how I handle alcohol triggers, a quick trip to LA, and rebrand update (vlog)

[@lorrainecapenos]

also I totally relate that usually positive experiences are more triggering to me than negative ones. it's harder for me to resist drinking when I feel like I'm missing out on something fun, rather than when I'm feeling down. I think it's because in my mind alcohol exaggerates feelings, so when I'm feeling upset, that last thing I want is to feel physically ill and emotionaly unstable, but when I'm having a good time, alcohol seems appealing because it seems like it will make things even more fun. that's when I have to play the tape through and remind myself that it will inevitably make me feel worse, not better

[@ashleylitt7472]

I don’t know anybody our age talking about these things so I’m glad the internet could bring us together ❤

[@stephmstill]

thank you, that means a lot. happy you're here :)

[@lorrainecapenos]

I also really struggle with time blocking because there's no consequence to not following that time block. It's hard for me to start and stop things, but once I'm going I'll keep going until I burn myself out. My dad (retired air force) always says I function like I'm piloting a plane: take off and landing are hard, but once the plane is in the air it basically flies itself. for me, it tends to be best to just get as much done as possible while I'm motivated and then let myself rest for as long as I need. traditional "balance" and "moderation" just don't always work that well for me, especially with creative work, and I think that's okay. you just have to find what works best for you through trial and error

[@jarnard]

i like the edit! i like the editing trick you did where you hear the food cooking before the scene!

[@jarnard]

digging the music too! heading to santa monica for a couple of days starting tonight. looking forward to jogging the beach.

[@samwhelan4408]

I am so grateful for you and this channel

[@stephmstill]

Thank you, that means a lot ❤ rooting for you!

[@laurenlucas4923]

You’re adorbs. Love your structure forming habits as you transition into this new season! How nice to get a little change of scenery!

[@hannahstoysich4593]

You’re so lovely 🥺

[@spookypebbles]

i loved this video style! felt super authentic and real yet still high quality shots

[@laurenodonohue4890]

Love you so much! It was amazing to see you

[@stephmstill]

couldn't agree more :)

[@ashleetakushi2561]

LA looked so fun! I love the salt & pepp shakers

[@stephmstill]

me too! might be hard to tell which one is salt vs pepper tho... lol

[@rosiedehaan6807]

Use an old fashioned cooking timer and set the time on two hours! Still nothing will happen after the 2 hours, but it works. At least for me and a lot of other people :)