How I'm solving my identity crisis | A week in my life starting afresh

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[@HollyGabrielle]

Hey guys!! I'm super sorry if I seem quite distant at the moment, but I will be uploading once a week (I think I may even settle with Monday as a new upload day if that sounds good?) and sharing more personal things in due time, when it feels right, or only if it feels right. I won't also be replying as much as I used to in the comments for a bit of time, just because it brought me a lot of stress and sadness towards the end of last year. So as I said in the video, I'm putting myself and my mental health first right now so I can work on 'me' and find what I know is going to make me happiest long term. Thank you, as always, for supporting me and being here for me - it never goes unnoticed 💚

[@momentmemos]

You got this Holly, sending you lots of love🩵🩵🩵

[@PlanetImo]

The comments are the best and worst thing for creators. I have a fantasy outsourcing list as a creator. Can't possibly afford to pay anyone to help me yet, but on my list is someone to moderate my comments for me so I don't have to see the evil ones!!!

[@PlanetImo]

Oh and a channel I watch called Eight Miles from Home, literally years ago, made a video explaining why they don't ever, ever answer their comments. Mental health and time, basically - although their answer was lot more detailed, obviously.

[@justinfelt748]

You're amazing, Holly!😊😀😙💙💙💙💙💙💙🇺🇸🌷🇬🇧💜💜💜💜💜💚👍. Be strong, like me.😊👍

[@travelwithchristina3960]

Your mental health is the most important! Even though you feel a bit lost, I know that you sharing your struggles during the chaos that is post uni life with resonate with a lot of people and help them feel less alone. Let me just tell you, even though it seems like everyone has it all figured out, we are all just faking it till we make it! None of us really know what we’re doing!

[@LittleVenator]

Hi Holly 🤍 Just here to say I’m here to support you (and your content) through all of your phases/ups/downs. I’ve also been feeling very lost but your videos have helped keep me company and realize I’m not alone. Take good care of yourself!

[@rhythmicelegance4670]

Great to see you are being proactive about it! People of a wide age range and types of circumstances are experiencing identity crises in their own ways, striving to sort out who they’d like to become, what to do next, how to start over, how to manage day-to-day uncertainties, and so on. Some confront more than once in life. It can feel very tricky while being in the thick of it. Best of luck with it! 🍀 Nice New Balance jacket, btw!

[@hansanaik3835]

People with professional designations such as engineering (only certain engineering fields), medicine, dentistry, chartered accountancy, actuary etc. feel very secure in their jobs and such people usually do not have an identity crisis. I studied computer science and I am always stressed because technology changes fast and even if I keep up with the technology, it is hard to find an opportunity in the new technical area. It is always better to earn a professional designation that offers a variety of opportunities in different industries because it provides financial stability and financial freedom. As you get older (past 35), feeling secure in your job is very important and professional designations offer that security.

[@giorgiascaramuzza927]

This video made me emotional. I wish you a very good start of the year where you will be able to prioritise your health 💙

[@AlwynRainMystic]

can you talk about your career/professional goals for this year?/in general? :)

[@user-zd9po3tt4j]

she has none, she went to uni just to make KZbin videos while living with her parents😆

[@alisonlogan4065]

A problem shared is a problem halved. Take care holly , you are so motivating . Stay strong ❤

[@TashaKoss]

I love you singing!! Please sing more often!

[@piafleig]

Yes, coding is so fun!! I‘ve started learning coding about two months ago😊

[@tastypinata]

Putting yourself first sounds like the right thing to do!! Happy new year 🎉

[@deepakshisood6883]

Holly!! This is such a great video!!! I feel so happy amd inspired watching this. Keep going, we all love you ❤

[@momentmemos]

Good to see you back and loved this editing style!

[@rachellharnette3052]

Missed this content! Happy new year Holly ❤

[@jennieward1]

Well done for working through this holly. It’s always good to share with those you love and trust. Your mom and dad can give good advice im sure. It’s definitely important to have a good balance in life your work will benefit from your rest time zz

[@VOD22]

Loved this vlog holly! Hope you’re doing ok x I think more people go through times like this, I know i definitely did at the same age, just know you’re not alone. What a lovely supportive family you have around you x

[@JennyKendall]

gorgeous gorgeous edit!! Thanks for taking the time with this vlog, you can really tell!! Hope you have another lovely week

[@aylamoss3153]

happy belated birthday and happy new year! 🎉 you got this !

[@JGH2015Sara]

Take care dear Holly🎉

[@Junglista_89]

Hi Holly, do you see a therapist? If not, I genuinely feel that you'd benefit from talking to one.

[@JenJen-ve4di]

Hiii so glad you‘re back, seeing you posted just made my evening ☀ I‘m also continuously learning the importance of time off, and just decided to prioritise rest by stopping to work and watch ur video instead 🤭 so thanks for that! I‘m sure youre giving comfort and reassurance to many people atm going through uncertainty and stuff like that, sure are doing it for me, so thanks 😊

[@leoniebremer19]

I‘m soooo happy you‘re back! I‘ve missed your vlogs so badly. 🥺🥰❣️

[@laurenmillyx]

This video was top level Holly! ❤ you have definitely got your sparkle back!😊

[@jimmason1111]

Yes ! We are excited for new content !!

[@sarahjanebee3154]

Looking forward to watching your future vlogs 😊

[@Tusiacz]

hi Holly! My new year has started with a huge possibility of growth! I'm a pharmacist, but I also write basic articles about general medicine. Next week a have a last meeting with a huge pharmacy marketing company to work with them on content creation. 2024 starts very strong 🤩🤩

[@paulinag]

I really enjoyed new editing style, looks so cool and fresh!

[@AlwynRainMystic]

loved this video holly!!!

[@Carys.Jonesssx]

I’ve missed these🥰

[@clairebishop2188]

I have lost 3 stone over the last year. This year I am planning on training to compete in the hyrox in Dublin in October!

[@mhairirobertson]

Okay but your singing?!? So good! 🤩

[@l.isanne]

Welcome back, lots of love from the Netherlands 😊

[@willemijn8005]

Really liked the format and editing style of this video, felt like aaah Holly is back again!😊 Honestly though, the things you're describing Holly, to me sound totally like a classic quarter life crisis😅😂 Like.. all the questions about what direction to go in, what's important in your life, what you value most, what to do in terms of career, feeling lost etc etc all very typical questions to ask yourself in your late 20's. So I think it's really good not to be too hard on yourself, realise you're not alone in this (very relatable actually) and like you said, to try and stay positive about things. At the same time, its totally fine to be unsure for a while, you don't need to have it all together and figured out all of the time🤍 Just like with the previous couple videos (and digital nomad Thailand), you try some new stuff - some work, some don't work - its the same for everything in this phase of life I guess.. Just keep doing what you enjoy and like best, it's your life, you decide and don't need our approval🙈✨️ Have been watching you since you started Cambridge, so we'll stick around hahaha it's your personality, not the things you do or don't do, we want to see you happy too, just like watching an old friend😊🍀

[@typhanthongphay]

Any day is good day when Holly uploads a video 😁 Happy New Year's Holly 🎉🎊🥳🎂🎈

[@margaridapinheiro1789]

I don't usually comment on youtube videos, but I just wanted to say I'm happy for you! You will never be able to make everyone happy, the best you can do is be true to yourself. If you want to keep vloging and sharing your life that's okay if that's what resonates with you! Whoever you lose along the way doesn't really matter because you are coming closer to yourself :) Hope this year brings you some clarity ❤

[@elim5766]

You have such a beautiful voice Holly ❤️❤️

[@PlanetImo]

Yey! The week in the lifes are back!

[@auroraariyanto325]

Hai...I just want to say... we love u. U make your life seems real cuz for some people ur life is what they want. No one is perfect they just seems so...stay real. Love

[@francismcpherson3597]

Love this blogs! Missed you!

[@rj7839]

We are here for you ❤

[@samanthajean790]

Your hair has gotten so long! Beautiful x

[@zahra.mo11]

Loved the vlog!!❤

[@laurenmillyx]

What was the name of the app/platform you were using for weekly planning?

[@sarah_kale]

I'm so happy for you coming to terms with all that's been going on for you. I hope you find solutions that feel good and sustainable for you and ONLY for you! Your mental health is more important than anything else. And btw, please share if you try the juicy marbles stuff, because I have seen it online and I'm sooo curious about it! Haven't finished watching as I'm writing this comment, so if you have tried in the video, I'm sorry 😅

[@blommaontour]

hope 2024 will be a better year for you, hope Angelo is still part of your life

[@sheila5708]

They have a date night during the video

[@malvikapant7622]

Says identity crisis Also proceeds to capitalise on it through advertisements Hypocrisy at its peak eh

[@autie-fibromyalgialife3953]

What digital platform are you using to journal on your laptop

[@A.y2k]

27:12 share the recipe pls ❤

[@silvialogan9226]

Holly, take your time about when you want to upload videos and want to decide to do this year and the next few years. Some years can be good; other years can go bad. It is a fact of life.

[@angiesteg]

Great video

[@sophieirwin3497]

I think Bali and Java were sensing your mood and trying to cheer you up with puppy wags and their toys

[@lizzy8399]

live laugh love Holly xx

[@Joshuawaxx]

香蕉我都是一次吃好几根的，没切过

[@AlwynRainMystic]

was the fact 2023 was such a hard year anything to do with the fact you got into your first relationship?

[@sunqueen4080]

and contracted an std

[@shawn4093]

love you baby gurl, you're doing great mamas😘

[@kendrajohnson6535]

Milka in this video ❤

[@sophieirwin3497]

My house mate has that air fryer, just in blue. Let us know how you get on with it, as I might ask to borrow my house mates!

[@stevelawrence8945]

Any plans of moving out of your childhood home? Here in the USA young adults usually "leave the nest" right after college......

[@AlwynRainMystic]

not everyone has to be a sheep and live their life exactly like everyone else. People just can't cope seeing someone do differently than the ''norm'' that they keep pressurising people to conform until they finally give in. Maybe holly wants to live at home? thats how she feels happier? why should she live her life just to conform? people these days are such small minded judgemental sheep they can't deal with seeing someone living life their own way

[@emily0071000]

This doesn’t necessarily apply to Holly but in recent years many people in their 20s & 30s in the UK can’t afford to move out due to the skyrocketing cost of housing/rent compared to wages (especially in expensive parts of the country such as London & surrounding areas, Edinburgh, Oxford/Cambridge & many rural areas)

[@lifeliveslife3035]

I would like to see you investigate the church

[@eieigo]

your dogs are so cute! anyway i wish i had family like yours. my parents divorced 5 years ago haha last two clips are awesome!!!

[@sophieirwin3497]

Do you ever take Bali or Java on a run? Labs are good running partners apparently

[@sandrex1978]

🥰🥰

[@sunqueen4080]

there is a comment box for a reason

[@sunqueen4080]

Just my humble opinion but you may feel better about yourself if you move out of your parents house and support yourself and stop relying on them mid/late twenties is too old to be dependent on mamma & pappa

[@myrahkapoor1689]

Should have kept this opinion to yourself

[@AlwynRainMystic]

how is she depending on them?

[@mattconco]

You could've been even more humble and refrained from commenting

[@momentmemos]

@sunqueen4080 everyone is on different paths in this life and you don’t know what people are going through by just watching a KZbin video. Next time please pause and think before writing such a judgemental comment.

[@bribriannita7935]

Lol this is a very western idea. You do realise in other parts of the world people live with their parents for their whole lives. When they get married their parents move in with them. Separating is a very western notion.

[@bribriannita7935]

Honestly, and this might get a lot of hate, but you need to have a relationship with God. Thats whats missing and nothing and no one else can fill that Jesus sized hole in everyones heart.

[@stevelawrence8945]

I agree that Jesus is the answer to all of her questions. However, I also understand that she will never come to that understanding until it is too late. 99% of people today think you and I are ignorant and superstitious. They are wrong there as well. Thank you for giving a honest comment, in spite of the wrath you will receive in response to it!

[@bribriannita7935]

@@URBuggin78 there's more historical evidence for Jesus existence than there is for many other historical figures. Figures who's existence I'm sure you wouldn't even question. Even from a historical perspective and not a faith based one, the gospels are considered historically accurate documents. Now whether or not you place your faith in him as God is one thing, but his existence is a fact. To claim he is nothing but "Imaginary" is an uneducated and biased comment.

[@alexhika]

@@bribriannita7935 To be precise, there are historical evidence of historical events - such as social and political changes "at the time of Jesus", if you wanna call it like that, that are definitely connected to the spreading of a new, different kind of religion and theories on why it became popular in the Roman Empire. None of this means that Jesus as he is described in the Bible existed, let alone it is proof that God exists. The Gospels are NOT considered historical in any part of the globe XD even religious people are aware they went through several rounds of translations (just try and compare the Greek and Latin versions, without even getting into modern languages, and you'll see what I mean) across centuries, were heavily modified and hand-picked by the Church (there are TONS of "gospels" out there, obviously lots of people were writing about the historical events of the time, the 4 you see in the Bible are the final pick from the Church), and are not to be taken literally. There is nothing wrong with having your own faith and you can definitely argue that the historical changes happening at the time are deeply fascinating, but you have to be either very uneducated (nothing wrong with it, just don't pretend you have studied a subject if you haven't!) or just not interested in facts to claim the Gospels are an accurate source. If you have seen them being defined as "an historical document", it doesn't mean they contain facts, it means they hold historical value like any other ancient object, like a painting or a novel. I am very sad people spread so much wrong information and make a bad reputation for all religious people - I am not religious myself, but I have Christian friends, and they would never claim Gospels are a history book!

[@alexhika]

​@@bribriannita7935 To be precise, there are historical evidence of historical events - such as social and political changes "at the time of Jesus", if you wanna call it like that, that are definitely connected to the spreading of a new, different kind of religion and theories on why it became popular in the Roman Empire. None of this means that Jesus as he is described in the Bible existed, let alone it is proof that God exists. The Gospels are NOT considered historical in any part of the globe XD even religious people are aware they went through several rounds of translations (just try and compare the Greek and Latin versions, without even getting into modern languages, and you'll see what I mean) across centuries, were heavily modified and hand-picked by the Church (there are TONS of "gospels" out there, obviously lots of people were writing about the historical events of the time, the 4 you see in the Bible are the final pick from the Church), and are not to be taken literally. There is nothing wrong with having your own faith and you can definitely argue that the historical changes happening at the time are deeply fascinating, but you have to be either very uneducated (nothing wrong with it, just don't pretend you have studied a subject if you haven't!) or just not interested in facts to claim the Gospels are an accurate source. If you have seen them being defined as "an historical document", it doesn't mean they contain facts, it means they hold historical value like any other ancient object, like a painting or a novel. I am very sad people spread so much wrong information and make a bad reputation for all religious people - I am not religious myself, but I have Christian friends, and they would never claim Gospels are a history book!

[@alexhika]

​​@@bribriannita7935 idek why my comment keeps disappearing, but for the sake or correct information: the Bible/Gospels are NOT history books! They have historical values, but again, that is a completely different concept! It means they are old text worth studying the same way you study the Homeric poems or anything regarding the culture of ancient people. Not to mention the rounds of translations they went through before getting to us, and the fact the Church picked only 4 gospels, edited them and decided those were the ones (there's PLENTY of gospels out there, obviously, lots of people were writing down what was going around them, again, just like for any mythology). And yes, a Jesus-like figure might have existed but this has nothing to do with the religious aspect of it, it comes from studying the political and social situation of the Roman empire at the time. And just to be clear, since the person you replied to was clearly referring to God, there is ZERO proof of his existence - no supernatural being can have historical proof to support their existence! It's great to be confident in you faith and getting support from it, but sharing incorrect information doesn't really benefit anyone :(

[@justinfelt748]

Hi, Holly and Happy late Monday!😊😊😊😊😊😎☀🌌💙💙💙💙💙💙🇺🇸🌷🇬🇧💜💜💜💜💜💜💚🎇👍. First, 2024 is here. And second, I'm so excited about everything that just...evolved. COOL!😍😍😍😍😍😍😍