How & why I became an addict.

[@alexl2914]

Much love mate. The bosh days were the real switch up I always felt. Will catch up properly one day and shout out the caravan

[@Pyxlmynd]

Hahahaha shout out the caravan!! 😂😂 you must be the only Alex I know that would know about this. I hope you're doing good mate!! "If you blaze then fair plays" ? 😂😂🤣 we will certainly have to catch up one day!!!! I keep on at you about it, bloody ignorant bustard hahaa 🫶🤍

[@eskater147]

Minus the coke, you just explained my life.

[@Pyxlmynd]

I'm sorry about what I'm about to say: but it's nice to hear I'm not the only one 😅 I hope life is kind to you. Or gets a lot better. Better days are inevitable!! Peace! Much love, Sam ✌️🫶

[@KayleighMamaMissus]

Hey Sam! I made it over from tiktok 😊 I'm so here for your recovery! X

[@Pyxlmynd]

Heyy kayleigh!!! Welcome welcome!! Haha yeah tik tok I just can't get on with lol. I appreciate ya 🫶🫶🫶🫶 another day another planet for me today. Uploads are sporadic but usually in the evening sometime x

[@Pyxlmynd]

Also thank you so much for being here 🥰 I really appreciate it! X

[@KayleighMamaMissus]

Happy to be here 😁 be patient with yourself 🫶 one day/planet at a time x

[@Pyxlmynd]

Absolutely 💯 love your support!! 😊😊😊😊

[@backinthedaytoys5634]

Im not sure how I came across your channel but ive been watching a few of your videos, although a little sporadically. If its okay with you id like to make a little video for you, probably walking in the woods too! I wont be posting it on this channel as this for other stuff but once its uploaded ill comment on your newest video linking you too it. All the best!

[@Pyxlmynd]

Aww dude, yeah by all means :) I always appreciate a mention in a video. Haha thank you for your comment. It's honestly so appreciated and yeah you certainly have my permission haha 🥰 have a great week my dude! 🫶🫶🫶

[@derrydude5874]

Good luck on your journey bro 🙏 Love. Peace. Forgiveness. Release.

[@Pyxlmynd]

Ahh dude!! 😊😊🥰😊😊 cheers. I feel the energy!! 🫶🫶🫶🫶

[@timelm8725]

I second that

[@sunshinyday]

Saw the very last clip of you live and just watched it through. Wishing you the best on your new life! You'll make it Sam! Good on ya for trying and getting clean and healthy. You are artistic. Have you thought about working at an art studio or helping kids paint as an aide in school? Those kinds of jobs. ✌️❤️✌️

[@Pyxlmynd]

I'd like that. But I don't know. It's trying to get those jobs. I always wanted to get into teaching to be honest, just like my oldest sister, she's been a teach and I'd like to do that in some form or another. I very much like talking as you can tell and once I got a topic I can go on and on and hopefully teach people one day but that that is good food for though :) I'll see if I can get some teaching volunteering experience 😊😊😊

[@sunshinyday]

@@Pyxlmynd That would be awesome! Go for it! If you become determined you'll make it! Or as I say, "Just do it!" Take care Sam and be good to yourself. ❤️✌️☮️✌️❤️

[@Pyxlmynd]

@sunshinyday always ♥️ you too. Never been more determined in my life!!! 🥰

[@laurenjarrett]

I started smoking weed at 14 too but didn’t stop and still smoking daily 16 years later, crazy really. A therapist told me you need to swap an addiction for something better as everything can become addictive. Through all of the other shit I tried it was the best of the worst for me, I still haven’t found my ‘healthy’ alternative so here we are 😅 hope boomtown was amazing!

[@Pyxlmynd]

Boomtown is too good. But next time I'm only going to do mushrooms. Everything else just erodes your life. And tbh weed is the better alternative than alcohol by far. So at least you're doing good there. Atm I'm getting extremely addicted to KZbin and interacting with you guys. It's so healthy for me rather than all my other vices. I feel like a major shift is happening to me as we speak. I think something crazy is in the works. E.g walking the Jurassic coast with one of my other youtube buddies who is also on ig. So will probably do that in the coming months. I need to start being super active. That's my next addiction haha. I suppose I should see a therapist of some sort but I just want to work through the worst of it on my own. Some sort of ego thing I guess. But yeah everything can be addictive, maybe get addicted to being as healthy as possible. Which will come in due course. I feel like I'm hitting that stage. I've never felt so unhealthy so maybe that can be my "vice" 😂 Thanks, Lauren for your comment. I can actually see your comments now 🥰 have a wonderful week!!! 🫶🫶🫶much love, sam

[@laurenjarrett]

@@Pyxlmynd that is a good plan! To be completely honest I have always used the fear of becoming addicted to exercise as an excuse not to try swapping for the gym or the healthier path because of that comment from the therapist, sometimes therapy is not always a great fit! Another thing that’s stuck with me (not from a therapist😂) is that every drug you’re called to is frequency based to initiate you into that certain energy to learn from it and then to ascend, if you keep going back to certain frequencies they are calling you to finish the lessons 🤷🏼‍♀️ it sounds like you are going through a massive shift especially in that way of thinking! Your transparency through it all is v inspiring, I definitely appreciate it 🙏 again helping more than you could know 🤍 looking forward to seeing you document your adventures!

[@Pyxlmynd]

I really do feel like I'm going through a massive shift. And I'm only just starting to realise that I need to listen to my gut and my heart more and to listen to my body and these frequencies, which do keep calling me back to finish these lessons. So that's what I'm doing. I'm listening, not only to her (the universe) but to my body and trusting in the process. You're completely right, and thank you so much for saying this. It resonated so much with me and has helped me put things into perspective, which will help me and, in turn, hopefully help others. I hope I am helping others, that's the biggest thing for me right now and is all the motivation I need to keep moving forward on this path of trading an addiction for another such as a crazy long walk along the south coast with a buddy and show that counselling may not be for everybody but there are actually other alternatives and as always you're comments mean the absolute world to me, it inspires me and motivates me beyond belief and feel so honoured and glad that you're with me and following me on this journey. I hope one day I can repay the favours that YOU and my other youtube pals have given me. You're an inspiration, and I am so thankful you came across my channel. I wish you all the best and hope to do a meet-up one day in the future and do something awesome. I don't know what yet, but something cool and helpful to this community we're building here. 🥲🫶🤍

[@RedHerringMedia]

I think it's good to look at it like it's an experimental thing, like how powerful are we when we just shed all of these attachments? - That's my thing at the minute!

[@Pyxlmynd]

What a fantastic perspective. I'm gunna take that on board. Thank you so much for this comment. What a cracking comment. Top comment haha 🫶🫶🫶🫶

[@HeatherNokes]

Hi Sam, well done for telling your story. It's a good starting point or ending point, whichever way you look at it. I can relate to a lot of your story, not all of it and more than I can say on here. But I know that scene or I have known that scene. I think that was initially why I was drawn in. Maybe I recognised that stage of life and the people in it. For me it all changed around 28, probably the start of my Saturn return. Coming up to that I was on the slippery slope of trying to keep pace with everyone around me and had started to have panic attacks, when I went out. I couldn't carry on in the same way anymore, basically the writing was on the wall! I started doing a Shiatsu course funnily enough, then I gave up smoking. I was down to 3 rollies a day too at that point. I think the Shiatsu and generally the new kind of healthy outlook and learning that went with that, helped see me through. During this three year course I had my son, he is 25 now. But really I think I was still trying to get my feet back on the ground during all this time. By the time I reached 31 and was coming out of my Saturn return, I was a single parent and had left a lot behind me, although I did miss it and had some excellent times and travels. Anyway, that's enough about me. You have got emotional intelligence, and you're smart. These are really big plus points for you. Plus you have found your flow and your process and yes it's a good one and I'm going to watch you go with it 🙂I had a book open in front of me the first time I watched you, it was about a guy called Day Schildkret and called Morning Altars, a 7-step practice to nourish your spirit through nature, art and ritual. He goes walking in the woods and makes Mandalas on the ground out of leaves and flowers and anything else he can find, google, 'Morning Altars Mandalas in the woods images' and you will see them. I don't know, it felt significant and I had only just thrifted the book that day. Looking forward to hearing more. 🌳✳💚

[@Pyxlmynd]

Aww, Heather! Thank you so much for sharing that. It's really invaluable to me. And I will look into those altar things, that dude that you were reading about sounds like a bit of me. I'll research if now. And thank you for your kind words, as I said in a other comment, I feel like I'm going through I major major shift and I'm gunna do something crazy (in an awesome, positive way) I.e walk the entire jurassic coast with another youtube buddy of mine who is based in Bournemouth. But I'm also going to Google that shiatsu or whatever it was called. I'm on my mobile and can't re read what you said so I'm going by memory haha. But I do love your comments, they fill me with such positivity and love and your support literally means the world to me. Thank you again. Much love, Sam!! Xxx

[@HeatherNokes]

@@Pyxlmynd That's the South West Coast path, that is an idea! I have walked a three day section of it. I had kind of planned to have done it all by now, but it hasn't happened yet! it is awesome. Quite an undertaking. I used to have a little Jack Russel and she came with me. It would undoubtedly be life-changing. There is a great book called The Salt Path, about a couple who walk it and also another one called Five hundred mile walkies about a guy and his dog who do the walk and it is very funny. I need to finish it I'm about one chapter in so far. It will all unravel as you go along, great ideas anyway. x

[@Pyxlmynd]

@HeatherNokes aww that sounds so cool. Yeah I'll want to do the whole thing. For fun, for charity and for entertainment. Should make some fun videos and life changing memories along the way. So starting the training as of last week essentially as I walked 20 miles a day at boomtown and surprisingly, my feet and legs aren't aching much at all considering I was wearing checkered vans the whole way 😂. But yeah som big ideas in the works to keep my mind off alcohol and my other vices, same with this this other dude, he's trying to quit weed and I mentioned the South Coast trail and he's well up for it so I will message him soon and we'll start planning it!! Can't wait, now thar it's in my head and I got time, so yeah, buzzing haha :) 🥰

[@HeatherNokes]

@@Pyxlmynd Some good stuff on the horizon, take each day as it comes. Small steps on a larger path an all that..! 🙂

[@timelm8725]

Well done for doing this video. Day 1 done 👍

[@Pyxlmynd]

Cheers buddy :) yeah this is the start of something new. I'm still going to keep chatting my random topics in the woods but also going to update my thoughts and the hardships of this sobriety mission I'm on. Big things in the works and like you said before, once I'm able to that is, and a I have a bit of credibility and years of experience I wanna do talks and events and work with other addicts that have gone through or going through what I am. You're comments truly are invaluable and I value every one of them!!! 🫶

[@judygoddard3869]

I would nominate alcohol as the single most overrated thing in life.

[@Pyxlmynd]

10000% with you with that statement. I don't understand why its sooooo popularised, I guess because its "legal" everywhere which means everyone (the sheep's lool) think its just fine. It really does get my goat, excuse the partial pun lol. But absolutely with you on that! But nethertheless have a beautiful weekend! 😊🫶🫶 much love, Sam!

[@davidhartland8307]

They will end up saying, you may have a personality disorder.

[@Pyxlmynd]

Can't wait for that, pretty sure the entire world has a major personality disorder 😂