn380]

So sorry to hear about your sons passing. My 13yr old son passed two days after yours. Hospital protocols killed him. He passed away on 12/08/21, he was our only son. Everyday gets harder and darker. Life isn’t “life” anymore, and I’m not really living, I’m just existing, but in constant pain and grief. People who have had a near death experience said heaven is more real than earth realm, and that earth is just a shadow of heaven. I’m sure your boys are having a great time bonding and going on adventures in heaven! I can’t wait to see my boy.

[@martinday5703]

My 21 yr old daughter Amanda passed away last year and it still kills me inside every day and night. I cry all the time still and every day I go out to the cemetery and sit with her. Now it's been ayr and half and still feel the same way. I'm 57 yr old and I got heat exhaustion and had to go to the hospital last week. I don't wanna greive no more I want my life back but don't know how to. I'm just lost in this life still without Mandy in it.

[@thegroomingbabe1325]

@@martinday5703I’m so sorry for your loss. I hope you feel a little better I’m praying for you

[@lamor8892]

I've lost two children. My son Lucas (32 yrs, 5/22/20) and my son Jacob (20 yrs, 10/16/12). I need to see them both someday when I take my last breath on earth. I need to know that will happen. I have been struggling with faith since the loss of my second, which was my oldest. Both had very kind hearts and were loved by so many. I was assured that they had both spoken about God and prayed days or months before their untimely deaths. That gave me some comfort. They were raised with faith. It hurts as much as the day it happened, but I live by thinking of their strength they showed when they were called. Also by thinking of the loved we have for each other. That never ending, Mother/Son love. I hope that we can all be reunited with our lost children someday.

[@elizabethhilliard836]

They are in heaven and wouldn’t even think about leaving such a beautiful place. The love they are receiving there is not comparable to any they ever experienced here in the world. It is true unconditional love. Let us therefore pick up pieces and move on. Our children are not suffering where they are and we shall meet at resurrection .Meanwhile let’s find happiness. I lost 2 children in 2018 and 2021. It changed who I am. I pray the Lord will continue to heal your heart.💜

[@EllenBowman-jb4cv]

@@elizabethhilliard836

[@cindylight9442]

“The cords of death entangled me, the anguish of the grave came upon me”. I lost my son in a car accident when he was 21, nearly 16 years ago. The morning of his death I happened to read Psalm 116, “precious in the sight of the Lord is the death of his saints”. Later in the day I asked a friend to read the chapter out loud and I said this is where I’m at, the cords of death have entangled me, the anguish of the grave has come upon me. We also had two other family members die around that time, all within 8 months. It took about 5 years to get past the shocking, all encompassing grief. Of course we were better and better each day but it takes a long time for“my child died” to not be your first thought.

[@BrendaNeedle]

I lost 3 children. Young adults, just starting to live life as adults. Tragically and suddenly my 3 children gone.

[@ianeland2323]

I saw this and wondered how other people coped with the same grief my wife and I have endured. Our only daughter on her 24th birthday in 2011 was involved in head-on collision. she was on life support for 3 days, but brain dead. They only kept her alive really to harvest her organs, which I can understand, but those few days were horrible, then saying good-bye. Only a few years later in 2016, our younger son (of 2) was diagnosed with a grade 3/4 brain tumor. he passed away only 2 years just after his 28th birthday. My wife and have managed to press on, but feel for our remaining son. His best friend recently committed suicide, so now our small family have to stay strong for each other.

[@Kristen-ek9rz]

I am so, so sorry for your suffering. I have experienced some tragedies over the years. I have to believe that God is using our pain for something positive that we're not quite sure of...you sound like a loving, faithful family.

[@carrievessels]

I just lost my daughter 18 in a car accident. I hope I can get to this place you all are at.

[@sylviacarlson3561]

Oh! Carrie, I'm so very sorry for the loss of your beautiful daughter. How painful that must be. I hope you are seeing someone who can can get you past this pain. Do you belong to a church?

[@mgal6234]

Praying for you, Carrie.

[@neraninthara9284]

Thank you for this. I lost 2 brothers and am alone now with my parents life changed completely but God is good and faithful

[@pamwehking2457]

My son committed suicide 4/26/2019… I will never be okay…I never lost my faith but I couldn’t hear or feel God… I appreciate you sharing your faith … I want Ryan’s life -and death- to count for something… all my broken places long for Jesus….

[@Karen-xx1cz]

Pam, I am a mother of two who lost her 2 youngest sons at 39. I want to know how you're doing now a year later from this posting. Karen H from Sarasota fl

[@molossergirl2]

Such a loss that I can identify with. Lost my 18 year old son, 26 years ago to cancer, lost my husband's newphew 12 years ago in a road accident, and three days ago my younger brother hung himself. The sorrow is embedded in my heart, but God.

[@ec2032]

How are you doing ?

[@grammaroffherrockerreacts1122]

I lost 2 children and my mother in 2021. Son in March, daughter in July and Mother in August of 2021. 🙏🙏🙏😢😢😢💔💔💔

[@thegroomingbabe1325]

I’m so sorry for your loss . I’m praying for you .. I’ve lost e everyone in my family almost 3 yrs ago in a accident . The only person that helped me was the only person left which was my mother. A few months ago she was diagnosed with terminal cancer and I’m taking care of her at home in hospice care. The only person I have left in the world I must watch suffer and it kills me inside. I’d rather have my insides ripped out then do this. I wish u could trade places with her. I cry several times a day because it hurts so bad seeing her like this. I don’t know how to go on

[@elizabethseemamanuel9932]

​@@thegroomingbabe1325only when we experience this loss in our own life we will feel for others and look for others...i lost my two year old son last month. I dont know how to live anymore...when i read about you..i understand my pain is nothing..i hope you are doing well. God bless you

[@peggyhelton1499]

My precious mama buried 8 children before she passed in 2015. She gave birth to 13 children all of us at home no meds at all 8 boys and 5 girls. 3 were stillborn. She raised 10. 6 boys and 4 girls. She buried 4 grown sons and i grown daughter before she passed at 87. She was the strongest woman ive ever known . And in 2023 i lost another brother that got killed at work had only 10 months to go to Retire. Life is so unfair and Hard prayers for all of these families ❤

[@davidokin124]

I lost my twin toddler sons. They were my first and only children. I was blessed with a daughter five years later. One child can’t replace another. I also disagree with expecting children to solve adult problems. My daughter gave me back my identity. I wanted to be a mother my whole life. She is sixteen now and she’s everything to me. I could not stand it if I lost her. I wish I could have had more children, but I would never complain. My daughter is a miracle.

[@thegriefmentorforchildloss]

Our son died tragically, leaving behind 2 small children and a 28 year old wife. His name is Andrew, I miss him so much it hurts to breathe some days. In the darkness I wrestled with God. I was angry and bitter, though I was a person of faith, I didn't know a God who would let my son die. It's been a journey I could have never predicted. My purpose on this broken earth is helping others see Jesus in the darkest time of their life. But God...

[@brandyb5799]

My son died tragically a week ago. I am beyond broken. He was 24yrs old. How will I go on?

[@thegriefmentorforchildloss]

@@brandyb5799 you go on by taking one breath at a time💔

[@brandyb5799]

@@thegriefmentorforchildloss Thank You!

[@thegriefmentorforchildloss]

@@brandyb5799 Your gonna make it but it’s not easy. Im here to support you any way I can. I have a podcast and some free resources on my website. Time is not your friend right now because every minute that passes is a minute you will never get back. It feels like your moving farther and farther away from the life you had. Surround yourself with save people and literally don’t think about tomorrow. Grab on to something you know is true and hang on. There will be waves and sometimes Tsunamis of grief. You need an anchor to hold you steady. Here’s a good one. Psalms 139:16. All the days of your sons life was ordained and written before one of them came to be. God is for you even though you may hate him right now. His death was no surprise to God. He was ready and waiting to take him home. We have the hard part. Learning to live without them. May you know you are not alone. For we need each other to help us see a way forward.

[@bethanymiller1629]

Thank you for making this video. I too lost my 25 year old son on 11/8/2016. I struggle everyday but the holidays are somehow harder. I haven’t lost my faith in God, I understand that he took my son to end his pain,it just happens that in order to do that he had to break my heart. I pray for the strength to go on frequently, today I did & somehow I felt drawn to my iPad and KZbin, I’ve never seen any of your videos but somehow this video popped up as a suggestion! I feel I was guided to it & it was just the message I needed today,Thank You & God Bless you!

[@AwakeningtoGod]

Bethany, we’re so sorry to hear about the passing of your precious son. We understand your pain and please know we are praying for you. 🙏🙏 May you continue to hold on to your faith and please consider joining our private FB group for the brokenhearted. www.awakeningtogod.org

[@angellakirabo5275]

Actually

[@2anthro]

My 47-year old son passed 26 Oct 2022. He suffered an unrecoverable heart attack, passed without a sound, without struggle. That sudden death heart issue that is in my family that cannot be tested for and one doesn't get up from. He did not smoke, did not use alcohol/drugs, worked for himself was in prime shape was soon to be married to a women he and our family adored. I believe that was his destiny, that each person has an allotted time. I never thought that before but I am giving that deep consideration. Don't know if that is Biblical just mulling that around.

[@Slidehhy]

Rip

[@angellakirabo5275]

So sorry for your loss and thanks, my heart is so broken for having lost my two boys, am so cold inside, in 2014, I lost my first son and now in February 2022, I have lost my second son aged 3 years nearing to his birthday, it is a torture that I didn't burry him, life is so hard

[@ec2032]

I’m so sorry for your loss I’m sure your boys are by your side waiting for you may you be on your path to healing ❤️

[@angellakirabo5275]

@@ec2032Amen . Thanks dia

[@kathyneathery4166]

I just buried 2 daughters in 4 years and my mom....it's so relentless the pain, grateful for my husband....

[@candyanthony1483]

I lost my baby girl to lukemia and IAM in a dark hole myself trying to get out.

[@lauralaura2293]

Hold on here...step by step... little by little

[@juliettatorres821]

I'm so sorry for your loss ❤ she's in heaven watching over you

[@sylviacarlson3561]

Oh! love, please get some help! Don't do this alone!

[@aristideshernandez8817]

Please Stay strong in The name of our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ of Nazareth.

[@sixteen.candles.4644]

I think my son may be diagnosed with Leukemia. Ill see tommorow.

[@timefliesandaeroplanescras816]

Thankyou for sharing!! I lost my partner 10 years ago today and next month 2nd August it will be 6 years since my son took his own life. Time seems to behave differently since my son died, in fact the last 10 years have felt like 20. I just want my old life back, when I was actually useful and I had a purpose.

[@AwakeningtoGod]

Hannah, we’re so sorry to hear about the passing of your partner and your son’s suicide! We know and understand your pain and suffering and please know that you are in our hearts and prayers. Please check www.awakeningtogod.org for other videos and resources that we hope will comfort you and give you hope. 🙏🙏

[@juliettatorres821]

I'm so sorry for your loss❤ they're in heaven watching over you ❤

[@margaretryan8694]

Before my son passed , I had a dream about god with his arms out saying have faith, ❤️

[@amyshaw444]

Theses comments are heartbreaking. So many people have lost a child. I can't imagine trying to go on. Praying for all in those shoes right now 🙏♥️

[@dondressel4802]

To lose one child is bad enough but to lose two is unbearable My old friends son was murdered and other old friends of mine lost their nineteen year old son to suicide I myself lost my wife thirty years ago to cancer at the age of thirty one Life can be so hard sometimes May these people find peace

[@lauracole5272]

Yes, loosing two boys is totally devistating.

[@juliegraham8133]

My heart breaks for you. I lost my father to suicide when I was 18 and my father was 46. Nothing dulls the pain.😥

[@lauracole5272]

@@juliegraham8133 thank you for your kind words. My parents have been gone long time. Death is so hard.

[@sab508]

What a beautiful love story. The love of parents for their children and the unimaginable love of the only True and Living God in times like these. He is Love and The Comforter💙🙏🏽🙌🏽🔥

[@animesubya]

Grief is extremely hard to deal with. At the beginning, you feel absolutely lost and broken. You will then think about how you could have changed the past. Finally you will start to accept the fact you did everything you could. You start to slowly get back into life without them. Nothing in the world will be the same without them. But you'll see life in a new light and you'll do things that would have made them proud. You now know they are watching over you. No matter who you believe in, you will see them again. When you do, you will never again have to go through the pain of losing them. Forever they will stay with you. Even now, while you are here and they are gone. They are here. Loving you, being proud of you, protecting you. Edit: Coming back to this now hits so different. On May 19 I unfortunately lost my grandpa. He was in my life since day one and now, life is just so different without him. I still have that small hope that he will come back home. But I know it's not going to happen. I miss you so much papa

[@lauracole5272]

That is exactly, and very well said. My first son was killed, nothing I could do. Now my baby son 35 yrs old passed from severe asthma attach, was on life support for 9 days. That was so hard. Almost two months gone still in shock over it all happening. I don't feel like he is gone at all, I feel his presents all day everyday. Just knowing he will not be calling me or walking in my door.

[@angellakirabo5275]

Thanks for the sweet words dear, hope my two sons watch over me

[@Inspiration555]

I had just celebrated beating 2nd stage breast cancer, then exactly 4 years after my son committed suicide, my sister died unexpectedly

[@iriafriconnet4763]

Lost my son 32 2 months ago still so sad

[@LeanneB-v2l]

I lost my son suddenly on the 12th Nov 2024. Only just turned 29. Callum was such a light in my life. I'd never known a person could cry this much. I miss him. He's gone and I can't fix this. So many emotions. I wish you and every here all the healing and hope that we can remember our adult children and honour them without all this pain x

[@shapaller8756]

I lost my one and only child due to sepsis and the pain will be forever with me grief probably is my constant companion💔 the hole my baby left in my heart no one can fill...I always ask God to give me strength to carry on and survive everyday of my life...

[@saragordoa108]

sha paller I lost my precious 3 year old son due to sepsis and him having leukemia last month. It’s an unimaginable pain and I’m so so sorry. I am praying to be able to go on every day too.

[@shapaller8756]

@@saragordoa108 I feel u..my heart is breaking with you💔

[@ebonyburnette4211]

I suffer with you as I lost my daughter to the same thing 9 months ago. She was my only child as well and the pain is so unbearable. I keep trying to seek God and gain understanding but it is so hard. 😭

[@shapaller8756]

@@ebonyburnette4211 hugs sis💙💔 it so hard really I can't even describe the pain...

[@kmm291]

My daughter died from sepsis too 6 months ago. Horrible

[@kmm291]

I totally understand. I lost my oldest son and my oldest daughter 8 years apart. Devastating! My son was 39 and daughter 55. I had 3 daughters and then 2sons. 💔💔

[@nufailanoon]

I'm so sorry 😢

[@iveykennedyyy5250]

I've lost 2 of my own children myself my oldest was born 4 months early her lungs were not fully developed and she lived and died in my left arm looking at me eye to eye contact and she passed away with a smile on her face it still hurts 22 years later 😪😪😪😭😭😭😭

[@drlest717]

Sending love and light to you dear soul

[@guymartinez-nv2tp]

6/17/2023 I lost my beautiful daughter in a motorcycle accident she was my light the glue that kept things in prospective she left behind my 3 beautiful grandchildren. on February 16 2023 of this year my beautiful son was taken from me also in a motorcycle accident dealing with these losses are so over whelming 😢😢

[@thegroomingbabe1325]

I’m so sorry for your loss. I’m praying for you 💜I’ve lost most of my family and my mother is terminally I’ll. I cry continuously and don’t have any friends or a support system. It is agony. I’m praying for you

[@MissingSean]

​@thegroomingbabe1325 you are loved ❤

[@kluvcards]

Thank you for sharing your story and sharing your faith. I lost my 17 year old son to suicide and your story has encouraged me to never give up my pursuit of God, even though it’s been a very difficult road. May God bless you all.

[@imrhodesian]

Losing 2 siblings must be so hard for their son. So many remaining siblings feel guilt. My heart goes out to their son grieving but also watching his parents grieve

[@kimmariemarrero9727]

My freind was murdered when age 15 the night before he was going home to his mum .he was stabbed in the heart .years passed his brother hung himself the day the murderer got out of prision

[@sylviacarlson3561]

You two are such an amazing couple. Going through everything you have gone through and you come out knowing Jesus loves you is just amazing. God Bless you!!

[@nickywilks7928]

I just admire your strength so much. What your family have been through is actually way beyond tragic....

[@flocali3270]

THANK YOU SO VERY MUCH FOR SHARING!!!!!! IT WILL GIVE MANY THE HOPE THEY NEED!!

[@jodikeehn4581]

I cant breathe...so sorry for your loss...

[@BeeApple-sr3db]

I'm sorry for you losses. My daughter passed away at 33 years old. She would be 37 years old in 2023. ❤❤❤❤

[@chinialva5883]

So beautiful ! Hard to watch but gives me comfort for those loves one who have gone to a better place where we will all meet one day , thank you for strength, for your courage, your words, your faith and giving us hope that everything will be fine. God bless you both

[@pamterlizzi2636]

Thank you for this video of God's beautiful , comforting and endless love,l am grateful that l came upon your video

[@Inspiration555]

I believe they are always with me and have just returned to spirit, they give me signs all the time and that has helped me to keep going

[@viewer50]

This is so hard to watch--yet beautiful in the hope it speaks of...THANKS Gerard and Jeannie for sharing...

[@HorizonMediaStudios]

+Bruce Farley Thanks Bruce, we so appreciate your love, support and prayers!

[@rd6006]

GOD BLESS THIS FAMILY! SURELY GOD REMEMBERS! YOU'RE IN MY PRAYERS!! 😘🙏🏻❤️🙋‍♂️🕊

[@ginaverdi6101]

I couldn't fathom what your going through! I can only say my heart breaks for you!😢The love and protection you feel for your children!May you find peace in your soul🙏🙏

[@mov1ngforward]

It's a long journey back from loss, I realized it was about what remains and I was able to move forward as that is where we will be joined again by those who have gone. ❤🙏

[@Redpumpkin8888]

I lost my son 2/25/24 to suicide 😢he was 24 I am devastated I do not blame God my heart is so broken 😞 it’s not supposed to be this way 💔❤️‍🩹I’m soooo lost without my love my first born son God brought u home michael john 😢i miss you i love you ❤️‍🩹😪

[@motherofangels1710]

10/2003 I lost my dad to SUDEP (44yrs), 2/2004 I lost my daughter to SIDS (4mo.), 9/2004 I lost my youngest son to drowning (2 1/2yrs), 2006 my 5 year old son was "parentally" kidnapped by step-"father", 12/2013 I lost my oldest son to suicide (18yrs). The intensity and depth of heartache and feeling/being completely alone is unbearable. I have managed to occasionally find a little detour from complete despair by caring for my dogs & helping families in need when I am physically capable, and in writing poetry. For the most part those little things are much like putting a bandaid on a severed limb. My health is failing rapidly, which I fluctuate on caring, on one hand I fear dying so young and missing out on living, however argue with that thought constantly since continuing to age merely existing and going about existing like this for a length of time as to even reach age 50 (I'm currently 40) seems impossibly dreadful as well as emotionally, financially impossible. I was raised by my father that had a strong belief in Jesus however he was consumed by alcohol to deal with his own hurt & had walked away from any organized religion by the time I was 5 yrs old. It wasn't until these last couple of years that I learned how close to God my dad once was. A childhood friend of my father contacted me after learning he had passed. This friend had set out to find my dad, to thank him for introducing Jesus into his life when he was lost & hurt as a child. The scripture my dad read & recited to him as well as the unconditional friendship led him to live a life devoted to teaching others about Gods love. He was very saddened he never got to tell my dad how gratefull he was to have had my dad as a friend and thank my dad for showing him the path to Jesus. When he contacted me we talked on the phone for almost an hour, he gave me a wonderful gift by sharing stories of my dad & grandad and spoke of them both in such high regard, it was like they were all there with me again and was the first time in years I felt any hint of happiness or peace. He said a beautiful prayer which I of course bawled through before we hung up the phone... I am & will forever be thankful for dads friend contacting me & giving me that (however short) moment of peace and lifting of a grieving fog I've been lost in for a very long long time. I have called out to Jesus for help, I have pleaded with him to walk with me and help guide me in some direction that'll give my life worth, to take away the intense fear I struggle with, to give me strength, courage, purpose a reason to keep living, and erase doubt, anger, confusion from my mind & soul. I do not think he hears my cries and as each day comes & goes, I feel weaker, more exhausted and further away from ever actually living life again or seeing those whom I loved more than anything or anybody ever again. I'm so tired of death, hurting, loneliness...

[@hendersonlovesmath6826]

God is always listening and loving you. Hang in there.

[@kathyerb3134]

Try reading your bible, going to a church, bible study. You will find many helpful, listening ears. New friends. Learn to love yourself and God.

[@jindgi01minute-janamsesams96]

Mam u need Iscun for spiritual it can hèal your pain

[@jacquelinestewart3820]

Wow that’s a lot of pain to be going through, I wish I could take it away you are amazing all you’ve been through and your still here, why is life so unfair, god bless you and keep you safe 🙏🙏🙏❤️❤️❤️🌈💔

[@sallygard63]

Oh my goodness you’ve been through so much heartache that it just seems unbelievable …. I just don’t have any words other than I’m so terribly sorry for your heartbreaking loss and I pray that God can find you and comfort you 🙏💖

[@amylouinteriors]

I’m so sorry for your losses! I’m grateful that you’ve put The Father above your grief to help heal others! May your marriage and life be blessed!

[@carolinelazarus1437]

I loss my beautiful niece , Nicole to an overdose. She wasn't my daughter..i love her so much. Nicole ,die July 12 2 day s before her 27 th birthday. My heart goes out to everyone , who lose there children , niece , nephew or any one .

[@shiningstar5919]

Your love is so divinely beautiful. God bless you all. ❤❤❤❤❤❤

[@audreypistor4610]

What a wonderful trusting faith you three have. Thank you it helped me.

[@denkent3633]

Amazing story of broken hearts and Gods grace, it has a small part of similarity of the Gary Christian story whos beautiful 21 year old daughter was carjacked, raped, abused, tortured, and killed. after 11 years his faith in Jesus was restored and his testimony is told all over Tennessee in various churches, unless someone has gone through exactly the same thing as your family has no one could ever understand exactly how you feel, my transformation of faith come from years of personal anguish, a violent upbringing, an unwanted child a move to addiction of chemicals and alcohol. an acting out of narcissistic personality, before I was finally moved back into the arms of Jesus, just to wake up today and feel happy and nurture my friendship with Jesus, has restored my smashed broken heart with fulfillment, and the Lords love, I really wanted to reach out to you to say how truly sorry I am and how special and beautiful you are, may you all go from strength to strength. xxx

[@marcicleideferreira4224]

Our lovely God gives us comfort that is beyond human understanding! You two are such an amazing couple!!! Thank you for sharing your story and sharing your faith.

[@margaretgalvin4667]

My oldest brother died at age 13. I was 9. The next oldest brother died at age 19, I was 17. My mom died aged 57, next My youngest brother, died by suicide, leaving 3 young children after him, 3 years later My dad died.... last year, my uncle died & also my aunt...the last of my mom & dad's families....I turned to these 2 people for support, which they gave a lot of....& lately, a very good friend of our family died. I still cannot believe all these family have died...I have a great Catholic faith, so please God we will all meet again some day....🙏 I thank God for my friends....

[@thegroomingbabe1325]

I’m glad you have such good friends. Most of My family has passed and my mother is terminally I’ll and I have no friends. It is very hard and lonely. I cry all the time

[@littleeagle1923]

I lost my 8 months old daughter in 2016. I don't know if i will ever forgive myself. But i won't stop believing in God, and I hope Jesus will remember me in His Kingdom...

[@standingfortruth4043]

You have to forgive yourself, if God can forgive you that you are not higher than Him in that.. pray to Him to help you with forgiveness

[@barrym.8837]

Dad at an early age, sister a few years later. Then a older brother, an aunt, a childhood friend and my mother. Job, and maybe the Kennedy family can relate. I am depressed continually, day after day. Why so many? And in such a time that you are afraid to think what's next? I want answers! My pain runs extremely deep !!! Not suicidal, but what the heck?!?

[@thegroomingbabe1325]

I’m so sorry for your loss I’ve lost e everyone in my family almost 3 yrs ago in a accident . The only person that helped me was the only person left which was my mother. A few months ago she was diagnosed with terminal cancer and I’m taking care of her at home in hospice care. The only person I have left in the world I must watch suffer and it kills me inside. I’d rather have my insides ripped out then do this. I wish u could trade places with her. I cry several times a day because it hurts so bad seeing her like this. I don’t know how you live with the pain because I’m having a hard time living with it

[@HeatherDMorris]

This is beautiful. I can see the love between these people holding each each other together. Praise God

[@francine8302]

This was a lovely video. May you hearts continue to heal day by day. God knows your pain, but His promise of eternity with your loved ones is real. God Bless you.

[@tylerhynes0]

I just lost my dad at the age of 61 from a sudden massive heart attack on March 12th this year i cry for my dad everyday since he died

[@AribunMiah]

My sincere respect for you both, I pray God keeps you together forever. Your goal is the hereafter and your union with your children,

[@itaintalwayzgudindahoodtv6821]

RIP DEAR SOULS...What a Beautiful Godly couple, Such eloquence and magnificent people.

[@AllisonQ582]

Such a sad, tragic, beautiful love story.

[@petermartis1371]

Amazing and incredible Testimony Gerard and Jeannie long and fly... May the Lord continue to use you mightily for His Glory.. I am truly edified and strenghthened by your life in Christ

[@todaywewin01]

Beautiful love story so sorry for your loss So happy mom is feeling better

[@seshukumar9002]

Everything so good, suddenly turns so bad. The world is full of insensitive people who wont understand how deep the pain is, most have not experienced, most have experience and yet insensitive.

[@nancycurtis488]

I am not sure how you survive the deaths of two children. I have three friends who have lost 2 children each. One friend…that was all she had…two daughters. I lost my oldest son 4 years ago. It is horrible and I miss him so much. I am so sorry for any parent’s loss…so sorry.

[@rachelpaz6605]

My son passed away on 6/25/24 it’s been so hard and I’m clinging to my HEAVENLY FATHER I fall apart several times a day but JESUS puts me back together every time 🙏

[@loydsithole3346]

This is so so sad may you continue to find comfort in the hands of our creater I've just lost my boy 23/03/2021 he was 4 Yeats 4 months and I feel like I'm in a long bad dream..... Acceptance and Denial Still a huge challenge but I know my faithful Father Jehova will guide us...... All I do is following these stories on internet hoping to get answers and hope..... I only wish for Jesus to just come which sounds rather selfish..... But in all I know like David said I will go to him and he will not come back to me.

[@AngieRae76]

The possibility of ever having to grieve the loss of one of my kids has ALWAYS been my BIGGEST FEAR. Up until February, 2021.....the closest family members I had lost in death were both of my grandmother's....one in 2005 and the other in 2009. But I knew that most likely wasn't going to last forever. Either "I" would go first or another one of my dear loved ones would end up going before me. It was the evening of February 3rd, 2021 when I received a Facebook Messenger notification from my dad's first cousin that lived down in Florida, but had been keeping in contact with my dad almost daily since he'd retired and lived alone with only his 4 Cocker Spaniel pups to help keep him company to some degree. When I saw that it was my dad's cousin, I instantly felt as though a bowling ball had just landed in the pit of my stomach, as I just had a feeling it wasn't going to be good news....as he wasn't a close family member (NOT TO ME anyway)... So I just KNEW that the only reason he'd be trying to reach me was if something happened to my dad.

[@janemccoy4757]

Beautiful words of gratitude and praise to God for His great love in revealing Himself to you!

[@alyssaadkins2902]

I watch these types of videos to understand how to live with out the ones I held so close to my heart and still can’t seem to understand how to live with out them I lost my 2 year old and boyfriend that I was with for 4 years due to a car crash homicide and left here with my now 1 year old and it’s really hard only being 19 and your world being flipped upside down I admire yall two and I’m sorry for y’all’s lost.

[@yourhighness4746]

Pain make you close your mind, spirit and heart, but focus yourself in the love you feel to God, to your kids, or to husband or wife and proclame that for that love, you would conquer your pain, your grief, specially PLEASE, DON'T STOP LOVING YOURSELF. God will help you.

[@peeprach]

I found this while searching how to cope with death of 2 children, 2 of my children have died and I'm really struggling I'm not sure I want to be here anymore

[@albaft907]

Sending you a big big hug!

[@nufailanoon]

Do you feel that sometimes or always?

[@peeprach]

A lot of the time,

[@nufailanoon]

@@peeprach I'm sorry for you. What helps you forget these thoughts? When I had depression (but not cuz of a loss), I only thought my life was not worth living when I am bored or fight with someone. But when I'm busy with work or reading or watching things I like, the thoughts are silenced. I have learnt to accept that feelings come and go. There will be sadness at some time and there will be happiness. To be healthy and okay, you should accept all of these emotions Work. Start doing good things in honor of your children. Start helping people regularly maybe if you like teaching become a tutor or babysit kids or anything of that sort. You know that lots of people in my culture say "may God take my life before my parents" even though loss of a child is harder than loss of a parent? Cuz they know there is a life worth living even after these traumatic incidents. They know that there will come a time in which their parents feel better and continue living their life while having some moments of sadness (which is normal). Just know that your kids were probably those kinds of people that would want you to outlive them. They wouldn't want you to live in sadness all your life cuz of them. Honor them and accept that happiness and sadness can co-exist

[@iriafriconnet4763]

I Just cried and cried for your family.Ive lost my son he was 32

[@aquaman199]

Such a very nice story,thank you

[@stephenfermoyle1498]

PRAYERS TO YOU BOTH

[@saraf9081]

So sorry for your loss. My sister lost 2 children. I can only imagine your pain.

[@nickywilks7928]

I hope your remaining son is well.

[@joannprince5480]

Hello to all ot you who lost your children or a close loved one my heart grieves for you I lost my oldest son in 2006 suddenly, it hurt me to the core of my soul but with time god had to come help me and he did he talked to me i really heard him, he will come help you heal to yes there is a god hes real , i read the book of job in the bible i started getting stronger everyday, psalms 91 will help you, please people dont give up you will get better i did go to god with your whole heart, i love you all prayers going up for you all,

[@sarah123neitham5]

Set your eyes on the things above and not on the earthly things. How beautiful it is to have a living God who gives us hope! Yes we all are going to reunite with our loved ones for eternity. Our grief n pain will never end unless we look at Jesus who has gone through it all.

[@elizabethnewton9034]

I have left the earth But I am still about, I kiss your cheek at night, When your light is out. I am the wind, That blows in your hair, I am spirit now, I am near. I sit on your shoulder, I see all that you do, My body is gone, Still my love is with you. When times are tough, I hold your hand, You are never alone, Together we stand. If you are in trouble, I shall help you out, I am your instinct When you doubt. I am the angel Assigned to you, You will never be alone, For I am next to you.

[@jacquelinestewart3820]

Love 💖❤️❤️❤️🌈🌈

[@iveykennedyyy5250]

My middle daughter was a unexpected misscarrige they both hurt so much

[@Jaglilpill75]

This breaks my heart 💔 im so sorry

[@Inspiration555]

I also Lost two sons one to suicide he was 26, 2006, and one to an accidental overdose, he was 18, 2007

[@vivianabro8272]

So sorry for your loss. Praying for you now.

[@corylemons7242]

Ur youngest is the same age as me. I’m sorry for your loss

[@Katarina4567]

So sorry.😢😪😥😭 Please hold on to your faith. I know deep sorrow but GOD is always there. He helps us to carry on..⚘ GOD BLESS You both.

[@nizzz7117]

He gives us comfort that is beyond human understanding. This is an example of that comfort. God bless your family. Thank you Lord for your love!

[@JeannineLi-ueva-xv8wv]

I do enderstand your sorrow m myself 2018 he was 39. 2019 he was 43. I was in such of pain one morning I wake up and I talk to God what I have done to you and what they done to you to this pain give an answer. From the I said those thinks my grieving has change from pain to happiness grieving. Knowing he will give me back to me. Give all to him. We are been choses for a raison.