How I Turned Anxiety Into An Album 💿

Howdy! Today we're here to talk about using the bad things to create good, and the story behind my new album Motions And Echoes.
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[@VenusTheory]

Don't worry - this isn't "the burnout video". This Buckaroonie ain't going anywhere anytime soon. 🤠 Edit: thank you all so much for the incredible outpouring of support and for the support on the new album! I'm glad this video has stirred up so much good and discussion, and this is exactly why this community is awesome. Of course, credit to Hainbach for the inspiration: kzbin.info/www/bejne/eaq6ZoJnrbieapI

[@PapyPetitPois]

Ya ain't going anywhere downhill 🤠 Take care Cam

[@aons5481]

I don't know where I'd be without all the information you keep providing us. You teach me for free. Huge thanks for that, hope you are doing well. Take care.

[@JoshuaDb_The_Witness]

Im less than a minute ten seconds in - and I have to pause and say BRAVO! FUCKING A! Much respect for the candor - for being bravely vulnerable. We need more dudes being honest about their feelings and owneing it. Its the only way - through this dark time we are in globally - I know that sounds hyperbolic - and I am not one to make bold proclamations about how people "should be" - but the more cats who are willing to open up - and move through their pain - the better the world gets. Not kidding. So thank you for doing this... now back to the show.... (BTW - I had my first panic attack in my early 40s - I ended up in the ER - as I thought I was having a heart attack . The struggle is real! Much love and respect)

[@MrCowfood]

Hey, thanks for all you have done thus far and into the future. Your words, tutorials, art and channel have been a huge inspiration to myself and obviously many others. I can only hope when I hit it I have as much chutzpah, for lack of a better adjective, as you.

[@g.wavvymusic]

I appreciate what you've shared,very brave of you,hope you found some relief.Always remember that its ok not to be ok,it simply makes you human plus nothing is permanent.

[@kleur7809]

It makes absolutely no sense why something you create for yourself would even be enough to make someone mad, let alone make them take the time to transmit that negativity to you. They could just click off the video. Your content is great and there's enough of us that appreciate it. Please, don't get discouraged by the few unhappy souls who need to spread their toxicity.

[@tomscully7489]

These types of people are just miserable, and want to bring everyone else down to their level. It's sad really. I commend Cameron for turning all that toxicity into something creative and meaningful that perhaps helps him and others (even the haters) transcend their own negativity and misery.

[@290Alenka]

They're just plain sick

[@philipsnettleton]

Coz haters gotta hate. It's really that simple. There are just some really horrible people out there.

[@Michael-vk6ws]

Social media enables narcissism and some people just can't help themselves. Their ego prevents them from simply walking away.

[@whitex4652]

That's what idiots do: being idiots. I personally am that fed up with analysing and discussing idiots. These idiots belong put into the trash and deported into oblivion. I am completely with Cameron.

[@actualkevin]

Cameron in my 60s with a second grandchild on the way, and a 50 year interest in synthesis you have assisted regrouping into my own music, and a career in media, I must tell you that your videos themselves are way more than enough. Your impressive competency has shone and it still will. Skip the comments. They aren’t real. Your magnificent work for us, as you are able to do it, THAT’s real. Thank you, son. Your professionalism has made you a star. And that’s real too.

[@Mr.TeETH78]

I agree!

[@pablopicasso3122]

This comment is real. File this one away, Cameron.

[@neilsmith5464]

Amen.

[@hansmasing]

I'm 57 this year, and have wanted to create electronic music since the 1980's when I had access to a Korg M1 for about 4 months. I finally made the time in my life to pursue this passion, and you have summed up my feelings perfectly in my learning journey. I did manage to eek out some income as a drummer for about 25 years in bar/blues bands, but that was just to keep my music itch scratched. Now with some time on my hands and the incredible array of technologies available to create music, I'm starting to pursue this passion again. Cameron's videos have been a key part of this, and I thank you (Cameron) for this opportunity to follow your journey as it enriches mine. I hope that I can recall all the music theory I learned in the 70's when I was taking accordion lessons, and wrangle that in to songs that are finally ready to come out. I appreciate you, Cameron, and your vulnerability. Ignore the haters. Be you.

[@neilsmith5464]

@@hansmasing couldn’t put it better. Cameron. You bring joy light and inspiration to my weeks. Rest when you need. And carry on 🤘

[@justingilbertsound]

I don’t write KZbin comments. Maybe two or three a year. But I found your channel about 6 months ago and it’s been a very surreal experience for me, because almost every single video you put out has something in it that I needed at that point in time. Whether it was career advice, inspiration, or information I was looking for, you were just there. And even this video hits at me at an interesting point in my life and career. I find comfort in knowing that I’m not alone here, and that what I’m doing means something. Your videos never cease to ease my own struggles, if only for a short time, and give me the motivation to keep creating. Thank you, Cameron. I know very well about how this one positive comment can’t squelch the countless others, but just know that you motivated me to write it in the first place when I would have moved on, like I usually do on this site.

[@davidmcgirr]

I too rarely comment, but am waving a small Venus Theory flag with every new video.

[@FellowScorpio]

Thank you for making this video. I’ve been dealing with some mental health struggles as well, and I’m sure the community appreciates you and your transparency

[@samwritesmusic5402]

i feel ya man, stay strong

[@timdanyo898]

Many don’t have the courage to put themselves out there and attack others that do because they feel threatened by the success of others. You’re creating art and I am super encouraged by it! It’s a tough slog to put in the work and then put yourself in the independent creative ring. Keep it up brother! Seriously, just know I quietly feel inspired in the background seeing you pump out work.

[@PreFusah]

Listened to your new album in bed the other night and my god the amount of emotion you can pack into a song with no beat is truly remarkable.

[@DietrichPfister]

I am going through a divorce right now and am adapting to living by myself, only seeing my kids occasionally, and all that stuff. Ten years ago I was a local musician playing bass in marginal bands. With the sudden glut of free time and grappling with all the complex feelings that go with my situation, I bought a MIDI controller and decided I was going to learn electronic music, sound design, and production. Your channel has been an immense help to me over the past few months and I’ve binged a ton of your videos and have written and recorded a bunch of stuff that I just needed to get out of me but never had a vehicle for. Yeah, the internet sucks and lots of crabs will want to drag you back into the bucket, but I have to say I know I’m not alone in how much your channel has helped me deal with my own shit. So cheers to you, and I look forward to a lot more content.

[@virtuallifeform]

Been there; keep driving on! 👍

[@theneurologist1]

I know I'm five months late reading this comment, but i hope you are doing absolutely FANTASTIC now!!! I went through a nasty turbulent divorce also and i quit drinking during it. Almost ten years now. . It took everything from me. Mentally, physically, emotionally, and my kids. But now, I'm a thousand times better person, and my former wife is literally my best friend. I get my kids pretty much anytime they're not busy with mom. What I'm getting at is that it is definitely possible to have that life again with your former wife and kids no matter how hard the divorce was. It might take a few years, and a lot of changes within yourself, but there's one word that makes everything worth it . FAMILY. You got this!! 😁

[@MrStillwaters77]

As someone who has experienced severe anxiety, I just wanted to let you know that you are making a positive difference in people's lives and remind you that you don't owe us internet strangers anything. Thank you for taking so much time to teach us so many wonderful things and sharing so many cool ideas.

[@SongOfItself]

Cameron: I haven't watched yet, but I wanted to say something. Tonight, after I get off work and almost two years after I got my MIDI keyboard a DAW, I am finally going to publish my first real track on yt. It probably sucks big time, but I love it and I don't care. In the last 18 months or so I've been watching your videos here and almost all that I know about making sound happen and making stuff play they way I want, I know from you. You taught me sound design, you taught me to use a variety of instruments, you taught me to experiment with crazy sh*t, and you convinced me that I will be much happier with Bitwig than with other DAWs I tried (I am). At first I doubted that someone with that kind of voice and presence and general grip on things could ALSO be a wise and entertaining teacher, but there you are. Thank you, man. (And I have words for the people who post the things in your thumbnail, but it would not be... courteous of me to say those words.)

[@Stadsjaap]

Man that intro was intense and brutally honest. Keep on keeping on. You're doing an awesome thing. And remember: Social media is not the real world.

[@LenientProcess]

I'm a recent subscriber to your channel, and I'm also a nurse who's struggled with major depression and anxiety since going from being a pediatric nurse to a COVID nurse. I've been a musician since I was 9 years old and started playing the drums (and still do), so music has always been a huge part of my life. Long story short, after a long period of suffering through 2020, I finally sought help - It's still a work in progress, but life is unquestionably better. However, part of finally examining my 30-year-long depressive tendencies has been the loss of musical inspiration. I'd not played, let alone written anything for months. Until I watched your video on Mixolydian flat 6. In the days since, I've felt a spark of creativity - I'm sitting at the keyboard/drums every day, even if for only a few minutes, and it's slowly becoming more and more inspiring. So keep doing what makes you happy, there are always people who will hate what you do (nurses included). DM me or something, I'd be happy to talk about my treatment and recovery. And music, of course. Best wishes!

[@NigelMerrick]

First of all, I just want to say how much you and your channel have inspired me on my musical journey. Your teaching and creativity have always been a spark that keeps my going. That said. I totally understand everything you said about the pressure and colossal workload - all I can say to that is that you need to take care of YOU, and those closest to you, first and foremost. Regarding panic attacks, I know exactly what you've been going through. In the spring of 1994, there was a single moment that split my life into "before panic" and "after panic" when I started to have unbelievably frightening panic attacks as a result of trying to cope with the stresses of being a software developer and commuting 200+ miles per day to and from London (UK) by car or train. The heart palpitations, feelings of suffocation, intense vertigo, unexplained tingling and numbness, sheer terror, and an inability to tolerate crowded spaces were as unexpected as they were terrifying, and I wouldn't wish it on anyone. Those violent panic attacks stole more than 10 years of my life despite being able to escape the rut to a new life overseas, but I eventually was able to get it mostly under control. I'm sure you have a great support system, but if you ever need a confidential ear from someone who's been through it, just reach out, and I'll be happy to talk with you. You bring so much value to the music industry with your knowledge, skills, and creativity, and I hope you're able to keep going and manage all the negative elements of it. If, like many other KZbinrs these days, you need to take a break for a while to regroup, that's fine, too. Your true fans will still be here waiting for you when you're ready to return. I'm looking forward to listening to your new album, and wish you all the very best from here in Memphis TN :-)

[@Rhekluse]

Cyber abuse & bullying are everywhere and it can really take away from all of the positive growth. I always try to reminded myself of 'why' I make music and remember all of the supportive people I have met throughout the journey. Keep being you and keep making the music you love, Cam.

[@sons7429]

Thanks for sharing man. I get panic attacks too and I feel you. Keep up the good work! People are the worst. Anyone who criticizes so negatively on the internet is just a coward.

[@oldhom5038]

Y’all better quit talkin shit to Cameron or I swear I’ll get SynthGang to rise up and we will ride at dawn! Thank you for all you do, your videos inspire me even outside of music. When I can’t create I watch your vids and it’s like a deep musical conversation with a big homie. You help so many and so much and you are enough. Thank you again, truly.

[@quintinspina4270]

Hey Cameron, I'm relatively new to the channel, but you've quickly become a huge role model for me. Musically and just in general! You've already added so much value to my life in such a short time, even getting me back into producing after a very hard couple of years. So thank you for that, and stay strong, you're doing a hell of a bang up job already and I have no doubt you'll keep it up! Can't wait to see what else you'll have for us :) Cheers!

[@DrBuffaloBalls]

If I wasn't able to exert all the shitty things I've felt throughout my life into music, I wouldn't be here. Being able to literally play out your emotions is such a tremendously positive thing for maintaining mental health. In many ways, putting your emotions into music transforms those thoughts from huge, abstract and scary concepts into something coherent and more easy to grasp. The thought becomes better articulated, less foreign and intimidating, and easier to overcome.

[@anthonymetcalf660]

People talk about putting emotions into music a lot, but the phrase "play out your emotions" is really helpful to me right now because of the double meaning. I think I was mixing it up with expressing beliefs about your emotions, but I should focus more on expressing the experience of those emotions and it will feel way less forced. As they say, "Show, don't tell".

[@vdub4216]

Negative comments say more about the person writing them than the actual message... remember that. Turning negativity into fuel for your creative fire is an art, just like your productions. Keep recycling that fuel and may the dumpster fire of comments burn and light the path for you to follow. Respect and peace from 🇦🇺🙏

[@friesiamans1966]

well said!

[@valerioveneziano9380]

Hey man….u’re my best source of inspiration in this f**kin world! I’m proud of u 💎

[@majesticspaceduck876]

I only just started watching your videos recently. Really love them and I think you do great work. Hearing "howdy doody buckaroonies" usually means I'm about to enjoy a video.

[@sqwerty0829]

Everyone has their own criticism or expectation of how your music should sound so you can't please everyone... This is the exact reason why I've decided to make music anonymously, It's the only way I've found that I can work in peace and helps me just focus on the music. Although being an anonymous artist does mean that you lose real connection with your audience and it can feel really lonely...

[@anthonymetcalf660]

I'm gonna do the same, but I think it might help to join a band as well or have a separate side project where I'm not anonymous and I just play local unpaid gigs. I love that type of stuff because there's often no stage so the band is right there with the small audience.

[@sqwerty0829]

@@anthonymetcalf660 that's a great idea! You can still have the best of both worlds... You're right though, nothing beats playing live and it can be tough trying to market yourself if you remain anonymous.

[@davidpurple3698]

Just me clear on who you're doing music for? - to be recognised, for your own purpose, to express yourself or...

[@iambazii]

I gotta hand it to you, it takes guts to be as open about yourself and your struggles, especially on YT. Thank you for taking the time to create this album, and this video. I've had the album on repeat this week, and it's been just what I needed. This video has also done so much for me in my musical journey. And if there's one thing I can take away from this, its time for me to just do my own thing with my music, regardless of what others may think or say. Thanks again VT! You're a legend!

[@jimsface]

Well, for what it’s worth: 1) I’ve never listened to your music before this recent album is 100% the vibes I needed to hear. Disappearing into the ambiance of it, yet also existing within it, feels incredible. Thank you for this project. 2) Your videos are endlessly helpful. While comments like these don’t guard you from the toxic bullshit you have had to deal with, I hope they at least go some way towards making you feel lighter. 3) Life is weird and strange and people are weirder and stranger. Hope you feel better soon.

[@evanjensen792]

As someone with depression and anxiety, I understand. I recently began composing and diving into sound design. Your videos are an amazing source inspiration and every single one makes me want to jump back in, there and then. Thank you for what you do, please keep going.

[@rogercawkwell5413]

It's really hard to know how to respond to such a personal message as this through the impersonal medium of a KZbin comment. From my miniscule forays into social media, I have fortunately only (very) occasionally come across the sort of extreme and unwarranted negativity that you've shared with us today and I recall my pain and perplexity at trying to come to terms with only a fraction of what you must come across regularly. I don't know how to express my sympathy through a keyboard (well, a piano, maybe) but what helps me in such moments is the recollection that the hateful messages are all about the sender, not you at all, and you can be so thankful that you're you, not them.

[@RianTrost]

Beautifully said

[@avsystem3142]

It isn't until one begins to engage humanity on a mass scale that the realization about how many people are damaged goods becomes apparent. KZbin creators have the ability to block commentors. Criticism is one thing and can be useful and healthy. Batshit crazy rants, abusive insults and threatening emails from the mentally challenged is another. Feel no compunction about removing those from your channel.

[@TheJagdtiger5]

I don't comment much on You Tube for the fear that someone will make a insult to my comments and my bad grammar, but once again you inspired me. Man you always amaze me with your honesty and how you create music and sounds. Sorry to hear about the anxiety stuff, its not to be taken lightly speaking from experience. It sucks there are people out there that don't care if there actions hurt others. One thing I learned while battling cancer is that pain can overwhelm anyone regardless if you have a paper cut, broken leg or a broken past. Its sad to think a lot of people don't realize this, So I am glad to see that you didn't let those haters ruin your passion. You rock Bro !!!!! I started late in life to learn music and sound design but you drive me to use every minute I can to learn and play. I just cant imagine my morning coffee with out Cameron, Peace bro.

[@scottymac3634]

This is brave. Thanks so much for it. You wouldn’t think a music ed channel would inspire visceral hatred, but there you go. I know that one bad remark can negate a thousand good ones (not just for you, for everyone), but try to remember that most of us love your content and style, even if we don’t agree with everything (it would be weird if we all did). You're growing fast for a reason. I think we'd all be OK with fewer videos if it gave you a chance to kiss your dog and pat your wife (oops). Gonna go find the album now. Thanks again.

[@Andrew-uc6ye]

Hey man, you've become one of my favorite music youtubers, and just wanted to say thank you for inspiring me to try Bitwig. Its the most fun I've had making music in years, which in turn means I'm actually finishing projects more often. Your channel is fantasic!

[@mikerobinson8739]

Cameron. For what it’s worth, you have inspired me. I love your attitude, delivery and talent. You have made me more aware of the sounds around me and how to be creative with them.

[@martinleduc3210]

Take care man! You've been very generous and i learned a lot from you, and i'm in digital sound optic installations, almost on the street at 53 and ended up at the emergency for the 1st time in my life at 53! So i feel you. I have rents late and and PhD, and just got a good news for a postdoc. It's been fuck'n hard, lost my girlfriend and i'm doing ok now. Just wanted to tell you that you have to listen to your heart and relax when needed, and also know that you personally helped with your generous way of giving. Just really wanted to say that the most important is to find a way to last and keep your magic. I'll listen to your album soon. Ok, enjoy just breathing deep in the nature if you can. Martin

[@Cefshah]

You're quite human, Cameron. I see/hear the awesomeness flowing out of you... regularly!! I know it takes internal strength and a modicum of courage to accomplish 'living'. And your creativity, knowledge, wisdom and music is an expression of 'yourself'. I appreciate you sharing the things you have. 🙂

[@DrMarlowski]

Cameron, if you read this: Thank you so much for all the work you've put into this channel. I'm saddened to hear that it's put such a burden on you. You have been SUCH a big inspiration for me, I wish I could give back somehow. Thanks for being you! (Greetings from Finland)

[@phiwolgast]

Thank you for telling your story. I think i speak for most of the people watching your channel when I say you have inspired and helped more people than you know. So many people have to deal with these kinds of feelings, and it's relieving to hear others with similar experiences. But it's the wise and very human thing to do to create art from hardships. Thank you, and I hope you continue to do what you do despite any negativity, because it's obvious that you love it.

[@max356bruh]

I stumbled upon this channel wanting to learn more about music production, but I ended up with a lot more from you. Hearing your thoughts on the more personal matters of being an artist is something that i really like about your channel. I think it builds a deeper connection with your viewers and very few content creators actually focus on that nowadays. Thank you for putting your heart out there along with your knowledge, Cameron. Keep it up!

[@SonnyGreenwichJr]

Just had a nice long dreamy listen to Motions & Echos... Just keep at it man, and don't worry about anything others have negative to say. Salutations from astonishingly grey, mild & weirdly back to normal Ireland! ☘💪🏽👀👍🏽☘

[@hypoluxia8009]

Thank you. I'm in between depression and extra spicy anxiety constantly. Currently just staring at my synths, wanting to create but failing to motivate myself. This video came on my television and now, I'm getting off my ass, and create something, thanks for inspiring me.

[@tonymckeown1314]

I'm sorry to hear about the online bile you've had to deal with, and that the channel has become overwhelming to the point of panic attacks. I hope you're getting the support you need to do this work (and life) and that you aren't just trying to do it all alone. It's great that you've reconnected to your source of creativity and completed this album, which I will listen to.

[@davidleewarner]

As a hobbyist producer who has been absolutely crippled with musical self-doubt I am at the point where I struggle to even enjoy making music because every time I do I feel like a failure in every respect. Different struggle, but your message here will ring in my ears going forward and I'm hopeful it will help get me out of the funk. Thank you for your continued contributions to this world!

[@dunehaggar7495]

You can bridge the gap in your talking between clear intellegent academic and also deep, emotionally charged and honest... rare man.. this post will hit home with other creatives more than you probably thought.

[@tonyduncan4875]

Thanks for this video. I love what you do. I know I don’t comment often but I watch 90% of your videos. And I totally get what your saying, I have a band, I run a Facebook synthesizer group, and have a KZbin channel and a 60 hour a week full time job. There’s never enough hours in the day to do everything. Keep on keeping on brother!

[@jamesherndon8066]

I honestly think you’re one of the more generous people with your content because you share actual music theory and sound design techniques. You’re one of the best.

[@bobdeadbeef]

Like Actual Kevin, I’m in my 60’s w/ a 50-year interest in synthesis. One thing you need to give yourself credit for is being an inspiring teacher. I always come away from your videos with inspiration to try something new, or simply to persevere and let the chips fall where they may. Maybe I won’t complete my album before I die, but I’ll have had more fun with it, for which I thank you! Sorry about the panic attacks! I’ve seen up close how devastating they can be. I’m glad you’ve found your way through. But if you ever do burn out, remember you don’.t owe us anything, and you’ll be missed and appreciated for your past contributions! In the meantime, I always look forward to your next video.

[@geoffmathews896]

Wise words man. Your channel has helped me so much and I really appreciate the selfless sharing of so much knowledge. Let the haters hate and trust that you have made a lasting difference to the overwhelming majority of viewers. Thank you!

[@oare555]

Cameron --- you are a source of inspiration from a multitude of angles for me... personally and here... I can relate to your state of anger and burn out and fear and uneasiness to an intimate level. What I learned, in my industry and experience, is that a creative process is the catalyst to resetting your brain back to default. We build these concepts and ideas in our heads and we give them importance and assign weighting to them... we then give them our emotions, time and energy... without realising that we are no longer driving the train... The human being I see in front is in "this" moment now, is truly beautiful, sensitive and strong... and I love this human being... and the art, thought and kindness it inspires in me... I am lucky I found you Sir

[@DeceptivelyBlank]

I don't write comments much but your tutorials have helped me make all kinds of fun music, I don't know you and you don't know me but you've helped me musically and it makes me feel like I'm actually getting somewhere, so thank you mister venus theory, bad comments suck.

[@adyrhan2839]

This video resonates so much with me. I've been struggling with anxiety and ocassional depression for the last 2 years and the global situation now with all that is happening is not helping. I also like to play with music since this is only for me a hobby but I think with this video telling your experience and how you have channeled your emotions into your music I believe I should do the same with the time I have left. I don't want to get professional, I just need to express and communicate emotions, the ones I have. I don't want to say that I'm totally decided because I know what it is to being consistent to finish tracks and not just play and finish one a year as I do but... this video of yours surely is moving some machinery on my mind. I believe it is a great idea you had and I congratulate you for your album, as I'm sure getting what you have inside you into music must have been a challenge in terms of judging your own work, since it is supposed to somehow align with what you are feeling in the moment.

[@aevanelstprojects8926]

The beauty in me see's beauty looking at you, the ugly in me see's ugly when I look at you. So in a way everything, the good and the bad, are just a reflection of my own beliefs. You strike me as a very conscious person, when I listen to your video intro's. The panic attacks can be a indication of a dying ego. I see it like music comes trough me.....I didn't create it but it came trough me......it looks personal but to be honest, 'my' most beautiful music were unexpected presents.....soon claimed by ego saying 'I made this music'' I'm so glad this beautiful and inspiring youtube channel comes trough you!

[@mmoncur]

I have a habit of creating tracks or even albums, deciding they're not good enough, and never letting anyone hear them. This was really what I needed to hear to start getting over that nonsense. Thanks and I look forward to listening to your album.

[@michaeldoyle1519]

This was truly powerful for me, and I am sure for others. I have really enjoyed this channel and have learned a lot. Your heartfelt honesty coupled with your ever constant wit is fucking awesome!

[@MattiasHolmgren]

Absolutely wonderful video Cameron! 💎Our lives, struggles, love / hate and journeys can all be the fuel to creativity, and for us…sounds. These emotions materialized into art and sound will often yield the best and most meaningful and honest songs. But it’s indeed a hard journey. Congrats on the wonderful album! 🥃

[@maykstuff]

For the past year I've had an idea in my head for an album and yet the struggle of actually sitting down and getting it out of my head is paralysing. I'll admit that mine is due to depression rather than anxiety, but what you say about it being the most needed when it is hardest is the truest thing I have heard in months. I found your channel in the past month or so and I can not thank you enough for everything you do. From your vst breakdowns to inspirational methods, you are a diamond. Fuck the haters. They don't deserve you x

[@epicon6]

Thank you for posting this. Really important topics. I have a youtube channel (not this account) and what helped me was when i understood that every negative/hateful comment is written because they feel bad about themselves and want others to feel bad like they do. And that people scrolling youtube feel like it's their world/their space and many people are positive and write positive comments but negative people spout out negativity almost like they have Terrets syndrom because they just write out of reaction and don't understand there are real people behind the videos. Many people like that are just passing through and haven't even taken the time to get to know your channel and it's one reason why they should be igroned and not taken personally. And i'm suspecting most people who write negative comments do that every time they are on youtube as a habit and everyone is a target. And like you said it's weird that people even write nasty comments on a channel that's basically about positivity and education and inspiring people.. but people who feel bad within themselves automatically react to seeing you happy and succesfull by trying to bring you down to their level of unhappiness and not being succesfull. So keep your head up and think of the positivity and inspiration of your channel as a wild fire that spreads to people who continue to spread it forwards and change their lives for the better. Negative people are trying to extinguish your flame but a wild fire can't be put out by a few dumbasses pissing on it :)

[@boris_ev]

❤, I am with you, glad you shared this. My music is the place where I meet myself. I may encounter my fears, and then the meeting turns dark and depressing, but at the same time my work becomes the ground I can stand on. Basically, I create a space to learn how to believe in myself. The greatest thing about it: in the end I get to share a record of my journey with people I care about. This is one of the most rich and sincere communication methods I know, and it's probably why I am doing this. Thank you so much for helping me with it, your honesty and dedication becomes mine. Okay, going back to it 😊

[@lebronzejames9738]

In so many ways, you are a true teacher, you share for the actual point of watching others grow - this is something that is ancient and yet still lost in our times. I want to personally thank you for sharing such harsh moments in life, all too often are people conditioned to get "likes" and "subscribes" that that are all too superficial. They don't feed the soul/spirit/etc. Thank you for posting this, this came at a perfect time for myself and my significant other. They needed to see that when things go down, the right character, can turn that down into an up and so down becomes up. Thank you again so much! You're my fav YT'r for all of my music and otherwise inspirational needs.

[@anshulsinghchauhan1418]

This is so emotional man! Recently, even i was suggested by the Universe to let my emotions play the music.. and I was planning to do that and stummbled upon this video! You are GOD!!!

[@elizabeth-8]

Thank you for making this video. I needed to hear this.

[@chrisrussell1318]

Just know this man, I have been so inspired by you and your channel because you're just real and to be honest I just saw this video after I listened to your album. Dude, I have recently been through that anxiety shit myself, and to imagine what you went through because you have this KZbin channel is on another level so thank you for getting through it and spreading your inspiration to all who appreciate you! Continue on my friend because you're a blessing for all who create 🤗🙏🎶❤

[@tonydesmet7389]

Thank you for this video. I must say I am surprised to hear some people respond by hate speech to a video trying to help them in their music journey, made by a master in the subject who is so kind to share his knowledge. It would be interesting to investigate the motives of these people. I sincerely hope you don't let these people bring you down. That would be such a shame. Just know that there are a lot of people like me who watch your videos in gratitude and admiration. Thank you very much by all the high quality guides you were so kind to bring to us! Greetings from Belgium!

[@tjwalkup7155]

Dude, You are making music and that is productive. People who are negative about that don’t make much worth listening to. Your sample packs are stellar! Thanks for doing it all.

[@jamesh2492]

Best 13:57 of my life spent listening to someone on their journey...I hear a lot of "you're wasting your time" "your how old and still playin with music"... "do something productive will you"...list goes on. Little does she know my attempt to product music is my way of escaping all those negative emotional moments leading up to my 46 years on earth. Music production is a way to channel my attempt at blocking out those narcissistic comments and allows me to be a better more even keeled adult in this world we live in - thanks for sharing. Your message was a light along a dark road so that I can see for a moment the next bend. Thank you.

[@BOMBPHONICS]

You continually inspire me. Keep doing what you do!

[@observingsystem]

Great video, thank you for doing it. I get a lot out of your videos, I really love your channel. I'm going through a bit of rough time myself atm and trying to work through it making music, your videos help me technically AND cheer me up. Wanted to let you know that. Thank you, Cameron! ❤

[@nicoincertezza5763]

thank you cameron for this honest and encouraging video! it means a lot to me

[@domasgudelis]

You are doing an amazing job! Love your videos! It makes me feel calm. Keep going man. Take care!

[@hannes3864]

Thank you Cameron for being you and let me be part of your journey on this planet through your videos and music. Thank you especially for pointing out, that nobody can express me but myself. Everytime I connect myself with this truth, it touches me deeply - realising, that in fact the only thing what this life is all about is expressing myself, expressing answers to the questions life is asking me... ...and that nobody can judge whether this is bad or good, wrong or right - as it just is.

[@kimspence-jones4765]

I certainly find your content inspirational and informative. Your style is not exactly similar to mine, but that’s part of what makes watching you so worthwhile. Stay strong, and keep going. 😉

[@xiansamurai774]

Respect ,love and light..dude, the force IS with you ! Tnx again for your work

[@timopeedu6077]

I’ve been enjoying your informative posts immensely. Now l discovered your wonderful music. Thank you so much!

[@jknock148]

Glad you released this, I always watch your videos for great ideas that inspire me to create, never thought to check out your music, glad I did!

[@SeanKearney]

I'm a big fan of your work and love this video. Thank you for sharing so much with us.

[@substructure88]

Brother first I want to thank you for your work, sharing your knowledge and opinions and approach to music creation is 100x more valuable than youtube or any other platform will ever goin to pay you, as my gradnma was saying knowledge is only priceless thing in the world. Secund thing is that watching your channel not only gave me knowledge but make me laugh to tears, as your humor and sarcasm is outstanding. You helped me to get inspired and to move true deep moments of my own life. So thank you from

[@samkenny3075]

This video itself is a masterpiece. Can't wait to hear the album and I absolutely love your channel-- can't thank you enough

[@parristaylor]

You're very good at this. Thanks for keeping it up!

[@morpheon_xyz]

This video couldn't have came at a better time 🥺 thanks Cameron 💙 keep the bright side up, and thanks for the content you do create

[@ouyubeats]

Thanks for your honesty and authenticity. Another super inspiring video.

[@S.R.S_junglist]

you are an amazing artist producer i have learned alot from you these last few months an love your videos man even when u were goin threw your own things you were inspiring others. Big love an respect to you good sir!!

[@Justinolsontunes]

Absolutely beautiful album/body of work! :) I am really enjoying it. Thank you for the insight into the process.

[@themattschulz3984]

Real talk, real inspiration ... you are so right, thanks for the reminder

[@garethwarren7025]

I wish you all the best man, these new tracks have been inspiring to me! Take care of yourself and continue with fulfiling your obligation to create and transmit your art to the world regardless of the outcome.

[@theneurologist1]

Started listening to the album, five minutes later....clicked on the description then transferred over to this video. This was.... absolutely beautiful! Thank you! There is so much i could write here about how i use the emotions from memories to create music....but I'm going to hop back over to the album and enjoy the eargasm. Again, thank you! 🤩

[@louislafontaine5984]

I see creation as digging your own inner mine in search of your personal gold. No one else will do it for you. What you will find is truly personal. Some revealed gems will be more valuable than other, but don’t forget the process is also part of the reward. Thnak you so much for your channel. Greatly appreciated here.

[@EEKmusic]

I wish all the best for you dude. You've helped out and inspired so many people! Thank you!

[@DirettoIZM]

You've made many videos that have taught and inspired me, and this one might be the most inspirational yet. You and your work are appreciated.

[@ChrisCross8]

I love your new album, it is really powerful. Music can be an amazing form of therapy. I hope you feel better now. Thank you for all the inspiring videos and the great music! :)

[@Spiderhound]

I appreciate what you do! Thank you for sharing your time, talent, creativity and wisdom. Lots of Love!

[@oops-i-broke-it]

I'm glad you're here and will probably always be looking forward to the next one. I sort of watch this channel and a pile of others from a long distance I generally don't comment, but I feel this one and relate pretty hard. I'm not sure how it feels on your end but for me, I have to imagine it's pretty hard to start on a video like and then hard to avoid just venting for half an hour. This has been pretty encouraging for me and I hope you get the good thank you out of it. Gonna go make something for me now.

[@solofemusic]

Outstanding video indeed, especially the final words!

[@tarrah662]

I am glad you were able to find a release for what you were experiencing. And I am even more glad that you are feeling better. 💚

[@Blamo-Sound]

Thank you for expressing what has been going on and how you worked through it. You're a legend!!

[@crestonhorses2365]

Thanks so much for the all of the inspiration, the useful, clear content, and for being courageously open about anxiety.

[@freethetide]

Wow, this is powerful stuff. It hit on so many levels of how the musical journey has been...and is. I appreciate you, being transparent enough to share this with us. The beginning sounded like the battle, in my head, that cycles around from time to time. You profoundly encouraged me. And inspired. Thank you for sharing this part of you, with us, and abundant blessings to you.

[@winstonhulley626]

Thanks Cameron, I really enjoy your channel!

[@Alchemyrecordingstudioatl]

Damn this is exactly what I needed to hear ... I have watched your videos for a while but just subscribed.

[@verticalpark]

Thank you for sharing Cameron and I'm glad you're ok. You have inspired me in so many ways and I am a more confident artist because of you.

[@ERICVIOLETTEart]

I have so much respect for you and the authenticity of your path. You are a beautiful human being, you inspire me a lot as a musician and also as a person. May the sun shines you!

[@DominaLux]

Thank you for that Cameron. I really appreciate your creations, your videos. I'm grateful for artits like you that are vulnerable enough to show their hearts like you do! I'm a fan, THANK YOU for being in my existence virtually. Thank you for your honesty and showing your sensitivity. That is what a consider the biggest strenght in someone. I'll continue to follow you and your channel, you are of great help! Thanks

[@ChrisStarkGtr]

Thank you for your candid honesty. I’m sure this wasn’t easy to share, but if nothing else, you’ve resonated with at least one kindred spirit. This adds a complex depth to your album, and I’m eager to listen to it now through this new lens. Thank you for all you do. You are an inspiration!

[@joshwallacex]

never watched your videos before but hearing what you've been going through struck a cord with me. Thank you for sharing!!

[@4fliptube]

Keep up your good Work! I love your Chanel and it is very inspring.