I relapsed after 7 years sober and im worse than i was before. I dont know why im doing this to myself. Its like i feel like i deserve to suffer😭
@MelaninQueen933 күн бұрын
Ugh the keeping your self busy to numb is me ! I think vacation left me not busy and I gave in !
@MelaninQueen933 күн бұрын
I just relapsed after 13 months and I went on weekend binges and your so right about the access we went on vacation and they had a complimentary bottle of wine I made it 4 days into vacation before me and my partner started not getting along as much and I just opened the wine and said forget it … we both ended up drinking after 1 year of sobriety and now since we been back home we have been binging on the weekend and now I’m just like ugh
@blakenelson40454 күн бұрын
Hey thanks I've been a heavy drinker for a long time I'm ten days sober , looking forward to seeing the new me
@Rick_Cleland4 күн бұрын
Where has she went?
@CruceEntertainment4 күн бұрын
I think it helps to have a reason to be sober. You want to look good. You want to feel good. You want to be at your best. You cannot do that or achieve that if you drink, or if you are drunk. The idea of being sober is a little scary sometimes, but just think how much more you can accomplish if you are sober, how much easier it will be to wake up in the morning, how many more people you can connect with and relate with. How much wealthier you could be! The list goes on and on.
@shae01148 күн бұрын
Easy does it.. 💓
@ayaaaakg9 күн бұрын
thank u <3
@papachryso359211 күн бұрын
Thank you very much this helps a lot
@PragyaSatwika18 күн бұрын
Best video out there on journaling i feel❤
@Wizard-jz9xc14 күн бұрын
I love this nice and helpful video too🎉. If you need help on what do write about first go on this site called wiki how then search diary and it will give you articles to help you. Hope this helps
@Urine666Deity19 күн бұрын
Wtf lmfao wow i mean alcohol is cool and everything but it's not even that good, kind of a mediocre drug tbh but i guess it must feel like heaven and ecstacy to some people... good luck with that horrible obsession with alcohol!!!!
@Elena-Studio20 күн бұрын
I really like one line journals because I'm excited to see how the same day looks from different various years (I started in 2023). It's interesting to see cuz I can feel I had a different focus that day, or different job. Sometimes I write down what happened (boring documentation of where I went who I talked to), but then there are entries where I focus on how I feel. It's interesting to see.
@RF1972.21 күн бұрын
Thank you for your video and your transparency. My son did not make it...please see yourself as worthy.. get better. ... please help others that struggle ❤
@Billyvv24 күн бұрын
Don’t count the days.. Your only counting the days until your next drink not other way around
@IUBESTEAZI24 күн бұрын
❤❤❤❤
@JenniferHampton-pq9td26 күн бұрын
Girl pleas the precious blood over your life DUH yaushua got you you just have to talk to him
@PJWashington-xr1kl26 күн бұрын
still mid
@Donlewis468327 күн бұрын
Hope you are well
@Saritastarsseed8728 күн бұрын
Hope you are fine❤
@PhongNguyen-nz9kz29 күн бұрын
We are human, thanks for letting us know.
@denisehumphreys67729 күн бұрын
Im on my 5th month ... im not saying ive totally quit drinking but I RARELY drink. And i mean rarely. If i go out to eat i might have one small drink to finish the evening. Thats it. Im definitely more focused , have noticed a difference in my skin and hair...and my daily walk is easier too... just more energetic.😊
@andrewshafer8363Ай бұрын
I'm 😢the same as you. I hurt. My picture is nothing like look like now. It's the fun??? No . Have you had Dts ? Horrible
@jeannelederman8992Ай бұрын
You are wonderful!! I’m passing this very valuable video on‼️❤️
@istoa22Ай бұрын
I’m a sober bartender. I can’t run and hide from alcohol. My job sometimes requires me to taste different alcoholic beverages. Every time I have to take a taste all of my sense go crazy. I go into it knowing this is going to happen with a plan to stay focused on my job. I am also a person who cannot drink. I love being a a bartender though.
@wattsnottaken1Ай бұрын
When I have bad days I want to relapse so bad on cocaine and oxy pills. Been clean from both 2 for 4 years. Been clean from weed for 15 days now. Only drink a very small amount of beer once a week and use a tablespoon of Kratom a day throughout the whole day. Sometimes 2 tablespoons. I know I need to stop the Kratom but it’s hard to quit something when it’s the only thing bringing you peace
@00loudogАй бұрын
Was sober for almost 5 weeks and relapsed for one day am now day 4 now been an addict since I was 15 am 32 now
@dotsonmsАй бұрын
I pray you're ok! I'm 52 and still struggling
@meeky0420Ай бұрын
Are you still sober??????
@spiritrealmgaming588Ай бұрын
Just poured a nice tall pint of blue moon! This should be entertaining
@karenmininni4962Ай бұрын
Self love returns one day at a time with first things first and our higher powers help. It gets better.
@kelleywhite9389Ай бұрын
Adderall is a big time drug. Big time.
@don8498Ай бұрын
Marilyn Monroe ~” If you can’t handle me at my worst than you don’t deserve me at my best. “ Bless you and your sobriety. I have a lot of respect for someone trying to help others and not acting Perfect while they do. Very down to earth and very humble! Your parents should be proud. They raised you well.
@don8498Ай бұрын
20 days sober here! Never going backwards.. I feel great. Every aspect of my life is better like Steph says. All my ❤️. Daniel
@billdoty6438Ай бұрын
Congratulations on 3 years.
@ARTWVАй бұрын
Your human and just because you slipped doesn’t mean it won. You are winning and the slip is water under the bridge
@DrAllDoRespectАй бұрын
She is going to be ok, give her time. In actual fact most of you need a break from a screen, it’s completely controlling your life.
@heathercloete7450Ай бұрын
Go to AA and/or NA meetings. Get a Sponsor who is atleast 1 year sober and clean. Work the 12 Step Programme with your Sponsor. Do Service at AA and/or NA. Take one day at a time. I am sober and clean for 12 years and 9 months. Alcohol and benzos. I dont take any medication that could cause a relapse. I tell my doctor and pharmacist that i am in recovery. I question everything even when getting a prescription for flu. I do service on a Monday helping others who are still suffering active alcoholism. I contact my sponsor every day. All of this by Gods grace. Even when my daughter died in 2014 i did not want to relapse. I wanted sobriety. I want to be clean from prescription drugs. Its a choice i make every day. I give my self will and life into Gods loving care every morning and every night in prayer while on my knees. I was 53 years old when i got sober. I will be 67 in a few months. Loving sobriety. Never give up!!!!! Never give up!!!!
@furtandiАй бұрын
How are you doing?
@Rick_Cleland4 күн бұрын
She hasn't uploaded for a year, I fear the worst.
@billdoty6438Ай бұрын
This video is 2 years old but just popped up. What a great story , especially for someone your age who act so immature because of drinking. Plus I watch so many women your age get drunk, so drunk they get raped partying with a bunch of males. I am 17 years without alcohol and was best decision of my life. Anyone trying to quit, keep up good work, it’s worth it. Thanks again for posting this for young people who think it’s impossible to quit and enjoy life 👋
@chad0202Ай бұрын
Just remember, "We are not saints" we cant beat ourselves up everytime we mess up. You have got this, just keep on keeping on!! I celebrated my first two, 2 year aniversaries by getting drunk!! Im am going on three years this time thanks to my higher power and my program.
@gangstafish25Ай бұрын
I haven't had a drink in over 25 years. I used to drink alot. I only drank on the weekends,but I drank alot. Quitting was hard. But I finally did it.
@williamwaters4506Ай бұрын
You are an addict and addiction is sneaky. There is a devil talking into one of your ears and an angel talking into the other. You can be sober for twenty years and one drink sends you back in time like a speeding bullet. The guilt and self-depreciation kicks in and you start beating yourself up. You are sober for two years and the Devil tells you that you are cured, you can have one of two drinks. The Angel say, "Stephanie, don't listen to that Devil you will never be cured." Addiction is like cancer. Once you have cancer, are treated and no longer have it, you have to be monitored to make sure does not return. Here it was two years ago, how are you doing since then?
@jesuschristislord9150Ай бұрын
REPENT AND FOLLOW JESUS CHRIST BEFORE ITS TOO LATE
@livea3596Ай бұрын
The good news is that you know you can go another 2 years and likely longer.
@Ashes2Ashes_Blush2BlushАй бұрын
Im grateful that I have a chance ❤
@rickm6232Ай бұрын
Life is hard. I'm going through the same thing. My mother committed suicide in 2019. My father 2 suicide attempts in 2015. I believe trauma leads to everything. I'm on Vyvanse now. I AM YOU. I was meant to stumble onto your video. How are you now? It is not our fault. We are human. We seek any dopamine rush. i wouldn't be too hard on yourself, Much love. Rick :)
@redtree732Ай бұрын
Thank you for sharing this.
@RalfyCustomsАй бұрын
Hi, just stumbled upon this, I have no idea where you are at now on your journey, but hope you are doing well I was 8 years clean and dry when I lasped, then I spent a year drunk, and now I am happily sober for over a year, keep on keeping on hun
@onspotlyrics2024Ай бұрын
Addrall and sobriety? That's a hard one...
@aliciaparsons9177Ай бұрын
I know this is old but have you looked into trauma therapy? There are some absolutely fascinating neuro resets that come along with the trauma therapy and addiction ❤️❤️❤️