How I Gained 60 Pounds in One Year

[@alihaskell6921]

we love the jessie paege fandom

[@nikaroo74]

Yup

[@megangallegos2144]

Ikr

[@KANGAXRUU]

yes we do:)

[@felixmendoza7354]

We do love her! She is our queen👑💗💜💙🏳️‍🌈

[@reese5437]

And Shrek

[@---ne9xp]

What my psychiatrist says is “you wouldn’t one day wake up and decide to starve your cat because you think it’s overweight so why starve yourself” and idk why but that kinda helped me. It’s silly lol.

[@chloenorth6642]

WhereIsMyDopamine yeah I usually try to look at a pic of me as a little kid and think would I starve that little girl if I thought she was fat and that for some reason helps me:)

[@justyourlocalrat_]

Chloe North i just watched one of hazel hayes’ VEDISIs and it was all abt self care and she mentioned the exact same concept. it wasnt specifically abt avoiding purposefully starving, it was abt self care in general, but i thought of it as a great way to make sure i don’t relapse ever again. she said she keeps a pic of her as a child and every time she feels she’s not taking care of herself (like, staying in bed all day and forgetting to eat) she looks at that pic of her young self and she asks herself would u really do this to a child. she said child her always lives in her in some way so she needs to treat her well

[@justyourlocalrat_]

WhereIsMyDopamine it’s not silly at all and that’s a very common psychological (?) concept. i think hazel said she got that concept (with a child, not a cat, but both concepts serve the same purpose psychologically) from her therapist so i’m guessing this is a common thing in psychiatry & psychology

[@chloenorth6642]

RedheadRoni wow I didn’t know that! Thanks and I hope you’re doing well!

[@MegaPearlywhites]

Chloe North precious :’)

[@Biancalovestosew98]

This is how many people think Jessie looks AMAZING! 👇🏻

[@parkbench1342]

121 likes we need MORE!!! Edit: I see that has changed

[@xcchrisss]

Hi Bianca I love your videos!

[@Moon-mo9nq]

Ya she looks amazing

[@Imboredandgay.]

YALL I WAS THE 2,000 LIKE ON THIS COMMENT IT CHANGED (idk I have waited for that to happen for a while)

[@yaretziadame4814]

People are really out here talking about how her hair bothers them. She’s literally talking about a sensitive talking and y’all are really complaining about her hair..

[@mirk3872]

+ it's look pretty cute and maybe the hair on eye helps her to talk about this topic

[@spinnyfroggichair6911]

I've gained 11 lbs so far in my recovery (about 5 months). I know its not that much, but I'm proud of myself for battling my anorexia. :) Edit: I'm officially weight restored! I know i haven't been replying to comments lately, but i just want to thank everyone for their encouragement and kind words. You have no idea how much this means to me, and knowing that strangers are giving their support really motivates me. I hope you guys flurish and grow through your journey. Recovery has saved my life, brought me closer to my family and friends, and encouraged me to finally come out of the closet. Please, if you are struggling, please hang on, and find a doctor, even speaking to a loved one makes a world of a difference. It is not easy, but it is so worth it. You are so much stronger than you think, and i love you so much. 💕💕

[@prettydamnbeast]

tosia macaroni we’re proud of you too!!

[@estellehooker1734]

I'm so happy for you ❤❤❤

[@cheshiredj]

tosia macaroni so proud! Keep going!💜💜💜

[@Rachelpryor26]

I'm so happy for you! I had anorexia when I was super young, and it's kinda scary to think about that...

[@idkwhattoputhere7952]

tosia macaroni I know I'm kinda late but I'm super proud of you!!! It makes me so happy to see you recover! Congrats💞💞💞

[@oodlesofnoodles9320]

Hi can we please stop making comments about Jessie’s hair or her appearance? And maybe just appreciate her courage for making this video for us all to see? Thx

[@mooncrater1286]

yeah

[@oliviaa...]

Congrats Jessie! This is the number of people who stan you ↓

[@thatcher1528]

Ngl I’m auditioning to be the girl that Jessie makes out with in her next music video

[@Urmomisdele]

Same tho

[@moojuice8251]

wait same what

[@annabelcrescibene4257]

tHaTcHeR bEaTy I relate

[@kittynado758]

Same uhuh

[@thatcher1528]

June Petry neverrr

[@soda_ina_teacup6016]

Why are there so many comments about her hair? She’s talking about something important so it shouldn’t matter, and I think it’s cute.

[@taytay32865]

I've never had anorexia, but my metabolism has kept me underweight all my life. I've gotten bullied for it, I felt guilty about it myself even though it's not something I can control, doctors have questioned me asking if I gave an ED- it's made me feel like total shit I guess is what I'm trying to say. I'm trying hard to gain weight and it's so refreshing to see others talking about gaining instead of losing, too. Even though it's harder since the virus is a pretty big issue, its motivated me even more to be at a place I'm happy with.

[@Pookiana5]

Taylor Heil completely agree I’m so underweight and struggling:/

[@Bornalyon]

This story is very similar to mine. You are not alone, at the age 0f 28 being 5'7" i weighed 103 pounds. A little over 6 months ago i started antidepressants and gained 40 pounds so far.

[@annagomez6642]

You and me both . I’ve been trying to gain for so long . But it’ll be fine :)

[@annoar9776]

Same here

[@icrymatchatears2857]

Im overweight and it bothers me how i get supported when i get made fun of but when my old underweight friend got made fun of nobody cared and they joined in. I would hear her be so happy abt gaining 1 pound i dont think i ever realized how hurtful that was for her until i got closer to her

[@leighh2725]

YOU’RE NEVER FULLY DRESSED WITHOUT A SMILE! * kicks chair *

[@carawood2655]

Good song

[@vjl222]

HeY AmErICA

[@chlewey1280]

hEy hObO mAn hEy dApPeR dAn yOuVe bOtH gOt yOuR sTyLe- *inner theatre demons escape*

[@MJ-tn2zu]

Dressed*

[@nat1138]

Omg lol I love this XD

[@lilgayratboi]

WITNESSING HOW HAPPY AND HEALTHY JESSIE IS LITERALLY INSPIRES ME SO MUCH AND PUTS THE BIGGEST GENUINE SMILE ON MY FACE AND IN MY HEART 🥺💖🏳️‍🌈🖤

[@jessiepaege]

THIS MAKES ME SO HAPPY 🥺❤️

[@lilgayratboi]

@@jessiepaege YOU MAKE ME SO HAPPY WTFRICK! ❤❤💖💖🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈

[@marikawest]

me too!

[@OurHoneyHomestead]

GIRL LITERALLY. everyone says you're "healthy" when you gain weight after anorexia, but the definition of "healthy" is so different for every person. We love you.

[@marad786]

This! I had binge eating disorder directly after anorexia and everyone was praising me for recovery when I felt sicker than ever. 🙏

[@maggiemenking5709]

Mara Daniel that’s the boat i’m in right now! it’s so frustrating!!

[@goddamnducks8205]

I'm scared cause this time I am really trying to recover, my therapist and my family believes in me but I'm so scared. Although I have been eating a lot better I am just fucking terrified of gaining weight. I don't know if I can do it, but I am going to try and you Jessie make me feel really motivated thank you for being yourself and helping me.

[@shutupaeryn]

goddamn ducks If you have an issue with being scared of gaining weight, after quarantine and getting to a non dangerous point in your journey, you should look into a gym membership, maintaining a healthy weight and knowing it makes you stronger and more capable of physical feats really helped for me. If you cant afford that/youre still in school, joining a sports team is also a really good way to feel more confident. Consult your therapist because of your ed past tho, because over-exercising can become an addiction.

[@goddamnducks8205]

@han nah thank you soo much, really. I'm getting a lot better thank you for your support 💜

[@solenoid8427]

@@shutupaeryn same I am on my recovery journey everday I check myself in the mirror but I lose hope but still I want to keep going and I always anxious what my classmates would think cause I have been fat shamed and this year there are new addmission and I really don't want them to shame me .

[@zephyr4648]

I’ve been doing recovery since the beginning of may but I recently lost weight (even though I was following my new plan), so the doctor said I have to gain like 6 pounds. I’m really terrified and upset right now

[@goddamnducks8205]

@@shutupaeryn I have been thinking about that. I am currently (i would say) recovered almost fully. And I want to have a healthy life for myself so I'm going to start exercising just to feel good and energized at home, there are lots of apps for it. I feel really good. And I'm so happy that I never gave up and climb my way back to getting healthier. I'm 15 currently and I'm really happy I hope everyone who has mental struggles can get past it I hope everyone the best thank you for your recommendation ❤️

[@loulou-sd1ug]

i got 8 minutes in to when jessie started talking about weighing herself and making notes in her phone and i started crying. i feel not allowed to get better because im not underweight yet. ive fallen down a rabbit hole of her recovery videos and each one hurts. i want to get better but its hard

[@bimbozos]

i’m borderline underweight (not quite underweight but very close), but my lab results were AWFUL. i have heart problems, osteopenia, low blood pressure, hair loss, hypothalamic amenorrhea (no period), etc . i started recovery a week ago and i already feel so much better!! you deserve to fuel yourself and heal your body. just because you’re not “underweight” doesn’t mean your body is struggling. hell, i was a “healthy” BMI when my doctors admitted me into an eating disorder clinic. i know that weight gain is scary, but your body needs it. in your ED’s eyes, you’ll never be “underweight enough”. hope this helps, stay safe.

[@jainasolo50]

You deserve to get better. You are worthy of taking care of yourself. I see you and I hear you. Your struggles are valid. And I believe that you can overcome them. You can gain weight. You can be healthier. You can feel beautiful that way. No, it won’t be easy, but you are worth the effort.

[@janeh9962]

Just wanted to let you know how much I love you - because even though I may not know you personally, I love you so much. You are so valid. You are so loved, by so many. And, beyond that, I know you are so strong & so brave. You deserve to be fully happy and give your body the nutrients it needs.

[@SomethingWet]

My eating disorder started when I was overweight/obese, but of course at that time I wouldn't even talk about my issues because I was so scared of people's reaction, people dismissing me, not taking me seriously... But at that time, my disorder was also at it's worst. I always thought about recovery, but I never started it because of the same fear - I wasn't underweight for a very long time. I felt like a faker, like I'm lying to myself, I'm just too dramatic etc. I told myself that if I ever went into recovery, I'd have to wait until I'm underweight. well, when I became underweight, I still denied recovery. I still, often, feel like I'm faking my disorder, that I'm delusional. When you have an ED, even when you're underweight, you're "not underweight enough". And you will never be underweight enough for your disorder. Never good enough, never "quite there yet," it's the nature of the disorder. It latches onto you and it doesn't want you to get rid of it, so it's not gonna go away on its own once you hit a certain weight, because after all it isn't all about weight, as most people with ED know. There is no such thing as it being too early to seek help - it can, however, be too late. If people took EDs seriously in healthy weight or overweight people, there wouldn't be so many deaths. It wouldn't be so frequent. It wouldn't get worse and worse with every day. I hope one day ED treatment will get to a point where you don't have to get "sick enough" to qualify for getting help for a disorder that ruins your mind and body. It's fucking insane. Everyone deserves help no matter the weight. It isn't one-size-fits-all. A person at a healthy weight is still at risk of most of the dangers, and death causes, associated with EDs. And weight has no effect on the person's behavior and disordered mindset, which is the main problem. Best of luck to you, we'll all get through this.

[@amandas5056]

I love how you talk about that it's like an addiction. I used to think about food. ALL THE TIME. I realise now that was f*cked up. I am so much better now and I try to appreciate my body every day. I still hate when clothes don't fit me because I fall into old ways but I love my body and I love me. I'm happy you're better now. We will be okay and we will feel amazing about ourselves one day.

[@val-qw3bl]

Amanda S weird question but how did you recover?

[@lizzierose1847]

I have tried not to eat for a while but had one meal a day. I still think that I’m fat everyday. I’m in 5th grade

[@amandas5056]

@@val-qw3bl My mom actually helped me a lot. She forced me to eat food cooked in oil (I used to not eat like any fat because I thought fat was the enemy). But also unfollowing accounts that trigger me on social media. And I also went from being a vegan to being vegetarian/pescatarian because I felt like I could eat more food and I didn't have to look at ingredients so much on food labels in the store. That helped me a lot. I don't always love my body though. It's more that I know I feel better when I don't restrict.

[@amandas5056]

@@lizzierose1847 It hurts my heart to hear this. I'm so sorry. You're perfect just the way you are and it doesn't matter what your body looks like if you have a good heart. Try to focus on learning things because your young, you should be having fun. ❤

[@lizzierose1847]

Amanda S How can I have fun if I feel fat when I get 27 pacer and Almost everyone gets 60+ pacer. I have really bad anxiety and I hate tight clothes but I like it if it’s cute. But I suck in my stomach so I barely breath some days.

[@siariley8517]

stan jessie paege (and stream coming out) for - ✨clear skin✨ - 💗wholesome memes💗 - 🎫free concert tickets 🎫 - 🌈 endless self love🌈 - 🐀a meet and greet with remy🐀

[@scarlettjks5067]

wow that’s a lot of positives

[@emocrybaby]

I agree the song is great

[@skyleeallen5565]

No cap I wishhhhhhhh

[@malpurposes]

Rolls are normal and if anyone puts you down for having rolls then their jealous because your beautiful just the way you are :) We stan Jessie Paege

[@val-qw3bl]

SᴜɢᴀʀKᴀᴛシ now i want cinnamon rolls :)

[@heyhelena7775]

Thank you omg

[@redcemetery]

@@val-qw3bl this has inspired me now imma try find a recipe for cinammon rolls

[@malpurposes]

Valerie I can send you some lol

[@maddalenapalmisani2955]

Omg it bother me so much that i can't see both of your eyes

[@melomustdie]

SAME

[@fernboy]

she's emo lol it's a requirement

[@Petra20121]

Sameee

[@DabDiichLiieb]

I thought I was the only one! Still love her though

[@GreciaUrdapilleta]

Yes

[@reckless7226]

I know you didn’t mean this in a negative way! But you said it’s easier for people with alcohol/drug addiction don’t have to deal with it every single day of their lives. And implied people with eating disorders do. You couldn’t be more wrong about that comparison. Drug addiction is an every day battle. Literally an every hour battle, just like with weight. 💜

[@steph678]

Especially when you need to take prescription meds for your mental illness. You have to ballance taking meds correctly

[@amandas5056]

I love u for making this video. There are so many "how I losed weight" videos. Also I feel like I'm worrying about gaining weight right now (I suffered from an eating disorder)

[@yesthatisababytoucan.youre6983]

Do you know how she cleared her skin? She streamed Coming Out, Phantom, Skeleton, Not a Phase, and slamed tables as she stood Shrek

[@virlinehonore9767]

I remember she used to slam tables omg i kinda miss it 😂😂

[@yesthatisababytoucan.youre6983]

Same 😭😂

[@virlinehonore9767]

@@yesthatisababytoucan.youre6983 we need her to slam tables again 😂😂

[@jillypepper_]

Wait is the past tense of stan stood?!

[@olliec2337]

@@jillypepper_ I guess so

[@_satanic_cyanide_]

We Stan the Jessie paege fandom... and shrek... DaDdY

[@marikawest]

and remy

[@marciaorozco2598]

why does she covers half of her face I'm upset

[@destinybancheek3300]

Marcia Orozco idk it’s literally making me so anxious

[@Lourdes-wf9hm]

I dont know, its the first video of her that I see she does that. I thought she maybe had smt in her eye but you can see in some clips that she doesnt.

[@Savannah-]

@@destinybancheek3300 omg same! I can't figure out why but it's literally making me anxious. I thought it was just me lol

[@alisonb9264]

it’s literally, just bc she likes how it looks guys lmao

[@helloitzme4019]

melissa t-b it’s just so annoying, I love her but I couldn’t focus the whole video😭

[@kipperthedog789]

I made a google slides presentation titled “girls so pretty that they make me cry,” and I can proudly say that Jessie is on the list lol. But seriously, we’re so proud of you Jessie! You honestly look so great, and your videos really help me. Love you!!

[@aryahmaddox-semper1641]

Jessie your progression and recovery is so inspiring and I'm so proud of you! we stan the jessie paege fandom! Love you Dad

[@edenreyes292]

When she said "you deserve to take up space" I nearly cried bro. That hit close to home and close to my heart. We love you Jessie you're a beautiful inspiring person 💖🤩

[@graciekent2589]

That hit me hard too

[@pitlessplum]

Pro tip: you can tell your doctor you don't want to be weighed if it's triggering, or you can ask to turn away and not be told the number

[@rijusavanna7995]

Pitless Plum YEA!

[@PeytonsProductions]

I haven’t weighed myself since I was 16 and I’m 21 now and it’s the best decision I’ve ever made.

[@kayleyhays1643]

When I enlisted into the army, I weighed the minimum weight for my height, and was told to gain more weight before I had to leave for boot camp. I had been secretly struggling with an ED for 7 years (when I was 11) and didn’t know it was an issue until I was 15 and joined the cross country team to lose more weight, which I ended up gaining 10 pounds from pure muscle in my first month. Leaving for bootcamp, I had only gained about 5 pounds in the 4 months and it was something I had shut away. I knew that being a vegetarian, I was going to put my body through some traumatic and tough physical situations if I didn’t properly eat or take care of my body. So, to help me with my self esteem, I ate as much food as I could and didn’t look in the mirror for the entire 10 weeks. I would avoid it at all costs and changed where nobody would see me. What made me realize I gained weight, was when I got my phone back and saw my face. I had lost my jaw line, and I cried. Although this was really hard for me, this was when I finally told my dad about my disorder and how I hated how much weight I had gained. He would always make terrible comments about women or people who weren’t skinny, so it was a huge step for me. I had developed deep purple stretch marks on my hips and it made me cry even more, but then I realized how amazing me and my body actually are. I was the top performing female in my company of 250+ people, and of the top 15 in my battalion of 1,000+ people. I’m so proud of how much I worked to get as strong as I am- for how it’s helping me overcome my disorder, I have more confidence in myself and body, and I can help other people who are in the scales I once stood on crying. I’ve been following you, Jessie, for 4 years, when I realized I had a problem. I remember seeing you and knowing you must be going through the same thing, even though you would always deny it. And although it was something I noticed of myself before you came out (no pun intended, haha♥️), you have helped me so much. SO much, in this long recovery and experience. You help me realize how much I really need to love myself, how beautiful we are when we love ourselves and don’t care what others have to say, and so much more. Your music is so great, I love your tattoo, and I love you for who you are. I’m so proud of you for your amazing progress in recovery and loving yourself. You help me so much everyday, and I know I’m not the only one. I hope one day I can meet you and give you the biggest hug. I love you!!!! Thank you so much, I can’t wait to see your next Instagram and KZbin video ♥️♥️

[@elizabethkita5628]

Your story is incredible ❤ thank you so much for sharing and I'm so proud of you! Thank you for serving our country too 🙌

[@laurengarza378]

So proud of you and so so happy for you!! Thank you for your service 💖 hope all is well with you now!!

[@103vaishnavi]

Hey that's great and I just wanted to know if you're still vegetarian 😊

[@Rachelpryor26]

Your story is so inspiring! I also had an eating disorder at 11, and it really sucks that young people have to go through that.

[@rileyragnet5250]

it’s biologically impossible to gain 10lbs of pure muscle in one month without the use of steroids, look it up. You gained fat and water weight for the most part

[@chloemae5935]

you are GLOWING. thank you for this video, it is so wonderful. even your voice sounds more sure and vocal and it’s so nice to see you healthy!!

[@keela3042]

two weeks ago my brother went through my dms bcs he's a safety freak and i'm younger than him (im 15) and he saw me talking about my sexuality and told me it was just a phase ;-; LIKE BRUUUHH its like saying "omg you like guys thats cool its just a phase you dont AcTuaLlY like guys its just a phase" and i've been just been in a really bad mood for the last few weeks ;-; and your songs and videos have comforted me ilysm

[@celestedichiaro4033]

*whispers* it's not a phase..

[@averyvincentavner472]

Maybe your brother questioned his sexuality when he was your age and realised he's not actually gay or anything and he's just curious so maybe he thought you're like that too. I'm not saying you are. I'm saying that could be why he thinks it's just "a phase".

[@shorkelili]

@@averyvincentavner472 that could be true, but also being bisexual or gay is still stigmatised in certain places and people sometimes still don't understand that sexuality is valid. He might have heard things from other people, and he might think sexualitys like bisexual or gay is fake. There's a while butt load of possibilities

[@shorkelili]

Stay strong! He just mustn't understand sexuality well. Try get him to watch some KZbin video about it or something that can help him realise you are VALID💜 also, is there no way you can prevent him from going on your phone? I understand people can be protective, but your situation sounds toxic and slightly manipulative. You could put passwords on your phone to prevent this

[@averyvincentavner472]

@@shorkelili Oh yeah. Trust me when I say I know. I've been through that. I've come out to some of my friends and they said things like "it can't be" or "but...but you're so sweet" and "you'll get over it".

[@lalamakeuprehab]

I’m a firm believer in treatment of any kind. I’m a few days away from being a year and a half sober, thanks to treatment in general XoxoX I’ll always recommend reaching out for help! Everyone has mental health and it’s important to nourish positivity and positive coping skills XoxoX

[@maggiiee.l]

Lacey Medina omg congratulations

[@marikawest]

Congratulations!

[@rosi-wz7pm]

Congrats! 🎉

[@job6302]

I'm so proud of you Jessie, you are such an inspiration.

[@madiiskrip]

i rlly needed this :,) bc i’ve been stressing over my weight and i’ve gained 8 pound maybe 10 since quarantine

[@galitmontero6235]

Watching this video after seeing the first one where you talk about having anorexia is so shocking. I'm so so proud of you Jessie, you have gone through a lot. You are a fighter and a beautiful person. I really hope you live your life to the fullest and I want you to know that you are helping a lot of people (including me) with your videos. I love you, and if someone who is reading these comment is going through a mental illness, I want you to know that you can do it, keep fighting, I promise that it'll get easier someday, get professional help and surround yourself with the people you love, whether that's your family, friends or someone in the internet, because when you get out of it and see how much you have dealt with, you'll be proud of yourself and you'll see that life matters and so do you.

[@l1ly4nn]

jessie, thank you. i’m currently trying to recover but having a very hard time, this has helped. i appreciate these

[@4freakshowtv]

i wish you nothing but the best with your recovery:)

[@l1ly4nn]

emilyyy thank you so much :)

[@winterpeony1462]

lily ann good luck on your recovery

[@WhispMonsterLove1974]

lily ann you’ve got this! I’m rooting for you! ❣️

[@l1ly4nn]

Ramu AJ and hxnêÿbêê ùwú, thank you, i genuinely appreciate that so much

[@underscorestevie]

We love the Jessie Paege fandom✌🏻😎 *phandom* *phantom*

[@underscorestevie]

Wow it took me a second to realize I typed phandom I didn’t do that on purpose, anyways stan dan and Phil and Jessie Paege

[@LisJinx]

STREAM PHANTOM FOR CLEAR SKIN

[@juddzghost2467]

He's gonna catch them all cause he's d a n n y p h a n t o m

[@lauralettau]

@@underscorestevie lmao

[@destielsimpala7738]

@@underscorestevie for some reason I read Jessie Paege as Jesus Paege. Although she could be the bisexual counterpart to Lesbian Jesus, Hayley Kiyoko.

[@OstentatiousGrace]

I'm so proud of you Jessie! Ily so much ❤❤

[@layalaziz4309]

im so happy that she's genuinely becoming someone I think she wants to be

[@SuperYellowcats]

I’ve never personally had an eating disorder. I’ve always been a small person, just genetics. I have tiny bones. I had a friend and we were always about the same height and build but I was always 10 pounds less. I wasn’t unhealthy at all but that’s how I was. What really drove me crazy is how when I became chronically ill and I was being weighed all the time at the doctors they kept telling me I was too skinny and I wasn’t eating. My mom was feeding into it saying I wasn’t eating but I was. I was eating a good amount of food. I know at one point I got a little too skinny because of my nausea but I got it back up no problem. It’s just people telling me I’m not good enough because of my weight that I can’t help. I had no control of my weight and yet everyone made it seem like I did. Sure I’m bigger now but to me I know I’m just a bit too big. Everyone thinks I should be bigger and that’s more healthy but I am a small person and no one can change that. Everyone has a false ideal that everyone should be a certain size and weight. I’m sorry but everyone is completely different. Now I understand that I may sound like I have an issue. Honestly I like my body wether small or big. I just wish people wouldn’t keep commenting on my weight. “Wow you’re so skinny” “wow you gained a lot of weight” “you’re way too skinny” “you need to eat more”. I just want people to stop with that. Please stop telling me about my size.

[@cassidybeharry694]

omg yes. literally my life. I have always been deemed "underweight" my entire life. I've had numerous people tell me I need to gain weight or get some more meat on my bones. I have been a competitive dancer since I was 8. Before I started getting into strength as part of my training in high school I was 5'6" and below 100 lbs. Now I was eating ok, I literally ate over 2500-3000 calories a day to counteract how much I burned and my weight fluctuated in a 5lb range I never gained weight but I wasn't losing any either. At this point, I'm almost 20 and I now weigh the most I have in my life (mostly from muscle mass), fluctuating still in a range deemed slightly underweight. I can never understand why I'm deemed underweight even though I am always eating because I burn so much from working out and I make sure to eat as much as I burn. But yes I hate when people comment on my body, I am who I am and my body doesn't concern you. Thankfully, my doctor has known me since I was 10. Kind of scared that I have to get a new doctor soon.

[@Aleyderp]

I'm here to say this is me too. Hard because my whole family is heavy set. Somehow I was born with the scrawny gene and I never out grew it. Hispanic families always pick at your weight and will make jokes out of it. Sucked.

[@daynad.1933]

Sending all the positivity ✨✨thank you for sharing

[@MirandaSinistra]

I'm saying this as a person with a sister whose been underweight her whole life. You don't have small bones, there is no scrawny gene. Your body just doesn't have the proper signals to help you eat enough to be a healthy weight. Take 2 weeks to really track every morsel you put in your mouth. Much like my sister you'll probably realize that you eat too little for your body. Your weight isn't out of your control and that's a good thing. Because that means if you want to gain weight you can, if you want to lose weight you can. If you want to stay the same weight you can. The choice is yours.

[@shutupaeryn]

Miranda Sinistra Thats true for a lot of people, but not everyone. Don’t discount someone else’s experiences and view of themselves when you don’t know them/don’t see them everyday. Your “inspirational” comment comes off as arrogant in my opinion.

[@buneechi6862]

hey Jessie i just wanted to say that you're such an inspiration to so many people just like me! we are super proud of you! we love u

[@marikawest]

Yeeah, she is mine inspiration as well:) You are gorgeous!

[@rawrtothetaylor]

You really are a role model, if only you were around when I was 16 and started recovering. I've been recovering from an eating disorder for 7 years and yes I've gained 40 pounds and am at a healthy weight, but the thoughts about food and my body never ever ever stop. Day in and day out it is a nonstop battle just constantly thinking about what I'm going to eat next and beating myself up for indulging in "bad" foods and still to this day picking the items on the menu with the lowest amounts of calories. You are somebody young girls can really look up to, and honestly as a 23 year old I find myself looking up to you and hearing about your recovery process is therapeutic in a way. Eating disorders are so fucking serious physically and mentally and although physically I may be okay mentally I feel like I've never really recovered and it is so hard. Just keep doing you, Jessie :)

[@lizzierose1847]

I feel like I’m going to die if I eat to much. I have tried to starve myself for a day and only have one meal a day. I feel fat if I wear something to tight. But if I suck in I look good in it so I suck in when I wear tight clothes. I’m in 5th grade

[@beckywiththebesthair2192]

You are awesome my dude bro!

[@lizzierose1847]

becky with the best hair thx

[@beckywiththebesthair2192]

@@lizzierose1847 no problem my friend!

[@lizzierose1847]

becky with the best hair I needed that

[@admirbarucija2018]

I hope you’re doing well Jessie!! Thanks so much for your videos, they always inspire me 🤍

[@bubbleskirtdcofficial]

girl u look amazing i’m so proud of you!!

[@thereadyset21400]

I suffered from anorexia from 11-16. I’m 20 now and I still have thought every day of going back to my old ways. My family is not and has never been supportive of my recovery, and they tell me on a daily basis that I’m fat and need to lose weight. It’s very triggering and I’ve told them that but they don’t care.

[@luminarybf133]

This is really inspiring- I’m in the final stretch of ED recovery and hearing other people having the same challenges and recognizing how normal it really is, helps a lot ✨💓

[@lydiak416]

We STAN A BEAUTIFUL QUEEEN!! I am underweight and am starting to gain wait. I am so happy for you. You help me go through this and just loving myself! It’s ok to not feel like enough just as long as you don’t let yourself stay that way then it’ll all be ok ❤️❤️

[@StonedBrieTtv]

*we love the Jessiepaege fandom* btw you’re definitely my girlfriend.

[@umeabihabatool6229]

YESS! Finally someone helping us gain weight and not weight loss! You go girl!

[@kayleeanastasi3704]

I’ve dealt with eating struggles my entire life, and have been too scared to get diagnosed. I binged when I was younger, and now I struggle with restrictions. No one suspects I have an eating disorder because I’m a “healthy” weight and have always been a little thicker than my other friends. It’s frustrating not being taken seriously because I don’t look like the typical person with an eating disorder. Seeing your story is really refreshing. Thank you for being awesome. ♥️♥️♥️

[@evab4514]

I'm so proud of Jessie! I feel like there's been multiple times where I might have developed an ed but being able to see Jessie and hear about her journey has made me conscious about my eating habits and has made it easier to stay healthy

[@pompompurin2006]

a psa while I’m here: **clears throat** A 👏NUMBER 👏ON 👏A 👏SCALE👏DOESNT👏DICTATE👏HOW👏HEALTHY 👏YOU👏ARE👏 there are sooo many things to take into consideration! Your height, body type,how much muscle you have, etc. Listen to your body! Don’t beat yourself up because you weigh more/less than someone else! People are so unique that you can’t possibly compare yourself accurately. At the end of the day it’s just a number. Love y’all, go eat an avocado or something 🥑

[@ren9879]

That was amazing...

[@imkaylab]

this is facts man. I no longer look at scales because I just find it unessecary and kinda toxic

[@rijusavanna7995]

YES

[@jennaklyn839]

I actually really needed to read this today thank you 🙂

[@adrianahojda2402]

It kinda does tho, if you're over 18 and weight 60 pounds or 400 you obvously arent healthy

[@mayaerixon3122]

ur journey has really inspired me to recover, thank u so much 💞

[@blueberrys7165]

💝💝💝💝

[@prosteany1218]

👏👏💕 sameee

[@itshailiejohnson]

I don’t have an ED but: I’m on Zoloft and it’s been making me lose my appetite.. it’s at the point where I barely get hungry. And it’s very scary.. I’m trying to eat more bc I haven’t been eating enough. It’s so hard to force myself to eat. It was much easier when I had school, there was designated times to eat, which helped me a lot, but school got cancelled.. and all my progress was pretty much lost. I’m trying to eat more. It’s just been hard to do so. I really appreciate you making this video, it helps a lot :) Love you Jessie!!

[@EmoNightDragon]

Maybe you can consult your doctor about it and try a different brand/type? Or perhaps your doctor has any other tips on how you can make sure you get enough nutrition. (ex protein and vitamin shakes from the pharmacy to get the basics at least)

[@itshailiejohnson]

EmoNightDragon Thank you!! I’ll think on that! Loss of appetite is normal for my medication, it means I just have to be more careful about eating. But I’ll be good!! it’s just hard to push myself.

[@ingiefilms8327]

I'm ill with acute lithium toxicity...but I can't get any help right now (my health care in this area of Scotland is very very stretched) Ive lost my appetite completely too, feel sick 24/7 and I TOTALLY get your struggle. I'm the most underweight I've been in my adult body, it's scary but I know that this will pass, I've started experimenting with baking for my family, started setting alarms on my phone to have snacks. Drinking extra milk in my coffee, having nuts/hummus/dried fruit as snacks. Going out on my daily walk and having a few boiled sweets in my pockets. Any appearance anxiety has gone with the lockdown. Please make sure you look after yourself 😄

[@sanaidulaney]

itshailiejohnson You could also try eating more calorie dense foods. almonds, nut-butters, whole grains like pasta, avocados, basically any healthy carbs or fats are higher in calories and its a healthier way to help you keep your caloric intake up.

[@abbysheremeta7837]

I find what has been helpful to me is scheduling in eating times so I remember to eat, as I have a suppressed appetite from anxiety and depression. It’s been so good for me!

[@gumbyenthusiast]

ur an inspo girl im happy you're doing this for your health

[@hurtingful4643]

I CAME FROM INSTA LIVE!!!!!! damn i love jessie paege

[@chloe3101]

It’s weird how I can watch this and be so happy for you while destroying myself and falling farther into my disorder

[@llamadrama4511]

*hug*

[@user-fk9bl2bt7s]

*hug*

[@JasmineJohnson]

Same

[@cowboylikeana]

sending love! you’re so strong and beautiful, i hope you find the path to recovery soon!

[@angelskysilver5219]

It's hard to start recovery. But when you're ready you'll have so many people to support you. Whether it be people in your life or people in your online life

[@awkwardnicole3507]

This video helped me so much I've been having trouble gaining weight literally my intire life because I was born underweight and I've never been a healthy weight so this just gave me more hope that i can do it.

[@justallurathings8653]

Same lol good luck to us 💗💙🖤💚💜💛💖💘💝💞💟❣💌

[@scooter3785]

I was watching this and when I heard the comment about ‘I AM NOT OKAY WITH THIS’ I full on said out loud “she can stay!” YESSS

[@hannahm134]

I know you’ll probably never see this, but thank you for just everything 🥺 You make me feel better about myself. I’ve always a struggled with feeling comfortable with my body. And I still do, but whenever one of your posts show up in my Instagram feed I get reminded that my weight doesn’t define who I am. I used to be so obsessive about how much that I would weigh that I would look at my old weight or all my friends weight because I was upset. But thanks to you I don’t have to go through that. And I’m definitely working on feeling better about myself and you are just an amazing and inspirational person. I love you and stay safe 🥺💕

[@c.g.3923]

Idk if she'll see it, but I saw it and I am proud of you! Keep going 💕

[@idarothschild9267]

We Stan The Jessie Paege Fandom. (And Shrek). Note: I’m from the livestream! Plus, I am working on my eating habits and learning that it’s ok for me to eat, and that it’s ok for me to gain a few pounds. I’m also a lesbian, and your Coming Out video is incredible. I love you and stream all of your songs every day. Thank you, Jessie. Edit:🐀🐀🐀🐀🐀🐀

[@calebqeincon9348]

We stan the Jessie paege fandom, and shreck, DADDY 💗

[@blueberrys7165]

💝💝💝💝

[@ollkaa9707]

I haven't seen you in a while, and let me tell you, you're glowing! I haven't seen your eyes being that bright and happy in a long time, and I'm so happy for you! Be proud of yourself, love you ♥

[@svelotta17]

I literally found myself nodding this entire video. It feels SO good to have someone to validate what I’m going through. I’m currently about at the stage you were at after the +30 lbs. I know exactly what you are talking about. It is so fucking hard to recover after years of mistreating your body. I had identified with this eating disorder and felt so attached to it. Now I look so different and am never not bloated. And yes this quarantine is not helping my unhealthy relationship with food. But your journey and positive attitude really gives me hope that I can get the mindset you’re in! Thank you so much!!

[@yasminerazaq5092]

I literally cried. I cannot put into words how much your videos help me

[@sarah._.2247]

Ma'am you are an absolute boss. Thank you father! Also you look really pretty!

[@theastuttle]

I'm so proud of you and your journey jessie, and you have helped me with my own ed, and I have so much love and respect for you..... so thank you for helping my become happy and on the road to being fully healthy again! 🖤🖤

[@jeanbates9595]

You aren't alone on that. I love "I am not okay with this" so much!

[@nanamiharuka3269]

I'm SO happy you decided to move back with your family and felt comfortable doing that. You really reached out to help yourself the best you could. That's awesome and its also great because there's so much pressure to be successful and live on your own, but that's not always the best at certain times of life.

[@silentdagger4369]

You help me so much, i don't feel confident in my weight and you restore that confidence. I came back to this video to say today i woke up, looked in the mirror and for the first time since i can remember i thought "i am beautiful" and i told myself that i am beautiful 😊 tysm for being such a great person 💖 and helping me so much, i am so grateful that me being unhappy with my weight didn't fall into any eating disorder ❤ 💖 ♥ 💗 💕 💜 ❤ 💖

[@justabiloserdoinsomecovers5654]

all of the "weight loss!!" videos can be so damaging... i think i need to gain weight, thank you jessie!!

[@Urmomisdele]

Last time I was this early Jessie’s hair was still brown

[@marikawest]

that was a long time ago:)

[@stephanie-ly3xe]

heyy i love your channel!! you are so beautiful and so inspirational! thank you for helping me through the dark times!💕✨💕

[@alinaamore4061]

You’re right about it always being there. It really is an addiction that stays with you forever. I have mostly recovered, but I wake up with thoughts that I need to starve myself and work out all day. I see my legs and torso as fat when everyone tells me that I look skinny. In the minds of people with an eating disorder, it’s never enough. I think what helped me the most is the positive support system I had from my boyfriend and eating comfort food. Now, to cope I usually wait until my feelings about my body pass and know that I am loved by some just the way I am.

[@catcsrg]

Thank you so much ❤️ I'm so glad you spoke about weight distribution, I've really struggled with having a belly and feeling huge but my family say I'm still too thin everywhere else. It's a relief to know why it's all going there and I'm not going to resist it so much now. Loved all of the video, thank you for spreading positivity about this 💜 you're a beautiful person 🙌🏻

[@elisblud]

Jessieeee btw always streaming you're songs! we stan the jessie paege fandom and dw I stan shrek and can quote the whole second film

[@sophiaandstufff4730]

We stan the Jessie Paege fandom. And Shrek. _Daddy._

[@AnitaHunt333]

You are such an amazing person! Such an inspiration!

[@marikawest]

agree

[@itsmalkamusic]

Your confidence is radiating!!! ❤️❤️🌼🌞

[@mckenziestaley9063]

I’m so happy you are recovering 💕

[@babyemoyeemo5558]

I love you so much I’m so proud of youuuuuu

[@spiritualbeing5224]

Jessie is the only KZbinr whose sponsorships I actually want to watch!

[@my_chemical_cheeze_whiz4622]

I want to be Jessie friend so badly.. idc my age I just love how she speaks the truth and talks about her life. And what she is doing to be happier. Which makes me happy cuz I went to therapy for crap. And her VOCALS OMG! Amazing! And Jessie you are soo kind and I loot your personality

[@hannahbanana6874]

Honestly this video is so inspiring. Before quarantine I was very underweight. I've gained 7 pounds and sometimes I feel bad but sometimes I feel good. It's really hard for me. My dad said "I can see that you've gained weight, I can see it in your face" he was trying to hype my up but that made me feel worse and I keep thinking i should eat less. But this video kind of helped because I know people are going through the same thing. Thank you jessie ily!! ❤

[@SamA-sr1bp]

Thanks for posting this I feel like it really made me realize I was falling into the "gaining weight because of quarantine" mentality. I didn't notice until you said it, but I have been starving myself a bit lately because I know I'm not going out and moving as much. And as someone who has had eating problems in the past, that can be dangerous. You look freaking amazing and you give me so much confidence. I'm don't usually even watch your videos but you have a new fan now❤🙌

[@penguingirlanzu]

You're doing so amazing and we're so proud of you! I'm really glad to see you so happy and almost relieved, I literally had tears in my eyes as I watched this video, because I was just that happy for you that you're doing so well but also sad for you to have to go through this...But you managed and we all are so proud!

[@poppymaiah2101]

Stream coming out for ✨Clear skin ✨Meeting our Dad ✨P!ATD tickets ✨Remyyyyy!!!!!!🐀

[@danielleholland4162]

I can’t imagine doing this on your own for so long. You make me so proud everyday and inspire me. Everything you say I relate to 100%! You’re not alone! Love you more then you will ever know xoxo

[@marikawest]

I'm glad that she with her family now

[@ashleybish0p]

This will help a lot of people..WAY TO GO for overcoming such a difficult/progressive/fatal obstacle! You look stunning & HAPPY! So good to see a positive outcome. I hope this inspires others who are struggling. I struggled for many years [age 13-24] and it's such a weight lifted from your life whenever you're truly free from someone that controlled and negativity impacted my life in several ways for so long!

[@planetaryg0]

today i decided to attempt recovery. i feel like i binged the whole day... but i still havent lost hope. uve honestly been the biggest thing encouraging me through this, so thank u. ily jessie

[@azamiekaruko8607]

Jessie: "Your Father is back- or you online girlfriend? I'm getting mixed signals" Me: You are my dad!~ You're My Dad! Yoogie Yoogie Yoogie!

[@SuperTails908]

When i get older, im literally going to try to be the next jessie paege you are like an actual legend.

[@my_chemical_cheeze_whiz4622]

“A smile is the most beautiful thing about you” my face went 😳😣💖😍🥺 That made me cry I love you:) That melted my heart ❤️

[@scarlettarosexo418]

congrats jessie im so proud of u i suffer with body dismorphia and somedays it gets so bad and i used to alorie count and i still do today im still battling but watching ur videos makes me feel hopeful and that i will finally feel comfortable in my skin skeleton was so relatable to me and i listen to it constantly (also coming out is a full on bop) love you so much jessie stay safe during this time

[@katherinefitzgerald6295]

So proud of you Jessie! You seem so happy, we LOVE this for youuuu

[@karlaacosta9816]

Wow that thumbnail makes me so sad to realize she looked like that once. I love you and I’m beyond proud of how far you’ve gone and how honest you can be about it with us now love your recovery body and love you for sticking to it and doing the best things for you 🎉🧜🏽‍♀️🐠🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

[@KathleenAndEmmaShow]

THIS IS MY FAVOURITE JESSIE PAEGE EVER 🤍 you look gorgeous and even more importantly YOU ARE GLOWING. Seriously ✨. I feel this new sense of confidence within you and I love it 🤍. There’s this spark and liveliness that’s been missing the last years. This video brought me so so so much joy 🥰

[@saff1257]

me in quarantine: REEEEEALLY worried my anorexia will come back cuz my minds being shitty to my body me, trying to cope: COLOUR COLOUR COLOURING WILL FIX IT

[@aliceramos1840]

You will get through this! I know it’s hard but everytime your mind tells you something negative about your body or about yourself in general be aware of that and add more positive thoughts than negative even on the days you don’t believe it. Sometimes writing it down can help too. And also just anytime you think of restricting or feel helpless or any other negative feeling remind your self that food is fuel food is something that gives you energy and nourishes your body and keep saying thank you over and over. Also doing other things like you said coloring can help. Sorry if this was long but these are some of the things that help me. You got this ❤️😘

[@rowan8067]

Hello stranger on the internet, I believe in you!!!! Keep on keeping on, you’re doing great and I’m proud of you!!!!

[@Rachelpryor26]

Big mood

[@FacebookQueen]

Have you tried diamond painting? It’s relaxing for the mind 🙂

[@larsswig912]

colouring is a great coping mechanism! keep it up!

[@planetaryg0]

thank u so much for making videos on this topic. i have an eating disorder and its ruining my life, but watching u recover and still being urself and beautiful gives me a bit of hope.

[@lxna8332]

I love how public you are with this. I suffer from an ED as well (anorexia and Diabulimia) and started recovery in dec 2018. I’m more than weight restored but nowhere near recovered and being in quarantine made me fall really hard (tracking calories again, working out obsessively, weighing myself all day etc..) because everyone is talking about “glowing up in quarantine” and weightloss. Thank you for this video. It made me feel less alone with my thoughts ❤️