How to Feel Emotions | Emotional Numbness & Apathy

[@ASMRconKiki]

I am so happy you made this video, because I have been feeling this sort of emotional blockage for many months now, going back and forth between emotional numbness and pain. Sometimes I even feel like I am turning into ice, but it is something I had never done before. Thank you for talking about this! Hugs from Italy

[@vidprodanovic7370]

I have this for many YEARS and YES IM 13

[@Yolozxm]

@@vidprodanovic7370 how you doing rn :))))))))))?

[@cassiestapp157]

when you were talking about how some people attach themselves to an emotion, like anger and they can destroy their environment around them, is EXACTLY what my boyfriend does. when he gets upset about something he lets it consume him. Do you have any advice on how i could possibly help him with that without it seeming like i am attacking him or talking down to him etc? thank you

[@MultiSuperllama]

I just dont feel emotions. I dont feel closeness or the need to be with people at all. Even for my family i dont feel anything. Its a big problem but i still dont care even though im supposed to.

[@evat267]

Me too

[@Yoroiful]

+MultiSuperllama maybe you're simply a sociopath?

[@MultiSuperllama]

Yoroiful probz

[@Fridasofie]

I can very much relate to this

[@MultiSuperllama]

+bookloaf I'm glad you've said that

[@nyakinyaki647]

My problem is I don't find most things funny. It can be very embarrassing in social situations when others expect some kind of reaction to a joke/funny video from me. Most of the time I have to fake smiling or laughing (I'm bad at fake laughing) because I don't want to seem weird.

[@witchf4ce310]

I'm sometimes very apathetic and it causes problems for me in relationships...

[@baimaarziyyahnakan4078]

yes how do u cope up with relationship

[@pretzalshd2654]

what happens if anger is the only thing you feel, ive been emotinally numb for three years and i dont know why. ive looked back at my past and brought up memorys i really dont want to remember but most of what i feel is anger

[@pretzalshd2654]

I don't know....

[@Supernidyastar78]

Pretzals HD Same here I always turn any feeling, sadness dissappointment, into anger where anger is all I can feel.

[@cinferbear2408]

For me it’s sadness. The only things I feel when I’m emotionally numb is depression.

[@terminallyelleofficial]

You really are mesmerising to watch and listen to. You have helped me understand a lot and I can't thank you enough

[@Danilo-O]

YES, this video was very helpful. it came just in the right moment. I'm so grateful!

[@jjDub331]

I blocked out my emotions because I couldn't tell people no to anything, I thought that they wouldn't like me if I said no. T_T

[@theawakeninglegend3557]

uh, ok?

[@katywonder4227]

jjDub331 Same. It's temporary but when I have to tell someone no, even just like to hanging out, I get so anxious about their response I shut down

[@AlexaAXAG]

jjDub331 Learning to say: NO is like a human obligation. you just need to do it

[@flayabarile7372]

The best advice I received after my wife passed away 4 months ago was to dive into the abyss and let it swallow me. In the loneliness and despair that followed, grief became my friend. She was my constant companion for weeks. She would wrap me up so tightly in her embrace that many times I could scarcely breathe. And she always left me a sobbing mess. And yet, paradoxically, I always felt somewhat better for her touch. She doesn't visit so often now. When she does, it's a welcome surprise.

[@flayabarile7372]

+Flaya Cooper There's been a shift in my emotions lately. I tend now to weep more for her than for me. I'm not talking about beating myself up over anything, like what I could have done to prevent her death. Unexpected deaths are... unexpected. Not much you can do. Or thinking things like, "If I'd known she was about to die", or "If I'd known she was going to die that day". You don't know. And you can't live your life that way. You'd go nuts. And I don't feel guilty that I'm alive, while she died. If it had been me who died, I would not want her to feel guilty either. I'd want her to live her life. And I will live mine. I was happy to delay my MTF transition indefinitely while we were married, since I was truly emotionally fulfilled as a husband. But I still feel sad for her that she died so young (54). Some people don't get to grow old, and that's a sad thing.

[@rexarthurramos1642]

I think it has to go deeper than to just tell yourself to feel those emotions if you've been emotionally numb for so many years. If I told myself that a year ago I would have not felt a thing.

[@NightWillowCrafts]

Thank you for this 💜 I usually hate feeling emotions because I never seem to cope correctly, even happiness has become so foreign. After being bullied and alienated all through school, being numb and hiding emotions was my only way to cope

[@h9964]

I only feel emotions with my best friend, but the moment she’s gone there’s nothing there.

[@annieccc13]

your voice is so calming I wish you were my therapist!

[@rtt1961]

The staircase analogy is great. Is it your own idea?

[@chukakaelo2275]

The thumbnail is what I'm gonna see on tonight's episode of sleep paralysis.

[@tweety1010100]

Thank you so much for making this video. It's helping me a lot and I'm a huge fan of your account. Your account has helped me so much and helped me overcome a lot of things. You and your videos put a new perspective on my life and even helped me avoid killing myself because of all the pain I've felt and was holding on to. You truly helped me so much and I can't thank you enough for everything.

[@frankj7451]

Thank you, I had lived with this for 2 years(12-14) so I eventually got to the point thinking I could be a sociopath or something but I realised that I was emotionally detached. I will tell you that living with this for 2 years brings you to the brink of suicide as I just got sick of my life being boring, I never had a girlfriend as I never felt a connection on a true level of compassion but I'm slowly improving

[@crusadinalldaylong5591]

Frank J I am in the same boat. I am 15 years old and I have been feeling like this since about 10-5 years.

[@emmagornichec5276]

How are you doing now?? I'm 16 and I'm so numb and hopeless

[@yassinlyousfi1671]

How r u guys doing now? Did anything help?

[@kyliemaysa3240]

did you improve now?

[@MonicaRodriguez-eu5em]

Smart video! I understand completely. As you mentioned some of us just "go through the emotions". Which is what I've done the majority of my life due to past abuse both mentally and physically. In short, because this subject is to painful, my mother recently passed due to cancer. I still have yet to mourn because I've "FAKED" my emotions for so long. I just don't know how to express myself. WOW I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU HIT THIS NAIL SMACK DAB ON IT'S HEAD. Again great video!.

[@annebannan9817]

This is greaattt. I know I'm apathetic but I haven't always been this way and I don't know how to get out of it. But this shows a clear pathway, and how to get there. I've felt aimless for a while but I'm gonna try to help myself.

[@jterk2212]

I just wanted to let you know that I love your channel. I found it while looking for videos to help me review for my AP Psychology exam a few years ago, and ended up watching all of your mental health videos in a few days (they're some of the best that I've found out there!). You have a great channel, and a really inspirational story. Thank you so much for sharing it!

[@cayleyshoemaker3048]

I feel nothing at all since my relationship with my ex, I’ve had it for months and I feel as if nothing can help and I will have this forever. I don’t know what to do.

[@cristinamaria1917]

You are so good in everything you do :) keep it up :) love you and your videos :* Hugs from Romania :)))

[@thetwotones232]

She is beautiful she reminds me of that lady with the holloween show forget her name but she is beautiful very pretty

[@thetwotones232]

Yes adams family such beauty

[@samv7501]

Are you thinking of Elvira?

[@thetwotones232]

Sam V yes thats the actual person i was looking for thanks man

[@sonofmenov]

When I was younger I was told I was over emotional and eventually became completely selfed in enveloped after a childhood trauma and ive only been able to express either sadness and apathy or extreme anger ending in self harm Or destruction of property I’m in such a point to where I have no words for my current mood or be able to express what I feel causing relationships to fail and I just feel lost

[@denisaugustoliossi9117]

I felt amusement when I saw you. :) Jist kidding, I research that subject a lot

[@rebeccasteinbach3117]

i have DID, I feel literally nothing... It's like im on autopiolot ever single day.

[@hellokitty5lol709]

I feel emotionless

[@TheJimmyswe150]

Schoolitdown22 hahahahh you dont want to feel emotions? whats the point of living if u dont have emotions, iv been emotionless for over a year now i feel so bad all the time cuz im so empty, only when i feel emotions is when im hangover, and i love all the emotions i can enjoy movies/series and music

[@TheRealness-ys4th]

i thought this was just me but now i see that this isn't unusual I've been feeling num for a long time and i was like really embarrassed to say because people would think i was weird or something but any way thank you

[@sugarcakezz]

i never knew why i was this way...now i do. my mom always called me a heartless bitch haha

[@HippyWitchGal]

My friends and family do not seem to understand why I do not get visibly emotional when there is a death in the family or someone close to me/us has died. I am very in touch with my emotions and typically do not have any trouble expressing them, but my spiritual beliefs allow me to see death in a much different way than those that follow the more common religions/belief systems. I do not see it as an ending and firmly believe the toll of death is primarily on those still living and mourning the loss and that the person who has died is typically in a better place. I have explained this to my family, yet they accuse me of being a cold person.

[@childofforest]

Thank you for the video. I am still learning how to deal with my emotions. My family has been unresponsive to my emotions and neglected them and I have always as a way out chosen to disconnect myself from my family which both led to pain and freedom to feel my emotions again.

[@berritandersen288]

Thank you so much for this video. I adore your way of beeing! Hugs from Norway

[@chanelclipston1557]

this is crazy, ive been feeling numb and i also love your channel :)

[@smeesquatch]

This video really helped me, thank you so much. You look particularly beautiful in this video by the way :)

[@kayleigh1991]

Thanks for this

[@sociallyawkward99]

This helped a lot. I love your videos

[@Maria_Magdalene]

Thank you so much for this video; I've been feeling emotionally numb for as long as I can remember, scared to show emotions, and this has really helped. :)

[@DOPAMINErgic66]

I loved this video! Thank you so much! It really is hard to try to bring feelings and emotion back but i am finally starting to crack the dam

[@ZangelDemon]

This really helped me gain some more insight into how I've been coping with painful emotions. Thank you so much for making this video and helping me along my recovery journey.

[@ivanagoesusa]

The timing is just perfect! Thank you Autumn!!

[@thedenisa4200]

your voice is calming and soothing to me ive been feeling emotionless and stuffs i thank you for making this video

[@makaylasudue3030]

This was extremely helpful thank you 🙏

[@Yolozxm]

How you doing rn

[@Eu2619]

I found 'Morticia'

[@jackhalloween6720]

Bro I just have apathyap·a·thyˈapəTHē/nounlack of interest, enthusiasm, or concern.synonyms:indifference, lack of interest, lack of enthusiasm, lack of concern, unconcern, uninterestedness,unresponsiveness, impassivity, dispassion, lethargy, languor, ennui; rareacedia"widespread apathy among the voters"

[@tink040370]

It seems like you're getting better. Can people be cured of having the different personality disorder?

[@cinferbear2408]

I think the reason why I’m emotionally numb is that I used to feel emotions, but once my realization of how bad my sexual abuse is started to set in and I said something, I felt that everyone was already depressed and didn’t want to worsen things, not only that but the way they reacted to it and dealt with it (emotional abuse and manipulation) made me emotionally numb and the only thing I can feel without effort is depression. Everything else is so fucking taxing and I have to put in so much mental effort and I’m tired of it. I just want to find a way to subconsciously force emotion without putting in effort, like I used to. I don’t want to question it bc I end up doing that and it makes me regress and I don’t want that.

[@Camila-do8ot]

Ive been dealing with this since 2014 i dont know what else to do. I know this happened to me because i felt too much pain and i felt like i couldn't handle it and it was some kind of defence mechanism, I didn't want ro feel anything because i thought the reason why i was so hurt was totally stupid, not valid, a waste of time. I spent so much time pretending not to have feelings, pretending i didnt give a fuck and then apathy appeared. I've tried it all, al therapies available, you name it. For now my emotions come and go, but when they come they're not very intense and when they go i just wish i was dead physically as well cause i already feel like dead inside

[@mlivelostmcs]

I use to let the anger build up very much until i starting rage out n destroy things in my room a long time ago didnt have any type of control I guess it the fact that i always use to keep in and not do something about it but at that time it got to the point when it kept on building up it just got too much so i just let the anger out uncontrollably and it well a good feeling

[@royrogers3133]

I don’t feel emotions. I don’t get sad or happy. It’s just a dull emptiness. But it’s an emptiness that feels comfortable. I don’t like spending time with other people. In fact I need to spend several hours each day alone otherwise I get stressed out.

[@Knossos6969]

My dog has passed away 1 week ago and I diddn't feel nothing. So I watched this video and I still feel nothing but thanks.

[@sychkid]

Momo

[@Verightess]

My parents beat me and also tought my 4 older siblings to beat me when ever I showed emotions, I'm about as numb and internalized as it gets..

[@luisqsk]

This is true 100%. Every emotion can leave the body. You only have to feel it. Sooner or later ir will.

[@vvdv3444]

I think it is hormonal my hormones are screwed from propecia I have lost feelings of excitement and happiness. Low testosterone is known to cause this numbness and apathy. When I injected testosterone I felt the emotions coming back for a week then it was lost.

[@andrielisilien]

I was actually thinking about this a few days ago. I'm working with someone who is what I believe emotionally disturbed and remains closed off like a steel lock. I found her crying once or twice and when I asked what was wrong she immediately stopped and wouldn't speak. I don't want to say the cliche phrases, "Don't cry. It will be alright." Because I know it will not help. All I can think of is to just keeping saying, "'I'm here ready to listen." Your suggestions to not shame emotions I think is what this person needs as she is so withdrawn. It is so hard to watch and my heart breaks at what she may be holding back. Thanks for the video!

[@brandonbro9744]

I got emotionless randomly from weed and I don’t know what to do is this a like brain damage so I need to see a doctor or what

[@kyranl1120]

I don't feel emotions for me I think it's pointless but I do feel one and that's sadness

[@PhrogNZ]

you look like the lead Singer of New Years Day idk her name

[@rebeccazavier7536]

You are very likeable I enjoy hearing your pov and advice Ty

[@ferinecoyote]

Thank you for bringing back Shamanism.

[@rebeccazavier7536]

Agree Dani She's so soothing to watch And calm

[@kyliemaysa3240]

you look like the girl from perfect sisters so much

[@C1schecter101]

You're beauty is intoxicating

[@koobecay]

I always fall asleep at the beginning ;p

[@Shaun_Remington869]

I don't feel at all.i feel pain not emotion

[@epicambie7013]

im 11 and my emotions just went: 👋🏃

[@undrgun]

why you look like that

[@Supernidyastar78]

Thomas t because She wants to.

[@siljabogensberger2738]

Why do you care how She looks like? It is not your buniess.

[@thememe986]

heres a question, recently there have been some rather questionable events 1.an incident with the basement door, it opened about 5 inches and i stared at it for like 10 seconds and then it slammed shut 2. voices started about 2 months ago 3.i seem to always feel as if someone is walking behind me(in public) 4.i have been talking to myself for the past 4 years almost constantly when alone 5.for as long as i can remember i have heard noises when im about to go to bed(footsteps,taps,knocks etc) what does all this mean?

[@Somartvisuals]

evil spirits are tormenting you.

[@waltergreenjr8385]

I get a red face if I cry a lot

[@jetty281]

Thank you sososo much

[@rickfarrell9279]

Ur very attractive

[@notmeirl]

When my grandpa died and I was told I laughed I feel things wrong in a way

[@notmeirl]

Bruh I sound so fucking messed up

[@immaskedrantz3039]

Thank you

[@morisonandoor2023]

Thank you

[@doreenmaclean4953]

Thank you Autumn, for another amazing video. I was also having issues with emotional blockage, and you helped me to understand my emotions in a better way. Thanks for explaining things in such a calm way. l love your soft voice and find you very beautiful.🌹💕🌹Keep up all the goodness, you are doing for all of us. You are an awesome loving person, that also is very inspirational. 🌹💕🌷🌷💕🌹.

[@Aoife505]

Thank you autumn for making this video ✨ you come across so well. I wanted to ask you something, hopefully you will get back to me I have been on the drug roaccutane for about 3 months now , and ever since I started 60mg ( one month in ) I've been feeling quite numb , I don't feel like I am actually where I am sometimes and I try so hard to think happy thoughts but then I start over thinking ! Depression is a side affect of the drug although I don't quite feel depressed. I do feel content most of the time no more no less . Just the same , numb kind of . Also I'm having trouble concentrating I don't know if you know anything about this medication but perhaps you could let me know if you think a drug like this , an overdose of vitamin a with other ingredients could make me feel this way? I don't feel like self harming or ending my life , not even near it . But I just feel a bit crazy . I'm not quite sure of my self anymore If I come off this early and my skin goes bad again which it will my confidence will go down so much again . But please if you know anything about this can you reply any knowledge , thank you so much 💖💖

[@emilyranger6391]

This is actually great timing as I am 15 years old and have experienced no positive feelings or love for anybody for about the last 3 years which I'll be going to a councillor for very soon. Another great video Autumn! :)

[@annaalonova4979]

Its hard not to appreciate how much inner work you do tirelessly. It really shows! Keep up the good work, more people than you know are benefiting from someone doing it so publicly, and not many know how much strength it actually takes. I'm pretty sure you are, at least in some ways, more ahead than you realize.

[@stuartcampbell1680]

wish you stayed near me, we'd be good friends i think, i love what you are trying to do here, i really admire you for coming over to the other side and just being the best that you can be, i am trying to do that myself, i have been through the wringer as they say but now things are getting better, i have been feeling more and more emotion, i basically rediscovered myself after a med change, so i began to research what had happened to me and i am now currently at college studying higher level social care, it is really interesting, i start a placement soon but i think i am ready, my emotions have been my saving grace, i can smile and laugh and show contempt or confusions, i started looking at people and trying my luck (not awkwardly or innapropriate) but you see what i mean, but yeah i'd love if you were my friend :)

[@pamelachard1471]

This video was very helpful. Mum used cruel words and put me down for crying inresponse. She was paranoid about my being emotional as well. That was a lot to be ashamed of. So I finally managed to control myself instead of crying . Although it helped me to deal with Mum in what she saw was a rational way, I have not been able to emotionally relate to anyone since then. It makes sense to undo all that damage.

[@allseeingeye7716]

I listened to this and immediately found relieve for my lack of emotions and apathy. Psych, psychotherapy really doesn't work for me. They reduced my meds.

[@titansenpai1188]

ty

[@karenelisarestrepo7003]

Oh gosh!! was waiting for this video like forever! thank you very much and also your makeup and whole look is badass in this vid ! ^^

[@peachtea4551]

8:20 -ish 😄 you said it so well!! Yes ive experienced that shame is an immediate shutter-downer to my flow of energy, it really helps me to reduce shame first and then to observe and feel emotions that are happening naturally

[@Butterflygirl1871]

Most informative and helpful. I find you so intriguing. I wish I knew you in person.X

[@zpOnhooza]

I been trying to block me feelings for feeling so ashamed of me but not feeling at all scares me so it was helpfull. Love your videos

[@Meow-he1uq]

I don't want to overcome feelings of loss or sadness, sadness is what I want to feel always and resist anything that tries to make me overcome it.

[@mdferreira]

I really like your eyes ... you have a deep look ...sometimes I use to watch your videos just to see your beautiful eyes ..

[@celticcounselling5929]

I really enjoyed this video, Autumn; thank you :)

[@mlivelostmcs]

Now i have some type of control over my anger not all the time sometime it can be uncontrollably but its no near like it was back then but it still work to be done

[@yiravarga]

Your videos are incredibly helpful! Thanks so much!

[@missrissa37]

AUTUMN THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR MAKING THIS VIDEO IVE NEEDED TO KNOW THIS FOR SO LONG 💚💚💚

[@fordcobraboss427]

I would like to able the ability to not feel anything beyond self interest. how can I learn to become emotionally numb to betrayal, emotional hurt, and general interest in another partner.?

[@rnbsteenstar]

That is so not healthy.

[@HorrorDude86]

Join the Republican party?

[@mirandaruth2485]

Are you québecoise? I love your accent and it sounds sort of familiar.

[@EmiliaLecter]

Great video, can totally relate. I love your necklace btw :)

[@gabfreeland6655]

Thanks Autumn, this was such a helpful video 😊

[@imagbaby5]

thank you very much. also your voice is very soothing to listen too

[@HamadaAlzaidi]

thats nice best youtuber ever ihope u play games

[@esterjubileerosesettle4137]

oh bay i can't embrace my feelings it make me look week