How I got into, and out of being a stoner

[@piercelang4571]

After you smoked the first few times and got introduced to it, what was it that made you seek it out again? I smoked dope for the first time at 13 too, smoked seldomly until 16, and then I suddenly had an excruciating paranoia attack. Seems common. Now, two years later, I just started up again and I’m really enjoying it. For me it seems when I’m sober for too long I just get bored and start to crave that adventure. Now my useless hedonistic ass is watching the exorcist every night and contemplating the universe and my mind etc etc. It’s funny, it reduces me to a lazy paranoid cunt, who’s also at the same time loving it, it’s like my mind has these “ shifts” and I’m searching into the deepest parts of my mind and memories. Anyways I really enjoyed your story man, I can totally relate.

[@Nathanelder.expressthis]

Thanks brother, glad you enjoyed hearing my story. I think that what kept me going back to it was similar to what I hear you saying. There’s this ‘place’ that you can get into once you smoke. It’s like you’re here, but you’re somewhere else entirely at the same time. Even something like watching the exorcist every night - there’s a kind of atmosphere in the movie that the dope let’s you tune into, know? Atmosphere kept me going back. Atmosphere eventually led me to quit, as well.

[@piercelang4571]

Oh ok right right. Yeah I totally understand. When I go to watch the exorcist, as demented as this might sound... I pretend I’m the characters, even the demon and the possessed. I don’t know man... as silly and cliche as this sounds, there’s a certain “vibe” the original exorcist gives me and I love it but at the same time I feel empty after watching it. William Peter Blatty sure is a genius. And then the theme music plays “tubular bells” and it makes me feel so uselessly present and sad but good at the same time. All of these feelings must be the atmosphere.