17 hours going strong... will report back on Week 17

I relapsed yesterday. I feel like shit and I just hate myself

I actually have a similar routine. Ive been getting interested in decorating my journals, but its too overwhelming, anyone with tips?

I hope you're still going strong !!!!!!

How many tears we shed 🌄 been years . But the great thing we start healing break this cycles

Thats motviate me . I will free myself soon i will .

Go throgh hell with these cycles

Just a message to all you kids watching this video, this mentality towards addiction is incredibly dangerous. Addiction is not a disease. It is merely a survival drive for pleasure. If Stephanie is reading this comment, I can only hope that she looks into rational recovery. It could save her life if she has fallen back into the trap again.

I loved this video; thank you so much from walking us through your routine! I’ve been an avid journaler (sp?) for probably 30 years, but lately I’ve been finding that I’m overthinking it. I’m trying to reset my routine, and appreciating the inspiration and modeling. Keep up the great work!

And now she lives under a bridge and shoots fentanyl. She is toothless and giving guys gonorrhea with her mouth. She went from a beautiful young woman to something that resembles a grandmother with terminal cancer. She keeps telling herself things will be amazing in the future, as her life consistently gets shorter. When a person’s brain finds joy in destroying the body, their life is over. Don’t get near them for fear you will look through their eyes and become another death with this binding of the mind.

Thank you so much for making this video Stef! It has helped me a lot you’ve spoken on everything that I needed to hear! Thank you for opening up. I can relate to much to this. So much love to you 💖

Karuna...Shanti

Thank you for sharing !!

Hope you're doing great, just came across your channel through a journaling video. I hope you're doing great. <3

WHERE DID YOU BUY TYAT 🎤 MICRO AND WHICH MODEL IS IT

Wow! the difference is astonishing!

I’ve been sober five years and girl once you realize you have a problem and accept it you become very powerful. It’s the mind that goes crazy but the longer you stay away from alcohol the more calm and free your mind will be. The reason we turned to alcohol is because we are fearing being ourselves. It’s about allowing your true self to shine through. I believe in you and so proud of you accepting your addiction. Life is amazing now that the cravings have finally been lifted. We don’t have to label ourselves alcoholics forever create a new story for yourself. ❤

I had my sugar and UP food relapse last week, it took my week to at least go back to track and I really found comfort in this video, thank you. I got from you, that I did not prioritise myself and that probably has been root of the issue.... thank you for sharing your experience <3

I absolutely loved this video!! Thank you for creating this. I have the same 5 year daily journal as you. I had abandoned it for a while, but now I feel inspired to pick it up again. Thank you!!

Assume you relapsed a year ago.

Disgusting and repulsive

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Thanks for the tips. You look great.

I’m out of college and I was getting up to 16 double sambucas in a night. (nearly 2 bottles) oops! How I’m still alive is beyond me. I’ve cut back massively both on drinking and partying because it just wasn’t fulfilling me anymore and was bringing me more negatives than positives. These days a go on a night out once a month, have about 4 drinks max, in bed before 1am every night and I’m happy enough, still have a good time and still get up and on with it after. Before I would have spent days fully recovering from the night before and the rest of that week I had the mental capacity of a child.

I had almost the same kind of relapse

I admire you... Carry your soul....

I started drinking when I was 18 so by 21 I probably was addicted. I'm 37 now and still drink but I don't go do crazy shit like when I was younger and I only drink in the evening so I guess I'm a functioning alcoholic lol

There have been times when one replaced the other like you described but at other times the two are together. Like now and at other times. I've been drinking for 18 years.

Stephanie, a diagnosis is just on paper. I never wanted anyone to know about it either but I know what it is and I've been extremely underweight and not eating and exercising etc so it's pretty obvious what that is. Reading it off a piece of paper wouldn't solve all my problems.

Yeah that's me. Eat every two days and just get drunk at night and go to sleep without eating. But I drank before I had anorexia so I don't think the two are directly related.

I cried because this is exactly my story.. being sober is such a gift. I have almost 1 month!

I'm so much older than you, but I have so much in common. I have had same problems: binge drinking and anorexia/orthorexia. I have always wanted to control my eating and exercising, but my drinking has been out of control. Sometimes I have eaten less and exercised more because I'm going to drink (calories).

3 years ago but the difference is huge

Sound advice. I think it's OK to do a little boozing if you lead an otherwise healthy lifestyle.

Well said.

Honestly this feels like my life story! I did the exact same things for the exact same reasons! I have started over so many times, but I won’t give up! Thank you for being such an inspiration and for honesty. You have reached more people than you can ever imagine. I realize I’m not alone.

Great job girlie!!! 👏🏽👏🏽💜💜

I’ve always been disciplined but the older I get the more I lose myself in my desires, then I struggle with shame, and then I think I’m not worth any effort. It’s a crazy cycle but videos like this help me see that I’m not alone.

Absolutely fuck alcohol real drugs are way better.

Hey Steph, I have a channel on sobriety and addiction. I would love to do an interview/talk to you over zoom for my channel if you are up for it. Great video!

Was sober for 10 years. I just fucked up and bought some crack.

6days sober and I'm excited for my face to clear up and for all this puffiness to go away!!

59 days sober. I can wait to see the physical benefits 😊😊

I relapsed after 7 years sober and im worse than i was before. I dont know why im doing this to myself. Its like i feel like i deserve to suffer😭

Ugh the keeping your self busy to numb is me ! I think vacation left me not busy and I gave in !

I just relapsed after 13 months and I went on weekend binges and your so right about the access we went on vacation and they had a complimentary bottle of wine I made it 4 days into vacation before me and my partner started not getting along as much and I just opened the wine and said forget it … we both ended up drinking after 1 year of sobriety and now since we been back home we have been binging on the weekend and now I’m just like ugh

Hey thanks I've been a heavy drinker for a long time I'm ten days sober , looking forward to seeing the new me

Where has she went?

I think it helps to have a reason to be sober. You want to look good. You want to feel good. You want to be at your best. You cannot do that or achieve that if you drink, or if you are drunk. The idea of being sober is a little scary sometimes, but just think how much more you can accomplish if you are sober, how much easier it will be to wake up in the morning, how many more people you can connect with and relate with. How much wealthier you could be! The list goes on and on.

Easy does it.. 💓