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[@jerickson_abuel]

1:23 Me every time there's a new Dami Lee video. Having a space that reflects who you are IS self care. Glad you're taking us along the set remodel also. #SaveTheRedBrick

[@DamiLeeArch]

Hahah that # 😆

[@oinochoe]

Don’t paint the fireplace, it looks exactly like you described your moodboard warm cosy and relaxing. I think it’s what’s around it

[@therecycledpirate]

Fully agree! I had an apartment where I did have to paint it, because it was too damaged, I regretted that for the 7 years I lived there. I wished I had made more of an effort to decorate it with wood or something. Once you go whitewash... Nah...

[@laowaistudieschina7470]

The brick overall is only a bit redder than the burnt sienna sample on your mood board. Please don't paint it, I like the traditional element in the studio.

[@chemicalsimulationcorner]

The fireplace is what makes your videos actually more calming to look at. Makes the background interesting and relatable. Keep it please. ❤🧡

[@MassiveJetGrind]

Yeah, I really like the brick background. It's warm and cozy, and it feels iconic to me at this point.

[@athenashah-scarborough858]

I actually really like the fireplace, but then again I'm always a sucker for a good red. Excellent video as always, thanks for sharing your method!

[@Black_pearl_adrift]

I actually gasped when I first saw your background. Your filming makes it look so cozy and warm!

[@vishnuhrp]

Dami I love your amazing articulation of your ideas!

[@swlol3335]

Hey Dami love the video and can't wait to see the full transformation! I have a few questions to ask; 1) When you set up generic furniture in sketchup do you then already visualize the actual furnitures that you want to put in? or you will consider the furnitures later while you are scouting for it? Example: if you already choose a generic storage piece in sketchup but can't find it in real life, how does that affect the design? 2) When renovating/decorating the space which do you consider first? the paint colour or the flooring or the biggest piece of furniture in the room to act as the base that ties all the elements together? Thank you!

[@StarfishCoaching]

Great video! I love how you show us your digital tools with it. I've subscribed!

[@pamelabittikofer1838]

Excellent video! I thoroughly enjoyed all of the content, and I also agree with the viewer Oinochoe, I loved all of the autumnal colours in the fabrics etc., they work beautifully with the existing colours in the fireplace.

[@UnlimitedFlyers]

Your channel is very informative, educational, entertaining and downright *fun* for those who have a passion for learning. Thank you very much and please keep up the amazing work! :)

[@phx1237]

Thanks for the upload! Great way to start the morning!

[@Phoenixia86]

I actually don't think you can go wrong either way with the brick. The way you have it lit in your videos is really beautiful but I see the benefit of white washing it in a room that doesn't get a lot of natural light. I painted my own brick fireplace white and it doesn't take away from the focal point but I feel like it makes it less 'heavy', for my space. I think what you should consider changing on the fireplace is the slate (?) hearth top, if it's in your budget. I like slate, but I think there is too much pattern(? for lack of a better word) in one area.

[@vladislavmolchanov5431]

Yaaay, look at you! I hope one day, on my architectural path to have my KZbin channel like Dami Lee! I really like your videos and your thought process. Thank you for sharing your experience with us!

[@shreyaparajuli]

I feel like you got inside my brain and posted right what I wanted 🤧😍

[@senaits9067]

Exactly ! I was feeling the same thing

[@hienvo-ll3lr]

Thanks for making this video, I got a lot of new ideas and inspiration from this. Stay tuned for your next video.

[@DamiLeeArch]

My pleasure!

[@abdulaziz_sheraliyevich]

Your everyvideo is so amazing. Thank you very much.

[@rlgillette]

A black fireplace with wood mantel would still be warm and cozy, yet dynamic looking.

[@eddiealva4453]

Excellent lessons Thank You very much.

[@Yellowbullet714]

Your video editing is superb

[@BrakeForLoop]

I think you answered your own question from a future video talking about using machine learning. DALL-E can create the mood board image but it takes experience to know what makes a good space to live in compared to a pretty picture.

[@karot8059]

for me, those bricks look beautiful as is

[@felixdacat6572]

I'm a new subscriber and like your views on architechture as related to your reaction to 5 famous Sci-Fi movies...Nice vid...made me think...As for your vid on dveloping a Mood Board and your brick fireplace....As an "Urban homesteader" I have a rehabed "railroad style" apartment in NYC...I was able to work with the architecht during the rehab and went for exposed brick along the length of the aparment (and I did the pointing and muric acid treatment myself as part of my "sweat equity" contribution)...in short I learned a skill I previously didn't have, but more importantly I got my brick wall...felt the same way (was it dated and yes once I paint it I can't really undo it)...so I opted for white washing only the bedroom that faces the east and upon sunrise magnifies the light from bedroom thru to the living room...so what ever you choose I agree ya gotta live with that choice and once seen can't be easily unseen...Good luck.

ameeeei !!! love it !kisses from Brazil !

[@konstrakph]

I love you Dami! 😽

[@coldboricha]

Oh mo godd! Dami I love your red bricks from the first time I watched your video, please keep them😢

[@AshyGr33n]

Some green plants by the not-fireplace with some good lighting could really make it pop imo.

[@asimwilliams2116]

Dami Lee the GOAT

[@rugved7950]

Can you please tell me what apps were there shown in the video which were used by you to show the interior designs

[@ashtonramdeen]

Hey Dami (and all other architects), Happy World Architecture Day!!!

[@ashtonramdeen]

@Text me on Telegram np

[@ssasdbyccmc]

Great video. What kind of lens do you use on your camera?

[@markus.kaufmann]

I've always thought, the fireplace is on greenscreen - and was fascinated how perfect the chroma keying was done.

[@pamelamoreira1975]

I love your videos.❤

[@brendadubon206]

Have you finished? I cant find the video of the finished product. Thanks!

[@21Abdalle]

Aslymu alylum (peace be with you) Damele. I would love you to make a video about how to design (from A to Z) the building/structure and talk about all the different engineers and architects who are involved in the design and how they work on it and the level of work for all the professionals involved in the construction...... Thanks sister I really love your work And the way you make videos, you are my idol. Believe me I became addicted to your videos 😅 It is informative and interesting content at the same time.....

[@krishnavenidoddi7386]

Thank you so much 💗

[@DamiLeeArch]

No probs!

[@Polina_Malka]

Demi, can I draw digitally on a PC? Without using a pen?

[@Luke-qj5jn]

I just bought an apartment and I'm trying to design everything we accessible as I can, I just wish there were more people focusing on ADA designs....

[@barbiedoll1695]

Hi, can anyone tell me the name of the software using which she made rendering/3d drawing of the room in her ipad?

[@Benham_Design]

I vote to keep the red brick, it's warm and inviting.

[@wafaisal]

Hi what software is that for the quick sketches?

[@jviland]

Where is the next vid in this project, I´m so invested!

[@maxmax5054]

0:49 is my dream setup, perfect space for a single guy. Just instead those plants under the stairs I would put my working desk. Maybe one day...

[@mekman4]

Great Stuff!

[@shekhargupta6718]

You look gorgeous in this vlog and that adds more value to your vlog

[@kdeuler]

Thanks for this vid! What is that 3d software you're using?

[@DamiLeeArch]

Sketchup

[@stevenvtrebus5039]

Just add a fire place surround that simply reduces the amount of brick seen. That will change the look dramatically. I am looking forward to seeing what you do. You always have great music in your videos.

[@crackheadenergy4835]

Please don't get rid of the red brick I'm emotionally invested in it #SaveRedBrick

[@Saint.questions]

Agreed

[@Bonserak23]

Bahhh I love you lol I would keep that fireplace red maybe add some yellow and orange tones. If you get the time, do you think you can come speak at our architecture class down here in Spokane? I am sure our instructor David Edwards would love to have you by.

[@RiAirgead]

Cold, Sturdy, Deliberate, Sterile, Dismal and Perfect.

[@Jans6ever]

I like videos like this where I see the stuff that rich people can do with their living space.

[@justforplaylists]

- Favourite season is autumn. - Favourite colours are black, orange, red, and neutral. Makes sense.

[@camilalyons1418]

You should german schmear or do a charcoal to your fireplace :) Love your content!

[@royalecrafts6252]

issue with interior design is that nobody puts a cohesive design language in use in the overall house or place, not enough flowing lines

[@reginaldhorkyiiregorreggie1559]

I've always wanted black opal tile floors. the economy of scale could make them cheaper to produce. some way to scatter the light reflective walls and ceiling. with all the technology today pertaining to synthetic materials. mineral organic.

[@evelynmelian-glick436]

What app or software are you using to draft the space?

[@bedubbinaz]

Procreate

[@miggygaluza9234]

Ahhh yessss, I need this on my freelancing. But still afraid of ur slap tho 😂😭

[@Ren-1979]

You love autum -> Keep the bricks as they are and add some oranges and a lot of yellows. ;-)

[@okaywhynot4728]

Don’t paint over the red brick. It’s got a distinct, warm and textured character to it that adds a little something, and that something goes well with the feel of what you’re after for your space. It gives it a distinct, rustic heritage feel to it. Plus, you do that, you can say goodbye to that security deposit 😬

[@brandingconsultant]

Instead of a mood board can't you do a 3-D drawing that will allow you to have the same result?

[@corgikun2579]

0:00 WHATS UP DAMI!

[@yashrajsingh5615]

I like it

[@jros2721]

Great videos, work for character designers too :)

[@endalkachewy]

Do it !!!

[@rafiulhasanzahin4324]

idk i like the cold one

[@AlexPrevost]

If the fireplace paint doesn’t work out, you’ll always have an indoor pressure washing video to bank on ;)

[@DamiLeeArch]

Haha turning setbacks into opportunities I like it!

[@endalkachewy]

the red brick that is

[@makeit.primetime99]

Anybody remember Jeremy Clarkson Mood Room? 😁😅🤭

[@Danyullson]

background is good but maybe change it up just for funsies. lol

[@dinuansidinuansi16]

Waw

[@TRYtoHELPyou]

the brick is A OK.... RED or whitewashed :D

[@seetsummer]

Hi Dami, I've watched a few of your videos so far. The content is great but there is a vocal inflection at the end of most of the sentences you say, making them sound like questions and making you sound not as confident of the content. Will still continue to watch, but hope you can work on the audio! Thanks for the content!

[@arabiansandboa7466]

Love this channel! However, I also worked on the 3D team at Wayfair for 3 years and they treat all their creatives like garbage. They also laid off huge numbers of artists 3 years in a row despite the company doing great. They also ignored what people were supposed to receive for severance and just gave everyone 2 weeks regardless of how many years they had been working for Wayfair. Locked all the artists out without warning so no one could get anything up on their portfolio. Then had security guards escort all the laid off artists out like they were criminals. I didn't get laid off, but watching excellent, hard working, absurdly talented artists get treated like that is what made me leave for other work. Work environment was extremely toxic as well., so toxic its hard to even begin to describe in a single comment. Oh yea and below average pay in a very above average cost of living area (Boston). Shame Wayfair puts all this effort into looking good, and virtually none into treating their employees well.

[@walperstyle]

GO FULL HR GIGER

[@this.is.rei_]

EARLY

[@cekuhnen]

Hm as a faculty teaching interior design I find what you show problematic and maybe why my students tend to not realize what interior design can be about Yes a mood board is something we could do but I feel it is not as essential I do ask students to write stories about how somebody experiences the space And that is based on the most important and fundamental need: good ethnography - human centered research Otherwise it is the usual make it look nice and call that interior design ...

[@pillowwww]

NOT STALE

[@BnshB]

Personally, I really like the fireplace... (But, that comes from someone with no architectural, or indeed any artistic background at all...)

[@robbyagraves2492]

Hey i like your setup.... There should be no changes right now.

[@64maxpower]

I'm a carpenter. I'll build your room for you

[@baotuthai5556]

Are you Vietnamese 🇻🇳🇻🇳🇻🇳!

[@DylonDylonDylon]

Keep the red brick color! UNLESSSSSS you are changing the color of the walls.

[@devinjo2318]

Oink Oink.. I am in the Room.. Looking out the window.. I see the rain showering down.. I would like to walk in the rain.. but it be nice If I take this Piano with Me.. I have written YOU another Letter.. I wonder if YOU can Hear Me Now.. I know that just standing Out alone.. and Turning to LOOK up.. LOOKING at the Moon and just speaking to the MOON.. that Moon does Not Hear Me.. so I am trying something New.. something different so that Maybe the MOON can catch the glimpse of Me.. and Can turn to LOOK at Me.. and Hear me.. I am trying to grab and get the attention of that MOON.. so maybe I can bring Out this Little Piano that I bought.. and PUT it outside.. and I can Hit the Keys.. making the Sounds.. and with the Recorder in my hand.. and Push the Recording Button as I can open this Letter.. which I have written just for YOU and share it.. If YOU can Hear Me.. Can the Moon hear me Now.. if I can get the MOON to get closer to Me.. I can ask the MOON.. and show the MOON the Picture of YOU.. and ask the MOON.. if YOU see this Person.. in the Picture.. can YOU do something for Me.. will you send me an Angel.. call an Angel for Me.. and I will show the Angel the Picture of YOU.. and I would open the Recorder.. and give the Angel the Tape I have recorded and If the Angel can do me a favor.. that I have One Wish.. to give this Tape to YOU.. and YOU can hear my Voice.. YOU can hear me say and tell YOU what is deep in my Heart.. as I would speak to the recorder to tell YOU.. HOW much I miss YOU.. How Much I want to be close to YOU.. I know that if I just appear out of the Blue.. I don't want to scare YOU.. I don't want YOU to think that I am stalking YOU because I am Not.. so Maybe the MOON.. which hears me Press the Key notes and making the Sounds of pressing the Key bars can turn to Hear and Notice me that I am here down Below.. and If the MOON comes closer.. I will ask.. DO you know any angels who can do me favor.. because I have One wish.. Not asking Much but just for ONE wish.. so I will tell the MOON.. Please get me an Angel to come at my aid.. and If I see the Angel.. I will give HIM the picture of YOU and the tape which I have recorded over and also if YOU need the Letter.. I will give this Angel the Letter too.. just in case YOU want to read this Letter of Mine.. as I am looking out the window.. looking at the rain pouring down.. I have the Piano.. the Little Piano with Me.. I want to take it Out.. I want to go out side and play the Piano.. of course I don't know how to Play.. so If you hear the back ground and It does Not sound right.. YOU know that it is Me.. it is Me who is pressing the Key bars.. just pressing because I want YOU to hear me.. Please hear Me.. Please hear me what I needs to say and to tell YOU.. that I love YOU.. why do I love you this way.. I love you in a way YOU can say.. I am creative with what I do.. I am looking at the Little Piano.. Looking at Your Picture.. and I would say to my self.. I miss YOU.. I really really Miss YOU.. just watching the rain fall and the shower of the rain coming down from the sky.. It makes me more miss YOU.. I wish that I did not have to Miss YOU.. but for some reason.. this very Night I really miss YOU.. the way my Heart truly feels is this.. grabbing an Empty Glass Jar.. I want to pull out My Heart from my chest.. grab a Knife and stab my Heart right in the Middle and put the wounded Heart.. the One with the scars.. Put it inside the Glass jar.. watching my Heart be bleeding.. I feel like I am slowly dying instead.. as I look at the Blood gushing Out of my Heart and I see my own blood filling UP the Glass Jar with my Heart still inside it.. I be looking at it.. and I would take the Little Piano Out side.. does Not matter How wet I get.. But I feel like I am dying inside for YOU.. because I miss YOU.. as I am out side.. standing in the rain.. getting wet by the Rain.. I would also bring the Glass Jar.. with My Heart and the Blood filled.. and let YOU see It.. I would ask the Moon.. do YOU not feel sorry for Me.. Do you not see How much I am in pain and that I am suffering so much right Now.. and I would push the recording Button of the recorder.. pressing with my fingers of the key Bars.. telling YOU what I wrote.. I would memorize the Letter I wrote to YOU.. in the Rain.. I am calling Out for YOU.. crying Out for YOU.. can YOU see my Heart.. DO you want to see My Heart.. if YOU can't see it.. I have brought the Glass Jar.. with my Heart inside.. I am missing YOU so much right Now.. I just don't know what to do.. what am I suppose to do when I miss You like this.. Please tell Me.. I have the tape with me.. with My Voice and words speaking into the recorder.. I am reading the Letter which I wrote.. I am reading as I am looking at the Heart.. LOOKING at my Heart inside the Glass Jar covered in Blood.. Please Help me to recover from this Wound and from the scars I feel in my Heart when I be missing YOU.. I just can't take this pain any more.. Please help me to Love again.. If I don't see YOU.. this is how My Heart feels right Now.. as I would look UP.. looking at the MOON.. I be pressing the key Bars of the Little Piano.. and I am crying.. crying because I want More than just this.. I want More of YOU.. I want to say it to your ears.. and tell YOU as I hold you near.. hold you near in my arms.. telling YOU.. why can't I tell YOU.. why can't I say it to YOU in person.. give me the chance to speak to YOU so that YOU can hear me clearly what is IN my Heart.. help me to love YOU more.. only way to can help me.. only way I can get to YOU.. Please Open Your Heart to me.. show me that YOU care.. show me that YOU are truly listening.. because many nights I am Not sure if YOU are or Not.. as My fingers are hitting.. banging on the Key Bars making sounds on this Little Piano.. I want to hear from YOU.. I needs to hear from YOU.. that YOU are listening on the Other side.. I only see the MOON.. but I can't see YOU.. I want to see YOU.. I want to see YOU near.. and as I would press the stop button of the tape recorder.. I stand still.. getting more wet by the rain.. showers of water of rain on me.. My arm stretches Out.. my hand opens out.. towards the MOON.. How can I get to YOU.. How can I get Your attention.. How do I get YOU to notice Me.. I know that I am very small as a person.. but the way I love YOU.. the size of How much I love YOU.. If YOU can come Outside at Night.. My Heart of loving YOU can be as big as the MOON I am looking at.. if YOU look at the MOON.. the same Moon I am looking at.. that is HOW MUCH I love YOU.. that is How much I want to tell YOU that I love YOU.. even though my Heart breaks.. I can feel my Heart be breaking on the Night like this because I love YOU.. and because I miss YOU.. why don't you ever see Me.. why don't you ever notice Me.. YOU know that I been hear all this Long.. I been here all this Time telling YOU that it is real.. it is true that I be loving YOU.. YOU needs to see that and believe it too. Please give me a chance to Love YOU.. Please give me One Chance.. One shot is all I am asking for.. Not even a day but even few minutes of the time is all I am asking for.. But I am asking YOU.. that Only YOU can make me smile.. as I see the Rain stopped.. and I am standing alone out side.. I am soaked wet because of the shower of rains would pour down on me.. I would pull out the Letter.. of course the Letter is soaked wet too.. but I can still see the writings.. and I would look at the wet recorder and press the Button of the recording.. and the little Piano has a stand.. so I would place the Glass jar on top of the Little Piano.. and after Opening the Letter.. I would lift UP my head towards and I would look at the MOON.. DO you hear Me.. can YOU Please hear me.. ON this very Night.. I am want to speak to YOU.. would you let me speak because this is the Only thing I can do for right Now.. I want to show YOU this Glass Jar.. I want to take this Glass jar and give it to YOU.. and if you can listen.. I want to tell YOU that I been loving YOU for so Long.. I been loving YOU that I have lost the count.. I started to count in the beginning but I guess I just had to stop.. because the More I love YOU.. the less I counted.. as I am looking at this Glass Jar.. I have stabbed my Heart with the Knife.. it Hurts when the Blade plunged into the center of the Heart.. I felt the Pain.. and started to suffer because of If.. as I watch my Heart struggle for air.. I saw the Blood pouring Out.. and I would say.. It must be Love because I miss YOU.. I started to miss YOU over and over.. that I felt the tears just running down my two eyes.. I can't take it any more because I love YOU.. I can't take this Pain because I be missing YOU like crazy.. when can I see YOU.. is it going to be soon.. Please tell me when can I see YOU.. will you let me see YOU.. or is it going to be never on your end.. I been waiting for YOU.. for a long time I been waiting and just kept on missing YOU.. every time I write YOU a Letter.. and I think of YOU and every time I take a Look at your Picture.. I can feel something inside of me wants to cry.. I want to cry More as I keep on missing YOU.. holding YOU in my arms is my first Wish.. and the second is to tell YOU how much I love YOU and how much I missed you.. that I know one day it needs to stop.. that I do not have to miss YOU any more.. I am standing Out here.. LOOKING UP at the MOON.. when would that TIME BE.. when I can stop be missing YOU.. I would be wiping these tears.. most of the nights are very harsh for Me.. because my arms.. my arms wants to hold YOU.. hold you close and hold you still.. just to feel you close and that I get to call YOU mine forever.. will you Let that Happen to me.. Please tell me that I do have a hope still.. that I still have a chance.. a hope to tell you that I need YOU.. I miss YOU and that I love YOU.. Please give me the hope so that I can dream being US together for ever.

[@devinjo2318]

I knew that I had to do something.. that One day YOU will know that I love YOU.. maybe not at the Point but some day YOU will know how much I love YOU by sharing what YOU have given Me and what you have done to Me.. as I would look.. the Work Shop.. Looking at the Paper.. the Art sketch.. the drawing of the Sun Flower.. back is the Garden.. and Now.. there are More than Thousand Sun Flowers in the Back.. in the Garden.. ready to be given and ready to be sold.. when YOU came into the Work Shop.. I was blown into pieces because YOU looked a lot like someone who I loved.. but did NOT wanted to ask you if YOU were.. because YOU could of been someone else but NOT YOU.. when YOU shared the Art sketch Paper.. the drawing of the Sun Flower and I turn to face the Wall.. the same drawing YOU given me when I was a young Boy.. who was hurting.. who just read a Letter of the Lost and dead family.. YOU were like an Angel who gave me Life to live again.. I do remember when YOU asked me if YOU could work here.. I told YOU NO at first.. I did Not want you to come close because I know that something could happen.. I wanted you close deep in my Heart.. but.. I did not want you too close.. I am already Hurt.. I do not want to be hurt again but I did miss YOU so much that My Heart was crying inside.. I did Not want to tell YOU this at all.. because I did Not want to see you go.. I remember YOU told me that YOU will be back.. and I had to let YOU go that day you came.. YOU just do not know how heavy I felt inside.. It broke me down into tears again.. asking myself.. why did I let YOU go like this.. what if YOU will never show UP.. what if I will not see YOU again.. what if I end up dying like this instead.. and I just could not help myself and blamed myself for letting you walk away like this.. what if YOU never come back to me.. and I be dumb like this of letting YOU go when I know deep inside I love YOU.. I was just too afraid to let YOU IN because I loved YOU just too much.. I am looking through the Window.. In the Work Shop.. I see YOU.. I remember I grabbed your wrist.. and I told YOU.. I love YOU.. for a Long time.. I just could Not take my Mind Off of YOU.. asking YOU.. can I be the One who can Love you for the rest of My Life.. will you let me.. I know that I made the situation worst when I grabbed your wrist.. I just wanted to express my Heart but did not mean to come out that strong to You.. I saw you turning your Head away from Me.. and Looking towards another direction.. I knew that I had to let Go.. YOU told me that YOU did not want to work here any more.. of course I knew the answer clearly.. as I open my hand and let go of your wrist.. you wanted to tell me something.. and told me that YOU were seeing someone else.. but I knew that person well.. and my Heart.. I just knew that My confession of telling you came too late.. But I was holding in for so long.. why did YOU not wait.. why did you tell me that YOU wanted to be loved by someone else.. But.. I know that I bee here all along.. YOU knew that I felt something towards YOU.. even though I did Not have to say the words.. by the smile and my actions should of told YOU already.. but Now.. is it really late for me to tell YOU that I love YOU.. can you please receive My Love.. can you please open your heart just a little for Me.. I need to know.. I need a chance you know.. if I am the One for YOU.. did YOU not ever think about that.. I can really be the One who can love you for so long.. but if you do not give me that Chance.. you will never know How far I can truly love YOU and tell YOU how much I love YOU.. are you really going to let this Chance go.. and I would turn.. trying to look at YOU.. but.. I see that YOU are moving and pushing me away.. but.. I know I can too love YOU.. WHY can't you just reconsider.. and please give a time for yourself.. Let me know that I can too love YOU.. is it that Hard for you to know.. I know that I can Love YOU too.. maybe I can be a Better Lover.. I can love you more because YOU brought this Inspiring of Love to Me.. will you please consider and think about what I have said to YOU.. I see you turning away and telling me you have already made it known and made it clear to me that YOU love another man.. and I would watch you walking away.. and I would turn away toward your Direction.. wait.. do you have to end it like this.. can you not give me a Chance too.. if you do not open your heart.. if you keep it close.. you will know that I have loved you More.. so Please.. open your heart.. I know I can Love you better.. I can Love you More.. only please.. stop and wait.. I watch the Door open.. and I see you walk out the Door and the door closes.. I am thinking about the day you left me.. I was building this work Shop just for YOU.. YOU told me that YOU loved Flowers.. I asked you what is your Interest.. what makes you smile.. what do you like to see.. what makes you cry.. what makes you happy and as a friend you told me many things.. I collected and gathered.. YOU told me that YOU wanted to see a lot of Flowers.. Out of the woods.. some of the trees had to be cut Down.. and the builders came and helped me to build this Work Shop out of the woods.. and I would ask what kinds of seed would bring Flowers to Life in the Garden.. and I asked few of the Plant specialists and they helped me to get these seeds and started to help me to plant.. Once these things were established I remember I asked you if you wanted to work.. and YOU told me where.. and I gave you the address.. it is a Flower Shop.. and I work there too.. and I do remember you did take the offer and started to work.. I would show you different flowers.. I would think about the flowers you loved.. when we were young.. when YOU came to the Orphan House.. I do remember you coming with your parents.. and they would always bring you Flowers.. and share to the children who had NO Parents.. I member I would see the kinds of flowers in your Hands.. each time you would bring a New Flower in your hand.. I would look at the flower.. going into my room.. I have me a Note Book.. and start to write down flowers you would bring.. it be so different.. and I have kept the Note Book for a Long time.. from Page to page.. I would smile.. as I would feel my tears roll down.. my hand touch the words of the Names of each Flower.. and I would ask the Specialist can any of these Flowers.. do you have the seeds of these flowers so that I can plant in the garden too.. I do remember some of the farmers who lived around the Area comes to help.. I would be asking if they can help me to Plant these seeds and help me to grow.. and the older People started to help as I would watch the Plants.. I saw Flowers blossom time after time.. and when the Flowers would grow.. I would think of YOU.. each has a special place in my Heart.. I would touch my Chest looking at each Unique Flowers and I wanted to show YOU.. I wanted to tell YOU something.. But I was afraid to ever tell YOU.. Just like what has happened.. YOU told me that YOU love someone else.. YOU telling me that I am Not the One.. that I am Not allowed to Love YOU.. how can YOU tell me this when I been thinking of you all this TIME.. you brought so much tears in my eyes.. My Heart was breaking.. I could not see you from the distance.. I could not believe you would say.. and just walked away.. Now I am here.. back at the Work Shop.. I have left the work Shop because of these memories causing me to Die inside.. but.. what am I suppose to do what YOU are the Love of my Life who brings me back here.. and I would stand here.. the room is dark.. I know that It is time to start over.. I am going to build this Shop again.. this Flower shop because I know that I love YOU.. does Not matter if you ever return back to me or Not.. But.. I know that I love this Place.. why because I always loved YOU.. your scent still is here.. I can still smell your scent.. and I just wanted to hold YOU near when I smell you.. so sweet and so beautiful.. as I am looking at the Window.. and I look through.. I see the tree I was standing.. and I am not sure.. but I see someone.. I am hoping it is YOU.. I want it to be YOU.. but Not YOU who breaks my Heart.. YOU who is coming back to Me.. YOU who knows how much I love YOU.. YOU who knows that I have build this work Shop.. this Flower Shop because I was inspired by Loving YOU.. to show you how much I love YOU.. and as I am getting closer toward the window and I look through.. I see YOU.. but.. is it YOU who loves another man.. because YOU should always know that I love you first.. I watch YOU turning around and I see you looking.. I am standing by the window.. YOU are standing by the tree and My tears.. it starts to flow down.. two lines.. I know I missed YOU.. YOU know how much I miss YOU.. and YOU should now that this whole place.. It is because of YOU.. How much I love YOU.. LOOK at the flower Shop.. Look at the farmers who and helping the flowers to grow.. look at the each Flowers which has been planted.. if YOU can go back.. Do you not remember when we were young.. YOU came to a house like this.. I was at the Orphan House.. YOU came with your parents.. but you brought flowers.. different times YOU came to visit.. I would stand there.. I see you smile so Big and YOU would tell me.. too look at the Flower.. and YOU would run straight direction toward me and with a BIG SMILE.. showing me the name of the Flower.. where YOU got it.. and you be moving the Flower around.. telling me that Some day YOU are going to have your Own garden.. and In that garden grow Your flowers.. and begin to show me the different kinds of flowers you wanted to plant to grow.. of course.. I would run to the room.. and would write that on the Note Book.. and I would tell myself.. One Day I want to give you a Garden with full of flowers YOU showed me.. and give you the gift of this Garden and that is WHY I am here..

[@devinjo2318]

Lover.. who can Love you more.. are you giving me a Chance.. and I would close my eyes.. and when I open.. I look through the window across.. I don't see you any more.. I would look one more time.. and I see that YOU are gone.. as I look at your Picture.. I would smile.. I know that YOU are happy.. of course who don't want to love YOU.. I know that you have many young men who wants to love YOU.. but.. I know that I can love YOU more.. I can love you better.. because I know my Heart.. I understand my Heart knowing what Love truly is.. and to Let YOU know how much I love YOU.. I just wanted to share and tell YOU.. I never stopped loving YOU.. Only YOU who I love.. YOU are the Only One who I think of the Most.. always on my mind.. and always loving YOU first.. I just wanted to say I love you.. and always I will love YOU.. I am waiting at the Doctor's office.. I am getting sick.. something has happened to my Heart.. I am wondering if My Heart is broken.. as I am sitting down.. waiting for the Doctor.. I am holding your Picture in my Hand.. I have been looking at this Picture for a Long time.. since I have lost you.. and it is the Picture of YOU.. you are standing by the Wall.. with a beautiful Smile.. I gave YOU a flowers and YOU are holding in your hand.. showing me in the picture of you.. I was so happy when I gave you those flowers in the work shop.. I surprised you that night.. it was before I wanted to ask YOU out.. I wanted to ask if we can be lovers.. and before the questions came about.. and I gave YOU the flowers.. I would watch you holding in your hand.. and I saw you smelling the flowers.. it touched my Heart.. Your nose so close and I saw both of your eyes closing when YOU brought the Flowers closer to your nose.. and right after.. you opened your eyes.. I be holding the camera.. zooming in to get a closer Picture.. I asked if YOU could just smile for me.. YOU are the Most Beautiful when I see you smile.. so I asked.. looking through the lens of the Camera.. I saw you holding the flowers closer and my finger presses and it clicked to take that Picture.. I would put the camera down and I came closer to YOU and I wanted to say but.. YOU told me Not to say it.. Because YOU knew what I was going to say and told me that YOU already have some one who you love.. and that I knew the person well.. I would just stand there.. No words to tell YOU because.. I have been holding this for a long time.. I wanted to tell YOU for a long time.. but I guess holding too long.. and I just could not hold it back.. I want to know.. DO you love Him.. do you think that man can love you more than Me.. if He can love you more than me.. I can back off and just pretend I never told you this.. I want to know what if I can love you More.. I know that I can love you where YOUR Heart can be truly touched.. I know that I can love you because I am already loving YOU.. but pushing me away is not going to solve anything.. but if you know that He can love you more and can make you more happier.. than I have nothing more to say.. But How about my Heart.. how about the Love I have for YOU.. will you please consider this before you can.. and it is the Picture before I wanted to ask.. but I do remember you be telling me that YOU love some one else.. I wanted to walk out of that work shop.. I wanted to leave at that moment because My Heart couldn't handle this kind of pain.. and to heal it takes a long time for me to get over it.. but.. I felt like I should stay.. that may be you would change your mind.. so I just stood and waited.. but I saw YOU looking at me.. giving me back the flowers and I saw YOU walking out of that work shop.. I heard the door behind me shutting down.. holding the flowers in my hands.. why am I holding these flowers for.. I am the one who gave you these flowers.. these are not for me and when I turned my head to look back.. I stood there.. the door was closed and YOU left.. I wanted to cry.. but I wanted to hold my own emotions in and I kept it inside for a while before I wanted to lead it out.. I stood there in the silence.. holding the flowers in my hands.. just did not know what to do any more.. as I am sitting on the chair.. just waiting for the doctor to call my name.. I am looking at the Picture of YOU.. holding the flowers and just smiling.. Now I am thinking.. and wondering.. what if I did Not say anything.. did Not mention and just stood there and smiled back.. I know that YOU would not left the work shop that night.. you could of still be there with me.. but would I ever be happy just watching you on the side line.. just loving YOU alone.. while YOU have someone who loves YOU and you be loving him back.. What am I suppose to do if I am just another shadow of passing through.. It would be breaking my heart into pieces.. I remember I open my hands and the Flowers all fell to the floor.. hitting the ground.. I dropped to my knees.. beating against my chest and started to cry loud.. wailing louder because of the pains of hitting me so Hard that night.. I did not even leave that work shop.. I would be crying for hours.. just feeling the pain deep within me.. sitting by the wall.. I would be leaning.. and I would sit until the Sun would rise Up.. I just could not work any more.. and wanted to take some time off.. but I could not get up.. sitting there.. looking at the flowers all over the floor of the ground.. I can't believe that this Hurts.. it hurts me much more.. why did I even mentioned if it going to end UP like this.. hurting me like this.. this ache.. this pain of just loving you.. why can't you love me back.. I would yell.. out loud.. why can't you love me back.. what must I do for YOU to notice HOW much I love YOU.. and I would sit still.. could not get up.. just did not want to move.. I did not want to eat anything.. even though I was hungry.. but I sat there.. leaning against the wall.. just thinking of YOU.. am I going crazy.. am I losing my mind.. what is wrong.. matter with me is what I would be thinking.. and I would suddenly lay on the floor.. maybe sleeping will help me.. get me better.. and I lay on the floor.. both eyes closes.. and it hurts so bad that I just could not sleep.. as I am still waiting for the doctor.. the door opens and I am looking at your Picture.. I hear foot steps and someone sits next to me.. and I put the picture down.. I am wondering.. who is sitting next to me and as I turn to look.. I see you next to me.. I am thinking.. all this time.. did you know that I am here so you came.. or you just came because YOU are sick too.. and I looked at YOU.. why are you here.. Why are you sitting next to me.. YOU told me that YOU have someone who loves YOU.. you told me you love him.. but why are you here.. I am here because I love you too much.. I think I can't bear this pain.. take this pain any more.. I am going to get me a New Heart.. I don't like the Heart I have with me.. this Heart is always hurting me so I want a new Heart.. a Heart who does Not know you any more.. as I looked at YOU.. are you hurt just like me.. or is it for something else.. as I raised my arm.. my hand is holding your Picture.. and I would show YOU this picture and I turned to look at YOU and I would say.. do YOU remember this time.. Do you remember the day I gave you those flowers.. I am so sorry that I told you that I loved YOU.. I did not meant to say it in a way that YOU wanted to walk off.. but Do you want to see this Picture.. I think you never got the chance to look at it because the Picture came after YOU left.. Do you know how many times I cried looking at this Picture.. I would tell myself.. I regret letting YOU know.. I would tell myself many times.. I regretted because.. If I never mentioned it to YOU.. you would of stayed with me a little longer right.. and I would look at you.. and I see you smile.. as I am waiting for the doctor.. I would look at the picture again.. looking at YOU.. when I would turn my head to look.. I don't see you any more.. I am wondering.. was this just a dream.. why did I saw you here.. maybe I do miss you just too much.. I am aching in my Heart.. I feel like I am dying inside.. the door opens.. and I see the doctor.. I hear the Doctor calling my Name.. I get UP out of the chair and I would walk into the patient room.. and I would sit on patient chair.. I would show the picture to the Doctor.. and the Doctor looks at the picture.. and I am telling the doctor.. I need a new Heart.. if you can give me a New Heart.. I think I can live again.. I am suffering just too much with the Heart who is inside of me.. if YOU can please take my Heart.. put that heart away.. and replace with a New Heart.. I think I can live again.. I just can't live with this Heart.. it is killing me and driving me insane.. Please.. can you do a surgery so that I can breathe again.. to live again.. something is wrong with the Heart I am having.. giving me just too much pain.. and my eyes gets watery and I turn to look.. looking at the doctor in the eyes.. when I looked at the eyes.. it looks like your eyes.. and I would look.. and you are holding the picture in your hand.. and I can't believe I am asking YOU to get rid of my heart.. I am wondering.. and of course.. I remember you told me when we were young.. that YOU had dreams.. you wanted to be a Heart doctor and help healing wounds.. you told me once.. your dreams was to be a doctor who would save lives.. and I am sitting down.. as Your hand is holding that picture.. this is the picture YOU never saw.. but it was when YOU were working with me at the Work Shop.. and do you not remember.. the flowers I gave YOU.. and Yes.. you gave me the flowers back and I dropped the flowers on the floor.. as I looked at YOU.. I would smile at you.. I am glad that YOU have fulfilled your dreams of becoming a Doctor.. at least I came to the right person because if I were to die tonight.. at least YOU are the last person I got to see before I die.

[@devinjo2318]

Of tears would drop.. I just can't live without you.. or please let me have a chance to love YOU.. you can make a choice.. be the One to do the surgery to my Heart.. or let me please just keep on loving YOU.. because I just want to love you more and more.. tell me why can't I love you more.. as I am looking at you as the doctor.. I see you turning away.. with the picture in your hand.. I see you leave the patient room.. why can't you get rid of my Heart.. get rid of this Heart so that I don't love you any more.. make a choice for me.. Please.. tell me which way for me to go.. I am looking at you.. I just could not believe that YOU are now a doctor.. a Heart surgeon.. of course I came here to get my Heart to be removed.. I wanted another Heart Surgeon because.. Can you handle doing the surgery.. planting into a different Heart.. a Heart from someone else.. What would you do if I don't recognize YOU any more.. what will you do if I start to love another whose Heart has been loving.. But.. I don't want to lose YOU.. How can I live without YOU.. How can I breathe if I can't love YOU any more.. but all this Time.. I have been only loving YOU.. YOU are the Only One who I been missing.. I been crying over looking at the empty wall.. walking into the Work Shop.. I been missing YOU.. missing your Presence.. just missing your smile.. can YOU handle me.. putting me into the deep sleep.. as YOU cut my chest wide open.. I know that YOU are more experience in this kind of work.. If you are the Doctor.. because I asked for a well experienced.. well established with multiple years of experience.. I don't want my Heart to be broken.. I don't want my Heart to be dropped on the floor.. It has been with me all of my life.. ever since I was born.. ever since I was a young Boy.. when I first saw YOU.. I cried.. I started to cry after YOU left.. YOU promised me that YOU will be back.. and I felt my Heart.. I did not know what it was at the first touch.. I just could not stop.. but I would kept on crying through the Night.. that is when I could Not sleep.. I kept on thinking of YOU.. over and over.. turning and tossing.. all of the children at the Orphan House.. they were all sleeping good.. I sat on top of the bed.. wondering.. why couldn't I sleep like the Other children.. I do remember you gave me your picture.. I saw both of your parents with YOU.. and I do remember.. being so Poor.. without any parents.. living with bunch of poor children.. who had No homes.. only could gather with each other.. I looked at YOU.. I would smile.. I could never smile living with bunch of these children.. they were all dirty like Me.. pushing and shoving.. kicking and screaming.. and there was No peace.. When I heard the Old Woman.. the Care taker says to the Children.. a Missionary family is coming.. to help Us.. to help educate and give Us books to read.. and toys to play with.. of course.. it was YOU and your Parents who came.. I knew that I should of stopped myself right when I met YOU.. I don't know why I asked for your picture that day.. before YOU were leaving.. and as I was crying.. I wanted to be a Part.. so I asked for YOUR picture.. when YOU told me that YOU are going to give me One.. and That smile.. you pulled out and told me that this is the Only One.. the best Picture you have taken.. I saw your Smile.. and YOU told me.. behind the Picture is your Address.. and If I wanted a friend to share my Heart.. to write YOU a Letter.. I do remember watching YOU leave.. Your Father and Mother holding your Hands as YOU leave.. I would be waving with tears in my eyes.. I felt so Alone.. I felt so cold.. I felt so Poor.. and I would fall both on my knees.. and Weeping as I take a Look at your Picture.. why do you have to leave so Soon.. Are you going to come to visit me and the children.. and both hands holding the side of the Picture.. YOU are so Beautiful.. and I be looking with tears.. wiping my tears with my hand.. I feel so Alone.. I feel so sad because My Heart.. is it going to break like this.. My Heart keeps on breaking because YOU know how much I love you right.. and I do remember that Night.. I just could not sleep.. and sitting on the top of the Bed.. I pulled out Your Picture.. and I would look.. and I do remember what YOU said.. to write YOU when I needed a friend.. and I would get Out of the Bed and I walked to the desk.. and I sat down to write.. as I am laying.. I am looking at YOU.. as a Doctor.. as the Heart Surgeon.. I should of Not come to this Hospital.. What are you going to do with My Heart.. I don't want you to take my Heart away.. if I can't love you any more.. I rather ask for another Doctor.. I guess the main reason is to forget YOU.. and Let my Heart be taken away and Let someone else have My Heart.. But when I saw YOU.. if YOU were another Doctor.. another Heart Surgeon.. then I think it would been so much easier to go with the proceed to do the surgery but.. I feel like My Heart Now just can't go.. it has been such a Long time since I saw YOU.. and for the longest Time.. I have been missing YOU.. but Now.. I just can't give My Heart away with YOU becoming the Doctor.. the Heart Surgeon.. I been to the Work Shop lately.. and started a Project.. to rebuild that Work Shop.. it has been broken and abandoned for a Long time.. I just could Not work there any more.. for some reason I would see YOU.. even though YOU were never there.. there would be a Lot of pictures I would put on the walls.. that is before YOU left.. taking many pictures of YOU.. a lots of laugh.. lots of crying but more smiles On my face when YOU were there with Me.. I wanted to go back.. I started to miss you ever since I left because I kept on thinking of YOU.. I would go into the Home that I live.. in a small box.. I would put all of your letters you wrote Me.. When I was at the Orphan House.. when I felt the Most Hardest Place.. I felt cold and lonely when I was there.. One Night I when into the Closet and I saw the Small Box.. after a long day of work.. I pulled the small box Out and I would open the top of the Lid.. and I would sit on the Top of the Bed.. I would look at all of the Letters you wrote me when I was young.. and I started to read the Letters.. filled my eyes with Tears again.. I would go back when I was young at that age.. and I do remember when I received the Letter.. I would open it.. and it was from YOU.. and I just could Not believe that YOU would write back.. and It felt like the same way.. I started to feel my eyes.. I just couldn't breathe because it was YOU.. YOU are the One who put time to write.. it got to my Heart.. and I started to cry.. My Heart was broken.. and it kept on breaking but looking at the Letters.. I would read it few more times.. and I started to think about YOU at the Work Shop.. what If you would be back.. even though I knew that YOU would never come around.. but I kept on thinking.. YOU could just visit.. but if YOU walked into the Work Shop all Broken and Abandoned.. then I know that YOU will Not come around ever again.. because NO ONE knows what will happen next.. so I started to make a Plan.. to remodel.. and to re build that Building.. just in case One day.. some day soon you can come.. and YOU will know that it has never been broken down.. as I gathered some workers.. spend days.. spend weeks and into the months.. new paintings.. putting UP the fences.. and even started to go back into the garden.. planting new seeds to bring into the life.. after it was all completed.. and the work shop was back on business.. I went in to work again.. of course there was something missing as I started to work in that shop.. it was YOU.. it felt like I cannot never get YOU back.. since you left long ago.. How can I bring YOU back if YOU have already left.. I would look at the wall.. the Wall with Your Pictures.. many of the Pictures I would post to share.. as I would start to look at Your Pictures.. Just memories of YOU came flashing through my Mind.. I knew that if I wanted to continue to run this Business.. I needed to get Rid of My Heart.. I knew that only if My Heart goes.. I can work in this Work Shop without missing YOU so Much.. that is the Only way I knew that I can continue.. that is when I decided to go into the surgery.. that I wanted to let My Heart to go.. I asked for the Best Doctor.. the Heart Surgeon with the Best experience.. of course never thought that It would be YOU walking into this Room.. even though I want YOU to do the Surgery.. I just can't Lose YOU.. after I see YOU now.. and How well YOU are in Life.. I think I just can't let My Heart go.. and I am looking at YOU.. I do need My Heart to be replaced.. but what would happen if I don't love you any More.. I am sure Now you are doing good with another Man.. can YOU still do the Heart surgery.. Now the Person who is going to exchange with my Heart comes into the Room and sits on another Bed.. and I turn to look at the Person.. I just can't believe it.. the Man turns to look at me.. I am not sure if I know this Man but the Man looks at me.. He is the friend who has taken YOU away.. I am wondering.. why is this Man in the same bed.. He wants his Heart to be removed just Like me.. and I am wondering.. I don't want His Heart.. I rather keep My Heart.. He has a Broken Heart too.. and I look at YOU.. I am wondering.. what is going On and Now YOU are telling me.. the relationship has ended on Both.. and that YOU are single.. and I am thinking.. Am I suppose to be happy or suppose to be Sad.. are YOU sad.. is that WHY you have become a Heart Surgeon.. WHO has Not been loving YOU well.. YOU know that If YOU are removing all Kinds of Hearts.. is it because someone has broken YOUR HEART or are you breaking Hearts and switching Hearts to different People.. because I don't want Another Broken Heart.. can I have YOUR HEART instead.. How about YOU can do the surgery

[@devinjo2318]

Would say to YOU.. this was why I started to Love YOU.. you wrote when I was at the Most Lowest of the time of my Life and has fixed this Broken Heart by telling me all of this.. I been waiting for YOU.. but YOU never came.. the door was never locked because it is YOU who I been waiting for.. I would be working in the Flower Shop.. waiting if YOU would ever show UP.. but you would never come.. It broke my Heart because what If YOU would stop by.. even just for Once.. I was Not asking for a long time.. even just for few seconds.. it would been enough for Me.. but YOU never came.. working in the Flower Shop without YOU was the most difficult thing for Me because I would be waiting.. even though I knew deep in my Heart that YOU would never show UP.. just hoping that it would be you who would knock on the door.. asking for me to open that door in the Work Shop.. in that flower Work Shop.. I would cry many nights of thinking of YOU.. just remembering all of the memories we shared together in that Shop.. I would watch YOU with the camera.. lights flashes as YOU would take pictures of the Flowers.. asking me about how it grew.. the place where I would planted in the soil.. I would even take you to the spots.. back in the garden.. where YOU would see the flowers in full bloom.. matured and sprung UP for YOU to take a look.. YOU would smile.. I would watch YOU holding that camera in front.. as I would watch YOU looking through the camera Lens and taking pictures of the flowers back in the Garden.. I wanted to Hold YOU.. I wanted to Pull you closer to me.. around my arms I wanted to feel YOU inside.. but I would stop myself of getting closer to YOU.. I wanted to get close.. I wanted to walk and stand beside YOU.. just to feel for seconds.. How you would feel in my arms.. How would you breathe.. How about the sound of the beating of Your Heart.. can I hear it.. will my Heart also make the same sound of Your Heart.. I wanted to get close.. just to see how it would feel.. YOU in my arms.. I wanted you near.. I wanted you close.. I was so close because I would walk but I would stop to step back.. It hurts me because I wanted to feel YOU in my arms.. But I just could not get closer.. Because I knew that YOU would push me to say Back Off.. Just Now How it feels.. Just thinking about YOU.. brings so Much Joy and happiness.. I would smile a lot.. My Heart be moving in a way I just can't control.. my emotions just wants to pour Out to YOU.. I want to stop.. I can't control myself because It has been Hard lately.. Missing YOU is so Hard.. at the same Time.. it brings me a lot of tears.. that I can't stop myself crying.. I don't want to show YOU any more tears.. but It hurts to know that YOU don't want to come close.. so Far.. so Near.. so Close.. the distance between Us.. leaving me to Be hurt.. missing YOU all the time.. but I want to get close.. NO Matter How I feel.. as long as it is YOU.. I will always Love YOU.. don't ask me why do I keep on hurting myself but still loves YOU.. as I am sitting on the Chair.. I am looking at Your Picture.. it is YOU when YOU were with me at the Flower Shop.. holding a flower in Your Hand.. with such a Beautiful Smile.. I remember that it was the day I wanted to show YOU the New Flowers that has been reached the Full Bloom stage.. it was back in the Garden.. the Same camera you were using to take many pictures of the flowers.. I would ask YOU.. take one of the Flowers from the Bed in the back of this Garden.. I watched you lower yourself.. grabbed and pulled the Flower Out.. and telling me that it is this One.. that it is the Most Beautiful One.. Your Favorite and I do remember leading YOU back into the Flower Work Shop.. YOU were standing by the wall.. and Holding the flower in your Hand.. I would have the Camera in my hands.. My eye would look through the lens of the Camera.. I would see YOU.. my finger stopped at the Button.. because what if this be the last picture I could take from this Camera.. this Fear came all over me.. shaking and trembling from the Inside.. I stopped my finger to press.. YOU were wondering why I could not click the Button.. My Heart would skip.. trying to find if there is a Beat.. I would take a deep breathe and my finger presses the Button and the light switches and it takes the Picture of YOU.. when I put the Camera Down.. I am looking at the Wall.. in the Flower Work Shop.. I only see the wall.. I don't see YOU there.. and with me is the Same Picture.. it was the last time I took the picture of YOU because the Next day.. YOU told me that YOU are not going to work with me at the Flower Shop.. that YOU have find someone that YOU love.. and that YOU are going with Him.. and I felt my world turn upside down.. I felt that everything be crumbling.. I saw YOU leave as the Door closes behind me.. I would sit on the Floor.. I would cry Loud and wail More.. I just couldn't control these emotions when it is torn apart.. I would Beat with my hand on my Chest.. I would Hit it so Hard.. I just couldn't stop hitting my Chest.. wanting to Pull my Heart out.. It hurts me because all I see is YOU.. YOU leaving me behind and I am left alone at the Flower Work Shop.. everything began to fall apart.. I started to drink a lot.. heavy into drinking.. crash and burn.. falling apart and falling down.. I just don't wanted to get UP any more.. I just couldn't handle this Kind of Pain.. it was killing me from the Inside.. How can I erase this Pain that is eating me from the Inside.. How can I get rid of this Kind of Hellish Pain.. I just wanted to Die.. for years I felt this way.. I felt like I wanted to give UP.. but.. for some reason.. if I truly love YOU.. I know that I needs to get back UP and try to live.. try to live the best I can.. so that One day I am able to see YOU again and the Day I see YOU.. I will never let YOU GO.. I decided to go and get my Heart check.. if something is wrong with me.. is it My Heart who has the Problem.. or is it just Me.. I came to the Clinic.. just to check my Heart.. I feel so ill.. I feel so Sick.. because I been thinking about YOU too much lately.. I wanted to forget.. I wanted to erase YOU off my Mind so I called to make an Appointment.. so that I can get a Heart surgery.. and I been sitting down on this chair.. waiting for the Doctor to call my Name.. for the Doctor to see me.. I wanted the Doctor to Know that I want to get rid of this Heart.. I put my name on the List.. had many people waiting in the line sitting on the chairs.. the assistant calls My name to go into a room.. NOW.. I go into the Room.. waiting for the doctor.. and as I sit patiently waiting for the Doctor.. I am looking at your Picture.. Looking at YOU holding the flower in your hand.. standing by the wall.. Before I came to this Clinic Office.. I went over this Moring to the Flower Work Shop.. as I walked inside the Work Shop.. I would stand there alone.. LOOKING at the Wall where YOU would stand.. I would look at the empty Wall.. looking at the picture of YOU holding.. the same spot.. you were standing with a smile holding the flower.. the Last time I saw YOU is when I took this Picture.. it hurts Me more.. I would.. the Flower Work Shop was dark and I would be standing alone.. crying looking at the Picture of YOU.. which it was the last time YOU stood by this Wall.. and I just can't let YOU go.. WHY is it me who has to let it Go.. why is it YOU who has to hurt Me.. why can't I ever hurt you and I would look at the Wall.. where YOU would stand the last time and I would scream because my Heart.. It wanted to shatter into pieces.. WHY did YOU have to leave me for someone else.. WHY can't YOU ever know how much I love YOU.. why don't you see me.. WHY can't you see me as the Person who loves you the Most.. and I would again cry.. looking at the wall.. after looking at the Picture of YOU where YOU once stood by this wall.. I would fall to the ground.. and I just can't.. why can't I just let YOU GO.. it is killing me so Bad.. why can't I let YOU GO.. what is it about YOU holding unto me.. like a stronghold.. and I would cry loud.. wailing.. hitting my hand against my chest.. It hurts me just too much because I want to be loved by YOU.. why can't YOU see me for once.. HOW ABOUT ME.. you know that I can love YOU better.. YOU know that I can love YOU more.. I can even love you stronger.. just please give me a chance.. just one chance.. as I am waiting in the Room in the clinic Office.. I know that I may not live for Long.. because My Heart is broken.. It has been shattered into many little pieces.. YOU have broken my Heart.. If I can't fix my Heart.. what am I going to do with this Shattered of pieces broken Heart that is in me.. If I can't fix it.. Maybe the Doctor can help me to fix IT.. what if the Doctor can't fix my Heart.. I am going to ask the Doctor to go me a Surgery.. because what am I going to do with this Broken Shattered Heart.. I can at least donate it to someone else.. give me a New Heart.. someone else can take my Place.. can Have this Heart.. that someone else can Love YOU instead because I know that I can't.. I don't even know where YOU at so how can I love YOU when YOU are NO where to be found.. and I am lost somewhere.. and I would be sitting on this Chair.. LOOKING at the Picture of YOU.. I sit in silence just thinking of the Flower Work Shop.. I want to go back with YOU.. can YOU please go back with me to this Flower work Shop.. I want to live again.. I want to feel that I am alive again.. I want to breathe again because without YOU.. just look at me at this Point in my Life without YOU.. and as I am looking at the picture.. waiting for the doctor to come into this room.. I am looking at your Picture and speaking to the Picture.. the door Opens but it stops.. I am thinking.. maybe it is another patient who just came into the wrong room and I would open my Mouth.. as I am looking at the picture of YOU.

[@devinjo2318]

The door and when I open the door to that Flower Work shop and WHEN I open to see who it is.. I wanted to smile to see YOU there.. standing there.. just giving me even few seconds of your presences.. just to say I love YOU.. just to say I missed YOU.. or to say welcome back.. because I just can't let YOU GO.. Because I never stopped loving YOU.. even now I love you still.. I been waiting so that I can tell YOU how much I love YOU.. as I look up.. I hear the door closed.. and I am thinking.. this whole time the door was opened.. I wonder who it is who hear me speaking to Your Picture.. I wonder who it is.. and the door Opens.. my hand opens and the picture falls to the ground because it is YOU who is standing by the door.. That YOU are the Doctor.. My Doctor there.. Feeling alone and lonely.. I just wanted to be happy.. be filled with Love and Joy.. YOU came out of nowhere.. and YOU came to surprise me.. But gone like the Wind that I wanted to look for YOU.. I was just too young to do anything back Then.. But when I hit 18 years old.. I did leave that Orphan Home and started to travel Out.. and I started to wonder about YOU.. where can I find YOU.. where would YOU be.. please tell me.. I remember a Flower Shop was hiring.. and the Owner of the Flower shop started to show Me.. How to raise the Seeds and into flowers it became.. teaching me about the soils and water.. how deep to be planted.. and time and hour to water it.. I wanted to be the Best Flower shop in town.. so I would work day and Night until I made my own mark.. I started to look for YOU after.. When I saw Your Picture.. and Knew that YOU are the One.. I wanted you to be the Only One in my life.. so that I can Love YOU.. I can love you More and More.. the way I love these flowers.. watching from the smallest seeds and it grows and produces and Blooms.. the Most Beautiful Flowers are when YOU Love the Flowers from the Heart.. YOU care of its beings to see the Next to produce.. I fell in love with the Flower Shop and these Flowers.. But.. My Heart.. still was missing.. and I knew that I was missing YOU.. I wanted to be with YOU.. My friend would come to check on me.. He saw me very sad.. and Knowing My Heart.. I would speak of YOU.. even though it was years ago.. many years ago.. But I never shared about the Orphan HOME that I met you.. because I just did not want HIM to get involved searching for YOU.. How could I be with YOU.. How can a Lowly Person.. who is so poor and has Nothing in his Life.. How can I ask for YOU.. but ALL I can share is about Love.. just loving YOU.. How much.. I don't know how much.. But as much as I can with ALL my Heart.. that I love YOU.. He told me about a Young lady.. that Young lady is looking for a Man too.. And He told me that YOU were too sad as well.. When I saw Your Picture.. it was something like Are we meant to Be.. I was blown into pieces.. WHEN he took out the picture.. of YOU being YOUNG and YOU recently Picture.. I sat there.. taking a Deep breathe.. MY tears.. It just could Not hold back.. I had to share this Tears of Joy.. How long I wondered.. when will I see YOU again.. It has taken me so Long.. so long to find YOU.. My breathe was taken after.. and I told him about YOU.. the Orphan Home.. When I saw YOU.. I was very YOUNG.. losing my family broke me into pieces.. When I saw YOU.. I knew YOU were the One who can Heal what was broken inside of Me.. I wanted to be a Part of Your Life.. and Just to Love YOU.. I am Not sure why.. or How this Can Happen but it did.. and I looked at my Friend and He was too jaw dropping after.. I told Him.. I wanted to see YOU.. I wanted to meet YOU again.. I can't help but fall in love with YOU again.. because I love YOU.. As I am looking at your Picture in the Work shop.. and just watching YOU go.. and I would ask.. WHY couldn't I stop you from Leaving.. If I know that I can love YOU more.. I should of told YOU Not to leave me.. But to ask YOU to stay.. I can't lose YOU twice.. I have lost YOU once when I was young.. But of course I just couldn't do anything back then.. But Now.. I know that I can't let YOU go.. because I love YOU.. I know that I love YOU more Now then Ever.. I just can't believe YOU walked Out when I had the chance to Stop YOU.. if I truly love YOU.. I know I can do something.. I know that I can tell YOU.. Please don't go.. stay with me inside.. I can make YOU more happier than ever.. I know you be asking.. How can I make YOU more happier.. If YOU love Me.. If Your Own Heart loves Me.. I know YOU have the answers because only Your Heart knows the truth.. if YOU really felt something for me.. and It is Not friendship or brotherly love.. or Not just like me.. Only YOU KNOW what is IN your Heart.. I wrote a Note in the back.. saying I love YOU.. ever since I saw YOU the first Time.. I was truly amazed and truly blown to pieces.. there is something about YOU.. I just can't forget.. because I loved you then.. I love YOU now.. and I will always Love you forever.. I guess YOU have say the Note I wrote on the back.. I walked to the center of the Floor.. I lowered.. putting all the Flowers laid on floor back into the Box.. I put the Lid on the TOP.. I know that someone will come to get the Boxes of Flowers.. as I am holding the Box in my hands.. YOU have always been the One.. I am not sure what made me felt something in my Heart.. I am not sure what it was.. but it was the First time.. I put my hand on my Chest.. I started to hear a Beat.. a Beat that was getting Louder and Louder inside.. telling me.. It must be YOU.. of course.. I know that YOU are so Beautiful.. the Most Beautiful Flower.. even more beautiful than any of these flowers in the Work Shop.. that it is Not only me who loves YOU.. that Another MAN do love you too.. YOU must be truly amazing.. Amazing to be loved.. who does Not want to love YOU anyways.. But.. I never stopped loving YOU.. I started to think about the Friend.. I know he never shares anything.. so this Must be someone so Special.. I know that YOU are truly special.. because I know that My Heart loves YOU.. it does not matter because I know I love YOU.. Please come back.. Please come to this Work Shop.. Come so that I can tell YOU.. how much I love YOU because I just do.. as I put my hand on my Chest.. I can feel my Heart beat.. it is beating fast.. I close both of my eyes.. and I can go back to the TIME when we first met.. YOU are my Angel.. YOU are my Sunshine.. YOU are my everything that a MAN can ask for because YOU are the real deal that NO MAN can ask FOR.. you are just everything.. my forever Love to me.. As I am standing on the Line.. waiting for a Cup of Coffee.. I turn my head to look back.. I see someone sitting on the chair by the Window.. There you were.. sitting down.. having a COFFEE.. and reading a BOOK.. I love YOU.. these are the Only words I can tell YOU.. But.. WHY is is so hard to Love YOU.. I wish that Loving You could be more easier.. but.. It seems like things are getting more harder.. Please tell me that I can Love YOU.. how am I suppose to Love YOU.. when YOU are so Far.. as I am standing in the Line.. I remember another Friend of Mine told me that YOU would be here.. and ALL I could do is Look for YOU.. as I am waiting to get a Cup of Coffee.. I pull Out Your Picture in the back Pocket.. as I am looking at Your Picture.. I am asking.. WHY are YOU so Beautiful.. I have been waiting for a Long time for a Woman Like you to be In my Life.. All my life.. I waited.. and waited until Another Friend of Mine telling me.. If I wanted to meet you.. and Showed me the Picture of YOU.. I was blown into Pieces as he gave me the Picture.. it was like a Month before the Meeting time.. and I would be wondering about YOU.. of course looking at Your picture is the Only thing I can do.. But.. Meeting YOU and being a Part.. it is something that I would never thought would ever happen to me.. I would be laying on the bed.. Just wondering How you would be like when I saw YOU and meeting you face to face.. as person to person.. Just could not get enough of patiently waiting for The Day.. it seems a lot longer when YOU are wondering.. and just pondering the day.. only I could do is look at your Picture.. and wishing for the Day to come sooner.. the clock would tick.. the time on the clock would go by so slow because I wanted to meet YOU much sooner.. the Other friend told me to be patient because No matter how Long I waited.. the Time would come anyways.. of course the Other Friend was right.. Time did come and Now.. I am waiting on this Line.. so many people enjoy drinking a Cup of Coffee.. as I would look around.. I am looking at the Picture of You.. if YOU came.. I would turn my head to look back.. There were YOU.. YOU were by the Window.. and I would LOOK at the Picture of YOU.. and I saw YOU.. reading a Book.. as I was getting closer.. and the person in front of me gets a coffee and the person leaves.. It was My Turn.. and I even got me a Cup of Coffee.. As I turn.. I saw YOU.. by the window.. and YOU were smiling reading a book

[@tsewangstobdan10]

Dami please be my teacher ?

[@hanagreg]

This red brick thing is awful. Sorry! :D

[@leesamia4624]

For the love of wabi sabi and hygge 🙏🙏🙏 Please dont paint the fireplace!!!

[@MrMkd1202]

Anyways isn’t a word. Anyway is a word. Make a note.